#im gonna post more of these guys with flight outfits and stuff too. and if youre wondering if ive already given wings to the other force

[peachyhoolagan]

Okay… I may or may not have abandoned every project im currently working on to start this. You can thank stiltsrosko and their wing fics for this. Please go check them out on AO3!!

[undertheniall]

2018 -  ANOTHER YEAR OF NIALL!

WARNING - THIS POST IS LOOOOOOOOOOOOONG BUT ITS NIALL SO ITS WORTH IT!

oK so we started this year with this beautiful selfie

AAAND then Niall was on the same flight with Joe Jonas and they blessed us with this

ohh and then he got off the plane and went to do some fashion stuff in Paris because you know...he’s a model now

and after that he hopped on a plane again and went to Dubai to do some golfing

ohhh lets not forget the most beautiful pic:

ahhh you gotta love golf!

golf niall also blessed us with a pink shirt and let me tell you... NIALL LOOOKS GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD IN PINK

he even gave some interviews in dubai and we got gems like this:

let me sit there daddyyyyyyy

wow that was a lot about dubai i swear im done now...well almost because i need to remind you all about this:

THIS IS SO PURE :’)

We ended January with Niall supporting World Cancer Day

next niall posted this picture on insta and set our asses on fire

fuck. ohhh and he introduced us to On The Loose artwork and dunno about you but im still in love with it!

ohhh and he played for us a little because he’s a good boyfriend😭

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the same day we got a video of niall holding money and i lost my panties

ohh and then he gave us a beautiful selfie for valentines day

and after that he spent the whole day with his boyfriend mully hahah

later he went back to london and we got niam reunion....ahhh what a blessing

I LOVE THESE TWO

after that it was pretty chill and then Niall dropped OTL Video and killed us all

btw this is a good moment to take a little break and go listen to on the loose!

OK Next thing that happened was Flicker World Tour. Ohhhh im gonna do highlights of the tour later in this post so here is just couple pics

ok were def going to come back to that but for now lets move on.

sooo since im hendes af i need to mention the time niall posted this

NEED ME A SUPPORTIVE FREAK LIKE THAT

ohh ohhh and he went on grimmys show and we got this

what a cutie

next Niall took a little break from touring and did some golfing because...well Niall loves golf lmao

Can you believe Niall won the Masters with this pic?

FUCK

His break ended pretty fast and he was back on tour in no time! Not that im complaining hahah

You know what i loved about this tour? All the bts pics we got

ohhh and i can not mention the time Niall was hard as fuck

ohh ohhh and that insta live!

Ohhh and lets not forget the time grandpa Niall had problems with his instagram hahah

this is still not a time for FWT highlights but we gotta talk about Niall doing a stream of Amsterdam show! That was so fucking amazing.

THAT IS ONE THICK ASS

ok now lets take a sec to appreciate this selfie

CUTIEEES

oh oh and this selfie too

CUDDLY BITCH

Later he sang for you his album with RTÉ Orchestra, which was breathtaking!

WHAT A BLESSING!

annd then he took another break from touring anddd...guess what? HE WENT GOLFING! Yes i was shocked too! lmao

ahhh i love that golf booty!

oh and Mr. Grey was there

Next he decided to become an influencer hahah

and then he hit the stage on Biggest Weekend and his outfit was yet another blessing

but the most important thing that happened during Biggest Weekend and well...basically the most important thing of this year was this:

THEY ARE BROS IN LOVE AND I WILL NEVER STOP SCREAMING ABOUT THIS

Next he went to New Zeland to continue his tour! And Maren joined him 

yes they are both morons and i love them

Oh and he also blessed us with this outfit 

HE REALLY NEEDS TO YIHOO IN MY ASS WEARING THAT OUTFIT

Australia also blessed us with work out pics

Ohh and Mentor!Niall

ahhh and that booty

then flicker hit 1 billion streams!

oh oh and next he went on Late Late Shown and flirted with Orlando Bloom

and then he blessed us with shirtless selfie ahh

and then he surprised us all and went on stage with Taylor!

