#im moving in june. i just finished unpacking from when i moved in August | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

dragons-and-yellow-roses · 9 months ago

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Guessssss what time it is??

7am

Guess who's still awake?

Guess who has to feed their dog in two hours, and get ready for work in five hours?

And guess who has to have a camp meeting directly after their work shift? And has to actually be coherent and make a schedule and discuss their ideas and needs for the summer?

Yeah you probs got it

Guess who won't be coherent for it?

Yeah

#i just feel like shit in my brain rn #i tried to start a new knitting project but the yarn was not cooperating so its just strewn all over my floor #ive played a lot of minecraft #i started watching the unsleeping city. i fucking love it so far #and noe im watching a youtuber react th five seconds flat by lizzy mcalpine #oh yeah i listened to that whole album earlier #after googling an ex to see how happy and successful she is without me #im moving in june. i just finished unpacking from when i moved in August #i think moving actually kills a part of your soul every time you do it #i lived in michigan most of my life. then moved to illinois when i turned 18 #then a year and a half later i moved to wisconsin #now ive moved far far away from there. but it hasnt gone well. i moved in with my sibling #but i was only able to get a part time job. so im living paycheck to paycheck. incredibly not doing well #i dont like the environment here. the people are not the way that im used to #like im used to midwest nice. but here people are threatening to stab each other on the subway. its not ideal #there werent any fall colors. its only snowed twice. its just not for me. but i still did a lot of work to get here #i left everything i was used to. all of my friends. i cant remember where i was goinf with this #but my sibling and i are both struggling. so we decided to move back in with our parents for a year to save up #we're going to put what we used to pay in rent into a savings account for a down payment on a house #but right after finally unpacking i have to pack everything up again and rush back home #im just tired. so exhausted. mentally and physically. physically its gonna hit in the middle of my shift #mentally its been hitting every damn day. and i cant remember the last time i felt happy without also feeling #depressed or anxious or uncomfortable or unwanted or out of place #want to know whats happened so far? learned my best friend fucked my ex and now its not the same anymore #got a terrible ear infection. got bronchitis. one of the few friends i made moved out of the country #learned im not a beneficiary in my moms life insurance but my siblings are. learned my grandpa got engaged but he never told me #learned my parents bought a plot of land but they never told me. i think people just forget about me. or dont care that im here #i decided im gonna go no contact with my parents and grandpa after the year of living with them cuz i dont deserve this shit #anyway bye

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