#im not actually blocking it bc its acrylic

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sweater's done! i just have to let it dry before i can get better pics

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                   hllo ! i’m nora ( she / her, 24, gmt ) crawling back to this rp once more like the dirty sewer slug i am !! i just can’t get enough, baybeyyy ! u may remember me frm such roles as alma putnam, rory bergstrom, bridget matusiak or greta o’driscoll 2 name jst a few.... sure there were more over these long years, bt the show must go on.... this is mimi, she’s dogmatic, tenacious n single-minded 2 the point of recklessness, she doesn’t like handouts n she’s funding her degree through her onlyfans account n moaning abt shit on tiktok. we love 2 see it !!  slam that like button n i’ll creep into ur DMs like the slippery worm i am   OR u can discord me at that bitch carole baskin#8664.   a humble pinterest.

『ALEXA DEMIE ❙ CIS-FEMALE 』 ⟿ looks like MIMI MARTÍNEZ is here for HER SOPHOMORE year as an ARCHITECTURE AND SOCIAL ANTHROPOLOGY student. SHE is 22 years old & known to be STRONG-WILLED, GOAL-ORIENTED, ARROGANT & EASILY BORED. They’re living in MORIS, so if you’re there, watch out for them. ⬳ nora. 24. gmt. she/her.

this is p embarassing but i actually originally wrote mimi for a discord rp based around love island asgjag dont laugh at me but it was so chaotic n someone deleted it w-out telling any of us so i lost her bio.... all her threads....e verythin.... it was mad. but anyway we startin from scratch w this intro so bare with

mimi is a really extra character so when trying to flesh her out i thot of the most extra thing i could do n made a colour coded mindmap with watercolour paints detailing her values, aesthetics and early life. shoot me

background: she grew up in a trailer home in boulder city, abt half an hour from vegas. her mom had worked in a vegas casino for most of her 20s but relocated to boulder city for a slower pace of life / lower crime rate when she started having kids. mimi has 2 older brothers n she’s the youngest. has that invulnerable younger sibling complex n basically thinks nothing can touch her. very confident in her own intelligence and her ability to get shit done 

has mexican ancestry on her mom’s side. doesn’t know her dad. was raised with spanish catholic principals n found it all very stained glass windows and extra n that’s why she was kinda drawn to the decadence of vegas and all these massively high key aesthetics, like dia de les muertos was her fave thing growin up just bcos the pure feel of the festival and painting a sugar skull on her face n being able to party on the streets in a flower crown where everyone was kinda anonymous but together in this celebration

in boulder city her mom worked as a carer as there’s a lot of retirees there. mimi really resented the slow pace of life, longed for some fucking energy n life. she was a cheerleader in school but outside of school there wsn’t much to do except practise stunts and go on bike rides.  occasionally they’d get dressed up and catch a bus to henderson, the next biggest city for them to get tht sweet night life

her teenage years consisted mostly of hanging around the renovated motel blocks used as housing projects n tanning by the pool. very florida project if you’ve seen that. she reminds me a lot of the mum in that. also she started working as an avon rep going door-to-door when she was 16 bcos she wanted to have her own income. like as young as 14 she’d decided she was smart enough to go to college but she didn’t have the money n her family didn’t really see it as a worthwhile thing, her mom was very like the mom from matilda “you chose books.... i chose looks!” which i think is where a lot of mimi’s more shallow / appearance-driven traits come from

wasn’t really ‘cool’ until high school. before that she was a bit of a lisa simpson type. won a spelling bee when she was 9. was in the mathletes squad in middle school. when she went from middle school to high school she started cheer and tried to reinvent herself basically. always been very concerned with social mobility and keen to socially climb, like when she enters a new situation she’ll find out who the alphas are and quickly try n befriend them

when she turned 18 she moved out and went to vegas despite her mom hating the idea bcos it was everything she’d tried to get her kids away from. she worked in the clubs there for several years as a shot girl, a table dancer, n eventually she started workin behind the bar in a strip club. in the club it ws really hard to resist becoming a dancer bcos of the sheer amount they made in tips. no one really pressured her into it she just eventually decided tht it was way more logical to do it while she was young n fit and had the stamina and ppl were willing to pay to see her body so she started taking pole fitness lessons. she also started working as a cam girl around this time

working in vegas strip clubs is basically whats paid for uni. like she didn’t go at 18 like most of her friends did bcos she didn’t have the money and she didn’t want to feel indebted to a college like she had to compete for her place and not put a toe out of line bcos she was on a scholarship. she was determined to pay her own way and it took 4 years of working really hard and saving n even tho she was working in vegas she basically never went out bcos every penny she had needed to go on uni n thts how we get to radcliffe baybeeyy

