#im in my beautiful my created world then BAM

[divinit3a]

For the ask game 💕

💕 Time for a shout-out! What are some of your fav AUs from other creators in the fandom? ⭑ dca au ask game

^-^ ....OK! I shall set down all the cakes on the table for a full buffet! Get your forks & knives out! 🍽️🍽️🍽️

please don't hesitate to let me know if you'd prefer not to be @'d in the future, or to be removed from this post u_u <3 I totally respect folk's preferences!

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@muzzlemouths Dead Mall Dare / DfTR AU(s) Dead Mall Dare was one of the first AUs I read (like, literally. 1-2 months ago!) & I went woooaaah they are fun removed from original context. Isn't that so neat ?? This isn't a rabbithole to fall in, tho. u_u No wayyy guys c'mon ... /j Likewise, DfTR is a treat to watch unfold & see people squirm ^-^

@r0b0-wannabe Botanical Garden AU (or just any of your stories, but I'm.. sticking to the law...s... ) Hi, I stayed up to 2-3am drawing ur boys bc Im normal about this AU & how endearing it is... obviously... (💚) I love your writing style & characterizations. Maybe this is silly, but, I also enjoy learning about plantcare, too :3

@sinister-sincerely 2nd Choice AU Oh, you are so evil. The username matches. (A COMPLIMENT!! Hehe.) Oh, you write drama, angst/no comfort, hurting/damaged characters making awful choices so well. It was wild doing a double-take to realize YOU! are the WRITER for 2nd choice!! Some day, I will get u. For now, run 💜🔪

@wyervan Human!Slasher AU :D Yay! Both the OG/Main storyline are wonderful. I find the community version very endearing as an AU-within-an-AU. (love that!) As someone who used to run RP groups (on god!) it fills my heart with joy to see people filling out a world with so much life. Your art style is delightfully grungy ^-^/

@pluck-heartstrings - Pluck My Heartstrings AU Ohhh. I am weak to fairytale/renfaire vibes, as well as the more classic harlequin jester aesthetic u_u<3 Plus, the Vocalist/Princess is just so dang compelling, too. Your design sense is impeccable.

@moon-buggg Haunted House & Mad Scientist AUs They are both so neat & I can't wait to learn more!! The Haunted House AU designs live in my head rent free along with the comics :3

@zenkaiankoku Broken but Better AU Lovely, torn-up designs! Yay, mechanical horror! Yay, angst!! And a delightful remix of their personalities, too <3

@authormeat Alienware AU ^-^ I am instantly delighted by the weird guy freak energy & that the yn IS an alien/monster. Thats all I want & more. I also love ur designs for other AUs

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And...And... Not.. AU specific, but 🏏💥BAM , BAM 💥🏏 LOVELY FOLKS!!!!!!

🍲 <{ @soupdweller THERE IS NO ESCAPE ok but fr.. I appreciate ya, homie :3 you are a joy to chat with!! beautiful art!! evil mind!! delicious soups. i cant wait for whatever u cook up ^-^ 🐤 <{ @luckyyyduckyyy I WILL READ UR AU STORIES!! RUN & HIDE!!! you are the goofiest goober in the wild west, by goodness. i love ur energy and the gorgeous designs u create!! 🐛 <{ @chickenchirps27 ACK I COULD STARE AT UR ART FOREVER! I'll have to start volleying over illustrators I think ya might enjoy... u are so sweet & funny!! 🐐 <{ @lurking-loaf YOU ARE SO KIND! Seriously, I appreciate the fun craft projects you recommended -& your words of support :') 🔮 <{ @anis-sketches :D HI! Happy to throw recs your way. Also, your art is adorable!! 🌿 <{ @craykaycee HI TO U TOO!! the tags u leave always make me smile, and i appreciate u stopping by to say hi... :3 & MANYMANY MORE BUT I NEED TO CUT MYSELF OFF OR ELSE

Per usual, I lost sight of the original goal. But! Consider:

🏏💥WHAM , BAM 💥🏏 GOTCHU >:)

[pax-former]

Multiple times this has happened to me

[olivereliocorcordium1983]

11 Things I have Learned Being A FanFic Writer

1. Being specific on whether the story itself is going to a short fic or a long fic. difference short fics tend to be ten chapters or less maybe even up to twenty-two (from the last one i read) The long fics can be anywhere from 30 chapters and beyond that to the point where you are like when is this going to end! 

2. Having a beta reader is a lovely idea, they can look for the mistakes that you make and help you with grammar issues that you don't catch when reading it yourself. even then though it is bound to happen you will make mistakes! 

3. At any point in time the chapter that you are writing can and will be entirely rewritten. some part of you will think "yeah, this is complete crap" and you will toss that idea out like it was trash. 

4. To go along with number 3 DO NOT throw away whatever it is that you are writing even if you think at the time this is crap! you can use it to create and/or use what you wrote for future stories. where one thing doesn't fit it in one story it can fit in another one that will help it flow more easily. (learned this one the hard way )

5. SAVE SAVE SAVE!  Just like in video games if you don't save your progress, and something happens to that laptop. oh man, you will be in for a world of cussing, ranting, crying and possibly to the point of rage if all that work disappears. (Also learned this one the hard way ) so if you have to get a bunch of usb sticks and spastic save like your about to go up against the biggest boss with a higher power level than you and you just know that you are going to die multiple times because of said boss! 

6. inspiration can hit you at any point in time as well as real life experiences.Truth, I read a fanfic called the Epilepsy Diaries written by someone within the fandom and as sad and as dark as that story was It inspired me to write a fanfic where i gave the characters my disability of cerebal palsy and the people who read that (unfinished since im still writing it) have told me they learned so much about the disability and love this story so much that they beg me to update it all the time. one of those people had no idea there are 3 different types of cerebral palsy and not just the more severe one where the person is in a wheelchair.

7. Against what everyone says about the "character soul bonding" where you take on the thoughts of your character... um, I can personally say that it can happen from time to time. whether you believe that or not, whatever floats your boat bro, you do you. And depending on whatever comes out of their mouth be it conversation and/or argument at some point you will lose your control over your story and the characters will go haywire and throw that in whatever direction they want it to go. so, if they wanna i don't know kiss someone in the story, or if they wanna become a cartel boss and take over the world regardless of whether or not you want them to they are going to do it! 

8. writers block is a pain in the ass and always will bethere will be times when you are going a long in a story and you write that one really good chapter and then BAM you run right into that wall and you are sitting there overthinking things, not able to come up with something to write that not even the beautiful power of music can get you out of! it's frustrating, its aggravating and yes this has happened to me multiple times and still happens. 

9. Sometimes teasing the readers with a ship can cause chaos and frustration, while at the same time can be equally fun. WRITERS OF LAW AND ORDER SVU I'M TALKING TO YOU! BENSON AND STABLER BRO COME ON NOW, WE WAITED 23 SEASONS NOW GOING SEASON 24 THIS WILL THEY WON'T THEY TROPE GOING ON IS KILLING ME MAN! CHOP CHOP! 

10. Your ship is not my ship and that SHOULD BE OKAY but some people haven't learned this lesson yet. what do I mean, well there are some characters, that just go naturally together as a ship. Benson and stabler, batman and catwoman, (Every superhero known to man being paired with spiderman or deadpool, superman) you get my point! Anways sometimes there will be those people who don't want to see your pairing as a ship and will often times do one of their own that you don't necessarily like or you think is off the wall. And you keep your mouth shut while they will go out of their way to literally verbally fight you over your ship. so, there will be times when the peace will be broken and you will have to throw on that captain hat and go all captain jack sparrow on them, and verbally throw down and say to the equivalent of  "STOP BLOWING HOLES IN MY SHIP!" to said people. then you can pretty much choose to go about your merry way sail away off into the sunset with a mega pint of rum in your hand and keep writing what your readers want to read.  (That one was for you Johnny Depp who in my opinion will aways be the best pirate there ever was and will forever be Captain Jack Sparrow) 

11. When you write, write for yourself and write about whatever makes you happy. your value and yourself worth does not measure how many comments you get, how many people read what you write or how many messages you get from people who have an opinion about your story good bad or otherwise. Or how popular you are you don't have to be the next stephen king to touch people with the stories you write.

[fictionalpeoplecompleteme]

hi can i get a tewkesbury x reader imagine?? couldn’t find many so :// thanks so much 🥰🥰

Title: Really?

Request: Modern!Tewkesbury. Yes / No 

Word Count: 646

Warnings: literally nothing at all

(A/N): not me going on a mini hiatus. n e wayz guys im back with new fics ! so this this person didnt really specify want prompt they wanted so i decided to choose one ! its a cute little modern tewkes fic and i though the idea was cute. so enjoy and i hope you have a great rest of your day ! OOH, also, i created a taglistttttt. just look at my bio and youll see it there if you want to join !!

“Really? This?” you asked, looking at the big package on the floor.

“I thought it was a cute addition to our flat!’’ Tewkesbury defensively said, crossing his arms.

“Babe, you’re acting as if we are living on our own, we’re in a dorm.” you said as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, which it kinda was. “You bought a whole couch, which I don’t know if they even let us bring something in this big.”

“Of course, they do.” he said, though he’s not too sure himself.

“I don’t knooowwww.” you said looking at the package, “How did you even bring this big package here without me noticing?”

“I have my ways.’’ he said in a smug attitude, fixing his jacket. 

“You just let the delivery person do all the work, didn’t you?” you said, in the same smug attitude he had moments before.

“Listen” he said, looking thoroughly defeated, he then went over to you. With that dashing looking face of his, he put his put his arms around you waist keeping you secure, put on his best puppy eyes, and proceeded to say, “How about, you and I have some great girlfriend-boyfriend bonding experience building this, and once we finish we can pop open some pop and we can hold each other, all while watching your favorite movie?”

