#im going to eat too much sodium and die

[shirtshawaiian]

hey do you like garlic and onions i can not tell

perchance

[batz]

lol safeways closed nd im close to digging into my savings just to eat some damn food today bc who needs a proper bed when u can actually have vegetables fr the first time in a week

[violenceeisgolden]

Tmi/tw/an update

Had such strong cravings for alcohol/such strong urges to say "fuck my health, I'm already fucked, lets fucking lose all this weight you gained in recovery, buy some adderall and vodka and allllll the opiates in the world and at least enjoy however many shitty yrs you have left" except like ???? Okay, so my private insta kept !! Getting !! Fucking deleted !! Idk why, like yeahh i bitch about my drug problems and my mental illness but i have never shared a triggering picture? Meanwhile all these accts with people fkn shooting up are still up? Huh what a concept So anyway, i was thinking of making a side blog. Or i could just vent on here i guess but posting on my side blogs sounds safer. Damn. Been out of the Tumblr world for a while now. Anyway, since it's quite clear that I don't care about a fkn thing anymore... lemme give you all a lil update on the joke that is my life. This one's gonna be EPIC. So. Uh. First things first... I made it five days without any form of any opiate in my system. I did not eat anything in those 5 days. (Wanna lose weight?! Just get addicted to painkillers and develop crohns, then quit your painkillers cold turkey!!! You'll drop 10 lbs in a week!) I did not keep many fluids down, aside from the days when i was in the hospital. I was shitting and puking blood by the fourth day, because my body had nothing left in it to get out. I still smell like the stench of withdrawal - aka, overpowering body odor, desperation, sadness, guilt... etc. On the fourth day, my "stool" was nothing but black and blood.. I knew my potassium was low, not including sodium, etc. Was starting to get chest pains. Blah blah blah. IST was acting up. Whatever. I knew I had no choice but to go to my shitty hometown clinic (and... yeah i hate NOTHING more than that fucking place). Luckily, I got this cool 1st shift dr who appreciated my extensive knowledge of my esophageal and colonic conditions. She also gave me morphine. But I mean, 4mg through an IV is like... nothing. But.. that fucking rush. Whenever I get IV narcotics in hospitals, it's a nice reminder for me to forever stay tf away from needles. Anywhoooo Moving along. So i got some fluids/potassium, two of my veins are dead now (not even bc of drug use, as i stated above.. legitimately because I've had one too many IVs placed or wtf ever) so they had to stick me a million and one times and i was like :))))) yeahhhh keep causing more pain guys because ya know. I can just fucking take it obviously!!! And then.. this bitch drops the bomb that i realllyyyyy have been hoping was NOT true for like... ya know... a fucking year... that... okay fuck it, you guys all know i am a shit person anyway, lets add onto it.. anyway yeah. I have herpes. And my HPV is progressing. Still dunno about those cancerous cells bc no one tells ME ANYTHING but she said i have a severe pelvic infection that is travelling towards my liver. So they're like "lets do a REALLY intense course of antibiotics" and im like ??? Fucking a man im getting mad just writing this all out. Anyway i was like uhm. How tf am i supposed to keep down antibiotics when i CAN'T EVEN KEEP DOWN WATER THAT IS WHY I'M FUCKING HERE JFCCCC. And they were like "yeah we're aware but you legit do not have a choice" bc yeah, don't want my liver to go downhill (I've been such a lil fuck to my drs lately.... could not care less tho bc they deserve my bluntness) so i called my new case worker (she is super chill, super gay, lets me swear and call my drs fuckers as much as i want, which is dope) and basically explained, she said she's gonna try and get me back on subs legally so i can at least nourish myself and keep my health up (ill still be in pain but I'm learning that id rather have my body not slowly dying and be in pain... what a cool sacrifice. I also was like... "Hey yeah no hospital is gonna admit me rn... and my health is worse now than it was in '14 when i weighed 60 lbs less so like... I'm going to use street subs. Or opiates in general. For a few days. So i can get my electrolytes back somehow... also did i mention i have herpes? *bawling ensues* anywhooo... Just thought I'd let you know." And she was like "Fair enough. You need to eat." And i was like okay cool tell my dr and his bitchy nurse that usually replies to my messages bc i do not need anymore fucking stigma rn .. okay? Tyvm" so that was.. that i guess. So yeah. I used. On day 5. And... i didn't even truly fucking want to. That's the worst fucking part of this whole fucked up bullshit... I WANT TO PROVE EVERYONE WRONG AND SHOW THEM THAT I CAN DO THIS. And i could have. If it wasn't for my poor health... i fucking could have. And I'm gonna tell that to my pdoc when I see him. But you know what? I fucking ate. I kept down a loooottttt of liquids. Opiate wds technically cannot kill you. And the thing is... I've been through the "near fatal" ones (booze and benzos)... but I always caught my alcohol dts super fast, got treated and then away i went. But no. Opiate withdrawals will not be dangerous~~~..... to a person who is in decent health. I say decent bc lbs if you're using them either legally or illegally, something is already prob wrong lol. I remember a story that my ex sponsor who is now a good but distant friend (who relapsed, and when she relapsed, we became close lol shes sober now tho dw) told me once about opiate dts... she said one of her friends was so dehydrated, malnourished, etc... that he almost did die. And it took him almost dying for anyone to take him seriously. And, as I was laying in that miserable hospital bed... I remembered that. Opiate wds cannot kill you, but you're gonna wanna a) kill yourself, because it's honestly fucking easier that way (or so your mind will tell you) and b) if you're in poor health... try and find a detox center/hospital that will take you. ASAP. On tuesday... fuck i lost my train of thought... (in other news, i now have a promethazine script and... boy oh boy lol probably the best non naroticc/not scjeduled drug I've ever gotten my grubby lil hands on)... yeah idk that's all I publicly got rn. If you actually read all this... 👀 @ you, Ashley, bc ik you're the only one who reads my shit on here anymore (love you for that, btw 💜)... but yeah if you read this all, you guys are the real MVPs... I'm gonna start using one of my private blogs on here. Mainly because..welll...its fucking private and also really enjoy the fact that i saved the URL "clonqz3pain" so... yeah that's all I got. Hope you all are doing better than me.