part 2  - interior / values / personality

values: the aesthetic !! literally loves the aesthetic so much. everything she owns is super embellished, she’s a pop socket gal, her dell laptop is covered in glitzy stickers, she always has acrylics n probs makes nail art videos on tiktok. really tuned into tiny details like painting a little hello kitty above her eye which translates into her degree when she’s doing small-scale mockups of town plans n stuff... she jst puts so much detail into them. ppl often get surprised when she tells them she does architecture but it makes so much sense bcos she grew up in a trailer park n was always thinking about ways the space could be more efficiently used, like she loves re-conceptualising neighbourhoods, definitely spent hours on sims as a kid. she also grew up near hoover dam n so loads of school trips they just took them there n she was like.... this is tight but it could be cooler.... where’s the passion....

massively into photography, has such a neat instagram feed like everything just compliments the tones in the next post like mMMM. idk if any of u know any architecture students but this is literally the one constant i can find…. like they all have super good instagrams feeds. is that bitch that will take 40 fake candids of u in a row at different angles to get u the perfect profile picture cos she understands the importance of marketing urself and having an online #brand

has wire rimmed glasses that she doesn’t need to see BUT they r like a magnifying glass for when she’s working with really small materials to do a mock up of an urban plan, and also just sometimes wears them for the aesthetic bc she’s such a pinterest bitch

assassination nation is such a big mood. literally the aesthetics of that and lily colson’s whole brand of feminism and nudity not being inherently sexual but at the same time wanting to profit off that bcos why the fuck shouldnt she use a corrupt system to her advantage is incredibly mimi

literally a human personification of a bratz doll both in attitude and fashion sense

somehow simultaneously gansey in the raven cycle AND elle woods in legally blonde? the two genders 

values cont bc i started rambling: her independence and freedom. being the best at any given task she sets her mind to accomplish because she is unable to accept failure. social mobility. sexual liberation. interested in the psychology of sub-cultures and how ppl form groups and interact w each other and cult identities which is why she minors in anthropology. pro-choice. pro-weed legalisation. pro-sex worker rights. very activist.

aesthetics tht remind me of her: von dutch. a strappy cami top that says ‘please do not do coke in the bathroom’. low-waisted jeans that show off her belly button piercing. acrylic nails tapping against a heavily embellished second-hand dell laptop. heart shaped sunglasses in every colour. translucent stripper heels with barbie doll heads and plastic spiders in the heel. spraying champagne you cant afford all over the walls. narcotics in a heart shaped locket. an amazon wishlist full of lingerie linked on your tinder profile. sex tapes recorded on VCR. a religious devotion to waxing clinics. necking shots like you were born to do it.

she’s an enfj type which makes her pretty charismatic and confidence, like she has a fierce kind of energy to her, but she’s also super unwilling to accept criticism, dogmatic and can only really see her own way of thinking, quite ruthless when it comes 2 other ppls emotions despite having a poor control of her own and being prone to turbulence / throwin a bitch fit in the craft lab. easily bored. competitive. self-assured to the point of arrogance. forceful. adaptable. usually more rational than emotional but occasionally loses the ability to make rational decisions when blinded by a need for perfectionism.

very goal-oriented. money motivates her. money and clothes. she wants to look bomb while earning big bucks. when she gets her mind set on a project it literally consumes her she will forget to eat and sleep? i don’t know her.  like when a final design project is due for architecture she’ll be up all night doing adderall and speed to keep her awake working on the placement of a single tree for ages cos its gotta be perfect

loves chaos. will spill your secrets and pretend it was an accident. will always be that gif of kim kardashian sipping her tea while drama unfolds around her. lives for the drama like that gifset of bratz when she comes running and gets her phone out to record a fight.

im makin her sound like a really bad person but hopefully she’ll be somewhat likeable she can be very charismatic and endearing and she’s naturally quite funny. also now she’s finally in college and doesn’t have to worry so much about money she actually allows herself to party n bcos she denied herself of it for so long she kinda makes up for it by going p wild like will be the girl climbing on to stage to crowd surf at gigs or doing a summersault off the bar and being escorted out by bouncers, thats the energy were looking at, pure dionysian hedonistic impulse

really gd at talking her way out of shit like parking fines. so good at being an ‘im baby’ girl and often dumbs herself down to figures of authority to appear less like a threatening ball-breaker and more like a confused fiat 500 girl who didn’t know red meant stop she thought it meant slow down

listens almost exclusively to female artists. has fergalicious on repeat when she does squats infront of the mirror n just the biggest fergie stan. also lana del rey’s whole vibe is massive mimi energy

ok ya thats all i have for now..... hopefully this is somewhat coherent and not just garbage.

