#im hoping these are higher quality than the last

[cocotome]

It's available!! Head over to grab your copy~

[vyvansecrashing]

can russia and north korea just nuke us already this is hopeless

[crassjellyfish]

Hello! Sorry if this is random. You know the band the mechanisms? Anyway. So im trying to hunt down the source for the Folly Bridge Inn Photos.

You are, so far as i can tell, the first person to ever repost the attached image in a location i can find other than the original source it came from. Might i inquire where you got it from? im looking for higher pixel variants of them.

(you sent it in the mechscord in 2020, for context)

im very enthusiastic about photo archeology in this band. hope u have a lovely rest of your day!!

hello! oh my goodness i'm so shocked to hear that i was the first to post that omg??? that show has some of my favorite mechs images (especially the one with tim with the blue lights on him). in 2020-2021 i was so far down the mechanism's rabbit hole, my friends and i were sleuthing our way to every picture we could find. i'm not in the mechscord anymore so it's crazy to see things i posted in there pop up from time to time. i think i also shared an old pattern i wrote for crochet octokittens at some point in there too!

i went back through some old documents i've got and it looks like that photo you're talking about may have come from this flikr page. i was mostly posting from mobile and it was likely a screenshot that i edited down, so that would probably account for the drop in image quality between the source and my post in the discord lol.

there are also lots of photos from curious magpie photography from around that same time (and much later, they have albums from 2011-2018) as well as nicole w who has pictures from 2013-2020.

(also, I may be incorrect, but i think that last page belongs to @wickedacephotos here on tumblr? i could be wrong but they have lots of good photos either way!)

i was never good about crediting where i found pictures and i regret that now, so i'm happy to have the opportunity to share some of these sources, and i am very glad to see that the mechanism's archeological community lives on to the present day!!! i hope these helped, and please feel free to dm me about any others you may need help finding and i'll be happy to see what i can do!!!!

[rat-typewriter]

l,,link with a really clumsy male S/O who can barely walk straight,,,,pls,,,

Note: Good grief i am so sorry this has been chilling in my inbox for a YEAR oops,,, anyway im sorry its late and not the best quality but we tried and ive just done 4 hours straight of biology cramming soooo

Proofread: did shakespeare have time to proofread???? I think not 😌😌

Clumsy - Link x GN!Reader

You stared at your hands, which gripped the sword tightly - to the point of whitening your knuckles. It was heavier than you had expected; it didn’t help that your palms were drenched in sweat, leaving you readjusting your grip every few seconds.

A few feet away, sitting in the grass, Link watched you carefully as he sharpened his own sword. It had been his idea - after an uncomfortably close call with an angry moblin - that you should learn to defend yourself. It definitely wasn’t a bad idea, but you could practically feel Link’s watchful gaze and his tenseness each time you took a swing at the scarecrow in front of you. 

You lunged forwards, taking a jab at its limp straw body, just as he’d taught you. It was satisfying to watch the dry grass guts spill out of the torn scarecrow; it was even more satisfying to see that you were actually improving.

“That wasn’t so bad!” you grinned, turning to Link - who nodded and gave you a thumbs up and a smile.

A gust of wind ruffled his hair as he turned back to his work. Pausing, you watched him for a moment. Over the last year that you had travelled with Link, you had always been amazed at how calm he seemed - even when faced by a Linel or hoard of Bokoblins; even on the night that he kissed you for the first time. Nothing ever fazed him; that was always something you thought you could be certain of.

At first, his silence had puzzled you. In the quiet moments you found your mind racing, were you bothering him? Was he listening? Would he rather you didn't say anything? The more time you spent together, you had grown to enjoy his company - you learned to read his expressions and pauses and silent laughter and suddenly he seemed to come to life. You found that he wasn’t mysterious or dangerous, but he was, in fact, the biggest dumbass you’d ever met. With everything he did came an air of mischievousness; everything was an adventure. And before you knew it, you were falling for the blonde-haired soldier. 

You smiled to yourself, as he knit his eyebrows together with focus. Another sudden breeze sent his hair into his face and he shook his head - attempting to flick it away. As he did so, he caught your eye. It didn’t even last a second, but it was there.

You quickly turned away, hoping that he hadn't caught you staring. Nearly three months ago you had confessed to Link - on an overcast summer night, as you waded through a river. His face had been unreadable; you stared at him - desperately searching his face for an answer. All the words that you’d held in spilled out like blood pouring from a cut - yet suddenly you had nothing to say at all. His name was on your lips - then, all at once, his lips were as well. It had been three months since that night, but he still made you nervous.

