#im never gonna stop thinking abt this or talking abt it it is literally everything
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literally no matter how u look at it patrick was planning on playing hallelujah before he even got to the piano, he no doubt knew 27 was coming later and Chose to play that. he played that for pete. that was literally just for pete and pete alone. people tease patrick for not being very outwardly affectionate like pete is when talking about their friendship but he just played the song that saved petes life for pete on stage in front of thousands of people . if that is not love i dont know what is
#like. their friendship is so full of love and sweet and pure and beautiful and this is so. this is so meaningful i cant handle it#im never gonna stop thinking abt this or talking abt it it is literally everything#txt#fob#fall out boy#p: 100#p: 500
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i like overthink everything now it makes me feel so dumb. i used 2 be able to just talk 2 ppl but nowadays every single thing im like Is that actually going to make them hate me. Yes probably. and then i just dont respond which makes ppl hate me. this is how it is
#ive been overthinking 1 light and casual mildly funny response to something but im worried itll come off as disrespectful and dismissive And#make me seem stupid and uncaring all at the same time. and also be seen as insulting. but like idt itd be insulting right like. im not#saying what it is so ig for all you guys know im like I mean if i say All your shit suck ball and i hateit kys. <- thats not the thing i was#going to say#like it doesnt matter now the window for response is closed now but i feel stupid bc i shouldve just said it it was light and casual. im so#bad at keeping convos gojng im convinced im not going to survive. In like a light and casual way like in a He will not make it through the#winter joke way. dw. im not going to do anything bc i had One failed interaction. if i was going to do anythjng itd be bc of the 8000000#other failed interactions. But im not. anyways. it just makes me feel so useless 😭 like i want to respond i want to talk to ppl so bad but#i feel like i mess things up Irreparably every time i speak OR i take too LONG overthinking my response and then i just cant respond bc its#been too long and then its been 3 years and the only messages ive ever sent r my intro message and 1 message 2 years ago that nobody#responded to at all. or the conversation stopped immediately after. and like i used to be better at this i was lkke. talkative in a couple#muts servers like. i talked 2 ppl daily in those servers and i had fun and like. I was an important part of the group and i felt like it#but i just feel like such an outsider for Everything and its literally my fault bc i cant just like. Talk. The explosion. bc im always like#im gonna try im gonna do it this time im gonna get it back im going to finally be Good connor and im going to fix it all and make a Good#solid friend group and ill find HEALTHY LOVE and i wont selfsabotage and ill move out and have a job and ill balance it well and ill start#all my hobbies and ill have a great routine and be so loveable and on top of it and not stressed and content and happy and roll with the#punches and then theres a single hiccup and im like Well fuckinf whatever im going to be an unemployed hermit forever and im going to die b4#im 25 anyways so Who cares and also im digging a little hole for myself. and its like. AUGHH ik i just have to persevere and overcome but#even saying that feels so stupid its not fucking hard its Talking to ppl. like. i literally if ive ever said a word to you i had to think#avt it and strategize how to respond right even for like. like. it makes it sound like its not genuine it is#like for example i want to say hey i love your art! but then i freak out and im like thats not normal thats like a rly generic comment they#hear that all the time theyll thjnk im being polite and my brains like hrmmm rewrite Your art changed my life. It shaped me. Ill never be#the same. Nad im like ok too far overcorrected go back and the sentence generator is like Your art has colors 💯 like. GOD. WHY IS IT SO#difficult. and then usually i either just dont say anythinf and feel awful abt it 4ever OR i send it on anon and then i spend like 15#minutes ibsessively slightly tweaking the apelling and capitalization and punctuation to make sure it doesnt seem like its me just in case#it Is the worst possible thing to say but then i see the response and itll be like AWWW TYSM :] THIS MEANS A LOT or whathaveyou and i feel#stupid bc i couldve just Told them this to their face and it wouldve been a good positive interaction we had. but instead i had 2 hide and#tyoe entirely differently so they couldnt sniff me from my typing style. and it soesnt even feel like the thanks is actually 4 me bc i#tweaked the message sm. and it still makes me happy that the oersons hapoy but its like. that couldve been a nice mutual interaction#like not that i need a personal ty i compliment ppl when i Want to compliment ppl and when its genuine yk. i dont do it so i get mutualpoint
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sometimes I talk to my dad abt controversial things and/or literally give my opinion and he responds and I'm just like 'yeah no you're why people dont like me'
#me sayjng that I dont agree with his opinion but sure you can think his way but heres why i dont agree and him going 'yes no ofcourse you're#right because you're always right and never open for different opinions and not nuanced and and and' in the most sarcastic way and I'm just#standing there like '??? I ended my piece saying y ur opinion could also be right wtf' and he is like 'no im sure because i know these#kinda things' and me and my mom ask for evidence and he gets mad bc no he knows this obviously he just knows this#and then 5 minutes later he goes (non sarcastically) 'yea kyle can do anything' and then when i respond w 'ye sure' he gets mad#bc he sees it as me not being able to take a compliment#SIR I CAN IN FACT NOT DO ANYTHING U LIT TOLD ME I'M BLATENTLY WRONG AND MY OPINION IS WRONG 5 MINUTES AGO#stop telling me I'm perfect AT EVERYTHING ALL THE TIME PLEASE#anyway slay i dont like him as a man and yet he makes me feel like im not allowed to#and shames me when i make it clear I dont like being around him as much#anyway hes a sucky sucky man a lot of the time and atp I'm like 90% sure hes a narcissist but idk enough abt it#anyway fat slay#I'm literally never coming out to him as trans bte bc when one of his closest friends came out as a women and said she was going to#transition he saw it as unfair to HIM because its hard for HIM to lose a friend and he didn't know how to deal with that so she was a bad#friend for doing that. also I'm his favourite little girl to this day like sir....im a 24 yr old whos not called themselves a woman in like#6 yrs please catch on#god so much to talk abt w/him thats to much I'm not gonna trauma dump#anyway he sucks#he just can't seem to grab onto me thinking he sucks
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I used to have a really giant family like tons of tias and tios and cousins and i say used to cause like it seems like after my grandparents died on both sides both families seemed to never speak again and i had no chance to even try and keep hold of those ties i was in elementary school watching my parents marriage crash and burn in real time dealing with major death in the family and then subsequent family abandoning me at the tender age of 11. Hell my brothers were older and jumped ship it was just me and the horrors
#my moms dad and my dads mom were like the heads of their families and they both died really close to each other#but my grandma and a tio on my moms side died within 3 days of each other after being in hospice literally 3 doors away from each other#for months and my parents both took the roles of like taking care of everything and being the descision makers cause no one else would#which im sure was super traumatizing in everyway possible but their siblings both seemed to resent them in ways#when they didnt want to be those people but had to be and they arent even the oldest siblings they are both like 3rd youngest#but like it just ruined the families and me and mom and my dad were all at the hospital or hospice center for months#we were there every day and night i remember it so much i can get anywhere in any hospital in my town using the stairwells#like i knew them that well#it also likely ruined my parents marriage which was bumpy before the intense major tragedy#which like yaknow what fair it was a lot to deal with ontop of like trying to crawl ur way out of the recession#but after all was said and done i talk to no one on my dads side i bearly talk to my older brother#and i talk to like my nina and two tias on my moms side and occassionally a few cousins#when theyre arent being fucking insane and unhinged#idk i loved having a huge family the like going to 5 houses on christmas type#going to birthdays or weddings and seeing everyone taking at least 45 mins to say bye to everyone#and now its gone and i wont ever get it back#and its by no fault of my own cause i was literally 11 and every adult decided i was gonna pay the price too#like i think abt when i get married its not gonna be what i thought itd be or when i get my first movie in theatres#im not gonna have the major family celebration ill have all my friends which im so greafull for#but its not the same yaknow#and id love to have that relatiomship with my family again but like where do u start when its been over 10+ years#like they remember 11 year old me if they remember me#and thats part of the problem#like on my moms side specifically i have some family who acts like theyve never met me before when i used to see them every weekend#and it was a major failing on my part as an 11 year old for not keeping in touch even tho we did my mom calls everyone and she tried#but people didnt want to return it#and as for my dads side its the same and if it was a moral failing for me as an 11 yr old to not reach out and they didnt like my mom much#my grandma fucking loved her but the rest of the family didnt and like i lived w my mom and was fucking 11 i couldnt go anhwhere by myself#and i didnt like not being places without a parent and i hated sleepovers i refused and they took it so personal#and they stopped talking to my dad and bad mouthed him and still do nd ill never allow that around me my dad isnt perfect but hes a good man