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WEEK 7

A new week, a new day! Let’s hope we can finish thisNew ideas:

1. A wall blocks the user from seeing “the other user” behind the wall. This represents isolation and the act of wearing a mask.  When users walk past, he would be able hear “the other user” talking and  would reply saying hello?. “the other user” behind the wall would pause for a while and say “oh i didn’t know anyone would hear me”. Their conversation goes on till “oh don’t worry about me, you won’t have to till i’m gone”. (conversation is fully recorded and implied into the artefact, no manpower needed when on display)  Just the  sentence itself gives the user the creeps and would want the user to do something  about it. But since users know this conversation won’t continue, users can pin  notes of encouragement on the walls to show that everyone can help to impact his life. Users can then hashtag their conversation or story to share the unknown but scary story of depression. Experimentation:

Kinds of replies users will give

Voices that sound harmless but approachable

Other than wall, what else can be a form of separation?

What will attract them to go over from afar

2. Masks hanging from a ceiling, it’s pure white. In every eye of the mask would be different words describing what it is like falling into depression. The deeper the person walks in, the deeper they go into depression. (eg, outer layer: fault, middle layer: terror, last layer: death). Users can hashtag to share their story with a mask blocking their face or partially “taken off”

Taking inspiration from this

3. People with depression easily put on a mask every single day in fear of being misunderstood. However those that are sad usually make it known. Front looks like drug capsule casing to show that addictions trap these people, within the capsule casing is a row of happy masks and the second row a row of sad faces, when users walk to the back of the capsule case, the masks are cabinet-like which can be opened up to show their thoughts. So example the sad one would say “i dropped my chicken on the floor today” whereas the depressed would say something like “don’t worry you won't have to once i'm gone”. Users can then hashtag to show that depression is not all just emotions.

Possible areas for experimentation:

Material of capsule for it to be sturdy

Cabinet material

Mask material

4. A wall blocks the user from seeing “the other user” behind the wall. This represents isolation and the act of wearing a mask.  When users walk past, he would be able hear “the other user” talking and  would reply saying hello?. “the other user” behind the wall would pause for a while and say “oh i didn’t know anyone would hear me”. Their conversation goes on till “oh don’t worry about me, you won’t have to till i’m gone”. (conversation is fully recorded and implied into the artefact, no manpower needed when on display)  Just the  sentence itself gives the user the creeps and would want the user to do something  about it. But since users know this conversation won’t continue, users can pin  notes of encouragement on the walls to show that everyone can help to impact his life. Users can then hashtag their conversation or story to share the unknown but scary story of depression.

Can make it into a well

- well bc isolation, dropped into the dark world and its hard to get out

- then when people look in the audio will start talking.

- what if we have a lot of masks inside.

- CTA also is write on the brick of the well

Huei’s consultation

idea1

- Wall brick

- How do you know people will respond bc it is an exhibit?

- How are you going to encourage people to actually voice out and speak? They hear sound but they wont say anything because they know is fake

- They only write notes if its a real situation or impactful enough

- Those that that will move people enough to be able to reach out and share their story

- We are communication project not art project

- What makes this different from a art project?

- How do you know its a communication project? How can you tell that its about depression?

- Whole wall full of question, then people touch which question then it answer

- Its like a convo and when u discover more u go deeper and deeper

- Typo wall

Idea 2

- Hanging mask

- How do they know its depression?

- Only words? Whats on the mask?

- Interesting idea, if people see bunch of mask they will go

- Only words? Maybe add more

- Any idea how to make them feel more isolated when they go in

- How to do up the environment to add to the feel

- Whats the call to action?

- Think about the expression.

- Should it be all same? Or some smiling some normal.

Idea3

- Part 1 and part 2 thing

- Part 1 is not clear.

- What can the viewer learn other than emotions

- Link them to website?

- Dont think is very strong and experimental

- Think about communication online

- Hashtag where?

E.g. instagram, anything that can be happening and experimental on instagram?

- They dont get to see if they just post and dont click on it

- Maybe when they post they can see a video thats experimental

Idea 4

- What if by doing smth they can save the person up

- As you pull it activates words of encouragement

- Audio of how you can help the person

- NEW MEDIA LAST YEAR

- Something pitch dark and someone keep crying and crying

David’s Consultation on that same day

- YOU GONNA BUILD A WELL !?!?!!?

