#i do remember all of frankies different tank top onesies tho | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

alexandrium · 9 months ago

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organizing Frank's clothes into a box to give to my mom so she can give it away to any new moms at her work. a lot of this stuff was never worn because they were warm clothes during a mid-June heat wave.

but ocaesionally I'll find a tiny newborn size thing Frankie was still wearing when he was like 2 months and just cry. Bc he's only 8 months but already fitting in 18month size stuff.

I really wish his newborn phase was ruined or stolen from me. Those were the worst months of my life, but those were his first months of his life. And they'll never come back. He'll never be this small again

#traumatic childbirthing + finding out the father of my son is the biggest liar asshole ive ever been around + general PPD esque issues +#general memory issues #im trying so hard to picture things i know i was there for and enjoyed and loved and laughed at but its all blurry #i do remember all of frankies different tank top onesies tho #im keeping them for a memory box or maybe one of those baby clothes bears #post partum sucked but it wouldnt have sucked so much if i didnt have someone around me so intent on ruining me #i see the newborn clothes and im like 'aw i cant wait to have another one' and then remember how much it sucked and how i have no one id #be willing to have another baby with #who knows

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