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okay. i am going to continue being stupid. and lowkey embarrassing. and a big stupid fucking idiot. i don’t know what’s wrong w me just ignore me forever okay? okay <3
#why why why why why why why why#i don’t even know what to say anymore my brain is going one thousand miles per hour and it’s all STUPID !!!!#why am i lowkey 24 years old a grown ass adult with literally the stupidest circumstantial crush rn#i don’t even wanna admit that’s what it is cause like. girl. why am i the worlds biggest idiot#i want to bash my head into a wall i don’t even know his name! i never spoke to the man! i know nothing! about him!!#im usually rlly good about not letting myself get all worked up over ppl i find attractive#but for some reason this feels out of my control. i���m trying to just like. get over it. but my brain just won’t stop being so FUCKING#stupid and it’s SO embarrassing!!#what i’m about to say is especially embarrassing to admit but like. idk what to do idk why this happening#i keep catching myself like. daydreaming abt what it would be like 2 hold his hand or give him a hug#i just wanna wrap my arms around his neck and feel his hands on my waist and i dont!! know where this is coming from!!!!!!!!#i wish i could spray my brain with a water bottle every time this happens because frankly this is just getting ridiculous#we are not gonna marry the man! we never spoke to him! we’re never going to see him again for the rest of our lives okay!!#get it together dumbass. so we saw a beautiful boy at a wedding reception and became enamored with his mannerisms so what who cares#it doesn’t matter u know! so what if it was attractive how he sat with his leg propped up while he looked at his camera#or how u caught him buttoning and unbuttoning his little jacket over and over. or the way he leaned against the wall to watch the crowd#or his stupid dumb cute lil smile or how the few times you accidentally made eye contact w him ur heart went all pap pap and shit#it was just a fleeting moment! who gives a shit!! get over it!!#god. it’s especially embarrassing cause i’m here obsessed w the man still desperately wishing i could talk to him and idk learn everything#about him. and i know damn well to him i was just some creepy girl who wouldn’t stop staring at him. he probably thinks im like. plotting#his death or something. i’m not. but i should probably plot my own if i don’t get over this soon#idk idk idk i literally don’t know why this is happening!#we’ve seen hot ppl before why is this different! god!!!!!!!#i haven’t felt this way abt someone in such a long time#and it’s just frustrating knowing just how stupid i am sitting here like this#cause i know he doesn’t care. he doesn’t know me. and that’s fine! idk why my brain is doing this!#whats wrong w me genuinely. i can’t control what’s happening is so fucking weird#i truly feel like im going insane i can’t make sense of why this is happening to me#stupid stupid stupid stupid SO embarrassing idk idk#snow.txt
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gracias por nada | ln4
paring: f1driver!ex!lando norris x fashion designer!ex!reader
summary: you were robbed of a happy married life.
part two - masterlist
ynclo
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ynclo 'cause i know we fall apart when nothing's new
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danielricciardo i took literally all the pics of you and this is what i get?
ynclo u are very goodlooking if i were you i'd stop complaining (thnx 4 the pics danny ric)
danielricciardo 👎🏼
user1 so are we gonna ignore the plushie bc,,,,
user2 ikr like miss girly?????? are u gonna address the rumors or????
user3 what's the issue? i think it's rlly cute
user1 she crocheted that for her (ex)bf so yeaaaa
user3 WHAT
user2 they are (were) engaged but neither are addressing the topic
user4 it's their lives maybe yall should stop forcing them to talk abt it
user5 THE SHIRT OMG SHE'S NOT LETTING IT DIE
user6 i just KNOW that danny showed that pic to charles and he rolled his eyes
user7 it's getting kinda old tbh atp it's just cringey
user8 literally no one asked
lewishamilton new collection drop when?
ynclo VERY SOON stay tuned king 👑
user9 he truly is her biggest supporter
user10 isn't she like 23 or smt?? why does she talk with drivers that old anyways??
user11 daniel's her cousin...
user12 it's been 3 hours and no lando like or comment,,,,,
user13 well it is rumored that they called it off so
user14 what am i missing wtf?????
user15 some ppl are saying they broke off their engagement or smt we dont know bc they haven't said anything yet
user16 she also posted a story then deleted it like 2 minutes later w some shady lyric
user13 omg????
user17 fr "u can think that ure in love when ure rlly just engaged"
user18 the caption?
user19 first her story and now this...
user20 omg i saw it too wtf
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landonorris in the back of the nightclub sipping champagne 🥂
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carlossainz55 great night 🥂
landonorris it always is w me 😉
user1 im gonna say this just one time ok? wtf
charlesleclerc let's do it again!
landonorris sure!
user2 looking hot as usual!!!
user3 bestie r we gonna talk abt u know what
user4 frrrrrr liek wtf was this post
user5 omg let the man LIVE ffs
user6 this is getting rlly annoying tbh
maxverstappen1 🔥
landonorris 👍🏼
mclarenf1 nice after race party drunk boy
user7 omg i love the mclaren admin
user8 the admin deserves the world
user9 so like....... u and that fashion girly?????
user10 i wanna know too guys but pls stop commenting that on their posts!!!
user11 he's just happy to be on the podium i love him sm
user12 THE SONG????
user13 idk if ur talking abt the caption or yn's story
user14 let's not bring her here pls
user13 i miss yn in the comments....
user16 he didn't comment on her post either :///
user15 stop bringing her up omg
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DUSK.CLOTHING Once again a success! Thanks to everyone who was a part of this, we could have never done this without every single one of you, we love you always.
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ynclo i love you guys so much!!!! nice job everyone, you all looked stunning out there🫀
user17 i love her so much
user18 lando news?
user19 she just loves her crew so much i cant😭😭😭
lewishamilton nice runway, you never disappoint
ynclo i WILL cry
lewishamilton ???
user20 she's just so perfect with her designs but THE MODELS OMG everything is so on point it's amazing
user21 how come she's so young and yet she serves THIS
user22 nepotism
user24 do you even know what nepotism is????
user23 yall just throw the word around like it's nothing huh
danielricciardo the talented one of the family
ynclo thanks i know
user25 gorgeous as always
user26 admin knows anything abt the l*ndo topic??
user27 admin here is strictly professional
lewishamilton a masterpiece.
DUSK.CLOTHING Always happy to have you!
ynclo thank you!!
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ynclo jodiendo en el presente los planes del futuro (los quise sola pero nos imaginé juntos)
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user28 translation: "fucking up today all the future's plans (i wanted them alone yet i pictured us together)"
danielricciardo nice bouquet
ynclo thank you danny ricc got them 4 me
danielricciardo he sounds like a nice guy
ynclo ehhhhh
user29 isn't it weird that she keeps flirting with older drivers???
user30 they've said it a million times danny and her are cousins
arthurleclerc go bestie go!!
ynclo shush ure embarrassing me in front of the cool ppl
user31 i know yall saw her flirting w [] too
user32 he's her fucking cousin
user33 NOT THAT ONE, THE YOUNGER ONE
lewishamilton fire runway🔥🔥
ynclo thanks i designed the clothes myself!!!
user34 mother always serves
user35 ofc she does she's drop dead gorgeous
user36 she could literally model her own clothes
user37 is the caption abt u know who???
user38 istg if the comments section starts to fill up with shit like this im gonna crawl under everyone's bed
user39 not confirmed yet
user40 she speaks spanish????
user41 she's from latam!! her fam moved to italy when she was like 10
user42 aren't her and danny cousins tho??
user43 god forbid immigrants have family in other countries right??