A quiet snicker came from behind you and you looked back over your shoulder at the smug-faced boy.

"What?" You said - your voice several octaves higher than normal - feigning innocence.

He raised his eyebrows and returned to sharpening his sword - still smiling to himself. He barely had to do anything to make your heart skip a beat. And he knew that. 

You huffed in a pointless attempt to mask how flustered you were. Sometimes you wished you could do something to make him as nervous as he made you. 

You turned back to the scarecrow and adjusted your stance, ready to take another swing.

I’ll figure it out one day, You decided. I will make him blush.

Sweeping your sword, you cut away at the shredded scarecrow - watching as tatters of fabric tumbled to the ground. 

You took a step back and - without warning - you lost your balance. Letting out a yelp of surprise you wobbled for a moment before landing in an awkward heap on the ground. As you hit the grass, a dull thump seemed to resonate through your body - leaving you aching slightly as you lay still on the ground. 

Not only had the fall knocked the air out of your lungs, but it had apparently also knocked the coherent thoughts out of your head. 

“Ouch,” you said, stupidly, as you stared up at the clear, blue sky. Before you could heave yourself up, a very-worried Link appeared at your side. His eyes were wide as he crouched beside you, frantically scanning you for any signs of harm.

You watched him, slightly confused - it was hardly a particularly dramatic fall, just the type of thing that seemed to happen to you at least three or four times a day. 

“Hey, I’m fine,” you said softly, moving to sit up. “You don’t need to worry-”

He pushed you back down and reached behind him, grabbing his bag. He rummaged through it, pulling some bandages out.

You giggled, shaking your head, propping yourself up on your elbows. “Link, I’m fine - really!"

He pointed to your hands - which you had scraped slightly. 

You laughed again, swatting him away. "Oh, it's all good - that's nothing."

It was true, it really was nothing. You tripped and knocked yourself all the time; your arms and legs were littered with cuts and bruises.

He sat back on his heels, raising an eyebrow - his expression still laced with concern. 

"Seriously, I'm alright!" 

He tilted his head at you worriedly. No matter how many times you stumbled or slipped - he never failed to panic.

You smiled softly and reached forward, putting your hand on his wrist. "You don't have to worry, I promise."

He glanced at your hand and then back at you. You suddenly saw the pinkness in his cheeks and a pang of excitement in your stomach brought a grin to your face.

"Are you blushing?" You leaned forwards, taking your head - watching as he looked away and scoffed. 

You sat up fully and pushed a strand of hair from his face. "Awe, you do care!" You joked.

He rolled his eyes, but smiled anyway.

"I'll have to fall over more often." You grinned.

He cocked his head as if to say, more often?

"Yeah, yeah, I know I'm clumsy." You giggled. "But you love me anyway."

He rolled his eyes, but was unable to fight off a smile. 

Yeah, you didn't mind being clumsy.

[squid-died]

added this ena print to our etsy store! its a bit higher quality than the last doodle, hope yas like it!

>> check it out here <<

im saving up for my top surgery so even if u cant/dont want to buy anything, id greatly appreciate a reblog!

[aria-ashryver]

yooooo im SO tired, have a health update 💞

(which was going to be another video update but then a bird came and i got distracted and now im too tired to speak lol. also WOW imagine being so pale you create your own god rays slkdjf)

so, ive been feeling like hot garbage for some time, which is perhaps not surprising with the whole "was poisoned via chemo for a year, is still recovering" thing. Recently my heart has been feeling Not Good TM, and the fatigue waves are getting pretty extreme at times.

So, I followed this up with my doctor, very much expecting it to be a case of "no you're just out of shape / your asthma is playing up / you're just being super lazy, try harder, etc". He booked me a specialised heart test which I had last week.

Uhhh apparently I wasn't just being pathetic! (Which is somewhat gratifying to know that there is a reason things have been so hard lately and it's not just in my head)

There is a thing called your Ejection Fraction, which is essentially a measure of how much oxygenated blood your heart is pumping around your body -- its the factor that keeps you feeling energised.

Mine has dropped. Fairly significantly. When I had the same heart scan in October, mid-way through chemo, I was still retaining a lot of my heart health and muscle mass from when i was pre-chemo, so my EF was sitting at about 80. Which is a sign I was initially quite physically fit (or, to quote my oncologist: "giiiiirl, you a Boston Marathon runner or what?)