You fake thought about it, all while you’re in his arms and all while giving you a little smirk. “That does sound good...... Alright, I’ll do it.”

“Perfect!” he said, clapping his hands. He was happy enough to grab you by the face and proceed to give you a big ol’ kiss on the lips. 

You stood there, stunned for a second there. “A little intense there, huh?” 

You could hear him chuckle a bit. You then went to your room, put on a ponytail, and a headband (those baby hairs can be annoying!)  And then went to join to ensemble that couch that he just had to buy. 

You found him standing there, with the instructions in his hands, looking thoroughly confused. 

“Really?” You said giggling, “One of the smartest men in your class, with a solid 4.00 gpa, and you’re stumped on reading some instructions?”

He looked up to you, breaking his deep concentration, with an offended look on his. 

With a confident look on your face, you basically strutted over to him, gracefully taking the paper out of his hands. You weren’t going to lie, the instructions were a bit difficult, but nothing you both couldn’t do. 

“Okay, so, I do believe that we can do this, but if we can’t, we can at least say we tried, right?” you said with.... a somewhat confident voice.

He chuckled, and after a bit of thought, he said “Music?”

“Music.”

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After 3 hours of 20 minute breaks and long music sections, both of you FINALLY finished. You both were looking at the couch in complete awe, satisfied with the fact that your couch was looking exquisite. 

“It’s just... beautiful, wonderful really.” He said, even committed himself to tear up a bit.

You gave him a judged look, “You better act like this when we have our first child.”

He laughed, and then proceeded to sling his arm around you. 

“Well, lets test it out, shall we?”

“We shall.” 

Both of you proceeded to sit on the couch and then...

BAM 

You both heard the loud snap in the couch, something the both of you couldn’t ignore.

“Oh my god!” 

Tewkesbury apparently found the situation hilarious because he gave out the biggest laugh you’ve heard this week.

“Ooof coourrsee. Honestly babe I’m too tired to fix whatever the hell happened.” You said, putting your head on his shoulder. 

“Well then, what about tomorrow?”

“I would like nothing more.” You said, snuggling into each other, tired from the very long day.

Taglist (bio !)

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[hhuta]

(3D lbqfm anon) y'know after reading ur post on it i realized i a) subconsciously noticed the de-gaying and that's probably why i didn't like it and b) somehow didn't notice ANY changes despite the fact that I watched the two versions less than a week apart,,, i thought it was just the new cravat (tho i still don't like it. the old one was better) | also,,,, is it too much trouble to ask why u don't like the 3D assassymphonie? guessing smtg to do w the women | also ur opinion on 3D vaec?

where do i start with miss l'assasymphonie.. btw u can watch the video of the two versions side by side here. and my rant got wayyy too long so ill talk about VAEC in another post ldkjasl

tw: self harm/suicide mention just to be safe

im going to start with minor differences that make me prefer the 2010 version but not hate the 2011 one

first of all his dramatic soft gay sappy ass touching his heart when talking about mozarts music i like that a lot :(

then when he sings "killing out of spite everything i create" he metaphorically stabs himself in 2010 but not in 2011

and i love the first version because its a nice and subtle parallel between how mozarts music makes him feel like (lbqfm) vs how his own music affects him (l'assasymphonie) as i pointed out here before. this is on different levels !! the fact that in lbqfm its his inner gay demon stabbing him, representing mozart(s music) and in l'assasymphonie he stabs himself..... bc he is killing what he creates and what he creates is part of himself... so this isnt about him wanting to kill mozart its about him being self destructive... this is crazy this is just one gesture and i can go on and on about it and honestly my rant will only get more insane.

later he grabs the knife at different moments and in different ways and i think the 2010 version is more dramatic and impactful. the editing helps too, it really made me jump, its all done at the right time. but honestly both are valid to me; i feel like in 2010 hes more angry and impulsive, like its the very first time he thinks about doing something like this, whereas in 2011 he feels sad and defeated, like hes going back to a place he fought very hard to get out of and because of this one guy hes back there, but in the end he recognises its his own fault

another minor difference that i think is worth mentioning, and honestly i like both versions, is what he does at the "senseless (or crazy) symphony" part. in 2010 he almost covers his ears cuz obviously it goes along with the lyrics in a literal sense. meanwhile in 2011 its more of a symbolic interpretation? idk how to word it but 2010 feels like hes just talking about his music and the thoughts inside his head making no sense, but in 2011 when he looks at his writs, his veins, its like he is talking about himself as a whole; a being without any meaning, who is losing his mind, and i like that too

and this difference goes on when he talks about the "disconcerting concert"; 2010 feels like hes literally listening to it around him, his performance in 2010 is overall more dramatic lkjslkd, meanwhile theres none of that in 2011, hes too melancholic to be jumping around

here when hes talking about his talent (or rather lack of) u can see how hes more angry in 2010 and sad in 2011 (honestly this corroborates my theory that at the beginning florent played salieri as a legit evil villain but as it went on he added more depth)

anyways so far both versions are good to me now........ the fucking dancers............... i move away from the mic to breathe in.jpg

theres just. so fucking much going on in 2011. there are a shit ton of people moving around, the flashing lights, the constant zoom in and out, the curtains moving the background, im gonna have a stroke????? l'assasymphonie is such a heavy song, emotionally, and florents performance is amazing on its on theres no fucking need to add 100 more elements!??!? it totally takes away ur focus from salieri ....

my biggest problem is with the dancers as u guessed it cuz honestly idk why they are there, i dont understand the need. i get that they are his inner demons, but not the sexy ones, so they are there to represent his inner turmoil and add a chaos element to the performance and a parallel to lbqfm with the whole hands on salieri part, but its way to obvious that it becomes repetitive! inner demons dancing around a character happens way too much on mor; bim bam boum in a way, j'accuse mon pere, la mascarade, comedie-tragedie, si je defaille, lbqfm and now again?!!?!?!?! bitihc dlajsdlkas

and the worst fucking part to me is when salieri goes to kill the female dancer

.....why whY... WHY.. why make the song literal like this!!! this is not what its about??!?! i know she isnt supposed to be A Person, this isnt him being A Murderer, she is him in a way but ?? we already saw him almost killing himself??!!? why repeat that, this is just so unnecessary and it doesnt sit right with me why make him stab a woman!! it makes my blood boil. it takes away all the drama from the other scene, of him with the knife on his wrist, because it is essentially the same!

now lets discuss why i prefer the lost half naked blindfolded men. is it because its gay? yes. is it because of the kinky element? yes. u see how that creates a parallel to lbqfm but in a subtle way? yes thank you.

to elaborate i feel like the 2010 dancers represent his psyche at the moment soooo much better. its not just simply his inner demons haunting him again, making it repetitive.

his is how i interpret it and how it relates to salieri:

the blindfold: god it can mean so much... above all i think its his envy and anger blinding him, making him feel lost and afraid. but it can also represent how salieri is a stern man, he only sees things one way and is blinded to other possibilities, other ways of living. because he is so narrow minded, so used to just following the status quo, he doesnt understand mozart and how his carefree way of life is working for him. he doesnt understand his conflicted feelings towards mozart. he doesnt understand how mozarts music can be so unconventional and yet beautiful, etc etc. his world was shattered and he feels lost because of this one little guy

but honestly i think the intention was to give a shoutout to amadeus lmao which is still cool. they do mention in MOR that mozart can play blindfolded so u can view as a parallel to that too

the lack of clothes: around mozart salieri feels naked but not in a sexy and fun way, in vulnerable and seen for the first time way. imagine how strongly he considered changing his name and moving countries after the whole eh bien, maestro? trop de notes? ordeal..... he was caught off guard in that situation so he let the truth out way too much, but he knows he cant fake it around mozart any other time either

their behaviour: they look afraid, lost, in pain and are constantly falling, getting up, then falling again and being pushed up against the wall by something invisible (to me its mozarts music/influence) and honestly i dont have to say anything else ! its all there !!! it represents salieris emotions perfectly !!!!!

in summary, to me the 2010 dancers dont have a lot to do with the lyrics of the song and i think thats good. they are there to add a new element to it, to let us see inside salieris head, while salieri himself is performing what the lyrics are about. so on the other hand i think the 2011 dancers are repetitive and unnecessary, not adding anything new to the performance

[10boys]

MLQC : Smothering

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*aka , a boobie face dive !

Victor :

-Its only the softest of Victors that will act so shamelessly vulnerable to you

-You’re sitting on his lap with your arms around his neck as his hands caress the soft skin of your exposed thighs. You had a day off and decided to visit him on his lunch break at his office

-A few hours before on a quick phone call asking his permission to visit (he’s a busy guy) his usual sharp tounge was much diluted. He gave quick but vauge reassuring statement that he was just a bit stressed and had a lot on his plate for the week; risky decisions, rocky investments, many many under developed plans, all under the responsibility of himself.

-You know your smart and strong victor will get through it somehow, just like he always does, but thats not always an easy side to see when you’re experiencing it in first person. You just wanted to give him a moment to be vulnerable, relaxed, and securly cared for, something he’s constantly deprived of in his CEO role.

-As you pull his face closer and closer for cuddles , he relaxes his head and leans it into your shoulder. You stroke his hair leaving random kisses whenever you get the urge.

-There isnt much talking, just the two of you appreciateing each others warming presence

-The hand once on your thigh has risen to completely hold you in his arms, locking you in place.

-You take this as an invention to hug him tighter, elongating your body until his head finally falls into the perfect spot

-He lets out a small huff-like chuckle, letting you know he’s onto your shenanigans.

-“Feeling better already i see ?” You giggle into his hair while circling your finger around his ear, tracing patterns down his neck.