[willscanceradventure]

i dont think week 2 is fully done but i’ll just make these whenever

im a very busy man, there’s still air to breathe in this room and i have to speedrun my way through all these side effects

my med breakdown:

day 6-8: in the morning a steroid, two blood thinners, anti-hiccup, anti-nausea, tylenol + my other dailies, afternoon hgh, at night two blood thinners, anti-hiccup, anti-nausea, claritin, and before bed the stronger anti-nausea

day 9-10-11: same but no more steroid

day 12-onward: same but no more steroid, no hgh, so no claritin, and only one blood thinner each time

so wednesday is when i stopped going in for the hgh shot, because the insurance company still hasnt approved an at-home version. when I asked what the progress was on that, she said she had no way of knowing, it wasn’t her department (???) when i told her “im getting this stuff one way or another because its my whole immune system so do you you have any safe transportation at least?” she said she couldnt make any promises. and then when i said “thats cool but if i get the virus i die so you need to figure it out because failing to actually get me the meds wont work here” she said she understood. i dont think she understood any of it.

Monday night i had some Wingstop wings my brother brought home. The hot flavor is not hot whatsoever, there’s literally no spice on it. The cajun was pretty good. So the next day i ordered more of the hotter flavor up, and two things happened: the spiciness wasn’t much, but it ruined my stomach the whole rest of the day, and it tasted like soap. so now i have to stay away from spicy foods and this saddens me greatly. and if something tastes like soap, stop eating it. and the wings were like a dollar each, dont go to wingstop.

i took a thing called greencar to the hospital for the shot, it was $16.50 each 7-minute trip and they were all teslas. the first guy was very cool, 10/10. the second lady did not wear a mask until i asked, did not know she was picking me up from the hospital, and gave me a sermon on how the virus isnt over yet.

tuesday evening I felt so tired that i slept through dinner, then because i was so tired, didnt want to make dinner, which made me more tired. at 10pm i made ramen. low sodium ramen tastes like shit, so i added salt. no change in taste at all, until i got to Too Much Salt. and my mouth was numb. fruit, it turns out, is my best friend. I can taste fruit and each as much of it as i want. so i had half a quarter of a cantaloupe.

wednesday i am still too exhausted to move. this is a problem because i have to take an uber to the hospital (their price is $20 roundtrip) and this seems like the biggest mountain in the world. so i call the number for the uw cancer nurse desk and they ask pull up my med schedule and give me some advice: if you just sit there you’re gonna get weaker. so you gotta get up and stand and make food and take meds otherwise its gonna be way harder the longer you sit there. that seemed like the easiest thing in the world to me, so i took a break after the call for an hour where i stared at the ceiling in my bed and then i did all those things.

most of wednesday was just laying in bed doing nothing, which is a side effect of the hgh + actual pain in your bones. i had twenty strawberries for dinner.

now ive got this nagging cough that freaks people out but is really just from the one chemo that inflames my lungs. my parents came over on sunday and monday because my dad wanted to see the chemo appointments. i am literally shedding hair, but not enough to pull out fist fulls. every side effect is a surprise. i cant lay on my left side because it feels like my lungs are grinding against the tumor, which they are. these are busy days and i am working hard.

[trendyelle]

What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a matured adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you accept the daily strive that is doing whatever the fuck you miss while also wanting to have a great mas and great scalp. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Superintendents Ball but too look 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did expend the weekend going through mimosas like water and chewing enough food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a new me. A better me. A me who introduces actual vitamins and minerals into her arrangement so her surface doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she feed last night. So heres a schedule of meat you should evade like an ex-boyfriend sliding into your DMs and foods you are able to hug because theyll cook your fucking heads. Damn, Ive get bars. DONT: Chew Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even chews canned meat anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird obsession with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a red-faced fucking flag that this child was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in their own homes and effects your body to hold on to sea, which is why your look is always puffy or you have bags under your eyes that can be seen from cavity, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be objectionable on Instagram, gobbling salmon is a sure room to get better gazing surface. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty acids and healthy fattens. These paunches fortify cell layers and nourish the surface to impede you ogling fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol exactly because you regularly tell shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre drinking to purify your organization are actually truly fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the light-green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear surface. ^ I reckon every fitstagrammer when the find out they’ve been spouting liquid carbohydrate into their temples bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the red-hot tutor at your gym, protein smoothies can actually be beneficial for your surface. The more you know. Bide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These the different types of smoothies are high in healthy fatties and wont leave your surface gazing more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I visualized entering. Good-for-nothing that tastes this good can be anything but destruction on your figure. And since Im not on my age rn in control of my body I suspect Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can organize this fun stuff called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your mas. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with “the worlds largest” are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy searching. So mostly devouring ice cream is aging you.* steps into oncoming transaction* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So even though it flavours health and the whole meter youll be bidding you were devouring real chocolate with real flavor at the least your surface will examine good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick gag. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you likewise want me to commit homicide the next time person replies everyone to a department email chain? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my psyche around because coffee is literally one of the only concludes I get out of bed in the morning, and consequently, the same reasons you get to experience this shining identity. That tell me anything, coffee is a diuretic( fake information Im sure !) which causes your form to lose sea and your surface to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you miss glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republicans plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of booze hot lemon ocean know it sounds as seducing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and presents some much needed support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of toxins boozing on epoches that point in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by such lists. Like, is person looking at my bank word and be careful to ensure that I waste a large amount of my down time in coffee shop and/ or bagel browses? Because Im find truly assaulted rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your scalp and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for epoches.* prays this is bogus information* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably deprived than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the price we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right various kinds of carbs probs because it looks miserable to eat and likewise because its high in antioxidants which weve installed will not only give you clear/ glowy scalp but too battles against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To absolutely no ones bombshell except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my merriment, soda is good for you. And only because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda especially interrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your bowel. Likewise drinking any sort of soda are actually fuck with your scalp. Like, reason rosacea, eczema, and acne fuck with your skin. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Also, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant merely booze vodka straight-shooting. I want to have clearer skin , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that examines good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my skin. About damn time. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all their own lives questions. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you require clear scalp by the time this weekend’s brunch rosters around then chug some of this and simulate like its alcohol something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you rapture is likely fucking up your scalp and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not acquire the roster, but thats mainly because I refused to do any actual research that they are able to attest otherwise. Who says you cant make your own destiny? Listen, if all else miscarries and you have no self hold dont want to relinquish your prosperity theres ever Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-43/

[somedaypast-thesunset]

you know whats unhealthy?

being made to be upset before 7am about things which are projections of the issues someone has with themselves and needs to find something or someone to blame for their own problem because admitting it is their own problem would be admitting a fault in themselves. 

you know? thats the lack of stability. 