- TUNNEL

- MIRROR

- CUT HOLE IN THE MIDDLE

- GIVE PEOPLE THE HOLLOW TUNNEL FEEL

- How real how interesting will the well be?

- Art friend mask very common

- Happy mask?

- Tunnel is already hiding

- Exterior “laughing”

- Inside is what they think is reality

- Outside is the reality

- Outside shld be im fine

- Inside is im not and im sucked in.

- Pillar is strong outside

- Inside cracking

- Inside stick alot of pictures of emotions, and then you repeat (diff emotions of depression)

- In all kinds of setting and lightings

- Tunnel of emotions

- What makes the outside seem strong? pilar?

- Shows strength and stability

- Huge and slender? Flower on the outside? Inside creepy

- Create contrast

- Door parts? Doll parts?

- Symbolism

- zen garden kinda feel using wall plaster on the wall? Hypnotic looks?

- Think of form

- 2 sticks with a wrapped canopy around? What does it mean?

- Carpeted grass?

- Acrylic mirrors: lighter and they are actually mirrors

- Mirror put top and bottom so it can reflect

- There must be light so it can reflect

- How to tell people that is depression? What if its the same person?

- There must be a sign, sign and sound that shows depression

- It could be like he is reading a poem: emotionless

- Audio could be outside and inside

- SOUND IS VERY IMPORTANT

- Circular is harder to make, polygon or straight lines will make it easier?

- What kind of lights to use?

- CTA: if you need help, hashtag/ youtube video with the person from the,  augmented reality? Snapchat kinda film? Don’t go too high tech

- Inception app- CHECK IT OUT

- Can put a mic in the tunnel

- Can use garageband to recreate the app using a mic

- Add echo and reduce the pitch of the person

Idea 2

- Why masks?

- If i walk in and walk back it will be back of the mask

- Not rly walking deep

- More like in the midst of the crowd

After David’s consultation, we illustrated out what we wanted to go with.

Luke’s consultation the next day

A house totally no light

Experiment-put experiment and see if people will put their head in

If floating then people will go down and see

Curtain

What will make a person tat want to explore further and put their head in.

Make people think  that underneath can see

Colour cubes outside?

THINGS TO EXPERIMENT:

Whether people will put their head in

Exterior of the artefact

Interior of artefact

Audio

Photography style

Lighting

Alfred’s consultation that same day

- How you know people will stick their head in

- Record all the lines and distort it and let it play and overlooping

- How does it solve the problem? - Keep it simple

- Depression do u look up or down

- Last year senior did a hole thing but fail

- Flashy lights is a draw

- Make it small so when we look in is big

- Looking down , looking into depression mind

- Rationale abit

- Translucent acrylic sheet on outside

- “Inside” led lights

- Attraction problem, how to make people put their heads in

- How do you know they will have to put their head down?

- Wonderland of cubes being stacked up, randomly placed. Boxes changing colours

- One of the boxes allows you to take a peek in to see the “tunnel”

- Create sounds like whispers that won’t be able to hear unless goes near the box

- Ear buds put on full blast, play whispers, will give the creeps

After the consultation, we went over to Xinyi’s house to get things done. We tried to place experimenting with the interior and the placement and creation of the lighted boxes.

David’s consultation that Friday

- The distance from the mirrors may be a little to near to each other hence unable to achieve the “tunnel” effect.

- Images may be a bit contrasting,images like polaroid then write over the pictures

- Colours outside must blend with the inside.

- If you have a glowing effect, what does the emotion show? Create contrast

- Created a yin and yang effect. Use clean colours

- You can’t reveal too early. Inform the users that it’s from care corner singapore.

- CTA, what makes them curious to find out about the hashtag?

- White wall for the person to write on. So they know how to comfort others. Take this as a practice. Glow is like a state of consciousness.

- Can use flickering candles on the inside.

- Must have an interesting form. But a little overkill.

- Need smth shocking on the outside

- Outside could be an abstract form of the face? Eyes? Look into the person’s eye

- Stocking material, stretch and wrap around, styrofoam balls (rotting flesh)

- Can put things that relate to the person. Panty hose, organic shapes.

- Box with mirrors inside but nails outside (person suppressed)

- Can heal the person with words

- Toothpicks and lights, test for effects

- SETTLE FORM FIRST

- How to get people to write first? Convince them with the sound.

Things to do:

Form

Will notes make the artefact beautiful

With these in mind, we rethought through our artefact. and came up with this

And did up our prototype

We also tested on our photography

let’s hope we’ll finish in time