user44 i need her to address the elephant in the room
user45 let's not do that here
user47 ikrrrr she needs to talk abt it asap
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landonorris lost my girl but she aint worth the prize
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user48 he really is just a man
danielricciardo rude
user49 go tell him king!!!
user50 danny defending yn makes me believe in men again
user51 didn't she say something abt still being friends???
user52 yea but he's a dick and he made sure everyone knows that
user53 she's a bitch tho
user52 lol?
user54 she wanted him to keep his reputation yet he's out there ruining it
user55 her fault for being a shit gf
user56 go touch some grass girly
user57 they were giggling and hugging at the paddock last week wtf happened
user58 they were getting MARRIED next month what the hell happened
user59 kinda get it tho? she was annoying
user60 l*ndo stans and yn haters are fucking crazy
user61 cry abt it
charlesleclerc looking fire but talking shit
landonorris cant hear u im busy
user62 "i carry him in my chest wherever i go, because otherwise i'd be devastated from the sorrow of not having him around"
user63 "i have never loved someone like i love him, he holds together the pieces of my heart"
user64 "for all i know we could be together in every lifetime because i don't think my soul could ever long for someone else"
user65 nice now i'll go cry
user66 kinda happy that they broke up
user67 he looks happy now
user68 she dodged a bullet fr
user69 she was in love with him
user70 he was too.
user71 doesn't look like he was
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ynclo tú vete tranquilo, no me debes nada. empaca tus cosas, no te dejes nada.
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user72 mom's getting angry in spanich omg
user73 in spanich
user74 im her official translator now girlies dw "you can leave in peace, you owe me nothing. pack all your things and dont leave anything behind."
user75 im in love w u thank u so much!!!
user74 no prob!!
user76 GRACIAS POR NADA!!! GRACIAS POR NADA!!!! @ him bestie
user77 she's a benito fan omg
user78 a what???
user79 latino artist
user80 she saw him trashing her and said fuck peace, go girly!!!
danielricciardo el gordo lui
ynclo cant believe u only learnt to say that in spanish
danielricciardo hola me llamo daniel
user81 is she home???
user82 came back to italy this morning i believe, she posted the airport in her stories
user83 she really said im getting over l*ndo
user84 she doesn't look happy :(((
user85 she looks tired, i guess all that time in the relationship drained her
user86 they were happy, dont trash their relationship like that
user87 "you think that you're in love when you're really just engaged" anyone?
arthurleclerc come visit me one day, we're country neighbors
ynclo im not setting a foot there unless u take me to the casino
arthurleclerc I CANT EVEN BET IN THE CASINO
ynclo sounds like a u problem
user88 is she flirting w that guy again??
user89 well she's a bitch, of course she'd do that
user90 they've been friends since she met danny
#lando norris fanfic#lando norris smau#formula 1 fanfic#formula 1 social media au#ln4 fic#ln4 x reader#ln4 imagine#lando norris au#lando norris angst#formula 1 angst#formula 1 instagram au
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₊˚⊹♡ NOTHING LIKE THE MOVIES
["Trust me, Lib," I said, picturing her lips. "In a crowd of million ski masks, I'd still be able to find you."]
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ᝰ.ᐟ ⊹ arc review thank you to netgalley + simon and schuster for providing me with an e-arc in exchange for an honest review
THOUGHTS ° ᡣ��� . ° . [minor spoilers]
ok. i put this review off for a couple days cause i knew this was gonna be harder to write because i love lynn painter books, really. buuttt i was horribly disappointed with this one. i'm the biggest wesliz fan but... like yeah i cant even form coherent thoughts about it. like this was unnecessary there was no point in shattering their relationship to write this.
like it was good to see wes's pov and everything but it felt so... idk yeah. (see im still struggling so bad to find words.)
one thing i would formally like to invite lynn to STOP doing though is shoving every taylor/ pop culture reference on the planet into the book. like holy shit woman. i few is okay BUT NOT THAT MANY COME ON!!!! they were in the middle of a fucking argument and wes is quoting illicit affairs or some bullshit. usually i love finding little references on page but this felt like too much.
i feel like she's whipped out her computer and gone straight to some dog fanpage or just plainly scrolled through edits seeing people saying "this song is so wesliz coded" and shoved those songs into the book. there is an on page reference to in between reference saying its their montage song.
also um this shit: ”little liz can’t come to the phone right now. why? oh. because she’s dead.” and somehow when jack antonoff was randomly brought up??? like some people are good at weaving taylor swift lyrics into books. lynn you are not.
also lynn take this a plea to never use the word "growl" or "growled" in a sentence ever again when describing your male characters. and to never write this sentence “she’s one of the guys you know? she’s just… different,” EVER AGAIN. PLEASE.
WHAT I DID LIKE THO WAS THE TINY TINY CRUMBS OF BAILEYCHARLIE AND NICKEMELIE (even tho nick was only mentioned and i dont think emelie was even there but eh)
CHARACTERS ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .
liz - ok so weirdly enough she was the most tolerable and still intolerable at the same time. like she was so different from the liz in bttm the sunshiney, wearing dresses of all different colours and her love of romcoms. she was described as anti-love and was practically a full on different character seriously. if you liked the first book maybe dont have high expectations for nltm. like i do understand she had her heart broken and so obviously that makes sense for some of the change but it had been two years and as liz likes to say SO FUCKING MUCH "she's moved on, she's moved past it, its in the past" well for someone who's moved on you sure like to avoid the past a lot. also idk who tf she was trying to fool with that whole "i don't like wes, im over him." shit like gurl- you were literally kissing 2.5 seconds ago whats with the switching sides. and there was SO much about her leaving "little liz" behind. like what was so wrong with liking flowers and romcoms? and being a hopeless romantic and wearing bright colours?
wes - okay so it was quiet heartbreaking to hear abt wes's side of this book (except for the whole pursuing liz part) and i did feel sorry for him. but like what happened to the sweet, caring wes in the first book. and tell me why i had to read THIS sentence “climb on me like a good girl,” LIKE MY EYES LYNN WTF????? i did not sign up for this wes, like no stop telling me how obsessed you are with liz's lips or how she's a mythological sex goddess- boy sit ur ass down. and don't even get me started on the beginning of the book. WHAT WAS THAT SHIT? why was wes acting like a 7yr old excited for school and talking (so much) abt his love for scootering? SCOOTERING. LYNN PAINTER WHAT THE EVER LOVING HELL? SCOOTERING. DO YOU HAVE SOME OBSESSION WITH THEM OR SOMETHING? WHY DID THOSE DUMB THINGS KEEP SHOWING UP?? like tell me why i needed to read this shit: "i fucking loved the scooters ..... wes + scooters = HEA" ..... lynn.
QUOTES ° ᡣ𐭩 . ° .
im not going to bother to find any of these, see: im too lazy
all in all i still liked some points when both of them were acting normal. which is why its a 3. but i feel like this is leaning towards a hate review but yeah idk i cant actually pin point parts that i remember liking- also the ending??? what was that? it made no sense to me.
#the library ౨ৎ⋆˚。⋆#the bookshelf ౨ৎ⋆˚。⋆#nothing like the movies#lynn painter#better than the movies#nltm#bttm
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okay so i’m not just saying this cause ur username is dal BUT u would be adorable with dally !
definition of sunshine and storm cloud🤭
definitely that “i hate everyone but u” typa relationship
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he loves ur eyes so much oh my godhshs
obvi he ain’t gonna show it cause it’s dally but he’ll randomly catch himself staring at you’re eyes 🥲
“what are you looking at dal?”
“nothin man. i was looking at the sky.”
“i think you were looking at my eyes.” *smiling*
“nah man i wasn’t. don’t flatter yourself.”
LMAOO
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i feel like dally does like to play with hair.
like he’s not gonna do it on the couch at the curtis’ BUT when it’s just y’all and ur laying on his chest he’ll DEF run his hands through ur hair and probably make u fall asleep
“and then this motherfu- y/n? are you up?”
*y/n softly snoring*
*chuckles* “coulda’ told me if you was gettin’ board doll.
*kisses your head and plays with ur hair.*
UGHHH !!