Since my last scan, my EF has dropped to 58. Which is still actually higher than average, most people sit at about 55, so I've dropped to an average range lol.

My heart is working, but such a significant jump is still cause for concern. My oncologist said that if I had been less young and fit, it would have been a case of dropping from 55 to somewhere in the 30s, to which he said "you'd struggle to even walk down that corridor at that point."

At this stage, I have a (hopefully reversible!) cardiomyopathy. Unfortunately, reduced heart and lung function can be complications of the two immune therapy drugs I am taking to prevent my cancer from coming back. So the current course of action is to put my immune therapy treatments on hold for 9 weeks to let my heart recover.

Yes, that is a tad spooky, but the drugs have a very long half-life, so I should be okay not taking them for that short period. On the plus side, this should hopefully improve my overall quality of life while my heart heals, and a break from immune therapy will be really nice anyway, because that shit hurts lmao.

Otherwise, the metastatic cancer in my spine and my hips remains stable and is still showing signs of healing because I am AWESOME AND COOL. Oh, and I also had a massive internal lesion (a chemo complication I never mentioned here bc like... if I told you guys every little thing that's wrong with me, we'd be here all day lmao) but that is now healing on its own too!! Woo!

So... ye. Gonna have a nap, knowing that medically my heart is broken and I have yet another reason to take it easy now haha.

Send me lots of "oi don't get cancer again in the next 9 weeks you absolute nugget" type vibes. I don't think I will, I'm not worried, but yk yk vibes are nice 🥰💝💖💓💕🩷💞 if you are still reading, I hope you have a wonderful day!!!

[taavisplushies]

zayn and kato! my prime shiba plushies :3

zayn is a piebald husky (white) and kato is an agouti husky (black)!

more about prime shiba below!

prime shiba is a small business focusing on dogs/wolves! they have plushies, stickers, keychains and more.

of course, the plushies are my favorite product! the 2 i have are very soft and well made! they’re both 15in, so they’re perfect for hugs!

what i love about prime shiba is that the plushies are unique! for instance, they have plushies of unique breeds i’ve never heard of (kai ken, thai bangkaew, etc), and also plushies of common breeds that have unique fur patterns, like the 2 huskies i have.

since the business is small, prices are expensive… but they’re not super high! $45 for a 15in high quality plush! i think that’s a good price, because i’ve seen smaller plushies go for more!

ALSO there are sales sometimes! AND if you live in the US, free shipping for plushies!!! anyway, there’s a sale rn! the older plushies have higher discounts than the newer plushies and preorders.

prime shiba makes plushies ranging from 15in to 30in! good sizes for cuddling!

unfortunately prime shiba does not have a lot of followers. on instagram, they have less than 2k :( i hope one day they can become big and famous!

these plushies below are my favorites…

quil my beloved… there has been multiple versions of them! blue eyes, brown eyes, and then this one which is i think bigger than the previous ones.

i love the design!! unfortunately i just don’t have room for such a big plush (or the money lol). i’m hoping one day a smaller version of quil is made… i would buy that so quick!!!

shikoku ken plushie!!! i think their name is haku, but im not 100% sure. sometimes the owner doesn’t put the names on the listing and idk why….

anyway i think this fella is so cute!!! maybe one day i’ll get them if they are on a big sale! i like them but i don’t like them enough to spend a lot on them yknow? like it’s a want, not a need lol

okay this fella has a simple design but the color is so pretty!!! love you nike… but again, i don’t like em enough to spend a lot on them!

falcon!!! love this design, and idk if you can see but there’s little freckles on their muzzle!!!

if i had the money, i definitely would snatch this fella up, even without a big sale!

okay last 2!

embry looks so sweet!! she’s a need tbh. i hope i’ll be able to get her someday.

quest my beloved…! this photo doesn’t do him justice. he’s so cute! i think i preordered him a few months ago when he was on sale for $30 but i can’t remember for sure. i’ll just have to wait for december and see if he shows up lol

OH I FORGOT ATLAS!!!

i can’t add any more photos but he’s a bluish grey and white border collie and super cute :3 another one i’d like to get someday… even if it means spending a lot lol

[dreamywolfdd]

Sonic Thoughts

this will be different than most of my posts, but id like to type this out since i been thinking bout it alot, nothing wrong is going on btw this is mostly me typing out my thoughts

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but if you want a tl;dr:

not entirely leaving/done with it, but i want to focus on other stuff aside of sonic the hedgehog in general, i want to focus on my other interests and obsessions

