#im gonna be real i have no idea what this composition is

[aerozooka]

“I don’t want to do this… but fine.”

⁽ᴹᴬᴿᴵᴺᴬ ᴼᴺ 🔝⁾

[nicomrade]

reposting cuz i dont wanna be a bitch in the ops notifs but this couldve easily been just 1 strip

i havent read this manga (heisei umare?) so maybe the pacing is very funny and works in the context of the manga but as it is OOC its something i kept seeing when reading 4koma recently (and garfield strips lol?) so im gonna use it as a jumping off point. no hate to it again i havent read it idk i might just adore it if i give it a try. but ok so look. (right strip 1st, left strip 2nd) the panels here go: setup blank blank punchline / punchline blank blank blank. now lets grab a page from azumanga diaoh and compare

it goes: setup development sensible-chuckle punchline / setup development sensible-chuckle awkward-silence-punchline. the "blank" does not have the same effect at all! you NEEEEEEED a punchline!!!! and you need the 3rd panel ("sensible chuckle") it preps the reader to laugh for real at the punchline, its warm-up!!!

poptepipi loves these mirror compositions- its repetition comedy!!!

this one reads more like setup / eh? / UH? / AHAH? (and also repetition comedy again yay!) i forgot what tezuka called the panels of a 4koma but thats the idea basically, each one has a function and youre free to do whatever you want with your jokes but then you have to find a rhythm thats also tailor-made for FOUR panels, not any less, not any more. a lot of garfie strips are just setup / blank / punchline or blank / blank / punchline and would work better as 2 panels or 1 panel gags like just get rid of the filler. this is the philosophy behind "2 panels ctrl alt del strips are funnier than the OG" too. but no matter what you do you still need a fucking punchline

w this in mind i reworked those first 2 strips like 3 different ways, u just swap the panels around and try to make them into setup development sensible-chuckle punchline. or whatever else pacing. its fun i encourage doing it i wont post mine here cuz its kind of disrespectful to the artist if i show em as a "heres how i fixed ur joke!!" but as an exercise in comedic timing its fun lol

[lemon-wedges]

Heey just wanted to tell you that I adore your art, especially the way you draw Barok. You humanised him in a way I've never seen an artist do. All your characters, but especially him, look like real, soft, approachable people. I can almost see their chests expanding, I can imagine them laughing and breathing, I can tell how in love your ships are, which is very special and very rare

Your art makes me extremely emotional

(also where did you study, what books did u read, how long did it take you to learn to draw like that??)

AH thank you for the sweet ask! it really made my day to hear this TTuTT

As for your other asks, ill put them undercut with some photos and links to stuff!!

I've been drawing for about ahhhh 16 years( 8 of which are actually like serious school stuff than just a hobby) but tbh its only really been in the last 3 where i feel like ive been making actual progress in improving my stuff. but thats my personal path in art and its always gonna be different for you or anyone else.

anyways 3 years ago i made some changes to my drawing habits and study methods that were like. real specific to where i wanted my art to go (cleaner lines, better foundations, gesture, etc etc). I worked on thing one at a time tho!! it can get overwhelming real quick if youre not careful. So the stuff im gonna give you is geared towards....well, me? both in content im searching for and just the classes that resonate how i like learning

OK BOOKS:

CLEANER LINES. I use to have a habit of making like EXTREMELY sketchy and unconfident lines. This is a landscape book that i literally just copied every single thumbnail. Helped me get into the habit of both using only a few strokes to get an idea across and breaking down complicated subjects into shapes

ANATOMY. Morpho series. Its not a how-to-book tho its just a compilation of an artists break downs. This one is my fav tho. And helped a lot when i was struggling to understand like ALL BODY PARTS

CLOTHING. This is probably my fav clothing book. Very short and published in the 1940s. Its helpful specifically to ME cause its clothing is closer to TGAA outfits(mens) than more modern books LOL

And now CLASSES. I do actually have an art degree from a university and let me tell you. I was left SEVERELY lacking any skills i needed to go into the industry I was interested in 👍 (not cause of the professors but cause the school itself was actively killing its art department :p) So i was kinda just left looking into online stuff on my own (AND COMMUNITY COLLEGE!!!! MY BELOVED AFFORABLE CLASSES )

NEW MASTERS ACADEMY. Its a subscription-have access to all the videos for a month to a year- kind of thing. cheapest is about $40 a month. REALLY REALLY helped my anatomy and foundations. Steve Huston: Good for entire step by step anatomy break downs. Micheal Mattesi & Karl Gnass: Gesture. I've watched a handful of other videos but these instructors were the most helpful to me

DRAWING AMERICA. A lot more pricey. Around $100-$300. but youre basically paying to own the recorded classes and keep them forever. I've only really taken Will Westons classes cause he focuses on BGS and props. But he also has some nice composition stuff thrown in there too.

(I've taken a LOT of online courses and the thing about a majority of them is that they arent really taught by professors or teachers so they tend to be more like a giant Tip video than an actual lesson plan. And if u haven't taken an art class before the difference is HUGE)

and i think thats it? i guess if theres anything else i can give u its this tip:

you mentioned my art is humanizing. Thats a comment ive heard a few times and i guess its odd to say but i dont really know what youre seeing? Like i understand the "ships in love" but cause i did go out of my way to draw sappy love faces 10 bajillion times until i was satisfied. But alive? hmmmmmm like THINK i might know what you may be responding to. Its a combo of the gesture and my effort in trying not to loose the energy of the original sketch when i go to clean it up. And what ive figured out is this. Youre not outlining or tracing your under sketch youre REDRAWING it .

i put the under sketch and clean up next to each other so hopefully this makes sense but like. when i do an under sketch im only really focused on building the figure. When u build a figure youre drawing out bigger shapes and breaking them down into smaller and smaller ones. Lines feel like they have more energy at this stage because the circles and cylinders are fully drawn out, making them have a continuous momentum. So then when it comes to the clean up stage. im not looking to trace the exact lines i drew out (if u notice my final isnt a 1 to 1 copy of the og) im trying to follow the flow of the original lines. thats why youll see lines go thru the figure sometimes, its me trying to keep the energy in that line even if its not suppose to be very long.

idk if this makes any sense at all.....and maybe i should have recorded me actually drawing this out but [shrug emoji] i could do it later if anyone is interesting in wtf is happening here. CAUSE I SWEAR ever since i started cleaning my sketches like this i started to get those comments. but also i could be wrong too.....then i REALLY dont know what im doing ahahahah

Anyways, i hope something in here ends up helping you anon!!! GOOD LUCK ARTING I BELIEVE IN YOU :O

[centrally-unplanned]

This is admittedly a very broad question, but you mentioned that online writing has produced some of the best non-fiction the world has seen, and I'm curious, what would you put in that category?

A good question, and the fact that it is hard to answer for me is telling of the problem! We don't preserve them and rank them in relevant ways.

There are some obvious ones - I mentioned Gwern of course, he has some great pieces. Slate Star Codex (nee Astral Codex Ten) will come up a lot as a classic, "Meditations on Moloch" being probably the most famously cited, and its very good. I always loved The Last Psychiatrist, a gonzo-style rage blog using pop culture epiphenomena to set up scathing critiques of modern identity, such a fun blog.

