#im keeping them for a memory box or maybe one of those baby clothes bears

[alexandrium]

organizing Frank's clothes into a box to give to my mom so she can give it away to any new moms at her work. a lot of this stuff was never worn because they were warm clothes during a mid-June heat wave.

but ocaesionally I'll find a tiny newborn size thing Frankie was still wearing when he was like 2 months and just cry. Bc he's only 8 months but already fitting in 18month size stuff.

I really wish his newborn phase was ruined or stolen from me. Those were the worst months of my life, but those were his first months of his life. And they'll never come back. He'll never be this small again

[thenamesseven]

Warnings: This story will be kind of angsty so if you’re not into that then it will be better to not read it

Today was one of those days when you felt nostalgic. 

Sitting on the couch surrounded by old photos you couldn’t help the smile that crept up to your lips.

The ones in your hand held memories about the first few months of your relationship with Jinyoung, the first time you managed to went together to an amusement park, when he took you to the aquarium, when you went to have a picnic late at night together or that one time he dressed up just to take you shopping. 

The ones on your left captioned the first time you were allowed to hang out with the rest of GOT7. You remember being so nervous, so worried about the guys not liking you that you almost threw up when they opened the door of their dorm to you. You chuckled at the memory of Jackson being truly concerned, really thinking you were sick while the other guys understood that you were just nervous. The guys warmed up to you soon and like Bambam and Yugyeom once said you ended up being GOT7′s eighth member.

The pictures on your right showed the beggining of your new life together by each other's side. There were photos of all GOT7 and you in your new apartment painting the walls, making a huge mess but clearly having fun. There were also pictures of the day of your wedding and the honey moon in which after a lot of convincing conversations with Jackson, Jinyoung decided to take you to Hong Kong.

Dating and marrying an idol was never easy. There has been some fights in the way, a lot of different problems the both of you had to overcome but you never ever have regretted meeting Jinyoung. He always found time to make you feel special, he always made up for the time he was on tour instead of at home cuddling with you and no matter how much stress he was dealing with Jinyoung would always come back home with a smile, talk with you and spoil you with affection. He somehow managed to make you feel like you were still in your first months of dating.

Little did you know what was awaiting for you in the upcoming days.

Suddenly, the door to your apartment opened and a tired Jinyoung made his way inside. He walked slowly, taking his time to close the door without making any noise probably thinking you were asleep. However when he heard the quiet sound you made when you smiled he turned around surprised, kind of shocked to find you sitting on the carpet in your living room at almost 2 am.

“Can’t sleep baby?” He asked with a small smile, taking off his jacket before he walked deeper into the apartment until he was standing right infront of me “What are you doing, hmm?"

Jinyoung joined me on the carpet. He sat down behind me, opening his legs so I could sit between them with his chest against my back. An inevitable smile pulled up my lips when his arms found their way around my body to keep me close to him, his lips leaving a gentle kiss on my cheek before he rested his chin on my shoulder.

“I just found these pictures and ended up taking a look at them” I rested my head against his while he reached out and grabbed some photos from my hand to look at them “Remember when we went to the amusement park? We we got on so many rides…” You chuckled turning your head to look at him. Jinyoung had a small smile on his lips as he stared down at the pictures but you could feel he wasn’t happy, there was a tiny bit of sadness on his face, his eyes brighting with a feeling you couldn’t recognized “And you gave me a Teddy Bear! That was so cute” He nodded quietly, his lips finding their way to your cheek once again.

“I’ll take you there again, I promise” Jinyoung's promises had always been strong, his tone was always determined when he promised you something but tonight he sounded hesitant, like if he didn’t know if you were still going to be there for him in the future. You just assumed he was really tired and that’s why he was acting so weird. “We need to wait nine months though, we can’t have you getting on all those dangerous ride while you’re pregnant”

“But baaabe~ The baby and I would have so much fun in those rides though” You muttered pounting, being silly, teasing him “And we would just have to pay for two tickets instead of three” Jinyoung smiled brightly and smacked the back of your head softly, playfully. Meanwhile you collected the pictures you had spread on the floor and place them back in the box where they were being kept.