Now its time to mention Horan & Rose Gala. Im so proud of him i sweaaarrr

he really is the greatest person

after this we got yet another suprise

I LOVE SUPRISES LIKE THAT

and then he went back on tour and while chilling in some hotel we were blessed with shirtless pics!

ahhh what a sexy baby

then all he did was tour and tour and tour (were gonna come back to that in a min)

between the shows he hosted a party at his la house 

Oh and then something truely terrible happened!

yes i still miss them :(

and then niall took his hairless chest and decided to play some football backstage

next he blessed us with another insta live!

then poor bub smashed his finger:(

night before the last show Niall got really emotional and not gonna lie i teared up a little

after the las show he went back to europe to play golf.. yes golf again. but he played with mr grey ahhh

and he turned on his party mode

after this golfing he went to uk to do more golfing hahah

and after all the golfing he went to la, had his sinus surgery and chilled for a month and just watched tv and rest. good bub and basically he was so bored that at one point he just went on late late show lol

ohh and of course after that he hanged with his bro

AND FINALLY he started writing new music! AAAAAAA SO EXCITED

and then he came back to uk and did some stuff like go to x factor final to support louis (and hug robbie williams)

and christmas party with his lads

go to lewis’ show and then kill us with singing karaoke

wow so this post got loooooooong. sorry about that guys! now let me just show you some tour high lights and were done!

uff ok were almost done. lets just appraciate Chad and Tucker ya?

and niall and his fav steaming thingy

ok i swear this is the end. just some pics with fans and we are dooooneee

uff ok THE FUCKING END

I know that was long so thank you for sticking with me ;*

Now reblog this please . and lets hope 2019 will be even better!

[sheerhope]

May 22, 2018

Hi, I’m gonna attempt to journal this whole week. Chances are it will go just as well as it did last year when i attempted to journal my week in SF and ended up being a total of like 2 posts lol.

I woke up way too early, (like 6 am lol) and couldn’t go back to sleep from excitement. I got ready hella fast and then my dad had a business trip so we both left for the airport together. We also stopped at a pit beef joint on the way there and i loved it. I know its sappy but going out to eat at places just me and my dad is one of my favorite things. When I was younger just him and I would go out to diners early in the morning and we’d get breakfast together. We don’t usually talk too much when we eat, but its bonding i guess yknow? Anyways I got barbecue sauce on my shirt and it looks oddly like period blood now so theres that. 

I’m on my dumb period this week so I already took a cramp pill and i have supplies, but its still like damn, of all times. I just feel gross and chafing and i’m not even on the flight yet. I’ll probably have to change stuff in an airplane bathroom AAAAAAA.

My flight to JFK got delayed at first and i was panicky thinking i’d miss my connection, but i didn’t (i’m still waiting for my last flight!!). Its weird, they delayed it and then un-delayed it. My bf thinks its because he called his credit card people about it (lol). 

Now I’m at JFK, not yet on the plane, but lemme just say wow. Its SO BIG and SO CROWDED. There are shuttles just to go in between the TERMINALS here.  It felt like miles between about 20 gates. maybe they just have em stretched out super far, idk. 

Its like the whole world in an airport too. I made small talk with a guy from serbia who was into computers. There were kids speaking chinese (?) in the mcdonalds. Girls were adjusting their hijabs in the bathroom mirror. I heard a mom and children speaking german. Its wild. Maybe its just my small-town sheltered background but WOW I love it here. Its different and beautiful. 

(Also either I never realized or completely forgot outside of stereotypes how jewish new york is. this place is hella jewish in a good way lol.) 

The jet for my flight is just outside the window i’m nearby and its MASSIVE. an airline food truck was filling it up earlier. This is my first time trying airline food too. Will report back on that...

I’m probably going to sleep on the majority of my flight. My boyfriend who is a saint and a scholar among several other things got me premium economy and fucking soundproof headphones so i had more of a chance of sleeping on the plane. I love him. 

Alright, flight starts boarding in a little over an hour, i’ll catch you on the other side of the ocean i guess... <3 

(okay last rant i gotta wear the outfit im in all day tomorrow and im meeting his grandparents too but i probably smell like barbecue and period blood please kill me)

[tumblunni]

I wish I could hug y'all!