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admires ur freckles
he’s loves em but will definitely tease u sometimes 😭
*u and dal walking out of the dingo*
“y’know your freckles look like oatmeal.”
*u turn to him giggling a bit *
“what? my freckles look like oatmeal?”
“yeah, they do, they look like oatmeal with cinnamon on em’ man.” *chuckling a bit*
“oh my goodness, only you can come up with something like that dallas.”
“it’s cute. don’t let your head spin over it doll.”
*blushes* “youre crazy.”
and from there on out, his nickname for u is oatmeal.
like let’s say u walk into the curtis house and dallys there
*y/n walking to the couch where dally is*
*u plop down next to dally* “hi dal!”
“hey oatmeal.” *wraps his arm around ur shoulder.*
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ohhh my goddddd the teasing never stops about ur height.
and dallas is like 6’0 so the height difference is THERE.
“hey short stack”
*u roll ur eyes* so creative dally, your a bean stalk how about that.
*chuckles* “you’re cute.”
“whatever.”
rests his arm at the top of ur head to get u mad LMAOO
he loves that ur short tho, thinks it’s the cutest
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honestly dally never cared that you were shy.
he tried EVERYTHING to get you out of ur shell when u first joined the gang
you and johnny were friends before joining the gang so he brang you over one day and you were like 😳
and he thought u were so cute 🥹
y know what dally is i don’t have to say.
constantly teasing and flirting
*sitting down on the couch with u* “hey doll, how ya’ doing today?”
*y/n just looking down at her lap* *im good.”
*smiling* “okay, alright good.”
was literally so happy when u finally talked to him that day
definitely rambled on to johnny abt it
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he usually doesn’t know how to deal with anxiety attacks and stuff but when u have them he really does try his best
*y/n having a panic attack* “hey, hey what’s the matter, you okay? just breath doll everything’s gonna be alright, okay? look at me, breath. there ya’ go, that’s it. calm down i got ya’.”
he’s always by your side no matter where you are
he wants to make sure his girl is safe 😢
always holding your hand or waist to make sure you’re alright 🩷🩷
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he also has no experience with adhd but again, he tries his best to make sure you’re not too hyper and burn yourself out.
*y/n bouncing off the walls with energy*
“hey, you need to sit down ok? just relax, i’ll get you something to drink alright? why don’t we watch a movie or somethin’, sound good?”
“okay! that sounds great!”
honestly loves when u hyper fixate, he loves hearing u talk about whatever it is that ur interested in that week.
he definitely goes out and steals whatever u have on ur mind
and u scold him for it ofc.
“dallas, how many times do i have to tell you to stop that! i understand you want to do something nice for me, but i don’t want you stealing!”
“it’s fine oatmeal, it’s a stuffed animal. no one’s gonna miss a teddy bear.”
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teases u cause u read but secretly loves when u read to him lol
“doll, why do you read those?”
“because it’s fun dallas.”
“sounds pretty boring to me, just a bunch of words on some paper.”
“you think it’s boring casue you can’t read the words on the paper dallas.”
“you getting smart with me oatmeal?”
“maybe.” *smiling*
“you’re lucky i like you, cause anyone else woulda had their teeth knocked out.”
“oh i know dal.”
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dally doesn’t mind that your love language is touch, it took some getting used to but after a while he learned to appreciate it.
*y/n hugging him*
“why you doin’ that?”
“because i love you.”
his favorite thing to do in the world is stand behind u with his hands on ur waist
HE LOVES IT
it lets him know that you’re safe and that no one can hurt u🤭
it’s hard for him to say things like “i love you” and “i’m so proud of you” because of his childhood:/
but when he tells you he loves u for the first time the tears are pouring.
“i love you doll, i don’t say it ever, but i’m glad you came into my life.”
*y/n crying tears of joy* “i love you more dallas.”
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A/N: oh my god i’m being so active today lolz! i hope u enjoy dally sorry it took so long ily!! 🫶🏻
#the outsiders#the outsiders imagines#the outsiders x reader#dallas winston#dallas winston imagine#dallas winston x reader#dally winston
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hot take i dont like the flipside rewrite too much
first i will say i like partz of it and i dont hate it or the person who made it so if ur here to twist my wordz u can leave, secondly i feel itz a good example of how the class of 09 fandom misunderstandz the characterz or gamez and just see them verryyy 1 dimensional
flipside being a darker game imo iz perfect to finish a game seriez like class of 09, yez therez thingz that couldve been handled better and just iz... oh okay then ! but most of it boilz down to ppl lacking media literacy, or they never played the other 2 gamez so they act shocked the game iz fucked up
no the 1st 2 gamez werent just "silly" they r actually fucked up if we think for a second ! the mr colby ending? yea remember that? if ur gonna complain abt jecka being groomed by a teacher why arent u complaining abt that ending? and no dont give me "it waz shown aaz good!" bc none of those partz were. or the same jokez being used before, just diffrently said.
almost anytime i see ppl try to recreate the humor itz just, "heh i say the n word im so edgy !" or sum racist or homophobic joke that doesnt come off satire or anything like that... therez no build up no nothing... the game usez a lot to speak on real issuez (yez stuff in class of 09 happenz irl and should be talked abt not pushed to the side??) also a lot of ppl dont know how to write abt stuff in 2008-2009 lmao or ppl just take nicole and slap jeckaz face over her (again showing how ppl dont actually pay attention to the characterz)
oh also can we plz stop taking jeckaz abuse out of literally everything? itz been mentioned though out the other gamez also why can nicole have a shit family but for jecka itz too far...?
anyway i luv the ari endingz in the rewritten ari deservez more
im kinda tired of writing thiz and scared of ppl harassing me or say i have a foot fetish (itz weird to guess wut minorz r into btw) cuz i dont and also thiz stuff happenz sm bc money iz hard to get and shit
i wish ppl researched more and can handle characterz being bad ppl *cough*pplshockednicoleizshittywhenshealwayzhazbeen*cough*
um might update thiz l8r idk plz dont dox me
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ellie we literally can't talk abt pokemon without talking about miss rika,, i love her
OK BUT IM GLAD U SAID SMTHN CAUSE I'M OBSESSED LOWKEY.. .......WHO GAVE HER THE RIGHT TO LOOK THIS GOOD......
Like. Effortlessly cool. Canon nickname-giver. I was going buckwild during her battle and I'm not even sorry about it. I could NOT stop thinking very unwholesome thoughts during her interview segment either......like......you can't put a woman in a suit at a desk across from me and not expect me to lose my damn MIND!!! I wanna piss her off just so she makes me pay for it, and dearly. I'M GONNA GO OFF UNDER THIS CUT AND I CANNOT BE STOPPED!!!
Bear with me on this train of thought here: imagine being a repeat challenger of the Championship Challenge. Your pokemon aren't bad (you don't think, anyways) and you've trained for hours and days on end to try and beat the Elite League, to the point of even begging the gym leaders for rematches to try and improve your skill or pick up some tip you didn't notice before. But without fail, every single time you try, you never end up getting past Rika--the first of the Elite Four, the easiest one to beat, is somehow so hard of a challenge that you stay awake at night wracking your brain for some strategy to beat her. Even worse is that you're older than half the kids that challenge the whole circuit, and you hate the feeling of all these ten year olds beating out your grown adult ass as they fly by each challenge while you're left crawling.
You can't just build a whole new team to counter her alone, or else you'll just get crushed by the others. You can't build a new team period unless you wanna put off claiming that Champion title until you're geriatric, so you're kinda screwed from both angles. And the worst part? The main reason why you keep failing is because every time you get a new strategy--have your pokemon learn new moves, train them up, swap out one pokemon for another--she somehow one ups you the next time you go to challenge her again. Like she has some kind of insane bug planted in your cellphone or something where she can hear everything you say, because how in the world does she keep coming up with new counters every time you try? Sometimes she even has new pokemon altogether, which from the accounts of other people who have tried it, is almost unheard of for the Elite Four to switch up their teams so often. Or at all!