he told me to make a list of my problems. i felt like maybe he should make a list of my problems because he seems to have a different list than i do. 

heres what i know:

a) i have very fast metabolism to the point i need to eat frequently throughout the day in order to feel super super on top amazng healthy. i cannot afford to eat healthier or as frequently as i want to. this leads to buying lower quality food to try and buy “bulk” amounts to last longer or things with “empty” calories just for sustenance. i occassionally buy fresh vegetables and fruits but they are not a good investment when you’re poor. period. a box of rice costs 1.99. three apples cost about the same. can you eat 3 apples for a meal? a very frequent problem is not being able to afford to eat alot in the day and then getting a meal at the end of the day from his home but only being served ridiculously small portions. i’m grateful for anything at all but it’s not enough for me to not feel hungry afterwards. 

however when we eat snacks in the evening and sleep on it, my normal very fast metabolism is not active. this has caused me to put on 10 extra pounds that i have not carried in at least 5 years. what can i do? i dont have alot of options at my disposal. 

b) rheumatoid arthritis runs in my family. this is an autoimmune disease. this means that the genetic line in my background dictates that the dna that makes up my body is suspcetible to creating a being with weaker joints because the body itself - not by injury, activity, or lack there of, is attacking the joints. being prone to having weaker joints means that it is important to strengthen and stretch and be active however it also means knowing that you have some physical limitations in your activity. maybe your activity will be like 30 minutes instead of an hour. but it’s still being active. 

one of the biggest issues i have by far are very weak knees. well .. i think thats actually the wrong word to describe the issue. that automatically implies that i need to strengthen my knees. my knees have painful joints that are unable to maintain repetitive motions such as cycling or walking for long periods of time. maybe a knee brace would help not create so much stress and tear on joints and ligaments that are natually inclined to wear quickly but those cost _money_. 

additionally, i can continue being active after a break. like i can do 20 minutes of very good, heart pumping activity with repetitive motions but then i need a break because its very painful and stressed and once its able to relax, it’s good to go. i don’t think this implies i’m unable to be active. i think this implies that i have a moderate activity level right now that is equal to how much nutrition i get and the expecations i have during activity.

c) i smoke cigarettes. sucks. i dont do chemical or pharmaceutical drugs. i maybe do shrooms once every few years. i smoke weed. i have never been addicted to chemical or pharmaceutical drugs in my life. i have never injected drugs in my life. i have never smoked chemical drugs. i have inhaled drugs probably 7 - 10 times in my lifetime. i only casually drink alcohol and have only drank to excess maybe 7 - 10 times in my ife where i’ve vomited or had a hangover. i have maybe 10 beers over the course of 4 - 6 months at a time. that’s the lvel of “casually drinking” i have. i almost never drink mixed alcohol anymore but used to drink on a more frequent basis and drank orange juice with vodka primarily. so guess what? despite the obvious ill effects that smoking has had on all of my organs, i probably havent created any additional issues to my major organs by doing any of these things. i have not created any stress on my heart or my liver. 

but i do smoke. and that is legitimately the worst thing i do in my life in terms of harming myself or being unhealthy. absolutely nothing in my lifestyle is more unhealthy than smoking. in no way what so ever do i deny the effects smoking has. it is very very bad. not only do i have some breathing issues naturally to begin with including asthma and apnea but i am now putting layers of toxic tar on top of my lungs and much of it admittedly has been unfiltered for almost 10 years and have ben low quality tobacco. not that higher quality is necessarily better but lower seems like its probably even worse. probably like even more random chemicals they dont write anywhere. ive pulled out like pieces of wood from cigarettes before. my dad rolled his own for a long time as well. it’s bad. it’s totally completely bad.

this is going to cause negative side effects in my life in the future. for sure. will i get cancer? maybe. it doesnt run in my family but maybe? lymphoma? copd? sounds like it could maybe happen but again, genetically i’m not pre-disposed but i can cause it by smoking regardless. everyone in my family smokes. they did not age super well in terms of like.. visually. and mentally theyre totally fuked up. but physically theyre oddly in decent shape. like theyre all still moderately active people capable of doing things in their 50s and 60s which is probably a decent sign they’ll be moderately mobile in their 70s and 80s. 

d) depression is the NUMBER ONE DISEASE THAT RUNS IN MY FAMILY ON BOTH SIDES. VERy SErIOUS CLINICAL DEPRESSION WHICH GOeS UNTREATED FOR YEARS IF NOT DECADES. my uncle shot himself in the stomach with his kids in the next room and he was not even blood related. thats how much depression runs in this family. we attract more depression. and it’s not just depression but i’m going to use it as a blanket term because to simplify the pain of this generational experience its that everyone deeply suffers from depression as a disease and not as just like.. a way to describe a deep sadness. a good number of people in my family who are my age but third generation are on drugs. you can clearly tell. my cousin lives in a hospital for huffing glue as a teenager and hes like an old man now. the matriarch on my fathers side literally jujust abandoned all of her children. just peaced the fuck out. literally. thats fucked! 

but what we have to KNOW - we HAVE to KNOW that depression is a disease in this family. trauma is accepted and depression is a genetic disease passed down. if we dont KNOW this then we’re fucked. we’re all fucked. you have to know the enemy. you have to know what youre fighting in order to win. many people so far have passed because of a heart attack or diabetic complications. however the more and more i think about it (which is a lot. like everyday.) my father died of depression. he had zero will to live anymore and its lke.. he had guilt for that because i was there and i was a good kid who didnt do anything but try to help him but he had no will to live. it wasn’t selfish either - he gave me everything he could but he had absolutely no desire to carry on in life and he made harmful choices over and over again partially out of being stubborn, partially because he just did not care. he told me many times that he was WAITING TO DIE. my own father. and do you know what i replied? “i know dad. i’m waiting to die too.” and you know what he said? nothing. nothing. we just existed in silent empathy of eachother - understanding. 

depression will absolutely kill me before any disease does if i do not get taken out by a random heart attack which honestly i am terrible at eating salt in moderation so i feel like im more likely to have like a sodium related issue that in combination with smoking would lead to a random heart attack. but i would never, in my opinion, knock on wood, suffer from a long term disease because i already do and depression will totally kill me way before anything else. right now, at 27, i can see me going until 40. maybe. MAYBE. ive already done 27 years. but the next 10 are going to be fucked. totally fucked. and if i make it until 40 then wow. wowwww. 

