#im ok with this being lost in the the tumblr void

[strab3rr]

(long story and no short sorry) GUYSSS I DID ITT

I INDUCED IT!!!!! I WAS PURE AS A FUCKING BABY

IDK WHAT TO SAY (ok enough w capslock)

i have so much to say and not a thing at da same time idk how

anyway i want to begin with thanking you @b4ddprincess bc youre the reason i realized why i started this thing. thank you for making my life better and make me realized what i need to do: nothing. (its same for you guys, all u have to do is nothing)

two fuckn years ago i said to myself that i need a better life, quiter life, less fight with everthing bc everything was so loud and not clear i was feeling lost like a child in the market, and i wanted to make things better for myself in every way, but the main idea of my reasons to wanting to get in the void was: making anxiety go and having better people in my life. but the ''voidlist'' just never stopped bc im kinda greedy(having the idea of controling on your life, the idea of that power makes you greedy. yes thats a thing) anyway the more i add to the list the more i feel like im movin away from my desires then i feel depressed bc ive overcomplicating it bc theres so many things to do but i dont do anything so nothing happend bc i was waiting to be someth happen. and then i started doing awkwardly silly things such as: void routines and challenges and (im embarrassed of this one bc i was too desperate) drinking water

youve read it correct drinking water.

i was sooo desperate for having those things id do anything to get them.

i am simple. i want what everyone wants🎀🎀🎀: shifting realities bc i have so many crush and i need them to be crush me in bed(for 2020 girlies)

being an academic weapon is so easy for me🎀(bc of the urge to make my family proud) +dream collage

being the girl that everyone gets along w(basic needs)

being the girl who is pretty not cute(trauma response)

glowing aura(cats loves people w glowing aura yes thats a thing too)

dream body n hair(bc i deserve this🎀)

healthy (girlyfriend)friends(basic needs)

and of course him, my sp(i cant tell wich one at that time but i releived that its not him now, bc MY BELOVED CURRENT BF. guyss he is the one. dont u dare ask me how you know? i literally manifested him🎀)

then i realized i can have everything bc its my reality so why not add these:

new phone, +macbook air

dream apartment of my own

pinterest closet

lifa app for this reality

financially free-money(a lot. like really a lot)

knowing 4 languages like a native person(bc i want to be diplomat so bad) +sign language(its in general)

a little drama(its not gonna hurt anybody)

my parents being more lovable and away from me

every time i try to get in, either i was failing or falling

and im sick of it, sick of it so much i quit.(for a year)

then i go to the theraphy(ofc no im jk ilove being crazy)

one day i saw a post ss from tumblr about pure consciousness on pinterest and i was like whaat is thiiss. no mention of void so i thougt its a diffrent thing and i download the tumblr again and search everything abt it. and same excitement again after one year same thougts and same list popes up in my head. and i was like ok maybe this time itll happen.

still waiting to be someth happen so nothing happend, it was such a waste of time trying to get in while i was already be, i was already what i want to become. i was that girl that everyone gets along with but i couldnt even see bc i was too focused on wanting to be. but still tried every night and failed. and again tried-failed-quit circle bc.. have you ever met me🎀

4 month ago i saw the girl, iconic blogger and the goddess of my dreams, her @b4ddprincess thx again love u so much

a post pops in my fyp and i see the words ''pure consciousness'' i was like noo not again. and i was serious abt it i wasnt gonna read the whole thing but it attract me n i couldnt resist it so ive read it from the top to the bottom. and she got my interest so i stalked her page from the last and to the first post. it was quiet a beautiful journey for me. lasted like 3 days, the end of the 3rd day i was ''woaw it was this easy all along? u cant be serious.'' she was. i tried one last time, no breathing exercise, no ridiculous routines and no waiting something to be happen. it was just me being real me chilling out asf.

and it was this easy and it should be this easy bc being your 4d self is being nothing also being everything at the same time. if u wanna be everything you should be nothing first(as wizardliz saying: drop the old story, leave the victimhood, for being better stop being bitter etc.)u should make a space for everything first and then u can be everything.

for being 4d self of yours stop being your3dself.

sooo long story (no)short i am writing this from my mac in my new apartment(in middle of the night bc i couldnt sleep and then one tumblr notification reminded me i have a success story to share too) and my phone buzzing two minutes a time bc of my friends while im writing this, so if theres anything wrong ignore it pls.

oh u asking my bf how cute, hes sleepin in my bed now, exhausted from the work n school balance.

YWS SCHOOL!! im in my dream collage and im going to be in paris for a week. i deserve a vacation i guess(its for another conference), i kinda hate french men bc theyre so mansplaning(not like how i imagined, its hard to be friends w them)girls are cute but i feel like theyre aware im not permanent there so we just con buddies still cute and hepful for this foreigner.

and i canceled the lifa app thingy bc i can be my purest consciousness anytime i want, so i am my lifa app.

and thx to 4 languages i make a lot of money and that brings us to the pinterest closet, yesterday i realiased that. theyre not comes to me w an imaginary way like i imagined! i go outside for shopping casually and theyre there luckily i have enough money to buy them.

and my family theyre living in our hometown now so as i want it to be, we are away from eachother.

and the most magical thing: SHIFTING REALITIESSS

i did 5 world before i met w my bf. it was such a wonderful experience. if you have doubts abt shifting you can go fuck urself

because sir i did it and i am very sure that dean winchester being my husband is not a daydream, fantasy nor lucid dreaming. believe it or not he kissed me GOD HE KİSSED ME(someone should stop me i have a bf)

is there anything i missed let me see.. cats i have 2 cats now and theyre adorable. glowing aura-check

the girl who is pretty not cute- check +make anxietygo-checkcheckcheck

dream body and hair- check and check

i wanna give u a info i didnt have all my desires by being my4dself

not directly actually. but i have them all. and thats the point.

im not trying to be a blogger but if you have any question abt anything, id be happy to help

now i need to upgrade things in my farm byeess

loves, siena.

[blossoms-phan]

hi friends! since it’s been 3 months I thought I’d do a little updated about me :p

you can call me blossoms! 🌸 comes from the url obviously which I decided on in seconds when sitting in the middle of my bed making this blog at 3am bc I love dan and phil and cherry blossoms/japan/japhan etc etc

(as a side note I don’t share a lot of personally identifying info on here for a lot of reasons, don’t wanna be found out + professional reasons and tumblr is a great platform for having being a phannie as my main identity but I will occasionally overshare in the tags or random posts. for the most vague details I’m canadian and a poc ig? if you want to be friends or discuss anything in more detail im happy to share in dms just not in the general void lol)

some past fandoms I’ve been a part of tumblr or otherwise: avengers/marvel (this was in the peak in like 2016 and I followed it probably up until 2020 but dgaf anymore soz), marvel’s daredevil (their best show still love it), one direction/harry styles (harry was prob my biggest interest/fandom I was heavily involved in until like 2022 ish, i followed a bunch of accounts on my other blog and fan pages, went to his first solo tour in 2018, basically followed his every move- ik he’s not some underground artist but I lost interest when he kinda boomed and became SUPER popular I miss the early days of his solo era lol but still like his music), criminal minds, I think those are the main ones obv I lurk anytime I have a special interest lol

artists I like: twenty one pilots, arctic monkeys, the 1975, hozier, frank ocean, bad suns, muse, sufjan stevens, lana del rey, wallows, ed sheeran, lorde, zayn/hs/niall horan, paramore, the smiths, 5sos, kendrick lamar, fka twigs, fleetwood mac (this is off the top of my head just main ones ig there’s lots of other artists with specific songs I like and I also listen to my playlists from middle school often with p!atd and fob just the older stuff tho)

fave tv: derry girls, criminal minds, the office, gilmore girls, brooklyn 99, community, freaks and geeks, gossip girl, new girl, the end of the fucking world (short but a personal fave), fleabag, mindhunter- I like basic nbc sitcoms ok what can I say but currently watching Buffy and there’s lots of things on my watchlist like twin peaks I just never have time (aka always watching YouTube/dnp)

i like to think of myself as a cinephile when I really don’t watch as many movies as I’d like to bc of the same reasons listed above but I keep up with what’s happening in the film world and yeah some of my faves include: little women, sing street, before sunrise, aftersun, clueless, call me by your name, the perks of being a wallflower, big hero 6, la la land, zodiac, the social network, scream, the batman, bones and all, knives out, hp/twilight series

random interests: the scream franchise/saw/horror, until dawn (the game), youtube video essays, true crime content/criminology (in the most respectful way I promise I studied it and mean like actual data and researched podcasts not the weirdos that idolize certain people cough cough), perfumes/cosmetics, art, fashion, baking/food in gen, journaling, pinterest, reading (literary fiction/mystery/some ya)

idk what you were expecting this is literally all media but we’re all media consumers here lmao and I thought this might be a fun way to connect with other phannies if we share similar interests outside of dnp :3

[saisons-en-enfer]

I spent an entire week clearing my head and thinking about things. Ultimately I felt really good and had another great therapy session. I’ve been happy so I thought “ok everything is ok now so maybe I should post on tumblr” as soon as I did I just immediately felt drained

I always knew tumblr disturbs my well being in some way but I could never explain what… maybe now I can

Perhaps it’s not wise to spend time on a space I most associate with my darkest time

Perhaps tumblr is just a comfort zone that I no longer find much joy in and instead it feels like a chore

Maybe tumblr is a substitute for the void I feel in my life socially, it’s good but it can never be a replacement of the real thing

Maybe tumblr is holding me back from realizing my full potential as a person; it’s something I always cling to when I could be spending my time actually putting myself out there… maybe it’s denying me actualizing the potential I know I have for my life to be what I want it to be

Maybe I put too much effort into tumblr only to feel (erroneously or not) that I’m not appreciated and seen

Perhaps I care way too much about strangers that I’ve never met and get emotionally attached to people I can never see in my life or never be able to change their circumstances no matter how much I yearn to

Perhaps tumblr much like other social media is a means for comparison and that kind of behaviour is so fucking poisonous to me, hence why deactivating my IG was such a blessing

Maybe I just want something more, something that I’ll never find here and will instead be left burning for it always

My 20’s are coming to an end, I suffered so much and for much of it I genuinely didn’t want to be alive, I’ve changed so fucking much but yet lost all that time anyways so maybe tumblr just naturally frustrates me; it’s furtively indicative of idleness something that I hate

