#im legit stoked how nice this came out

[dragonsongsummoner]

“May this make a difference!”

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me: I should work on rp replies also me: COSPLAY NINIAN BECAUSE YOU CAN ]]

[britbrat95]

I was reminded of the woman who washed jesus' feet today. Its starting to happen more, these people who always step in when needed in a certain moment. As i said, this is a Chicago thing for me. Its crazy, and they say go where the miricles happen your probably meant to be there.(not meaning easy, trials happen but good follows) Some are angels, many are just nice people. I try to be this way myself and i know that there's usually somone to help when i need it so i find these more and more.

For example last week a homeless stranger asked me for a dollar, or a peice of gum because their sugar was down. I started to snub her then God said dont be cocky give her some money! You wont die really you wont. I never give money to homeless. Its not me. Smallest amount i had wss a ten. I thought oh boy ok. Of course this person was surprised, they knew it was hard. They kept thanking me. And i was on the way to my job interview. I wasnt going to pass the drug test. But they forgot to do it. God said you would have failed, so because you gave that money i made you get the job without a drug test. Cool stuff.

So this week started with that dude saying lgbt goes to hell. And he added that its great to be sober, not steal, lie, cheat, to try and help people, to not sleep around, ect. But you will will still go to hell it doesn't matter and your lukewarm. Ok sir, by that logic id be stupid to live good at all. If hell is enevivible then shouldn't i just use drugs wreckelessly,sleep with every guy, cheat, lie, steal, and do whatever? Why even try to do better? No point.

I later was thinking he does drugs himself as a tweaker knows a tweaker. Hes questionable, and even coming out of a car reaking of weed and alcohol with people half his age. I'm sorry that didn't sit well with me. Horrible example for young people he is. Harder drugs though, he ain't honest, he's not 4 years sober, i don't believe it. The point is pharisees hide their sins but they do worse than they accuse of. That aside, as the night progressed things happened. Theres nothing more hurtful than you doing your best yet people mention the bad only. I was proud, a job, bills payed for the month, went grocery shopping for second time this month, ect. Those seem small yet they are great to me. Antonio and i had a fight. He was a dick, i was mouthy, people were instigating so after that it was over we thought. Worked it out like adults so now happy. Wasnt so hard.

So the lady whom i love so dearly. I met her first about 2 weeks ago. I came to this property. Ever have somone be so nice you think they are being sarcastic and insulting you? In Chicago we assume nice means it's a scam, but nice people exist. I just wasnt paying no mind really. She said she fogot her door code and asked if i could use mine. And she literally was stoked over it. She hugged me and said you answered my prayer your a life saver thank you so much! Mind you this was the day i overdosed. I wasn't feeling to great but she was refreshing. I thought, nah she's just mocking me cuz I'm high. Walked in and didnt see again her till this morning.

So knowing yesturday was rough i was crying and telling god my heart. And he answered so promtly. I walked into a bathroom as i had a schizo moment most would laugh at. Nothing so delusional, just bursting into laughter randomly, talking to angels, addressing things and being emotional kinda crying about things. Looked like a multi personality pshycopath or something. As i came out she pops out of NO WHERE! Are you ok? I thought, oh crap. This is embarrassing. I laughed it off and said not really but itll be ok. But i assumed she was being sarcastic. Like "Umm you ok? You need a mental doctor?" No she legit cared. And moments later she said im going to give you a massage. At first i thought huh? Then i thought, that's humbling. YES a massage is great please. A few minutes later she comes back with lotions and says "i know you! You saved me that day!" I still dont know how opening the door was so awesome but I'm glad she was happy.

So she gave my full body massage and it was wonderful. I didnt realize it was what i needed. So simple yet so perfect. We had a nice talk. Nobody likes being crazy. And when you have somone acknowledge your gifts as not crazy you feel happy. Especially coming from a far more sane sounding person. She mentioned her spiritual experiences. I shared some of mine. Somehow i ended up telling a bit more than i intended to yet i felt so comfortable around her. She mentioned how people won't get it but it's ok you can be active in your gifts and let people say things. Shes from portorico but her engilsh was fluent. She used words i rarely hear from most people and i thought, shes onto it, this lady knows her stuff.