Some of them are just...so niche. That is the struggle of course with these things. I loved Gwern's The Melanochy of Kyon, a headcanon interpretation of the anime Haruhi twisting its plot so that Kyon (instead of Haruhi) is the real unknowing god of that world. Which means nothing to you if you didn't watch Haruhi, and participate in the discussions of the day in like 2006. Pseudoerasmus was the best economic history blogger around when he wrote (he still tweets lol), but unless you care about "Labor Repression & the Indo-Japanese Divergence" in textile productivity its not gonna mean anything to you. You should care though, its fascinating.

And the niche extends to preservation; I learned the ropes of media analysis from Scott Eric Kaufman and his blog Acephelous, he went the distance on analyzing shot composition & editing before YouTubers were making it their bread and butter. But he died, tragically young, in I think 2016. His blog is partially preserved, but not in its original form, its harder to navigate now. And like are you really gonna read editing breakdowns of Buffy The Vampire Slayer episodes today on a shitty typepad blog with broken interfaces? I get why you wouldn't.

Im sure there are more, that is just off the top of my head. I think the niche is key, actually - we are *not* better today at writing "the big thinkpiece", the essay explaining how society is All Wrong or how you can fix your life. Those essays, once you have read a few, you realize they are a bit without purpose, grist for the content mill validating pre-concieved ideas. Instead its detailed accounting of things that would be previously impossible to find, connected to wider ideas & concepts but still about their niche, where the internet shines.

[fagboyfriend]

how did you get so good at crowded perspective pieces?

hey lol. forgive me for the wait, i tried to answer this (twice) on the day u sent this and both times my app crashed after me typing out a whole thing so i just needed to. take a breath before trying again. im on vacation rn so i dont have all of my files/sketches so im gonna try and make do with what i have.

the real answer is that i only really started doing it recently! i really made the resolution to make my work more involved and resolved instead of just doodling a character on a random background.. i’m very inspired by cartoonists and comicmaking and so i want my illustrations to be fully resolved scenes that tell stories and communicate ideas. right now im focusing a lot on trans bodies in close proximity, small spaces and domestic t4t relationships. I started off with a few studies. I did sketches of some artists who drew enviroments i enjoyed and tried my best to grasp an understanding of spatial relationships. taking some life drawing classes also really helped ^_^

im gonna talk about my house party series bc its relevant but i used different methods to sketch each one!

i used the csp perspective tool to create a linear grid to work off of, it’s very helpful, i knew i wanted a more centered composition for this one so i drew my center character first and figured out how to layer others around them from there!

this one was a little more complex. i made a photo collage (i wish i had used my own refs but. we all make mistakes) and then went over it with a lasso tool blocking out chunks of color. then i turned off the collage layer and drew over the chunks until i was happy with my layout! for this composition, i wanted your eye to travel pretty nonstop around the peice so i chose to make it cluttered and vertical to overwhelm the viewer!

this one was actually not sketched digitally!! i drew the characters in my sketchbook since i knew i wanted to go for a more layered and abstracted vibe, then used my lightboard to trace them on top of eachother.

I think creating crowd scenes is a lot about juggling space, figuring out how to make things look cramped but not have things blend into one blob. it’s difficult, but with patience you can learn to balance the elements effectivly.

[jaffre]

been having some tsini worldbuilding thoughts so im just going to ramble

so. important part of tsini culture/development as a species is symbiosis with their home tree and the fungal network that connect nearby trees. i imagine that every tree/tsini burrow within one network is considered a "city" of sorts.

im gonna have to work on a few different species of trees that tsini usually take residence under, which each offer a different advantage, i think. its important to note that the tsini always take good care of their tree so its advantageous to the tree to spare ressources for the tsini. and thats without counting the mycorrhizal network that's also beneficial for both of them, and the tsini also takes care of that.

anyway, the first tree im thinking of is something like this, where the tree developed some lower branches to form a bell shape to protect the entrance of the burrow from predators and weather.

depending on how big it is, it allows the tsini to have some above ground installations.

as a sidenote, i dont think the tsini have many predators, they're probably up there in the food chain, but i imagine their babies are still very susceptible to being eaten by creatures, so its mostly to protect them.

im still unsure about the composition of a burrow, but i was thinking about interburrow communication and above ground interactions.

so, each burrow had a fungal room, with access to the mycorrhizal network, which, for those who don't know, is a real life thing that's super cool where fungus envelop the roots of trees and connect many trees together, and the trees share nutrients with one another! and the fungus carries it for them in exchange for some sugar.

now, im obviously taking a lot of liberties with it cause i love the idea of mushroom net. tsini have develop ways to communicate with one another, probably using different chemical cocktails to trigger the fungus to send signals, maybe even carry whole chemical sequences to another burrow, which can then be decoded by the recipient. something like that. probably keep those in vials and pots. i keep imagining the room as having a pool of sugar water that the fungus can dip into whenever it needs it. and the tsini can refill it as needed. like a power source.

for above ground, i keep picturing a marketplace. a large area above ground with some construction, where tsini meet and trade. to stay on theme, built from fungal bricks, self-repairing etc. probably part of the network still. traders with baskets and carpets is how i see it. carrying them like this:

im thinking this is probably also where they have some big craft engines. like, a kiln if they want to make earthenware or glass. altho im unsure how much a kiln out of fungal bricks can last, im sure the fire would kill it. and i need to look up what alternative sources of fuel besides wood they can use. like, they can probably use trimmed branches, and a kiln probably isnt something thats going to be fired all the time. maybe they use stone for the kiln, and whenever they're handling fire? im still working on it

not sure what produce they sell. i do picture them cultivating other kind of mushrooms for consumption, and collecting fruits. i did originally envisioned them as hunters, eating their prey raw and whole, i think they have a mouth that's ripe for that. their diet probably evolved to be more omnivorous or rely less on meat. altho i picture fruit collecting more as a way to produce sugar for the network than for direct consumption, but both are probably true.

mmm. thats kinda where im at for now. if you have thoughts feel free to comment!

