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aquilaofarkham · 7 months ago

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every autistic person watching this episode of dungeon meshi:

#aquila talks #dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #laios touden #SERIOUSLY THO I WAS WORRIED THEY WEREN'T GONNA ADAPT THIS SCENE BUT THEY DID AND IM SO HAPPY

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pigswithwings · 8 months ago

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above all else a trans woman is a person. above all else a trans women is a woman who goes to the same grocery store as you and buys fruits in the same grocery cart as you and goes home and eats her dinner the same as you. above all else a trans woman is a woman who dresses like you do and talks the same way you do. above all else a trans woman is a woman who wants to be cared about the same way you want to be cared about and a trans woman is a woman who makes friends the same way you make friends. above all else you should care about trans women because they are people. treat her as such.

#pig originals #im so fucking tired. right now. let me know if something here doesnt make sense or whatever but god damn #its always the fucking singling out of transfem people i just. want everyone to have a normal life #i want everyone to have the chance to worry over their clothes or whatnot not whether. they're going to be respected as Actual Human Beings #i want us all to have the opportunity to live quiet happy lives forever #can we fucking do it!!!!! ahh!! ahh im going to explode

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slushy-sash · 12 days ago

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why is bro in port ormos when he works at the akademiya

#the sabzeruz festival is so fruity #bro really said “im needed back at the house of daena” WHY ARE YOU IN PORT ORMOS???????#i know what you are.........#also hey sorry for not posting as much art lately #the whole AI problem online is really demotivating me from posting art #i still draw but im worried about posting them #anyways happy birthday nahida #and happy marriage to these two nerds #genshin impact #haikaveh #alhaitham x kaveh #alhaitham #kaveh #hkvh #my art

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sashayed · 2 months ago

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If you are in your 20s and depressed I want you to know this: As you age, I promise, you will acquire tools and perspective that will open your world in ways you cannot imagine right now. You will find levels of contentment and joy you never thought possible. You will access a deep understanding and forgiveness of yourself that comes just from hanging out long enough in the same body, and that forgiveness will change everything. Also you may have a regressive depression so intense and long-lasting that it feels like a traumatic brain injury. don't freak out it's normal

#sometimes u think ''wow im fixed simply by being 37!'' and then u gotta spend a year in The Void and another relearning how to speak & eat.#don't worry too much about it. but do go to the doctor though.#i am soooo happy to be alive lmao. i love being alive!!

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newttxt · 4 months ago

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lulaw bodyswap (or, the exquisite humiliation of trafalgar law) for @strawhattery's birthday!

bonus: the original toilet humor gag that ended up on the chopping block

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gunstellations · 6 months ago

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mlem 👅

#sonadow #sonic the hedgehog #shadow the hedgehog #shadows makeshift spa day where sonic does his best to groom him #his technique may be questionable but it is filled with love!!!#dont worry shadow is very happy and content with the arrangement he is just. not honest #if u squint you can see that he is happy :3 #hedgehog bonding!!#i have a complimentary reverse piece that im working on as well hehehe #my art

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wispscribbles · 9 months ago

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still breathing ☀️

#happy valentines !#don’t worry guys mw3 was just a bad dream :)#ghostsoap #soapghost #cod fanart #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #my art #doodle #as if my writers block wasnt enough im starting not to feel my art either rip #help me ghoap help me gay cod men

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hinamie · 11 days ago

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can't believe im saying this but long time no megumi

