#im really nervous though

[lightnersdream]

i've been thinking about exactly why people portraying one of the other crew members successfully killing Jimmy as a "for what you did to Anya" kind of thing rubs me the wrong way a bit and it's because like..... this is just another form of taking agency away from Anya, in a way. it's kind of framing her as some meek, shivery woman-thing who's entirely at the mercy of the men around her, either to hurt her or save her.

(i understand these are mostly for wish fulfillment on the audience's behalf because everyone would like to see Jimmy pay for his crimes. whether or not this is the intention of the person writing it isn't really relevant, characterization happens with or without intent. i feel like it misses the point by portraying it as an 'ideal ending'.)

because... Anya is a capable person. she takes things into her own hands when she can. it was partially(?) her idea to get into the cargo,

(before he interrupts her.. remember when she interrupted Curly in the dead pixel segment?)

it was her idea to get the code scanner from the cockpit,

it was her idea to get the medication from behind the foam.

(the chance to do these things herself is not given to her.)

she'd been keeping Curly alive for months in a critical state somehow, her psych evaluations at the start are only so useless because Jimmy refuses to take it/her seriously and Curly is obviously biased when he puts it into his own hands. he's known him a long time, like he said. "I'll just put good for that one."

there's not a lot of material to work with because of how the game is framed, but it's there. we are working with two very biased perspectives and neither one lends Anya what she deserves

there's significant changes in how she speaks post- and pre- crash, and depending on who she happens to be talking to. i recommend re-reading her dialogue, because the difference is drastic

she acts the way she does around Jimmy because he has tangibly done horrible things to her, is actively hostile, and physically could not escape him by any means. she can't take away Curly's agency herself, in my eyes. you have to remember that Especially in the post-crash segments of the game, it's entirely from Jimmy's POV, and he obviously does not (and has never) thought very highly of her or treated her with a shred of respect

i've seen a general idea that she can't bear to hurt other people for any reason, but that doesn't really track to me. this is the real point of the post by the way

it seems based on the parts where she says she struggles to give Curly medication. "It just hurts him so much, I can't stand the noise." "It makes me nauseous."

it's not really the same thing as, say, hurting someone in self defense

this sounds like she did want the gun itself. this never felt worded like someone who would refuse to, at very least, threaten Jimmy with a gun, with violence. if she had been given the agency to make that decision on her own. she wasn't though

she still tries to reclaim some of it even as she's denied it

by the end she's still trying to keep that gun out of his hands

i think some people overly soften her, for similar reasons the game itself is trying to comment on. she's not a tender victim who couldn't cause pain to another out of the softness of her soul, she's a person who's had every last bit of agency ripped from her repeatedly until she couldn't take it anymore. that's the point. that's why framing her that way, "needing" someone to save her, is odd to me

she didn't need Curly to save her, she needed him to take responsibility

she didn't want to escalate things, but she's not an idiot. self defense was absolutely on her mind

but who knows im just saying shit *smiles serenely*

[itsonlypolite]

This comic is word for word based off of @pareidolla's post about broken so go check it out!!! One particular paragraph was written so poetically I couldn't get it out of my head so here's a comic inspired from it:

Transcript: A dog will fight you, naturally, but you are stronger, and if it is wise, it will realize resistance is pointless. You can harm a dog as much as you'd like until it learns to do whatever it takes to satisfy and stay your hand. Only then will you reward it, and only then will the dog merely flinch between caresses.

[o-sunny-day]

Im gonna post this here cause it’s not finished…but fun unfinished comic things!!!

had fun experimenting with the paneling and making Caine not encased in one because he has free range n all that

My ep 5 wishes/prediction/context to the comic below!!!

Caine literally said “motivation! thats what my adventures have been missing” SO ANYWHO NOW IM REALLY WORRIED

I think, since its practically confirmed its gonna be a sports theme episode, ep 5 will have a win/lose condition where if you lose then youll have a punishment or somethin and that stress might make Ragatha show a bit of her true colors?? Just an idea!

also if youll notice- the quality sky rockets in the last page THATS CAUSE I STARTED THIS LIKE A MONTH AGO 😭 who knew drawing the same characters over and over in your sketch book would have an effect on your ability!!?!??

speaking of which, take my sillies

[prawns-potion-brews]

Hello Mouthwashing fandom,,,.,

A few weeks ago I was informed by a friend that a Daisuke squishmallow existed, and I knew had to draw them together. and. yes, I bought the squishmallow too, immediately after hearing about it.

(i know hes still rusty in my style; I may redraw this at some point, but I still hope some ppl like it. mrrp)

Heres a more,, recent drawing that i am more proud of, just to add to it. <:)

[starset-sarsaparilla]

fun fact: when i first went to the fort to kill caesar i completely forgot about the bunker. it was a stressful return trip

[schwarzwaldcr]

something i noticed during playthroughs of 2 with friends, is that Scar always seems to have lopsided expressions; one side of his face is 'droopy' so to speak, and the other side has extremely exaggerated emotions. actually it reminds me of some stroke victims. i dont know if it was entirely intentional, but i suppose taking three massive emissions to the face would absolutely be Equivalent+ to having a stroke or three so kudos to Scar not only being alive but completely lopsided in every way, that's some subtle continuity there

as a slightly unrelated sidenote, i am in absolute fits over deg's english dub. that hit me like a ton of lead bricks and i havent gotten back up from laughing so fucking hard.

[earwigconsumer]

Oh the faggot

[sonknuxadow]

went to a comic store today and saw individual issues of idw sonic in person for the first time ever btw . epic win

[pavlov-sdog]

Just saw your post about Demikhov’s dog as a Bell metaphor and I’d love to hear more if you’re up for it

Of course! Bear with me here as im not the best at explaining things, 

In short, the comparison is mostly that Bell as we know them is basically a separate person to whoever they used to be. A manufactured person, but a person nonetheless who was forcefully sewn onto their old self with little to no regard for quality of life. Whoever Bell used to be seems to still be there in some capacity, basically forced into being a host for the new addition. 

Also adding onto comparison the longest living of the two headed dogs (i believe there was around 24 different tries?) lived about a month. Bell themself lived only about a month (estimated a bit if we take off time from when they were captured considering the team probably didn’t result to MKUltra straight away and it probably took a minute for it to really take hold)

Then of course theres also the fact that the experiment was done on dogs and as we know this fandom loves to compare Bell to a dog for many many reasons

[gemapples]

oc concept i've made called happy fever

[dreamsicle262]

if the reading comprehension of some people who do make dead plate text posts is so bad (as i've had at least two people tell me in the tags) then maybe i SHOULD start analyzing every little detail in the game.

[kimmkitsuragi]

WEEEOOOWOOOWOOOEEEE

[abigail]

someone’s donated a vintage (my guess late 60s or 70s) rocking horse and not to be a child but i wanna buy it sooo baaadddd its so cute oh my god .. i have literally no where to put it but i’m obsessed

[acebytaemin]

the way life’s supposed to just be going by as if im not in a constant state of panic regarding taemin tickets

[passionmaterial]

Fairly Oddtober day 26:Tootie

I decided to draw her live action counterpart because I really like her in those actually.

[katiefratie]

Getting Kaylie still......Scanlan is so still coming back and leaving with her