#im not tagging isaac bc i dont like him

[darkartistyt]

the doodle board is now complete

closeups under the cut

smug bitch (/affectionate)

he got kidnapped. i'll loredump later dw

he should be allowed to kill isaac i think

[avocado-frog]

how am i supposed to live laugh love under these conditions

tldr for tags my mom found an old journal of mine and read through it so i accidentally outed myself to her lols

[choco-1601]

And what if I say Arthur deserved to die?

Dont get me wrong ofc I didn't want Arthur to die but isn't it beautiful how karma got to him? He beat a half dead man to death.. obv he didn't like it but he still did it? I kinda think Arthur had the chance to idk rebuke the debt or somehow fake it so the guy could be spared but nope..he consciously made a decision beat him up for some bucks..which is irony bc Eliza and isaac died for almost the same cause as well.

So when I think about it like that, I think Arthur got what was coming to him.

Not gonna tag it bc Im afraid the infantilizers r gonna come for me 💀

[biborispavlikovsky]

tagged by @chamomillles thank u 🥰!!!! (also i just realized i just copied all the questions to a post from the wrong blog oops but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯) to answer these questions tag 20 people

i honestly don't know who to tag at all but anyone who wants to do this please do and tag me these are fun to read !!

name/nickname: puff

gender: a big ?

star sign: gemini

height: 5'5

birthday: june 11

fav bands: nothing but thieves, flor, glass animals, secondhand sound

fav solo artists: windmills, ricky montgomery, vlad holiday, kid bloom, isaac dunbar, joji, taemin, and probably a lot more i'm forgetting that i rotate through

song stuck in my head: i dont have one right now because i'm listening to music but for the past week i keep getting that song from tiktok "internet drama pt 1" stuck in my head

last movie: literally no clue maybe maurice ? or i was in the room when my sister watched the new grinch movie a month ago but i didn't really watch

last show: i started rewatching the oa the other night ! and ive been slowly working through hannibal too

when i created this blog: september 2019 ? maybe august ?

last thing i googled: "hamsters eyes bulge" bc my hamster has rlly weird eyes but they've been like that since i got him and he seems happy so im not worried i was just wondering about it lol

other blogs: @panseylizard is my main that i don't use much bc irl people know it lol and im afraid of judgement and afraid of blocking people i actually know

do i get asks: not rlly but i love it when people do send them !

following: too many

followers: i literally have no clue i never check rlly

why i chose this url: bc boris is bi

average hours of sleep: usually 9h unless im going through a not being able to sleep phase then its like 5-7 usually (lol i know 7h as not being able to sleep is a lot but i literally cannot function without consistent 9h its so annoying)

lucky number(s): i dont have any

instruments: i havent played any in FOREVER bc of school and moving but ive played piano my whole life and i played clarinet al the way up until i graduated hs and i also did a bit of violin (which i almost got back into but then it was too expensive >:( ), and v briefly i played cello which i REALLY miss but there's zero teachers in my town and i need to rent one to play which i can't afford

what i’m wearing: fuzzy beigey sweater and leggings

dream trip: honestly anything with my best friend not to be sappy but we have fun together and travel well together, maybe somewhere like new zealand together would be fun

favorite food: this changes constantly but something thats fairly consistent is meat buns which is mennonite and delicious and has a proper german name i can't spell

nationality: canadian

favorite song: this is another thing that changes constantly

top 3 fictional universes i’d like to live in: uhhhhh i have no idea tbh i've never thought about this and nothing is rlly coming to mind

[gayboybeetle]

tag meme >:)

Tagged by @kayamari ! broooo thank you for tagging me dude ily !!!

Rules: answer 17 questions, and tag 17 people

Nickname: Milo (Ive had a thousand names tho jsnskdns)

Zodiac sign: Virgo

Height: If we're being generous im 5'7

Hogwarts House: I honestly have no idea and i dont really care enough about hp to look into it lmao

Last thing I Googled: i was looking for this hat

Number of followers: 307 (a lot of them are left over from when my art blog was this blog.... now my art blog has about 150 haha)

Song stuck in my head: Waitin' for a Superman by Iron and Wine

Sleep: ok school is ending this week so I've been going to sleep and waking up at totally different times..... my sleep schedule is so fucked rn pfff

Lucky number: 2, 24, and 42! (and to a lesser extent 4 I guess)

Dream job: I... honestly never want a job jdnzkzn..... but I'd love to live off of my art (like,,, a bunch of online comms and then i make a comic that people like so they donate to patreon or smth) and then maybe in the summer i could go be a fire ranger or something..... that'd be rad

Wearing: right now its just an animal crossing t-shirt i got from hot topic and basketball shorts... but normally its some jeans, a white t-shirt, an unbuttoned floral short-sleeve, and flip flops haha (although i always wear my key necklace!!)