-“ ...m..dummy”

-His harsh words are very opposing to his actions. His grip around your waist becomes tighter as he burrows himself deeper into his personal pillow

-The comfort and warmth wraps his mind in pink hearts, allowing him to forget his pressing struggles and stress. Being near you is like a sip of wine to him , sensualizing and god damn intoxicating

-He’ll slowly move his face back and forth, in and out, up and down, until he finally realses a small groan of satisfaction

-Being a accomplice to his healing feels amazing, but the current undivided attention to you and your breast is indescribable

-He’ll stay like that for a while, just pushing and rubbing against you...

-He can’t allow himself to get too wired up at work though , this is only his lunch break after all

-The slight shift in his pants once he feels your nipples begin to harden against his face knocks him out of his trance

-“ahh I can’t do this now”

-He doesn’t move, just turns his head and leasurly lays on them for the remainder of his break

-At home though? Boyyyyyy

-Your low V-neck shirt would have been pulled down immediately to expose yourself to him, breast spilling out resembling a 4 course meal

-Victor prefers his hands to your breasts though, he loves to grope and toy with your nipples. He doesn’t have a good view to watch your reaction to him if hes face-deep

Lucien :

-HE is a looker

-We’re all very familiar with his intense gaze stairing problem

-You’re both sitting upright on opposite sides of the plush floor matt in his reading room, pillows densely outline the edges for support and comfort while you two peacefully enjoy each other’s company

-Well, you were

- Just as you’re turning the page of one of the novels you found laying near by, you see a pair of familiar black pupils from above the pages

-You lower the book to better see the man glaring absolute holes into you. The corners of his lips lift into seemingly innocent smile, the smile that softens his whole face, thins out his eyes, and hides his much more vulgar intentions.

-“Can i help you sir ?” You playfully spat trying to hide the gentle blush creeping onto your cheeks

-Your remark seems to have caught him off guard, but he quickly fixes his face. He lowers his book and gently places it to the side, his thin black-framed glasses following suit.

-“Actually...” his tall thin frame is crawling twords you, you feign resistance, lightly kicking your legs to keep him away. His large strong hands grasp them immediately, keeping them in place long enough for him to slip himself in.

-And now there he is, layed on top of you with his head under the arms thats still holding your book whata attention whore.

-His head rests on your lower stomach hiking up the him of your shirt. You know he’s up to something, but his current good behavior is enough to lower your suspensions for now. Him cuddling onto you while you read is actually very peaceful in itself. He looks comfortable and delicate, so you let him be.

-But that doesn’t last for long

-You can feel his warm breath on your stomach ascented by soft pecks and kisses, leaving trails just beginning to go above your belly button. His hands grab the rim of your shirt pulling it over his head, creating a personal space for just him and the beautiful view underneath

-“Lucien!” You giggle as his kisses gradually travel higher up, getting wetter and more passionate with each contact of skin

-“Hm? Something wrong? I prefer it under here..” and with that, he’s face planted.

-The distractions have your book strown to the side after you’ve long lost interest

-Lucien likes to play.

-He’ll dip his hands in periodically to help with his little experiments, pressing down your nipples to watch them pop back up.

-But mostly, he’ll hold your body from the outside as he helps himself to as much titty as he wants

-He loves the good old-fashion smother. His face absorbed by boob. Since you’re laying down, He’ll use his hands from the outside to push up all the extra boob fat

-Lucien, the actual kitten, will leave nips and bites on the supple flesh inbetween his face-dive sessions. He just absolutely adores the whole act, having someone he loves and admires so vulnerable and exposed to him and his desires makes his heart soft and dick hard

-Is he lightly thrusting his hips against the matt ? The world may never know

-Lucien does this often tho, maybe second in place to kiro

-From daily hugs to cuddle session, he can’t seem to keep to loose himself to his desires.

Gavin :

-Ooooh blushy boy

-You LOVE teasing him, the way he quickly turns his head to redirect his attention when he’s flustered is beyond satisfying, the butterflys you get knowing what you (unintentionally) do to him is :,)

-So the element of surprise is something he hates but you love

-He’s sitting on the edge of the bed, just chillin on his phone waiting for you to finish up whatever you were doing in the other room when BAM

-“Gavin ~ i missed u ~”

-You pull him into a smothering embrace, his face and your chest having an intement moment together

-You hold his head firmly aginst you while softly stroking his hair, letting some fingers down periodically to trace along his ear

-Gavin groans but shows absolutely no signs of resistance probably to hide his blushing face

-His face feels great agaisnt your chest, you begin to move them side to side to create a bit of friction for yourself

-You hear him release a low exhale at the action as you respond with a soft giggle

-Once Gavins done acting all tsundere he finally surrenders, pulling you closer by hugging at your waist, softly shaking his head in your breast

-Shit he may even grip a titty with one hand as he continues to press against the other

-Gavin lives to please you, so its not long after his attention will go to pinching at your nipples and nipping them with his teeth through your shirt

-When you look down to check on him, you meet the gaze of his blushing face and low amber eyes looking up at you and fuck

-Its time to get down to business :)

-Gavin loves to mark you, so sucking his ownership into one of your most delicate and personal places is his specialty

-He also loves to smother while he fucks you or you fuck him

-When he’s close he’ll bury himself in your chest and fuck you like the dirty dog he is ;)

-he nasty

-so shy...but so naSTy...

Kiro:

-Kiro absolutely loves it

-Kiro is just a boob guy in general?

-White tank top + your nipples pressing through = suckle session

-Like lucien, he loves to lay down on top of you and just... play

-Its rare you both have a day off at the same time so you usually spend it having a lazy day together, after all, working is exhausting

-You’re cuddled up on the couch watching your favorite feel-good show together, one of his favorite things to do with you since he gets to use his most favorite pillow

-Actually, Its just you watching the show.

-His arms are wrapped around your body pressing you as close to his face as he possibly can

-“mmmm miss chips is my favorite pillow~”

-“wahhh your boobs are so great”

-We can’t expect this vocalist to be shy about his feelings for you, he’ll spit little praises at you regularly as they come to his mind

-He’ll lay on each one, then in the crevis of your breast so he can push them together to completely surround himself. His hands will get a good grip as he paws and gropes at them

-Can he breath? The world may never know

-He’ll die a happy death tho

-Loves to wiggle his face back and forth and feel the jiggle

-He gives them so much attention you begin to think he might have a boob worshiping thing?? Not that you’d mind ;)

-His face and free boob massage feels absolutely great, his tinted cheeks and wet blue orbs stairing up at you is enough to make the anime steam blow through your head

- *thought bubble* fuck fuck fuck hes so cute...

Sooo if you can’t tell #1 im a cancer and #2 im about to start my period so my boobs are soooo sensitive right now, these scenarios are all i can think about ~ Thank u sm for reading !!! You can comment your thoughts or stance of the accuracy, Check out my other works under the mlqc tag :) -myk

[lansizhuis]

hey so ive been really curious about this but who do you prefer more esp since you prefer novel!weilan, ye zun or mianmian (ghost face) i know that both of their personalities are kinda missing in both scenarios so ig the question would be how do you characterize mianmian

warning: might contain novel spoilers as im not following eng translations so idk what chapter it’s in

Tbh I really like Ye Zun and Gui Mian (Ghost Face) bc they’re such rat trash and apparently I adopt those kind of characters sometimes hahaha OKAY but hmm how to characterize Mianmian? This is a very interesting question bc it’s really difficult for me to answer. It’s difficult because he had sooooo much potential and was either thrown for “nonsense uwu plot” (cough drama ilu but also wtf cough) or thrown away LITERALLY (cough priest ilu but also fine this was one of your early works). I’m gonna do the characterization in parallel with Shen Wei bc, well, they’re alike.

Mianmian was said to be literally so alike with Shen Wei - they’re twins, they were both created through Kunlun’s soul fire, and they’re both the ONLY ghost kings (so top tier beauty, strength, power, ravenous hunger, etc) and the only difference between them is Shen Wei meeting and clinging on to Kunlun first. Priest lending us a taste of his dynamic with Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan in the Pillar arc was sooooo good BUT IT’S SUCH A TEASE BC BAM he wasn’t properly used anymore kfkbskfbskdbhg (one day, I’ll properly publish this fic of Kunlun having 2 ghost kings attached to him /sobs) I honestly see him as having hints of being extremely possessive both for Shen Wei and Kunlun/Zhao Yunlan as they were the relevant ones in his beginnings. I feel it was his character that was as invested as we are with weilan (albeit for diff reasons) lmao like c’mon he was the reason why plot started to move aka Shen Wei and Zhao Yunlan meeting wherein Shen Wei had no choice but to be in constant contact with Zhao Yunlan.

ANYWAY, back to the point - Mianmian is the epitome of a ghost king that did not have outside influence (aka unlike Shen Wei who had Kunlun). He stayed true to his nature - he wanted to devour, he wanted to destroy, he wanted chaos. And the thing is, Shen Wei also in a sense stayed true to his nature but in his own way - he wanted to devour Kunlun (keep him, lock him up, etc), he wanted to destroy (at the end, if it wasn’t for his love and promise, he’d have nonchalantly watched the world burn if it meant having his ending with Zhao Yunlan SCREAMS IN CH92 if my memory serves me right). Their nature was the same and the difference lied on their motivations for it - Shen Wei had Zhao Yunlan at his core but Gui Mian only had an empty hunger at his own core. In a way, it’s like Shen Wei found a purpose while Gui Mian didn’t. 

[oceanlovinggamedev]

A collection of thoughts

Part3- With languages across Unity, CPU,GPU and all the other game engines even all translating and having to communicate, i mean i wasn’t going to bring it up but i guess since im here..the multiple layers of languages and the countless languages across the world is something to admire. And even languages that are created and understood between parents/children before a recognized/organized language with grammar, syntax and structure is learned from the child is incredible.

