#im glad a lot of people agree with me that it's kind of reaching that things are wrong

[dnphobe]

Looking at how they've presented themselves over time is always interesting. I think the queer experience of slowly questioning societal and gender norms (and gender, in many cases) is something I recognize in them. Im also curious how Phil's journey is different because he was out to his close ones for a lot longer, and it feels like Dan has more fun shouting about being gay because of the trauma that he associated with the label. I loved seeing their support of queer identities even when they were publicly closeted. It's nice that, even if they weren't comfortable being out, they wanted everyone to know they were a safe space

i agree! the different ways they've presented themselves to us over the years is one of my favourite topics to talk about tbh!

dan's journey wrt to gender presentation and how he feels about gender (not gonna theorise on how he identifies bc what do i know, but to quote him he's fine with being viewed as a man but also not offended if people use pronouns/gendered terms outside of that to refer to him) is interesting because he's said he's always been "flamboyant" but tried to hide that in his youtube career for a long time, and he's gone from saying "i can't do it i'm just such a boy" about painting his nails to having them painted more often than not, but also in day in the life of manchester he said he sometimes wishes he was a girl when looking at 'women's clothing', so it's clearly something he's felt for a long time.

i don't think phil necessarily feels the same pull to be gender non-conforming, but it is also something he's struggled with doing (in one of the stereo shows, when talking about the maid dress he wore in VPMO 2, he said that while it was a cheap joke outfit, a few years ago he would not have felt comfortable wearing a dress at all) so that might be something he's still working toward being comfortable with, but at the same time he's never felt shame about telling us things like he likes using raspberry scented body wash or that he does skin care (while when phil mentioned doing skin care dan was clutched by toxic masculinity saying "don't do- i mean that's fine!"

agree with dan having more fun shouting about being gay because of the trauma and i'm so glad he's reached where he is now! phil...i think for a long time he thought he didn't NEED to shout about being gay, especially because like you said he was out to a few people for longer. but i think it's something he realised he DID want to do after coming out to us. as he said in his coming out one year later video he didn't realise how much of himself he was holding back from us by not being out and it feels like a weight off his shoulders now. i think they both love being gay and shouting about being gay and celebrating that with us and im so proud of phil too <3 i actually have a hot take which is i think if it wasn't for dan's coming out he might have never fully come out to us, not just in a "if dan never had he never would have" way, but in a "if he and dan never met he wouldn't have" way, because he IS a private person and didn't think he was missing out on anything.

i am always so glad they made sure we knew they were accepting of us even if they weren't ready to be out. ngl it got kind of rough in like 2012 for me when dan was so adamantly against people thinking he was gay my own internalised homophobia brain went "does he hate gay people?" but that's on me, not him, or more accurately on BOTH of our internalised homophobia situations lmao. but yeah they've always been so sweet about their queer and trans fans, and one thing i personally appreciate so much is how they will use they/them for any fan they don't know the gender of no matter what their name/appearance/voice would make other people assume their gender to be! i feel so safe with them, and im gonna add this bc im still sappy after this weekend, so safe with phannies too <3 i think phannies queer identities and dnp's queer identities have ALWAYS flowed into each other and both sides of the parasocial line have made the other side feel safe and grow into their identities and helped them accept and appreciate other people's identities.

[aliceisaperson]

Hey, I feel your pain with the bi-phobia. I (a cis Woman, for context) went through the terrifying process of coming out to my conservative christian parents and then went on to date the man I'm gonna marry. I literally only ever dated 1 woman. It really sucks what you're going through. It'd be great to be able to shake people and impress on them your feelings and how they're making you feel. Unfortunately being queer doesn't automatically mean that your sister is a good person, or that her opinions are right. (they're not) There are a million things I could say, but that won't take away what you're feeling now. So sending appropriate amounts of care towards you. P.S. IDK if the 17 in your bio is your age, if it is, I'm 29, so completely understand if you're weirded out and don't reply. What's it like being Gen Z? I imagine it's very similar to being a Millenial only with TikTok dances or something :)