Favourite instrument: ACOUSTIC GUITAR..... its by far the sexiest instrument ever.... i really wanna learn to play it and once my dad os less tired I'll make him teach me >:)

Favourite songs: uhhh that changes like,,, every week jznzksnd,,, but right now im really into Waitin for Superman (above), Let's Go by Stuck in the Sound, and Pink Wonton by Man Man... and probably a whole lot more haha

Aesthetic: oh hmm... cottagecore, cryptidcore, corvidcore, old overgrown buildings, space, grunge, sparkledogs, and whatever bowling alley carpets have going on

Favourite author: oh man I like... dont read much kdmskx... it hurts my eyes a lot :( ... but I do really like Isaac Marion bc he was my dad's childhood best friend haha

Favourite animal noise: ohhh uh... the little "hhhrmmmngnm >:(" noise my dog makes when she wants something! that and you cant beat a cats soft meow

Random: I wanna make a pokemon blog SO BAD but im about to lose the easiest way to do digital art in a few days and I'm >:((( ,,,,, I'll still be able to do it but it'll be weird.... I'll have to use my dad's computer so I can only really use it for that long after he's gone to bed aaa

uhhh theres no way in hell im not gonna tag 17 people but I'll tag a few! and if anyone else wants to do it, feel free to put me as the person that tagged you! @chewwytwee @dawnpaws @theonlycampix @eevyerndracaneon @catinsstolemyart @monsterousarte ...ok now im too shy to tag anyone else kxnsjxlxn

[gortash]

vampire: the masquerade oc meme

Notes: a Path of Enlightenment is an alternative path of morality to the humanity system, primarily for Kindred who are part of the Sabbat or are independent. Convictions are a personal guide of morals/ethics for Kindred to follow.

Links: V5 Character Sheet for a list of attributes and skills ; predator types

tagged by @malkavianfledgling​, ty <3 i think at this point yall know im shit at tagging others. also idk who of my mutuals play vtmb SO.

i dont rly have a vtm character fleshed out yet bc im still like ~4hrs into vtmb (and i dont know what half of this shit means.) so im just gonna bullshit my way thru this and make it up as i go lol. i’m also gonna do this for my malkavian who i haven’t even played yet bc everyone says u shouldn’t pick them for first playthru smh

BASICS:

NAME: Leto (her birth name is Kasumi Ueda; she changes her name after her embrace as a way to toss her old identity aside)

GENDER & SEXUALITY: Cis woman, bisexual

CLAN: Malkavian

GENERATION: 8th

PREDATOR TYPE: Siren, Bagger as a back-up

BIRTHPLACE: Portland, OR

PROFESSION: Errand girl for Lacroix. Before her embrace, she mostly did odd jobs to support a drug habit and couch-hopped a lot.

ATTRIBUTES AND DISCIPLINES:

ATTRIBUTES (Pick 3): Manipulation, perception, appearance

SKILLS (Pick 5): Subterfuge, stealth, firearms, investigation, security (if occult was in vtmb i’d replace one with that)

DISCIPLINES (Pick 2 Clan Disciplines): Auspex, obfuscate

MORALITY AND BELIEFS:

SECT: Camarilla

PATH/HUMANITY: 7-8 humanity

CONVICTIONS: Hold onto your humanity no matter what. Only kill if they deserve it. (i’ll probs come up with a better answer for this like, next week, but the gist of it is she’ll do anything to keep the beast away)

VIRTUES/STRENGTHS:  Adaptable, hardworking, imaginative, loyal, passionate (it’s hard constantly fighting your own mind, but goddamn she’ll do it)

SINS/FLAWS: Lust, envy / Paranoid, arrogant, blunt, deceptive (she has to be in this world, doesn’t she?), irrational, obsessive

CONNECTIONS:

BLOODLINE: Isaac Hopper (sire)

COTERIE: Billie Young (if i make her canon; she’s my Toreador who is basically a test run character before i get to start talking to stop signs), @princearcann ‘s himbo toreador who i don’t even know the name of but levy is unable to stop me from making all our ocs be friends.

GHOULS: Heather

ASSOCIATES: Sebastian Lacroix (she may or may not be sleeping with him), Therese & Jeanette Voerman, anyone u run jobs for in the camarilla run i GUESS i havent even finished this game lol

[aphrodite-tops]

i was told to do this

i was tagged by @minngyeoms​ the nerd

Rules: Tag 10 followers you’d like to get to know better!

Name: SHAN  it’s shannon

Birth year: 1999

Sign taurus 

Height 4′11 because fuck me

Put your playlist on shuffle and name the first 4 songs

i mean im kinda listening to youtube so i’ll just list the first four that are up next

make you feel pretty - lovelytheband 

everything i could never say...to you - lovelytheband 

sober up - AJR

an hour of calming animal crossing music uwu

Grab the nearest book, turn to page 23, what’s the 17th line?

a book? in my house? pfft

Ever had a song or poem written about you?

god i hope not

When was the last time you played air guitar?

when times were dark

Celebrity crush(es)?

gimmie that jaemin (nct) booty also hoizer the musician is pretty hot i guess 

What’s a sound you hate/love?

the sound of people picking their nails really fucks me up man BUT ironically i love the sound of my bird grinding his lil beak uwu

Do you believe in ghosts?

i dont think so?

Do you believe in aliens?

shit man i dunno, i just know space is mighty big so the possibility of us being along out there is very slim

Do you drive? and if so have you ever crashed?

man i dont even have my permit lmao

Last book you read?

i’m in the midst of reading The Burning World by Isaac Marion

Do you like the smell of gasoline?

no it makes me nauseated, but i do like the smell of diesel exhaust fumes because my dad would come home from work (he does construction) and when i was v smol i would run to him and hug him, and thats what he always smelled like so it’s a really sentimental smell to me whereas other people would probably hate it

The last movie you saw?