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i been thinking bout it and i decided that sonic superstars will be my last sonic game i'll buy for who knows how long

this does not mean i hate sonic now or i'm done w it or anything, but i been recently thinking bout how sonic's been these past few yrs, content wise and what i personally think bout it currently

latest releases such as sonic prime, sonic movie 2, idw comics and sonic origins made me think bout it alot, as much as i enjoyed the movie and liked the idw comic i got as a gift, this is a whole new generation of fans we speaking of now, its been more noticeable how a new era of sonic is here thanks to the movies and that makes me so happy but it also makes me realize how some of the recent stuff flat out isn't rlly my thing (like sonic prime), sure, they may be good on their own and such but there's some stuff i just dont think its worth for me to look at, but i do however hope the newer generation enjoys it alot, i dont feel like part of that target demographic anymore

one major thing that made me question it too is pmuch with the quality of games, i recently gave frontiers a second playthrough and it made me remember why i had a fun experience with it, but it also made me see the flaws it has aswell too, its not a perfect game by any means but you can tell morio kishimoto, lizuka and everyone at sonic team have been wanting to deliver an amazing experience for a while now, remembering how the director had to convince higher ups to get more time for development made me think alot, this will be a dumb comparison maybe but if there's one thing i would love for sega to have its give more time and budget for its developers and such, recently, even if sometimes nintendo has been very questionable and sometimes bad, i will give them alot of credit and respect by how they been treating their artists and devs recently, games such as tears of the kingdom and smb wonder, seeing how they gave alot of time to their developers and artists to craft such wonderful games, i definitely want that for sonic games to have as well too, it has been admitted before and it has been a thing i been agreeing for yrs too

whenever i look back at sonic fondly, its mostly games i played in the past and still replay and hope i will for many yrs to come, same with the era and type of sonic i usually enjoy the most too, its just something thats not there anymore and its usually what comes up in my head whenever i think of sonic rather than the recent stuff, not saying its bad or anything but its my prefered one just like how many ppl have their prefered and definitive version of sonic

i been playing and enjoying many other stuff aside of sonic for many yrs now, as a kid i remember always being sattisfied with a game from the famicom for example, or how games like cave story and super meat boy made me have a blast for hours, but i do noticed how in recent years its been lowering with sonic and what i mostly do is revisit the older games and played frontiers when it came out, for yrs i been enjoying exploring and enjoying many different types of games old and new, i highly recommend sonic fans to also widen their library of games (and media in general) to explore many hidden gems

i have many other interests and obsessions that cannot leave my head, so i want to give more love to those as well too, at a far distance, ppl will know right away im a sonic fan, but will completely ignore my other interests and outside of gaming as well too, so its also why i been thinking bout this too

so yeah, if you notice my lack of sonic stuff is because of that, again, i do not hate sonic or im done with it, but its been a question in my head i been contemplating for some time now since sonic pretty much is one of the main things i literally cannot live without (xd), i will still do sonic fanart stuff from time to time, i will still replay my favorite games and such and of course, i will play and enjoy sonic superstars as my last sonic game for who knows how long, i hope ppl who have known and met me because of my sonic stuff have that in mind maybe

if you've read all of my wall of text, ty, i dont think this will be read either way but if so, ty very much and hope you have a good one

[kamiversee]

ngl i hope you upload the fic tmr instead of later tonight 😭 i’m sleepy but i always try to read it immediately because i love it sm, but ofc that’s a personal problem lmfao

also i remember how you were a little nervous about the last chapter because you said you may have rushed parts—

i think we’d all agree that we’d be more willing to wait for a chapter release so long as it means you’re satisfied with the quality of it. even if you wait a day or two, your update rate is still way higher than any other fic writer a lot of us have seen so far!

It wasn’t really that I like rushed writing the last chapter, it was just the pacing of how the scene played out that I worried mightve looked rushed? EVEN SO IM ABT TO PUT THE NEXT CHAPTER OUT LIKE RN😭🙏

Ty for the concern tho, ilysm <3

[vesora]

Heyyy sora, hope your doing well. Lately ive been doing a bit of self reflection, and came to a point where i realized that I've been pretty self centered and lack empathy. And i've had a lot of past relationships die down because of that. I'm really stuck on how I'd assume a state of having more empathy and a higher EQ, when i cannot feel or understand it myself. How do i give out love unconditionally, and assume a state than i can do so?