Part4- The detail and amount of control the Unity engine has (without going into scripting) with building environments, characters, items, architecture, simulations, video games, anything and then including them in different scenes or all in one scene. The ability to adjust the X,Y,Z for scale size and rotation, the ability to nitpick details for shaders, colors, adding asset packs or going into photoshop and creating asset/things and then making an asset pack out of them. Like going into photoshop while studying your tile wall and drawing tile in a .PSD and the grout, and wallpaper maybe or whatever else but then drawing it dang near perfectly or just using a photograph but then importing that into Unity and bam now you have a tile wall that an entire universe can be made of. Or going into photoshop and creating and floor panel and so on. Or using Blender or 3ds Max or Zbrush and creating 3D buildings or people, animals, whatevers, and importing them- now you just added to the universe of tile you created. The possibilities are endless. And like in real life some use this knowledge to create awful things. The creation skill may be impressive and beautiful but the use it has not at all (as i write this i have grand theft auto in my head cause thats disgusting in my honest personal opinion here. Being able to kill law enforcement, the objectification and degradation of women, disrespect for nearly every other “person” in the game is deplorable. Yes they’re AI and video games are not this world but it still effects human emotion and the human thought process and their ideals.

[margotryan]

hey cuties!!! my name is fiona and i’m here and i’m EXCITED!!!! this is margot (but her CLOSE friends call her marley) , and i apologize ahead of time. she’s hard to unpack, but she’s a whole lotta fun!! give this post a like if you want to plot!! i have some wc’s listed on my blog, but TBH i prefer brainstorming sometimes??? depends on the muses! but without further adieux, here she is!

CISFEMALE — ever hear people say MARGOT RYAN looks a lot like KENDALL JENNER? I think SHE is about TWENTY-TWO, so it doesn’t really work. The BARTENDER has lived in Livingstone for TWENTY-TWO. They can be +PASSIONATE, but they can also be -VOLATILE. I think MARLEY might be A SHEEP. ( f. 19. est. she/her. )

BASICS

full name: MARGOT JEAN MARTIN

nicknames: MAR, MARLEY ( given to her by her friends after watching marley and me)

age: 22

dob: feb 3, 1997.

zodiac: aquarius.

occupation: bartender/instagram model.

THE PAST

mar was born and raised in livingstone, vermont to an extremely successful lawyer couple. 

the ryans work out of new york city mostly, so growing up marley grew bonds with her babysitters, nannies, teachers instead of her parents

BUT they work there because they’re celebrity lawyers, getting paid a pretty penny for representing high profile criminals, as well as your everyday tabloid actress/musician/you name it. 

her whole life, her parents bragged about how their only daughter (unless someone wants a siblings plot?? im down!) would follow in their footsteps eventually

despite how some people might react after growing up in this lifestyle, marley always had a deep love and respect for her parents and their goal-oriented view of things. so, despite being more of a creative and having no real desire to fulfill her parents’ wishes for her career, growing up she would just smile and nod along at whatever they said

TW MURDER: in her freshman year of high school, she began growing popularity. (this is also when she met her boyfriend, kieran.) her parents were representing an actor going through an extremely public murder case, which meant everyone knew her last name. it started out as whispers and stares, and marley didn’t even know why. her parents could never talk to her about their cases, so she was completely unaware of the case until finally, one of her friends pulled up the article

she went home and began researching herself, and mar was genuinely interested in it. she watched the news and read all the gossip about the theories simply because she found the dark undertones fascinating. it was something she hadn’t really been exposed to in her life. everything had been glitz and glam and smiles and money and parties, and it was like she was seeing a different side of the world she never knew about

now that she was informed about the case, she began answering her peers’ prying questions. she wasn’t doing anything wrong since all her information was obtained from the internet and not her parents, and suddenly people seemed to be a lot more interested in her

it also didn’t hurt that this was around the time she started caring about her appearance. she was berated with paparazzi every time she left her house during this time period, and she couldn’t escape the watchful eyes even at school. so, with her parents’ credit card in hand she went on a shopping spree, redesigning her entire wardrobe as well as practically cleaning out sephora’s entire stock

kieran had been the first to notice this new look, and they soon began dating. he was her first love, and she was absolutely infatuated. perhaps an unlikely couple, but Marley couldn’t care less about that. she still doodled his name all over her notebooks, and told him all about her plans for their future

after some time, the case came to a close and by the time she graduated it was long forgotten about. but marley was never forgotten about. she solidified her place as the queen bee for the rest of her high school career. and just like she nodded along with her parents’ plans for her, she did the same with her popularity. her main focus, however, was on kieran. 

she ended up the captain of the cheerleading team, prom queen, as well as class president and valedictorian. 

she was never a mean girl, which is probably why she was so well liked. she was the kind of girl you looked at and you were like “damn, she’s so beautiful, there’s no way she’s nice too” but then bam. and then she’s smart too?? how could you not love her???

she was also a bit naive. because she’d never really experienced pain or any misfortune at all, she never even considered the possibility of anything bad happening to her. that was until she found out kieran had been cheating on her. practically the entire time they had been together. thankfully, this knowledge came to light after graduation, just before she was to leave for college.

this personality followed her through college, and yes, she did attend harvard like her parents had begged her to. it wasn’t hard considering her parents had attended there, and they’d donated more than their fair share to the school. however, it was because of the pain of being cheated on, and the alluring sense of being in a new place all on her own that she discovered her love for the arts. she began drawing, painting.. anything from portraits, to abstract pieces, to fashion designs. she also picked up the piano, and she did sing and write a little bit of music, but she was far too embarrassed of it to tell anyone. she won’t even sing in front of anyone. 

however, she entered harvard with a major in pre-law, but after taking a random art class as an elective her first semester, she changed it to business. she knew she couldn’t switch to art without an entire revolution from her parents, so she concocted some excuse about wanting to be the CEO of her own corporation. this, of course, was equally as acceptable to her parents 

but in reality, she just wanted to learn how to market herself as a creative. whether she decided to be an artist, a fashion designer, a singer, or whatever else it was, she knew a degree in that field would do almost nothing for her, while business knowledge could make or break her

THE PRESENT

Marley graduated in 2018, and moved back home to livingstone where she met who else but michael green. the two became friends soon enough, and her parents were absolutely thrilled

her parents were the main driving force between the two getting together. they hated kieran, of course, when they were together. but michael green was the golden boy of livingstone, so he was perfect for the golden girl of living stone. 

ever since high school, marley had been blissfully separated from the rest of her parents’ cases. however, she hadn’t escaped the courtroom just yet

although this time, she was taking the stand in defense of michael, her boyfriend, in the trial for the murder of kieran, her first love. none of it seemed real. it still doesn’t seem real to her 

she tries her absolute best to stay away from the entire situation. she hasn’t opened the app once since it’s been on her phone, and she hasn’t even spoken to her parents since court. 

she lives by herself in an apartment she pays for with her bartending job that her parents have no idea about. but, it pays her bills while she gets to create art - her favorite coping mechanism

but this is the first time she’s ever experienced hate online. she’d been receiving negative press from those same sites she had bookmarked on her laptop. ever since that first case she’d grown an obsession with the macabre, and frequently checked up on her favorite news sites, conspiracy theory sites, and other things of the sort. she knew so much about serial killers and other high profile crimes that she could probably conduct the perfect one and get away with it scot free. hmmmmm. anyway.

now these sites were posting about her, questioning her involvement in the whole thing. even she had to admit that her presence in the case was simply uncanny

but just like everything else in her life, she never asked for this. now, she wishes she could just go back to being the girl who got good grades, wore ugly wire glasses, and always had greasy hair. 

PERSONALITY

marley loves to shock people. whether intentionally or unintentionally, it constantly happens. at first glance, she’s just another rich, pretty girl who’s been pampered every moment of her life. after everything she’s been through, that’s the distance she likes to keep between her and most people. sure, she’s kind to everyone she meets, but it can come off as fake to those that don’t know her. she just has that face. queen of rbf. but, her true heart and her mind are reserved for those who have proven to be worthy of it. 

she is fiercely independent. that’s shown by the way that she defied her parents, while still maintaining her adoration and respect for them. she never had a rebellious phase, never let their controlling nature change who she was. she never lets people tell her how to think. and as she grows older and experiences more, she’s breaking her silence. she’s starting to not bite her tongue and smile and nod so as to keep being a nice little girl and not start any trouble. instead, she’s starting to voice her opinion, despite what anyone else thinks of it. 

she definitely has a laaaarge group of friends. the kind of person that just gets along with everyone?? if they’re so lucky as to keep her attention, that is. sure, she’s nice to everyone she meets and if they ask to exchange numbers she’ll oblige. but that doesn’t mean she won’t block that number as soon as she leaves or simply ignore all the texts and calls from her ‘new friend.’ if there’s something off about you, she cuts you off before you get too close to know too much about her. simple as that. 

but despite that she considers herself mainly a lone wolf. no one has your back like you do kind of thing. she doesn’t believe people have it in them to genuinely love and care for another person, especially when it comes to her. as far as she’s concerned, she has yet to see proof of that and she is a very ‘i need to see it to believe it’ kind of person

her inner workings and thought processes are certainly intense, but outwardly, she’s pretty laidback and likes to joke around. 

she’s also beginning to party more. she starts by drinking and trying drugs alone in her apartment, but if she met someone who was well versed in those kinds of things??? yeah they’d get into trouble

[lizziebennet]

AURORA. Very important question for you on this Tuesday night - what is your opinion on the HP scores and could you order them from fav to least fav?

what an excellent and essential question. i admit that it’s hard for me to approach this matter from an objective point of view as obviously my opinions of these scores are very intensely affected by nostalgia and my experience w the film itself, but i shall try my hardest to just evaluate the scores on their own merit. 

