#im going to use the first panel forever

[c0tt0nballz]

Jerry Stokes sins

I was a bit tired of seeing the purification/watered down jerry the fandom portrays, so i wanted to make a small compilation of stuff he did to show that he isnt some sweet little angel, but rather just a teenage boy who is easy to manipulate, beware this is all a loser rant and should not be taken seriously, i have not seen the light of day in years

(Ps : thanks to @lame4dogz for the idea :3)

⚠️eltingville club comic spoilers⚠️

Exhibit A :

objectification of women

In various occasions we get to see Jerry thinking of real women in a sexual light, of course this can be just normal teenage boy actions, "boys will be boys" but only because its normal doesnt mean its right, so ill judge him for it

Since the first comic ever of the eltingville we get to see this behavior from him, starting with Tasha Yar

Later on we see him using a crosby playboy magazine, of course the magazine WAS made for this kind of purposes, but owning a playboy magazine and saying "well the models knew what they were modeling for!!" Doesnt make your hands any less dirty

Here he is reading a comic of a character named "vulvanella", same comic that was shown on a separate drawing from Evan Dorkin, it is very obvious she was created for sexual purposes

Lastly and my biggest proof of this exhibit is this panel from "The marathon men", there was nothing sexual going on, and yet Jerry found a way to turn the situation around.

Exhibit B :

Ignoring or joining in the bullying of josh

This exhibit is pretty much the same for all panels so im not gonna get very into it, but i do need to recall that i understand the peer pressure jerry may have gone through, and how some times he questioned if what they were doing was too much or too cruel, but did he ever do anything to fix it? Did he ever apologize or try to satnd up for Josh, not really, having the intention but doing nothing about it doesnt make you a better person, some panels showing this behavior from jerry are the following :

Exhibit C :

Jerry's biggest sin

This one i remark to be the worst thing jerry has ever done, something so huge that he kept for so so long, and that is...

The true identity of GREEDO318

Bill

This is something he could have brought up at any time, yet he didnt, every single time Josh kept ranting about the back and forth battles with GREEDO318, he kept his mouth shut, this is not him trying to save his own ass, this is him ignoring the constant bullying and abuse josh goes through online, this is something i will forever claim is his biggest sin ever.

thank u guyz for staying in my ted talk i hope u liked ittt i love jerry so much he is so silly :3

[alphajocklover]

hey there. I—-iiii—-I’m sorry, I’m a lil a little ner nervous here. I have this uh, like, um, shy. Uh. Shy persona. Im a nerdyaverage gay dude. And I wanna be able to talk in front of like um crowds. Actually I um, had something in mind. I wanna become a big, jacked jock straight comedian. Telling hilarious and sometimes cringe and crude jokes. Getting egged on by my maybe like um, frat bros or something to tell like obnoxious straight dude joke or something. Yeah. Like super douchebag funny guy muscle straight bro who is the life of the party. Young and dumb dude. Is there anything you have that could make this a reality?

It’s nice to meet you Mike! You don’t mind if I call you Mike do you? I know it’s not your name, but I don’t love using real names in my work… also, if I do this right your name could actually be Mike soon. I think that’s a good name for a straight douchebag comedian. It’s kind of a pun actually, a play on open Mike. You could call yourself Mike Dick. Get it, cause it sounds like ‘my dick’? Not funny huh? I’ll admit I’m not the best at this, but you’re the one who wants to be a comedian, not me. And I’m going to tell you how. You need to do what everyone who has stage fright needs to do. You need to get up on that stage… and just start talking.

I bet you're probably very confused right now. I know that the very idea of talking in front of people fills you with dread, and you came to me so you could get that confidence, not some cheesy advice. But I swear to you that I’m not just giving you empty platitudes. When you get up on the stage, in that spotlight, everything will be ok. Not because you believe in yourself, but because that spotlight is being powered by a very special battery. You might remember my supernova transformations, from my earliest stories. You might also remember that I was able to take some of the energy from it using a special solar panel and put it in a battery. While it turns out that if you use that battery to power a light source… It has an interesting effect. Any guy caught in its rays has they’re wish granted, while also being turned into a jock.when I discovered this I thought maybe I had finally found out how InstaJock works, but the transformation isn’t instant, and I’m not sure if you could get that energy to travel through an app or anything, so it’s probably something else.

Anyways, head on up! At first you’ll be your regular, shy and geeky self, but as you bask in the spotlight and start to open up, you’ll slowly change. Your muscles will slowly grow, your body and face becoming more chiseled, and your sense of humor will slowly become more… raunchy. Thoughtful comedy will slowly turn into cheap punchlines about ‘stupid queers’ and crude stories about ‘crazy bitches with huge tits’. Your audience might not like your new style, but a confident stud like you doesn’t care about what losers like that think, and you’ll be certain to get a following of beefy straight douchebags in no time. Especially if you turn that spotlight on the audience. Have fun, and try to use that spotlight responsibly. The battery won’t last forever, and I’m not going to give you a second one.

[sillyyuserr]

Chapter 117 analysis (WE’RE SO BACK) obviously spoilers for chapter 117 and chapter 114

i cooked with this one trust

Everyones looking for them yadayadayada terukane

Yk im pretty sure this is meant to be lore heavy but LOOK AT THEM

I don’t know how to word this correctly but since chapter 115/116 between akane and teru there seems to have been something that happened in which they stopped being freaky?? 😭 like ykwim hold on

in chapter 114 this happened

completely ruined almost everything they had, but in the span of a few days, shit still going on, they havent had their deserved break yet like they got on chapter 96-97 and somehow in the midst of all this teru’s forgiven(?) him and just moved on?? Really not sure but based on what we know ab the red house the next chapter may answer some of our questions

Also, this is so little i didn’t see it the first time reading but teru goes to the drink machine thing to get one and mixes like 4 of the sodas,

takes one sip decides its shit and switches with akane’s already half drunken out of tea. Indirect kiss guys wait

Also this is JUST like the date they all went on when aoi was gone. Again, aoi is gone here too 😭 my girl getting left out of everything is acc crazy

She comes in later tho and finally gets caught up for the first time in forever MAN aidairo must hate her😭

But also

We find out mitsuba and kou are going there TOO so for the first time i think ever we have the whole gang in one spot 🤥 alot of firsts this chapter smh

ALSO an honorable mention to this i saved best for last

Sir stay away from my children

ok but fr i have no fucking clue what to say ab this cus this is either ‘teehee im right ur wrong!!~~♡’ type shit which he does alot, or genuinely like what we all think it is, which considering outside context may, in fact make it make sense trust let me explain

teru says shit like this ALL THE TIME its kind of his ACTUAL personality aside from his fake shit, like the way he is only around akane and sometimes kou (at least what we’re shown) so you’d think he’s used to this, but his initial reaction is more of a ‘um. what.’