I change so much and perhaps tumblr is the last remnant of cowardice left in my system that I need to remove

I had 3 accs and maybe for this acc im just exhausted with having to post to gain traction and besides im not even followed by half the people I was mutuals with in my old blog before I deleted and im not the type anymore to beg for things

I seriously can go on, it’s just not a good time for me anymore, much like Last.fm and RYM

So I’m going silent indefinitely… I wish I could just delete and move on with tumblr, something I’ve incessantly clung to forever, but unfortunately I do not have support systems in play when shit hits the fan, even though recently I’ve been so much better

But I’ll never forget the people showing me love and affection when I could never show myself any. Now that I can, it’s only right I use that momentum and move forward I want my life to be something I’m proud of it and unfortunately it’s nowhere near what I want it to be

I will just post one more song as an early celebration for New Years, again I suffered so much this year but I can finally say my suffering had purpose im just far more empathetic and compassionate towards myself, and I confessed the truth to myself and accept my nasty behaviours so that I can get rid of the forever

Anyways, see you around :)

[aureusfemme]

hiii, my name is adia i go by she/ her. i made this blog for loa ( LAW OF ASSUMPTION ONLY!! ) i am also here to give & take advice, share success stories and just enjoy and live life to the fullest yk!

sharing my dream/ passions/loves bc why not🤭

sammy ingram~ i loooove sammy ingram sm! i’ve known about loa since middle school but i never really got into it until 2020. i learned about loa from my mom but she wasn’t very serious about it either at the time. i would see angel signs and be like ohh an angel number but never really knew what they meant nor did i really care. in 2020- a few months ago i had SO MANY limited beliefs. i would script and nothing I MEAN NOTHING!!! would ever happen i literally have books full of manifestations that never happened and so i gave up on loa( law of attraction at the time) i believed in having to let go in order to get your manifestations and that was very hard for me so i gave up and even when i did that nothing came. at the end of october this year, i came across manifestion and got really serious about it bc i was going through some shit ok😭. so i knew about sammy ingram since last year but only watched a few of her videos bc i didn’t really care to. i came across her page again in october( i TRULY believe that this was a message from my higher self. i got a youtube notification and it was sammy. i literally forgot all about her i haven’t watched her in a year at the time) i started watching her videos I MEAN BINGING and i got obsessed with her. sammy really really helped me get rid of my limiting beliefs and is also the reason why i’m so serious about manifesting today. she teaches loa ( law of assumption )

affirmations~ as i said in the previous paragraph😭 i used to script and nothing would ever happen. i knew about affs before sammy but i never really used them, and so when i found sammy again i started saying affirmations daily AND GIRL WHEN I TELL YOU MY LIFE CHANGED i started living my best life with the affimations i also did ( and still do sometimes ) honey placebos. i would say “ this honey will help sweeten my day and help me have a good/ wonderful day��� something along the lines of that and they really worked!!

subliminals i only really listen to subliminals from time to time. i’ve known about subliminals since 2020. i came across one on my recommendations on youtube and got obsessed. the only results from subliminals were physical things such as; getting prettier, attention like getting hoes and stuff😭 and boobs. also for some reason in the beginning of 2021 (i think) i wanted to be skinny bc i was a little thick and i listened to subliminals for it but then i changed my mind and a little after i stopped listening i lost A LOT of weight😭 also i was obsessed with getting my boobs smaller and they definitely did get smaller but not as small as i wanted but i had a lot of limited beliefs at the time so that plays a part in why but then i stopped caring and stopped listening.

what im working on atm

void state- i knew about the void and shifting since like 2020. i tried to shift a few times in 2020, got really close but never actually shifted and so i stopped caring. i also haven’t shifted or tried since because i don’t care for it. this year i came across the void again bc of tumblr and decided i wanna do it. so i’ve been working on the void for about a week and a few days now. i’ve been really close to entering each time i tried but i had problems focusing and keeping my body still for a good amount of time. so i decided to take a break. about two days ago i came across @fleurlx ‘s (correct me if im wrong) void challenge. basically in the challenge you pick a date to enter the void and you cannot procrastinate or change the date. then up until the date you picked you say void affimations you can use however many you want but i chose one which is “i enter the void instantly” and if i feel myself being negative or anxious i just tell myself the void is easy because i am the void ( i know that itself is an aff but i don’t say it when i’m affirming ) so i’m affirming robotically ( got that from sammy😜 ) and today is the date i set to enter the void wish me luck lmao ( y’all don’t have to bc imma enter anyway🤭 )

self concept- there’s not really much to this just getting rid of negativity and doubts ( which i have none🤞🏾 ) also confidence, just been telling myself i’m gorgeous with and without makeup and i am the star in any room i stand in plus more but not as much.

that is the end it might be long lmao but if you stayed and read all of this love you boo👩🏾‍❤️‍💋‍👩🏾

looking to build a community of bad bitches and gods/ goddesses ofc!! everyone is welcome to share their stories/ advice and ask for mine.

love, aureusfemme <3

[first-only]

i'll probably regret asking since league of legends is known to be Not Good™ but now i'm curious. how is light and darkness treated in league of legends lore? (i've seen arcane but apart from that i know nothing)

(referring to this post and my tags on it)

ok so to answer this first a glimpse into what even "league of legends lore" is, as in the material principle of it. Best part of the entire ordeal is that literally nobody cares about league lore. The dudebros playing dont even know it, it has no active fandom (in the definition of tumblr/ao3 of 'fandom'), there's little cancelling, barely analysis, it's free. Which is great!! bc the authors took this to mean they can do literally whatever they want without scrutiny (or w very little of it) from either side. And they did good, oh did they do good. There's been gay characters since the beginning. There are /so many/ now. There's a trans character! She is referenced as such in-game and her bio tells her writing process and decisions! there's no drama over that! bc nobody knows despite all that lol. And im actually grateful for league's natural toxic defense systems because even the boom of arcane did not get the toxic fandom culture into scrutinizing and nitpicking. in short, there's like 5 of us who care abt this shit.

now the way league lore is conveyed is infinitely better than any other franchise with similar storytelling (looking at u overwatch). it's compact, the company actually puts it all in one official place, there's no word-of-god-ing whats canon is clear. side projects are easily referenced and accessible. did you know one of the trailers for the card game in the same universe kinda gives a hint as to the future of one of the main arcane charas? you could go look at it! (or ask for a link/explanation id be happy to). now, the way we learn about the universe beyound the explicitly shared things about regions and factions (and oh lord there's /so many/ of those - arcane was set in its specific regions because they were underdeveloped before!! imagine how the others are); is through the characters themselves and their personal lore. everyone has at least one (and usually many more + videos and stuff) short stories that explain their origin, connection to other characters, strives and moral dilemmas and relation to their faction and/or region. so we get to learn from a first-person account and. well. there's 162 characters to date. yeh that's /a lot of lore/.

And there's more!! The skins in the game, and especially the skin lines (ie skins for different champions with the same theme) are /canon/. Well, they're AU, in the sense of "what if this character was from this other faction/region/nation instead?" or "what if X had happened in this universe instead?" but the lore behind them is solid and applicable. So from all this we have learned a few things about the universe:

-The world they live in, Runeterra, is technically a "planet", but the universe itself is /definitely/ not like ours. It's not the kind of space we see in our physics and studies. It's a magical world! It's filled with beasts and mythological concepts, not hard mathematics and logic. Which is to say the 'void' of space is, in fact, a place for magical creatures to live! It's alive! it's livable, no concept of oxygen, it's travellable (with the right technology and/or magic to get there). The stars are little creatures that sometimes get lost or weak and 'fall' to Runeterra! there's a whole ass faction devoted to helping them grow and get back up. There's space dragons and 'gods' (which is a complicated concept in this universe but to abbreviate here lets call them that) that /create/ those lil guys!

Look at them!

those lil beasties ARE the stars! being shepherded! The darkness of the night sky is alive! its full of tiny creatures and scary space dragons and adventure and benevolent or mischievous celestials! (girl with the horn is one of them!)

-There /is/ a concept of the actual Void, which is a different... spacetime? Sure let's go with that. It's all consuming, the threat to all living beings, on Runeterra and beyound. It's looking to eat and consume everything, ever expanding. Some characters dont believe it even exists (its kinda on a cooldown, waking up atm); others devote their lives and turn into villains to protect the world from it. The kicker? Not only is it /alive/ itself, made of undulating flesh, but all its monsters and messengers are grabbing hands looking to grapple and drown the world as we know it inside of themselves. It's True Darkness, alive and breathing and looking to Consume.

-the concept of light is a little bit different. it's treated as good and righteous by some factions and characters, as blinding by others. the biggest fans of it, as it were, are however the nation that looks to purge everything unclean and magical, to subdue mages and any expression of things non-physical. their battlecries are 'for the light' (which is often called out by other charas as /magical itself/ ironically lol), as they slaughter and purge the lives they deem unnecessary, leaving the emptiness magic leaves behind it as a remnant. ofc this isnt as clear cut a moral lesson - the lore loves its ambiguity. an angel splits in two (simplifying lol) to 'righteous justice' (=light, punishment, purging) and 'compassionate justice' (=dark, support, helping humans with what they need so they would be kinder). the star shepherding region itself is split in sun and moon warriors. protectors of supposed invasions, shields of the light that let nothing in. and nighttime secretive warriors who do what they can to improve the lives of the little guys, who want to fill the sky and the earth with (moon)light - reflected and thus gentler, subtler, /fuller/. and the leaders of these factions are lesbian lovers who were sisters in the old lore 👀

and honestly thats not even my fav part of league lore lol. the political intrigue, characters seemingly crafted to suit me personally. there's ninja-likes who move in smoke and darkness to preserve peace, opposed by light-shining spirit walkers who seek complacency, control, subjugation! you know i never thought /too/ much abt the whole way it treats lightness vs darkness apart from the more obvious space and void faction, but damn the more i dig into it, the more obvious it is this seems like an intentional thing. there's a shining sun emperor and his servants literally made of light(ning), who created creatures called Darkin in their hubris, and who are being opposed by underground factions clad in black. damn.