The answer comes when you finally hit a wall. You're sure you've come up with the best counter to her moves, that your pokemon are all well-equipped to withstand whatever she decides to throw at you this time--and despite all that, you lose again. Badly, this time.
So for the first time, you ask her outright. How do you keep beating me? And although she puts on that lazy tone as she chuckles back "You just aren't paying enough attention, sweetheart" when she's met with a cold stare, her lips finally seem to loosen as she flashes you a smirk.
She admits that she likes watching you squirm. She saw that look on your face the first time--the only time she's legitimately beat you--and she couldn't believe how satisfying it was. Maybe she just doesn't best nearly as many trainers as her tougher counterparts, but something about the slump of your particular shoulders and the pout on your perfect lips is the reason why she refuses to budge and let you slip by. Really, it's not as sinister of a reason that you expected--she just made very careful decisions about each change she made, and followed your trail of logic to make sure she stayed one step ahead of you, and you in particular. In fact, there's probably been more people than ever that have gotten past her since she first battled you, since she's paid all her attention to blocking you alone. And as shocking as it is to hear her freely admit that, you still have some residual frustration from being bested again that you can only work up the smallest, crudest words as an answer.
"You're mean." You huff, pouting once more and shoving your arms across your chest. You'd stomp your foot if you didn't know she'd tease you for it, cause you'd look like even more of a petulant child than you already do, but you really are that mad. Isn't that against League rules, or something?!
"Poor baby...I'd feel worse if you didn't look so cute, honestly. My bad, bunny." Nooooo, no, you can not fold under that cheesy smile and the softness twinging that nickname. She will not, you repeat, not use those charming good looks and that undeniable tension you've felt between you two to seduce you....even though you've kinda dreamed of that. You didn't exactly spend all those restless nights just thinking about her battling style, after all...."You want Rika to make you feel better, honey bunny?"
You're not even sure how she got so close, how her hand is on your arm now, stroking her leather-clad fingers up and down your skin while she maneuvers herself to slide in behind you. She's still gentle, careful, touch light enough that you could brush it off if you wanted--but you instead find yourself slowly leaning into it, nuzzling into her lips as she presses kisses to your temple and coos at your sweetness, how you feel so soft and warm against her. Angelic, more like, you're as precious as an angel aren't you? You hate that you squirm at that compliment, looking up towards the ceiling to try and wipe that giddy, small smile that's creeping across your lips away. It doesn't hold though, you can't keep the charade up forever--eventually you're wiggling a little more into her, teasing at the possibility of her getting a little more unprofessional than she already has been in secret. And finally, you get what you want out of it. You get her low, smooth voice in your ear, a slight rasp to her last few words as she grips your hips hard enough to hear the leather stretch.
"I'll take my gloves off for this 'match', kay? And let's find somewhere a little more private....I think you'll enjoy it more if you can go all out, honey."
#rika#rika pokemon#rika x reader#pokemon rika x reader#pokemon#pokemon scarvi#mild writing#ellie writes#anons
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Argument hcs for blue lock 🤯🤯🤯 (half angst, half crack?)
This list includes Nagi, Reo, Aiku, Kunigami, Chigiri, and Kaiser
‼️Tw: mentions of gaslighting, cheating, dv (kaisers backstory), chigiris leg, uhmm someone says “kys” but idk what the warning is called‼️
Very badly formatted pls be warned sob
Probably like 1k words lmao
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Nagi
•y’all started arguing because he keeps dropping all his dirty clothes off by the washing machine and expecting you to wash them (green aura with dead flies)
•when he’s in an argument he responds like 5 times until he makes his point, then he just stops responding.
•he’ll just stand up, walk away and watch tv or start playing fortnite or smth
•if you follow him, still trying to talk to him, he’ll put headphones on
“Just drop it y/n, you’re letting your emotions get the better of you.”
•if you wanted to turn the argument physical, then snatch his headphones out
•he’d just stand up and look at you with a face blank with anger, waiting for you to make the next move.
“You really wanna do this, y/n?”
*locks in* nuh uh
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Reo
•yall started arguing because Reo is acting passive agressive around you, and you dont know why.
•he’ll just be saying shit like
“having fun?”
“Gee, if only you had a boyfriend to talk to… right infront of you.”
“Is he my replacement?”
•when you ask what’s wrong, he’ll say,
“Oh, nothing.” Once again, completely pissed off.
•after a week, the alpha wolf inside you SNAPPED, and you started asking him why he’s doing all this? Like what’s his problem!
“My problem? You’re always watching these stupid romcoms like you dont have a boyfriend right infront of you!! Just admit it, you’re getting bored of me. I knew it…”
•Erm… what the striker is bro going on abt??
•you replied, on the verge of laughter, that you’ve only been watching all these romcoms for an English assignment. Who would willingly watch binge watch hallmark movies while writing down notes in a notepad?
•Reo stared at you in shock, then blushed. “Really..?”
•You smiled and ushered him to sit next to you, cuddling him the second he sat down. “I know i just dissed Hallmark movies, but they’re popular for a reason… i always cry in the end. Hey, you see that guy?”
•Reo smiled back and cuddled into you, apologizing for how he acted. You apologized as well, and reminded him that there’s no need to overthink these so much, you’re not gonna get mad at him for having feelings.
(Erm… what the roleplay !! Sorry guys idk like what pov the rest of these are in 😭😭 forgibe me)
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Aiku
(Deep breath in…. Deep breath out…. Deeep breath in…. NOOOOOOOO)
•yall started arguing because you found a pair of underwear in his duffle bag… lingerie underwear…
•Aiku is literally the gaslighter of all time🔥🔥 so he’ll managed to convince you that this was all just some silly mistake.
•after that, arguing either him became really hard. He seemed to have a question or excuse for literally every problem you accuse him of
•seen him with a girl?
“Cmon y/n, ive never been to a bowling alley in my life. Who even goes there? I think you’re just being paranoid babe.”
“Want a massage?”
•seen him again with a different girl? And this time he looked you right in the eyes?
“No way babe, that’s impossible. I hate chinese food.” Then he’ll carry you to your room, feel your head and say
“You’re burning up… fevers can cause hallucinations in some people, I’m surprised you made it here without wrecking. Hey, don’t worry now, everything’s gonna be darling.”
•eventually you just stopped arguing with him about it. Or anything.
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Kunigami
•yall started arguing because you feel like Kunigami’s being secretive with you, and hiding some messed up issues
•Kunigami tries his best to avoid arguments with you, but when they happen you stress him out the most in the world because he seriously has to watch what he says and does
“Im not being fu- freaking… secretive, y/n, you don’t have to know my entire life story to be with me.”
“I know… i just…what? No! I dont need fucking therapy? Dont piss me off, y/n.”
•the last thing he wants to do is hurt you, so he most of the time tries to keep his responses curt and to the point and walks out before he starts yelling.
“Im gonna take a walk, y/n. Dont follow me.”
•if you grab his arm, he’ll look back at you and repeat what he said.
“Dont. follow. me.”
• he cant let you know about wild card. He cant let you know about the person he used to be. He can’t ever, ever, let you meet shidou. He cant ever, ever, ever, let you see him cry.
•all arguments with him lead absolutely nowhere, so you’d better change your approach with him to get what your looking for out of him.
• do not, i repeat, do not ever slap/hit him. He wont hit you back, but now you’ve instantly made him lose any will to preserve your feelings and have a normal conversation
•he will think of the most foul, personal, targeted insults known to man. Lots of “kill yourself”s on his part. You two will without a doubt break up after this.
•he wont act like he didn’t feel betrayed, and he’ll touch the spot you hurt him at while he falls asleep, and tries not to cry.
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Chigiri
•yall started arguing because he keeps using up all ur shampoo whenever he showers at your place
• first thing he’ll do is deny it, then pin the blame on you (darvo type sh)
•he doesn’t mean to be toxic, he just really, really, hates being wrong.
•you guys argue alot. Over basically everything.
•half the times, chigiri can admit that he was wrong, but he’ll NEVER apologize
•he doesnt really think he did anything wrong??
•when you notice that Chigiri had never ONCE apologized to you for literally anything.