ALSO— backround MATTERS, the backround in this one, is pure black, which is only shown during stuff LIKE THIS (important stuff) example:

Black background either means its dark, or its something important, something meant to be remembered, or something like that (probably)

and that panel had a BLACK BACKROUND

Why is this important you may be asking, it has a black backround— so it must be, right? If this was a silly little ‘teehee you can’t do this im better than youuu!!!~~♡’ then it probably wouldnt even have a half panel it’d be another one of the mini panels, but it not only had a whole panel for just this, a black background ;blocking LITERALLY EVERYTHING OUT ASIDE FROM THIS AND WHAT HE’S SAID, but also, pay attention the contents of what he said.

(a different translation, this one is easier to read)

‘you are not in any position to oppose me, are you, aoi? ♡’ could mean, A LOT OF THINGS so i’ll put them in a bulletin here because any of them make for an interesting path we may be taking on ‘this’ reality😭😓

Number 1: he could be impliying, and or reminding akane, that he’s still engaged to aoi, and that if akane still thinks they shouldnt change this reality, he should reconsider, CONSIDERING he is engaged to aoi, as aforementioned. (Most likely this one)

Number 2: the power dynamic, yes akane is a school mystery with the ability to control time itself but also, teru is an exorcist, a skilled one at that— and could probably easily overpower akane in a 1v1 (lowk hyped to see this happen pls let them fight) teru may be poking fun, or reminding akane, that teru is in fact powerful, more than he seems to keep fresh on his mind — them having SO MUCH to do

Number 3: maybe instead he just felt like teasing akane and i wasted time+space for nothing and was looking way too into it (this is supposed to be the terukane option😪)

Never once has he used this before??? Obviously you cant talk in symbols but the heart kind of implies the user of this symbol is talking in a playful/slightly flirtatious tone, hence, the reaction:

Okay okay point is i think teru is still madly in love with him

WAAAHHHH just look at him pooks who else does he do this with smhh 😓 NO ONE

which i think may be PARTIALLY true but also not entirely because mayb im just a tweaker

Me when i when i ehen you whrn you when

This may make no sense at all, or alot of sense man idk its 3:12am i go back to school in like 2 weeks i am not ready for sophomore year gn

terukane will be real one day trust🤍🤍

[kiyomitakada]

u mentioned halle in one of your asks (not sure which. but one of them. i think the sayu one) and id like to nominate halle for the ask game. please. i miss her and want to hear more about women.

it WAS the sayu one you're right anyway YAY HALLE MY FAVORITE FOREVER

favorite thing about them: i could swear that there's a line in manga canon that says she's chasing down kira as vengeance for someone she knew but i cannot find it for the life of me. (i know it's also in htr, which adds the detail that it was the yotsuba kira specifically, but it was DEFINITELY in the manga… ughhhh)

as an alternative i will say my favorite thing is that she's a wild card. not on near's side, not on mello's side, just wants to stop kira. [mello voice] i don't discount revenge as a motive

least favorite thing about them: this is not her fault but i wish we got more internal monologue while she was being kiyomi's bodyguard :((( can you please tell us. ONE thing you think about this situation. ONE thing about how you are now in a foreign country and isolated from all your colleagues (near specifically says not to tell her where the spk is located in case halle is controlled by the notebook) and work as the most trusted bodyguard of the voice of kira, who you are determined to bring down, alone if you have to. ONE thing. no? no??? god damn it

favorite line: you, near, and i all want to capture kira. we're all after the same goal.

brOTP: her and mello are cute. i like this panel especially

like this is halle right after she walked into her apartment. and mello is just There. pointing a gun at her. what the fuck was this. how long has he been standing there. halle doesn't look surprised at all so was this a daily occurrence in the week mello lived in her apartment, like, does she just come home to a gun pointed at her every day. why are they like this?

OTP: Don't Even Joke Lad

kiyoharu: you have to headcanon so much into halle for this to work but i do have a soft spot for it. they're around each other 24/7, halle is silently working against her but smiles at her so cheerfully, kiyomi has been warned by light to suspect everyone around her as an spk agent but for some reason halle is her most trusted confidante anyway. Something Is Up. don't say it's because kiyomi's stupid i'll kill you.

hallemisa: i have one argument for this

^ i love that misa remembers halle from her aborted fight with kiyomi. i love that halle says "i'm sorry misa" afterwards using her first name for some reason? in my head they bump into each other in chicago or something post-canon after misa fakes her death and misa immediately shouts I KNEW IT! YOU ARE STALKING ME!

hallenear/hallemello: I Love Unsatisfying Proxy Relationships

nOTP: none? i think? flipping through my brain index. the version of halle in my head is bisexual and likes pathetic people of any gender and since death note is full of pathetic people im sure we could make something work.

random headcanon: this post is full of my halle headcanons so let me try to think of some new ones… i tend to think she feels a little bit bad about kidnapping misa and lying to kiyomi but pushes it down for catching kira's sake. i also think her very obvious -_-’ reaction to near's casual sexism is the exact same type of reaction every 2020s older sister has experienced when their younger brother shows them something on the "pink job blue job" side of tiktok. maybe i could hit her with the szpd beam?

unpopular opinion: w.what opinions are there on halle. uhhhhh i think i saw someone on a forum saying she was trying to seduce mello away from near And I Think That's Stupid

song i associate with them: i don't have anything for her… this is shameful. i'm going to cheat a little bit and say debt collector by jhariah because it is The revenge song

favorite picture of them: i like this one a lot. ignore the murderer

halle: -_- are you done now.

[captainwans]

AM ERA! (smau)

— ALEX TURNER

arabella series

pairing: alex turner x fem! actress! reader

summary: some iconic and memorable moments on social media during the am era.

timeline: 2014

note: to clear up any confusion, the song arabella in this universe/series is based on a movie y/n did. + and also this format / layout is heavily inspired by my love @ithinkimokeei 🩶

masterlist!

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[thornswoggled]

yori is fumiki and heres why: my manifesto

or: wait, we werent all on the same page about this?

i should have written this when i first read chapter 98, but im only getting around to it now. this is less me trying to convince you, the reader, and more hoarding all my collected thoughts on why yori is absolutely fumiki, if its a red herring its a silly one, and if he isnt or if its left ambiguous forever i will eat crow. here we go:

before i start let me say most of my evidence is the way yamazaki frames him visually rather than solid "proof." comics are an artform, theres a reason things get framed the way they do, and her artistic choices in ch 98 (i feel) are meant to serve as a big blinking neon light that says "you should be feeling this way about xyz right now"

iic, there were rumblings of "the young auditor" being fumiki as far back as his introduction in ch 51 due to to his unique ability:

which is essentially a refined version of fumikis innate ability to keep fae away. we know yori is part of a "family business," and it seems appropriate that with the proper training, he would be able to freeze fae in their tracks rather than simply ward them off

unfortunately this is where "evidence" ends and "vibes" begin

chapter 51 didnt get adapted into what was otherwise a pretty faithful adaptation in season 2, and i understand why - theres a lot going on, and this chapter is fairly out of left field. but theres one other quip that got left out of season 2:

this is a one-off thought that wouldnt have been difficult to include in the anime. imo, i believe this line from ch 62 didnt get animated because we hadnt met fumiki yet like we did in the manga. now, onto more recent chapters... (under a read more because this is going to get pretty long)

chise and yoris first meeting is framed in a very purposeful way. in chapter 98, elias is preoccupied with ousting all the outsiders so that he and chise can be alone, stuck on the idea that "christmas is for family only:"

and three pages later, who do we meet?