RANKING OF THE HARRY POTTER FILM SCORES, FROM WORST TO BEST:

7. deathly hallows part 1&2 by alexandre desplat

i remember when it was announced desplat was going to be doing the last 2 films and it was so exciting to have such a Hot Composer taking on the final two films… but i gotta say he severely disappointed me and i haven’t forgiven desplat since. these films–especially part 2–were the culmination of the entire franchise, and should’ve been fucking epic masterpieces that evoked the previous films’ score. instead, desplat largely ignored the iconic potter themes that williams and others created and went in his own direction which like… isn’t really the right move for the last 2 films of a franchise imo. 

and im just not super a fan of what he came up with?? like ‘lily’s theme’ is good, but im not sure it really fits potter?? and i just feel like a lot of the final battle stuff could’ve been so much more epic and emotional like. it doesn’t take a lot for a bitch to cry in a harry potter movie but desplat wasn’t helping me out u know. anyway i honestly like the score he did for fucking new moon better than for potter which …….is not great. 

6. order of the phoenix by nicholas hooper 

i am trying not to let my hatred of this movie cloud my judgement here but like even so i think this is one of the weaker scores. there are just so many annoying tracks lmaooo that like they blast at the wizarding world parks u know. like umbridge’s theme… i get its SUPPOSED to be annoying but still its not a fave. and like i think again the stuff in the ministry of magic during the fight scenes couldve been better. its just not a fave tbh but i do like a few themes like particularly the track ‘a journey to hogwarts’ is very sweet and sirius’s death moment was well done. but overall there are more tracks on this one i skip than play. 

5. chamber of secrets by john williams

this is where things get rly tricky bc i legit love the rest of these scores. but i have to put chamber here because i feel like a lot of its greatness piggybacks off the genius of the score of sorcerer’s stone... which isn’t a bad thing at all but. it doesn’t bring a ton of new stuff to the table. however i do love the ‘fawkes the phoenix’ theme!!! so!! much!!! and lockhart’s theme is very funny and cute. we do edge into a saccharine territory a bit when it comes to tracks like ‘reunion of friends’ but like i cry every time so who fucking cares. 

4. half-blood prince by nicholas hooper

i really really love this score as a stand alone score, and i almost put it higher on this list but i feel like this score totally abandons all the potter scores that have come before it and does its totally own new thing. this isn’t really the scores fault, as im sure like david yates told hooper to do this you know, but it deviates so far from the original themes instead of just adding onto them, so much so that if you just heard it without watching the movie you might not even associate it with the potter movies at all. again, this probably isn’t hooper’s fault but i think this was a big mistake for the sonic evolution of the movies. the potter movies failed to create a cohesive sound across all the films, and i think it is worse for it. can u imagine if the harry potter movies were like the lord of the rings movies, where they bring back themes from the first movie in the final one and the audience recognizes them subconsciously and the moment is all the more emotional because of it? tbh just a missed opportunity imo. 

but anyway just about this score on its own, it has some of the best standalone tracks in the entire movies tbh. the one that stands out the most to me is of course ‘dumbledore’s farewell.’ such a hauntingly beautiful song--i remember seeing this movie for the first time and this track pierced me to my core. i also love how this score uses harp like in ‘when ginny kissed harry,’ and how it uses choral arrangements?? like in ‘in noctem.’ honestly i adore this score so much but i have to rank it lower because i doesn’t feel like it serves its purpose in the potter movies as a whole well :( 

3. goblet of fire by patrick doyle

idk why patrick doyle only did the 1 movie because i really like this score. i know its super hard to follow up john fucking williams lmaooo but i feel like he did a pretty good job of drawing from the original williams themes but also incorporating some new stuff to fit the darker tone of the movie. there are some of my favorite potter tracks of all time on this score like ‘death of cedric’ which is so haunting and perfect and ‘harry in winter’ which is so beautiful and potter-esque. he also did a really good job with the action scenes in the graveyard which is v important to me. and the diegetic music in the yule ball stuff is so funny and lovely at the same time. 

2. sorcerer’s stone by john williams 

the fucking classic. the og. like, what is there to say?? talented brilliant incredible amazing showstopping never the same totally unique. like only john williams could create such an iconic theme. it’s hard for me to be objective here because i was young enough when the first movie came out that ‘hedwig’s theme’ /is/ harry potter to me, they are one in the same, you cannot separate them in my mind. but truly williams captured the magic of the harry potter world in music and enchanted everyone with this score. 

i also love the little medieval-y influences in this score that were dropped by chamber of secrets. like with the harp moments and in ‘diagon alley and the gringotts vault’ and ‘in ‘hogwarts forever!’ there’s just a very majestic and antique vibe that i really dig that didn’t really carry over to the other movies. 

i will say sometime williams gets very... williams-y in his very uhh loud?? and kinda frantic composing u can hear in like ‘the quidditch match’ which isn’t my favorite way to do action scenes, but like who the fuck cares u know the pros of this score far outweigh it. 

like. just. so manyyy iconic themes that have so much EMOTIONAL WEIGHT!!! like the moment u see hogwarts for the first time and the choral vocals... and the bells in ‘christmas at hogwarts.’ and who can keep a dry eye during ‘leaving hogwarts’??? NOT I!!!!!!!!!!! such a gentle theme of longing and home and yearning and family and bittersweet loss. it starts so small and intimate but then swELLS to this grand and sweeping tune. it’s stunning. 

1. prisoner of azkaban by john williams

this is PEAK!!! potter for me. again, hard to be objective because this is the best my favorite harry potter movie, but i also truly think this is the best score because it carries over the iconic themes of the first two movies but adds a quirky and dramatic flair that fits the tone of the movie cuaron was trying to make u know? i think u can really tell that cuaron had a lot of imput on the score and didn’t just let williams do whatever he wanted, because we get a really interesting, stylized sound that is really different from williams usual fare in such a great way. but, it still is a williams score and because of that it shines and also weaves in the past movies’ themes to give us an outstanding amalgamation of sound and melody. 

like we start with ‘lumos!’ which gets us right back into the potter universe but then we get a series of quirky new themes, like the waltz for aunt marge, the jazzy knight bus theme, and the medieval choral rendition of ‘double trouble’... iconic. and we get the dark and disturbing dementors theme (’apparition on the train’) which is very understated for a williams score and extremely effective. 

however ,,,, we do not abandon the themes from prior movies!!!!! a great illustration of how williams takes those old potter themes and adapts them for this movie can be seen in ‘secrets of the castle.’ this minimalist take on hedwigs theme is a completely different tone from the original, but still establishes that we are in the same sonic world as that film. you can also see this in ‘the portrait gallery’ where an old potter theme is played on some kind of woodwind (idk sorry) and a harpsichord, giving the odd, quirky, vintage feel of the movie but still keeping with the established potter musical world. 

i really love the ~medieval vibes~ that this score gives me and i wish this was something later scores went back to (instead of going in a jazz direction..looking at you hooper). theres a lot of traditional sounding instruments used that give it a real rustic, celtic feel rather than the grand classicism of a full orchestral sound that the first 2 movies use. a lot of harps, strings, and woodwinds!!!! 

some of my favorite tracks of all time are on this score. ‘window to the past’ is just... a triumph of emotion. its absolutely stunning in its simplicity in the beginning, and how it builds toward the end. the return of that theme in ‘finale’ when sirius is saying goodbye to harry...i truly sob every time. the isolated vocals in ‘the patronus light’ truly embody the purity of that awe and joy when the patronus is cast. and of course, of course, ‘buckbeak’s flight’ is an absolute magical joy ride captured in sound. williams refrains from using a full orchestra for most of the score, so when everyone plays together in moments like this you get the full grandeur of the scene just... bAM! it’s so fucking well done and just... perfect. 

[selfishcatt]

Scintillation-LUMINOUS(HAN/ROM/ENG) lyrics

흩날린 꽃잎이

heutnallin kkoccipi

Scattered petals

낯선 이 떨림이

naccseon i tteollimi

This strange trembling

금기 된 그 곳에 이끌어

geumgi doen geu gos-e ikkeul-eo

lead to the forbidden place

아득히 피워진

adeughi piwojin

far away

널 쫓는 lunatic

neol jjochneun lunatic

A lunatic that's chasing you

어둠 속 날 좀 구해줘

eodum sog nal jom guhaejwo

Save me from the darkness

시리도록 나를 비춰 (oh-eh-oh)

silidolog naleul bichwo

shine on me

고갤 돌려도 no way (oh)

gogael dollyeodo no way

Even if I turn my head, no way

끝이 없는 잔상 같이 (oh-eh-oh)

kkeut-i eobsneun jansang gat-i (oh-eh-oh)

Like an endless afterimage (oh-eh-oh)