“You need to stop hanging around Bambam and Jackson, that’s something one of them would definitely say” He muttered standing up, making you laugh softly. Before you could stand up too Jinyoung picked you up, it was something that has always been pretty easy for him since you were kind of small and started walking down the corridor to the bedroom “Let’s get in bed, we have to wake up early tomorrow”

Tomorrow.

Tomorrow was going to be the first time both of you would see the baby you were expecting. You were two months pregnant and your belly was starting to grow, not too much but enough for people to realize there was life growing up inside of you. When you recieved the news about being pregnant, you had been a little scared about Jinyoung’s reaction since it hadn’t been something the both of you had planned. However, your husband received the news extremely happy, like he seemed pretty excited about being a dad.

Once laying in bed you rolled on your side to watch him change his clothes, how his muscles bulged slightly as he pulled off his white shirt, how his tiredly yet strong arms pulled down his jeans. Smiling you bit your lower lip, still not believing how lucky you were to have a husband like him. You would have never ever imagine a girl like you would end up with somebody as amazing and sweet as him. 

"Come here" With a bigger smile you opened your arms for him as soon as he joined you under the covers, a silent smile on his lips when he leaned in to let you hug him. “Aren’t you excited for tomorrow?” You asked pecking his lips, one of your hands moving up and down on his back.

“I can’t wait for it, I couldn’t stop talking about it today” He admitted with a soft chuckle, moving a little so you could lay down with your head on his chest, one of his arms wrapped around you. Jinyoung yawned, resting his head against yours as he closed his eyes “But you need to get some rest if you don’t want to be falling asleep while they do the ultrasound” He kissed your head, you could feel him breathing in the scent of your hair. Some people would find this creepy but it wasn't for you, in fact, you knew this calmed him down.

“Fine, fine...I’ll try to get some sleep”

You closed your eyes, one of your hands gently wrapped around his body while your head rested on his chest listening to his relaxing heart beats. Now that he was back, laying next to you, it didn’t took too long for you to drift off to sleep.

Jinyoung was the only one awake now. 

His eyes were down on your sleeping figure, the way your face looked so peaceful and calm kind of pierced through his heart. He felt guilty for what he was doing behind your back, it was slowly killing him, why was he doing it then? He didn’t know. Maybe it was because he found the dancer he met a long time ago way more different than you, she was attractive in her own way and there was not a single similarity between the two of you.

The dancer, named, Sun Hee, was the definition of risk, wild and reckless. While you have always been as soft as a marshmallow, always being sweet and adorable for him. You have always kept him sexually satisfied, that didn’t seem to be the answer as to why he was cheating but still, he kept finding himself falling into the temptation, his body betraying him and finding its way back between the other woman's legs. He didn’t have feelings for her, he would never love Sun Hee the way he loved you and he knew he needed to stop but how? Should he tell you what he's been doing? How would the other woman react? Would she tell you? For God’s Sake you were carrying his child in your belly, he really needed to stop before this kept getting worse.

His phone buzzed on the nightstand next to his side of the bed, pulling him away from his train of thoughts. Jinyoung shifted slightly on his place to take it and read the message that a certain somebody had sent him. He felt you snuggling up closer to him, mumbling some sleepy yet incoherent stuff in your sleep as he unlocked his phone.

“Can we meet tomorrow Jinyoungie~? I really need to repeat what happened today”

He looked down at you before looking at the text again. What he was doing to you was absolutely unfair and the sooner this stopped the better. He would find a way to tell you eventually and no matter how much you’ll hit him or insult him, he’ll take it because he knows he deserves it.

“Babe?”

Jinyoung jumped a little, his eyes instantly going down to your sleepy face buried against his chest, his heart pounding with fear. “What is it baby?” He asked in a soft tone, shifting so you wouldn't hear how fast his heart was beating. That could have been the end, you could have perfectly see he was texting another girl if you had opened your eyes.

“I love you” You whispered. The guilt in his body making his heart shatter into thousands of tiny pieces.

