#im insane about lotm

[sahar4u]

some lotm memes i guess 😙

and also praise the fool 🙏

probably cuttlefish while creating Leonard:

fandom now:

[gerard2parenthesesreal]

my chemical fucking romance dude what the fuck

what the fuck do you mean mcr is over. like. not broken up but fuck the weekend is over????? ive been waiting for so long and nowits over?

which is insane and im sad but i think im maybe also filled with a lot of hope and it was so insane seeing everyone share their experiences with depression and like maybe im not cooked. i think it will be okay maybe. i believe that i think.

life is insane truly, i love everyone i think. this band has given me so many integral life experiences ive met some of my best friends through mcr and like i know its said a lot but they seriously saved my life in such a big way on a lot of occasions and like . FUCK. everyone in mcr was clinically depressed 20 years ago and now theyre doing what they love STILL and theyre seriously happy and? everything will be okay i believe that. ive come so far in the last 4 years since ive been listening and its been huge ups and downs but i am happy and i have people who care about me and i care about them so much even when they get on my nerves. because like. seeing all of them on thst stage in front of so many people and they were all so happy and having watched lotms last week and they were all fucked up and augh. and then all weekend they were playing tbp which is the first ever album i heard by them and fuckkkk!!!!! me listening to this 4 years ago and 3 years ago and 2 years ago and last year and now Now is so insanely different and i think it was worth it to keep on living. and like i wouldnt necessarily say “i am not afraid to keep on living” but i am a lot less afraid than i ever have been. (and im crying again now) and and i would jot say “i am not afraid to walk this world alone” but i would say that i know i will survive even if im alone. everything is temporary and permanence isnt real. im happy im alive. i love you all

my chemical romance forever

life forever

my chem forever

one day i’ll be able to say that i am seriously not afraid to keep on living and that i am not afraid to walk this world alone and even if that day is not today i know that it will come. life is beautiful bees flowers regrowth

i will rise from the foundations of decay

[judeiscariot]

thanks to everyone who tagged me in this <33

last song: bang the doldrums. ive been having several consecutive pete wentz moments as of late last movie: hm I guess lotms? Ive been busy lately havent had time to watch many movies unfortunately but I did a rewatch a couple weeks ago and it was agonizing per usual last show: I finished the bear recently, it was really good! currently watching: I’m not really watching a new show rn cause I haven’t had time but ive been rewatching some of shameless when i do have a minute currently reading: I just started re-reading a little life. Im also reading that long ass doc about Pete wentz and Ryan ross (which is deeply fascinating btw) and ive been slowly making my way through the ft willz pdf. oh and i finally finished we’ve all seen helena which was bonkers insane currently working on: my main project rn is transcribing all the ft willz poems i can find into a google doc to hopefully have printed into a bound book at some point. Its gonna take me forever but I’m pretty excited about it lol. i’m also in the early stages of making some sort of like mcr master slideshow both to show my friends who want to get into them and just to get it out of my system lmao favorite color: choosing favorites is so hard for me but probably green savory/sweet/spicy: i like all of them but if I had to choose probably savory coffee/tea/cocoa: same thing, I like all of them but if i had to choose then tea craving: fresh bread

i tag anyone who wants to do it <3

[awsugar]

I don’t mean to make fun of you but..the reason that it seems like too perfect of a story is because life on the murder scene IS a constructed narrative and not the truth. There were all kinds of things going on with the band at the time that could’ve been put into a film about their lives, but the people producing the doc latched on to the most compelling story and produced that, not the other way around with gerard producing a story and it being filmed haha

well i don't take it to be you making fun of me unless you say you are, this is just you saying something that kind of disagrees with me.

i know lotms is like. supposed to be that way. like i know. like i know gerards addiction and recovery was overdramatized put on a spotlight while they completely ignored franks addictions for obvious reasons like he didnt get clean and also hes not The Star Of The Show. and like other things like that. i know they made an interesting and compelling story out of the footage that they had.

but i also think like the overall trajectory of the band is kind of insane. like the baseline story of their success. and how quick and kind of overnight it was and how they did it against the odds bc thats NOT what people were listening to at the time. like with their image and lyrics and everything like the fact that they were on mtv?? its just like all of that added up. they have a really impressive story and i think gerard planned it out to be that way. i think he knew exactly what he had to do to make it happen. like they could have recorded footage for a couple years and not come out with something nearly as impressive or heartwrenching etc with as much narrative constructing as they could do. idk thats just what i think. you can think im stupid for it if you want to.