[gorgojijijijito]

real kids listened to the "Winx Club Special Songs" playlist on loop everyone else is apart of the simulation

anyway heres an out of nowhere ranking of winx club special songs from my least to most favorite cuz i can ahahahha

15. Spotlight nothing wrong with the song, it just doesn't stick out to me or have a lasting memory for me like the rest of them jkgf 14. The World Belongs to Me I liked how different it sounded as a kid and still do now, i just don't really attach myself to slow and chill songs for some reason. also the super abrupt ending always threw me off lol 13. Mambochiwambo I SANG THIS SONG IN A SCHOOL TALENT SHOW AND IT'S SO EMBARRASSING TO LOOK BACK ON PLS 12. Endlessly i'll admit i really appreciate the sweetness in this song now, but as a kid i kinda cringed at the vocals. still do, i dont what about them makes me kinda tilt my head, but it is what it is 11. Fly The only remarkable thing i remember about this song was that it was the theme song of one of my favorite littlest pet shop fairy youtube series (i was really into fairies okay) and i would get so excited cuz i knew the creator was definitely a part of The Club 10. You're the One this was my second choice for something to sing at the talent show. i hate it here but luckily this one had stood the test of embarrassment bc it's so damn catchy 9. Chain Reaction OKAY NOW WE'RE AT THE SONGS I LOVE AND STREAM 24/7 NOWADAYS; this one is only the lowest because it was my least favorite song as a kid. dw i've gained taste now and this is literally SUCH a bop 8. Crazy in Love with You Looking back at this song it was a lot slower than what i'd prefer nowadays, but it was enough to satiate my 13 y/o flora simp/kinnie self. also it's still really sweet so yeah 7. Catch Us if You Can i already heard this from someone else on youtube but it's an interesting speculation, why is this song slept on to such a high degree when composition wise (? im not fluent in music terms jskdghkfs) it's very similar to Heart of Stone. like i get that HOS is better and knocks it out of the ballpark in every single category but like. it's still catchy enough to survive on it's own i think 6. Live My Life ooooooh it's kind of down to the wire now. AISHA MY BABYGIRRRRRL 5. A Kingdom a Child This is the best bloom song hands down. it's so good idk what else to say 4. Superheroes ICONICCCC i know im gonna get flack for placing it in 4th but i just cant help but be biased for these top 3 3. Heart of Stone gawd it's so good. im glad i never bought into the musa/riven toxicity but i sure as hell lived for the drama. who wouldve known musa the fairy of music would have the best songs :O 2. Dreaming in My Way I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THE MUSIC VIDEO'S CONTEXT IS IM JUST HAPPY TO SEE LAYLA SUCCESSFUL AND NABU ALIVE AND HAPPY. also the vocals go crazy in this omg

1. This Big World

was there ever even a question. this song is fucking art i will never back down on this. Congrats to Winx Club for portraying realistic parental backgrounds seriously and emotionally instead of character quirks. Musa, Stella and Bloom are all queens for this

[kogameh]

whenever i draw fanarts, the biggest satisfaction to me is when i was able to draw...an idea that is unique to the source material, something that i cant just simply recycle to ocs or any other fandoms, and especially, something fans of the source material can appreciate the most... its also something i knew i cant achieve with ocs. because at least with fanarts, at least someone get the context behind the art. i couldnt care less if im not drawing for a bigger or more popular fandom if i was able to share my love for something like this to the same people who love the source material as much as i do... im fully aware that my artstyle is not the most desirable. or the most social media-favored. or just anything thats worth being stared at anything for more than 5 minutes, haha. thats why i rarely post my doodles or rarely draw headshots because...i often find to look the most boring... but thats also why i really. tried really hard to get rid of my shortcomings by focusing more on the composition and "story" side of it over anything else. i tried. again. really hard to put my style in the backburner so the flaws of my unappealing style wont overshadow the "story" i wanted to tell in my art....

but yknow i just...feel like lately its all pointless hahaa...

so just when my mimi fanarts gets the most attention solely because it has mimi on it and not because of the art that i drew...im starting to ask...whats the point anymore if i even spend any extra time beyond just drawing the character. i might as well just draw the most soulless headshot or even stickman of the character and i'd guarantee it'll still get as much attention only because of the subject i drew. and the last important thing being...my art.... and this isnt just limited to one character or fandom, haha. every time any more replies to any of my art starts focusing on the subject over anything i put in the art, i knew that i failed to deliver the "story" i wanted to tell. at that point its starting to feel like...my art is nothing more than an accessory to a conversation starter. haha. i get it. my art isnt all that appealing. and my composition is still extremely amateur. but i guess no matter how much love and soul i tried to put in my art, it still doesnt matter if the subject is not creating any interesting conversation...

and its lately more and more apparent when i start to draw more oc artworks and obviously? theres less things to talk about now since theres 0 prior attachments existing with my ocs! :')

you could say that its mainly because im drawing for a small fandom. you could say its because i drew for a fandom where 90% of its contents is untranslated. but i just cant help but think...its simply because im still not good enough.....

i cant translate. im not fluent in any languages that isnt my mother tongue. im not the most talkative and hardly ever fit in any friend group. and every skills i have any inch of knowledge of is barely useful to anyone. and i know that i’ll never be remembered for anything. so i just....in the end, when i love something, the last i could do to say that "i love it" is to tell them with my art, despite its shortcomings and imperfections... but i guess thats...still not enough... to prove even that... :')

so just. haha. idk. even right now i kinda...lost all my motivation to draw. every single time i tried to i started to ask "is this even worth it?" and wonder if i shouldnt finish the art and put the bare minimum on it now, even if its gonna be the most soulless thing i've drawn. ultimately, a part of me just felt like i shouldve changed my priorities and focus starting this year. haha.

(and i'll just be real. if someones gonna say "draw for yourself!!! not for others!!!!" i would...rather not just post them at all to solve that. period. saves MUCH more of my time and anxiety if i just stopped posting them!!! :'))

i just. really dont know anymore...

[actualbird]

I love your headcannons of Luke understanding humanities less than the other NXX boys!! As a STEM major who does struggle with humanities, it makes me feel seen bsiwhsisjend

I also want to expand on your idea and offer the headcanon that Marius, being the art kid he is, is just. ass at chemistry. Like he knows what his paints are made of and that’s about it- god forbid you ask him about anything else. When Luke talks about the chemical composition of certain materials, Marius just dial tones, not a thought in his head.

irt 3 of the nxx boys are humanities nerds and luke is the lone STEM dude

hi anon :DDD and kjKHKDJSFSD im glad that hc gave u some rep!!! no shame in not being as proficient in different fields, i dont think humans were made to have all that information in our brains. we've got a our strengths and our not-strengths!! as a fine arts person, i once publicly in class in college messed up the simple mental math of 4 + 7.

it's just so entertaining to contrast the boys' not-strengths with each other KJBJKFDSSD

UR SO RIGHT. MARIUS IS SHITASS AT CHEMISTRY!! i figure he'd be good enough at math, since business does need a kind of broadstrokes numerical skill for profits and stocks and whatever, but chem? i think he'd know the generalities but definitely not the details

like so

marius: isnt it crazy that sugar comes in sugar cubes, haha

luke: if you look at dry sugar real close, you'll also see that theyre cube-like too, it's cool!

marius: what the fuck? how? WHY?? ur fuckin with me

luke: im not? i mean, the molecule itself isnt truly a cube, it's more of an oblong but //explains how glucose and fructose comes together in a sucrose molecule

marius: I DONT GET IT

luke: i JUST EXPLAINED IT

marius: YEAH BUT WHY THE FUCK IS IT A CUBE

luke: I JUST SAID IT'S NOT?

marius: BUT WHY DOES IT LOOK LIKE IT????

im projecting on marius rn but yea, his brain would have trouble understanding chem and itd drive luke "masters degree in bioengineering" pearce absolutely nuts HAKSJFBAS. luke may have to give him a simple crash course in the chemistry of drugs since im sure marius is gonna need at least a general understanding of it for nxx cases