im really struck by the way chise and yori are drawn together here. personally, i dont read this as "chise is meeting a new unimportant side character," this is "the strings of fate have pulled us miraculously back together again"

waiter! waiter! can i get an order of drifting sakura petals and sparkles with this panel? am i waxing poetic here or do you see it? the way theres no background drawn here, no other characters, even in later pages when we know elias is standing right behind chise, he doesnt get included in frame so that its just the two of them:

while im at it, can we appreciate how theyre wearing the same outfit? black pants and a hip-length dark coat/sweater with oversized pockets, a collar, and six left-sided buttons. yoris dark gloves also evoke chises cursed arm here but i dont want to risk looking like a maniac any more than i already do. i mean... dude, look at them, theyre matching

speaking of matching, lets pop back to 51 for a sec

both yori and chise have canine familiars! actually, it looks like yori might have multiple - look at all those pokeballs i mean bamboo tubes in his coat. if my memory serves, we didnt know yori was japanese at this point, but everyone assumed so because of the appearance of this familiar... which was another log on the "this might be fumiki" fire

fun fact: this little dude is almost certainly a kuda-kitsune, which were said to be kept in tubes and summoned by a soothsayer, who could use it to perform curses, or tell the past and future

and the drama with which we find out his "name":

"i bet you were expecting me to say fumiki, huh. good luck im not giving you that this early you have to work for it." as far as aliases go, "ri" could be derived from "hatori," but neither of the kanji in "fumiki" can be read as "yo," so its probably just random

after yori leaves, we get another repetition of "christmas is for family," which at this point feels like yamazaki is leading us to water and dunking our head in it:

i think its awfully convenient that ruth was absent for chises exchange with yori. do you think he would have been able to smell that theyre related? or whiffed the kuda-kitsune in his coat?

right after this, too, we get this line from elias which i have been thinking about a lot:

theres a few different ways this could be read, so im not married to any one interpretation, but it could be foreshadowing "if chise decides to pursue a relationship with her estranged family, what will i do then?" as gabriella would say, "i hate to be a third wheel"

given what we have seen of yoris aloof personality, i have to imagine there will be drama if/when the reveal is made. sadly i can picture him actually pushing chise away if she tries to reestablish a relationship with him

now! that is pretty much where my thoughts end, but i do want to share questions/doubts i have:

if yori read all of simons reports to determine he was an unfit observer, there is no way he doesnt know chises full name. i wonder whether he had any reaction to it? he may assume that its just a coincidence. i briefly wondered if the hatori name was an invention by yuuki, until i remembered that the family chise stays with in the OVA also has the same name. unless yuuki was adopted by another family like seth...? dont mind me, im going pepe silvia mode over here

have i mentioned i talked about yuuki before in another theory post? take it with a grain of salt, i already got proven wrong on one front now that jasper has been introduced

will yuuki be reintroduced if fumiki is? i desperately want chise to get that closure, but this scene from ch 42 has a sense of finality to it, a sort of "you will never get to resolve things with your father or see his side of things" stank:

... actually, now that ive mentioned the kuda-kitsune, can we look at this thing again?

another word for the kuda-kitsune is "izuna," which is read in modern japanese as "weasel." could the critter whos watching yuuki here come from the same place as yoris familiars? yuuki leaves his family immediately after this - getting summoned maybe?

okay, okay, let me stop myself here before i start looking like im ranting and raving. can we talk about the mail, please, mac? ive been dying to talk about the mail with you all day, ok? "pepe silvia," this name keeps coming up over and over again. every day pepe's mail is getting sent back to me. pepe silvia! pepe silvia! i look in the mail, and this whole box is pepe silvia!

if youre a fence-sitter, what are your thoughts? do you think we just dont have enough evidence yet? inquiring minds want to know

[movzxr]

small lil aiden theory on what could be why he acts the way he does. (no fastpass spoilers)

aiden could possibly be bipolar. NOW HEAR ME OUT ‼️‼️

im looking at the risk taking, decreased need for sleep, and elevated mood for this part.

We all know aiden is a CRAZY risk taker. Like when he jumped off the wall without using the rope, or when he immediately jumped on board with ashlyn about jumping the train without second thought. In the first few episodes he was barely even scared of the phantoms and was excited in a way. As its also stated he enjoys other risky activities in episode 6. He was also confirmed to have adhd (im not sure if that would play a part in the racing thoughts or rapid speech if it would go along with it pls tell me) He also was literally messing around with facepaint after he died rather then trying to help himself take care of his injuries with whatever he had around.

now im gonna look at the sleep disturbances, persistent sadness, feeling down or hopeless, and the part in the webtoon where tyler talks to him about how fast they recover could be based on mental state/health.

First of all he definitely had some sort of sleeping issues before all of the phantom stuff happened because he already had pretty dark circles under his eyes in the episode him and ashlyn first met on the bus. So, theres that panel of him when he was younger in episode 61 where he has what looks like a depression room and looks like hes depressed/having a depressive episode. Then in episode 90 he changes his whole expression in the bathroom while looking at himself in the mirror after taking out his contacts and seeing his roots coming in. In episode 91 tyler caught him in the mirror and then started talking about how long it takes to heal based on mental health status. Tyler points out how it only took a week for Aiden to heal and says "I took forever to recover because dying took a mental toll on me but you didn't care about dying at all did you?" Aiden cuts him off and make a silly joke as to try and cover the truth up??? He then says he liked the rush but didnt actually wanna die with his phantom self behind him saying liar.

guys i do NOT know where i was going with this. i look like i dont know what im talking about but pls yall hopefully get what im throwing out there.