hmmm first i think it's always best to realise the root of why you have been self-centred, is it because in your childhood you felt you had to do things on your own? have you always felt this way? etc etc

im glad you realised this because it's a huge step for someone to develop more empathy and have a higher emotional intelligence. you, as the conscious mind, may not know what it means to have a high eq etc but the subconscious or rather the unconscious mind, which is the source for all information in thousands of galaxies knows.

all you need to do is give your subconscious a command which in this case is: higher empathy + healthy lasting relationships and so once you identify the means (and also the solution which is eq etc), your subconscious will send your conscious signals in a way to produce the version of yourself you want to be

it can happen drastically or it can happen suddenly (like a quantum leap), either way, there exists a version of you with your desired qualities and you need to know that no matter what you are that person in the 4d and therefore the 3d will have to reflect what it means to be emotionally intelligent and have high empathy

also i'm a mindset sub user so that always helps me out, maybe u can try that too

good luck!

[anotherescsite]

HEROES: Junior ESC 2023

Personally, Junior Eurovision is an abomination that creeps me out and make my poor ears bleed. That said there are songs in the Senior Eurovision that do that also (yes - I'm looking at Iru who consequentially came from the Juniors and won with Candy).

While there are entries that are travesties and screechy, there is sometimes quality as well. Needlessly you watch and sometimes a song sticks and you have it on your playlist: I still listen to 'Shut up' from Belgium and Antes Muerta Que Sencillas from Spain. And of course what seems great in a film could be a squealing disaster on the night.

So let's see what we have this year:

ALBANIA: Viola Gjyzeli - Bota Ime

Interesting entry from Albania that could be their best entry ever or a crashing mess. It has potential depending on the staging and Viola's vocal. The film is pleasant without going overboard with colourful lighting on trees.

ARMENIA: Yan Girls - Do it my way

The Armenian entry is a pack of girls with a modern hard hitting entry. This could do well; choreography is ready, the outfits will be flashy and it will be attractive to the children voting. May be a bit repetitive.

ESTONIA: Arhanna - Hoiame Kokku

This is the first Estonian song in the Juniors. The film says that it's about friendship, but hidden within is maybe something more Sappho-ic. The song does not sound interesting or memorable for me.

FRANCE: Zoé Clausure - Coeur

Defending champ nation has an interesting peppy entry that will present well, but not win. I think they will place her behind a piano for some of it and I expect there will be a dancer of some sort.

GEORGIA: Anastasia and Ranina - Over the sky

Now this could be interesting. There are three of them and while it is crediting Anastasia as the lead, the other two put in the work too. The harmonies are very nice and the song is a gentle lullaby of a song. The video is more a loopy trip than a film.

GERMANY: Fia - Ohne Worte 

I read Fia's story on the Juniors website and I am a little emotional half way through the song. It was unexpected. I don't know if it will do well, but I was engaged by seeing Fia and her sister, and the signing makes sense. I do hope it does better than expected.

IRELAND: Jessica McKean - Aisling

Gaelic always seems to give a song some whimsy and that's were this has gone. Children will not appreciate the beauty of this ballad. I'm sure that it will be presented nicely on the stage. I'm not sure if last year's Irish entrant will also be appearing, but it worked.

ITALY: Melissa and Ranya - Un Mondo Giusto

I don't know about this one. I'm not getting it. One of them has a better voice than the other and there are points where I expect there will be Italian yelling vocals which I'm not a fan of.

MALTA: Yulan - Stronger

This song is interesting as this could be a major moment of the night or a let down. Yulan seems like someone who can perform and if she can pull it off could go well for them.

NETHERLANDS: Sep & Jasmijn - Holding On To You

Another modern number with synth elements. I guess it will come down to chemistry on stage, if they can sing and dance, but I like it. I think it has good lyrics and a good beat.

NORTH MACEDONIA: Tamara Grujeska - Kaži Mi, Kaži Mi Koj

The introduction goes for almost 30 seconds and I was wondering if she would begin singing at all. For me, it is too much moan-singing and because of that I don't like it. Don't think it will finish highly.

POLAND: Maja Krzyżewska - I Just Need A Friend

Poland has had a good run lately. This could do well depending on styling, performance and choreography etc. Not sure if it will with though.

PORTUGAL: Júlia Machado - Where I Belong

A very quiet song, but maybe a very personal song. It has no sparkle to make it stand out so I don't expect a high place for this one.

SPAIN: Sandra Valero - Loviu

Hmm. It's an upbeat number which has the kind of feeling you expect from a little girl singing. Her voice could be annoying if she sings higher. Simple enough that it could score well.