[awsugar]

Would you consider sharing your lotms theory?

ok so basically i think that gerard like. i mean i dont believe in god so i dont think he had like a divine prophecy mission from god type deal but i do think he like. idk if he sat down and wrote it out. but you know how like they talk about music videos they like talk to a director or w/e and they get sent a treatment on what the music video would be. like everything, idk i havent ever read a treatment i just assume it lays out like every aspect of the mv. and i think gerard wrote a treatment for lotms himself like. either right before he started the band or when it just started. like i think he planned the trajectory of the band up to that point like before any of it ever happened. cause its just too perfect. like its TOO perfect of a story. everything about the early days of mcr is insane like how were they getting calls from major labels before they played their first show which is what frank said. like how. i THINK i literally think gerard said ok so this is what is going to happen. and then he willed it into existence. sometimes if im really high i also think the government manufactured mcr and also fall out boy but im normal rn. but i like just really think he said this is what were gonna do. and then they did. like we KNOW they planned stuff beforehand like gerard wearing a thank you for the venom shirt to their first show and starting to write wttbp during bullets and all that but like. yea i really think he wrote it down like a story and then lived it in real time.

[awsugar]

ohhh i know what you're talking about in to the end!!!! from learning frank's parts on the guitar it's arpeggio picking, it sounds really cool tbh!! but pretty difficult for me bc im not that fast yet lol

yes yea!!! its soooo pleasing to my ears. and i know frank is a professional guitar player but he literally gets so overlooked as a guitar player in this fandom that when i find out new cool parts that frank plays im like :''''))) so proud. bc obviously frank is well loved. i think within the fandom he's almost considered a second frontman or not frontman but he's like along with gerard as a spokesperson for the band, talking way more in interivews than mikey or ray, super dynamic on stage, he's probably the second most "popular" member after gerard obviously. like. frank is not short on fans. but i think his guitar playing and parts get extremely overlooked by everyone cause they gave him the rhythm guitar label for some reason and evveryone is just assuming ray plays all the cool intricate parts and frank is just playing chords just bc ray plays all the solos. omg i've talked about this so many times tbh but it just drives me crazy bc i think i really think ppl just think frank is there to be hot and roll around on stage. and like if you don't care to find out who plays what parts that's fine we're not all insane but like i REALLLLYYY wish frank got more recognition musically. cause i feel like that's always just given to ray.

sorry to derail im just really passionate about this bc i was once one of those people and then my eyes were opened to franks parts by watching a lot of live shows and paying attention and like wow. frank is so good and he plays such an important part in mcr musically. and NOT in just like bringing a punk element like they seem to imply in lotms and some interviews. like not that at all. ugh.

[awsugar]

oh mack same regarding accidentally memorizing whole dnp videos... but it's not even just the ones you'd expect, it's been years since i was really into them and somehow i still have the whole of sebastian universe defender memorized??

i was into dnp in actually what i beleive as someone who has watched every video either of them has ever made at least once. which is MANY. many. so many channels. ive watched the sims series alone like 5 times which is like a weeks worth of view time lmao 😭 when i am hyperfixating on something i will simply be rewatching it

anyway i was into them in their best era 😌 and i could go on and on about it actually like. full on conspiracy theorist. with the way they slowly came out and acclimated their viewers to handle them being gay so when they came out (even though everyone alrady though they were gay) it wouldnt come out of nowhere and cause like mass hysteria. like we knew it was coming we KNEW. they created a glass closet over the course of like two and a half years its so fascinating for real and also theyre so sweet and funny like the era that they were most popular like 2012-2015 or whatever those videos are kind of cringe to me like i love them but there is a cringe factor and i mean the era after that was probably cringe too now that its been like 5 years but yea. i was obsessed with them at the perfect time in my life when i needed enrichment.

anyway. i have so many of them memorized unfortunately. like its been a couple years now since i really watched them much and i press play and i literally just mouth the words along like. why.

i mean i know ppl do this with movies and i do this with lotms but something about having like tons of long ass youtube videos from DAN AND PHIL of all ppl feels. like insane and embarrassing.

idk where i was going with that but yea now that im out of the phandom i feel like i have so much to say like looking back at that time i was a phannie i am happy to discuss it. love them still tho like <3333 they brought me so much joy and when i watched a coupel videos the other niht i was still smiling so much liek its just infectious 😔