틈 없이 두 눈에 번져와

teum eobs-i du nun-e beonjyeowa

It spreads into my eyes without a gap

Hate, 네가 쏟아진 시간 속에

Hate, nega ssod-ajin sigan sog-e

Hate, in the time you poured it out

감히 너 말곤 담지 못해

gamhi neo malgon damji moshae

I wont dare put it in you

모든 감각이 너를 원해

modeun gamgag-i neoleul wonhae

All of my senses want you

손을 뻗어줘

son-eul ppeod-eojwo

reach out your hand

낮과 밤이 너로 넘쳐와 매일

*najgwa bam-i neolo neomchyeowa maeil

Night and day, everyday's been overflown with you

Break up, wake up 신기루 같아 마치

Break up, wake up singilu gat-a machi

Break up, wake up, like a mirage

아플 만큼 날 태워

apeul mankeum nal taewo

burn me so much that it hurts

아름다운 My spectrum

areumdaun My spectrum

So beautiful my spectrum

So now*

**My love is blind

눈 먼 이 맘

nun meon i mam

this blind heart

다신 멈출 수 없잖아

dassin meomchul su eopjana

It cant be stopped ever again

쏟아진 lights

ssod-ajin lights

pouring lights

더 목이 타

deo mog-i ta

Thristing more and more

달리게 만들어 always

dallige mandeul-eo always

make me run always**

손을 뻗어 영원의 밤을 헤매

son-eul ppeod-eo yeong-won-ui bam-eul hemae

Reach out and wander through the eternal night

이 길 끝이 뭐든 난 좀 더 멀리

i gil-ui kkeut-i mwodeun nan jom deo meolli

Whatever the end of this road, I'm a little farther

나의 심장을 채워

no simjangeul chaewo

Fill My Heart

닿지 못할 My savior

dahji moshal My savior

Unreachable My savior

So now

까만 수면에, 단 한순간에 네가 밀려든다

kkaman sumyeon-e, dan hansungan-e nega mollyeodeunda

You flock to the black waters in a single moment

망설임 없이 달려 기꺼이 네게 뛰어든다

mangseol-im eobs-i dallyeo gikkeoi nege ttwieodeunda

I run without hesitation and gladly jump into you

나를 길 잃게 할 빛인지

nareul gil ilhge hal biccinji

Is it the light that will make me get lost?

잔인한 환상은 아닌지

jan-inhan hwansang-eun aninji

Isn't it a cruel fantasy?

그래 뭐든 멈추긴 이미

geulae mwodeun meomchugin imi

Yes, everything has already stopped

늦었어 그저 keep me going

neuj-eoss-eo geujeo keep me going

It's late, just keep me going

봐, 네가 만든 세상 속에

bwa, negga mandeun sesang soge

Look, in the world you have created

그 찬란함에 눈이 먼 채

geu chanranhame nuni meon chae

Blinded by its splendor,

Uh, 날 던져 fallin'

Uh, nal deonjyeo fallin'

Uh, throw me fallin'

*repeat*

**repeat**

눈 감아 보지만 점점 밝아져

nun gam-a bojiman jeomjeom balg-ajyeo

I close my eyes but it gets brighter

악몽일 꿈이라 해도 날 가져

agmong-il kkum-ila haedo nal gajyeo

Even if it's a nightmare or a dream, take me

이 감정도, 이 시선도 너만 찾게

i gamjeongdo, i siseondo neoman chajge

This feeling and this gaze will only find you

*repeat entire hook*

[hongism]

CALY! so it has been months since I’ve been on this app because college was working ~overtime~ to break my sanity and almost succeeded but I graduated instead 👩‍🎓🎉 so I came back on to catch up on moc and DAMN you came for blood. act 6 right now is some of your absolute best work and that is saying something because your writing is incredible all the f*ckin time. yeosang and wooyoung are breaking me and I’m a shell of a human rn but I absolutely love how real and raw you’ve always kept their relationship. yn and san are STUPID precious I can’t function properly when he calls her my darling please never stop this beautiful love. yn and yeosang???? I can’t believe you’ve done this (*read like the vine) to be perfectly honest there was always this tiny part in the back of my mind that was like “are they gonna smash??” and BAM there you go making an already crazy situation even CRAZIER but I love it and I live for it. I feel like the worlds biggest dingbat for not even considering what celeste could be and now you’ve blown my mind yet again🤯 I am so so eager to keep finding more out about sirens like the lore you’re creating with them is incredible and so fascinating please never change you’re a genius. I am super interested to see if minho becomes a permanent part of the crew and OH MY GOD I JUST REMEMBERED I wanted to tell you how freaking heart wrenching it was to read about what wooyoung did to the boy in the brothel that entire scene gave me literal goosebumps and I was just devestated for him. And holy SHIT yeo, woo, and yn all knowing each other before and having like mad history ??????????? this act is everything and you’re an incredible writer wowie zowie. also how have you been my love ?? 🦛

beloved!!! i’ve missed you dearly ahhhh 😭 you GRADUATED!!!! CONGRATS BESTIE IKTR!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 that’s such a huge feat omg you’re everything yesyesyes!!! my absolute best work oh my god that’s so huge and means so much to me bc damn that means so much!!! i can’t put it into words!!!

im sawry for causing pain and tragedy... im SAWRY!!!! yn and san yes lord YES!!! i love writing them so damn much </3 ARE THEY GONNA SMASH LAKJSLKGJADLKFG NOW. you know me too well!!! honestly it felt like a full circle moment finally revealing what celeste is and the impact of it all :3 all this lore man this is what i live for and what i’ve been eagerly waiting to expose all this time!! my lifeblood and everything i love in life!!!! you’re so sweet thank youuuu <33 minho is a FUN AND DELIGHTFUL ONE!!! we’ll have to see what happens with him i have lots of exciting plans indeed ehehehehhe but im so THRILLED that you loved that scene i cried while writing it!!! and im glad that it had a nice impact 🥲 

i’ve been well but busy and crazed ahhhh im hoping to be back more these days eeee how have you been besides graduating :o

[salosion]

Fact Is Fact Like Funfetti Is Funfunkin’fetti

You change the world around You by changing yourself.

You control your own thoughts now You shape Your life and control Your Destiny.

Your good thoughts become Your beliefs

You raise Your awareness and Live more consciously

You have the power to change Yourself as You see fit

You create Your Life as you see fit

Everything You desire is available to You

You release limiting beliefs You have the right to accept Your own Greatness You=You use Your own power to build the Life You want … hundreds of millions of times.

Affirmate the design designed to BURN away Self.

Fantasy ain’t no fiction,

Fantasy is as real as real is You, Your Imagination is a figment that at the same time is Imagining You.

Fantasy Ain’t No Fiction,

Fantasy Takes time for Her to appear,

Thats why patience was taught as a virtue;

Quietest thingamajig that’ll make you disappear.

. *BAM* bloom-explop-plode-plop up to reappear inside a dream outside a desire; upside a cloud but behind the bells of gospel soul angels flow inside Your frame aswell, Despite the fact that Your current existence is only existent through the molding and shaping of translations of conditions; vibrations are really ALL- Just like you just thought your thought I just then I thought my thought by thought that thought just then to thought to thought and thought out loud to prove the point that thoughts are thoughts that thought pure sounds inside your head; frequency and vibrations translating what is and what can be through the 5 given senses; the ears of sound directly tunnel-connected to the source, whilst the other utensils are deslightfully different in experience but in the fact and truth of things and laws that physic our notions of motion of the layers of perceptions we deposit at every moment; the whole moment. The moment when you realize that at the end of the day the rest of your senses end it’s contact with the last and first essential form that is ALL. AL✨˥ receives vibration and energy in various figures and forms that shake the breathe to breath and exist and leave a life well lived to leave through the vibration and frequencies that vibrate truth and spurs of reality through vibration; at the end, at the end it’s vibration.

At the end of the day it’s VIBRATION,

At the beginning of the day it’s VIBRATION,

ALWAYS IS VIBRATION.

Loud frequencies of the earth that shutter beneath the toes of your waddling feet;

Stepping steps around,

stepping steps of sound,

Music is what surrounds.

Music Is The Only Thing In LIFE That Surrounds=Fact=Reason=Because; Frequency Is Music Music is Frequency and that is well, sound.

VIBRATE from the ground and into the sky; just use Your found intuitive guide that sings broken melodies by it’s lonesome self; Proud so proud and loud cause fuck it I’m allowed, Im allowed cause I am sound. We are outer-dimensional beings of frequency of sound, thats how HEAVY and GODLY SOUND IS; Sound is So GODLY and So HEAVY IT’S OUTCOME IS AN ANOMALY AND ERROR OF SORTS THAT DEFIES THE CODES THAT ELEMENT THE CRITERIA OF OUR SUPERNATURAL EXISTENCE,LIFE IS SO DAMN CRAZY THAT TECHNICALLY WE SHOULDN’T EXIST THEN.

SOUND CREATES WHAT SEEMS TO US

AS

W

H

🕳

L

E

AND “REAL”/REAL AND CONCRETE.

S

U

N

D

SOUND IS US; SOUND IS WHAT YOU SEE ALL AROUND AND SWEAR TO SMITHERineS CONCRETE IS CONCRETE AND matter is what it seems but matter don’t matter cause matter doesn’t matter anyway, Atoms are Matter; Atoms are tiny little invisible vibrating balls of ENERGY; SOUND;VIBRATION. Take into consideration the Wh O le of the loop understand the duality that breathes life and the contradiction that is the end that begins the end and ends the begins and begins the end till’ they’re dancing cause they’re thirst can only be quenched and appear of existence to the things that just pretend concrete is really resistant passed the blood and fractures of the denotation of the wall, cement the fall that lets you fly or jive in the air by the beauitful blue sky that’s so winding shy it need’s it’s friends nearby to hide behind their fluff that fogs the eyes of the conscious holy Wh O le.

Acknowledge the fact that is concrete that be the concrete that is concrete in definitivity of the frame of the now grasp THE ABSTRACTIONS that radiates attraction and exists infinitely as potential of the flow in any shape size or form and dimension THAT WHICH IS IS CONCRETE CONCRETE IS THAT WHICH IS INFINITELY IMAGINABLE, (We’re thinking of the place right now our selves), we are tripping with the trippy trips that take consciousness though life to beat the steps and thoughts that act and feel and ground and sound beat, beat thats the Sound beat beat thump beat damn thats loud inside your head thats Invisible shards of spikes that sounds the loud thumping of the reason YOUR

Heart Strikes.