e) i am very .. easily persuaded in regards to someone telling me an observation they have about me. i have experienced trauma numerous times by multiple people which has created a personality flaw that leads to very serious emotional & mental instability with how i perceive myself and what i know and what i’ve seen. this is not a “disorder”. this is not an “illness”. this is a personality flaw which has been created through life experiences. essentially, by listening to other people amd choosing to believe them over what i legitimately know to be true is one way of choosing to harm myself. i am “doing it to myself” even though these people could be being assholes at the time. but i am not capable of immediately filtering and having the confidence in what i know - because it’s been questioned so often i question my literal sanity and reality of the world on an hourly basis - so instead of knowing how to cope, instead i allow the traumatic experiences to play out as i am familiar to them acting out. they tell me something, i accept it, question myself, fight with myself and being picking apart things that maybe arent even that big of issues but ive correlated it with what theyve said and now im focused on all these problems i think i have with myself. 

i was told i was sick for a long time. do you get that? i’m not even making this up. like the fact im SAYING THAT should be enough. i was told by my mother that i was sick for a long time. i was told this. she made up all the fucking things she could and told me and told doctors and everyone that i was sick. i had many infections and illnesses and just.. things. i was sick. i was TOLD i was sick. i was TOLD i had a problem i couldnt see or feel or hear. and thus the cycle begins.

i fight it as well - but i’m not sick. i’m not sick. i’m not weak. i’m not stupid. OBVIOUSLY. OBVIOUSLY IM NONE OF THESE THINGS. but im listening to these convoluted assholes spouting opinions which again are projections of their own personal insecurities make me doubt myself and question if i am. maybe i am. maybe i’m so stupid i cant even see what they see. now theyre in a position of power. to counteract i spend my time having one sided arguments and writing personal essays about how i’m none of these things and this doesnt even make sense because all this other shit happened!  but now ive stressed over something that meant nothing to my being for x amount of time, become tired and stressed out, emotional and depressed. 

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last night i kind of felt like i didnt really want to be sleeping at his house. i was uncomfortable and had trouble breathing and the silence combined with his heavy breathing is soo grating it takes sometimes hours to fall asleep. i still like sleeping with him. i do. after this conversation, i dont realy feel like i want to hang out with him again anytime soon anyways. 

i have to balance and meditate on my own knowledge and perceptions because i have not been wrong before about how he infers more “important” or “bigger” emotions. we have been together for a year but he refused to acknowledge a relationship until last week. which means we are not emotionally affectionate - we don’t express affection in words either but we are both very aware that we are in love. 

i believe he knows that i am both the problem and not the problem at the same time. i believe he has a lot of love for me on a lot of levels and would do just about anything for me. i believe he wants a future with me and wants to have me in his life “forever” but he can’t be promised forever if i’m dead at 40. he cant invest all this emotional attachment to someone whos going to die. he needs to know im not going to die and everytime i light a cigarette in front of him im choosing that over living with him until im dead. 

i lso believe some of the frustration comes from knowing he could live with me in some capacity if we didnt smoke weed or i smoked cigarettes or we ate junk food because we would have more money to build an appropriate life (possibly to his standards) together. 

quitting smoking is not something im considering right now because its acrutch. its a daily crutch that gets me from one difficult 5 minutes to the next. i am very scared to live without it because i am not capable of handling long term stress emotionally & mentally right now. i also have no real personal desire to stop. its not a big deal to me and if i did quit i am sure they would all ask me if i felt better etc. and ii’d just shrug and tell them sure. they feel better, clearly, so i guess i feel better because i dont listen to them put me down for my personal choices in life anymore. just another thing im told. im told. im told. 

his ignorance to the legitimate issues and difficulties of living in long term poverty is overwhelming and to add trauma and depression on to it .. incomprehensible. 

additionally since he has no self control he wants other people to be his self control by not smoking weed or eating junk food and promoting an active lifestyle. he said he couldn’t take me biking or for  a run - and that’s fine; it’s not fun to do those activities with him. i’m not interested in exersizing with him, i’m interested in just being active and going at break neck speeds are not fun at all for me. i enjoy a level of activity that gets my heart rate going but is still leisurely and like.. not aggressive. i’m not looking to run aggressively, you know? if i die in a freak accident because my stamina is not good enough to run aggresively well then i die. it’s cool. i probably died in a fucked up way anyways if i needed to run aggressively away and at tht point kudos to me for trying at all. 

when we tried to canoe it was terrible. just a shitty experience because he likes adrenaline and the rush that pushing himself gives him but you know what? maybe - maybe. some people. just want to have a casual leisurely canoe ride. okay. thats not fucking terrible. they arent weak. theyre fucking enjoying life and the experience. thats how they enjoy it. go make some adrenaline junkie friends. let us slow pokes enjoy the ride. i am not required to fulfill every role in his life. i am not required to be his clone and like all the things he likes and do all the hings he does the way he does it. we have a ton of things in common already and we get along super well. his mother frequently buys pretty terrible pre-packaged foods and granola bars full of sugar and stocks his lunches full of fruit and like honestly fruit is good for you but you cant just eat fruit and say youre healthy. you cant eat shitty grocery store bread and say youre healthy. 

however we both like the same foods. whenever i cook for us he has never complained but openly complains about his mothers cooking. the only time he has complained is when i try to bake frozen fries in a fucking oven because his mother thinks its just “tht much healthier” when you’re eating fucing mccains frozen fries to begin with and then baking them until theyre brown to simulate cripsyness. 

if we lived together i could actually feed him healthy foods that are homemade and not store bought as i have done in all my previous live in relationships. i made dinner with multiple food groups every night too. alot of my lunches would be salad or soup or a sandwhich or all of it together. did i also eat snacks? fuck yes. did all i eat qualify as a snack? no. i ate healthy. and i actually ate even healthier as i got older and included more vgetbles and fruits in my regular diet. 

but living between two places and having his mother feed us once a day is pretty fucking stupid. sry2say. buy your own foods. know that the cupboard doesnt restock magically. when you make foods you actually accept in eating left overs of or create lunches a week a head of time like other people do  its not as easy to turn to snacks either.

but what do i know.

i’m just sitting here waiting for this guy to figure out that hes still causing 50% or more of the “problem”. 