UKRAINE: Anastasia Dymyd - Kvitka

A very young girl singing an age appropriate song. It's a bit repetitive and simple but it's okay to listen to.

UNITED KINGDOM: STAND UNIQU3 - Back To Life

This one will do well. There is a lot of space for choreography and vocals. The sound of the song is different to everything else sounding almost like a 1930s swing number.

Who will win is anyone's guess. I'd maybe put my money behind Malta, Armenia or Georgia and the UK as a dark horse. I may be completely wrong.

[petrichoraline]

never let me go or fish upon the sky

i am just now comprehending this question lol i was about to say it's a wild choice to make but i just realised the common denominator lmaoo

nlmg was my first pondphuwin show and my introduction to pond; i started watching it just to keep up with the community though i believed it was going to be too sad for me. i enjoyed watching it weekly, giffing it, contemplating palmnueng's dynamic and writing about it (thanks to the anon who asked me a question back then which i took days to answer 🤦‍♀️) - i did not, however, enjoy the last episodes as much, especially the finale - i was practically waiting for it to end impatiently. i think a part of why i enjoyed it was participating in the community discussions and stuff and also having an episode or two per week made it easier to digest. once i was binging, though, i became more impatient with the plotholes and conveniences.

futs was A Lot - the humour hit more than it missed or at least i'd like to think it did - the kitty gang are one of the most fun friend group supporting characters (also satang nail polish >>>) and despite the weirdest, most out of left field conflict between them in the last episodes, duean and meen remain a very cute side couple that could beat morkpi in many categories. there was a red lamp going off in my head during the first six episodes but im the type to give the benefit of the doubt so i ignored it until i couldn't anymore. i binged this show in two bites iirc - i stopped at the end of ep.5 and then proceeded the next day - 2 episodes later i was already having a Not good time lol, trying to justify things, hoping it's all intentional, that things will get better and when they kept getting worse? oh, it took a toll on me. i'm so grateful for the humour, aesthetics and supporting cast for getting me through it. because it truly is an enjoyable little show when it stays away from mork (and would i LOVE to stay away from mork - even pond playing him couldn't help, it actually made me associate pond's appearance with mork which was awful ngl)

yeah, anyways, if i have to pick i want to say nlmg, i just realised i even watched the our skyy 2 episodes and they were perfect and highlighted the couple's dynamic beautifully

the truth is if i haven't watched smth in a while i'll probably just think of how easy to the eye i found it and in this case it wasn't the muted greens, browns, blues and purples of nlmg :')

futs drove me up the wall, left me angrier than i thought possible, made me sick of pond's face and left me in disbelief nearly every episode, i watched the finale angry and ready to leave it all behind. which is honestly so impressive?? cause after all the anger i barely remember the feeling but i remember that it was colourful and quirky. maybe it's a me thing but still, it's valuable. when i read fish upon the sky i get hit by so many emotions at once, you'd think it's of the quality of itsay or smth.

basically: nlmg is closer to my heart. futs is closer to my fist. they're both pondphuwin projects i watched/restarted watching under influence (iirc @respectthepetty's for nlmg and @sparklyeyedhimbo and @pondphuwin's for futs), they both have their higher chemistry/lower chemistry couples, their silly and not-so-silly villains, their ups and their downs. i will pick nlmg but futs is a winner too, it's just in a league of its own.

[azlovesem]