[shreddeddescent]

Okay the thing about the fucked up au is that I have so many questions and I'm 100% sure that all of the answers will make me nauseous but I'm so fucking curious like how exactly did it happen was it when they were kids or what and was it an injection or did the Shredder threaten Leo with something and UGH I HATE THIS

YEAH YEAH NO I GET YOU. honestly im actually so glad to be asked? cuz a lot of this feels... ugh. like shameful? like everyone hates me for saying this? but the catharsis man... idk. its obviously fucked up, but its like. healing fucked up. so if anyone actually wants to know that feels good honestly, makes me feel less bad.

if youre okay with hearing about me be vague about the dark shit then here you go. still like. i really dont think i could post this as a real fic honestly it would be rated explicit for the bad reasons and its not good enough to warrant that. and its embarrassing. but ill post a snippet in here too of like howwwww everybodies doin in the middle of it

so warnings for. every fucking thing you can think of honestly. csa forced incest violence drugging etc. its bad.

no it was not injection im sorry to say. it was an intense drugging situation. the kids are fucking traumatized big time, hence the need for therapy. like the unavoidable need this time (ala... if april offered that before and splinter was like 'he can be okay enough to not warrant that for his own safety' this time there was no question they need help)

this isnt when they were kids, this is like current. 17 yr old raph andddd do the math backwards. shredder managed to kidnap raph and his brothers failed at a rescue mission to save him. woke up all in glass cages in stockman's lab in foot tower. stockman is there making them do it. hes got a special drug thing. hes monologuing about what hes gonna do with the offspring shredder lets him have. its dark. leo's basically keeping everybody sane by compartmentalizing the next steps of escape the whole time, but its... its daily. it makes a lot of raph's already somewhat obvious DID symptoms worse, as the first day he goes fucking comatose and wont speak or move while they do it, which donnie in particular feels like SHIT about, because raph is like... fucking asleep. so stays present the next day because of how shitty donnie said he felt. unfortunately shredder's there too and suddenly raph's behaving too obedient and like. the door is open and he doesnt try and leave. one of his brothers bites him hard enough he needs medical attention, but he's awake enough that he gets his hand on a screwdriver in stockman's pocket. but its in his cage, so you know.

actually feels like an important snippet here for how its going in there.

--

Raph lets out a breath and sits up straight.

“Is he gone for real?” He asks without looking up.

Leo eyes him carefully.

“What did you grab?”

Donnie and Mikey look over and Raph unfurls his fist.

It’s a screwdriver.

Leo grins.

“Perfect!”

Raph sighs and slumps back against the wall. “No good for me.” He fiddles with it in his hands. It’s pretty small. Unless he wanted to use it as a weapon, which was a bad idea. It was useless.

“Yeah, but good for Donnie. Right?”

He looked over at Donnie who was leaning towards him trying to get a look.

“It… could help me see if I can find the panel where the nanobots come out. Too big to directly try and mess with them.”

“It could also be used to jam in the tracks to let the doors open mid movement.” Leo added, pointing at the tracks on the ceiling.

“It would also look really good jammed into Stockman’s eye socket.” Mikey said darkly.

They all nodded at that.

Raph huffed and rested the back of his head against the wall.

Mikey whined. “But to get it to Donnie that’s… another day of this…”

They all were silent for a moment.

Leo lightly tapped the glass to get everyone's attention.

“Hey. It’s one more day, or forever. I’ll take one more instead.”

Raph idly touched the bandage on his neck, he saw Mikey recoil.

“I-I’m sorry Raph…”

He sighed and held his knees, squeezing the screwdriver in his fist.

“It’s fine… it’s not a big deal…”

“Raph… thanks for… saving me earlier…” Donnie mumbled.

He looked up at him.

“I didn’t do anything. Don’t worry about it.”

Donnie’s eyes were wet.

“I-I told you to stay awake… a-and then Shredder… I-I know you’re scared of him and I’m s-so sorry…”

Raph shot him a sad smirk.

“Hey, I got you back. I bit you. Call it even.”

Donnie touched his own neck where Raph had nipped him in the end. He’d been terrified of how anguished Donnie was about biting him in the first place, so felt he needed to ease his mind.

He would never tell him that though.

“Raph… I’m sorry I didn’t listen to you.” Leo was frowning at him.

“Psh, what are you talking about?”

“You… you told me not to egg dad on, I really didn’t think he’d…” he took a breath. “I’m sorry.”

Raph shrugged.

“I really thought you might leave, and I wouldn’t blame you. You should have just left while he was distracted and gotten Stockman. That was probably the smarter move.”

Leo’s brows furrowed and he slumped down against the glass, holding his hand against the glass in Raph's direction.

“I.. I thought about it, but I couldn’t let dad…”

“Rape me again.” He finished. “Yeah, I get it, you’re nice but it would have been better if he had.”

“You don’t mean that.”

Raph growled and shot up shakily, slamming his arms against the glass and glared wildly at him.

“Look at me Leo!” He shouted. They all went quiet and stared. “I’m not a person right now! I don’t have any needs or feelings! I’m the incubator! There’s no fucking point worrying about me!”

“Raph…” Mikey tried.

“No!” He shot Mikey a glare too. “Enough! Stop fucking looking at me the way you all are! It doesn’t matter in the short term okay?! You guys can’t keep worrying more about my feelings than getting out of here!”

Donnie whined and curled in tighter.

He turned to glare at him next.

“If you want me awake I’ll stay awake! If you need me to lead I’ll do it! I don’t care anymore! I don’t have any body autonomy! Don’t fucking think of me as a person I’m your JOB! The fucking bullshit day to day that doesn’t matter! What matters is getting out!”

“Raph…?” Leo says softly.

He shoots his glare back at Leo.

“I don’t care if the Shredder rapes me for hours, if you have a way to get out you take it and leave me to come back later! I DON'T CARE!!!!” He booms, slamming his fists on the glass. He slides down the wall, pressing his forehead against it and tapping it gently. “I-I don’t… I don’t care anymore…” he feels tears falling down his cheeks, he wasn’t aware he was crying.

They all just watched him sob against the door.

“Y-you… should eat, Raph…” Leo tried. “I.. I need you to be strong and ready for tomorrow, okay…?”

Raph put on a steely gaze and nodded, moving to the corner of the room where his paste had landed and opened it.

They all just watched him sadly. He could feel it.

“I’m not your brother right now. I’m your sister who’s dead. She doesn’t care what you do. When we get out you can apologize to me all you want, but right now? I’m dead and it doesn’t matter.”

“Okay Raph…” Mikey said.

“You… you can be asleep tomorrow Raph.” Donnie tried. “I-I’m sorry I made you not be…”

“No.” He said sharply. “No, I need to be present. I gotta bring you this.” He held up the screwdriver without looking behind him.

He tucked it back into his fist and squirted the paste into his mouth.

“Let’s all just hope I'm not pregnant so we have to go again. Or else we’re well and truly fucked. Or well… I guess I’m getting fucked either way. Whatever. You get what I mean.”

--

“He’s not okay…” Mikey said softly as he could so only Leo could hear him.

Leo stared at his backside as he ate and drank water, he was done talking to them for the day. It was fair.

Leo looked at Mikey, he looked utterly depressed as he stared at Raph.

“He compartmentalizes, you know that…�� Leo softly says back. “He’s doing that to survive first, worry later.

“This is going to break his brain forever if we don’t get out soon…”

Leo scoffed a little and lay down, scooping up his own container of paste and squirting some in his mouth.

“Raphs brain has always been broken, don’t worry.”

He saw Mikey glare at him.

He gulped back the tasteless slop hard and smiled apologetically.

“What I mean is he’s used to this kind of shit. It’s not gonna break him as bad as you think. He is the way he is cuz he knew about this before.”

“That really doesn’t make me feel better…”

“Just eat Mikey. We’ll be out of here tomorrow, I promise.”