(for the record league lore got a rewritten some years ago - before, the game was actually canon and the characters were competing to win the League of Legends in-lore for an ultimate price. since, the writers have decided that the characters tell stories that cannot be contained in those limits, and have turned the game into just a backdrop [it and most other games in the same universe] for the bigger story they're telling in the background. i did grumble abt the decision at the time, but now i see that it's taking a very interesting path and i love following it)

[kirbyspits]

Korrasami was toxic too but nobody wants to admit that. They didn’t like each other in book 1-3. The only reason why they look so perfect now is because they started dating post-redemption when everyone matured.

*Part 2/2 Asks

If no one talks about it, it’s because nobody wants Korrasami shippers coming after them! Me included!

All jokes aside, I thought Korrasami’s dynamic was fine until I rewatched Book 4. I wouldn’t go as far as to say Korrasami is toxic, just because there’s not much we can actually go on in the show, but I can point out interactions I felt didn’t help strengthen the romantic bond between the girls. 

But before we get into it, Anon, you gave me a lot of books to cover with a statement I’m not sure I agree either with because I need details 😏. I need to know which “like” we’re talking about. Are we talking about liking like friends? Or liking liking, like, like 👀? I have so many thoughts about both, but I’ll summarize and maybe write an analysis later! 

Korra & Asami’s Relationship Development

Book 1: Acquaintances Book 2: A step below acquaintances? I swear they only spoke 3x 😬. Book 3: Friends! Book 4: Up to Interpretation if you watch only watch the show. Crushes if you read the comics.

Bryke’s Choices on Developing Korrasami in Book 4

The Reunion (B4E7):

Let’s start here since the posts I’ve seen in the past covered this fight to call out why they didn’t see the Korrasami ending coming. After Asami reveals that she might be ready to forgive Hiroshi, Korra questions Asami’s judgment. Asami snaps at Korra and then brings up the length of time Korra’s been away.

I get what Bryke was trying to do here. This episode is all about Makorrasami butting heads before making up in the end and getting back into their groove like the good old times. The premise is fantastic. Unfortunately, Asami and Korra don't have your typical Pride & Prejudice banter here. Instead, Asami gets upset, and Korra becomes defensive. Not exactly great for a budding romance. And before you say Korra and Mako fight all the time, yes, they do, and I talk about it in the first Ask. Also noting that Mako and Korra don’t have P&P banter in this episode either, but there is sentiment. 

I actually misinterpreted Asami’s lines. I initially thought she was mad at Korra for being gone, based on Korra’s response:

“It’s not like I planned to be gone that long. I wanted to come back, but I never felt ready until now.” 

I wish the context for this line was a little different. Viewers need to know Korra’s feelings on being away from her friends and Republic City for three years, but it’s a mistake to have her say it as a response to Asami’s anger. The tone does nothing to help bring the girls closer and stir up feels.  

What sucks is Bryke was so close! Asami stating she was worried about Korra is perfect! It shows Asami has been thinking about Korra and, most importantly, that she cares about Korra’s well-being. Great recipes for shipping. Then Bryke ruins the connection by having Asami talk about a sensitive subject. Hiroshi. It has nothing to do with Korra, unlike Mako’s lines when talking with the girls. 

Is Asami’s dialogue problematic tho? Nah, just because Asami was saying she’s no longer naive. I understand why Asami got upset with Korra, and I don’t mind that being the reason why she snapped. However, red flags start waving when Asami throws Korra being gone to her face. That was completely unfair and makes Asami unlikable in this instance. You know how hard it is to not like Asami?!

If the goal was to mention how Korra didn’t feel ready and needed the three years, give Korra the agency to talk about. All the sentiment that was just built up a minute ago is now gone. Instead of longing, there’s anger, which makes my ships sink.

The Last Stand (B4E13):

I don’t mind Korra feeling guilty about being gone for so long. That’s fine and natural. I do mind it when the narrative leads me to believe Asami makes her feel guilty about it. I also mind that this happens two minutes before the end of the episode. My question is, why the apology? Why make the choice to have Korra feel guilty for taking the time she needed to heal with Asami? 

I don’t recall Korra apologizing to anyone else for the time she spent healing and I read it as an understanding that she never felt the need to. Why end a show with Korra, who pretty much suffered every type of abuse, carry this guilt with her? Especially when she’s around her future lover? Then Asami mentions her father, and I know Bryke meant well, having Asami emphasize Korra did nothing wrong, but it’s noted that Korra apologizes again for Hiroshi’s death. 

Now I have no qualms with the second apology. It’s a natural response, and it was about time the show addressed it. However, we now have too many instances of Korra looking sad and feeling guilty around Asami. I didn’t mention Rememberances because we’re talking about toxicity and the dialogue in that episode is fine. But when we pull in Korra and Asami’s lines from that episode, in which a sweet conversation spirals into Asami struggling to comfort Korra as she reveals her insecurities and concerns, it can overshadow the instances of happiness Korra feels when she’s with Asami. I don’t want a depressed insecure lover. I want lovers that inspire one another and look up to each other. That’s just not something we see a lot of in Korra & Asami in Book 4. 

Now let’s backtrack real quick to Korra and Asami’s Relationship Overview. I said Book 4 is up for interpretation if you don’t read the comics. Why? Because the comics state when Korra and Asami develop feelings for each other, which is in-between seasons. We have no way of knowing that in the show, so it’s up to the viewer to find enough context to know when Korra and Asami develop romantic feelings for each other. 

The narrative that makes the most sense and is more satisfying for the few lines in Book 4 that seem out of place, like Korra apologizing to Asami, is when I picture the girls already going out. I actually see them together at the start of Book 3, if I’m trying to be canon-compliant for the show (yeah, Korra moved on real quick 😭). Picturing the girls together makes Korra’s sadness and guilt less concerning because it adds on a complicated layer. She needed to heal, and in the process of healing, she cut ties with everyone, including her girlfriend. It’s understandable why Korra did it, but now I can empathize with both Korra and Asami instead of just being confused why Korra thinks she did something wrong.

The Perfect Relationship

Lol, they’re canon, so it’s not like they can not work out and break up. They’re also the first LGBT+ couple featured on a major television network. Bryke cannot mess up their relationship and treat it like Makorra or any other relationships that had issues. It would be beyond insulting because there’s so little representation. So I think they deserve to have a perfect relationship. To me, it’s in the same realm as Kataang, so even if Korra and Asami continue to fight, it’s going to work out and be handled maturely. Not just because they’re older and more mature, but because they’re canon, and Bryke can’t break from that.  

[korasonata]

So, the original plan was to do these quotes until Joe and Cleo finished their models, which was half accomplished during this stream (yay Cleo!). Question is should I still continue these after Joe has finished his model, or have we had enough now? Favourite moments of Joe and Cleo model stream part 7! Link to the video is below and time stamps are above each set of quotes!

Link: https://m.twitch.tv/videos/1155955572

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00:32:05

Joe: This is our weekly paper craft stream. I’m joined today by ZombieCleo, who you can find at—

Cleo: Hiiiiiiiiii!!!

Joe: — twitch.tv/zombiecleo. You don’t need to type the “hi” in the middle. Although it is adorable, and so I wouldn’t blame you.

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00:56:25

Cleo (in response to someone saying they like Hershey’s chocolate): I mean you can like the chocolate. It’s ok to be wrong. It’s fine. You know, you can—

Joe: A certain amount of the other person being wrong is to be expected in any relationship.

Cleo: Yeah! Look at my relationship with you, Joe.

Joe: Yeah, I mean we’re— we’re off the charts for that.

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01:01:15

Joe (changing into his chroma green tank top): We can’t have people seeing my torso.

Cleo: Oh you know, yeah you— you are a cryptid.

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01:02:04

Joe (doing a face camera expansion): these chains I’ve forged in life are about to begin pulling me down to the deep below! Enter the Jhoooooooost!

Cleo: Can I just point out that “life” was very southern. At that point. (Heavy southern accent) Life.

Joe (heavy southern accent): Life.

Cleo: Laaaaaffe

Joe: Liiiiife *both laughing* These chains I’ve forged in—

Both: laaaaffe!!

Joe (heavy twang): Pullin’ me daaan to the deep behlooow!

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01:07:16

Cleo (in response to Joe having a laughing fit): And that is one of the rare times where Joe has a complete, absolute giggle fit on stream

Joe (still laughing): Ok I’m sorry, but “puritans go home” is the best thing to put on anything worth— ok im gonna start making a— ok. (Serious) Im gonna start making an actual checklist cause, um, (actually writing down a checklist of things he’s taking to his parents for thanksgiving) ok thanks—giving twenty twenty—one. Ok so, salad cream.

Cleo: *wheezing*

Joe (reading list): “Puritans go Home” icing on pie…Um, you know let’s just throw iron brew in there. Why not! Irn-Bru and vodka!

Cleo (laughing): Sure! Why not!

Joe: Yeah. Well, so, my maternal grandmother was Scottish and—

Cleo: oh I’m sorry.

Joe: —so I think my mom would get a kick out of Irn-Bru. As like “oh! Here’s something from the old country!”

Cleo: *physically wheezing* from the old country!

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01:29:43

Joe: Oh, it’s really fun. Did you know that a bunch of people on Tumblr care a lot about how tall each of us are?

Cleo: Yeah. Yeah.

Joe: Yeah, oh man I’ve been spreading information and taking weird height pictures with people at conventions for years. It’s like— *Cleo laughing* I’ll intentionally like stand on things or like, uh, or like stand in such a way that you can’t tell I’m crouching, so people are like “Ok, so Joe’s like taller than Bdubs but shorter than, uh, like— Stress or something. It’s like how does that happen?!” *trying not to laugh* Because I’m screwing with you.

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01:31:11

Joe: See that’s the thing is— is sometimes people think things are about power. I think they’re just about being obnoxious.

Cleo: I mean, you think most things are about being obnoxious which is why it’s a power move for you. Cause being obnoxious is your power move. It’s where you’ve got the most power, Joe.

Joe: Hm, that makes sense.

Cleo: Sometimes I do. I try not to when I’m with you, because— it’s easier.

Joe: Yeah. You don’t wanna give me any actual like workab— or usable intelligence.

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01:42:47

Joe (reading chat): I’ve been on Hermitcraft since season one— yeah. That was only like 10 years ago though.

Cleo: I’ve been on Hermitcraft since season 2.

Joe: Yay Cleo!

Cleo: Which was only because Joe asked me to come on, or pu— vouched for me.

Joe (genuine): Well I am glad you joined.