I really appreciate you reaching out, it honestly means a lot to me that people are willing to write long messages to make me feel better. I really wish we as m-spec people were not treated as less queer than others. Im kind of just now realizing how my sister’s never really treated me as a queer person, let alone someone who understands the issues I’m talking about to her, which I do. I can think of times before where we would debate on something and she’d try to use her identity to win an argument even if she was wrong, because she just assumed she understood the queer issues more than me even though I’m also queer. I honestly do not think she even respected me as a fellow queer person at all and never saw me as one. I’m honestly really glad that I’ve chosen not the talk to her anymore.

Also yes, I am 17. I do not mind you reaching out at all, I actually really appreciate it cause she always just said “you’ll understand when your older”, so it’s honestly kind of great to have someone older than her agree that her opinions are bullshit. I think younger people communicating and having real conversations with adults is an extremely important part of maturating and I also really appreciate it when someone who has more life experience than me is able to relate to my experiences and talk to me like a person.

Also on the last part of your post I kind of feel like the main difference between gen z in millennials is the humor but we’re all different people with different experiences so I’ve always found it a bit difficult to specifically pinpoint characteristics of specific generations but that’s just me personally.

Again I really appreciate you reaching out, it means a lot to hear support from a queer person that’s older than me. It always means a lot.

[youremyheaven]

girl your moon post was so accurate for me too! my father has rohini rising and is such a narcissist and a master at gaslighting. he resorted to manipulating ppl's perspective of me ig so they wouldn't believe me when i started calling him out after a liiiifetime of his crap. he is extremely two faced and a lot of ppl find him really sketchy, but those he manages to fool he fools really well. the only positives of this is that at least i can see these patterns in people easily. frankly, confronting a liar is so taxing bc even if you do manage to outsmart them they'll just make some excuse. like girl. i also know this hasta moon girl that is a pathological liar and every time i see her i just can't take anything she says seriously bc i just always feel like she's lying out of her ass ab the most menial stuff. her family has had issues w her bc she skipped school for months and no one knew ab it bc she would tell such bold lies like, "call my teacher. here, have the phone so you can talk to her ab my grades" and everyone was like, ig she's doing well in school otherwise she wouldn't offer to call? i genuinely worry thinking ab what if i have a kid and they have a moon nakshatra and express it negatively like this omg i'll go crazy. anyways thank you for your post it was so interesting to see such thoroughly explained examples 🤍 it reminded me of ariana grande as well who just seems so shamelessly manipulative to me too. like when she's like "for total transparency i'll say that..." i'm immediately like ok. so you're lying 😂

im glad 😭😭😭that my Moon post resonated with so many of you, it means so much to me

Im so sorry about your father. I agree with what you said about confronting liars, I confronted someone about something deeply hurtful that they said to me and they literally said "i don't remember" 😭😭 idk how these people sleep at night bro like do they not have a conscience??

I'm happy every time some shady person is exposed in the media, including Ariana who I've found sus for yearsss ,, it's so hard to be an intuitive bc u can't even explain why u feel the way u do so no one believes you when u say that somebody is not what they seem on the outside, u get torn apart for speaking the truth but sooner or later the truth will be seen and will be heard and I truly believe that.

I hope you remain protected from abuse of all kinds in the future and always surrounded by kindness and support. 💛💛

GIRLIEEE what u said about kids is sooo 😭😭I do think about that from time to time but i believe that kids are a manifestation of our karma so the more we focus on bettering ourselves and thereby bettering our actions, we can design our lives to be drama free. What kind of children we have depends on what kind of parents we're capable of being (and you are completely in control of how you behave/treat others) so don't feel too powerless about ur future kids!!! Focus on yourself and your healing and the rest will flow💛💛💛 also if you believe in manifestation 👀just believe that you'll manifest healthy and wonderful children