Noooooooo i have be very good now. I think so. Forget can its more like have to at least see for me. I know im not gonna forget i tried. And i cant fire at you the way i can with just abput anyone else. Barring the kids im always pretty flattering to them and im nor lying how i feel. But i would not tough any of them fuck other people and what they do i dont do it with kids my neices age. I dont care how hot they are or what they fo for a living irvwhwtjer theyvaantvto or not none of thats an issue i just dont go there. Its not hard, well, it gets hard for em, but them talking can turn me off pretty fuckn quick. Plus im entrusted with my neices personal and overall defense when shes sleeping. So how can i be that if i diddle girls that young in her slumber? I wouldnt be Azriel if i acted like some other Archs used to. Besides its ok for me to go for woman. To me its well beyond 30 at this point thats still PRETTY young to me. Im lucky i can still get girls attention at all. Im not paying for or going after the ding bats and one day if youre smart, youll all give up the kids shit. It doesnt last. It just doesnt. And it gets old fast if it doesnt youre fucked. Its not about being a better anything its about trying something new amd seeing if that works better. Through the evidence you actually see around not just your own opinions. Im ready, lets see if the girls, having mpre of them in higher places can make a difference. Like in the Office of the President of the United States of America. Try whats her nane fuck i still cantvremember. Ladt name Harris the nsje of our old premier that fuckn guy. Anyway shes not a guy and i just feel with two big buldging bully white guys in charge might be like throwing gas on an already out of control fire. So even neithernone of us can vote if we could i hsve a suspicion Emma might vote for the nive Lawyer Lady as opposed to two crazy drug taking psychos. I dont know why i thonk this maybe im wrong. But ill homwiyh tjatniyf i had to guess and my life depended on it which it doesnt. Two white men in charge would definitely benefit me more than whsts her name would. But thats not change and then id likely just wanna kill myself even more. Why you jacks decide ill be uh chilln in the hot springs in chi chi boo i hope. And notveven thinking about it or caring one way or the other? But i just think if we could vote for huhhhhhhh pamela pomala its not comin to ne thats not whats important. And im not surecwhat is but if Emma and i Voted i think wed vote for the nice lawyer lady and not death on hot wheels. I know trluble and those two will just cause too much. Whats her name is just running on her own she aaid it. She dont need no fuckn jerk off actor as a vice lresident shes gonna do both jobs. Just do one job in the morning and walk down the halkwaynor go home and do some other job in tue afternoon. Girls fo that now. Girls who are officiaks of some sort…..ahhh and have cute foreign accents of all kinds. English French or both mixed together. Japanese too i slept with a Jspanese French girl once at York University. And a Brazillian after her. But motvwsy too many. I havent had way more sex than well maybe a little more and better quality i dont know. I dont think its getting way better with age so get some now before youre old. We re old. I want you!

Emma Watson

[mayssa-m]

I don’t wanna get my hopes too up, but I think it’s finally happening

it doesn’t feel right, it still feels too early n then remember how much I went throigh to be able to get to this “stabler” state rn, I remember how God makes pain a shorter obstacle than you think jus as a wake up call to make you a better person you know, to know whats right n whats wrong. It’s one of those nights where I’m realizing forreal that how temporary this pain was even though it was mostly a rollercoaster the past two years n I feel like life is aboutta get so much better all of a sudden, it’s not jus a feeling as I know for a fact there is physical sht thats gonna happen right in front of my eyes, it’s not jus a feeling, n its not really aout “I can’t wait” as I need to take my time right now for the next month or so n give all I got in all sorts of activities i’m doing jus so that my summer’s quality will be even better than I imagine it n I really do belive that its finna be finally a wonderful summer

one thing thats scaring me, as always I overthink everything n one thing that happened to me a lot of times, is you know when all of a sudden life gets so much better after a very dark period of time, it won’t last, jus know something is finna happen, its always like that, but what can you do? Jus enjoy the moment as the best moment wont last long so enjoy, one thing about me as a teenager I cannot i absolutely CANNOT enjoy my time im always looking forward to ither stuff n always feel like I can do better not, yeah great when hustling in a way that you always aim higher thus achieving higher than youll ever imagine, but you gotta also enjoy your time n be grateful n remember where yoi started from cus you never know whats finna happen the next day

[gotyouanyway]

the next life anon here! thanks, at least knowing there’s something relevant to their dynamic at the end makes it sort of worthwhile. re the creed of the kromon - yeah for me it was the misogynistic torture porn. in my specific case anything pregnancy related is just a super hard no so that’s why i found it so personally offputting. that’s just me though, not really a reflection on the quality of the story.

in terms of comparing it to scherzo or tnhof - in the first place i think in both cases, the story is just a lot better, which insulates them from any grossness by at least making listening to them more enjoyable. and in both cases there’s something else going on to the body horror or sexual assault. scherzo obviously is very consciously using its body horror as a vehicle to examine love and codependency but even tnhof is interrogating agency and the lack thereof under a totalitarian state. (i read the reference to rape in tnhof as a direct allusion to 1984 but idk if im right on that). i don’t love the way tnhof references assault, i don’t think the story really needed it, but it did at least have some use within the story.

creed of the kromon, on the other hand, subjects charley to metamorphosis purely for the sake of it - the worst part, and what really seals for deal for me in terms of it being unsalvageable, is that she doesn’t remember it and as of halfway through the next life it’s literally never brought up again. so we don’t get to hear her process it, there’s no examination of what this might mean for her as someone who yearns to be a mother, there’s no character moments whatsoever. l’da’s fate is classic fridging, which would be misogynistic but not really worse than other big finish audios, and so at least provides a lot of character work for c’rizz, but there is literally no point whatsoever to it happening to charley other than for the listener to hear her being subjected to it. that’s why for me anyway creed of the kromon is so egregiously bad.