Cleo: I mean I was— I was at the point where I was just like “is this what I wanna do for the rest of my life? Should I just go full ham into teaching?” And, uh, then you made that offer and I thought “well, I’ll see how it goes”. And it did quite well for me. So…you know.

Joe (quietly): I am so glad

Cleo: You are the reason why I’m still doing Minecraft content.

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01:44:19

Joe (reading chat): Attasked says “Only you can judge whether you’re hot” no plenty of people can tell I’m hot, Graved. It’s— pretty blatantly obvious. You don’t— you don’t have to be good at judging to be able to tell. Like, that’s not an only me thing.

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02:00:54

Cleo: You ever have those moments where you’re just questioning your choices in life?

Joe: *having a breakdown* Moments!

Cleo: *cackling*

Joe (through tears): I’m sorry, you’re just the best Cleo.

Cleo: *laughing, but genuine* Awe, I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to depress you today!

Joe: No it’s— *inaudible sobbing* Today—

Cleo: *dying*

Joe (quietly to himself): Is this is frame? Sorry, I was cutting this out of frame. My bad.

Cleo (still laughing): I like how everyone’s just sort of gone quiet and gone “…is Joe ok?”

Joe: nOO!!!

Cleo: We’ve established that Joe is not ok.

Joe: But I’m really good at it!

Cleo: *spitting out her drink*

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01:49:52

Joe: Let’s go down the Mississippi, Cleo.

Cleo: I mean, that I think we could probably do. Let’s go down the Mississippi, Joe.

Joe: yay!

Cleo: On a flimsy raft.

Joe: Yeah, we can actually— there’s a lot nicer boats now though. Like—

Cleo: I mean— yeah, but do we— do— you know…it’s the Huckleberry Finn experience.

Joe: I mean, here’s the thing, is if you actually came here and I was like “Cleo, let’s go to the Mississippi River and go down the river a few miles”. I think you’d be more likely to actually say yes if I had an actual boat lined up than if I had a flimsy raft.

Cleo (excited): If it— if it— if it makes you feel better, I— I would do the flimsy raft. Like, hands down. It seems more fun.

Joe (realizing that she’s serious): I— you say that, but I don’t think you’ve seen the Mississippi River. Like, the problem is it’s full of these giant barges these days, the wakes of which would just throw your raft over.

Cleo (dead serious): I can swim.

Joe (attempting to compromise, completely lost as to how he has somehow managed to be the voice of reason): Ok…Alternatively we can go down a smaller river…In a raft…

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02:04:43

Joe: Sorry, I’ll stop monologuing. Uh, but yeah sorry I was in the process of—

Cleo: I’LL STOP MONOLOGUING! Yeah, yeah that’s gonna happen.

Joe: yeah, I’ll- I’ll say I’m gonna stop monologuing and I’ll warn you that-

Cleo: And then he just continues

Joe: -that Cleo you should probably be ready to start talking sometime in the next 8-12 minutes.

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02:15:26

Joe: Oh, I need to get a green screen suit jacket. Um, I realized. Cause I got the green screen, um, uh dress shirt. That I wear under existing suits, but I don’t have an actual like green screen suit.

Cleo: I— I am always amused by your definition of “need”

Joe: My definition of what?

Cleo: Need.

Joe: Need.

Cleo: I need a green suit.

Joe: Ok, I’m sorry Cleo, the people need me to get a green suit.

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02:30:23

Cleo (reading chat): “Joe-Getters and Go-Getters” yeah, Joe’s not a Go-Getter, he’s a Joe-Getter. Which is infinitely worse.

Joe: You say being a Joe-Getter is infinitely worse, but you also frequently lament that you get me. So, maybe you’re a Joe-Getter. Have you considered that?

Cleo: I am a Joe-Getter. I do get you, Joe. Which is terrible. It’s— It’s a trauma, actually Joe, I’ll have you know.

Joe: Yeah, comprehend me and despair, Cleo.

Cleo: I looked too deep into the abyss. The Joe-byss, sorry.

Joe: Thank you, yeah we’ve got a brand. Always be branding.

Cleo: *giggling* A.B.B. - Always Be Branding.

Joe: That’s not an infinite void of despair. That’s an infinite void of—

Both: Joe’s despair.

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02:34:31

Joe: Let’s just leave it at don’t push me off a roof. Like *laughing* I feel like anything I could add to that would undermine the overall theme of just encouraging people to not do that.

Cleo: Um, let me put it like this. I always had the capacity. Always. But! I never acted on it, Joe.

Joe: Mhm, yeah thank you.

Cleo: …yet…I’ll try not to.

Joe: Yeah. And— and also keep in mind Cleo, I mean, given, you know, how well we’ve managed to work together over the last decade. Even if you did push me or throw me off a roof. *grinning* What makes you think that you’re not coming with me?

Cleo (slightly proud): That felt like a threat. It felt like a threat. I’m not gonna lie.

Joe (through giggles): Yeah, that was the, like— I spent 90 seconds figuring out how to revise that so is it was not blatantly like a violent threat.

Cleo: I mean…yeah, I think— I think— I think between the tw— it— it’s a mutual aggression pact at this point.

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02:51:53

Cleo (holding up seemingly two identical pictures of turret towers): Am I— am I going actually insane? Are they not…the same turret?

Joe (examining pages on screen): …y—you know there might be…subtle differences that, uh, a— you know, skilled crafts person would find unavoidably blatant. Um…I make no such claim Cleo.

Cleo: Good, because, you know…trauma…Yours, not mine.

Joe: *laughing* yeah I was gonna say. Trauma as a verb. I’m just gonna trauma you.

Cleo: *laughing* I’m gonna trauma you so hard right now.

Joe: Yeah, if you don’t calm down and agree with me.

Cleo: If you don’t agree with me, that’s— that’s your mistake.

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03:38:48

Cleo (about authors): just be careful who you like and just recognize the faults in any media that you do like. Just don’t imagine that everything’s perfect, because it’s not. Just be open to the fact it’s not perfect.

Joe: The only perfect media is YouTube videos produced by ZombieCleo.

Cleo: Fact.

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04:00:34

(Having finished her model)

Cleo (tiredly): No booshes. No booshes. I know it’s got places for booshes, but I don’t want to do booshes because…there’s a limit.

Joe (currently in the United States): Yeah. Well, now you can come over here and help me Cleo, is what chat’s saying.

Cleo: Ok.

Joe: Go help Joe hold this stuff he can’t glue.

Cleo (Currently in England): Hang on, hang on. *rummaging on desk* What do you need? I’ve got lots of things, what do you need?

[scolopendreverie]

(hope its ok if ill keep replying to ur post through asks so i wouldnt make the original post way too long with my reblogs but do let me know in case its better for me to just reply with a reblog! sorry am still a huge noob to tumblr lol)

this is actually such a good point with rime slowly coming up with an idea to use necromancy to bring Fe back as a second chance omg, i really like it. i keep thinking about how rime and felix always have been two big opposites yet the same at once, rime being a healer and working with the living to prevent them from dying, vs. felix who is working with the dead, toying around with the death itself, and trying to bring them back to life.

i wanna know if they had an argument about such things before or not (whether or not its ethical in their opinions), considering how rime said that felix robbed him off a peaceful afterlife, and he looked really down about it. i think that this line (besides letting us know that rime had no other choice but to be forced to serve the Shadow Lord in the void) is kind of a reference to rime still holding his religious beliefs a little, maybe? we don’t know what religion is like in the last legacy world still unfortunately, whether or not they have concepts of hell and heaven, so we can only make guesses so far, but i think that this is not as much as about people deserving a second chance at life, as respecting death? by that i mean rime believing that if someone dies, it’s not up to anyone to decide what happens next to them, other than their gods, perhaps, so that’s why he was always so hesitant about the idea of necromancy, as he believed that it would mean to go against their gods’ will. (assuming that rime didn’t like necromancy and speculating that this is what their religious beliefs are about. god i REALLY want to see rime & felix starsworn days together so bad, i wanna know what their dynamic before was like ugh!!!).

i feel like with this theory, for rime to decide that he has to try to bring felix back despite his firm beliefs on death, would also be a really huge step in his character progression and a very interesting inner conflict too. rime has to choose between felix and between his faith, and he has to find a way to bring back felix that wouldn’t force him to completely abandon his beliefs or go against them (contributing to his already emotional and mental turmoil). also i just love love love with how rime will slowly come to understand Felix’ perspective on necromancy too, he would probably also feel so bad that he finally gives it more thought only after he lost Fe.

also i really like how they’re both so different with the way they cope with grief, because i also am 100% sure that rime wouldn’t isolate himself from the rest of the world like felix did, because i imagine that since everyone were talking about rime being a great captain and a great leader, he must’ve been raised in a very strict family that was taking their duties very seriously, and would teach him the importance of being selfless and putting others before himself. so rime would probably just entertain the idea of isolation, but he still would force himself to go out there and interact with others, and making sure that the life goes on for everyone else, because if he failed as a healer, he can’t let himself fail any more as a captain, he has to keep going on, he has to keep living for others, he got obligations he can’t neglect, and busying himself with the presence of other people and work helps him to empty his mind for a while.

also imagine rime somehow finding out that felix first died when he was a little kid (idk if he found out about this from the lord of shadows or not in canon, but im assuming that this was the case?), how the shadow lord brought him back, and how the shadow lord took him away, as if felix was never supposed to live a long life, how he was a given second chance, and yet it wasn’t enough anyway. its such a cruel irony. and its almost as if felix was always cursed by the shadow lord from the very beginning, considering how escell only ever rose on top because of the deal he made with the shadow lord, as if felix’ life always belonged to him, and so rime wants to make it right this time and to make sure that felix is fully free and fully happy :(

he definitely wouldn’t be surprised to see fe being a little deranged, he would’ve prepared himself for any outcome for sure. now this makes me wonder what felix would feel about rime after he would be brought back, would he blame him like escell too? what would he be angry at rime for, hmmm

Sending more asks is perfectly fine!! You can also add a readmore on posts by putting :readmore: on its own line as well if you want to do that.

And the aspect of his religion adding a layer of conflict is a really neat take I didn't think of!! I don't know that they ever full on argued over necromancy, but I'm sure Rime likely had to (or tried to) reign Felix back when he felt he was going a little far, and just was more gentle about it.