Into the Spiderverse yesterday, actually, and it was GREAT. im probably going to make a spidersona soon bc bandwagons lmao

Do you have any obsessions right now?

fucking arthur morgan from rdr2

Do you tend to hold grudges?

only if it’s deserved 

Are you in a relationship right now?

no but god im so lonely

im not going to tag anyone bc i only have like 14 followers so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

[thedegenerateasexual]

top 10 teen wolf episodes as rated by me i guess

IN the order from most to least favorite, and i did not include any 6B ones because it isn’t fair for me to use those when the season isn’t finished yet. (EDIT: season is now finished and while none of the 6B episodes made the ranking i did adjust the honorable mentions accordingly.) this is long & i had fun making it

3.19 Letharia Vulpina: ok ok so just like Everyone Knew I Would i did pick this one because of all the prime derek/chris material—that all-important moment where they had their claws and gun trained on each other, being handcuffed to a bench together, derek saving chris’s life despite insisting he wasn’t gonna—BUT there’s literally not a single second of this episode i don’t love. we open with deaton being a total badass and scaring the shit out of some yakuza dudes, then KIRA gets to be a badass, and then there’s a small scott/allison/isaac moment when he’s all laid up (which was my ot3 for a little while in 3A…don’t judge), allison gets to threaten peter with a stun baton on her girlfriend lydia’s behalf, and that doesn’t even BEGIN to get into the absolute delight it is to watch everyone running around trying to deal with all the chaos the notgitsune is causing (we even got to see coach get shot, which was actually pretty funny??). between all of that and the plot twist at the end (that we all saw coming…but hey) that it was really the nogitsune pretending to be stiles all along (and the very…gay…thing going on with him and scott), it’s literally like, the perfect episode. there was even a rain battle at the end i fucking love rainy scenes. PEAK television.

4.12 Smoke & Mirrors: my two favorite characters on the dumb werewolf show are derek hale & scott mccall and this episode is like a great big flashing sign that says “LOOK AT HOW AWESOME DEREK IS AND LOOK AT HOW AWESOME SCOTT IS!!!” because scott finally gets to KICK PETER’S ASS and comes back from something he shouldn’t be able to come back from because he’s SCOTT MCCALL, TRUE ALPHA, and how can we forget my son derek finally achieving the full shift and giving that big old “FUCK YOU” to kate argent. if that wasn’t enough, my third favorite character chris argent gets the second-closest he’s ever come to weeping in this entire series when confronting the sister he can’t kill at the end. also kate is in this episode and she’s the best villain i love her presence onscreen. also peak television.

1.12 Code-Breaker: i love s1 SO FUCKING MUCH bc it was so tightly plotted - it’s like back to the future and holes, it’s one of those things where every line serves a purpose and there’s no spare bits, and tw’s plot becomes such a mess later that it’s honestly really amazing. so code breaker is my favorite one because all the plot stuff comes together really well, and it’s just like well-done overall, there’s that sick backwards shot of allison, chris’s Angst when he realizes his sister is a serial killer, scott trying Really Really Hard and derek being Really Really Done (why don’t they have more scenes together…), stiles and peter cracking me up with the laptop password gag, like…there’s literally no part of this ep that isn’t a delight (also again kate is in it i love kate as a villain). it’s wonderful 10/10

3.14 More Bad Than Good: i had a real hard time with this one vs. the one immediately before it, the first one of 3B, but i love both bc i love watching scott stiles and allison absolutely losing their shit. in the end i like this one better bc 1. you get to watch them beat it and 2. they finally find and rescue malia and i FUCKING LOVE malia, my own daughter, also the scene where she reunites with her dad makes me misty every time. bonus content: watching araya hack off peter’s finger :D :D :D AND this is the first time derek gets to make heart-eyes at braeden. i’m so happy whenever he’s happy!!! 

6.05 Radio Silence: this episode is everything i love about 6A all wrapped up in a nice neat lil package. i love 6A bc it totally fucking surprised me by making me like things i did not think i’d like, the biggest being stiles/lydia. and like…this season fuckin SOLD me on it, the way she fights tooth and nail to get him back and the way he’s so patiently waited for her reminds me 2much of claire & ben from @cambionverse and the beginning of me being sold was this ep, when they had the wall between them, and when they finally talked on the radio. and this episode even made peter hale interesting for 30 entire seconds which i thought was impossible—it was cool that he did One Genuinely Selfless Thing by going through the portal to save malia, and later when malia and scott had to take his pain to get at stiles’ keys you could almost imagine for a second he got to pretend someone actually DID care about him, that’s his reward for doing a single selfless thing. it was also stellar to see stiles (and the jeep!!!) again and see him working the problem from the other side it was like getting real sam back after half a season of soulless sam in spn s6 DO NOT call me out for referencing this show

4.05 I.E.D.: go look at these gifsets and read the tags. now come back. …okay okay aside from, That, which i won’t repeat as to avoid two paragraphs of capslock, derek also smiles in this episode. even scott is alarmed by it. HE’S HAPPY i’m happy he’s happy!!!!! i’m happy he loves scott!! i’m happy he spends half the episode trading long lingering looks with his future boyfriend!!!! but if that wasn’t enough this episode KEEPS ON GIVING because at the very end the calaveras show up and bully chris into saying the original code, and forgetting his daughter’s, which is deeply relevant to all my headcanons about the code lowkey being like indoctrination (watch that shit again it’s fucking wild…), and also it’s one of the only times in the series where he looks genuinely freaked out and i love watching his Turmoil™