This blog is a hobby of mine but what makes all my research and writing meaningful is the fact that not only do I get to learn more about astrology, I get to reach people who perhaps might benefit from the things I share. I love to hear about your guys experiences related to the things I post bc sometimes I genuinely wonder like is anyone even reading my 5k words slander on a nakshatra lmfao

Thank you so much for taking the time to tell me about your experiences, I appreciate it so much 💛and i believe many others will also feel seen

[tadpolesonalgae]

im late but finally read the new chapter and i... im glad the sisters finally talked a bit though im not sure if having her still be alone so often is the best thing but im glad she looked like she was getting better

now the thing with mor... i saw some asks of people saying mor was being mean and she is but i kinda get her (i wanna slam her head against the wall but i get her) like eris hurt her a lot and hasnt made any efforts to show her or the ic that he's anything less than a piece of shit so reader running to him after mor probably considered her a friend already had to hurt and then even if accidentally she almost killed azriel who's family to mor so yeah i get it. i hate that reader was finally trying to reach out to someone and mor decided to be a bitch (though idk how reader didnt think to maybe go for her sisters maybe like obviously you'd have to at least explain to mor what happened first). I also saw you say you werent sure if mor was out of character saying this or something but she is to me at least. The ic arent great people to the ones they dont like (sjm insists on writing them as shitty people to the ones they do like too but she keeps telling us it's just the people they don't) and mor doesnt like reader or eris so she can very easily be cruel and she knew where to hit and went for it. im mad she did it when no one can see though like if you're going to be a bitch be a bitch and stand on it but of course nesta would cut her head off. azriel barely sleeps as is and a closed door wouldn't hide the sound from even human hearing tbh so i hope he calls her out or even if that doesnt happen that someone at least finds out because reader just taking it and nothing happening doesn't sit right with me. also wished this had happened when reader was better and finally found a backbone because all she had to tell her is that mor will always be 3rd to feyre like do you think she likes you more than her own sisters? be serious blondie

also a little curious if rhys could hear her thoughts because the sheer chaos of it would give him a pretty good clue that she truly didnt try to betray them and that she feels like she doesnt deserve to even breathe and all that - 🧶

‘im glad the sisters finally talked a bit though im not sure if having her still be alone so often’

I have to believe this is a personal difference since I’m someone who genuinely cannot cope with being around people/interacting with them in real life for extended periods, so to me reader has been getting an insane amount of attention 😭

‘like eris hurt her a lot and hasnt made any efforts to show her or the ic that he's anything less than a piece of shit’

I don’t know? I think to us as readers of the series I kind of agree, but then he cooperated with the alliance, and also I’m on the side that if anyone should be able to see through his mask it should be the IC since hello Rhysand? UTM? CoN???? The idea of a mask/persona???

I suppose since they all care for each other they’re blinded by that so can’t see the similarities, but I’ll admit it does frustrate me a little?

‘(though idk how reader didnt think to maybe go for her sisters maybe like obviously you'd have to at least explain to mor what happened first).’

Doing that though would equal a level of emotional vulnerability and reader just doesn’t do that? What reader said to Az about failing them—telling that to Mor? Someone reader doesn’t know that well? I don’t think it’s as simple as explaining it, though I think that would help a little? Both reader and Mor experienced/are experiencing intense emotions, and the higher your emotions are the harder it is to understand an opposing side? Also not to mention reader doesn’t know how much Azriel has told everyone so she’s a little in the dark? They both are though.

‘im mad she did it when no one can see though like if you're going to be a bitch be a bitch and stand on it’

This might sound hypercritical or conflictive but I’m not writing/don’t want to write Mor to be a bitch? I like Mor and while it might add to the angst and drama to have her be cruel to reader I just wouldn’t be able to commit to it 😭 In my mind it was Mor acting on the hurt reader has caused her and while it was unnecessary, emotions should be let out? Obviously the way Mor chose to do that wasn’t great 🙄, but like, reader could have probably realised it was too soon to try and patch things up? 🤦 That and also to a degree reader wasn’t that hurt by the comment? Compared to how she would feel if her sisters or Az said something like that, the bullet only grazed?