[ronpatrash]

okay here is my danganronpa 3 anime experience post. tl;dr it wasn't great and i really didnt need to watch it, but i have to...complete the plot in its entirety? I gUESS??? and this was...painful

first off let me say that my watch of this was with my danganronpa friends. it's already a biased opinion you're about to read, cause we're watching it dubbed, and for the most part we weren't paying full attention to it, because the plot fell off very quickly

the english dub is alright though! for the most part it's not bad and not too jarring, though some lines can sound ridiculously funny, like yukizome talking to chiaki and asking "you think no one will like you cause you're a gamer?" or junko actually saying "kamukura yaas queen" and "he's gonna burst a blood vessel cause i dissed his waifus" I CANT BELIEVE THIS BAD SHOW MADE ME LAUGH SO HARD AT SOME POINTS. junko's english VA is a delight and i'm so glad i sat through it for her to show up and be a horrible girlboss <3

and also the future arc is so skippable that my friends and i still got the gist of the plot while we watched almost all of it at 2x speed LMAO the only part that was a great time for me was when toko and komaru showed up (what a nice continuation from ultra despair girls!!!) and when makoto was about to be brainwashed into committing suicide, cause we get to see a glimpse of what his mind was experiencing. that shit was really cool cause of all the dr1 characters and makoto going through survivor's guilt? i was fascinated UNTIL WE ALL SAW MONDO, IN BUTTER FORM, WITH HIS JACKET ON THE FLOOR THAT SHIT WAS HILARIOUS)

actually the whole story,,, the whole thing with the despair that led to the end of the world shit is just so,,, shallow in the end? it would have held more weight to me if being in 'despair' wasn't actually just brainwashing through watching an animated film. i think the concept of mitarai being so good at animating that he uses hypnotism methods in his films to manipulate the emotions of the audience is... far-fetched but makes sense? animation and film directing is in a sense about making your audience feel things, and everything plays a part in that (from character movement to composition of the shot and colours, sounds, etc etc if you've been to animation school you know this stuff).

as cool as the idea is, I JUST DIDNT EXPECT IT TO BE THE BACKBONE OF THE ENTIRE TRAGEDY, and as much as i want to hate it, i cant bring myself to. im just disappointed, but it's very danganronpa to do this

OH AND I DIDNT THINK MITARAI'S GRAND PLAN IS TO JUST HYPNOTISE EVERYONE AGAIN WITH A HOPE FILM INSTEAD OF A DESPAIR ONE, DUDE, YOU WERE THE REASON WHY EVERYTHING WENT TO SHIT IN THE FIRST PLACE

AND I DIDNT THINK HE WOULD JUST BE STOPPED WITH UHM I DONT KNOW, THE FUCKIN,,, POWER OF FRIENDSHIP, FROM HIS CLASSMATES THAT HE BARELY KNEW OR INTERACTED WITH. THIS PLOT IS SO UEHJDJGJF

also the new characters are mostly very boring. i kinda called it early on that there's sorta a throuple thing going on with yukizome, munakata and sakakura dOES ANYONE EVEN REMEMBER THESE PEOPLE'S NAMES FOR REAL?? I SURE DONT, I KEEP HAVING TO LOOK EM UP CAUSE THEIR PLOT WAS SO UNINTERESTING, AND MUNAKATA AND SAKAKURA ARE BOTH ASSHOLES

the throuple ended really badly too????? oh my god the adult characters are all terrible, only great gozu, the guy with the bull mask in the future foundation, was amazing, bUT HE LASTED LIKE ONE EPISODE. future arc bad,,, you can tell characters were created just to be killed

if you cant tell already by how incomprehensibly angry this entire blog post was written, i'm relieved to be done with the anime. there is no more mystery, the writing is just really bad. it's comparable to my experience with following the kingdom hearts timeline in that it's good in the beginning (because many questions are open and unanswered and your brain fills it in with theories you enjoy), and gets worse towards the end (because every question is answered badly, established plot points are rewritten for bad reasons, and the work is clearly rushed so they can try to beat more money out of this dying horse)

[atalana]

[copied over from my cr blog, also this is gonna get long, i’d apologise but im not sorry]

okay, so

this is a rant probably about 7 years in the making, bc when i first watched lok i had not done any music study, i had not done any composing of my own, my knowledge of music theory was at a primary school level and i still thought tv soundtracks were just made by one person composing a whole cache of music and then the audio editors pick and choose what track to place where

(spoiler alert that’s not how film and tv scoring works, i have now done a music composition course where we had to score a short film, among other things, and i have so much more respect for tv composers jesus christ)

but this one stuck out to me even way back then, bc me barely knowing what a leitmotif was was like “hey this one little refrain keeps popping up whenever bolin does lavabending, and i like it, i’m gonna see if it’s on the soundtrack”

it was not, and that’s sort of where i left it back in 2014, but i actually did a rewatch of lok pretty recently out of nostalgia, and then noticed it even more

and to explain why (and this is also a little bit why five’s stuck out to me in tua, i’ll get to that in another ask), let’s cover, leitmotifs, and tv scoring in general

so a leitmotif is basically just a short musical idea that represents something in a piece of music. when i studied motivic development we were encouraged to make that motif four notes or less, and then develop it into something longer (aka a theme), because if you can constantly come back to a really short idea while keeping the piece moving, that’s what makes a piece of music memorable

(you can ignore those rules on purpose but that’s a different essay)

so the most common way that a leitmotif shows up in soundtracks is to represent a character or a location - you play the motif when that character shows up or when you’re in that location and boom, the audience associates that motif with that person place or thing, and you can then use this to tell the audience things without actually telling them. for example, star wars playing the imperial march whenever someone does something darth vader related - darth vader isn’t on screen, but you can feel his presence, because his music is playing

and if we were a film score, where we have two hours to show one particular character’s development, great! we give them a simple motif, and then as they grow as a person we change their motif to reflect what is happening to them, until we end up with something that communicates on a subconscious level how much they’ve grown. we toss in as much symbolism as we can, and we have a really great soundtrack that’s instantly memorable

tv scoring, is harder. partially because of time constraints (have you ever composed half an hour of original music a week, and had to make sure it fits perfectly with every beat of what’s happening on screen? these guys have), partially because there’s a much larger focus on ensemble casts

so what atla and lok do, for the most part, is not score individual character motifs for everyone. this is fairly common in tv soundtracks, instead we score ideas, concepts, and feelings - these’ll come up a lot more and give you more information than just “oh hey this character’s on screen”

the avatar state, for example, has the strongest and most recognisable theme across both shows. i’m linking an atla track in here because it has the best example but you’ll know this shows up with korra too - and with particularly important moments for wan, for kyoshi, etc. they also appear in the opening of both shows, four strong notes that start and end on the same note (in the case of what i’m linking, it’s an F#)

the first part of this track is the more uncertain, pensive theme that comes up when both avatars are feeling doubt/worry/sadness, but then it transitions into the more recognisable four. worth noting though, those are both basically the same motif. if i write them out back to back, you’ll notice they both have four notes and start and end on F#. if i had to guess, four notes four elements, and it comes back to the start because the avatar is a cycle.