6.10 Riders on the Storm: this is also everything i love about 6A in one ep, just like, less concentrated, bc there’s also the nazi werewolf (tho even PETER HALE getting judgy @ the nazi was truly a highlight). its got all the Big Damn Reunions, its got STYDIA, its got peter actually being slightly interesting, its got scott mccall: badass. its actually also got lydia martin: badass, which like…About Damn Time. it’s even got chris argent: badass, and it’s also got chris argent: badass smooching on a beautiful lady w/ his hands in her hair!!!! (her: that was so hot! me: GIRL ME TOO) also they thought this was the last stiles ep ever so his goodbyes to everyone were like really sweet & made me emo af

3.22 De-Void: so obviously i love this one because derek’s line when he was under thrall about “you’re NOT my ally you’re a HUNTER” got me into the dumb rarepair i wrote like 60k for so far but also i do genuinely deeply love the sequence where they exorcise the notgitsune from inside stiles’ head—lydia facing her fears in the ruined prom dress is such amazing imagery + im gay for the scott/stiles reunion. bonus content includes chris & allison interaction which breaks my heart (he’s so proud of her!!) and the tense kickass scene in the loft in the opening where the notgitsune (SCARY MOTHERFUCKER) is trying to goad chris into shooting it. i don’t love ALL of this ep bc it has so much thumb twins (& from here down there are no more perfect ones…sad) but i love MOST of it and the parts i do love are fantastic. so. i’ll deal w/ thumb twins

3.06 Motel California: look i know this episode should disturb the fuck out of me bc 1. derek and jennifer bang & in my eyes that isn’t a consensual encounter and 2. all the creepy ass suicides but like…honestly there is something so soothing about motels to me, i’ll put this one on to just chill out anyday. like it is delightfully creepy and i love all the meat to everyone getting hit with their baggage (uh…except the thumb twins), but mostly it’s the #mood i love. i actually even like the derek scenes before the sex starts because he is So Wounded and So Sad (“everyone around me gets hurt” BYE) and they rarely let him actually emote at all so it’s very refreshing

2.03 Ice Pick: this was like…such a perfect & amazing introduction to the new betas like if the new ppl in s4 and beyond had gotten this kind of good introduction (and hadn’t been killed off so quickly…) i would love them about 10x more. it’s got that nice s2 vibe that most ppl are into and i still love erica & boyd w/ all my heart!!! (DONT really love how creepy derek was w/ erica but we’ll blame it on being the alpha.) i also love how fucked up the scene with allison tied to the chair was & the fucking fight between derek’s pack and scott at the end…like scott gets to win a 2-on-1 fight and then derek gets to be mr. cool alpha dude and kick his ass. i LOVE THOSE FIGHT SCENES and bc of this episode “iron” is my derek theme song. so.

HONORABLE MENTIONS aka these were on the original list but didn’t make the cut:

1.11 Formality (aaalllll of derek’s ugly backstory this was when i knew i loved him)

2.10 Fury (the first ep i ever watched live, will always be fond of it for that reason even tho i don’t give 2 shits about matt)

2.11 Battlefield (the theme of doing things bc of the power of love will always get me, it was also the only teen wolf episode i ever made gifs of, back when i knew how to make gifs)

3.12 Lunar Ellipse (for scott becoming a true alpha for REAL + derek’s big ol’ well-deserved fuck-you to jennifer, i didn’t love 3A but this was such prime derek & scott material)

3.13 Anchors (like i said: watching stiles, scott, and allison all COMPLETELY lose their shit, also did you know the anchor allison chose in this ep ws her new code? Interesting)

3.24 The Divine Move (listen...you can laugh at the cheesy sfx ALL you want but when i watched kate argent come back from the dead to menace derek hale like his own worst nightmare come to life LIVE with mine own two eyes i jumped out of my seat and YELLED like everything about that moment was absolutely PERFECT and very few things are ever gonna top it)

4.08 Time of Death (derek learning to use a gun and then getting it on with braeden…bye)

4.11 A Promise to the Dead (not only chris unsticking himself from the wall for allison and scott’s sake but also derek and braeden walking around his loft half-naked in the rain...nice)

5.05 A Novel Approach (the stiles and donovan altercation…the first 15m where he acts with his face without saying a word…enough said)

5.18 The Maid of Gévaudan (i'm bitter about the flashback because i want ALLISON but it was a nice origin story + scott fighting the beast all on his own to save that library full of kids was one of the only truly amazing moments of 5B)

6.08 Blitzkrieg (the sheriff rebuilding stiles’ room and saying goodbye to claudia makes me really for real cry but there’s so much nazi bullshit that i couldn’t justify having the episode as a whole being one of my favs)

6.13 After Images (chris argent absolutely losing his shit the entire ep, fucking love it)

6.19 Broken Glass (derek hale's comeback and he got to spend all of his screentime with chris argent! i seriously considered poking this into the #10 spot but ultimately the sideplot i hated with malia and scott had so much more screentime i can't use it - i can't list an episode i'm always skipping parts of!)

[thegeminisage]

Same anon from last night! This may be in parts bc of the limit: YES aside from the Kira thing (disaster) 6A was great. I AGREE. I would have loved to have seen Scott as the center of the Wild Hunt plotline, having him be erased would've pushed some really cool dynamics together (what do you do when the true alpha doesnt exist?!?) I like Stiles! I do! I just, wish my son Scott got way more recognition than he does and weirdly he gets thrown under the bus for Stiles’ sake a lot in fandom?

