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squirmydonnie · 11 months ago

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Everytime my brain does one of these movements it leaves me with less songs I allow.mjslef to listen to.

So overtime I just have these songs in my playlist I skip over. It's the bulk of the songs.

Certain songs are cookie 12 or cookie 12 adjacent. Those songs I would only listen to for daydreaming purposes. Meaning listening to them would pose danger or something. What the heck.

And then for the rest of them it would bring up something in my head I'm not supposed to be thinking about.

All songs are ejected.

I do have exceptions to the rule. But there aren't too many of them.ove r

Vent for tags:

#cheeseburgerboy #cookie12 #i need to.go to sleep #i have not had a day during the weekend not at church.#want delete thisn.s.s.#its soynds stupid.#trying for feeling on paper or words but i cannot describe.#there isn't explanation #so much to be more regular. i don't want to send message that its not worth it or good idea for me. i am afraid that #think its not worth it. it is but i is diffurclut mdon wnatbto let down #not dicouraged.#its not to be alone. i want to share more truth. i don't want to make hurt when hear it from me #i can't tell my parents because its transgender related. they will think the trans is caused by the thoughts or things #its not cuased by anthing. its just what i become.#im not as afraid of telling any of the dark stuff though i don't think.i every could.#i don't think i could see them so upset. they would be sad. i wouldn't do it. i don't think i wll be able to say them #i want to say it here but i can't even explain here. or say why #to sacred #to worried.#would rather say it now.#i don't wnat to wait till i am ready. i want to be ready now. but i am not ready.#don't take it wrong #i know can't hadle perceptions but i do jot care #leave it alsone #stay.#reading over the tags it sound like its the problem now bit i am bot feelingvthta wasy. its nownpast i don't want this now. its not okfau.#don3thj nk thatm.#i can't make words what i want to say.#i can't makw thought what i want tonthink #its not problem right now

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