And the part about discovering Felix's childhood death and how it would make him feel. Harmed me :) ow. <3 but God thats actually such a good point. It really is fucked up isn't it.

As for Resurrected Felix's opinions on Rime, I don't think he'd be very mad at him at all- he is after all coming from a very different angle than canon Felix did for Rime. Maybe once he gets a better hold of himself he'd feel bittersweet about it, how he would've rather never been brought back at all, but understanding it as a labor of love. And while still unhinged I think he'd be too preoccupied with the obsession to violently & forcefully claw back what little shambles of his life remain to consider his state was as a result of Rime's actions (he kind of 'idolizes' him too much to blame him, and honestly probably just sees this as another example of how he's seemingly cursed to know nothing but tragedy- something he feels inherent to himself).

One possibility that does come to mind is if, under the stress and frustration of trying to protect MC and stay calm and reel in Felix, he snaps a little at him-- nothing cruel or anything, completely justified for the circumstances, but Felix is... a sensitive case (dealing with him at this point is like diffusing the most complicated bomb), and now you've just made him think you actually Hate Him :)). It could definitely set him off. Idk if angry is the right word but UPSET definitely is, maybe a little bit of resentment as he convinces himself Rime is lying to him.

Great opportunity for this to be when he snaps and Rime takes the blow for MC, too. Rime would've probably had a split second where he would've been able to see that was what was about to happen and immediately regretted his words.

[elle-smells]

Listen even though we all know Im obviously the edgiest bitch on this site, I’m gonna get a little sentimental for a sec. This year has been a train wreck but you were part of the reason why it was bearable

@suburbanenigma carmen we were mutuals for like 5 minutes and we were sending memes and being chaotic ksjdjsksks bro I can't believe I've only known you for less than 2 months. You literally listen to every single one of my breakdowns and I love seeing your crack posts on my dash. Thank you for being the edgy energy I need 😌❤️ I love you bitch 🐔(thanks CL)

@lesbeanfatou bitch I remember at the start of the year I kept wondering who this person was that was liking all my posts and it turns out it was a one direction obssesed girl that would become my favourite Les🐝an with the best memes on the internet skdnskdns (you were like my first mutual I think) Anygay- I love you bitch and I hope we get to share more tipsy stories in 2021 (drink responsibly kids)

@kieumyfatous SAMMM I LOVE YOU AND OUR LOVE FOR MUSICALS. Josie and Penny are canon in our hearts 😌💓. You're literally a drop of sunshine and fuck timezones bcs I don't get to see you as often but when I do it's the best time and I love you.

@helmtaryn Aurore thanks for caring about my sleep schedule and my eyesight skskdjdjdjdj dude being your diary is so much fun skdndndn your GIFs are so creative also fuck Skam fr colouring and Photoshop 😌😌you also listen to every one of shit posts and I love you for it ❤️

And here's to every other mutual in the tiktok skdnsks

@cr1spyy Fernanda I wanna be you when I grow up no joke you're awesome ksnddjk (ps sorry you have to deal with Skam on your dash skdndj) // @alexiaugustin Viv your hot takes are the best things on these site, istg everytime I'm 👁️👄👁️ // @sassy-sara bro you're always here and it's such a fun time I love it // @robbesdriesen seriously your fics were one of my favourite parts of 2020 (the talent-) thanks :) // @engelkeijsers mareee bro honestly you fill my dash with joy // @sundaymorninghangover I just see your posts and go "same" and it's amazing // @feeling-kinda-so-so ok I know you're leaving and I'm :((( but still thank you for making my dash a great place to be in <3 // @theflowerisblue we don't really talk but I appreciate you and your posts anyway :) // @ghosttotheparty and @earthling-isa same thing as the previous one, I really do appreciate any interactions we've had <3

Edit: @wilsonsmercer ok OK I SCREENSHOTED YOUR TUMBLR, it was in my camera roll but then I must've lost it bcs it's not in the tiktok but anyways, I'M SORRY, thank you to you too for providing amazing content and for being absolutely amazing Ily ❤️

And Honestly so many more ppl that I'm probably forgetting and sorry if I did but this blog and you have made this year so much better you have no idea. Thanks for listening to me scream into the void that is Tumblr, I don't even remember what I did with my emotions before this blog skdjdkdjdb but anygay- Let's hope for more character development in 2021 😌✌️

[kabutone]

excuse me for being sappy for a moment but

do u ever just remember that u do not exist in a void? like, i think about other people ALL the time, people i havent talked to in years even, they cross my mind nearly every day. and im looking thru old playlists rn and im just remembering that like Wow Huh these were the years that kinda formed my personality and it was so heavily impacted by the people that were around me. IN A GOOD WAY 

like, ok, i had a friend who doesn't have tumblr anymore cause she deleted it but i LOVED her ocs so so much and i listened to ALL of three cheers for sweet revenge bc my favorite one of her ocs rly liked it and i wanted to make Memes about it but like, then mcr became one of my favorite bands ever, i learned guitar through mcr and now im in a band and writing music and my twitter got deleted so i lost contact with her bc she didn't let me follow her again on her new account (she has a private account) so like we don't even talk anymore and we have no way TO talk anymore and she probably has no idea that when i was 15 she kind of changed my Whole musical experience. littol things. there are tiny things that i still associate w some of those ocs and i THINK about them a lot and like? thats so fucking wild bro

but anyway. people leave a lasting impact on you nd thats so fucking wild to think about and like, i am also a whole ass person too, i ALSO affect the world around me and maybe people i’ve lost touch with think of me from time to time too and maybe i’ve made changes in peoples lives that evolved and changed who they are ToDay because of that yknow what im saying. 

[lemonietrinket]

Lol I saw ur post about being told to write and this is my first ever time sending someone something on tumblr but I love ur work!! Like the way u write is really great I can’t explain it but it’s just so nice to read. i think the nct camping multiple choice story is really great and can’t wait for it to be updated haha😸

thank you so much anon!! this actually helps me so much 🥺🥺🥺

i struggle to hold myself accountable so much (like, i know this bitch too well to know full well she wont do shit to truly hold herself to a productive account 😂) so being reminded by another person really makes a lot of difference !

as for my writing style, are you by chance thinking of the words melodramatic or excessive bc if you are, damn i 100% agree lmaooo

for real though, tysm for reminding me that my work doesnt just enter a void!! i forget that a lot :(( been having a lot of epiphanies lately with my madd and blog in general 😔

as a change of pace i think i will actually try and edit some of the camping series tonight! ill need to read what ive done so far tho bc ive forgotten and since i lost my notes ive gotta try to build what was going to happen again 😣

but yall have been patiently waiting for so long and yall deserve content since i did promise it to you, so this bitch is going to get her shit together soon, very soon

(to the two anons who requested seonghwa & pili i promise both will come soon! ive been trying to catch up but i have a habit of starting too many new projects and never finishing them so my sincerest apologies—i will try my absolute best to get them done by the end of the week!)

overall, really, truly thank you for supporting me—and that goes to everyone who reads my stuff! i have no idea if this is fast or not but ive reached over 330 followers literally a month and a half or so (iirc) before my 1 year anniversary for this blog and—you know even if that is slow, idc! i feel i should be proud of amassing followers at all 😂 i was so scared that this would prove that i wasnt as good of a writer as i hoped i was, but you know what, i think this proves it was just paranoia.

i think i need to stop forgetting just how much ive managed to do, and how far ive come, and that i would be understanding towards someone who struggled with creating so of course you would be too!

which reminds me i need to finish part 2 of the doyoung cafe piece as the 300 followers celebration too hahaaaa... why do i do this

anyway im going to stop before i get all sappy 😂 ive already rambled too much

thank you all for putting up with my scattered productivity, and i hope that i can keep making people happy and entertain in the future, as well as fill up their tastes for dramatic flair i mean come on we all want to read something that takes description too seriously sometimes right? ...right?

ok i will spare you all and actually get productive pray for me

peace

lemonie

:)

[strawberrychocletysundae]

ii wrote a little ship thing for charlson! It’s much better to read it on my ao3(link in the about) because tumblr is being a fuck and won’t let it be seen so technically im posting this again. Anyway, I hope you all like it! And please be sure to leave constructive criticism if you have any!

Hm.

The smell from the flowers is so sweet, it almost caught him off guard when he walked into the shop. Gosh, hopefully his allergies won’t start up. He would hate to look like such a sneezing mess in public.

The shop reminded Wilson of a little cabin, homey and bit nostalgic with the jazz music that played through the shop’s speakers. Flowers of all sorts of beautiful arrangements filled the wooden stands. Some were even in little pots, hanging on the ceiling. As elaborate as the arrangements were, he was just trying to look for a simple flower that would light up his apartment. Maybe that pink camellia over there? Oh but the price… He’ll have to look for something cheaper. That lilac has such a wonderful magenta hue! It would look great on the kitchen table! Ok but that forget-me-not is also pretty nice too-

Argh! How indecisive can he be?! And all of this for a flower? Wilson frustratingly tapped his foot to the rhythm of the music. Those valerians are super pretty… And those daffodils would make a good combination with it- Wait can’t he just pick those from the ground? He doesn’t have to pay for something that he can get for free.

It wasn’t long until his attention turned to an interesting arrangement of roses. He wasn’t sure why, but it captivated him. Could it be how they layered onto each other? Or the lovely colors? The red circling the yellow, kissed with the tiniest hint of the ruby color. And to top it off, a single lavender rose right in the middle. He quietly eyed it; a sense of longing filled his mind.

… She would have loved this.

Lost in thought, he didn’t notice the giant blue vase heading towards him. Wilson… The vase is getting closer… Oh god, he’s too distracted… OH GOD WILSON-

The vase collided onto his back, the force sending him down on the ground. “Oh gosh, I’m really sorry!” The speaker behind the vase quickly set it down near an empty table. “I didn’t mean to bump into you!”

That voice… It’s… Familiar. “No no, it’s quite alright. I wasn’t paying attention and didn’t see you were coming” he awkwardly laughed while avoiding their gaze. Gosh this so embarrassing

“Here, let me help you up” the person offered their hand. Wilson grabbed it and was pulled back up.

“Thank you for that. Sorry for-“ he side-eyed the person. Wait. He did a massive double-take and his eyes widened. Oh my god, same face, same voice. “C-Charlie?” his voice was breathless, completely shocked at the sight before him.

“Wilson?”