‘azriel barely sleeps as is and a closed door wouldn't hide the sound from even human hearing tbh’

You can hear through doors???? 🫣 I mean, I agree that if Az was awake he’d probably be able to hear (if he’s okay though, he did get blasted by reader’s weird glowy magic so he could have temporarily lost his hearing from the detonation, especially with his proximity)

‘i hope he calls her out’

Azriel calling Mor out??? After some of the things he’s said to reader????

‘also wished this had happened when reader was better and finally found a backbone because all she had to tell her is that mor will always be 3rd to feyre like do you think she likes you more than her own sisters? be serious blondie’

😭oh my gosh I laughed so hard 😭😭😭

That would be so ooc of reader but I think it would be funny (in theory) for reader to suddenly do a 180° and act with them how she does around Eris and snap something smart and sassy back 😭🤭

‘also a little curious if rhys could hear her thoughts’

I think he could tell reader was struggling with something—I haven’t really thought whether reader, Elain, and Nesta would have received any training on protecting against daemati powers? I think Feyre probably would have given them enough, but nothing extensive? Also I think Rhys (with how he is about not peeking into minds) would have just blocked her out if her thoughts were being particularly loud? But then also idk how much the ‘thinking loudly’ was amplified by Rhys and Feyre’s bond, so whether it would even apply to reader in that way?

[uter-us]

from a fellow rad-leaning feminist thank you so much for taking the time to converse with nb folks and transactivists! im personally so sick of it all that I don't think I could be as kind and genuine as you are, or be patient enough to type so much out. but your insights and the questions you ask are excellent. I love that even if you don't change anyone's mind, you have still given them a lot to think about and respond to, and their answers really are interesting! I'm looking forward to seeing more of these conversations. I want to also extend my thanks to the people responding, your perspectives are valuable and I'm glad i can learn from you all too :)

i appreciate this message sm!! if you ever want to reach out you can dm me :) <3

i totally agree their perspectives are so appreciated. the people responding are going out of their way to converse w the "enemy" which ik is not always met well in our spaces, or tolerated in theirs, so its very admirable when they do. its rlly great when they reach out to talk :)) (my dms are open to yall too!! always!)

[kissmetwicekissmedeadly]

I know you already talked about but this I think the fandom has changed a lot. I am a shy reader so I stay on anon and I don't reblog much because my Tumblr is small. But I have been around for a few years and its not the same.

There was a lot more playfulness and silly posts. People reblogged other people's writing a lot more. I also had fun following how people talked to each other.

The kind of writing people wanted was different. You didn't have such a focus on how "good" the writing was or how much imagery a writer used. It was about the stories being told and it feels like that has changed. The fandom seems to only want that flowery writing, those blogs that write at a "elevated" level. I was just fine without it, to be honest.

I am sad that people are not liking things and that Prince is taking over more and more. There is no love anymore for Vamp or Sen or Rev (my beloved Rev 😭)

I don't know why I am reaching out to you except you have been here a long time, one of the best blogs in this fandom. And part of me is just sad that it feels like the fandom is dying.

Oh my god anon..... when i saw your ask last night i got overwhelmed with emotion and with all the things that popped up in my head that i wanted to say to you, but today real life gave me another portion of problems and I'm sitting here giving my screen a blank stare. i hate this, i really want to give you a better answer, but let me try. and thank you for sending it in this blog, i feel even more comfortable talking on here!