Like what show are these people watching when they say Scott is a bad friend? Scotts entire sense of self is constructed around keeping his friends & family SAFE/happy 5 makes no sense in his characterization he would never have doubted Stiles for a minute I know what you’re saying about there being a lot of plot to be pushed into just 10 eps but there is SO MUCH FILLER sometimes? That you’re like “do we need this sequence of dark hallway really can’t you just show lydia and scott mourn allison

TOGETHER like they 1000% would be doing" And I agree with your list of ranking the seasons! I guess with Kate/Peter popping up over and over I just get really tired? Mostly with Peter because it makes 0 sense that he’s faced no consequences to his actions. I wish we’d get more Derek without having to bring her back over and over again. A lot of my bitterness re: them is how bullshit it was to get rid of Kira and a bunch of other way interesting characters and have the gall to say

their arcs were “over” as if Kira going off into the desert to deal with her kitsune powers and then emerge LEVELED UP wasnt way more interesting than peter coming back for the hundredth time. Im excited for 6b, especially if its going to be them facing their fears and watching scott just blow everyone out of the water with his strength of character and his supportive speeches to his friends I cant wait. Im feeling very iffy about Scott/Malia bc it feels like theyre just shoehorning that

in to have scott have some romance without brining back KIRA LIKE THEY SHOULD Im sorry Im a broken record I’ll never get over Kira ever in my life watching them fall in love was like staring at a rainbow and especially the way they juxtaposed them with isaac/allison who were all sexual tension and snappy comments & god that was such a good season Im so sad always ANYWAYS If its cool Im going to come back to your ask box when 6B comes out and yell, I hope any of this was cohererent thank u

pls dw anon ur fine

scott being erased would have been so much bc then everybody would have got to go on and on about how much he meant to them, the lack of alpha would have been felt much more keenly, and instead of stiles’ mom coming back as the ghost rider, maybe allison could have come back? i know crystal reed was sick of playing a teenager, but she obviously wasn’t opposed to acting in the show again - that would have given everyone a lot of room to explore their grief related to her. IT WOULD HAVE BEEN SO MUCH BETTER. imagine if kira had been there! it would have given scott a chance to allow himself to move on and be with her because the real allison would want him to be happy, all that good stuff.

anyway re: the fandom & stiles i totally feel this like i love the boy!! but it’s so disheartening to see AO3 tags like “scott is a bad friend” WRONG, scott is the best friend anyone could ask for. even in season 1 when people say he’s at his worst, like, he’s young, and for the most part the worst thing he does to stiles is blow him off a few times when he’s in over his head and make out with lydia during the full moon. scott and stiles love each other man like to say one of them is secretly just The Worst friend is so dumb. that’s why i really like reading sciles fic - ppl who ship sciles like them both and typically tend to give them equal amounts of love in their work and usually do a pretty good job of keeping them IC. sciles fic is like…so Soft and cuddly honestly i love it when i want to read filth there’s always my rarepair

highkey agree with you re: kira like im finishing up my 6A rewatch as i type this and it’s SO INSULTING to bring back theo, who can do nothing, with kira’s sword, KIRA, who COULD ABSORB the lightning if they wanted to! you know who’s arc was over? THEO’S! like i’m WAY more tired of him than peter and kate - at least they’re fun to have on screen. theo just makes me wanna commit homicide

tbh the scott/malia feels like to my posey and the girl who plays malia started dating? like idk if they did or not, but the reasont he sheriff dated natalie is bc theyre married irl, the reason allison started dating isaac was because they were dating irl, and…idk, it just feels weird, to me, and ~unexpected~ which apparently JD loves (MELISSA WAS SUPPOSED TO GET WITH THE SHERIFF, HELLO), and like so far (again, aside from kira, where is kira, you’re gonna bring back all these people and not kira or for that matter DANNY??) that’s the only part of 6B i’m side-eyeing. i dont feel like it’s gonna work. but like i said, i’m keeping my expectations low. i did not in 1 zillion years expect to EVER, EVER see derek hale again, and here he is, so like…i’m just floating along on the sheer joy of that fact. tbqh. also have confirmation that my secret rarepair is gonna interact in 6B, so i’m just gonna like. like i said. 2much excitement for words. highkey gonna die

anyway pls feel free to come back to my inbox ANYTIME anon ur honestly a delight to chat with!!

[theradioghost]

i was tagged by the wonderful @vfdbeatrice

rules: answer the questions and tag 20 (or less… or none… or… all?) blogs you want to get to know better!

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Episode 7 “a clusterf*ck of paranoia”- Daisy

WEFUC K WE  SDFEDSX JUST VTOTED OUT KAREN FUCK AND I'M TRYNA RALLY OUR SPIRTS SBACK UP AND THEN ISAAC STARTS REMOVIN PEOPLE'S GRASSY ASSES FUCK FUKFCJD FUFK FUCK WE FEDS THIS HAS GOT TO BE A FUCKING MERBE A MERGE AT 14 HOLY GOLLY GOSH GOOD MOLLY MOSH WHAT THE FUCKDJX FUCK FUCK FKPDSOF I NEEDED MORE TIME FRIFODKF FCK

(a little bit later)