Pounds, pulsates with its rhythm of the bit; inventing reason and the time that never exists. A million years past Today.

There is a People,

You kind of well raised.

Our daydreams of sprinkled contradictions,

Form the world that makes our caked realizations finger up the glazed.

Everyone has been through,Everyone has been through,

Everyone has been through,Everyone has been through,

Everyone has been, Everyone has seen, Everyone does mean Everyone has been through the tangling of the thought that trumps our dreams into songs.

Everyone is mean,

Everyone does mean, One is evil if lived by mean and will crumble by own to it’s own inevitable evaporation due to singles own squandered potentials disintegration of the beauty and the power and the potential of a soul.

Can you believe it costs a soul imaginary money to claim it’s really free?

What is good what is be? What is bad, what is me, what is you what is we what is us won’t we see the time that illusions imaginary scheduled breeze like a prick popped the first balloon you ever got as a kid,

I hope we did. I hope we do.

I pray to God,

I pray to God,

I pray to God, at all continuing instants,with My heart.With My heart inside.

I adore and Love God so much, I adore and Love God so much, so so much.

I adore and Love God so monstering much<3 [Righteous Monster; Benevolent Monster, Meritorious hunky-dory of a crackerjack who gives his cookies to the hungry; The Best.]

I pray for me, I pray for you.

I pray for Love for all and Life for Each.

I Pray Because I AM.

I Pray to God because I am because and only because of God and His Righteousness, Kindness and Almightiness.

I AM BECAUSE OF G❤️D.

I sold my misdemeanors and partied off my crimes;

But my ego I traded for enlightenment so insightful, full sights dives of divine.

Only Love can fill the wh O le and light the reason You flicker luminance carved around free will will free be the humans if they free what they hold so bold only rainbows will do as their told cause the axis was spinning frenzy when the colors saw the soul;

Gravity was developed through the outcome of the wh O le makes the reason reasons gratified with its own existence of existence to existence of transperity too keep the heart in hand with the soul

Arise with the sun, and all them lazy dreamers.

Reality it ain’t,

Reality it won’t ever be,

Cause the only thing that ever really exists,

is the moment you’re standing in N🎁W.

[dxrkblaze]

Give ME ALL FOR THAT MEME BC IM A HO N I LOVE UR WIRITNG U FUCK

this just in: ru is gay and I love her HHDGSHHDDL THAnk u sm homie I cri,,, ❤️❤️

1) of the fic you’ve written, which are you most proud of?Hmm… probably all my colors? Like, there’s a lot I’d like to go back and change, but at the end of the day it was my baby for a good two plus years and there’s a lot of personal stuff sprinkled in there. It kinda shows my emotional progression throughout high school in the story, and while that’s def not why I wrote it, it’s cool to go back and look at it sometimes to see the things I used to say/think about. Plus it’s one of the only massive projects of mine that I’ve actually completed, lol.

Also I have a lot of love for amc just bc it’s so… different, I guess? Like, I’ve never really seen something like it fleshed out into a full-length story, especially not with silver and blaze. And the fact that it rlly touched several ppl and got them rlly into it… that makes me feel kinda accomplished when I’m not being a self-deprecating prick lmao. I rlly rlly wanted it to be my first fic to get to 100 reviews for a reason!

2) favorite tense (past/present/future)Definitely past, I tried present with the unforgiven and it just made it frustrating to write, lmao.

3) favorite POV (first/second/third/etc)I prefer writing in first person, actually. I think it simplifies things for both the writer and reader, and I’ve always found a lot more freedom to be creative when I write in first person.

4) what are some themes you love writing about?Lmao well, obviously romance is priority one for me, so most of my themes stem from that. I rlly love writing about class struggle tho, whether it’s someone low who’s aiming high or a noble who isn’t satisfied with such a high class. Morality also comes up a lot in my writing, I guess; tryna figure out what the right thing to do is, tryna figure out if this character actually did the best thing, all that good stuff!

5) what inspires you to write?Definitely music… sometimes I’ll stray from it and pick up some inspo from movies/stories/etc, but 99% of the time I’ll be listening to a song and suddenly come up w a fic idea from it lmao.

6) thoughts on critiqueI encourage it!! bc I think it’s the only real way to improve. Sometimes it can make me feel bad if I’m in one of those rlly shitty self-deprecation ruts, but still I usually get over it soon even when I’m like that. I know it’s for the better, and I appreciate everyone who’s ever been kind enough, and cared enough abt my writing to give me critique!

7) create a character on the spot…. NOW!UMMMM OKIE,,, what abt a snow leopard named Kyra… she likes to sit around n read n eat noodles… her main hobby other than reading is dancing. she’s v shy but she loves her close friends n BAM I just made her gay. She’s a lesbian, harold.

8) is there a character you love writing for the most? the least? why?Most - probably silver… his personality is always one I’ve gotten a lot of joy out of writing. He’s basically a walking contradiction, lmfao. He’s also pretty easy for me to self-project onto, idk why. Least - I’m gonna say amy for this one, just because it’s been hard for me to focus on more than one aspect of her personality and flesh all of it out. Plus amy is a somewhat overused character lol, I get a lot more fun out of writing blaze/tikal/others when I need a female role, even if it’s something simple

9) a passage from a WIPOh u kno I gotta dip into royalty au for this one 👀

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It was nearly a fortnight before any word was received from King Pyrus. It came in the form of a small parcel addressed to Blaze, which held a note inside for her. The young princess jumped at the feet of the servant who had brought it in, and once it was lowered into her hands, she hurried to her chamber. Once there, she closed the door behind her and jumped on her bed, unable to contain her excitement. With a careful claw and an eager expression, she tore the parcel’s paper away. Before looking at what it contained, she snatched the note from her father, and brought it to her face. It read:

My Little Flame,

I am sorry I could not write to you sooner. I remain busy, but I finally began exploring, and I found something I think you will simply adore. It is a traditional robe (I believe it is called a kimono) from here in the Eastern Isles. It is just as beautiful as the land, and just as special as you are to I, my dear. We must make plans to bring you here one day, it astounds me each time.

Do not fret about the ongoings in the world, how ever much you have heard. Kiniti watches over us at all times, and she will ensure peace among all kinetics. Hopefully, I will depart in the coming few days, and we will see one another soon.

With love,Father Flame

Blaze, of course, merely skimmed over the second half of the note as a formality. She laid the message aside, and her jaw dropped once she held the kimono out. It was a beautiful shade of dark purple, with an equally enchanting design. Trails of dainty cherry blossoms sat on rugged branches, which climbed up either side of the robe. The silk seemed to melt between Blaze’s fingers; it was the softest material she had ever felt. She rubbed one of the sleeves against her cheek, and purred into it. When she turned the robe over, she gasped. A large, pink bow was already tied at the back, as if it had been made just for her. She slipped the kimono over her shoulders, and although the sleeves hung low over her arms, the length was just right. Blaze tied the pieces of ribbon at her waist, just as Pyrus had taught her, and words could never express how delighted she was with the gift. She could not wait to show her father once he returned.

As Blaze was fitting her tail through the bow on her back, Baxton entered the room. Whenever Pyrus was absent, it was usually Baxton who took up the king’s general duties. He signed letters, addressed the people, attended court; it kept him quite busy. The only responsibility he didn’t inherit was any control of he army - the sole post he would be familiar with. Quite the chore it was, but Baxton was always fond of his temporary sovereign role. At least in terms of the power he held, that is. In fact, Blaze assumed that he had been yelling at some servants not too long ago, judging by his flushed face.

The elder cat scratched his head. “Princess, did the king leave a letter?”

Blaze pointed to the note on her bed. Baxton scurried to it, and frowned as he glanced over the elegant handwriting. “Is this it?” he quizzed.

The princess nodded, and held her arms out with a smile. “Look, Baxi! Look at what father sent me!”

Blaze couldn’t quite tell what Baxton’s expression conveyed, but it was something between a smile and a scowl. The note crumpled in a quick motion from Baxton’s fist, and was thrown back onto the bed cover. Blaze didn’t think much of this as Baxton hurried out, and she walked to her mirror to admire the kimono again.

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10) what are your strengths wrt writing?Hmm… I get a lot of ppl saying that I’m pretty eloquent when it comes to phrasing/word choices? I’m constantly tinkering with how things are said, even up until like 30 seconds before I publish smth lmao. I also like to think I never just string sentences together and leave it at that when I’m narrating, I pay a lot of attention to how different sentences/phrases flow together.

11) what are your weaknesses wrt writing?My main weakness would probably be going overboard on all the little things, like how a sentence sounds or flows and stuff like that. I end up being a perfectionist with it, and sometimes when I’m crafting/changing phrases around, I end up with a sentence that kinda drags on or tries to do too much.

12) what’s your favorite place for writing resources?Tumblr’s pretty good for me, actually. I rarely ever seek out resources, but I do reblog a lot of them that come to me here and they’ve been very useful to me in the past.

13) who are your favorite writers?Ok first off binch u@aurora-boring-alis (FF: aurora-boring-alis) Then my other peeps who also make the quality goodness™™ I can’t get enough of (some fanfic accounts more active than others)@maliwarm (FF: biteworsethanbark) @lordoftheghostking28 (FF: lordoftheghostking28) @weezernaut (FF: space mercutio)@ebachan (wattpad: witto150)

[shvdxs]

but you know that this is useless

1. Do you ever doubt the existence of others than you? yeah but we do be workin on that

2. On a scale of 1-5, how afraid of the dark are you? not really only when im woken up in the middle of the night fearing for my life

3. The person you would never want to meet? oh you know

4. What is your favorite word? peruse deadass

5. If you were a type of tree, what would you be? womping willow i want mfs to nap under me

6. When you looked in the mirror this morning what was the first thing you thought? yike!

7. What shirt are you wearing? black noodie

8. What do you label yourself as? tired

9. Bright room or dark room? dark

10. What were you doing at midnight last night? i couldn’t sleep because of the thunder so i went on my home computer and went through the pictures from my mom’s camera and came across some pictures i didn’t know existed bc i’d been looking for pictures from my 2016 twirp bc k8 and i looked hot as shit but i only had 2 pictures??? 