“I-I-I” is this real? Could this really be his Charlie? Oh won’t someone pinch him he must be dreaming! Wilson nodded his head, his eyes on the verge of tears. “Oh, Charlie I- achoo”

Ah crap.

His sneezes became more erratic as his eyes became a waterfall. Seriously? Out of any moment in time, why did his allergies have to start now? “Achoo- Char- achoo” is he crying or just having bad allergies? Maybe both. Whatever it is, Wilson slowly became an utter sneezing mess.

Charlie handed him a box of tissues from the front counter. “Hey,” she whispered as she caressed his cheek “how bout we get away from all these flowers, ok?”

There were some small sniffles as he wiped his tears away. By now this man looked like an ugly crying cat who also had a bad pollen allergy “...ok”

🎕🎕🎕🎕🎕🎕🎕

Wilson blew his nose as Charlie leaned back on the concrete wall. She had brought him to the back of the store, where there’s no pollen but instead, the cold, foggy, grey world of the city. But it’s near the dumpster with rotting flowers so… Hopefully that won’t bother him.

“It’s been so long. How’ve you been? How’s everyone else?”

“Oh! Um…” Wilson threw away the used tissues. “Everyone’s trying to get into the swing of things. Some got their dream jobs, others are working towards it, the kids are all home-schooled by Ms. Wickerbottom when she’s off from her library, I think Willow and Wx are wandering around exploring the modern world” a smile appeared on Wilson’s face as he thought about his friends.

”And as for me, I’m working two jobs trying to save up for going back to graduate school” It definitely is tiring, especially with their long hours. But hey, it pays the bills.

“Oh really?” she clasped her hands together as she giggled “that’s great I’m so happy for all of you!”

He chuckled and began to admire his love. Stars, she’s beautiful. And her giggle? Music to his ears! He began blushing, just losing himself in her eyes. How happy he was to see her, safe and sound. After all this time…

After all this time…

How di-

“Charlie?”

“Yes honey?”

“How did you escape?” He tugged on the strings of his sweater. Hm… Nervous. “The last time I saw you it was with everyone at the portal… And you said you had to stay behind and... Yeah”

There was a moment of silence between them, the sound of cars passing by, filling the empty void. The old queen rubbed her arm, thinking about the time spent in complete isolation. No new survivors appeared. Nothing fell from the sky. Only the shadows kept her company in the vast emptiness of the Constant. “It’s a bit hard to explain”

Shit. Did he open up a big wound? “Yo-ou don’t have to ta-alk about it i-if you don’t want to” he stumbled over his words.

“No no, it’s fine” she smiled, attempting to show him no harm done. “Let’s see… Where to begin” The beginning, middle, or the end? Maybe a short summary would do. “Well, when you guys left, They managed to destroy the Gateway, so I won’t have the chance to follow suit” she fiddled with the pockets from her apron. “Literally nothing was salvageable, everything was turned into goopy nightmare fuel”

“Oh…” Stars. How hellbent where these things on keeping her behind? “Then what did you do?”

“For a while, nothing” her voice became low and quiet as she watched the clouds pass by. “When the Gateway was destroyed, my hopes immediately came crashing down. I wasn’t sure if there were even other ways of getting out. So I just sulked around the Constant” And how boring and lonely it all was. A queen without any subjects and an empty kingdom. “Then one day, I got tired and finally stood up to Them… By fighting them”

“Wh- I- CHARLIE OH MY GOD! DID YOU GET HURT?!”

“Um… yeah I kinda did. And it was pretty painful, to be honest, ha ha” ha ha. Ha ha. Awkward laughter “But! In the end, I managed to win!” She grinned triumphantly “Bet that taught ‘em a lesson or two!”

“I bet it did” he chuckled. Some of the anxiety he felt washed away. But he’s still not over the fact that his girlfriend beat the shit out of a shadow hivemind. “Then what happened?”

“Hm. That part is a bit foggy. The last thing I can remember is that I woke up back in San Francisco. And that’s all”

Wilson leaned on Charlie’s shoulder. “You’ve been through so much,” his voice, soft and whispery “and now you’re finally free. Darling, I’m so happy to see you safe and sound”

“I am too” she ran her fingers through his hair “We can finally be together without any stress of constant survival”

“Everyone can get second chances”

“Be happier”

“Safer”

“And They won’t hurt us again” she turned to Wilson and smiled “I’m sure of it”

He smiled back at her “I guess our determination really overshadowed Them, huh?”

Charlie giggled “I guess it did” she leaned down and planted a kiss on his forehead.

Wilson gently pulled her into a soft hug, nuzzling her. The old queen crouched down and nestled into it, hugging him back a bit tighter. They silently stayed in each other’s arms, not wanting to let go.

Reunited at last.

Nothing stopping them, nothing to harm them, nothing at all.

Everything is going to be okay.

[xuune]

some thoughts on s7

this ended up me kind of rambling about my thoughts and feelings on s7 that are all over the place, so please bear with me if these thoughts don’t seem too well organized or anything: 

now, before i even actually saw the season, i was just snooping around here on tumblr to see what ppl’s reactions were, and i kind of let it get to the better of me. some people were just over dramatizing what was happening in s7, and their negativity on the season made me believe that i would wholeheartedly dislike the season. i saw all the posts with people going on about how if youre still watching the show, you should immediately drop it (and it was mainly centered around few central complaints going around right now, pretty sure you can figure that out on your own on what that was). it was understandable on where the frustration was stemming from. i only got 3 hours of sleep because of what people were saying despite not even seeing the season for myself and seeing how events would ultimately play out. but like they would always say, you shouldn’t let other people’s judgement affect you, and it really shouldn’t be the determining factor on how you view things or how your opinions are formed. 

when i watched the season, my general reaction to it was that its “ok”, i didn’t think it was entirely and absolutely terrible. i already know how a lot of us didn’t like the way a few characters got treated. i mainly thought that the animation looked nicer and improved in some of the action scenes. the writing was kind of “meh” for me when it came to whatever certain plot points that got introduced or continued. watching it on my own actually removed any thoughts of me disliking/hating the season entirely. 

even though i say this, the things i mention here are mainly about some issues that kept being brought up by people and circled around ever since s7 got released. 

in terms of character development? besides what we’ve been given for hunk, which has been awesome so far (i dont really feel like i have much to go in depth with for this, its already self explanatory in the season itself), i guess its going somewhere. i’ve got some hope, but it’s not on the level where its overwhelmingly high and optimistic. everyone’s been talking about the lack of actual lance development, how he’s constantly being reduced to being the “dumb” one, but we actually see him take initiative when needed. lance has been shown to stepping up and taking his role into account when handed the opportunity to do so, and it was multiple times when lance was given the re-established position of keith’s right-hand man. despite whatever remarks keith made on lance, whether or not they were supposed to come off as teasing/joking for the audience, keith does still seem to believe in lance’s capabilities. if he didn’t, keith wouldn’t have trusted lance the task on leading their team on their mission(s). lance actually got scenes where he could shine off as being portrayed more than what he’s constantly being insulted as. there are still some scenes of them showing mutual trust and respect for each other, especially with lance voting for keith during “the feud” and the reasoning he gave. but yeah, some parts it did seem like keith was kind of ooc in certain episodes when comparing his personality back to s3. who knows why keith gave the reasoning he did when he voted for lance. EDIT: acoolemocucumber’s post makes a good note on pointing out how during the voting section, keith is actually the first one to start writing. it’s later revealed that he chose lance on first pick. lance was the second to finish. even though he was peeking over at hunk and pidge to see who they chose, he instead decides to choose keith. keith choosing lance as a first choice without pure hesitance is amazing to see, and it really shows he trusts and respects lance a lot despite the reasoning he gave. then again, actions speak louder than words and countless times keith has shown to be that kind of guy by relaying a lot of important tasks to lance throughout this season. 

i’ll do say that i enjoyed most of the scenes they shared when they had to take a leading initiative with each other though. that was pretty nice to see again, and it felt like a decade since i ever saw that kind of dynamic from those two. 

there were a lot of action packed scenes, and i watched through those entirely to see if there’s any important plot detail to know, or make note of, while watching the ep to make sure i wouldnt be lost with whats happening so far. some people found it boring, some people found the fight scenes amazing and stunning. certain scenes had me really amazed on how well it was animated, some other scenes not so much in terms of repetition, and thats kind of bound to happen if we’re provided an arc where its continuing to keep the tense vibes on the recurring events with the current situation of the season. 

this is just merely my take on it, (my memory’s not the best with how much information im recalling from those 13 episodes) but it kind of felt lackluster with how the paladins barely got any kind of break where they could seriously spend one episode on unwinding, having in-depth conversations one on one, and not be so worried about the galra all the time. sure, there’s a few scenes like that in a few episodes, but it didn’t seem enough to make it feel like it balanced out whatever conflicts or character issues were newly or constantly introduced. 

ive read posts already about how some people had liked the season a lot, loved the actions scenes and all. but to me, some conflicts that took place seemed out of place or just didn’t really align well (idk how else to phrase it) especially with adam’s death, and i had minor mixed feelings about ep “the journey within”. 

about adam, it just seemed out of place and rushed for them to introduce shiro’s s/o only for them to take him away. we don’t get to see how fleshed out adam could’ve been, and i’ve already seen the frustration/rage people had with adam being killed off when considering how the creators told the viewers that they were gonna get to see adam, but weren’t told how long we’ll see him (plus the entire thing abt lgbt rep that was promised?). the thing with adam left me on a weird note, mainly because if you were just given no other info besides the info from the season, you wouldn’t even be given too explicit information about the relationship shiro had with adam. from there, it felt like there was no point in adding adam into the story if the viewers aren’t given clear information on what kind of bond shiro and adam had besides adam saying that they’ve been through a lot together (or whatever he said, idr it too much) and the “how important am i to you” line for lgbt rep points. its just pretty vague “””representation””” thats just leaving the audience to make the most out of what they’re given. we’re only given confirmation that they used to be fiancés from what they said in panels/interviews, but never in the show. im not sure what to really think about that, my mind’s just kind of in the void when i think about it. but this part i structured kind of badly and i apologize for that, but hopefully those of you can get what im saying. 

