#im pretty sure this is also why i am very drawn to susie in deltarune. lonely skeleton but a blunt teenage girl instead like okayyyy | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

bonetrousledbones · 8 days ago

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Can you tell us your the reasons for why you like Papyrus? (I’m sure you’ve did this before xd, but I always enjoyed rambles about Papyrus. Hope you’re well!)

oh it is 100% his whole loneliness thing. growing up i was a chronic friend group hopper all the way from kindergarten to 8th grade and then by high school that didn't work anymore so i just kinda didn't have any genuine friends for basically that entire 4 years. so hyperfixating so hard on a character who's basically completely centered around that struggle helped me feel a bit less hopeless about it. the funny thing is i think pre-undertale papyrus actually had more friends than i did back then but like its the little things

that's why this fic that i'm gonna plug again hit me so hard tbh. shit sucks when you're trying so so hard to be friendly and engage in other people and then you get to a point where you have to realize they're not at all interested in returning the favor, even if they're not overtly rude about it or anything, they just don't care to get to know you any deeper than surface level convenience and it gets real hard to not let yourself get angsty about it lmao

i do think that while sometimes i wish i hadn't been given such free internet access as a kid i'm still really lucky that i was able to be exposed to undertale when i was. it's such a unapologetically hopeful game that i'm sure it absolutely impacted the way that i think about things today in terms of optimism and the ability to turn bad situations around, and papyrus plays a huuuge part of that entire message. if it weren't for him, i'm honestly not sure if i would've had the drive to keep trying to connect with other people even when it didn't work for so long.

so tl;dr thank you funny little skeleton man for constantly reminding me that making friends is still possible even when your demeanor is frankly weird as fuck. sometimes you just gotta keep truckin until you find your people even if it takes a while

#trousled rambles #emphasis on rambles #ew this is sappy as hell who put this on my blog dont read this ewwwwwwwww #btw now that i'm in college i finally ended up with a group of friends who actually make me feel like they want me around regularly #so it really is possible i promise :> yeah i woulda liked if it happened sooner but i've never had this many friends before in my lifeee #that being said do u know how annoying it was to hear those fuckers thought i was cool in high school but were too scared to talk to me #i was wearing the same 3 black hoodies every day and used to have a keychain with enough charms that could probably be a weapon if needed #i was a LOSER just TALK TO MEEEE #i'm not gonna act like i was nearly as outgoing as papyrus bc i kept to myself a lot especially in my senior year #and that's because papyrus did not cure 12 years of social anxiety/isolation. but at least he helped me be less emo about it yknow #for a while i actually thought The Loneliness didnt effect me as bad as it did him but tbh i was just repressing that shit lmao #man when the 10 year undertale anniversary comes around we're all gonna be destroyed huh. it will definitely kill me #anyway thank u toby fox for showing 11y/o me that things could work out if i just didnt give up. also make papyus the knight pls ok byeee #oh edit one more thing i havent quiiite psychoanalyzed myself or her enough for me to be certain of this yet but #im pretty sure this is also why i am very drawn to susie in deltarune. lonely skeleton but a blunt teenage girl instead like okayyyy

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