11. Favorite age you’ve been so far? i think 16 i “glowed up” whatever the fuck that means from being emo but 17-18 was absolutely the happiest years of my life until everything went down hill my sophomore year of college and then shit got better the beginning of my senior year and then it went DOWNHILL FAST but then my roommate and i became best friends and i got close with my homies from work and everything was getting great right before i turned 22 and then bam shit got bad because RONA

12. Who told you they loved you last? my mama like 2 minutes ago

13. Your worst enemy? trump, i think the only person that’s fucked up my life is my grandmother, however there’s a couple of people i know that deserve a hexin

14. What is your current desktop picture? its changing kitten pictures

15. Do you like someone? nah

16. The last song you listened to? the song that was last played on my spotify was boy bye

17. You can press a button that will make any one person explode. Who would you blow up? trump fUCK him UP im SO SICK and TIRED

18. Who would you really like to just punch in the face? ^^^^^ + (null) and maybe (null)

19. If anyone could be your slave for a day, who would it be and what would they have to do? anyone i’ve absolutely babied and slaved over in my life out of pure love that fed off that and left

20. What is your best physical attribute? (showing said attribute is optional) height and legs fucking duh, unfortunately ive got wide ribs and no snatched waist but im model status at this point

21. If you were the opposite sex for one day, what would you look like and what would you do? i genuinely cannot answer that

22. Do you have a secret talent? If yes, what is it? uh my hands are doubled jointed and im oddly flexible

23. What is one unique thing you’re afraid of? facial tattoos

24. You can only have one kind of sandwich. Every sandwich ingredient known to humankind is at your disposal. i hate sandwiches but say i had to eat one................ subway BMT w provolone with every vegetable on white

25. You just found $100! How are you going to spend it? fuckin rent bc Mizz Rona

26. You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere in the world, but you have to leave immediately. Where are you going to go? i mean AFTER mizz rona i’d like to go to fucking europe, specifically greece or norway. or just straight to australia fuck it

27. An angel appears out of Heaven and offers you a lifetime supply of the alcoholic beverage of your choice. “Be brand-specific” it says. Man! What are you gonna say about that? Even if you don’t drink booze there’s something you can figure out… so what’s it gonna be? i read heaven and said i gotta go then saw alcohol. the switch i made was incredible. mojito. i want a blueberry mojito.

28. You discover a beautiful island upon which you may build your own society. You make the rules. What is the first rule you put into place? animal crossing????? my rule is no uglies

29. What is your favorite expletive? excuse me

30. Your house is on fire, holy shit! You have just enough time to run in there and grab ONE inanimate object. Don’t worry, your loved ones and pets have already made it out safely. So what’s the one thing you’re going to save from that blazing inferno? if it’s my apartment im grabbing my laptop because i have homework due assuming my phone is in my pants

31. You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? WOW! PLEASE! i beg of you

32. You got kicked out of the country for being a time-traveling heathen who sleeps with celebrities and has super-powers. But check out this cool shit… you can move to anywhere else in the world! norway bye

33. The Celestial Gates Of Beyond have opened, much to your surprise because you didn’t think such a thing existed. Death appears. As it turns out, Death is actually a pretty cool entity, and happens to be in a fantastic mood. Death offers to return the friend/family-member/person/etc. of your choice to the living world. Who will you bring back? we been knew death is a homie, however i’d bring back (out of all of my favorite artists) epstein for the tea

34. What was your last dream about? uh i took a nap which usually leads to lucid dreams so i started dreaming that i was vomiting and then it switched to a lucid dream so i was like gross imma spit it out and then i realized i was in my dorm so i was like wait let me do some rad shit but then i woke up drooling

35. Are you a good….[insert anything you’d like here]? no. im not good at anything.

36. Have you ever been admitted to the hospital? yeE

37. Have you ever built a snowman? of course

38. What is the color of your socks? grey rn

39. What type of music do you like? i like emo shit

40. Do you prefer sunrises or sunsets? sunset

41. What is your favorite milkshake flavor? mint chocolate baby

42. What football team do you support? (I will answer in terms of American football as well as soccer) i dont watch football but bears bc im from chi

43. Do you have any scars? on god

44. What do you want to be when you graduate? i wanna go to grad school but MIZZ RONA

45. If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be? my brain, i know id be successful in so many realms with my interests and goals but i have so many setbacks and fears and mental illnesses that it keeps me back but i do be pushin thru

46. Are you reliable? i try to be

47. If you could ask your future self one question, what would it be? how far into the future tho

48. Do you hold grudges? unfortunately noooo but that’s because im passive and fear loosing people

49. If you could breed two animals together to defy the laws of nature, what new animal would you create? cat and owl lemme see her

50. What is the most unusual conversation you’ve ever had? dont even know where to start

51. Are you a good liar? lmao yeah my mom turned me into a straight faced liar

52. How long could you go without talking? i’ve gone days

53. What has been you worst haircut/style? rn. fucking rn. they cut my hair so short i want to die.

54. Have you ever baked your own cake? so many times

55. Can you do any accents other than your own? of course

56. What do you like on your toast? butter and cinnamon sugar yall know what i mean

57. What is the last thing you drew a picture of? i miss drawing, but i played telestrations after dark and im p sure it was “spermicide” and i ended up having to draw someone shooting a dick with a gun

58. What would be you dream car? ooooo, okay i’d die for a mercedes SLS or a jaguar F-type 

59. Do you sing in the shower? Or do anything unusual in the shower? Explain. i vibe

60. Do you believe in aliens? of course

61. Do you often read your horoscope? its funny tho so a lot

62. What is your favorite letter of the alphabet? X

63. Which is cooler: dinosaurs or dragons? dragons bc they aren’t real

64. What do you think about babies? NO. i cannot with the noise. the clean up. disgusting. yall sacrificing too much to wipe shit and silence children.

[alexiav04-blog]

The beginning...

I remember the morning

I remember their eyes.

Their smiles.

The way that they would laugh.

I remember everything about them, things I will never see again.

One wrong move and BAM your whole life falls apart.

My mother, a beautiful woman who gave up her freedom sooner then she should’ve, loved too much. She loved my father so much that when he said move she packed up all their things so they could move into the city. Her voice was of the angels, I always wondered why she never went into singing.

My sister was the sweetest little girl you could’ve ever met. She loved animals of all kinds. I would go out and find papers on the ground and fold them into tiny animals for her. She would keep them in her “zoo”, a shelf in the kitchen cupboard.

My father would always bring me down to the racetrack. We would bet on horses. If I won he would give me a penny, if he one I would give him a hug. He was the one who started my smoking habits. Coronas. His favorite.

It was his birthday. I saved up 30 pennies from my bets. I wanted to make sure that I would have more than enough to buy him a pack.

I was out all day searching for a pack of Coronas.

I remember when I went back home.

I remember the door. How it was cracked open.

I remember the broken dishes of the floor mixed in with the paper animals.

I remember their faces, pale, cold, lifeless.

Blood everywhere.

I left. Clutching the pack of cigars, I ran. All the way from Brooklyn to Manhattan. I ran, tears pouring down my face, until I couldn’t run anymore.

Finally, I collapsed on a fire escape.

Too tired to move from the first steps.

Breathing heavily, I took out a cigar. Twirled in my fingers like my father used to do. I grabbed my match box in my pockets and lit up. The smoke creating a bubble around me, locking me out from the world.

Suddenly, a hand poked my bubble of smoke and took the cigar from me.

“Hey that’s my cigar!” I yelled.

The smoke cleared and I saw a boy. He looked my age, maybe a year older. His black hair was dusty and his face covered in mud. He smirked before saying, “I know.”

“Well, can Ise have it back?” I asked.

He took not notice to my question, “ Do yuse got a family?”

Yes. I wanted to say, but now I can’t. “No. Not anymore.”

“I’m Jack Kelly, “He helped my up from the stairs, “Walk wit me.”

I did. We walked blocks and blocks, until the setting sun was finally replaced with the moon, not saying a word. We reached a building, shorter than what you might imagine for a city like New York. We went inside.

I was met with a bundle of boys. Boys of all ages. Jack walked me over to a group.

“ Well Hello hello new boy.” A short boy said taking the cap of my head.

“Give ‘im ‘is cap back Romeo.” Jack demanded crossing his arms.

Romeo reluctantly gave it back to me before he ran over to a boy with fire hair. I ran after him. Weaving through a kid with glasses and a small boy with a crutch.

“Why’d ya follow me New Kid? Did yuse wanna race me?” Romeo said puffing his chest out.

I shook my head.

The boy with the fire hair playfully shoved Romeo, “Not everyone is obsessed with you loved boy.”

“Now why yuse gotta do that Albert I was only playing.” He got up.

“I remembered that yuse stole my chicken leg yesterday,” Albert shoved Romeo down again before turning to me, “ Hi, I’m Albert.” He looked me up and down, puzzled he asked, “How old are you?”

“Eleven.” I responded wondering if it was a good thing or a bad thing that he asked that.

He got excited, “Me too!” He spit in his hand and held it out to me. I stood there staring at it. He laughed, “ now yuse spit in yours and shake it.”

“Oh” I did what he said.

He pulled me in for a hug, “We’s gonna be best of friends.” When we let go he asked, “ What’s your name?”

I smiled, “Race, Racetrack Higgins.”