as for “the journey within”, it was reasonable for the way characters acted; theyre all tired, frustrated, and losing hope and were floating in space waiting for nothing but at least something to happen. keith snaps, gets irritated at everyone, lance is also the one to lash back out at keith saying keith ran away, giving the audience a big sign that lance was hurt by keith’s disappearance/leave from the team. but for keith to quickly later on go take everything back in just a few minutes seemed really awkward for me. its a kids show and all, but i just kind of didn’t like how that one section of that episode was written ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ just a feeling i had with it. however, i did love how hunk took a lot of the initiative during the episode, it’s showing his growth of actually him continuing to fully accept his role as a paladin and determined to not back down regardless of his own cowardice that could prevent him from doing so at any time.  

and there’s the thing about k/acx: ive already seen a bunch of people going somewhere along the lines of disbelief, anger, frustration on how keith is getting het endgame but when i saw the episodes, his interactions with acxa didn’t even seem borderline romantic to me at all? to me, i merely saw 2 characters actually getting on better terms with each other and returning the favor. the two no longer see each other as enemies but allies now. keith only went back to save acxa because it seemed like he believed that he felt in debt to acxa for trying to save his team. ezor and zethrid merely poked fun at acxa, but if you consider previous seasons where acxa and keith interacted, the two just continued to return the favor of owing whatever debt they had for each other. it didn’t seem like there was any romantic tension intended in any of the scenes where they interacted. we already know acxa betrayed ezor and zethrid by switching sides, and if you were betrayed you’re bound to make at least a  remark on whoever betrayed you either way. in this case, ezor and zethrid found it reasonable to make a comment on acxa’s alliance with keith, hence how they teased acxa possibly crushing on keith (whether or not thats actually confirmed, its just left ambiguous and up for interpretation at that point). there’s the parallel with how they animated the shot between keith and acxa talking to each other, but neither did that one seem romantic to me? i hope im not the only one who thought that? the other scene people talked about was when acxa is in the same scene where keith was present when he visits his dad’s grave with krolia. i dont get why some people were upset about that either. even though its at the last ep of s7, there’s nothing to imply that keith invited acxa to go visit his dad’s grave with him or anything if you consider their placement in the scene. if keith did care about acxa’s presence being there when he visited the grave, wouldn’t he at least acknowledge acxa’s presence by showing obvious attention to her, or have her close to where him and krolia were? she remains distant but respectful of keith in the scene. i dont see where these scenes would imply keith automatically finds a romantic interest in acxa. acxa to keith? maybe, we don’t entirely know. keith to acxa? i dont see it being implied anywhere at all. not to mention keith’s “can’t we just fight” statement right after ezor and zethrid teased acxa about having a romantic interest in keith. again, its just my take on what’s being presented and my own thoughts on how people are viewing it. 

and with a/l, it leaves me on a bad note with how its progressing if its really getting the sealed deal endgame. like most people have been saying, it would be good for them to be endgame if they were only written better. am i entirely convinced theyre endgame? not really because there’s that small chance where vld pulls a 180 and the show creators stay true to their words on lance not being a rebound, lance being someone’s first choice, lance getting what he needs, not what he wants. what’s being given/presented so far is just bad writing with how allura suddenly reciprocates feelings for lance out of nowhere despite showing consistent disinterest in lance’s advances in previous seasons. s4 and onward we see her seeing lance more than just an annoying flirt, and the two become better friends who could genuinely talk to each other without having allura annoyed with lance’s flirtatious antics, and without lance being reduced to a constant flirt. during allura’s interest in lotor, we’re yet again presented how allura doesn’t return feelings for lance, especially during the scene when the mice told her about lance’s feelings for her back in s6. she seems rather disappointed, pitiful, or uncomfortable with knowing how lance genuinely liked her when she liked lotor during that time. later on, allura’s been out of her previous love interest with lotor, and hasn’t shown returned much of the same interest in lance. sure, she hugged lance and he returned the hug, but that only seemed necessary in the moment for when allura had felt betrayed by someone she wholeheartedly trusted and fell in love with. she needed comfort from someone and the person she spoke to was lance who was able to lend her some comforting words. but that was about it. i’d like to say that considering that this is a kids show, it does give a bad incentive for children to develop on believing that if they continue to force their feelings onto someone else, the person they’re interested in will eventually like them back out of the blue, which is the worst course of action to take despite being rejected countless times (and its kind of being shown with what a/l has right now). to take this kind of scenario and to fix/put it with good writing would to just properly depict lance accepting rejection and allura staying true to her previous feelings on not reciprocating his feelings. in a general sense, we all know that we can’t always get what we want, and that’s an important moral that always gets taught over and over again even if youre a child or an adult. rejection and acceptance of the rejection is something that can be taught here through the romantic subplot they’ve been having. just deciding that they should become endgame out of nowhere would leave the writing very dull. having allura get out of her previous love interest with lotor only to quickly move onto lance just doesn’t leave off on a good note. it just reduces lance to a rebound and that’s about it. 

the writing for me wasn’t really that breathtaking, overwhelming, or emotional or anything when it came to new plot points being presented (you know, all the fight scenes, galaxy garrison, that stuff). again, a lot of things seemed pretty rushed, i had mixed feelings for some but not all episodes. it was nice to see mostly everyone united back with their families and characters developing new motives for what they believe in doing. yet, the writing kind of just wasn’t on the level of where it actually gets me really interested and invested into the storyline like how it had back in s1 to early s3. i’ll still mention how the writing did it’s part in presenting development for hunk, though. i enjoyed that a lot.  

some parts of the writing were questionable, some parts of the season were enjoyable, but it wasn’t entirely overwhelmingly disappointing for me. the season was on the bare minimum on having the writing go “decent”, but again it felt pretty “meh” and this is just my own feelings on it. people have their own opinions, frustrations, concerns, questions, some people loved it, some people severely hated it or just felt extremely disappointed. 

the season has its peaks and lows, some pros and cons, but whatever you take from it is what you believe. 

i’ll still keep watching the show to see how it ends, that’s for sure. 

[hexitca]

Incredibles 2 review (SPOILERS)

Actually it’s just me gushing about the movie lol and some rants towards tumblr..

Incredibles 2 is a fantastic movie! it’s fast pace but you can follow the story line really well.

The only downfall is the flashing lights for the main villain. They could have had that maybe once and then just fucking keep the flashing lights in the goggles but yea. It lost a point for that

i love the realistic family dynamic of the Parrs honestly. It is hectic and real and i loved it! It’s not perfect and thats what makes it so important when they get together and resolve their problems (like when Bob tries to fix the Todd? I forgot the boy’s name, situation. and He fails! and he apologies for messing up twice with that! and Violet forgives him b/c he was trying to make it right but failed and it was ok! b/c he tried!) it’s so realistic to a real family i love it so fucking much. 

the villain was a little predictable, to me at least. I saw it the moment Evelyn said “Dad should have taken Mom to the safe room instead of calling the super’s hotline”. But i still liked it (aside of the flashing lights) it was an interesting villain nevertheless! I love Frozone in this movie, especially when he arrived to save the kids. He’s such a good family friend (im gonna name him uncle Frozone lol). Bless him for being around i love him and his wife lol

The focus on Helen was great honestly also she is thicc im sorry im very gay for her lol I have nothing to really say that could express my love for her in this movie she was great and heroic and i cared what happens to her, same with Bob and the kids and just ugh great characters

9/10 great movie i might buy it just to have it (if it’s not on Netflix) 

Rant time!

im gonna be lowkey bitter about tumblr b/c i already see shit like “Bob is aggressively straight or Helen needs to leave bob to be with Void!” or even worse “Violet needs to be with Void *who might be 18-19 or 20* when Violet is 14. Void HCs that she might be trans or lesbian or whatever is great (i agree with all that lol) but dont force it with Helen or Violet thats weird. Bob is insecure and should be held accountable for some of his shitty behavior (which happens in the movie when he realizes that he needs help. Also he doesnt tell Helen anything so that she can succeed in her work) but he’s a good father and husband. HE HAS FLAWS AND THATS OK IT”S VERY REALISTIC. SO does Helen! She didnt trust that Bob could take care of the kids which is kinda shitty of her but also not (it’s hard to decide especially when Bob stays up all night to learn math to help Dash)

All Im saying is Tumblr you need to calm down.

[goblincave666]

sorry i didn't get to this sooner, i havent been on tumblr much at all & school has been a lot

ok so white het (or supposedly het but we all know the truth) dudes get THE BEST writing hands down in tw. stiles, liam, jackson and theo??? all of these characters have detailed backstories and nuanced personalities.

stiles, for example, has adhd, often comes across as awkward and jumpy to other people. he has an insane work ethic when it comes to figuring things out because he overcompensates aggressively for the wellbeing of others, after being traumatized so much by his mom's passing. he often forgets to take care of himself. and yeah this is standard writing but for teen wolf standards it's fucking amazing.

liam has abandonment issues because his birth dad left (i think???) and his family was afraid of him for his IED. he struggles to trust himself and his own judgement and often relies on other people, most notably scott, mason, and theo in 6b.

jackson's parents don't seem amazing, and he was also adopted. he demonstrably has self worth issues as he is constantly jealous and insecure in seasons 1 and 2. he uses his porsche and lacrosse status to prove himself to others, but that can only go so far. the entire reason he became the kanima was because he was kind of fucked up. he even develops and starts to care a bit through season 2. also, i know jackson is bi. but they clearly made that decision all the way in 6b, so that's why i'm not counting him here.

theo wasn't amazingly done, i honestly get most of his depth out of my personal interpretation and the few breadcrumbs jeff left behind, but 1) he only had 2 seasons, and 2) cody is only white PASSING, he's mixed white and penobscot. so that honestly strengthens my case. (also yes i know white passing doesnt equal 100% white but im mixed white and inuit myself and society has treated me like i'm white my entire life so it makes a huge difference.)

there are more well written white guys (haha triple w) notably derek, stilinski and isaac, but i don't want to be here all day.

let's move onto the poc/non het guys:

i'm not a scott anti. i just don't think he works that well as a protagonist. in seasons 1 and 2 i can actually say for sure he was well written and worked, but seasons 3 onward, jeff kinda lost his touch with scott. like in 1 and 2, there were personal stakes in the plot for scott to deal with, CONSTANTLY, which made him a really interesting protagonist since he was just an unexperienced teenage boy, but 3 onwards there really wasn't, he just had to stop the bad guy because he had to stop the bad guy and save everyone. and that just isn't personal enough for a good protagonist. they DID have void stiles, stiles being erased, scott taking the benefactor money, and the whole alpha pack thing, but the alpha pack thing was just one of many people wanting to kill scott because hes the true alpha, not personal reasons, and EVERYONE ELSE was worried about void stiles and stiles being erased. honestly the ghost riders thing made lydia seem more like the protagonist. as for the benefactor money, that was solved in one episode. so i can say jeff did do well with scott in 1 and 2, but after that he became a protagonist because protagonist do good, and there wasn't enough for me to be invested in scott anymore.