I'VE BEEN DYING TO MEET JOHNNY AND I FINALLY DID AND HE'S FUCKING EVERYTHING I'VE EVER FUCKING WANTED IN LIFE HE CALLS ME HOMIE AND I SWEAR TO GOD HE'S NOT LIKE EVERY OTHER FRAT BOY YOU'VE MET HE'S BEAUTIFUL AND GLORIOUS AND I WANT TO TRAVEL THE WORLD WITH HIM BUT I ALSO WANT TO KILL HIM AND STRANGLE HIM BUT I FUCKING LOVE EVERY SECOND OF THE EXPERIENCE I LOVE HOW MUCH I HATE HIM

https://youtu.be/JNaS_mOM3yY

first off rest in peace karen i thought you were supposed to be good since you play so much but.. i suppose the mighty power of the chicken wing is not a force in tumblr survivor. anywho, so we switched like everyone expected but for some reason everyone thought it was a fun idea to freak out and be like "omg is it merge???" "WHATS GOING ON" "I DONT UNDERSTAND" ctfu yall literally knew damn well what was happening. its final 14 like it aint rocket science. as for my tribe, ive said it before and i will say it again - I HATE PURPLE!!! GET ME OUT OF HERE!!! it is just not flattering against my skin tone and that is literally my number one concern at the moment. that might insult those who play this game like its life or death but to me... this is a very big aspect of my luck in the game. every time (literally not even joking) i get some ugly ass color, im fucked thats just the way it is and the weird blue that luca insists is cyan - get a crayon set pls - was working just fine for me! i was slayyyyinngggg without doing anything meaningful which is all that matters to me since its really fun watching people go crazy while i just sit here eating my nuggets in the break room. current thoughts of my tribemates and fellow one worlders: johnny - king of making final 2's and being in a frat. a dumbass who spilled his entire game once we swapped and got ratted out the second he did. stupid stupid stupid! i need him as a number tho so i cant be hasty with my opinions tho so like a 6/10 dana - has a paper to write. thats all i got right now 4/10 l.a. - A LITERAL FUCKING GODDESSSSSSS! all of the rookies should be bowing at her feet for trying so hard to make them safe cause if i was her... they would get a stern talking to and no help at all (plus she can clearly count which is more than i can do). 100000000/10 luca - literally victor next (i dont actually think he is victor but this dude is seriously wack like i just do not understand why he had the need to call me a grandma when im not even that old? like where is the residential hag when i need her zzzz. also he said he likes skype emojis and then used the cactus emoji which victor also uses so clearly something fucked up is happening!!!!!!!!) 1-ish/10 mitchell - fake hoe next (tho i do love the flattery so i guess they are right in saying it gets you everywhere cause ya got a ticket right on the bottom - word of the wise btwwww, next time you play pls stop taking advice from ya eggs cause they clearly do not help just ask karen in prejury hehe) 1-ish/10 ryan - king of all things survivor. how has he not won a ts season.... 10/10 allie - is from florida so either an icon like me or is like cole tbd. as luca said, can "air hump" really well??? not really useful info but thats all i got so next??? aro - im the 1. next. daisy - i hate the smell of flowers :| next jacob - legend was tagged in some nice pictures on facebook recently so he can stay. matt - lmao next willow - our friend willow teas? what comes after 6.gif. next. i really do not like talking to people and sadly i must. tho i just finished this one kdrama and it was like 50 episodes and the dad died literally in the last half hour of the entire show.... im crying i really am HE WAS A GOOD FUCKING PERSON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the world is so cruel and so harsh to the loving but so kind to the evil where did we go wrong :'( PPPPPPPS : [4/18/17, 11:29:35 PM] nancy.sweitzer: shut up trump supporter [4/18/17, 11:29:42 PM] nancy.sweitzer: i have receipts of you supporting trump BB i need some food to watch this with so lets have reward hm?

I'm both so happy and scared about this swap. BLESS ULAWA BEING GONE. THAT WAS THE WORST TRIBE. IT DOESN'T DESERVE TO EXIST. But yeah, a few people came to me and were like you carried that tribe and are amazing, and as nice as that is, YOU DON'T WANNA HEAR IT ON SURVIVOR. Cause now I have a huge target on my back for being a "challenge icon". I do not trust Daisy or Aro at all either so I'm worried they will gun for me, but they are both on the other tribe so that's a plus... Maybe, this one world thing doesn't help me there. Now I have to catch up with Jacob, and the rest of the alliance and see where we all stand. I'm trying to set something up with Johnny as well cause we sort of clicked at the start and I need people.

im too sick to carry on. i cant even see the light im too far gone

Hi MTV welcome to my own private corner of Hell. Seriously I guess my burning desire for some action really warranted this swap that put me in a terrible ass position. I love the One World beach because I can wave to literally every single person I was working with as they wear their Makira buffs with pride and I am stuck with all Rookies and Zak! The only people I know are Zak and Jacob, and Zak threw Daisy's name out and Jacob says he trusts Daisy so I can't even wrangle all my loose allies to form a little alliance. I'm just going to use my social game to earn favor with people like Willow and Allie so that I can maybe survive juuuuuust long enough to make it to the merge and reconnect with my homies. I'm sort of praying for a miracle, but I'm also going to do whatever I can to survive, and if that means throwing Jacob or Zak under the bus then so be it. I am scrambling like eggs in the morning. Hopefully I can convince people to target Aro for his wishy washy nature and because I have planted the seed that he has an idol, and honestly maybe he does, so I smell a blindside coming up, but if they're not willing to budge then I could be a dead boy walken.