“Oh really? Well that’s literally impossible but sure.”
•you told him to say sorry right now then
“Fine. Sorry.”
•then you told him to say sorry to you
“For what though?”
•eventually chigiri revealed that he doesnt apologize to people unless its something really fucked up. He doesn’t wanna just say it so lightly, because then the word becomes meaningless. A worn out formality that everyone uses when someone bumps into them at the store. It basically used to be a greeting for him back when he fucked his ankle up. they’d see his wheelchair before they saw him. Theyd say sorry before they even said his name.
•your mouth did an O and you understood instantly.
•after that, you guys argued just a little bit less
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Kaiser
•you don’t argue with kaiser
•kaiser is ALWAYS right.
•maybe if you ask him kindly for a solution to your problem, he would grace you with an answer to your plight
•but arguing back to him is unacceptable, unless you want to be grabbed by
“You dont deserve to cry.”
•is something you hear from him often.
•he’ll always somehow find a way to mention how his dad used to beat him for crying, if you start crying infront of him which you find very ominous
“How long will it take to put this in your stupid head already. Im right, you’re wrong. You’re more suited for looking pretty instead of thinking”
• after you eventually stopped talking, Kaiser decided it was time to start looking for someone who could actually entertain him
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Ty for reading !! And ik i did shitty w kaiser but i dont fucking like him so i never rlly paid attention to his personality LMAO but if yall want to give any crituque id be thankful!! Bye yall ❤️❤️
#bllk#blue lock#michael kaiser#alexis ness#blue lock manga#nagi seishiro#reo mikage#bllk fanfic#bllk hcs#bllk headcanons#ooc#kunigami rensuke#post wild card kunigami#bllk spoilers#kinda#writing#writers on tumblr
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HIHI!!! it’s 1am but i come to you with that fluff thought i promised ya :DD (..and an angst one, it’s okay!! dottore will wipe all of our tears </3 ). i’m sorry if i’m like!! brainrotting too much!! you’re so fun to hear the opinions of, and i love talking about this
dottore with fragile reader would be so soft, i like to imagine he really does put in the effort for those picnic dates that you always talk about. Does it mean carrying you there and making a spot where it’s much warmer rather than the cold unforgiving winter in snezhnaya? having a segment travel all the way to liyue for a snack? yes. it also means kissing your forehead as he extracts blood from you, clutching your hand when he knows you’re nervous, holding you no matter how busy he is. He can have you on his lap while he works, no matter how sick you are- it’s worth it to hear his true assistants thoughts. You’ve always been the most important. (dottore probably does not like the replacement assistants and purposefully makes their jobs harder…or the segments pester them because they love you just as much).
…on the other hand
on that traveler finding fragile reader note…omegatorre deleting all/most of the other segments probably meant it was much much easier for traveler to even get to that area in the first place. normally, the lab and area would be swarmed with dottores, but because of omegatorre- now zandik will have alot less. He can’t put as much energy into creating segments because he’s focused on the cure, but *now* traveler is with who he loves most, and he has to stop them. you’re right!! la signora, childe, etc had someone that drove them to become their worst to protect their memory, futures, etc- you are everything to dottore. you’re everything to zandik. ofcourse traveler has to win somehow, escape somehow, its their story after all- so now all zandik could do, is grab you, run, and fix this.
- 💌
(x) 💌 ANON OMFG I LOVE U… ANGST + FLUFF THE TWO THINGS THAT WILL KILL ME SOME DAY 😭💕💕 dottore + fragile reader lives in our head rent free huh
oH MY GOSH THOUGH THE PICNICS- You’re so right. Fragile! Reader tends to get super nostalgic about their Akademiya days/when they weren’t sick. So a lot of times they daydream about how they use to catnap and tease Zandik under the sun while he just muttered about how “this is a waste of time” (even though he secretly enjoyed it.) And now you just think about how these things are probably never gonna happen again for a long time :( but Dottore and the clones are like. We’re going to make it happen anyway. Since it’s quite difficult for you to leave the lab, makes me think about how once I said he built a specific room for you to emulate the outside world’s scenery. He literally got the same spot you two used to go to replicated for you 🥺 And hehe you’re so right about the clones. Mfs would do anything for you even if it means going halfway across Teyvat for Fried Radish Balls. (They make it back in record speed too😭 and present to you your snack as if it’s worth more than gold)
I just love the idea of Dottore being a genuine doctor with fragile! reader 😭 like it’s funny and cute to think about him doing legitimate doctor things and not the illegal ones. Taking blood - he’s a bit surprised when he finds out you’re kind of scared of that and needles and such. Doesn’t know what to do at first but he decides to just ramble on about his experiments and discoveries (Dottore knows you enjoy it) to distract you and then gives you a little kith and chuckles when you’re surprised it’s over that quickly. (Now im just thinking abt fragile reader running away since they might not like all the shots and medicine he has to give them) Also checking your heartbeat - every time he gets hella smug and cocky because your heart always races so fast when he’s so close to you “Oh? Is everything alright? Your heart is going rather fast… certainly not normal. I wonder, what could be the reason?”
Sitting on Dot’s lap while he does work >>> Even with all the clones he has he still gets stuck checking some boring papers every once in a while, and you just like. Sit on his lap and peer at them curiously. Also bothers him by pulling his little cheeks and kissing them <3 and nod enthusiastically as he discusses science stuff. (No fr all the dottores despise the regular Fatui assistants and some of them have gone missing 💀)
Okay angst… I’ll never get over the clones being deleted im in tears (I pretend I do not see it) Zandik never missed his clones more than in this instance. Sure, they fought a lot and caused problems sometimes. But he knew that nothing would ever happen to you because they would protect you at all times. And now it just so happens that damn Traveler had to come at the worst time possible, when security was low. Of course he knows the Traveler not trust him whatsoever and he doesn’t like them either, so the idea of you being with them alarms him more than he liked to admit.
No one is immune to desire. Not Archons or humans. And you are what he desires and loves wholly, so he won’t let anything hurt you. He may be at a disadvantage, but he is the Second Harbinger for a reason.
#smooches talks#💌 anon#fragile reader <3#dottore love notes <3#ALSO GO TO SLEEP EARLIER PLS 💌 ANON???#REST UR EYES
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in honor of world mental health day heres my story below the cut :)
kinda hard to talk abt this cause its somewhat triggering and ik theres gonna be ppl who think im just an emo 15 y/o, but i swear im not tryna be dramatic. im tryna make peace with my past, and also show others that despite everything, you can make it.
also, im tryna show that healing isnt all sunshine and daises. theres the good, the bad, and the ugly. you can and will survive it all
tw: sewerslide attempt, abusive parents, self harm, violence ig ?
ive died two times in my life so far.
the first time, it was my parents who killed me. december 31st, 2020, ~1.15am. i remember dragging across the hallway in my house, a throbbing sensation in my thigh, the mark already turning purple. i walked past my younger sisters' room, where my cousin was sleeping over with them, and i remember climbing into bed, hugging my pillow, crying against the pillow. that night, it was my innocence that died. my childhood happiness, per se. i remember swearing to myself in those final moments before darkness that id never forget that day. december 31st, 2020, ~1.15am.
the time between my two deaths was filled with barely anything other than self loathing. i remember trying to set goals for myself, reasons to live. i tried out new hobbies. i was never able to meet those goals, and all the hobbies bored me.
i met some of the best people ever during that time. i also met some of the worst. i might sound dramatic, cause im young and impressionable, but the people i met during that time genuinely shaped who i am. i dont wanna act like im an old soul or anything, cause im sure that in a few years imma look back and think, "shit, i was really immature." but i matured faster than others my age. i found myself faster, found things i liked, found love, found out i hated being in love.
and then i died again.
this was a recent death. june 22, 2023. my mental health had been deteriorating for months prior – i still have scars on my arms.