“You can’t promise that…” he mumbled as he picked up his own food and idly nibbled at it.

Leo turned to look at Donnie, who was laying on the floor inspecting the nanobot grate, trying to see between the grooves.

He shuffled over to speak to him.

“Any ideas?”

“I think they’re a control hatch back there. The screwdriver will work, I’m sure. Then it’s just a matter of trying to program them.”

“You think you can do it?”

“I have to.” He said seriously.

Leo nodded solemnly, leaning into the corner. “You’re worried about Raph.”

“Obviously. I think it’s my fault.”

“If he was asleep he wouldn’t have the key. He’s right, we have to ignore our feelings to get out.”

Donnie huffed and sat up, taking a chug of the water provided.

“That’s what I’m trying to do.”

“Do… we think the misgendering is gonna get to his psyche?”

Donnie shrugged. “What else could go wrong with his psyche at this point? He’s so fucking used to this now. And not just from this, from before.”

Leo sighed and watched him across the room. He was chugging back his water.

“I didn’t know he was THAT fucked up.”

“You never asked. You guys fought all the time, for obvious reasons.”

“Obvious?” He turned to look at Donnie who stared at him like he was stupid.

“I mean. You literally took everything he had just cuz he was born wrong, in his eyes. And when we were younger you’d mock him for it. It made sense, cuz he was so mean to you and you didn’t know why, but… he fucking hates himself, he has ever since he hit puberty.”

Leo frowned and rubbed his arm.

“I… I didn’t know that… how did you know that..?”

“Cuz I pay attention. No one was ever looking at me, so I just tried to figure out what was going on.”

“So… this whole… being female thing is literally like… the thing he hates most?”

“Duh.”

“Jesus we need to get him out of here.”

“Again, duh.” Donnie was now swallowing back his paste.

Leo pressed his fists to his forehead.

“God I need to apologize to him…”

“Yeah, but not till we’re out. You heard him. He’s not Raph right now, don’t pull him back into this. Just do what he wants until we get out.”

Leo took a deep breath and sat up.

“Yeah. Yeah okay.”

--

the last day hes slash (before we or they know who slash is) and when leo gets in that cage with him that day it all gets worse, cuz slash knows every fucking thing about raph's traumas and he knows leo has fucked up somehow, and hes taking it out on him. and leo finally has to apologize for everything to calm him down. its kind of nuts.

but it was only a few days, and they do escape. and they uh are VERY blood thirsty afterwards, lot of fucking dead foot ninja. lot of laughing as they do it. they run into shredder during and raph finally fucking lets all that rage loose on the person who deserves it. we are talking about brains smashed in rage. we are talking THROWS his corpse in a fire and watches it burn. CATHARSIS.

they couldnt like. touch each other outside of... you know. hence the need to feel like overly affectionate with each other afterwards, hence raph spiralling about that, hence the blow up with splinter. he genuinely feels like a slut about it. and its hard. but like this is why the therapy big mama is giving them is good. thats why its so fucked up.

but obviously! they paid for her services somehow.

so. if you uhhhhh hated hearing all of that im sorry. again its not something i really wanna post in full, but jesus its my ownnnn fun fucked up little world where the characters are not okay but theyre gonna be.

[obrother1976]

can u make like. ur top 10 books. freak books. anything. kisses your brain

sure!! these r not gonna be ranked bc god knows i could never choose between them & also im gonna be annoying and ramble a bit about every one

death in venice by thomas mann (classic. but its so rich w metaphors and symbolism. if you do read it, i'd recommend reading "the uses of myth in death in venice" by isadore traschen afterwards, bc it does a great job explaining all the freudian allegories and mythological symbolism and u'll literally be tearing ur hair out afterwards over how brilliant thomas mann was)

the carnivorous lamb by agustín gómez-arcos (idc that i've already talked about this a gajillion times on here. its literally the best book i've ever read. i'll forever be obsessed and i wish there was literally anything that could ever hit as hard as this did. if u read it, anon (if u havent already) dont go through the carnivorous lamb tag on here bc u need to experience this without any big prior knowledge. trust me)

erotism: death and sensuality by george bataille (ik im just listing the classics atp. but how could i ever leave that one out. this ones a lot and depending on how into bataille & philosophy in general u are it could be too much. but if u havent already read this one anon, just read the introduction. trust me ure gonna loose it from that alone)

gemini by michel tournier (this one... took me ages to get through it on my first read bc of the way its written, but it was so worth it. not even gonna say much about this one - its basically like if twins by bari wood was good lmao)

incest: from a "journal of love": the unexpurgated diary of anais nin, 1932-1934 (or every anais nin diary ever in general, but this one especially. there was just no one that got it quite like she did)

indecent theology: theological perversions in sex, gender and politics by marcella althaus-reid (sorry for literally recommending theory. im pretty sure u were asking for fiction lol, but this (& althaus-reid in general) is everything to me. if u've any interest whatsoever in theology u should check this one out)

the sluts by dennis cooper (slightly controversial opinion i think? not that the book itself is controversial, just that dennis cooper is very hit and miss at times. this book tho, definite hit. its so intense and convoluted and i loved every second of it. read this before death and sensuality and u're guaranteed to think of nothing else for at least a month)

querelle of brest by jean genet ("those knock-out body fluids: blood, sperm, tears!". kind of a classic since theres also the fassbinder movie but i prefer the book tbh. its been a while since i've read it but it'll forever be in my favourites)

crash by j.g. ballard (yeah ik we've all seen crash but i need more ppl to read the book. hold on actually i need to insert one of my favourite bits from it here:

Reaching through the fractured windshields and passenger windows around me, I marked my semen on the oily instrument panels and binnacles, touching these wound areas at their most deformed points.)

ada, or ardor: a family chronicle by vladimir nabokov (one of the most beautiful books i've ever read. probably not the most helpful recommendation bc im pretty sure its a classic but i cant not mention it.)

also some bonus recommendations of books that didnt make the list bc they're either not freak books or bc i havent read them yet:

christopher and his kind by christopher isherwood (not a freak book. not even remotely. but will forever have a special place in my heart.)

the sparrow by maria doria russell (read this one anon!!! this would be on the list, but im not fully finished w it yet so i cant officially put it in my top 10 yet)

exquisite corpse by poppy z. brite (havent read that one yet but its on my list!!)

autobiography of red by anne carson (not a freak book. beautifully written, a work of art really)

as meat loves salt by maria mccann (havent read that one yet. hoping its as good as everyone says)

skagboys by irvine welsh (one thing about me is that i'll always find a way to mention the trainspotting books)

[brofightiscancelled]

yapping about how i approached translating karamatsu's brand new world. just discussing the localization liberties i took and other things i think are interesting. i just love yapping sorry

part 3/4 because i forgot about tumblr post image limits lol

CHAPTER 8

as you probably know if you watch anime, in japanese they say いっただきまーす before they eat a meal. english has no colloquial equivalent so they usually just translate it as "thanks for the meal!" because something like "down the hatch!" comes off as quite goofy and old-fashioned. luckily, THESE characters ARE goofy and old-fashioned, so i get to use it.