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What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a matured adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you accept the daily strive that is doing whatever the fuck you miss while also wanting to have a great mas and great scalp. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Superintendents Ball but too look 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did expend the weekend going through mimosas like water and chewing enough food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a new me. A better me. A me who introduces actual vitamins and minerals into her arrangement so her surface doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she feed last night. So heres a schedule of meat you should evade like an ex-boyfriend sliding into your DMs and foods you are able to hug because theyll cook your fucking heads. Damn, Ive get bars. DONT: Chew Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even chews canned meat anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird obsession with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a red-faced fucking flag that this child was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in their own homes and effects your body to hold on to sea, which is why your look is always puffy or you have bags under your eyes that can be seen from cavity, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be objectionable on Instagram, gobbling salmon is a sure room to get better gazing surface. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty acids and healthy fattens. These paunches fortify cell layers and nourish the surface to impede you ogling fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol exactly because you regularly tell shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre drinking to purify your organization are actually truly fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the light-green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear surface. ^ I reckon every fitstagrammer when the find out they’ve been spouting liquid carbohydrate into their temples bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the red-hot tutor at your gym, protein smoothies can actually be beneficial for your surface. The more you know. Bide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These the different types of smoothies are high in healthy fatties and wont leave your surface gazing more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I visualized entering. Good-for-nothing that tastes this good can be anything but destruction on your figure. And since Im not on my age rn in control of my body I suspect Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can organize this fun stuff called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your mas. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with “the worlds largest” are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy searching. So mostly devouring ice cream is aging you.* steps into oncoming transaction* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So even though it flavours health and the whole meter youll be bidding you were devouring real chocolate with real flavor at the least your surface will examine good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick gag. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you likewise want me to commit homicide the next time person replies everyone to a department email chain? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my psyche around because coffee is literally one of the only concludes I get out of bed in the morning, and consequently, the same reasons you get to experience this shining identity. That tell me anything, coffee is a diuretic( fake information Im sure !) which causes your form to lose sea and your surface to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you miss glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republicans plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of booze hot lemon ocean know it sounds as seducing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and presents some much needed support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of toxins boozing on epoches that point in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by such lists. Like, is person looking at my bank word and be careful to ensure that I waste a large amount of my down time in coffee shop and/ or bagel browses? Because Im find truly assaulted rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your scalp and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for epoches.* prays this is bogus information* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably deprived than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the price we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right various kinds of carbs probs because it looks miserable to eat and likewise because its high in antioxidants which weve installed will not only give you clear/ glowy scalp but too battles against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To absolutely no ones bombshell except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my merriment, soda is good for you. And only because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda especially interrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your bowel. Likewise drinking any sort of soda are actually fuck with your scalp. Like, reason rosacea, eczema, and acne fuck with your skin. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Also, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant merely booze vodka straight-shooting. I want to have clearer skin , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that examines good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my skin. About damn time. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all their own lives questions. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you require clear scalp by the time this weekend’s brunch rosters around then chug some of this and simulate like its alcohol something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you rapture is likely fucking up your scalp and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not acquire the roster, but thats mainly because I refused to do any actual research that they are able to attest otherwise. Who says you cant make your own destiny? Listen, if all else miscarries and you have no self hold dont want to relinquish your prosperity theres ever Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-43/

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What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a grown-up adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you distinguish the daily fight that is doing whatever the fuck off want while at the same time wanting to have a great organization and enormous surface. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Heads Ball but too appear 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did invest the weekend going through mimosas like water and devouring sufficient food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who introduces actual vitamins and minerals into her arrangement so her skin doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she devoured last-place nighttime. So heres a listing of foods you should eschew like an ex-boyfriend slithering into your DMs and foods you should embrace because theyll fix your fucking heads. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Dine Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even dines canned fleshes anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird obsession with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a ruby-red fucking pennant that this minor was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in them and effects your organization to hold on to water, which is why your look is always puffy or you have pocketed under your eyes that can be seen from cavity, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and too be obnoxious on Instagram, dining salmon is a sure way to get better looking scalp. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty battery-acids and healthy fattens. These paunches buttress cadre membranes and nourish the scalp to maintain you searching fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol exactly because you frequently say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre booze to purge your figure are actually actually fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, especially the light-green juices which are able to have up to 50 grams of sugar in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear surface. ^ I suspect every fitstagrammer when the find out they’ve been gushing liquid carbohydrate into their temples bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the hot tutor at your gym, protein smoothies can actually be beneficial for your surface. The more you know. Remain away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These the different types of smoothies are high in healthy fats and wont leave your scalp seeming more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I insured coming. Good-for-nothing that savours this good can be anything but sabotage on your body. And since Im not on my season rn in control of my body I guess Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which are able to sort this fun act called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your torso. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with “the worlds largest” are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy examining. So basically snacking ice cream is aging you.* stairs into oncoming congestion* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So even though it delicacies health and the whole hour youll be bidding you were snacking real chocolate with real flavor at the least your scalp will search good AF and be protected against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick laugh. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you likewise want me to commit homicide the next time someone replies everyone to a department email chain? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my psyche around because coffee is literally one of the only grounds I get out of bunked in the morning, and consequently, the reason you get to experience this sparkling temperament. That tell me anything, coffee is a diuretic( bogus bulletin Im sure !) which causes your torso to lose ocean and your skin to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you crave glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republican plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of drinking red-hot lemon ocean know it sounds as enticing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and affords some very much support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of poisons sucking on eras that aim in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by this list. Like, is person looking at my bank affirmation and be careful to ensure that I spend a large amount of my down time in coffee shop and/ or bagel browses? Because Im detecting certainly criticized rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your scalp and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for periods.* prays this is bogus report* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the price we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial-grade. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it gazes miserable to eat and too because its high in antioxidants which weve fixed will not only give you clear/ glowy surface but too fights against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To perfectly no ones stun except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my gaiety, soda are detrimental to you. And precisely because you suck diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda specially interrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your gut. Likewise sucking any kind of soda can really fuck with your skin. Like, cause rosacea, eczema, and acne fucking with your surface. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Likewise, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant merely drink vodka straight. I want to have clearer surface , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that ogles good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my skin. About damn meter. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life difficulties. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you want clear surface by the time this weekend’s brunch moves around then chug some of this and profes like its alcohol something you enjoy drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you exultation is maybe fucking up your skin and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not obligate the index, but thats chiefly because I refused to do any actual experiment that they are able to substantiate otherwise. Who says you cant attain your own predestination? Listen, if all else neglects and you have no self hold dont want to sacrifice your prosperity theres always Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-26/

