#im just bein gushy lol

[quasieli]

[Image description: Two images, the first a collage of three drawings of my D&D character Saube (she/they) and the second a collage of two drawings of Saube's sister Vere (she/her), the collage meant to show a progression of my art. The collage of Saube shows two old pieces, both with black line art, and a more recent piece, which is lineless. The older images shows simple drawings of Saube in a static pose on a solid background, while the newer image is more dynamic, but still with a solid background. Like the comparison of the images of Saube, the drawings of Vere compare my lined and lineless styles, with a more dynamic pose in the more recent piece. End description.]

Links to original pieces (with more detailed IDs):

Saube: Old/(never posted 2)/Recent

Vere: Old/Recent

I've been doing a bit of a personal retrospective on my art journey recently and it's amazing seeing how much my art has improved and changed over a few years. I'm so proud of myself for sticking with this hobby bc it's something that makes me really happy but it's also really hard and I could have very easily just given up long ago. But I didn't! And now yall get to see my be obnoxious about my OCs <3 lmao

[maymalade]

ive been having trouble sleppin lately and ive been getting some weird vivid dreams. first had a b o in it but it wasnt a sexual dream at all (but im p sure it was fueled by a thirst for affection) and an odd person to make an appearance in my dreams made an appearance (and i sat in their lap the whole time?? like nice id love to do that but??? what the heckie. they also carried me bridal style everywhere. im also p sure i was smaller than usual). we were in a really big lecture hall and they were calling up ppl who had found their soulmate/bonded to talk about what its like and there were all these mushy gushy couples bouncing up front and they kept gushing about each other and just being really affectionate, in like a huge cluster in front of the class and that was it (i think k a g e h i n a made an appearance up there). me and the person carrying me were like lol no we arent together or anything. even tho this was a really weird dream the lap sitting and cuddling was wonderful so it a good dream.

next one i remember had me trapped in a ballroom with lots of other ppl and teachers that kinda hated me. we were supposed to be doing some kind of exercise but everyone was turning into zombies and lots of slime filled up the room (everyone was bein all casual about it until it got REALLY BAD and then they were like um this is mayhaps a problem? and very quickly changed to panic of people scrambling high to get away and running to hide but finding really horrific zombies there and screaming oh boy) until i threw open the doors to the outside gardens (like FANCY MANSION GARDENS) where it was night (from this point the tempo of the dream slowed down a lot and it felt like a slow sad ballet) and lightly raining but the lamps gave it this really pretty atmosphere. the zombies went out and started burrowing/hiding themselves in the dirt from the rain and transforming into like really pretty garden decorations. not that they looked like humanoid zombie decorations, they turned into garden gnomes and lamp posts with vines twined around etc.i went around kinda sadly smashing them. this was a weird fairly bad dream.

there were other dreams that were really vivid when i woke up but i totally dont remember them now. i think there was one about me going to some weird cheery train/ h o  ..l o .c a,ust museum that was v unsettling.

anyway that all got v long but i started this cause i wanted to moan about how im a fool for drinking milk tea at 8pm when ive been having trouble sleeping lately and i started getting my usual caffeine nausea but it passed and i havent thrown up so whew but my heart is also thudding a bit too much and im feeling a lil weak and trembly.

oop wait its nearing 1 am and i think the caffeine is hitting from the other end im in mild discomfort. 

OOP I THINK I REMEMBERED LAST NIGHTS DREAM SUDDENLY it took place on some floating village/playground thing in open ocean and there were these like.. weird mutated dolphins that would jump out of the water wanting to play or hurt u and would chase u. i feel like theres a lot more to this dream but i dont remember. like i feel like im grasping at a shadow of the dream rn i can kinda see a tiny bit but it vanishes before i can process it or remember it.