if it were solely up to me i think "cuz I'm the oldest" would've been a more natural english-speaking sibling thing to say here. but source material LOVES saying eldest so i left it as that

todomatsu says "you're kicking up dust" here. this is where cultural knowledge in translation is important.... i just kind of assumed that this is colloquially used the same way as "making a mess", but im not actually sure, this was just a guess. so i wish i had that cultural knowledge lol

admitting my weakness: i have no idea what bro was talking about here. i made my best guess based off what nonsense i could glean from this as well as the chinese fantranslation. sorry

admitting my whimsy: i had no reason to localize todomatsu into talking annoyingly here i just kinda wanted to. sorry

CHAPTER 9

the dialogue here is more literally "The one who showed me that was--". this doesn't sound that unnatural, and i probably could've stuck with it (if it was song lyrics i definitely wouldve gone with that lol), but i thought "something I learned from--" felt a bit more natural of a sentence to be cut off (i feel like an english speaker would say "ichimatsu was the one who showed me that", y'know?)

in the first panel, ichi says "let's go/return home". but it doesnt fit in this itty bitty speech bubble, and also is not quiiite as colloquial in english? (in this kind of casual context i think it would be more like "let's head out" yknow :?), so i just did "let's go". but then later he literally does say "let's go", which i can't use again, so i shifted this to "c'mon!" even though it's slightly less faithful of a translation for that phrase... but it's for da sake of the overall meaning. welcome to da translator's dilemma

personal pronoun moment! though the karamatsu we know and love uses オレ, a confident and bold personal pronoun, high school karamatsu uses 僕, a polite and reserved pronoun. again no english equivalent so this kind of subtlety in characterization is just kinda lost foreveerrrrr and needs to be made up in other ways

(as a side note ichi uses the same おれ pronoun in hs as in the current day, though. it fits his casual, laid-back high school personality and also his current low-energy, slacker personality. da versatility. very interesting)

a little look into my sick and twisted mind process

"remaining empty / will you be this way forever?"

remaining is too long to fit in this speech bubble, so im shortening it to "staying empty"

"will you be this way forever" doesn't sound very natural to me. "do you plan on" feels more direct and accusatory (as asserted by ichi's use of よ here) so let's use that

"do you plan on staying that way forever?" is a very nice sentence! but i already used "staying" in the first speech bubble. curses

the last thing ichi asked was "why are you still alive", and is about to say "just die", so i think bringing back "living" here wouldn't be too off-base, right? it's a similar meaning.... even though it wasnt insinuated in the text.....

it's fine no one will know

this translation is from the source material. but a bit of potential double meaning here that maybe was lost: 逆に means like, "on the contrary" or "conversely", so can mean something closer to, "(if you just plan on staying empty), you might as well just die instead!" which i think is a slightly different vibe than "actually" and is also neeeat

okay one more part to come just for chapter 10 i guess

part 1 / part 2 / part 3 / part 4

[rokurookajima]

for the character ask game!!

Raava:

19. How about a relationship they have in canon that you don't like?

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

26. What's something the character has done you can't get over? Be it something funny, bad, good, serious, whatever?

Vaatu:

5. What's the first song that comes to mind when you think about them?

18. How about a relationship they have in canon with another character that you admire?

23. Favorite picture of this character?

Wan:

3. Least favorite canon thing about this character?

25. What was your first impression of this character? How about now?

27. FREEBIE QUESTION!!

THANK U!! obv u knew who i wanted to talk about lmaooo

read more bc it’s yap city under here

raava !!!’

19. hmmm ok so many things hard to say about characters who got SO little screen time lmaoo. so i mean .. that would be the only thing i could dislike about any relationships she had - they didn’t get enough time. i would obv watch 1000 hours of just .. wan and raava existing, doing anything at all. but still ofc being their relationship to each other for the most development of any then .. that’s beside the point

i wish we got more of her relationships with vaatu and korra. i’d love to have seen more in depth exploration of her dynamic and existence with vaatu before they were separated, and also post-fusion, how his existence still affected her going forward. with korra, i love the few interactions we got to see between them but again i just wish we got MORE!!

25. ok the way i honestly don’t remember my FIRST first impression seeing her, but ofc i was uh. how do you say. deeply obsessed forever from the moment beginnings part 2 ended i knew that was something i was never gonna move on from (could’ve never expected the impact it would have on my literal whole entire life but that’s a whole other story lmaoo).

now? that is my fucking GIRL. my woman. i love her so much. i love the way her character has evolved for me over time (as i said in my OTHER ask answer also for her lol, with the small amount of canon time we got there was just always so much room for us to expand on that and i love all the ways that’s grown and changed and expanded in that time)

26. uhhhhh everything. i’ll never get over anything she’s ever done. she exists and i’m like holy shit are you guys seeing this??

vaatu!!! gay boy…..

5. ok agreeing with you that nightwish is absolutely his vibe. but otherwise not really any particular songs come to mind, but y’know… i should look into that more

18. so ofc.. ofc. again with the lack of screen time striking but 😮‍💨 i think all his relationships in canon are compelling in some way. with raava, there is so much narrative potential there to be unpacked

then ofc i’ve slept on this specific thought way too long, but nightmare as you posed in your tags the other day: considering how he must have felt about wan is SO good. the being that set him free later coming back to be the one that imprisoned him. that’s soooo 🤌🏼🤌🏼🤌🏼

i also think his relationship with unalaq is fascinating but exclusively through the lense that vaatu is the (for lack of better word) innocent one here; he is the victim of unalaq directly, the manipulated one, the one literally backed into a corner with no other way out. that’s juicy as hell

23. can i say my own fucking drawing lmaoo it’s the panel of him alone in the hvac comic…..

wan :’)

3. i’m going to speak my truth. i hate his fucking dumb ass goatee……

i would never draw him without it tho lmaoo it’s too much a staple of his character design it cannot be removed but it doesn’t mean i LIKE IT

(i hate like. most of the facial hair in all of avatar why did the mustache-less beards have such a grip on the character design.. the pointy ones and aang’s weird chinstrap it just all.. it doesn’t work for me IM SORRY)

25. i actually DO remember the very first image i saw of him and what i thought!! the summer before book 2 dropped when they first released some images from it (i think at comic con or something), that was when they announced they were going to address the avatar origin and showed a single imagine of wan (a screen cap from the air nomad village scene lmao yes i know that) and his name and i was like hm … not sure about this.

absolutely no way i expected him to be my specialest boy ever ESPECIALLY all these years later 😭😭😭 and now yes that just. is what he is to me. he’s the specialest boy ever. i love him an unfair amount he’s like a son to me