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jk #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #fushiguro megumi #megumi fushiguro #jjk megumi #jjk art #am i getting my speed back or am i just procrastinating what im Actually supposed to me doing the answer may surprise u #regardless i realized i havent drawn megu properly since waaaaay pre-halloween and i was feeling the withdrawals #i wanted to get a handle on this newish render style with yuuji first bc i think the lighter hair forces me to know what im doing #vs with black u can hide things a lot better so its easy to play it safe and revert 2 usual habits #so im rly happy i did yuuji first bc these bruise-y colours on megumi's hair look SO good i cld cry #im rly enjoying this thing where i put whatever colour down wherever without worrying abt being too precious with it #the bright neon salmons the dusty purples the olive greens these r all colours i would not normally turn to #esp fr skin #but its so FUN it makes the lighting so fun and saturated and interesting to look at #overall this ws nowhere near as meticulous or 'clean' as the yuuji draws but i didnt needit to b so its ok #this ws just an afternoon #n i just needed to draw megumi :'> i abandoned my boy..........#yall im having fun drawing again pro tip if u feel stuck Do New Things #yet another lesson you think i wld have Retained after 21 years of drawing

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inkskinned · 2 years ago

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something bad happened to you, and you died, and you came back wrong.

not wrong all the way. the little ways. you forget important dates, stopped going out with friends. it's harder to make you smile. you're apathetic towards things you used to love, afraid of places you used to go to cheer up. quieter. flinching. different.

you came back for love. you're still here for love. what pulled you back was a brightness so loud that even death couldn't outshout it. death heard the call and smiled at you and said okay. go home. somebody is waiting for you.

but you came back different. like lot's wife; you've turned into salt. you used to chirp through life in hops and skips; but now you lose skin just standing up. you have to move slower, skimming across this world without-touching-it. most things feel dull - until they're suddenly all-too-much. life, and being alive just rushes up and over you and you get hopelessly crushed.

you try to explain it to them: it is ugly, but this is what you are, now. the huge golden hoop of your halo now a little bronze ring. you are still watering your plants and wearing the same clothes. after all, you worked hard to come home. this life; so odd and off-color, now that you are wrong.

but they waited for you - it's just that they wanted the "you" that happened before this. the "you" that could sing in the show and hug people tight and look at a blade without breaking down to cry. the you with a smile in pictures. god, holyshit, it's like looking at a completely different person, isn't it. that other-you; the one they actually wanted.

you are the consolation prize. you are the body that forgot the ghost. you are the memory of the bad thing, and the death after; like you are wearing that memory as a banner. you are a fragment, an assembly. simulacrum. you don't make eye contact in mirrors, afraid the light will glance off and your true nature will flash back at you.

you hear them talk about it in their hushed, desperate whispers. sometimes they even admit it to your face; harsh and violent, acid thrown at christmas dinner. god, can you just fucking be normal again. you do not remember what normal is. you had to climb so far to get back here; you are far too exhausted. you want to open the glass door of your heart and show all the gears. can you help resolve whatever got messed up?

you try so, so hard. you came back for them. because you believed they would love you, even when you were so horribly broken. because you believed they would be patient. because you believed unconditional meant "without exception." you cannot do things the same way. you just get tired too quickly these days.

you want to put them on a couch and pour them the tea with hands that shake more than they remember. you want to line them up and draw them a map of where you have had to wander. you want to show every bruise in a backsplash; the little helpless ant of your soul carrying all that weight, over and over. you want to say: yes! it is different! but i did it for love!

you want to say: "i'm not the same, but i'm yours and i'm here. can that be enough?"

#this is very obviously about my battle with #ptsd #but i think it's also like a pretty apt metaphor for a lot of things like setting boundaries or going to therapy or choosing recovery #i was thinking about the 'comes back wrong' trope and i was like. oh no i have feelings about this bc i have mental illness #and once i stopped masking - i was WRONG. i was different #here's the good news: i am now INNUNDATED with love. fucking swimming in it. excelling at it. the people who stayed #learned my new self. my new different body and how i am different but i am trying. they have held me so tightly #and my life no longer feels quiet. it is not based in my suffering. it feels like i have been growing a tree in my chest #and now it is flowering.#it is so lovely to be surrounded by people who have said - oh! you cut off so many branches i was worried you weren't the same. but now...#... this is just a new you. and i love you. and i love that you're different and happy.#(but yeah also im nb so i was absolutely influenced by Trans things)

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kkoct-ik · 9 months ago

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