In fact I think I will make it A LIFE GOAL I really really wanna someday be able to visit all my friends who live in different countries! Its something good to save up for, even if it'll probably take years. So.. lets randomly ramble in a journal about Plans!! IDEA THE FIRST TRIP THE FIRST FIRST THE FIRST: THE SEQUEL I think it'd probably make sense to go to america first, since i have a lot of close friends living there and I don't need to learn another language. (I am notoriously dumb...) But then afterwards I could set another goal to save up and visit another friend in another country! IT WILL NEVER ENDDDDD, THATS WHY ITS CALLED FRIENNNNDDDDD So far all I have confirmed is that two of my friends would be happy to see me if I was able to visit america, @darkeiya and @summon-daze But its not like I've exactly asked everyone else, so I dunno really how many people I might be able to visit. And it depends on time constraints too, i might only be able to spend a full day or two with the closest friends and maybe then if there's more than three of us we could all meet up together and hang out en masse? Depends on how tricky it'd be for everyone to get to the same place! SO! PLANS AND THINGS I NEED TO PREPARE! workin to figure out a precise money goal im gonna save for * Become Fab * no but srsly i wanna look my best if im meeting friends in person for the first ever time. need to acquire Cool T-Shirts * figure out what exactly you can and cannot take on an aeroplane, and how to deal with anxiety if i cant take electronics. Nothing's as distracting as videogames when you're freakin out! * DO NOT SCHEDULE ANYTHING ON THE 11th-14th OF THE MONTH. i have a bad history of my period landing on these days ONLY when i have to do something important. Or when its my birthday :P I dont need even more reason to feel nauseous on a plane! * figure out how many days the stay will be, and how many clothes etc I need to bring. probably a basic thing, but this is my first time going on a holiday alone so i need to write stuff down to make sure i remember! * figure out how long exactly I want to spend with each friend, and how long I can afford in hotel fees. And does a plane ticket cos more if you're staying for longer? * find out what kind of luggages are easiest to carry and how to carry three luggages when i have two hands. Can you tie them together and make a luggages train??? * Find some sort of secure way to carry large amounts of money. I'm gonna have to do that since I need to get all my currency converted before I go. I was thinking maybe a little matchbox tin chained to the inside of my coat or around my neck? Something where you couldnt get it without roughhousing with me, and it'd still be hard to pull it off the chain. Gives me a precious few extra minutes to yell for help/possibly bludgeon a guy with a suitcase * Figure out hotel(s) in different areas of america, depending on how far I'll have to travel. And figure out affordable ways to travel the difference if its not a situation where the friend can pick me up. And make sure they are cool hotels, not just the absolute minimum! i wanna make a fun tourist experience of the hotels!! I havent been in a hotel since I was a kid! * Possibly schedule it like a 'safehouse' thing? Returning to home base! I need to make sure I schedule around the potential anxiety of doing so much travel in a new place. So maybe schedule it out so I have a period of me-time in between visiting each friend? Itd probably cost too much to rent a hotel room for an entire day in between so maybe just schedule it out so I have half a day at least. I dunno if hotels allow you to sleep in all day tho, are there rules about what time you need to be up and out? * I'm kinda looking forward to using hotel beds and showers cos theyre like luxury compared to my house XD man, I wonder if I could get a place with a hot tub?? or the fabled mini-bar?? (which i would drink nothing of, but it would be fun to take photos!) And it'd be so cool to see what american breakfasts are like! And lol all my friends have just been like 'YOU NEED TO SEE OUR LOCAL RESTAURANTS' and im like... dude, i dont need to get fatter XD lets limit it to ONE! * I dunno if my friends would just wanna hang out in their local mall or something, or if I could visit their house and say hi to their family? that might be going too far. i'll still bring gifts they can give to their family tho, i wanna show my appreciation to everyone!! * are you allowed to bring extra empty suitcases onto the plane with you? I'm anticipating that knowing myself im probably gonna buy enough souveniers to need one. I'm planning to basically have half the money be for travel and then half again is just for buying NOVELTY HATS! * need to make sure to finally get a passport, and also consult heavily with my support worker and friends to make sure i have every form of travel documentation in order. I know stuff is... not good, in america right now. Thats probably why it'd be good that it'd take me years to save up for a visit, hopefully i'd be there after the next election. But I need to prepare anyway, in case border control is even more stringent. * Prepare the 'ol misgendering, because getting strip searched and treated as a suspicious threat is a very big reality for trans people. Having the wrong gender marker on your birth certificate is treated as 'this passport must be a forgery' rather than.. yknow.. transgender people exist. And then you need to be invasively handled by the guards to make sure you aren't packing explosives down your goddamn pants, they have to inspect the parts of you that you're most self concious about. *shudder* I've heard a lot of horror stories. I dunno if america is any better about it. But yeah I'm probably gonna have to just pass as female during boarding and hotels and stuff, and not wear my binder til i