“I love you too” He replied in a hoarse tone. Holding back the sad sigh that wanted to escape his lips.

“Meet me after practise, we need to talk and it has to be quick”

And with that, letting the guilt consumed him im the dreadful silence of the room, Jinyoung went to sleep.

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It was around 12:00.

You were sitting in the waiting room for the doctor’s appointment, both of your hands pressed together as you tried to distract yourself reading the posters about pregnancy that were on the walls. All of them had little tips about how to deal with small and silly problems that you would sure have with your kid. You took your time reading the one about how to feed babies and some common problems some childs have in their first months, you also read instructions for how to perfectly hold them and there was even a poster that spoke about ways to take care of your skin and body after giving birth.

You glanced back down at your watch, 12:15.

Your appointment was in five minutes and Jinyoung wasn’t there yet. You had the small temptation to call him or Jaebum to beg him to let Jinyoung finish with practise a bit earlier since you really wanted to be there with him to see the baby for the first time but you didn’t want to bother the guys. Work was really important for all of them and you never wanted to be a bother so you just sat back down.

It would really be a shame if Jinyoung didn’t make it to the appointment, you really didn’t want to go in there alone. However, you couldn’t be mad.

You knew he was working hard to take care of you and the baby that was coming.

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With one last thrust Jinyoung took Sun Hee to her second orgasm, the twitch of her body and the moans she quietly let go making him cum inside the condom he had used. He held her against the wall weakly, not moving too much since his pants and undewear were still wrapped around his ankles keeping him still. Sun Hee moved her hands up his scratched back to his neck and leaned in to kiss Jinyoung's lips, however he rejected it and put her back down on the floor.

“Shit, shit, shit….Im late” He whispered once he glanced up at the clock hanging on the wall. He quickly reached down and pulled up his pants and underwear at the same time, Jinyoung ran his hands on his shirt trying to make it look more aceptable and less wrinkled before his hands moved up to fix his hair.

“Let’s have a second round then” The female purred, wrapping her arms around Jinyoung’s body as she left sloppy and wet kisses on his neck. “You’re late already so, who cares?” She asked moving her lips up on his neck to nibble his earlobe.

“I care” Jinyoung answered coldly, he had met her with the intention of ending their thing but it somehow ended getting sexual again. Putting his hoodie, he shoved her gently aside to exit the empty room where they had been having sex after practise. Sun Hee snorted sarcastically as she pulled up her panties, fixing the skirt she had been wearing “What? Jinyoung asked frowning, turning around to look at her.

“You care?” She asked arching an eyebrow “Why do you keep coming back to me then? She obviously doesn’t make you happy”

“She’s my wife and the mother of my child so cut the bullshit, you’re just a mistake” The venom in his frustrated words made the Sun Hee roll her eyes “I love her Sun Hee, you’re never going to mean the same she means to me” He told her.

“Sure, you better hurry up though, you don’t want to miss out the first apointment of your lovely pregnant wife” Sun Hee opened the door of the practise room to leave but not before she had the last word “We’ll talk about how it went when we meet again”

Jingyoung didn’t waste his time arguing with her. He rushed out of the practise room and basically run out of the building and into his car. Thanks to the traffic it almost took him another 15 minutes to get to the hospital and by the time he ran into the waiting room breathless he couldn’t help but sigh relieved when he saw you sitting there, waiting for him.

“(Y/N) I’m sorry, practise-”

“It’s okay” You answered shrugging a little, your voice soft but you still had a sad smile on your lips.

He went to sit by your side to wait for a nurse to call your name but then he realized you were holding the ultrasound pictures on your hands. He had been late and he made you go through the first time seeing your baby absolutely alone just to fuck one more time the girl who wasn’t his wife, the girl who wasn’t going to be the mother of his baby.

You noticed Jinyoung looking down at the pictures and handed him one as he sat down next to you to observe it. 

“Where’s the baby?" He asked, his elbows resting on his knees as he frowned, genuinely confused as he looked down at it.

“Babies” You corrected him “We’re going to have twins”