It gets better. Sometimes the simplest thing said makes us cry as it touches that deep. "You have a great spirit you are so tender so fluid and you are clearly misunderstood. You can do much." She went on. But the thing that made me break into tears. She took my hands, she pulled back my hair, she looked in my eyes and said "your beautiful. You look like an angel. You have a glow and you look so angelic." I said thats the nicest thing anybody has said in so long and cried. And after she finished she said ill be seeing you soon. I was speechless. Been speechless ever since. I even started vibrating, which only happens when I'm having a high spiritual encounter. I love days like this i really do.

[survivormuxloe]

Episode #4: “I said I was ready to flip but is there even any room to flip?” -Rhys

Okay so, a few things to go over.

Tribal went swimmingly once again. Although I was worried of a potential idol play AND a potential tie, Jose went home. Not necessarily the GREATEST move for my game since I got along with him more than Mo, but it's not that big of a deal.

On the other hand of the spectrum...TRIBE SWAP AND I COULDN'T BE MORE STOKED for it. Myself, Mo, Felix and Ahrre hold the majority on Merica with Wes looking in. I'm hoping we can pull off a win at the immunity challenge anyways cuz IT'D BE NICE TO FRIGGIN WIN FOR ONCE, LOL. But if we lose, it wouldn't be too big of a deal.

o no bby... i've been separated from my other half </3 but i'm here for a switch up.... i love that there are 3 tribes now and the swap was very mixed up, like every tribe has a unique dynamic so i'm v intrigued. my tribe has 4 from og Sewyn with me, Rhys, Jones, Madison along with Tobi as the lone og Mercia hmmmm. hm. Tobi is not a stranger to me so that is a door that is open... I haven't talked with Madison at all yet oops, and only a little bit with Jones. Honestly a lil nervous about what will happen and bihhh SO happy i have an idol that no one here knows about.... i'm definitely ready to get this game shaking whewwwww

SOOOOO WE JUST GOT SWAPPED... FUCK!!! MY!!!! LIFE!!! LIKE THIS HAPPENED WHILE I WAS DOING MY FUCKING TAR LEG.. LET ME TELL U.

LIKE.. RYAN IS STUCK WITH THE FUCKING JONES/MADISON PAIR... IM STUCK WITH THE LINUS/MALIK PAIR WHO IDK IF THEYRE GUNNA KEEP ME.. and michael and danielle like who.. aLMFJBFg. like im gonna be fine with a social game w/ michael but idk how imgunna talk to danielle.. she seems kinda gamebotty and she messaged me IMMEDIATELY to say heyy and im like.. chill out sis

ughghghghghghghg im actually gonna kill myslef but ive been through worse.. i just hope that ryan/rhys keep themselves safe ):

I MADE IIIIIIIIIIIIT WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO EVEN THOUGH I HAD TO VOTE OUT MY CLOSEST ALLY TO SAVE MY OWN ASS I COULDNT EVEN TALK TO HIM BECAUSE I FELT SO GUILTY. Second tribal in a row where my name was read, I just wanna he immune and not have Anna read my name that would be fucking phenomenal. It’s pizza night and I got a fucking blister from pebble stuck in my sock so my toe hurts but we got cheesy breadsticks so it’s all good.

Of course I’m in a tribe with 3 people I didn’t talk with. And tobi. I said I was ready to flip but is there even any room to flip 🙄.