it was a slower death compared to the last one. i started dying at around 4.00pm. it went on for an hour before the pain became unbearable and i confessed to my parents. i didnt want to go to the hospital, i was scared of what theyd do. i threw up seven times before giving in at about 8.00pm. they took me to the hospital. i was told told me i was lucky to be alive, that my liver was still functional. i didnt feel lucky. i felt like death wouldve been less painful. my head was spinning
i died in that hospital bed, at ~9.40pm, with my eyes wide open, my mom sitting near me. my thoughts at the time were along the lines of this:
im quite literally a child in the eyes of the world. ive done nothing. i have a psychology exam tomorrow. i have a book im halfway done writing, and a new story thats been brewing in my head for months. but if i die now, ill never get to finish any of that. ill never succeed. ill never be able to spit in the faces of the girls who bullied me, of the teachers who doubted me. why would i do this to myself? why would i rob myself of that chance?
so i died. but not the same way as last time. this time, it was the poisonous me that died, the me that whispered in my ear that my life would amount to nothing, that everyone else had it better, that you either succeed or you dont.
and when i died the second time, something happened that didnt happen the first time.
i was reborn.
at the time of me writing this, its been less than four months since my rebirth. in those four months:
i decided to change the world somehow. not necessarily by finding the cure to cancer or anything, id be satisfied if it was just a cute lil video i made going viral. as long as theres someone out there who i changed
i finished about six chapters of my book
i began writing the story that had been brewing in my head
i started lifting weights to make myself feel better abt how i looked
i got closer to god. stopped missing prayer
i moved schools, leaving behind both bullies and friends
i started focusing on my studies
i tried to fix my relationships with my parents and my siblings
dont get me wrong. none of these are completed. im still an extreme case of nobody-ness. i havent finished writing either of my stories. i still skip out on working out a lot i still only do the bare minimum in terms of religion. im still struggling to catch up in school to make up for my three years of burnout. my relationship with my family is still kinda weird
and i still feel like im dying sometimes. its not like i changed overnight and all those suicidal thoughts and feelings of drowning just disappeared when the sunrays came up. theres still a lot of issues in my life.
but i have faith in myself. in my ability to change the things that can be changed. in creating happiness where theres room for it to be made.
and if finding happiness a losing battle?
well, ill fight like its the fucking boudican revolt.
#mental health day#world mental health day#october 10#tw sewerslide attempt#tw mentions of death#tw mentions of self harm#tw self destructive behavior#road to recovery
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favorite characters from the outsiders and why? If u just want to keyboard smash in response I’ll understand what you mean /gen
and do u have any favorite actors in the show?
QISHCJJF OKAY THIS IS GONNA BE IN CAPS
(i cut it cause this post ended up insanely long)
I CANNOT PHYSICALLY PICK A FAVOURITE BUT I CAN TRY TO TALK ABT SOME OF THEM
PONYBOY MICHARL CURTIS JHAHSHHSJNWOSJDOEKDOKF JWJSODK HIS CHARACTER!!! HIS MORALS!!!! THE FACT THAT EVEN THOUGH HES PRETTY COOL (EX HE CLEANS UP THE BROKEN GLASS ON THE STREET IN THE BOOK) HES STILL A GREASER!! IN THE BOOK/MOVIE HE STILL HAS FUN BLOWING STRAWS AT THE WAITRESSES AND CHASING SOME KIDS!!! HE ISNT BETTER THAN EVERYONE HE JUST SEES THE WORLD DIFFERENTLY ANDBWIJAHSOCLLAKEOFKWO PLS YOU GET WHAT I MEAN
I WILL NEVER EVER EVER SHUT UP ABOUT RANDY CAUSE BRO FIGURES IT OUT!!! AND ACTUALLY DOES SMT ABOUT IT!!! HES GOES TO PONY LIKE "this isn't so nifty bro" AND PONYS LIKE "Yeah i know brobro" AND AFTER THAT CONVERSATION RANDY LIKE TRIES TO NOT BE A HORRIBLE PERSON (HE LITERALLY SKIPS THE RUMBLE AND BECOMES A HIPPY) BUT HE STILL DID AWFUL THINGS AND HE KNOWS IT!!! THE NIGHT BOB DIED PLS I NEED TO WRITE OUT MY THOUGHTS ABT HIM ON THE NIGHT BOB DIED CAUSE WHAT PEOPLE FORGET ABOUT RANDY/MUSICAL PAUL IS THAT ***THEY JUST LOST THEIT BESTEST BUD*** THEY ARE ASSHAT TEENAGERS GOING THROUGH SOMETHING TRAUMATIC SPECIFICALLY PAUL IN THE MUSICAL DID NOT FUCKING HANDLE IT IN A GOOD WAY BUT HE DIDNT KNOW WHAT THE FUCK TO DO !!THIS NIGHT HAS OPENED MY EYES BY THE SMITHS AND THINK ABOUT RANDY!!
DARRYL CURTISBWISJOQJSODNIWOQOSPXNWOJXD PLEASE YOU GET IT
CHERRY VALANCE IM GONNA SPECIFICALLY BE TALKING ABT MOVIE CHERRY CAUSE IN THE MUSICAL SHE IS VERY VERY DIFFERENT OKAY CHERRY I LOVE HER SO MUCH I GOTTA SAY SOME STUFF
MOVIE CHERRY-PEOPLE DO HATE HER CAUSE OF SEXISM AND IT ISNT ROGHT BUT HERES THE THING I SEE PEOPLE SAYING THAT SHE DID NOTHING WEONG ANF THAT IS NOT TRUE AND THATS WHY I LOVE HER SO MUCH, MOVIE CHERRY MET PONY AND THEY HAD THAT CONNECTION THEN SHE DOESNT ACKNOWLEDGE HIM AGAIN AND GUES WHAT CHERRY IS A TEENAGER GOING THROUGH SOMETHING TRAUMATIC TOO SHE DOESNT HANDLE IT LIKE A FULL GROWN ADULT BECAUSE SHE ISNT ONE HBWOSJEODOFO CHERRY VALANCE THEY COULD NEVER MAKE ME HATE YOU
IN THE CAST!!! I GOTTA SAY I LOVE EMMA I USE HER VLOGS AS LIKE A SELF CARE TIME, LIKE WHEN SHE POSTS IM USUALLY SUPER STRESSED OUT SO I GET READY FOR BED EARLY SO I HAVE TIME TO RELAX AND WATCH IT IN MY BED AND ITS GRAND I ALSO JUST LOVE HER CAUSE SHES THE ONLY OKE SUPER ACTIVE ON SOCIAL MEDIA I HAVE ACSESS TOO SO I DONT KNOW TOO MUCH ABOUT THE OTHERS THAT I HAVE THE ABAIKITU TO PUT INTO WORDS RN
HQISJPQKSKWMSOKQPSNDPQKOSJD I SCHEDULED MY WHOLE DAY SO ID HAVE TIME TO DO EVERYTHING AND I GOTTA STOP TYPING AND GO DO SHIT BUT PLEASE NOW I HAVE MORE THOUGHTS AND I MAY TALK SBT THEM LATER
(Please i'm watching the outsiders slime today it's scheduled it is IMMINENT I fear I will in fact explode {get ready for so many spam posts while omw watching it help})
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@tastetherainbow290
chapter 20
i’m scared for this chapter
my death predictions are vanity, peter, irene, and one of the death eaters (i can’t remember their names) (please let me be wrong please let me be wrong)
i’m only reading this one for now bc it’s “quick” according to the author
sirius pov! ok that’s good
ugh slughorn. die.
oh no the death eaters found peter
peter noooo omg. do not die right now.
they’re just. beating him to death.
