#im kinda rusty on the terms ngl

[pouringoutmythoyghtsbefore1drown]

so what’s with media just kinda skipping over the eerily silent car ride back from a failed mission?

(GOD DAMN IT I WROTE AN ENTIRE PARAGRAPH AND IT DELETED. hold up)

Like the two characters sitting there just in this heavy silence. they’re supposed to be the strongest. Right? But right now they’re just shells of beaten battered scarred skin. Just two kids and the soft hum of an engine and the fragmented pieces of the day leaking over their senses. the sound of a gun as the car hits a speed hump. the smell of blood coating their clothes. crusted in their hair, uncomfortably embedded under fingernails, smeared across their face. Eyes half lidded, dazed, unfocussed. sounds muffled and distant. vision blurry. everything seems a little further away than it should be. trying desperately to anchor themselves to reality but the only thing they can feel is the way the blood soaking through their shirt is sickeningly sticking the fabric to their skin and how it almost inaudibly squelches every time the car jostles slightly over the uneven road.

You know… like… ‘damn this is *my* fault that we failed’ or ‘i need to be there for my mission partner’ but they’re too out of it and in shock to actually speak.

Anyone?