to be really clear though i’m not trying to make a sweeping moral claim here! i personally did not enjoy it for those reasons but i can totally understand that what’s a dealbreaker to me absolutely wouldn’t be for someone with a higher tolerance for body horror etc. and i would be a real hypocrite to say that i’ve never enjoyed a story where a main character is tortured! those are just the reasons why for me i find it much harder to listen to than other audios with a comparable level of body horror.

ironically i do think if the stuff with charley and l’da wasn’t in it creed of the kromon would rank relatively high on my list of divergent universe eps - the story is pretty decent and i certainly found it much more interesting than the last, which i thought was just so boring. and i would put the next life below creed of the kromon in and of itself i think just because christ it’s a slog. not to mention the racist overtones and the crime of finally having daphne ashbrook in an audio and giving her a role basically indistinguishable from an early bond girl (highly derogatory). anyway, thanks for your support in these trying next life times and hope this answer is a bit helpful too!

i totally get this!! you're definitely in the majority here. it's not that i never noticed all the misogyny (i don't want to come across as someone who needs these things pointed out to me lol), i think i just responded to it differently than a lot of other people did (less disgust, more exhausted disappointment). and that's why i didn't *quite* understand the popular opinion, but i get it better now.

and i totally agree about charley.. but again i think the reason most of this stuff wasn't a total dealbreaker for me is that it's unfortunately not that unique. scherzo is never brought up again either, charley forgets what happens in the last, she doesn't even seem to give a shit when c'rizz chokes her out twice.. it's an ongoing problem of charley being hurt and not being allowed to deal with it, so to me creed is just another unfortunate example of that :/

i said more stuff in the reblogs/replies of your original ask btw! and thanks for the explanation <3

[midcenturygoth]

ranking my own zosan fics

tooting my own horn... or criticizing my writing. 

11.  snack time ahoy this one ranks last because its just a couple hundred word, a short experimental one shot/drabble. personally, i like it and think its cute

10. Once in a While yes, its the drabble collection, hahaha! some of the drabbles are of higher quality than others, but theyre all pretty short, pretty fluffy. nothing to be too mad at

9. attractive i know that this is, by numbers, one of my more popular fics but... its one of the more... low effort pieces, quite frankly. as always, its cute, fluffy, lighthearted, funny... i like writing more wholesome fics.

8. the GOLD we made along the way this fic is... an AU, for one, a modern AU. its also more angsty than my other fics, i think. idk, i feel like the characters are a bit ooc. which usually comes with them not being in their canon setting, i suppose

7. join the circus, it’ll be fun (they said) this is also an AU and tbh it’s a bit out there. its a bit off the rails. circus AU? i cant really explain this one. i think its fun, though

6. Something Golden one thing about me... i’ll use the word gold and something in a fic title. this one is almost set in canon universe. as much as a fic where two characters fall in love that wont ever fall in love in actual canon... can be. its sweet, bit melancholic at the end but tbh not really because we know... theyre gonna get together. in this canon-non-canon universe

5. Professional Hair Care this is a one shot where i think i might write a continuation. bc i liked the idea, i like writing “elderly” zosan, when theyre all settled down... i like this fic but id like it more if it was.... if i wrote... more. expanded upon this universe. 

4. sanji hates (winter islands) my first zosan fic! i think it mostly still holds up, its also my second most kudos’d fic, so i think people like this one. its fluffy (as i usually provide, fic wise), sort of pre-slash. i kinda like leaving fics open as pre-slash but like. its clear theyre in love with each other, so its never that open of an ending. 

3. Fisherman’s Delight to be honest... as this is a multi-chap fic and still on-going... lets just say i have hopes for this. i want to get it done, even if its all short chapters... i kinda want it to be/read like a diary? journal? but not really. id never write in first person, bc we have left that in the 2010s. its not high lit but im enjoying the journey of writing it so far.

2. Flutter Fairy Island technically canon. and also veryyy out there, i know. its fairy-tale based and i admit that its a bit... something else. however, i do think this is an underrated fic. but that might just be me. it really is a bit experimental but also, like, classic... classic tropes, iykwim? idk, i just like this one

1. Old Men Blues my post kudos’d fic! as ive mentioned, i love old!zosan. “old”. theyre ageless, timeless, haha! ive also thought about continuing this one bc... again... i love writing older zosan. settled down. househusband!zoro. hihihi