WHY DOES PETER ALWAYS BETRAY THEM IN EVERY FIC
james pov ahhhh dramatic irony
VANITY NO
and there goes willa
VESPA NO you will be missed
hodge no not vanity please
poor james oh my gosh
no vanity vanity no why no
tears
ok i need to be somewhere in 20 minutes this is horrible timing but i have to stop reading now
guys im back. it’s been like an hour i am not ready
“She never got her first kiss. She never got to fall in love. She never got to go home. Her prince never saved her. Her prince killed her. Her prince is dead.” SOBBING
why would you write this. i’m so serious rn WHY WOULD YOU WRITE THIS
peter saving regulus ❤️
IRENE NO
why would you write this.
ugh poor mathias. they didn’t mean to 💔
irene no what are you doing
MATHIAS TOO NO
JAMES NO what’s gonna happen i’m scared
i know james isn’t dead but regulus doesn’t and no one can tell him james is still alive ugh poor regulus
sirius pov
yes sirius send regulus a secret message
rip juniper 💔 i know i would’ve been sad if we saw more of her
every time the death count shows at the end of the chapter i get so sad when i see evan’s name
chapter 21
maybe this one is happier?
ugh i hate slughorn
the two victor thing this is just like the hunger games (every time i say smth like this it’s like… yeah… that’s the whole point 😭)
sirius you’re so smart i love you
dorlene yay!! i love them even tho this is SAD
dorcas running FOUR MILES to see marlene
i love them.
dorcassss tell her about the orderrrrr
“you’re a good friend” ❤️🩹
remus pov switch
regulus putting everything in the river ok
he’s keeping his own stuff that’s good
is regulus going to LEAP ACROSS THE RIVER
okay he didn’t. good.
run regulus run go find james
“It reminds Remus vaguely of dogs getting the zoomies” 😭
i lowkey forgot to be writing my thoughts down
“fancy a trip to space” sirius 😭
hanky panky time
MOON
AHHHHHHHH
why are they stopping 😯
oh poor sirius ☹️ ugh i just feel so bad for him like. the way the hallow treated him was so unfair
chapter 22
james pov!
james 💔
“happy birthday hodge” TEARS
eeee regulus is going to find james
james talking to regulus in his head
“regulus never fails to look up” 😭😭😭😭😭😭
poor james just out here suffering
james getting high off anesthesia 😭
come on regulus you can do it go find james
HE FOUND HIM!!!!!!!!!!!
james thinking regulus was sirius ☹️
regulus just going with it
the james pov of this 💔
not him trying to sell sirius about regulus’ “parting gift” 😭 i hope he does get to tell him eventually
he’s realizing
“you came and found me” “of course i did” AHHHHH
kiss kiss kiss
ok they’re hugging i love them
this is so sad but reunion!!!
sirius pov
joffery?! what is your offer
chapter 23
regulus telling james abt irene ☹️
why is this sad
they’re flirting
ope nevermind flirting over
regulus holding james ❤️🩹
i bet the audience is eating this up. which is kind of really sad. like. they’re having a moment and everyone’s just. watching.
SOUP
they’re literally katniss and peeta in that one scene
“thank him” im just as confused as you are regulus
regulus feeding james (this is giving me the ick lowkey)
them talking about their relationship i hate that regulus is only doing this for the games
ugh i hate that james is being so james right now like. i want them to do this in peace and privacy and without the context of the games
“I used to collect brown rocks if they reminded me of your eyes” if someone did that for me i would cry
regulus telling james he was his first love
KISS ALREADY
i feel bad rn bc im like. the audience. intruding on their private moment. i know this is purely fiction but still.
😯 they kissed
a sad kiss but a kiss nonetheless
they’re kissing for real now eeeee
“That was one of the happiest moments of my life” ☹️☹️☹️
“now James knows that Regulus would kiss him in the pursuit of saving his life, if there literally was no other option” i am so sorry james
“peter wouldn’t betray me like that”
the tension rn (and not in a good way)
my sister is watching my favorite episode (s2 e13) of regular show rn im getting so distracted this is going to be my last chapter
“You can't protect me from this, because I'm already here” 💔
why is this SO SAD
“If there's one thing all of this has taught me it's that I've always cared”
the end notes: “everyone: WHEN WILL THEY KISS??? me: be careful what you wish for” this feels targeted
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Just some interactions that happened to me a couple of years ago.
The person I'm referring to is probably stalking my account as I post this 😕
(This is just a vent of mine, you can skip if you don't want to read it ❤️)
Btw both of us are Female(well idk what they are but they're afab)
I was so uncomfortable trying to respond to them saying this, let alone in response to my photo.
When they broke our friendship (In a very cringe way btw. I can elaborate if anyone asks) they told me how I "treated them horribly" even though I was the one who constantly just had to deal with their Bullshit when they texted me.
They'd also constantly oversexualize all the female characters I Roleplay/I like
Ex: Saying that Peko has (AND I LITERALLY QUOTE.) "phat juicy tits".
When we had a Simp channel in our Discord server That was Yk... Dedicated to fictional characters.. or people in their class they thought were pretty. They posted a photo into it of Me in a Byakuya Cosplay looking down at the camera and then started going on and on about how they'd give me everything they owned and such and it made me so uncomfortable that I couldn't even response logically so i just sent "<3" and didn't respond to the text.
They would also talk constantly about their AUs and stuff about The Cuphead show. I rlly did like a lot of what they talked about since I liked Cuphead the Game and have a very open mind to others Aus. But the thing was was that I had openly talked about how I didnt want to watch the Cuphead show because I just didn't like the voice acting ((Well they've got good voice acting, good Animation, and funny plots , but I just don't think the Cuphead cast should have voices. But I did watch the show after all this, and it was pretty good)). But i just remember that one day I was getting tired of them talking about Cuphead and I texted them "I don't mean to be rude but can you stop sending Cuphead content? You're slowly making me dislike it 😕" (that's the exact quote), and then they got annoyed and was like "that was the only direct cuphead thing I've sent" And I ofc denied that bc I don't rlly loose interest in things through only one message unless it's controversial. And I wasn't gonna deal with pulling up all that evidence so I just said "Omfg *name*" "Nah I'm done with discord" and they instantly started to "im so sorry" bomb but I told them I wouldn't talk to them until I calmed down bc I was just pretty grouchy at the moment. When I came back I sent some words abt me calming myself down again, then said "I apologize for my outburst". And bam we were somehow friends again????
What was even worse was that they did this all in front of our mutual friend (well at the time it was mutual, now they're just my friend ^_^) that they were at the time dating.
(I don't even remember if they sent more cuphead and I'm not even gonna dig for it)
All I know is that that could've been easily resolved by either just saying something along the lines of "I'm sorry I'll try to send them less" or even being like "Cuphead is my Hyperfixation, just like how your hyperfixation is Danganronpa"
They'd also text the gc that me and my friend were in that they were going to commit Slick-a-Slide and then disappear for weeks on end. So ofc me and my friend would be worried and get in a depressive state because we were under the false narrative that they Unalived, just for them to come back after a while and just brush it off. Each time we asked if they were okay they would always be like "Yeah Sorry my mom just took away my phone." And for a while I started to speculate that they were just in a Mental hospital but they never mentioned it (and they Kinda told us EVERYTHING that happens in their life/day/week.) So not only were they treating me wrong, they were dragging my friend into it and Worrying them. (This happened multiple times while they were dating, so I can't even imagine the levels of depression that could've spiraled my friend into. Like having to hear your lover say they were going to commit, then go offline for a long time, is actually petrifying.)
This is a small one but I also remember that a couple weeks or months before they broke ties with me, We were in a server with all of their friends (+my friend and I), they texted the public channel asking if anyone wanted to call, and when I said that I was down to call that literally responded something along the lines of "someone who isn't Phantom" and then they kicked me shortly after I responded with a sad emoji. That made me lose all left over respect I had for them. My friend confronted them on how that wasn't too nice to say, and then they got kicked too.
Also this is off track but imma bring it up since I'm currently obsessed with Korekiyo, but the way they Roleplayed Korekiyo made him seem like he's some Holier than thou character that could pretty much read minds and just tell what they were doing prior ((for example a character could make and excuse to walk off to give something to someone they're currently seeing and come back to Korekiyo and they'd respond "Oh were you giving something to *name*?")). Idk this just made me not like Korekiyo for a while after they broke ties with me.
Anyways that's all my ranting for now. Pip, Ace, whatever you're going by rn. If you see this, please get off my page, for you've made me dread each second and more that you've talked to me ;) ❤️
#phantomsona#phantom vents#vent post#i didnt intend to write this much but it just ended up happening#phantoms art#phantom lore?!
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