korra has a theme for when she’s fighting, but not an individual character theme. the airbenders as a concept have a theme, republic city has thematic instruments, as do some big name characters, like iroh and his tsungi horn (this is also a cross-series thing, he’s always playing it in atla, it shows up when zuko has to make big moral decisions, and when we first meet iroh in the spirit world in lok, it shows up there too, to let the audience know who this is before we properly see him)

so, if korra doesn’t get a single theme and instead has several for different aspects of her life, and mako and asami follow along with the mood of the story like all the other characters, the fact that bolin has a personal leitmotif at all, let alone a solid, developing one, is pretty remarkable!

now, granted, it mostly starts with book 3, before then he was like every other character, but it has clear symbolism through those last two books! and, initially i thought it was related only to his lavabending, since that’s most of when it shows up, but since my rewatch, i’ve started calling it his hero theme

see, when people wanna criticise mako and bolin, usually the comments they get are that bolin’s too immature and mako’s too serious/uptight. but like, that’s how they work, you can’t analyse either of them without the context of the other. since they were little kids on the streets, bolin chases his heart and mako makes sure they don’t die from it, that is their entire childhood. and neither would have got here on their own because mako wouldn’t take the necessary risks and bolin wouldn’t take the necessary precautions. (like. remove either one from the equation and they’d still be working for the triple threats bc s1 and their flashback miniseries make pretty clear that bolin got them out and mako kept them out)

and then book 2 proves it! because it splits team avatar up, and what happens? bolin is totally taken advantage of by varrick and used as a pawn in his evil plan and mako ends up in jail

so what’s book 3, to them? it’s, being able to find themselves without having that codependency. mako no longer has someone to protect, which is what he’s based his whole life around so far - bolin’s doing fine and he’s no longer dating either korra or asami. and bolin’s trying his hand at some of that responsibility (look at how he immediately adopts kai who is explicitly them but younger because he wants to be the older brother for once). most importantly, they find the rest of their family, and stop being defined by being orphans. they don’t have to be that singular piece of a puzzle, they can just be themselves. and that’s where bolin’s character really starts to shine, because that’s when they bring in the bending plot, and bending, perhaps more than any other character, really gets to the heart of who bolin is

if you want more of my thoughts on that i have an essay here, but tl;dr: bolin’s an extremely powerful earthbender, but he’s not a metalbender because metalbending requires you to double down on the earth characteristics and think like an earthbender, and bolin doesn’t, he’s too fluid for that, which is one of his major strengths, so of course he can lavabend

and finally - to his motif itself! (as a note, i’ve put all of these in the same key to show where it repeats, but there’s a variety of keys used in the show)

as far as i can find, it first shows up in s3e8, when bolin stuns p’li with this well placed shot

[Edit: it first showed up in the s2 finale, but again in a simplified version and again with him doing something heroic with earthbending, so we can still start the analysis here]

mako volunteers bolin for that job, because he knew bolin was capable of it. why? because bolin landed an identical shot earlier in the episode, after trying to metalbend, getting frustrated he can’t, and cheating with some extremely well aimed earthbending. it’s just a short refrain and you barely notice it, but it’s the first connection of this motif with the theme of bolin’s bending

it looks like this, and it’s always played on a trumpet, which is part of why i call it the hero theme, because, if you’re looking at music from a western perspective, trumpets were used to herald kings, and then used to represent military glory, and then when superhero themes started happening, they used trumpets too - it’s basically western music shorthand for hero these days

(it’s also symmetrical so that helps with the good vibes)

and he’s saving everyone here, so it’s linked to his bending, but it’s also linked to his heroism

it ties the two together, and they are tied together.

when’s the next time it shows up? episode 10, when the brothers are in prison in ba sing se, and bolin tries to metalbend them out. again, he’s doing this to save people, and this motif gets a few notes added on to the end in a raising pattern - they’re inspiring, but they don’t go anywhere. which is exactly what happens in the scene, because he’s trying to go about this in the wrong way. mako believes in him, but it won’t (and doesn’t) work

it appears in episode 12 when bolin saves everyone from ghazan destroying the temple, in a more fancy orchestral remake of the first version - it’s impressive, but it hasn’t actually developed yet, it’s just his discovery of it

the book 3 finale already has its own fucking amazing soundtrack, i love that entire episode’s score, but it gets its own moment there too, and the first real development!

because what we hear is not what we’ve heard before. we know it’s the same theme, because it’s using those signature trumpets, but it’s the second part of this phrase, the answer to the question supplied by the first one. why? because bolin’s figured out who he is and he’s starting to use it. it still hasn’t settled yet though, it’s early days and he’s still just turning ghazan’s lava back on him, so again, it raises, leaving it on a question mark

it doesn’t appear in s4e7 when he lavabends as a warning against the escaped prisoners, because he’s using it as a threat, not to help people. but it does later in the episode when he uses lavabending to save them from kuvira. and that’s when we get the first full phrase, question and answer

it keeps the first motif identical, takes out the first note of the second, and ties them together - except now it’s not open ended, now it knows where it’s going - it’s been three years, at this point bolin is confident in both himself and his bending

and then that phrase appears all over the place in the finale, because all bolin does is save people - everyone from the exploding building, he slows the giant mecha with lavabending, he saves opal, he slows the giant mecha again by collapsing a building on it, and most importantly, he’s the one rescuing his brother this time, instead of the other way around (though that one doesn’t get a motif appearance bc admittedly a fuck ton of other things are happening in the soundtrack at the time)

so to that question asked in book three - who is bolin when not next to someone else? well, funnily enough, we saw it in book two as well, just in a warped way, playing nuktuk. it just wasn’t truly him because it was created by varrick, and he needed to get away from varrick too. the question put forward by the narrative is who is bolin, and the answer given by the music is, he is a hero. and i don’t know why bolin is the only one to get a theme like this, but i think it may have something to do with the fact that, while everyone in team avatar has been a hero and saved people, he is the only one who has, from the start, solely been motivated by wanting to help people. he follows his heart, and his heart cares, about everyone. it’s been the driving force behind almost everything he’s ever done. and i love him so much

[sanchoyo]

me and my sis are gonna possibly maybe have a Yard Sale tomorrow and im very excited...its been SO long since ive had one and the weather has been super pretty lately.. so the idea of just hangin out w my sister and our dogs and makin money...effervescent . a fun time (we live in a p good area for it too, last time I had one I was only like. 10. but me and her ended up making 300+ together at that one, lol)

also ive had 2 HUGE garbage bags full of clothes I meant to donate sitting in my room for a MONTH so. glad to be getting rid of those (what doesnt sell tomorrow will either go on depop or be donated locally, depending on if I think the depop girlies will like it. depends on how eccentric it is lol) I rly hope to sell as much as possible tho bc still unemployed...

I think my next goal (aside from the money i plan to use to get my dog the full spa treatment) I would rly like to maybe get a nice camera for myself for my bday. I already have the model in mind... my goal was GONNA be to get my switch fixed bc Viddy Games Fun, but like, if the new loz doesnt release this yr I dont feel as rushed or obligated 🤷‍♂️ and theres a few local jobs for taking pics ive seen (like, for car lots/sales places and real estate, and possibly Events for ppl once I get a bit better at it) and im like oh. that would be easy and something I could reasonably do? bein into art gives me the advantage of being Good at composition and being able to digitally fix/enhance the images if theyd need that. or..tentatively considering a yt channel? I think..it might be fun. but im not rly planning anything concrete yet tho 🤷‍♂️

[traumatizedkids]

Some fun facts, info and More about the S3 and the comic in general.