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What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a matured adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you realise the daily contend that is doing whatever the fuck off want while also wanting to have a great figure and enormous skin. Lifes hard when you want to get fucked up at Ministers Ball but likewise search 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not going to see Gov Ball, though I did waste the weekend “re going through” mimosas like water and eating sufficient food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who sets actual vitamins and minerals into her structure so her skin doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she ate last nighttime. So heres a directory of meat you should escape like an ex-boyfriend slipping into your DMs and foods you should embrace because theyll tie your fucking heads. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Ingest Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even ingests canned meats anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird obsession with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a red-faced fucking flag that this minor was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always bragging about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in their own homes and induces your person to hold on to sea, which is why your face is always puffy or you have bags under your eyes that can be seen from infinite, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and also be hateful on Instagram, dining salmon is a sure style to get better seeming skin. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty acids and healthy fats. These fatties strengthen cell tissues and nourish the surface to preserve you ogling fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol precisely because you often say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre drinking to cleanse your organization are actually really fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the green juices which are able to have up to 50 grams of sugar in them, which is actual destruction when it is necessary to having clear scalp. ^ I thoughts every fitstagrammer when the catch out they’ve been spouting liquid sugar into their tabernacles bodies DO: Booze A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the red-hot manager at your gym, protein smoothies can actually be beneficial for your skin. The more you are familiar with. Abide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These types of smoothies are high in healthy fats and wont leave your scalp appearing more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I read coming. Nothing that savor this good can be anything but sabotage on your figure. And since Im not on my interval rn in control of my figure I suspect Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can model this fun situation called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your person. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with the most are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy seeming. So basically ingesting ice cream is aging you.* paces into oncoming commerce* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your skin. So even though it appreciations health and the whole period youll be bidding you two are ingesting real chocolate with real flavor at the least your surface will appear good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick gag. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you too want me to commit homicide the next time person replies all to ministries and departments email chain? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my psyche around because coffee is literally one of the only reasonableness I get out of bunked in the morning, and consequently, the reason you get to experience this gleaming personality. That being said, coffee is a diuretic( bogus word Im sure !) which causes your person to lose sea and your surface to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you crave glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republican plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of drinking hot lemon sea sounds about as seducing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super good for you. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and hands some very much support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of poisons boozing on dates that intent in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally was well received by this list. Like, is someone looking at my bank account and be careful to ensure that I waste a great amount of my down time in coffee shop and/ or bagel shops? Because Im appearing actually criticized rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your skin and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for dates.* prays this is phony information* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id instead starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the rate we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it looks miserable to eat and also because its high in antioxidants which weve substantiated will not only give you clear/ glowy skin but too crusades against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To utterly no ones astonish except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my delight, soda are detrimental to you. And only because you booze diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda especially disrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your gut. Likewise boozing any kind of soda can really fuck with your scalp. Like, stimulate rosacea, eczema, and acne fuck with your skin. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Likewise, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant only drink vodka straight-out. I want to have clearer skin , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that appears good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my scalp. About damn experience. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life questions. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you miss clear surface by the time this weekend’s brunch rollings around then chug some of this and claim like its alcohol something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you glee is perhaps fucking up your scalp and you are able to cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not form the inventory, but thats mostly because I refused to do any actual study that would support otherwise. Who says you cant constitute your own destiny? Listen, if all else fails and you have no self restrict dont want to sacrifice your gaiety theres always Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-19/

[trendyelle]

What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a evolve adult plows their body like a trashcan, then you realise the daily conflict that is doing whatever the fuck off require while also wanting to have a great figure and enormous scalp. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Superintendents Ball but likewise examine 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did invest the weekend “re going through” mimosas like water and devouring enough food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who gives actual vitamins and minerals into her plan so her skin doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she chewed last-place darknes. So heres a directory of meat you are able to forestall like an ex-boyfriend slithering into your DMs and foods you are able to espouse because theyll fix your fucking heads. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Feed Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even feeds canned fleshes anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird obsession with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a ruby-red fucking pennant that this boy was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always bragging about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in their own homes and justification your body to hold on to irrigate, which is why your look is always puffy or you have pouched under your eyes that can be seen from seat, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be objectionable on Instagram, snacking salmon is a sure road to get better looking scalp. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty battery-acids and healthy fattens. These fatties fortify cadre membranes and nourish the surface to stop you seeming fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol merely because you regularly say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre booze to purge your person are actually genuinely fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, especially the green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual destruction when it is necessary to having clear skin. ^ I envisage every fitstagrammer when the catch out they’ve been spouting liquid carbohydrate into their synagogues bodies DO: Suck A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the red-hot coach at your gym, protein smoothies can actually be beneficial for your skin. The more you know. Stay away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These types of smoothies are high in healthy flabs and wont leave your skin ogling more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I viewed coming. Nothing that savor this good can be anything but destruction on your figure. And since Im not on my age rn in control of my organization I predict Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which are able to kind this fun stuff called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your torso. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with the most are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy ogling. So mostly eating ice cream is age you.* steps into oncoming commerce* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So although it is penchants health and the whole duration youll be pleasing you two are ingesting real chocolate with real flavor at the least your surface will search good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick laugh. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you too want me to commit homicide the next time person replies everyone to ministries and departments email series? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my psyche around because coffee is literally one of the only grounds I get out of bed in the morning, and therefore, the same reasons you get to experience this gleaming personality. That being said, coffee is a diuretic( imitation report Im sure !) which causes your person to lose sea and your skin to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you miss glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republican plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though future prospects of booze red-hot lemon sea sounds about as seducing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and yields some very much support efforts to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of toxins sucking on days that point in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by this list. Like, is person looking at my bank word and seeing that I expend a large amount of my down time in coffee shop and/ or bagel stores? Because Im detecting truly assaulted rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your scalp and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for days.* prays this is phony bulletin* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id instead starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the rate we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial-grade. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it gazes miserable to eat and too because its high in antioxidants which weve fixed will not only give you clear/ glowy scalp but likewise contends against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To absolutely no ones astonish except my own because I refuse to read names written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my pleasure, soda is bad for you. And merely because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda especially disrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your bowel. Likewise sucking any kind of soda are actually fuck with your surface. Like, justification rosacea, eczema, and acne fuck with your skin. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Likewise, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant exactly suck vodka straight. I want to have clearer scalp , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that searches good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my skin. About damn hour. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life questions. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you miss clear surface by the time this weekend’s brunch wheels around then chug some of this and profes like its alcohol something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you exultation is maybe fucking up your surface and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not obligate the index, but thats largely because I refused to do any actual research that they are able to testify otherwise. Who says you cant form your own predestination? Listen, if all else flunks and you have no self restrain dont want to relinquish your prosperity theres ever Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-18/