So like... this swap... haha... im the only one from my old tribe in the new sweyn.. haha... love getting swapfucked haha... but like lowkey i think i can work this out so like ryan already came to me and said he wanted to work together which is AWESOME (if he's telling the truth that is) because we have played together in the past (but like... i blindsided him... so not such good history..) and like i think i can work on jones too (we literally played an org prior to this together... i voted her out too...) so maybe im okay??? okay so this might be totally like... completely off.. but madisin (medicine?) said she was gone for 5 hours and like... idk it could be an indication that she might be a more inactive player compared to most and I could possibly use that to my advantage to find a crack but like idk I feel like there's a big chance im gonna be unbelievably swap fucked and im not gonna get to merge but all i can do is try my best in these immunity challenges (but not too good hehe) so that i can avoid tribal council

Hi I have more than one thing happening so I’ll sum up the smaller things in bullet points then go on my paragraph long rants: - Jose got voted out and I’m sad I hope he wins fan favorite - two of my favorite people irl, Mo and Madison, BOTH have strikes and I’m sad :c Time for the rants: SO I think the most important thing that happened was a tribe swap? And it’s like,,a double edged sword Bc I’m on a majority tribe with it sweyn, BUT a good ally of mine, Scott/Scoots/Scooty was SWITCHED onto another tribe and that makes me sad :c he has all my castle info, and I have all his and we were working well together :c at least he’s on a sweyn majority tribe NOW ON THE OTHER HAND in Scooty’s place,,,Tobi joins the tribe!! Which is honestly really great when it comes to being friends, but like,, game wise tobi is so scary. I’m obviously not gonna rely everything I do based on what happens in previous orgs, but scooty said he plays the same way a lot. So that could be messy/lying constantly as far as I know. I don’t want to vote him out yet though, so hopefully we can keep winning immunity and keep him safe? I’d hope? BUT If we do go to tribal council, I think my first vote would go to Madison. I love her to death outside of this game and she does really well in orgs, but I know she’s not mentally in it rn to put her heart into it. BUT she did give me an idol clue!! Which is always great, but she hasn’t really put a lot of effort into everything else challenge wise so I feel like she’d be pretty expendable if that makes sense. I think right now the most exciting thing for me right now though is just the fact that I, for ONCE, have options. Which is GREAT and that’s all I have to worry about. Wish Sweyn luck in the live tribal!!

FUCK ME. Damn luck has not been in my side this game damn so now it’s 3 vs 2 and I’m in the seeming minority so my best move right now is to turn it the fuck up and be a social butterfly make the connections and hopefully make it further along or at the very least make them go after dani first. I’m also gonna try my bestest to find the idol so hopefully me and dani can make it further.

Okay so I already feel closer to Toby that everyone else on my tribe what. Legit talked to him for 2 hours but had more of a conversation with him then, compared to everyone else On my tribe.

don’t know if I ever put it in but when I first got on the swapped tribe, I thought I was likely alright! I got Scott and Linus on my tribe, and the lovely big tuna. So to me it’d make sense to gun for Michael to go, but he’s kinda nice so idk if I want to try that. And then earlier I was one post away from giving us immunity, and I feel bad that I couldn’t do that. I just hope I don’t go home for this or anything.

Okay. So the challenge starts yeah. Everyone is here besides madisin. Not surprised she’s never here. But wait, didn’t you message Ryan and Jones. Oh they left me on read. Can’t say I’m surprised.

Madison and Jones completely fuck that challenge. Then me and Ryan go out consecutively at 9th and 8th. Like fuck. I want Tobi to be safe. I don’t want him going home.

Somehow this fucking legend pulled something out of his ass and he slayed the other tribes cause fuck. He won immunity and reward.

Yet to know the reward. But Tobi made it seem like he didn’t want to go to tribal. Fair enough, reasonable. But it was him sounding like he didn’t want to loose someone in the tribe. Maybe that’s me being paranoid as fuck but it makes me wonder if my tribe r active and just don’t talk to me. So hmmm let’s hope I’m not being silly and blind

OMG IT FEELS SO FUCKING GOOD TO WIN IMMUNITY FINALLY. I'm so proud of my boy Felix for coming clutch for our tribe. If we had lost, I'm pretty sure Wes would've been gone, no question. But I'm glad to finally be safe for once.

Linus quits.