 I made this long ago with the S2 hiatus, so i decided to do the same again with new funfacts, and some new info about S3 (without going into spoilers of course, i hope you guys like it)

As you can notice, the new profile cards has a section called Logo, those logos are a new thing i added to the comic, What’s the purpose? They are made for pannels were the character’s talk but they are not in scene, this is an example from the new season:

When i announced King in Black i didn’t have almost any plans for the next issues, but i liked the Agony plot so i decided to make the story about that.

The Scene were Alec uses Jake as a Bat is a reference to the Blackbird Epilogue were it’s said Jake turns into a Bat of Intention releasing Andrew’s soul.

I wanted to elaborate more the scene were Jake is awakened from the illusion, but it was too many pages and i had to use the Bro thing, i am sorry if it was Lame, for me, at least it is.

When Alec met Hazel, i had plans to explain Alec dad’s were already dead, but i decided to not add that scene.

Alex (Hazel’s daughter) is 10, and She’s a Demi-Girl, 

The reason why i started to read Disney Chills was because i wanted to find new traumatized kids from a different media than the ones i already use.

In the moment i read Planet of Symbiotes: Toxin i knew Bren has to be in the team.

Millie was intended to appear revived for a Symbiote after KIB, but i discarded that because we don’t really know her fate and there’s chances she could came back in FF epilogues.

Hazel works as a Lawyer

I want to make season 3 more separate from FNAF, because this comic was turning into a FNAF comic more than a crossover.

The Bonnles came from a Joke i made long ago on Twitter

I suffered a lot in season 2 because i really wanted to use Dylan, but the idea of a Time skip was soo good to not use it, Return of the Kids was totally my fav moment.

Oswald’s Scar plot from Familiar Rabits is gonna come back on the Summer Special.

Traumatized Kids Island is gonna be 10 episodes long i dunno if it’s gonna be Weekly or every 2 days, i have to think that.

Sora Ogami was a character i loved to add and i hope to use it more in future episodes.

I already told that, i changed the Henry’s hairstyles to make them inspired in the actor Jared Gilmoire, the one who interprets Henry in Once upon a Time.

The real name of this comic is: Niños Traumados.

Not gonna lie, i want to add Sleeper in this comic, but i don’t know what happened with him in comics, i am worried :(

The reason i am redesinging some characters is to gave them a personal touch (and because their shows are over)

Dipper and Mabel were requested a lots of times, i hope to use them more on season 3 now i rewatched the show since years.

I dunno if someone get it, but this is a reference to Kingdom Hearts:

I have plans to do a reference to the original trilogy of FNAF Books.

I started this blog because an user called Puffy started to reblog the first 3 episodes saying she was enjoying them, i am very grateful for all her suppor and i love her reblogs, thank you so much.

This also goes for Hide, i dunno if you’re reading this, but thanks for all your support, i love to have you here.

Bren Waters and Dylan Brock are gonna be gooooood friends.

I think it’s pretty obvious, this is an AU, so i take some creative liberties for some designs and relationships, i still use the actual stories from the characters, but some things like Normie and Dylan friendship (who in comics stopped being friends in a comic that we don’t even know if it’s canon) are changed.

In King In Black 3 in the Adults plan i had plans to introduce the crystal gems, but i thought Connie would be a better idea so i could introduce her.

Yeah, Connie is gonna come back, also she accepted Steven proposal after Steven got corrupted again, 

There’s gonna be more adults on the Season 3

Not gonna told who, but one of the Founders members of the Meeting has appeared on one episode, not gonna tell wich.

Oswald loves more Springmatt than the Bonnles.

At first i didn’t wanted to confirm Chuck and Sam relationship, but then i was like: Why not?

Season 3 is ubicated AFTER The cliffs epilogue, but BEFORE Gumdrop Angel epilogue.

I confirmed 4 new kids, but i don’t deny maybe new kids would join in the future, someone wants to talk about dinosaurs?

What Oswald says about the name is already taken in KIB 1 is a reference about the fact there’s already a Symbiote called Agony.

At first i had plans to make art-trades with people to have variants of King in Black with another artist but i wasn’t brave enough.

I want to apologize about my shitty english lmao, sometimes i mess up the translation.

If you’re still reading this reblog with a #Yes

ok thanks, i aprecciate that.

sorry for this being so long lmao

For the people who read Disney Chills (and the people i hope i introduced to them like that ask someone sent me) i am aware about the Second Star to the Fright ending, but i wanted to use Barrie anyway, i love that boy.

Not gonna lie, i would love if someone makes a fanart or a dub of this series, if someone wanted to but was afraid to ask, you can, don’t be shy.

For the people who doesn’t knows, i am making an Into the Pit Graphic novel and a Dylan and Normie Graphic Novel, this comic is helping me to practice with Panel composition.

This is the first Splashpage i ever made, and i am very proud of it, i hope to make more on the future:

Goblin symbiote design was inspired in the Goblin Childe and the colors of the green goblin.

Some kids like Oswald are not going to have a Profile Card yet, that’s because Season 3 spoilers.

Im doing an Animatic about Dylan in the other Earth talking to Codex, at first it was a personal project, but i decided to add it to the traumatized Kids Canon.

When Robin is with the Cape on is because i am lazy to draw the body, sorry, i am human too lol.

I am sad no one got it, but that answer about the meeting room and a cat of the founder members was a Doraemon reference, yes, i confirm it, Nobita Nobi is in the 80s meeting.

At first i had plans to introduce Billy and Tommy into S3 but then for obvious reasons i didn’t (But i still can, maybe someday)

Steven’s weeding is gonna be a S3 arc, and it’s gonna be the last time we are gonna see Steven, it’s hard for me, but some kids have to leave in order to other to enter.

Welp i think i gave so many facts, this is a long list, i dunno if people is gonna fully read them, but if you did, thanks a lot for your interest.

Soon i will share more things in this acc, have a good summer.

[rindomness]

I’m gonna go for something that pretty obvious given my likes, but how bout Rin and Sam?

hey sorry I needed my computer to get to my pictures for this one and I wanted to focus in class

Rin:

Favorite thing about them: I feel like I need to just state preemptively that everything is going to be biased because they're my OC and started out as a self-insert and I love them. However they are a snarky bastard (by design) and I don't know how obvious it's becoming that I really really have a thing for that particular niche of antagonist design. (Yes they are technically an antagonist in what I'm planning with them original-writing wise)

Least favorite thing about them: they refuse to ask for help literally ever. child please

Favorite line: Hm. I don't think they have any lines in their debut piece actually. Everything else is from RPs currently and I'm not tracking somethin down through a discord chat... honestly it's probably still waiting to be written.

Also "If I'm going down, you're going down with me."

brOTP: RP-verse, hattie. Original-writing, Asha! I will not be explaining that one.