[trendyelle]

What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a mature adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you remember the daily battle that is doing whatever the fuck off require while also wanting to have a great mas and enormous scalp. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Governors Ball but too search 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did expend the weekend “re going through” mimosas like water and eating sufficient food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who employs actual vitamins and minerals into her plan so her skin doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she devoured last-place darknes. So heres a inventory of foods you should eschew like an ex-boyfriend slithering into your DMs and foods you are able to embrace because theyll secure your fucking face. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Gobble Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even chews canned meat anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird infatuation with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a red-faced fucking pennant that this kid was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in them and makes your torso to hold on to sea, which is why your appearance is always puffy or you have pocketed under your eyes that can be seen from room, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be objectionable on Instagram, dining salmon is a sure method to get better looking skin. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty acids and healthy flabs. These paunches buttress cell layers and nourish the surface to retain you gazing fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol merely because you frequently say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre booze to cleanse your person are actually actually fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the light-green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear scalp. ^ I thoughts every fitstagrammer when the catch out they’ve been running liquid sugar into their temples bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the hot teach at your gym, protein smoothies was in fact be beneficial for your scalp. The more you know. Abide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These types of smoothies are high in healthy fats and wont leave your skin looking more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I assured coming. Nothing that savours this good can be anything but sabotage on your form. And since Im not on my period rn in control of my body I guess Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can structure this fun event called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your organization. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with “the worlds largest” are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy ogling. So mostly dining ice cream is age you.* gradations into oncoming transaction* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So even though it feelings health and the whole hour youll be pleasing you were chewing real chocolate with real flavor at the least your skin will gaze good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick gag. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you also want me to commit homicide the next time person responds everyone to a department email series? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my intelligence around because coffee is literally one of the only reasons I get out of bunked in the morning, and consequently, the same reasons you get to experience this shining temperament. That being said, coffee is a diuretic( fake information Im sure !) which causes your mas to lose water and your skin to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you miss glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republican plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of booze hot lemon water know it sounds as tempting as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and yields some much needed support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies the body and if youre full of toxins drinking on dates that aim in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by such lists. Like, is person looking at my bank account and be careful to ensure that I expend a great amount of my down time in coffee shops and/ or bagel stores? Because Im detecting genuinely criticized rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your skin and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for epoches.* prays this is bogus report* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the cost we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it appears miserable to eat and likewise because its high in antioxidants which weve supported will not only give you clear/ glowy surface but likewise pushes against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To utterly no ones stun except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my joy, soda is bad for you. And just because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda specially disrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your gut. Also drinking any kind of soda are actually fuck with your scalp. Like, induce rosacea, eczema, and acne fucking with your scalp. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Likewise, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant simply suck vodka directly. I want to have clearer surface , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that appears good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my scalp. About damn experience. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life troubles. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you miss clear surface by the time this weekend’s brunch rolls around then chug some of this and feign like its booze something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you elation is likely fucking up your surface and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not shape the listing, but thats principally because I refused to do any actual experiment that they are able to attest otherwise. Who says you cant establish your own fate? Listen, if all else neglects and you have no self hold dont want to sacrifice your gaiety theres always Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-11/

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What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a mature adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you remember the daily battle that is doing whatever the fuck off require while also wanting to have a great mas and enormous scalp. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Governors Ball but too search 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did expend the weekend “re going through” mimosas like water and eating sufficient food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who employs actual vitamins and minerals into her plan so her skin doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she devoured last-place darknes. So heres a inventory of foods you should eschew like an ex-boyfriend slithering into your DMs and foods you are able to embrace because theyll secure your fucking face. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Gobble Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even chews canned meat anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird infatuation with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a red-faced fucking pennant that this kid was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in them and makes your torso to hold on to sea, which is why your appearance is always puffy or you have pocketed under your eyes that can be seen from room, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be objectionable on Instagram, dining salmon is a sure method to get better looking skin. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty acids and healthy flabs. These paunches buttress cell layers and nourish the surface to retain you gazing fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol merely because you frequently say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre booze to cleanse your person are actually actually fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the light-green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear scalp. ^ I thoughts every fitstagrammer when the catch out they’ve been running liquid sugar into their temples bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the hot teach at your gym, protein smoothies was in fact be beneficial for your scalp. The more you know. Abide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These types of smoothies are high in healthy fats and wont leave your skin looking more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I assured coming. Nothing that savours this good can be anything but sabotage on your form. And since Im not on my period rn in control of my body I guess Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can structure this fun event called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your organization. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with “the worlds largest” are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy ogling. So mostly dining ice cream is age you.* gradations into oncoming transaction* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your surface. So even though it feelings health and the whole hour youll be pleasing you were chewing real chocolate with real flavor at the least your skin will gaze good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick gag. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you also want me to commit homicide the next time person responds everyone to a department email series? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my intelligence around because coffee is literally one of the only reasons I get out of bunked in the morning, and consequently, the same reasons you get to experience this shining temperament. That being said, coffee is a diuretic( fake information Im sure !) which causes your mas to lose water and your skin to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you miss glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republican plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of booze hot lemon water know it sounds as tempting as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and yields some much needed support to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies the body and if youre full of toxins drinking on dates that aim in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by such lists. Like, is person looking at my bank account and be careful to ensure that I expend a great amount of my down time in coffee shops and/ or bagel stores? Because Im detecting genuinely criticized rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your skin and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for epoches.* prays this is bogus report* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the cost we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it appears miserable to eat and likewise because its high in antioxidants which weve supported will not only give you clear/ glowy surface but likewise pushes against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To utterly no ones stun except my own because I refuse to read labels written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my joy, soda is bad for you. And just because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda specially disrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your gut. Also drinking any kind of soda are actually fuck with your scalp. Like, induce rosacea, eczema, and acne fucking with your scalp. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Likewise, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant simply suck vodka directly. I want to have clearer surface , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that appears good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my scalp. About damn experience. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life troubles. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you miss clear surface by the time this weekend’s brunch rolls around then chug some of this and feign like its booze something you experience drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you elation is likely fucking up your surface and you should cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not shape the listing, but thats principally because I refused to do any actual experiment that they are able to attest otherwise. Who says you cant establish your own fate? Listen, if all else neglects and you have no self hold dont want to sacrifice your gaiety theres always Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-11/

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What To Eat For Clear Skin& What Foods Will Wreak Havoc On Your Face