Dana mom doesnt approve of the act of sending nudes but like I don't spread em like seeds in a pumpkin patch (like this swap is doing w my alliance tbqh) or anything not everyone gets to see the goods

(a little bit later)

All right binches here's the tea! Daisy has an idol, and is trying to get people to think aro has the idol bc he made up a lie about a fake idol that he doesn't have, which saved his ass a few rounds back, and Jacob and Allie are saying Aro is sketchy. NOW thats not what I like hearing because Aro is my husband and all, so automatically my Worry Senses are tingling as they usually are it would seem. What I'm tryna do is scrape together a me/willow/aro/Matt majority (since allie apparently doesn't trust aro so I can't trust her) but I suck at approaching people so it sucks that dana and Mitchell aren't on my tribe to help me :( but get for being the least experienced vet in tumblr left in this game I think I'm in a moderately decent position

Well Day 2 of NuNuTemoana is quite interesting, I'm starting to create scenarios that will hopefully put me in a good situation. A) NuNuMakira will throw the challenge and vote out Luca or LA and B) I create an alliance with Willow and Allie and we become the swing votes between Jacob/Daisy and Zak/Aro and if Daisy or Aro have idols they're shooting their bullets at each other and I've got a bulletproof vest. Fingers crossed.

I'm gonna model the rest of my game after Cirie bc boy does she have me fucked up seven ways to Sunday right-about-now o'clock Also I'm not gonna be home again after tomorrow until May except for one day in between so this whole new tribe/quickly approaching merge thing is gonna get really sad for me when I randomly just disappear forever :)

The past few days have been a whirlwind. From uncovering that dirty business with Matt to this One World swap, I find myself in a tribe in which I'm not sure if I can stay safe. It hurts that I can't compete in this next immunity too. I trust Johnny/LA, but as far as the rest? Question marks all over. I like Mitchell a lot, still haven't talked with Dana much, I have no clue about Ryan/Lexi but Johnny says Lexi is tight with him. So I'm really not sure what happens if we lose an immunity here, and winning challenges might be my only shot to stay in the game. So what happens next? No clue.

MMMMHMHMHMHMHMHM YES!!! Willow finally spilled the tea which confirmed our suspicions on Karen :))) now alls I need is Lexi to get the fuck out and I can be satisfied by outlasting all the snakes

So I've officially worked my way into an alliance with Allie and Willow, hopefully they're not playing me and we can actually work towards getting out Daisy or Aro. Now Mitchell wants me to get Daisy out so we can rope in Aro and Zak at the merge but I also have somewhat of a relationship with Jacob from nuTemoana and he seems to have a relationship with Daisy so I am hopefully safely in the middle of this tribe and will be deciding this vote, but there's also a large chance I'm gonna get squashed smack dab in the middle. I mean ideally we win immunity and the other tribe can get out LA or Luca which would be great. I need these rookie numbers thinned like the mints so that I have options if I'm in the merge. I have my Doofenshmirtz Evil Inc. Alliance which is Ryan, Mitchell, and Dana, I have nuTemoana which is Johnny, Jacob, Lex, and Ryan, and I have a possible alliance with Allie, Willow, and Mitchell. Preferably I wanna work with Mitchell because I trust him the most so far. But of course none of these numbers I'm running in my head matter if I can't make it until the merge which is crazy to me.

i wasnt successful in covering up my misery. i dont even know why i said i could do it since the only thing on that entire menu (all of the drink choices included) i actually do enjoy is the oreos so who knows what i was thinking. im going to get voted out i really am

tag yourself. im luca saying he cant compete cause they use blue solo cups instead of red solo cups in his country. isaac is la's roommate not letting her use her waterbottle. andrew is ryan only having glass in his house. pippa is matt actually doing this. stefan is willow beating the crap out of me. IM GOING HOME

Well I couldn't get it done today and that's a little disheartening, I definitely feel like I could be in danger and when you have the chance to save yourself and don't do it it sucks. I guess now my focus is on playing this game for like the first time this season honestly, a lot of things are at stake in this tribal, there's idols there's alliances there's tribe swaps, there's beef in this game, and I feel like hopefully I can shift the attention towards Daisy vs. Aro, but there's also a lurking nuMakira alliance that might form and getting an Ulawa out wouldn't do anything in the long run but I need to play to make it so that I'm safe until tomorrow or else there won't even be a long run. I wanted to be in a position where I could run a marathon but instead I'm like running a relay race tribal to tribal. If I get rid of Daisy Jacob may lose trust in me and join a Makira alliance, but also maybe I'll just join the Makira alliance myself? I mean I told myself I would do what it takes to win, my obligations are to myself at this point, not Temoana not Makira, not Vets, but MESELF. Well who knows at this point what's gonna happen, hopefully my plan works.