OTP: RP-verse, Cleo and Snow (from @luxsona). Original, no one, really. No real point in having romantic relationships when you're a centuries-old demon who outlives everyone around you, is there?

nOTP: Haven't really thought too hard about it because I haven't been thinking of them too hard outside of their existing relationships/probable relationship with Asha but like... no kids ig? like. I've only really used them as an adult.

Random headcanon: uhh I don't know if it counts as a headcanon if they're my character but. They will do menial chores to feel human/destress because it's a rhythmic thing. (this originated because I was trying to coax myself into doing the dishes regularly)

unpopular opinion: my character IG? Uh. Probably 'it's Probably a Bad Idea to try and befriend demons as a general rule'

song i associate with them: Home (cavetown)

favorite picture of them:

this has been a favorite for a bit I just really like the composition

Sam:

Favorite thing about them: werewolf werewolf werewolf. Also she has a very fun voice to write.

Least favorite thing about them: honestly see Rin above. Please talk to people about your problems.

Favorite line: "We were not summoning him. We did not break any laws. He’s been here for months.” I don't know man it's just fun there's a lot of fun things she says

brOTP: I'm stuck between Alcor and Silver because both of them but honestly currently I'm gonna say Silver just because. They're the OG duo

OTP: Don't really have anyone!

nOTP: Alcor. No

Random headcanon: again like... how do headcanons work for my own characters? but uh... after the werewolf thing happened I think she has the hardest time with peanut m&ms because chocolate but also they smell good

unpopular opinion: I don't know if I have any. Uh. Considering she's my character? uh. yeah

Song I associate with them: I don't really know? I know there's some out there I just can't think of any of them rn. ;-;

Favorite picture of them:

im gonna go with this one I did of her for pride month this year because I can I just really like it man

thank you raven! again sorry this took me fucking forever v.v

[rhydium]

Info dumbo about the StarFinite story?

aright u asked for it anon GET READY [cracks knuckles] this is gonna be long so obligatory cut in 3, 2........

...1!

so the uh, the au! the story!! w/e yall wanna call it! full disclaimer, i only began working on this whole thing a while ago, but it's totally taken over my fukn brain. like, we're talking big hyperfixation hrs. am i cringe for being this invested in my own content? yes? cool i do not Care >:3€

i should also throw it out there real quick that i am kin w/ infinite, n this is actually one of my two canons (both of which are my own aus lmfao wow). i didn't go into it expecting it to be but sfsfsgdfs here we are ig!! for that reason it's got extra importance to me n this definitely contributes to the euphoria i get from it!! it's a lil odd writing ur own canon,,? but i kinda just go w/ the flow!

the au n, the story that i will start Eventually, revolves around infinite n starline (obvi) n it's honestly just ... the tl;dr is big healing momence n, what's this? uh oh sisters !!! they are falling in love 😳😳😳

uhhhh so infinite is an android, made by eggman. that's like, the most notable canon divergence here! super important context to have. i've got a whole big theory on the possibility of sega originally intending infinite to be an artificial being (which i explored in the works for my Other canon too), stemming from not only the scene in forces wherein infinite comments on sonic's "data", but a line of dialogue from tails in one of the last stages of the game where he Literally Says "so this is where eggman built infinite". that ... i mean. that contrasts w/ episode shadow pretty hard don't it?? would explain why that dlc was so rushed, n the comic too. ANYWAY adsfsfs um that's a seperate ramblepost. yeah!!!

they are also agender n use they/them (primarily) as well as he/him!! so i'll be refering to them w/ those pronouns!

after the war, infinite is taken in by the resistance n, instead of being dismantled, they're basically given a chance to rehabilitate themselves. it's agreed that they won't be reprogrammed, as despite the potential risks, it feels wrong to do so; like a violation of their free will, individuality n thinking. if infinite is to be a good person, it's not gonna be bc other ppl recreated their entire personality, it's gonna be bc it's what they themselves truly want. robot ethics idk man!! u can't tell me that sonic n co wouldn't offer this to infinite if they offered it to metal in IDW,,,, i am Standing By This!!!

it's, yknow, a bit rocky, at first. infinite has to really fight the urge to return to eggman (something they already tried once, before the resistance found them; they were cast out). it's a struggle against what they were built to do, against giving into unhealthy familiarity over facing a, while healthier, unfamiliarity. new faces, a new life, turning their back on their mission n creator, it's like, a lot.

they work for/with the sonic crew, rebuilding the world they tore down as deemed fitting justice, being closely monitored for a bit as a natural precaution. as it becomes apparent infinite truly no longer has any ambition to harm others (they don't have much ambition for anything, really), they're then granted more freedom, n start taking on more important missions!! it at least gives them something to do, keeps them occupied. they have issues with dissociation, unreality, whether they're truly a real person bc, well, android. feeling purposeless, n a lack of worth, especially. a need to prove themselves. heavy stuff. i'll kinda go into that a bit more in a sec. their work grounds them, if only temporarily.

n soooooo... IDW comic stuff happens. metal virus time. starline gets kicked out of the empire.

now, as the comics are ongoing, n as this is already an au, there's gonna be divergence, n i must admit i haven't planned out all that yet. there's a lot i have to consider!! infinite being w the resistance/restoration is a big game changer ... tho i Do believe that they were absent, likely on a far out mission during most of the chaos. eggman doesn't know abt them, nor does starline or anyone else other than the sonic crew; n some civilians that recognise them.

i'm not 100% sure of Exactly when it happens, but i think it's just after bad guys, that infinite is sent to locate n bring in starline. it doesn't prove too difficult. there's a whole, starline realising "oh fuck it's you???", some bickering n, the two don't hit it off right away. they're both kinda like. not mentally stable ddgddgdds,,,

so uh. starline ends up essentially going thru the same sorta shit as infinite. careful watch, rebuilding, all that jazz, making sure he can be trusted. he's like... very very lost, quite like infinite is. the world has kinda calmed down, in the meanwhile.

it's at this point i'm gonna go ahead n drop a bit of a ramble i subjected my friends to a while ago, to articulate the way i see the two, n their dynamic together!! i was considering making this it's own post a while ago!

analysing their characters a bit... let's look at starline. Like. so we have this, in bad guys, which SENT ME tbfh;

i feel like it's the moment that triggers starline onto the path he is rn canonically,,, he's clearly like. rly mad n bitter. the core of this?? he wants his work n his efforts to be acknowledged.

he's big angry. still kind of in denial at this stage. he has himself obsessed w/ the idea of making eggman see him as Worthy, that if he just tries hard enough, that'll happen. he's dependent on eggman's validation, n i mean, it's no surprise; he's followed him a Long Time by the sounds of it.

then in the recent issue, hold the fuck up, bc we got, This;

god. my god it's all comin together now homies. this???? this right here??? it is the CLASSIC "i have to do this to prove i'm strong n powerful n smart n worthy n should be respected please Give Me Acknowledgement" ..... n who else is Like That? can u see where im going w/ this?