get to meet my friends. Saves trouble... Man, I might have to even go buy some more cliche feminine outfits or something, to make sure. Itd be fun burning them afterwards, I guess... * BRING GIFTS FOR FRIENDS N FAMILY! Figure out what is and isnt allowed to be transferred between countries. As far as I know I cant bring any form of food or drink right? I'm only allowed to eat the in-flight meals? Thats a shame cos I wanted to bring welsh cakes, theyre the only one of our local delicacies that's not a super acquired taste. (I tried bara bryth for the first time and DIED) And I dunno if anyone would be interested in silly souveniers of my country but I could get a pile of em if you are! Want an eight foot tall lovespoon? Want a giant inflatable daffodil? Want a bazillion ceramic dragons? * I am determined to bring at least one personalized super awesome gift for each person! It might just be an expensive merchandise of their fave show, it might be some form of handmade handicraft of one of their ocs! whatever I'm able to do! ^_^ * BRING SKETCHBOOKS SO WE CAN DRAW TOGETHER. LEARN THE WAYS OF THE AMERICAN MASTERS. * hey does anyone wanna trade trading cards yo. They'd be like the single easiest thing to bring with me, but I only have a handful of pokemon ones and i only really have one friend that I know likes yugioh. (And she's in england) * WE CAN FOOL AROUND LIKE DOOFS. God willing, if anyone wants to join me I will play water balloon tennis or jalapeno roulette or any sort of insane friend activity you can think of!! Gotta make up for the fact im a boring teetotaler. Tho lol I probably already act more drunk than the real drunks at a party XD * TAKE A LOT OF PHOTOS!! And possibly try and acquire a portable video camera? I'd only photo/video anyone if they gave me permission, and I wouldnt post it online unless I also had permission for that. I just wanna make a lot of memories and record them forever! Whenever I feel down, I can remember this amazing trip!!! * remember to get one of those plug adaptor thingies cos american plugs have one less prong. Gotta trade the pokeymons!! I know I can already do that easily online but BATTLING IN PERSON WOULD BE EPIC * ...bring an Ash cosplay? XD * no but seriously if i could schedule this right to coincide with an american convention or something that'd be awesome! EVEN MORE SOUVENIERS! And I could actually try cosplaying!! I'd have to find a character that suits me tho, I dont wanna get laughed at like everyone always does with fat people cosplaying thin characters. (Like... almost every character is thin, yo. let people do what they want) * possible idea: magma admin tabitha from pokemon? he's like the only fave I have who's chubby but not like... inherantly a comic relief ugly guy or a seventy year old grandpa. I wanted to do quina quen from final fantasy 9 but I dont think I have the charisma to pull it off. I'd get paranoid if people just treated the character how they treat the character, my brain would twist everything into an insult on my costume or myself XD also I kinda already look like tabitha, tho I'd either have to go without hairdye or like... wear a wig in my natural hair colour. Also his costume is super heavy and sweaty in a convention setting, according to what I;ve heard from other team magma cosplayers. (Makes you wonder how on earth they all wore it on a volcano!) * WHAT IS AN AMERICAN BISCUIT. They look like savoury welshcakes??? Learn about all the language differences! Man I wish I could bring food souveniers back with me, I'd never be able to try every single different foodstuff in america in one day without DYING. AND DYING AGAIN. * Collect product wrappers and advertisements! Its always really interesting to me to see the differences between countries! A friend mailed me an american cola once and the bottle was a whole different shape??? (he also mailed me a bunch of spent shotgun shells, which was kinda terrifying cos I was currently in a christian homeless shelter and I didnt exactly wanna cause trouble XD Apparantly it is totally legal to own unuseable bullets tho, as long as you dont have a gun.) * I dunno if any of my friends would be equally interested in similar things? i could take requests for weird british stuff to bring with me! * for summon-daze specifically: since we are both cuddly honest goofballs of childlike joy, maybe bring some of my plushie collection to show her? I'd usually just bring one as an emergency anti-anxiety measure. Tho the embarassment from having a full on meltdown in public and having to be seen hugging a plush toy to keep from crying means its not 100% effective. Only works good when I'm with people who arent judgmental. Secret pocket gengar plush is good for other times! (I've been squeezing that thing during doctors appointments and nobody noticed!) * extra reason why I'd love to visit my friends: visiting my friends's pets. I have been absolutely blessed by images of dazy's pet cat Pam, and apparantly her family has a few other cats and a dog! O_O WHAT AN AMAZING LIFE YOU LIVE. I always tell her to give pam a hug from me, and I know pam probably wouldnt like me very much when we first meet cos she's shy, but still I'd love to at least see her. I wish cats could somehow know that they give joy to people through the internet! * ...are you allowed to bring medications across the border? is there a procedure I need to go through to be allowed to bring my antidepressants? Would painkillers be allowed too? If not, is there anywhere I could buy plane-bring-onnable headache meds in the lobby or something? Just anticipating that I might get a stress migraine on the plane, cos it'd be my first time ever flying. * are you allowed to take photos out the plane window, if you use a non electronic camera? i know you cant really see anything but panning landscapes but it still sounds awesome!