MATT STFU CALLING ME OUT IN THE MAIN CHAT YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Literally your ass would not be in this game right now if I didn't win the challenge where we counted in our confessional. The plan was in play, you were going to be gone, we had the numbers, and now you're on a tribe where it's minority veterans, so hopefully Allie and Willow aren't idiots, and they just take out Matt because he's kind of an arrogant prick, but I'm sure that something sketchy is going to happen, and they're going to take out a rookie, probably Aro or Daisy since apparently they're being sketchy motherfuckers. Grrrrrrrr Matt needs to stfu. I still have quotes of him talking about LA, so I might use that to my advantage, but we'll see how this goes for now. I'm not ready for merge and these unpredictable motherfuckers in Allie and Willow.... I have no idea where either of their heads are at. As for my tribe right now, I'm 99% sure that Lex, Ryan and I are in the driver's seat on this tribe, with Luca, LA, Mitchell and Dana all wanting to work with us. I wouldn't mind losing to get rid of Dana, because I really really really want her out, simply because I haven't spoken to her as much, and I'd prefer to have good relationships with everyone once we get to merge, and I don't want anyone to think about taking me out of this game because I don't have a good enough relationship with them, so we'll see for now. Ryan hinted this morning that he'd prefer Mitchell to go home over Dana, but I want Dana to go home, and I wanna keep my brolationship with Mitchell for as long as I can. This is just fuel for fire I can use against Ryan if I have to, to get Mitchell to trust me, since according to Ryan, Mitchell is obsessed with me.. I also won the challenge for my tribe single handedly because I'm the king of this game, and no one is on my level strategically, socially or physically if we're being honest. I just need to NOT be known as that big threat once I get to merge. Time to just pit people against each other and throw shit and sound dumb like I always  do ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Fuck this is so nerve wracking. I hate that I'm at tribal again. And I've recently been really anxious about the fact that L.A. knows I have an idol, and just now I found out that a lot of people know that I have it. Which means L.A. has been telling people. Which also means that I'm kind of screwed. I want to get out Aro because I know how tricky he is and how terrible he is in challenges, but he has the idol and if he plays it I could very well be going home. Plus I'm realizing that I don't really have any solidified alliances with a lot of these people so I could easily be targeted, especially since they think I have an idol. Honestly part of me just wants to play it tonight and get rid of it and get it off my back. Or give it to someone. But if I give it to someone, then other people will still think I have it and I'll still be a target. I could try to split the votes, but that seems kind of aggressive and I don't want to make myself a target if I'm not one already. Ugh, fuck. I wish I had someone to talk this over with.

(a little bit later)

Whew I know I just submitted but I have so many thoughts right now. Aro seems to think things are gonna go along tribe lines and it's gonna be me and him as swing votes. Willow brought up Aro's name to me. I'm nervous that Willow maybe brought up his name to make me feel more secure about it, and maybe I'm the target. Maybe Aro is right and things are gonna go along past tribe lines but I don't really want to work with him. Maybe I could try to split the votes between me and Aro and I'll play my idol and get rid of it. That would be dumb though, right? I hate that we have so little time and that like, no one is online right now. It's so hard to plan. Jacob told me he cast his vote for Aro because he only had a couple minutes before he had to leave and he wouldn't be gone. So theres gonna be at least one vote for him. Unless everyone is lying to me. Fuck I'm so paranoid right now, but I don't know how to figure out if its just paranoia or if there's actually something there. Also I'm trying to seem invested in planning out the vote with Aro so that he doesn't think I'm targeting him, but he could also quote me to others and make them think I'm targeting them. So now it seems like I have Willow, Matt, Jacob, and Allie all voting for Aro with me. Aro wants to target a vet and apparently he's close with Zakriah which means we may want to divert Zakriah too so that he doesn't leak to Aro and have him play an idol. But now I'm worried by suggesting that we divert Zakriah I'm playing too aggressively. Ugh. Aro said he's gonna talk to the rookies and see who they would rather vote for, I told them I'm trying to divert him so that they're not confused or surprised that he says I wanna vote for a vet when I already targeted him. This is a lot to deal with, and we don't have a lot of time. Tbh this confessional is a clusterfuck of paranoia.

Okay so I'm out with friends and don't have time to write a real confessional but I don't wanna get a strike. So if I get home in time I'll write a real confessional yeah

I think for the first time in Survivor history one of my plans is actually working, it seems that Daisy is totally sold that Aro is going and voting me and it's awesome if she ends up getting blindsided as intended. Jacob is getting two votes because he sucks and I want him to know he should be worried, he threw my name out, and he's untrustworthy, even after like I pretended like i was interested in his crush that he talks about at least once a day, it's almost more satisfying knowing that I can flip and get him out if I really wanted to. In fact I have my choice to vote Daisy, Aro, or Jacob, and if I'm not getting played that wold mean I've spun this terrible swap into a great spot for myself, and I love it. See what happens when I get a chance to really play?

I am so screeeeewed. So basically everyone except Daisy and Jacob wants to vote for Daisy but I am about 90% sure this is bs and I am getting set up for a big blindside. Well, it wont really be a blindside now but rip me

Okay so I only really have 13 mins to type out a fuck ton of information. This vote is crazy, so much has happened and we only had a few hours to strategize for this tribal. Anyway originally me and Allie were thinking about voting Daisy bc she told LA she has an idol, but then LA sent screenshots of Aro's idol. So I was panicking for a moment bc I thought it was real, but I talked to people, and he was probably really desperate, so i think were sticking to voting out Aro. I'm just typing out the short version of what actually happened, bc I don't have a lot of time, but basically me and Allie are the swing votes and I hope everything goes as planned.

As we near tribal Im starting to get the teeniest glimmer of hope. Willow, Allie and Matt seems to be pretty interested in working with me. If it goes according to plan its going to be 3 votes Daisy, 2 votes Jacob and 2 votes me. However Im still about 80% sure that Im going to get blindsided tonight so fingers crossed