The thing you pointed out about the quality of writing and people's demands.... it's actually something i wrote in my last reply to you. and then deleted it. because i thought, "haha no it must be just me", but now that you say it, im prone to agree - your angle of things is actually very trustworthy in my opinion, being someone who's been here for so long and observed from afar. for me it's easier to forget how it was in the beginning, but now that you say it, you're absolutely right... the blogs i looked up to, the writers i admired, weren't put on a pedestal for their skills, it was purely in my head how great they were - to a point where it makes me sad that it feels like ive received more praise now than they did back then. some of them don't write as often anymore, if at all... it's not right. i wonder why did that happen and when, and if it's actually harmful for us writers or im being too cautious. i want to be just like you sometimes, to enjoy the fruits of this fandom from the comfort of being a small blog seldom interacting with posts but still appreciating them from afar - i've been that person in other fandoms, and it has its perks definitely. it's just some strange miracle that i became what i am right now and broke through the shell of being a shy reader! seriously! i appreciate you and people like you, because im glad that i can make more of those fruits for you to enjoy. it's an unpopular opinion but ive never been mad at lurkers all that much. everyone has their reasons to feel uncomfortable interacting, and other than that, i personally want to have a blog where people escape from the hustle of being seen and present. again, that's just me, and i'll encourage commenting and sharing work when it comes to my peers... we're getting off topic, haha. and i should make a paragraph break already

i want to comfort you somehow but without lying to you that "nooo it's alright we're still having fun around here and the fandom is totally not dying" and we could make what the musicians on titanic did, but hey, we're not in the middle of the ocean and i seriously cant be a pessimist 😭 i don't think that it's that bad - i did say that some writers are put on pedestal, but are they really? i doubt anyone is seeing those things so dramatically, well maybe that one anon. but that's just one case, and unfortunately it affects how we see things A LOT , because noone else allows themselves to point out things in such dramatic light, no matter if they're right or not. we're paying the anon a lot of attention, so this fucks with our heads to a certain degree. i think that you should rest assured that this mood around the fandom is temporary, same with the more fun postings that you mentioned - i have a theory for that too, and it's because ikepri is simply not allowing for as much goofing around as its predecessors. you still see your doze of cursed jokes but they're not realistic in the nature of the game's world like they would in ikerev for instance, or even ikevamp . but that's fine because, and this is something i actually thought about the other day, they can't keep making more and more dramatic dark and twisted all overly serious games (right? right?) , somewhere along the way a game with the carefree atmosphere of ikerev will come to existence again, and we'll heal again. and the hateful anons who dont see that we're just a bunch of people having fun without that made-up hierarchy , will get bored and go away eventually. i believe in that, and i really want to make you believe too

i enjoyed talking with you about this, and i hope i didn't gave any unnecessary seriousness to our talk because im trying very hard to stick to the belief that our time here should be purely just positive and fun... and hey, we might have not interacted much, but knowing that you've been here for awhile already makes me feel you close somehow hkhkhkhk is that weird??

now, let me give you this ticket: 🎫 that equals one xxsycamore request (from the valentines/1000 followers one) and i want you to think of the most self-indulgent prompt you can come up with and send it. you said ikerev my beloved so if you end up choosing that (seeing that there is a serious lack of those requested 😭😭) id be even happier to write it for you. dont worry to refuse ofc <33

im sorry that this was all over the place and thank you for coming here anon. have a great day ❤

[gomacave]

Lol, it is sooo nice to come across someone who still cares about kkm in 2024 😭 just gonna send as an ask so we aren't tag paragraphing back and forth. (Tried just messaging, but you know the tumblr app's reliabilty...)

I have so many thoughts on wolfram and yuuri as people and how they would work as a couple

Re: your original tags i 100% agree that yuuri would be the one to initiate their actual relationship with a kiss he didn't even put any thought into, body just acted. 

I've had this vague fanfic idea in my head for the past like... 10 years (i can't believe i first watched it so long ago) that after getting used to wolfram being his best friend and enjoying being around him in that way for a couple years yuuri would start to catch feelings without even realizing it. Then he'd kiss wolfram in some dramatic dangerous context (like your comic) and immediately fall through a puddle back to earth once the danger is over, without getting the chance to talk to wolfram about it. 