If youre anything like me, someone who is a grown-up adult treats their body like a trashcan, then you recognise the daily conflict that is doing whatever the fuck off miss while also wanting to have a great mas and enormous skin. Lifes hard whether it wishes to get fucked up at Heads Ball but too ogle 100 years old in your Instagram story. Not that I would know. I did not go to Gov Ball, though I did waste the weekend going through mimosas like water and snacking enough food to get me my own TLC reality show. That being said, I want to change. I want to be a brand-new me. A better me. A me who places actual vitamins and minerals into her plan so her surface doesnt resemble the entire slice of pizza she snacked last nighttime. So heres a roster of foods you are able to avoid like an ex-boyfriend sliding into your DMs and foods you are able to embrace because theyll fasten your fucking face. Damn, Ive got bars. DONT: Feed Canned Food/ Meats Gross. As if. Like, who even snacks canned meat anymore? Other than my ex from college who had this weird infatuation with eating vienna sausages( which, in hindsight, should have been a blood-red fucking pennant that this girl was a sociopath. That and his Belk credit card that he was always boasting about ). Canned and/ or highly processed foods have a shit ton of sodium in them and makes your organization to hold on to water, which is why your face is always puffy or you have pocketed under your eyes that can be seen from space, and your acne is at World War III proportions. DO: Eat Salmon Aside from giving you a reason to pretend to be a foodie and likewise be hateful on Instagram, gobbling salmon is a sure way to get better gazing skin. Salmon is rich with omega-3 fatty battery-acids and healthy fatties. These paunches fortify cadre membranes and nourish the skin to prevent you examining fresh AF. DONT: Drink Green Juice Lol only because you regularly say shit like #FitLife and #CleanEating on your IG does not mean you know wtf is good for you, because SURPRISE all those juices youre drinking to purge your mas are actually truly fucking bad for you. Juices are sugary as hell, specially the dark-green juices which can have up to 50 grams of carbohydrate in them, which is actual sabotage when it comes to having clear scalp. ^ I suppose every fitstagrammer when the catch out they’ve been shooting liquid carbohydrate into their tabernacles bodies DO: Drink A Protein Smoothie Aside from having something to talk about with the hot teach at your gym, protein smoothies was in fact be beneficial for your surface. The more you know. Abide away from the juicer smoothies and opt for one with some protein in it. These the different types of smoothies are high in healthy fattens and wont leave your skin seeming more ratchet than your Snap story last weekend. DONT: Eat Ice Cream Okay, this one I met coming. Good-for-nothing that savours this good can be anything but destruction on your mas. And since Im not on my period rn in control of my form I predict Im open to suggestions here. Ice cream is chock-full of sugar which can shape this fun concept called advanced glycation end products which fucks up the protein in your body. Why is that important you may ask? Because the proteins it fucks with the most are the ones that keep your skin plump and springy searching. So basically gobbling ice cream is aging you.* steps into oncoming traffic* DO: Eat Dark Chocolate Dark chocolate aka the DUD of chocolates has a fuck ton of antioxidants in it, which is v good for your skin. So even though it tastes healthy and the whole period youll be wishing you were dining real chocolate with real flavor at least your skin will look good AF and protection against wrinkles and other bad shit. DONT: Drink Coffee HA HA HA HA this has to be some sort of sick parody. You want me to give up my will to live caffeine? Do you also want me to commit homicide the next time someone replies all to ministries and departments email chain? DO YOU? This one is tough for me to wrap my brain around because coffee is literally one of the only reasonableness I get out of berthed in the morning, and therefore, the reason you get to experience this twinkling personality. That tell me anything, coffee is a diuretic( bogus news Im sure !) which causes your form to lose water and your surface to get v dehydrated. Stay away from this shit if you require glowy AF skin. DO: Drink Hot Lemon Water This replacement sounds about as good as the Republicans plan for health care but thats neither here nor there. Even though the prospect of booze hot lemon liquid know it sounds as enticing as sleeping with Jonathan The Tickle Monster, its actually super are you all right. Its hydrating, full of antioxidants, and renders some much needed support efforts to your liver. Apparently, the liver is the main organ that detoxifies their own bodies and if youre full of poisons boozing on days that resolve in Y, youre more likely to break out. Sighs. And this is why we cant have neat things. DONT: Eat Bagels Okay, Im starting to feel personally victimized by such lists. Like, is person looking at my bank affirmation and be careful to ensure that I invest a great amount of my down time in coffee shops and/ or bagel browses? Because Im detecting truly assaulted rn. Apparently, bagels are the worst for your skin and can lead to a cascade of hormones aka acne breakouts for epoches.* prays this is phony report* DO: Eat Non-Processed Carbs or Oats Tbh Id preferably starve than eat something that resembles animal feed but I guess thats the cost we pay to look like the “after” girl in an acne commercial. Oats are the right kind of carbs probs because it searches miserable to eat and likewise because its high in antioxidants which weve established will not only give you clear/ glowy scalp but too combats against anti-aging. DONT: Drink Soda To absolutely no ones bombshell except my own because I refuse to read descriptions written by health professionals people who are out to destroy my joy, soda are detrimental to you. And merely because you drink diet soda doesnt mean youre safe. Because diet soda especially disrupts the necessary and healthy bacteria found in your intestine. Also drinking any kind of soda can really fuck with your scalp. Like, stimulate rosacea, eczema, and acne fuck with your skin. K. Just fuck me up rn then. Too, wtf am I supposed to order at the bar to go along with my vodka then? I cant simply suck vodka straight-out. I want to have clearer surface , not die. DO: Drink Kombucha Finally something that appears good on my Instagram story and isnt going to fuck up my scalp. About damn occasion. Basically Kombucha is good for you because its fermented, and therefore full of probiotics, which will solve all your life problems. Im paraphrasing, but still. If you miss clear scalp by the time this weekend’s brunch buns around then chug some of this and simulated like its booze something you enjoy drinking. So, in conclusion, anything that brings you rapture is likely fucking up your skin and you are able to cut it from your diet ASAP. I am feeling #blessed rn that alcohol did not do the listing, but thats predominantly because I refused to do any actual study that would demonstrate otherwise. Who says you cant induce your own destiny? Listen, if all else neglects and you have no self restrain dont wishes to sacrifice your prosperity theres always Facetune. Read more: www.betches.com http://selfhelpantiagingtips.com/what-to-eat-for-clear-skin-what-foods-will-wreak-havoc-on-your-face-3/