i think most ppl are aware of infinite's character being extremely indicative of self worth/esteem issues n the need to prove themself, right?? the extreme adversity, repulsion, perhaps even fear toward the idea of being weak. the compulsion to prove otherwise, to show their strength, to become powerful, to conquer to make a point. their theme exudes this same energy as their behaviour in-game; an aggressive attitude, trying to assert themself, while if u rly listen...? the lyrics are actually really sad in places. it reeks of cover up, although composition wise, a v interesting thing to note is a lot of the more telling lyrics are prominent while some of the affirming ones are in the background. indicative of a desire to have their true feelings be heard but caught in a vicious loop?

okay okay that's yet Another different analysis. AHEM.

not to get deep on main (oh who the hell am i kidding that's the point of this entire thing) but i think starline has issues w/ his worth in a similar way to infinite. they both seem to have this need to Prove something, whether it's to others or themselves, n get caught in a toxic spiral of doing worse n worse things for Some kind of validation or acknowledgement. they'll go to really big lengths chasing that, n both of them ultimately sought validation in the wrong place n wrong way.

this is a big part of my starfinite dynamic,, n so, what happens, as they get closer n open up??? we have them BOTH realising together that they don't have to do fuck all to prove anything to anyone. they don't need to do all this to show they're strong n smart n worth something, not to anyone else OR themselves. they're enough as they are. they bond over that shared feeling that they have to do xyz, to prove themselves, n that desire to just finally be acknowledged n appreciated n help each other thru it. to help each other understand that other ppls approval, or lack thereof, doesn't define them, their strength, intelligence, and worthiness.

i feel like they have an interesting parallel between them in like... the above could be taken as a general analysis, but to go more in depth on this au specifically?? ...

starline followed eggman for presumably a long time n it no doubt left him feeling a heavy and deep regret for all that time wasted n spent on an unhealthy path. infinite kinda teaches him that what matters is what he's doing Now n also reminds him that if none of it happened, starline wouldn't have learnt a lot of the serious skills he has. n while starline still feels bad, he also realises himself that, he likely never would have crossed infinite's path if none of it happened. for that reason, he wouldn't take it back.

infinite has only been recently made, on the other hand. they haven't really existed long, yet, but so far their experiences haven't been very positive n it can be .... discouraging. starline sorta, shows infinite their limited experiences w/ the world are a very tiny fraction of what's out there, n things can absolutely change, yes, including for the better; that's the essence of life, a neverending, constant flow of change.

it's a big tale of moving on n letting go, honestly; made easier as they're doing it together. n as they heal n grow, well... these bitches gay. sfshshdgds like, ig that's putting it p bluntly but!! they start to trust each other, understand each other more. as they get to truly know who the other is, they both start developing The Feelings. they're both pretty oblivious n the reveal is totally unknown so far!! yeah, i know, bummer. i suck. boo. adafsfsds however i can say there will be lots of content in the making!! if that soothes the soul! i've got of ideas i hope to bring to life.

ofc there's still a lot of more specific things i haven't covered here so! if y'all want more juice hmu w/ more focused questions but !! this is the overview n i hope it was a decent read now that gave some uhhh! Cool Insight! yea!!! ✌

[askpolylosersclub]

Hey Eddie go off about Bev 👌

Okay I mean I guess I can do this again since you guys just like hearing me yell about stuff for some reason even though I totally get carried away and I have literally no filter but BUCKLE UP MOTHERFUCKERS BECAUSE IM HERE, IM QUEER IN A PRETTY GOOD MOOD AND IM GONNA TALK ABOUT MY BEAUTIFUL WIFE OKAY??? YA DINGUS

- Listen, I knooooooow it's totally cliche and been said a bajillion times but you can't make a list of the best things about Bev without talking about her fucking hair, okay?!?? SO STOP FUCKING JUDGING ME. Her hair is winter fire NO, WE'RE NOT...I'm not about to plagiarize Ben, okay? I'm gonna say this in my own words...so here goes, um...your hair is...fucking beautiful, the end. I'm not a fucking poet, okay?!? Seriously, I mean for real her hair is the most amazing color it's not even red, it's not even copper, it's not even ginger, no word has been invented to describe the color of Bev's hair it's like if you crushed up one of those orange gemstones and mixed it with melted gold and that's the color that it is. And it's so fucking shiny like if you look at her hair as the sun hits it you instantly go blind

- Um, she's fucking beautiful. Like when I say that I'm not just saying it and just because I'm gay doesn't mean I'm blind, I CAN see what other women look like...yeah she's an exception but that doesn't make how beautiful she is ANY LESS FUCKING VALID OKAY?? HER EYES ARE BEAUTIFUL, HER NOSE IS BEAUTIFUL, HER LIPS ARE BEAUTIFUL, HER JAWLINE IS BEAUTIFUL, HER SKIN IS BEAUTIFUL. BEVERLY MARSH IS A FUCKING GODDESS NONE OF US ARE EVEN FUCKING WORTHY OF SPEAKING TO HER YET HERE WE ARE

- You guys have no idea the shit ahe has been through...like...just no idea...the fact that she is not only a strong person, and a good person, but so caring about other people, so selfless and generous and loving...it really takes a special kind of person to come through all that and still be a decent human being, but Bev came out the other side a fucking INCREDIBLE person and I have literally never known anyone that strong

- HER. LAUGH. IS. SO. AMAZING. IT'S. LIKE. LISTENING. TO. ANGELS. SINGING. I mean...I assume...in fact the Angels probably sound a lot fucking worse

- LISTEN, I like dick men...like exclusively...but you CAN NOT LOOK AT BEV'S BODY, naked or otherwise, WITHOUT BEING INSTANTLY FUCKING ANNIHILATED. Like, did you guys know women were so soft??? IS THIS A THING? I fucking mean it all of her skin is like fucking silk, man, and when you press down it's not just like solid muscle or anything it's like...marshmallow? You know what, that's a crappy fucking description but you guys know what I'm talking about, right? Like...men are hard (in a non gross way mostly) even if they have a little bit of fat or they're not toned like there's just something more solid...we have different muscle composition...anyway the point is women's bodies are just so much softer and I don't blame God for making women inherently better in basically every way, but, c'mon man leave us with SOMETHING??? Actually ya know what I don't care just as long as I can still keep Beverly Marsh in my life thanks

- i mean...boobs, man...

- She literally ALWAYS fucking looks amazing, like...she always has her fingernails and toenails painted, hair done, nice clothes...I swear even when she's like in her pajamas or in sweats or whatever she's got matching nails, her hair looks nice, she has like an ankle bracelet or something...HOW DO YOU LOOK SO GOOD ALL THE TIME??? HOW?? EFFORT?? YOURE TELLING ME THAT FOR CENTURIES THE PATRIARCHY HAS BRAINWASHED WOMEN INTO CONSTANTLY MAINTAINING A CERTAIN STANDARD IN THEIR APPEARANCE THAT MAKES THEM FEEL INADEQUATE IF THEY ARENT PUTTING 1000 PERCENT EFFORT IN AT ALL TIMES??? YEAH THAT IS WHAT IM TELLIN YA AND ITS FUCKING GROSS BUT DAMN IF BEVERLY MARSH DOESNT LOOK AMAZING ALL THE GODDAMN TIME

FUCK

- Eddie