27. freebie!!! so i’m gonna say first song that comes to mind when i think about him

i have three (3) variations of waava playlists bc i’m insane (and it’s been 11 years come on) so ofc there are many but the number 1 wan specific song to me is king by lauren aquilina and YES i heard it for the first time in 2013 in a beginnings amv lmaoo so it just. from the start was associated with him but also just fits so well imo

[zerokissingbooth]

screwhill / bootllum sex headcanons

im a screwllum warrior first and foremost so this is like 80% driven on by my carnal want for him. also these are just edited discord messages. these are nsfw

if i see u are ageless or a minor liking or reblogging this i will block u and then delete this post. forever. i am not joking.

its screwllum who makes the first few flirtatious moves- asking boothill about his modifications, what specific functions he has that arent human, etc. hes really fascinated esp since he's had his own sort of body overhaul himself. boothill probably starts feeling for him first and makes more offers to hang around whenever they cross paths and go for drinks. at some point screwllum sees boothill struggling to do some minor self repairs and offers to help and its like lowkey edging for boothill bc hes horny due to gentleman robot not giving a fuck ab his accent his bounty or whatever but also screwllum being like a whole hand in with wires near his torso. screwllum asks if he's ever had sex as a cyborg and boothill says somewhat and screwllums like Well do you want to see how we inorganics copulate? and boothill gets so hard he audibly lets out static

sex wise it can go 50/50. theyre both switches and both okay with being the dom or sub in the bedroom. i think screwllum prefers being dom just bc he likes observing but he wont say no if boothill wants to wirebang him

boothill learns ab screwllums 'sir' kink and likewise screwllum finds out boothill Really enjoys seeing his clothes on screwllum

so they both really REALLY love wireplay. a lot. boothill especially likes making screwllum become a mess just from messing with a few exposed panels.

when boothill is topping or whatever he loves like. mean praise. like not degredation but he looooves reminding screwy that hes a genius and a leader of an entire planet and yet he loves being turned into a mushy cpu by a wanted cowoby

boothill prefers riding (he makes cowboy jokes the entire time) whenever they both use genital attachments and screwy likes missionary bc he likes watching boothills expressions

ok this is moreso a personal general robofucking hc but each conscious cyborg or robot or whatever has a bluetooth like ability where they dont need to really 'plug in' their attachments. this makes it easier for charging stuff and for less port space. however this also means for stuff like genitalia attachments if left on their partners can make it REALLY easy to edge them or even overstim them. when theyre sexting one of them (screwllum most of the time) will take advantage of this and start basically edging boothill when he's on the low somewhere. its a game of patience to see how long boothill takes until he goes hopping to the nearest shuttle to get him back (the bluetooth function also allows them not to have to 'pack' anything persay)

boothill usually takes initiative in the bedroom but when screwllum wants to tease he will be the first to do it. and everyone around them who knows theyre dating or fucking loathes it bc its so easy to instantly tell when boothill is getting flustered or aroused. when boothill is topping or in charge or whatever its a lot of fingering and rough touching

[skunkes]

how was the artist alley? im not big on most of the events so thats like 90% of my time spent at san japan when i go LOL

It was pretty good! Thats actually all a con is to me too I rly dont care abt anything else I didnt even know there were panels or whatever...

Id never been to a con before and to me the area looked "small" but it took us forever to go up and down and see everything (even if i ultimately only bought a few things since I only have like one "fandom" i care about (right now) wee hee)....and i might even return for more stuff now that I saw everything (we were too tired to go thru it all again after the first pass)...some very good merch and artists yey

[en-djinn]

It won't show me which blog im asking this from so alas i shall simply ask anon, but for a request, perhaps more cancerverse star lord with his magus if u like? Ive become quite fond of the idea ever since i saw your take on cancerverse star lord 😁

Truly no pressure though, i love your art regardless.

well u requested something i was absolutely 100% going to do anyway so i have to put it on hold cz i was waiting until i come up with a good cancerverse magus design, since itd be a bit boring if it looked exactly the same when i can do fun cosmic horror stuff instead. especially since he is. The Great Hungerer, so to speak. (im also a huge cosmic horror nerd which is why i kinda fell in love w cancerverse ToT)

SO! expect more. i was gonna do it anyway bt now i prommy. i just gotta think abt design stuff first. bt i will give u a bone and say some of the stuff ive been thinking abt wrt it coz Boy have i been thinking.

first of all i didnt actually read the nova stuff w it so i am missing some info for sure and i dont think theres a ton of it anyway? and im not familiar w wider marvel lore AT ALL coz i legit didnt even know what the difference between marvel and dc was before starting rivals and having my sister explain it all to me LOL. ive ONLY read gotg and warlock comics. i wanna read up all the stuff tht has cancerverse in it and abt the. outer/old god cosmology if there is any more of it cz i love that stuff anyway.

however. when i was looking up visual references for the starlord design there was a few things i thought were interesting. first is that its rly going for an old medieval sort of vibe mostly, i think. since captain america has an old style heater shield and ironman is literally in a suit of knight armour (it all reminds me a lot of the vampire skins in rivals tbh), and captain marvel straight up looks like a dracula with wine glasses and all. i rly couldnt think of a way to translate that well to starlord since hes so... contemporary, sort of, and ofc he uses guns sooo. i didnt know how to mix that in. instead i went for full cosmic horror since thats more my style and its a big part of it anyway. now heres smth else about me: i believe in the machine vs flesh transhumanism/gender dichotomy and i have always fallen on the side of flesh. as the adeptus mechanicus would say 'the purity of the blessed machine', but as *I* (or tyranids. obligatory yes im a 40k fan. my last artblog was 40k art only almost LOL) would say 'the evolution of the flesh'. which is to say, machine transhumanism is about reliability and stability, but flesh transhumanism is about fluidity and adapting to ur surroundings. smth like that. anyway i think that was ummmmmmm kind of a tangent oops.

MY POINT was that i love necromancy and undeath and weird genetic freakthings because to me they r all about Life. i think necromancy should be life domain, not death. so a world where death is Gone conceptually and life remains to grow and grow and grow and eat and evolve forever is ENDLESSLY fascinating to me. its like, so how do you use the nonliving parts with the living parts. how do these things come to life and start breathing.