And then yuuri is just like, stuck on earth for a whole month or 2. Ruminating on the kiss, using 2007 style discussion boards to try to figure out his sexuality (😂 poor kid). Maybe watching some random movie (i genuinely don't have a specific one in mind) and realizing that the 2 male main characters have crazy chemisty, remembering something about shipping from that discussion board, searching male character A x male character B and reading some fanfic/seeing some fanart that makes him go "shit maybe i am into guys." Then he like... reads a real romance novel or something that his mom buys him (a teen book! I should clarify. His mom is quirky but not totally oblivous to what would be appropriate), because she's supportive and knows he'd never buy one on his own. And he talks to her a few times about this realization throughout this 2 months. 

Basically, i like the idea of yuuri being forced away from wolfram and all the normalized queerness of shin makoku and still coming to the conclusion that he likes wolfram and wants to be with him. And "hey, im not even gonna be living on earth much past the age of 18 anyway, so why should i care about any of these cultural norms anymore? And my family gets it, so honestly, fuck it."

And then he finally gets back to shin makoku and word vomits/lays this 2 months worth of soul searching at wolfram's feet.

And wolfram is just like, "well it's actually been 8 months or something for me. Glad you figured all that shit out, even though i still don't get what the big deal was, but i definitely panic spiralled into thinking you weren't coming back ever again because of that kiss. So honestly, i'm pretty happy right now. But ngl, you reciprocating my feelings is a little... off putting? No, maybe more like... completely unexpected. I'm in no way prepared for this."

And then their dynamic switches to wolfram being the one who's kind of uncomfortable with public displays of affection (he still likes it, but is noticeably shy/tense). And yuuri just trying his best to not spook wolfram and understand why he's like this now.

And it all just culminates in them having a talk in bed before the fall asleep a couple months after yuuri comes back where wolfram trys to explain how high up on a pedestel yuuri is in his mind and how, to him, it feels like them actually being together is just dragging yuuri down. And how yes, he loves yuuri romantically, but it's also so much more than that. He loves him as his  untouchable best friend who he was JUST getting used to always being out of romatic reach when yuuri got spirited away to earth for 8 months. He loves yuuri as his king. He loves him as an IDEAL. So being with him as his actual fiancé is going to be a slow process. It's a lot to recontextualize in wolfram's head.

But yuuri is fine with that because he's like 18ish/still a teenager at this point and wasn't ready to get married immediately anyway. 

Thanks for the invite to head canon dump on you. It feels good to share these vague ideas for a story i'll never write with another person who GETS the ship in the same way i do 💞

I'm also eager to hear any head canons/ideas you have about these 2. We're def on the same wavelength in terms of wanting to give the characters in kkm more context and agency outside of it being a silly little fantasy adventure thing (with a weirdly well fleshed out world, to be fair) 😂

REAL....... ur so real for everything here..... i think this is 100% how it would go. love the 2007 forums 😭 hes troubleshooting his homosexuality like its a game bug or smth thats so in-character i also agree w the wolf being startled by the reciprocation thing like he would 100% not be able to handle yuuri becoming "real" to him. like an actual option to date and stuff cuz my hc (bc i love suffering) is that he kind of likes or its convenient? that yuuri doesn't reciprocate cuz its so easy to be devoted when u dont have an actual relationship to talk abt and its one sided. it also gets more fanatical that way (aka yearning is stronger when it is left unfulfilled LOL) i also feel like he doesnt deserve it 2 some degree, not that hes not confident but that it's not his place. i feel like this is common in fanart/fic but where yuuri is like ok so can we kiss now and wolf is like ? kiss? we are a symbolic union between blah blah blah