[sheerhope]

extended diary thing / holy lucky streak batman

if you dont wanna hear about my bitchass personal life and you wanna continue thinking i have a good girl persona and dont have wild sex scroll past this for more joji and aesthetics ty

ladies and gents these past couple of weeks have been goddamn magical. i can’t describe it any other way. we need to count the blessings god have given us up untill this point in life bc frankly idk if i can keep track anymore

seeing people i thought i would never see: a domino effect of blessings:

alright so britbong crush who i mentioned in previous posts (if youre reading this: hi lmao) says hes gonna be a speaker at this tech thing. super dope and i’m supportive but also like “dude we’re gonna be in the same country but opposite sides smh” SO i tell my homegirl mikayla about this and shes like “no youre going you apply for scholarships and get there” and i’m like “fat chance also plane ticket and hotels” and shes like “idk do it anyways”. so i do that, apply for this scholarship, get in , room with my other homegirl fiona, and get my flight crowdfunded. how the hell this all fell into place perfectly i will never know but i thank god and also those gofundme-ers. yall make dreams come true.

thats only part one of this several-part story, comrades.

it was everything i imagined and more. i hung out with him. i talked with him, held hands with him, sang and rapped with him, hacked with him, played ping pong with him, ran all around the city and showed him the cutesy touristy things. also wild wild sex. never ever will forget that lmao. but yeah. thats just the TLDR. 

day one was awk bc we were just getting to know our IRL selves but i think the peak was probably ping pong. just being a goofball with him and networking. he also held my hand in the lyft back to french montanas unforgettable and i wont forget that. okay lol

day two i actually got some damn sense and ditched the heels and wore flats. also lyfted instead of a 30 minute walk to the piers. rest of the day was hacking on this project we were working of there (cant name it bc it would prolly give away the conf and his name and im not gonna do that bc opsec af). i went to go drop off stuff at his place after. i’ll keep it SFW and simple by saying we ended up being late to a party last nigh bc we were too busy in his room lmao. that freaked me the fuck out tho bc he was on some “i just wanna be friends and see how this goes” bs and i was like “ehhhh do i really wanna hookup or just be straight up and say i don’t want anything but us for real”. ranted to some female friends about this at a party but by the time i was back at his place he was cool with making it legitimate. and i was over the moon.

day three my dude. (he got his first in&out!!!) we went to apple and cuddled on caltrain and swapped music. (i finally got my odwalla lmao) and then me and my fam went out to stanford to my long lost sister from the other coast. we left and took the train back and i shit you not there were fireworks out the window. bitch if this isnt a chickflick i don’t know what it is. then and i took my stuff from fi’s place to his place for uh... obvious reasons lmao. <insert lewd activities> i swear we tried to watch tv tho.

day four we coordinated outfits omg. idec if i sound cocky for a moment but i had the cutest ass outfit it was like a flowery dress and denim blouse okay ANYWAYS he looked amazing and like the only guy in the world to me and yeah lol <insert montage of running around doing touristy shit and looking badass. lombard, golden gate, ghiradelli, etc.>. i also tried boba for the first time which was cool. i got my sushirito and he got his frosted lemonade. we made it FB official then ran off to caltrain to show him google. imagine a cute ass couple riding around on google bikes and taking pics everywhere. that was us lol. we also had to call 911 on these people fighting but we’re gonna ignore that lmao. best night once we got back though. we had m&ms and white wine and watched video game reviews on youtube and cuddled. it was the most romantic thing ever. can’t even describe it, but i’ll never forget that moment. it was a perfect blend of #adulting but also just being childish and ourselves around eachother

day five worst day but it still was a damn good day bc i got to spend it with him. in&out for breakfast, saw sea lions, then went our separate ways for flights. we went to bart together before splitting off  and i hugged him tight before he left and he comforted me saying he’d see me again,  but when he got on his train and it left i legit started crying because i thought “damn this is it, i’m not going to see him again forever” which i know now is bs but like, its still a long time yknow?

overall 11/10 trip, makes me smile and tear up thinking about it. legit it was like a fairytale or movie or chickflick, every goofy moment too. (inb4 i go total white chick mode)

Other shit thats dope but not quite as dope as that:

new kitten named boots. hes p dope. 

new job at summer camp in a week or so. also dope. scared bc uncertainty but who knows, could be better than expected. 

startup got our app on the app store. i’d link but opsec. 

maybe will snag a gig for the fall but idk yet.

but yeah life has been good to me. too good. new tech, new bf, new cat, new job, new success. I thank God honestly, this luck streak is too abnormal to be anything but that.