^ i am in love w this panel frm the nova comic. even the earth is alive and hungry. <333333333333333 soooooo so so so good.

so thats why i made starlords design more fleshy and less ye olde halloween, it makes sense for magus to be further into the untamed growth side of it anyway and if cancerverse starlord is with it all the way then theyd share those traits. his mask would become a natural growth and attach itself to his face parasitically, or symbiotically i guess, it grows its own eyes and the respiration tubes become an actual respiratory system that writhes on its own and connects to peter's own fleshy lungs. his guns become 'hungry for ammo' and form mouths around the little battery thingums and start slobbering when he needs to cool them off/reload. and theyre connected to his hands with more tentacles/tubes so he cant ever truly put them down coz theyre part of him now. i wanted to do more freaky shit like that bt i was struggling for ideas past that honestly since peter is just. a regular dude. no superpowers or anything to riff off. bt i do think his jetboots would be fully integrated inside his own legs now too, the flesh having grown around them and absorbed them inside and stuff. maybe even his cassette player is part of his body too, like i had the headphones permanently attached to his head.

so i have to think of stuff like that for magus now. i have a few ideas bt nothing solid rn but itll come to me eventually, it never usually takes too long. designing stuff like this is my fav part abt art, since i dont actually enjoy the process of drawing itself. i will probably 100% lean into the caterpillar stuff for magus tho coz im in looooove with it, i love adam being a weird bug. post-cocoon metamorphosis adam... fully transformed into the creature he was meant to be, or something. but magus is also vain so i think itd still care abt its appearance. ill think of smth

actually im adding this on bt i thought it was funny tht when magus swears here hes referencing lovecraft anyway LOL, idk if theres a precedent fr this in universe or anything tho

(from the thanos imperative: ignition)

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indy !! hi :3 whats you opinion about supernatural ?? im currently on season 6 :>

this is crazy but you sent this in and i read this right exactly when i was thinking about supernatural for the first time in forever. so one of us is psychic

i used to be rly into supernatural. had their merch, wanted to go to one of their panels, read a lot of fanfic, wrote some fanfic myself, had a blog dedicated to it that i rarely kept up with, had an oc for it

dean was my favorite character and he had so many talented smut writers for him i wish i still knew their @'s. had a huge soft spot for demon!dean in particular 🥴

i honestly thought the series went rly downhill about the middle, but i didn't mind continuing to watch cos it was still pretty entertaining. i think i finished season 13 and didn't bother with the last two

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okay this is going to be a little tough since i already perused the untranslated chapter, made my own assumptions about it, and then read the scanlations of other folks.... but here we go anyway, 109 time, giddy up

"fluttered" is a really cute way to put it

dog elias is so fucking big. hes like a giant horse. he has to lay down so they can climb on him. jesus christ. fucking catbus looking ass

yamazaki is getting more and more comfortable drawing elias' head as just a box. i think its cute and i will always support her cutting corners. draw her - i mean him as a squiggle girl i dont care. that was not a gag btw my first instinct was to call elias a her and i felt i should own it

so his name is alan. im pretty bad at reading katakana so i read it as aaron when i was skimming thru

chise loves momming lucy its saur cute and silly

^^ thats all

"im going wherever elias is going." i really hate the machine translation but this is a cute way to phrase it too. yeah my husbandteacher doesnt really rock with kids and he will crash out if he has to be alone so i guess im going too

philomela cannot violate her parole

when yamazaki decides to give ruth dialogue at least its always really funny. "yeah dw we would just have to. kill zoey." i mean he was on team child sacrifice so are we surprised

i think its funny elias wears a scarf when its cold even if he doesnt feel temperature. maybe hes copying, maybe enough people have asked him "aReNt YoU cOlD???" that it got annoying. maybe both

"ive never taken such a long trip before" okay well not. maybe not technically true. but you probably hitched a direct flight to london so the length was longer in mileage but not in time (did seth have a private jet? i bet so)

i would like to see a comic of their DAAAAYS??? DAAAAYS??? at the checkpoint. reminds me of writing ruth in she who travels being miserable hiding in chises shadow for the duration of her flight back to japan. zoey lives in the caucasus mountains, right? i wonder where they would be that it would take so long to travel like that. sounds strict. maybe azerbaijan? i know elias was pissed. chise was probably like :D im in a different country :D :D :D

shes sooo happy talking about how it took forever for them to get there. shes a globetrotter

if you think about it the translation got stuck at a checkpoint too. its more immersive

im desperate to know how chise got a passport. mundane things like this are of the utmost importance to me

ohhh so the checkpoint was a conclave thing? wait. did they. did it also take days because elias is under conclave surveillance. did they have to make sure it was allowed for him to be there. probably not im reading into it too far

"spring-morningstar" okay maybe not the most flowy of translations but i get it i guess. i will reword it in my head. thats fine

while skimming i thought lucy was like. kneeling to his mom respectfully but now i notice shes just tired from climbing. thats a charming detail, how zoey is able to sprint up the stairs because hes used to it. i imagine chise is okay because 1) dragon strength and 2) japan has hella stairs. source: it is known

why did i think that middle panel was alan tipping elias two (2) coins for traveling with them

"their translations arent always trustworthy, and its downright unintelligible sometimes" presented without comment

if its one thing yamazakis gonna do its design a charming rustic cottage interior

"shes been looking forward to your return" I KNEW IT WAS AN OLD BIDDY YAMAZAKI LOVES OLD BIDDIES SHES ADDICTED TO GRANNIES

so is "dry white swamp" zoeys name in the gorgan language or

no, no its not

these names do not roll off the tongue. thats english for you

"dropped as an egg" help lucy is so funny

no wonder zoey and chise get along so well. their relationships with their respective peers while growing up were very similar. they both know what its like to get shoved around so they are both very gentle and understanding with each other (zoey crashing out about her smelling weird when they met notwithstanding)

elder: do you think you guys are going to be all right with rice and dried fish chise:

his wings grew so nice and pretty :) i know growing those feathers was itchy as fuuuuuck rubbing against door frames and shit like a bear

yamazaki. girl. the snakes and vore are supposed to be reserved for ghost + witch youre letting it bleed into tamb

you could compare robinthorn to this she-snake and human man if you wanted to

zoey wondering if he has to stay in the village and wanting to maintain his relationships outside... you could apply this to chise too. both in terms of wanting to maintain independence outside of her relationship w/ elias but also with the future arc i HOPE she gets one day

elias has so few lines its killing me. more of this

chise instantly turning to lucy in excitement at the idea of a party. i want to squeeze her like a stress ball

lucy is the strongest soldier in the idgaf army so im not shocked shes fine with also sleeping on dog elias but like. god. i need someone to ask chise what she meant by her and elias "sort of" having an "intimate relationship"

dog elias stands up and lucy just. falls over and conks her head

elias is familiar with this beat given he grew up with lindel

him looking at chise taking zoeys moms hand like o_o im telling you he only hates it when she gets attention from women and girls. he KNOWS bro

"they have everything we need" well not really your husband already said you need supplies from outside, but i get what you mean

"why did you marry alan" i thought it was elias' job to awkwardly ask adults why they married people

i like how yamazaki drew their boots disappearing in the snow

yeah this is very much giving "why did you marry david, angie" we all know youre trying to find an answer to your situationship by observing other people. the terrible news is that everyone on earth is different. WOE

oh look we got a little glimmer of actually-rendered elias skull

i am still a little torn on whether this attacker is one of his bullies, like as a test or something, or if the person who attacked them with eyeball monsters followed them all the way out here. maybe a red-red-herring?

well i think the plot right now is at risk of being a little bloated but what am i going to do, NOT read it? i think a lot of this can tie back in to yamazakis habit of using side characters to foreshadow chises future or compare her to others. red dragon who? anyway. thats her officer, thats the mangaka who keeps focusing on side characters, dont let her get away