also side note: why the fuck did mr d**gl*s say scott would 'make a good nazi youth.' scott is HISPANIC. does jeff davis know the nazis weren't only racist against jewish people or should someone tell him???

a lot of people see mason as stiles 2.0., but i feel like he couldve been a completely different character by the end of the show if they actually tried with him. as much as i love mason, he did fall into the 'black best friend who only exists to help their white friend' stereotype. mason had no personal hurdles in the show that weren't fixed in one episode. and that's not only an instance of lazy poc writing, it's an instance of shit writing in general, because MASON WAS FUCKING POSSESSED. where the fuck was the follow up from that???? how was he completely okay in 6a??? if sebastien had some of mason's memories, shouldn't he also have some of sebastien's? or at least have some nightmares about them? or something???? mason's also one of the nicest tw characters, so i really don't see why the guilt of being the beast and doing nothing about it didn't absolutely fucking destroy him to an extent. he clearly overcompensates with help like stiles, but not even just supernatural help. like he does homework help, basically acts as the group therapist, and there's gotta be a reason for that. and absolutely none of that gets explored whatsoever. it literally makes me so fucking mad like you guys have no idea

ethan was a decent enough character for what he had to do in the plot, but they don't really explain why he's more benevolent than aiden, and he just kinda hangs around. aiden was arguably the more interesting of the two and he had more internal conflict going on, while ethan really only existed to contrast him and try to tell him to be good or whatever.

not that ethan himself had to be anything other than that, but i don't remember danny or corey doing too much either. i get that ethan, danny and corey were all conceptually side characters who really couldn't have gotten much spotlight, but that's the writers' fault. we never had a same sex couple in the MAIN cast of teen wolf, which we didn't necessarily need to have, but it just feels a little off that all of the mlm characters are sidelined, and the wlw characters are basically nonexistent.

white women:

okay so the women are where it REALLY gets bad. like i typed a lot about mason and scott because jeff gave us enough detail on them for a good writer to make decent characters out of them. the walls of text are gonna be more like fences here. small wire fences that you can climb over with little effort.

first of all, lydia is obviously an outlier. she does get development. but once again, like scott, by season 3 they don't have any more development to give her. the only time she got to be a character again, and not just there to do whatever banshee thing the plot calls for that somehow reveals the information we need, is 6a. and even then, HER ENTIRE 6A PLOTLINE REVOLVES AROUND A GUY. it's nothing about her personally. she's just trying to get everyone else to believe stiles is real, because she wants him back.

allison is used as a macguffin for scott in season 1 and 2, and then dates isaac in season 3. she literally never gets to be her own character, and i can barely think of actual consistent personality traits that she has. i thought she was cool but they didn't do anything with her. i mean she overcame her family but they didn't really give her any personality while doing it. the closest thing i remember to a character moment for her was when she was in the elevator with stilinski and cried about everything being fucked up and her grades dropping. and i LOVE that scene. did we get more of that??? no.

poc women:

okay so hayden gets a little backstory, i'll give her that, but she never really struggles in the plot. EVER. do bad things happen to her? physically, yeah, but emotionally??? she seems upset at the end of 5a/beginning of 5b, but bounces back from every other horrible event like it's nothing for some reason. personality wise, she's a little snappy or whatever, but they didn't give her much to do besides make out with liam. she had a ton of potential with just her sister taking care of her and the whole chimera situation, but they didn't really do anything with her.

kira was adorable and awkward, and she's my favourite girl on the show personality wise, but once again, they gave her no real room to grow in the plot. and then they kicked her off by sending her to the desert and didn't even tell arden until the season was done!!

all i remember braeden doing was showing up and shooting things. that is literally everything i can say about her character. i'm not kidding.

in conclusion, i guess my main problem with how jeff writes anyone who isnt a white guy is the lack of internal conflict. they don't show any of these characters overcoming their own demons like they do the white guy ones.

you also don't NEED representation (although it does matter and is good/honestly expected to add in a suburban hs drama since poc/non cishet people happen to exist) but jesus if youre gonna do it at least put as much effort into your marginalized characters as your cishet ones. don't make a divide between how much development characters of equal importance get. unless you want your writing to come across like this.

this is my hot take and i will elaborate on it if asked to (also lydia is kind of an exception but not by much)

honestly shouldve made another one below the skeleton with poc women

EDIT: AND THEN ONE BELOW THAT WITH WLW

lydia's dead grandmother and that one bi girl with the immediately dead gf is not enough jeff

[garbage---rat]

i was tagged by @throughthenotchesinyourspine thank u!!!

Rules: Answer all the questions and tag 20 other blogs.

(LAST)

DRINK: cola

PHONE CALL: my grandma

TEXT MESSAGE: my aunt

SONG YOU LISTENED TO: love is nonsense by support lesbiens

TIME YOU CRIED: yesterday on a train nd then in a supermarket

DATED SOMEONE TWICE: ❌

KISSED SOMEONE AND REGRETTED IT: ❌

BEEN CHEATED ON: ❌

LOST SOMEONE SPECIAL: idk

BEEN DEPRESSED:  uuuuhh yea

GOTTEN DRUNK AND THROWN UP: ye

(3 FAVORITE COLORS): black, red nd green

(IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU)

MADE NEW FRIENDS: yea!!

FALLEN OUT OF LOVE: ❌

LAUGHED UNTIL YOU CRIED: probably

FOUND OUT SOMEONE WAS TALKING ABOUT YOU: i dont remember lmao probably tho

MET SOMEONE WHO CHANGED YOU: yeah

FOUND OUT WHO YOUR FRIENDS ARE: ????i guess

KISSED SOMEONE ON YOUR FACEBOOK LIST: fuck facebook

(GENERAL)

HOW MANY OF YOUR FACEBOOK FRIENDS DO YOU KNOW IN REAL LIFE:  whats faceboook????

DO YOU HAVE ANY PETS: yea three dogs nd 7 cats (plus like 30 chickens lmao)

DO YOU WANT TO CHANGE YOUR NAME: Y E S

WHAT DID YOU DO FOR YOUR LAST BIRTHDAY: nothing bc no one gives a shit abt my bday lmao

WHAT TIME DID YOU WAKE UP: between 5 nd 6am

WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT MIDNIGHT LAST NIGHT: tryin to sleep but my anxiety kept me up

NAME SOMETHING YOU CAN’T WAIT FOR: seeing the offspring!!!!!!!!!!

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM: yesterday

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: red white and brainwashed by anti-flag

HAVE YOU EVER TALKED TO A PERSON NAMED TOM: ye my cousins name is tom

SOMETHING THAT IS GETTING ON YOUR NERVES: being poor

MOST VISITED WEBSITE: tumblr rip (on my phone its spotify)

HAIR COLOR: naturally its dark brown but rn its ugly blond w green/blue patches

LONG OR SHORT HAIR: short

DO YOU HAVE A CRUSH ON SOMEONE: yea 💖 💖

WHAT DO YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF: ??????i cant read

PIERCINGS: 3 in my ear nd 1 in my lip

BLOOD TYPE: ????idk

NICKNAME: i guess zero could be a nickname bc its not my birthmńame

RELATIONSHIP STATUS: taken

ZODIAC: leo

PRONOUNS: he/him or they/them (i prefer he/him tho)

FAVORITE

TV SHOW: gotham (but  also rlly like its always sunny, bobs burgers, gravity falls nd brooklyn 99)

TATTOOS: i got 6 lil stick n pokes i did myself (a star, moon, sad face, circle, pentagram nd 333) but i want a lot more

RIGHT OR LEFT HANDED: right (but ive always wanted to be left handed for some reason lmao)

SURGERY: never had one but i want top surgery

SPORT: i like most sports lmao esp softball basketball voleyball nd badminton (im not good at them tho)

VACATION: my fav place ive been to so far was brighton

PAIR OF TRAINERS: i gotta wear my ugly prescription shoes bc my feet r fucked up rip

(MORE GENERAL)

EATING: i had some cheese last night

DRINKING: cola

I’M ABOUT TO: finish packing my bag 

WAITING FOR: death

WANT: money, to not look like shrek nd i want my boobs gone

GET MARRIED: yea

CAREER: ??? im currently tryin to live long enough to have a career

(WHICH IS BETTER)

HUGS OR KISSES: both

LIPS OR EYES: both

SHORTER OR TALLER: it doesnt matter to me

OLDER OR YOUNGER: i dont rlly care

NICE ARMS OR NICE STOMACH: both

HOOKUP OR RELATIONSHIP: relationship

TROUBLEMAKER OR HESITANT: either

fun fact: im indecisive

 HAVE YOU EVER

KISSED A STRANGER: ❌

DRANK HARD LIQUOR: yea

LOST GLASSES/CONTACT LENSES: ❌

TURNED SOMEONE DOWN: ❌ bc no one likes me lol

SEX ON THE FIRST DATE: ❌

BROKEN SOMEONE’S HEART: ❌

HAD YOUR HEART BROKEN: like 3 times a day

BEEN ARRESTED: ❌

CRIED WHEN SOMEONE DIED: yea

FALLEN FOR A FRIEND: yea

(DO YOU BELIEVE IN)

YOURSELF: lmao

MIRACLES: yea

LOVE AT FIRST SIGHT: hmmm its comlicated

SANTA CLAUS: lowkey yea (dont laugh at me im a child ok)

KISS ON THE FIRST DATE: yea why not

ANGELS: yea

(OTHER)

EYE COLOR: green/grey

FAVORITE MOVIE: pacific rim or the lego batman movie

i dont know 20 ppl nd i dont wanna annoy anyone bc this is rlly long

i changed my mind bc i love reading ppls responses..im gonna tag @xojupiterxo @angelicshiver @starlingwiki nd @rose-colored-void

(dont do it if u dont wanna ns also lmk if u dont want me to tag u in this kinda stuff)