BUT YEAH...... ALSO I LOVE THEM HAVING TALKS TOGETHER IN BED its just so.... like nice 2me...... the vibe of like having to sleep together.. the heart to hearts in bed is so funny but nice. the 16 year olds having a heart to heart while playing house (as a married couple) like the dissonance between their emotional immaturity and the tension and the closeness between them is so juicyyyy like SLEEPOVER TIME except ur discussing ur divorce arc w a 16 year old boysoldier who wants to die for you So Bad

my personal hcs/pure self indulgent bs under cut

ok first i feel like i have to clarify that i dont think that my hcs are canon i just like to have fun w kkm chars like dolls lmfaoooo..... but here are my self indulgent how-they-get-together-hcs ALSO its been like a solid two or three months since i last thought in depth abt kkm so i might be messing some details up

i kinda like the idea of wolf drifting apart from yuuri (from his constant rejection as well as duty and circumstance) and yuuri never reciprocates during this time (also never realizes) and eventually wolf goes off to bielefelt to do his duties and become the patriarch after everything settles. (i also like greta a lot so this is where she goes off to her own nation and wanders as a knight and alsooooo has a lesbianism with beatrice at around 20? years old..?) ANYWAYS they're in kind of awkward limbo and 2 yuuri wolf is someone he wishes he was closer to like when they were kids but isn't and he also avoids him from the guilt/shame of rejecting his feelings

at this pt yuuri has noticed in hindsight that he was in love w wolf but anyways something happens (like an attack) and wolf and yuuri are stuck living together again, wolf is once again risking his life for yuuri and his actions sort of betray that he's still just as in love w him as he was before they separated, he just decided that it would be better not to burden him with his feelings (at this pt he's self-aware that 16 year old wolf had a lot of baggage and codependency lumped in with love like the deifying stuff) and eventually yuuri reveals that he thinks he was in love with him too and wolf has to confront the fact that he wasn't looking for romance in the first place and also that yuuri is still too bright for him to touch (in his mind) so he's kinda like i do my job and u do urs for the good of this nation. BUT OFC they eventually get together after a lot of awkward divorcedness YAAAYYYYYYYY

OH ALSO unrelated to prev scenario but one thing i love ab ur hc and teen yuuram is the contrast between the world-ending desperation of wolf's love and the teenage first crush sweetness of yuuri's. I LOVE THE IDEA OF WOLF BEING LIKE. "i would die on the cross for you" (wiping the blood from his brow) and yuuri's just like "ok lets take this one step at a time" the part of the ship that's just yuuri getting to be an awkward gay teen and wolf eventually discovering awkward teen crushisms is sooo cute to me. like discovering that holding hands in a romantic context does not at all feel like what they did in the closet!! soo sweet and cute

ok ty for listening THIS IS SO LONG IM SORRRRYYYYYYYYY 😭😭😭😭 feel free 2 throw ur hcs at me anytime...!!! ^^

[placeinthisworld]

okay the secret session thing is so interesting to me cuz I feel like it completely altered the relationship sessioners have with Taylor on a fundamental level like in ways that I don’t even think they realise sometimes. I’m genuinely not trying to be mean cuz I completely get it like this woman that you’ve placed on a pedestal invited you in her home and she chose you at that !!!! Like this wasn’t just some random contest win or something oh no no no your idol stalked you and loved the way you support her so much that she’s gonna invite you to her house. The whole secrecy of it all makes a person feel like they’re together in on an inside joke or like they’re two friends conspiring together on the playground. The exclusivity afforded to a person based on their consistent and devout support means that to reach that high again well now you’re gonna keep it up. A fan might think well I even owe that same support to her indefinitely cuz she noticed me enough to invite me. The whole accounts of how Taylor remembered specific details of every person so of course that means that okay maybe they’re not friends but like one could feel like they’re still one step above the normal fan right. I still remember when one person back then said oh she has a few people around her that whisper specific details to them about the person she’s taking a picture with to give them a good experience like the pushback that got cuz how dare anybody suggest that Taylor didn’t just remember everything on her own. I think that sense of exclusivity was further fuelled through moments like Taylor saying only the sessioners know that one specific thing about that song. Okay I genuinely don’t think Taylor went into this with malicious intentions but I feel like the artist gets used to that power imbalance and kind of forgets how they can alter a person’s entire way of living through just small actions.

a lot of the more dangerous aspects were further fuelled through moments like Taylor giving these opportunities to people that are the absolute loudest and cutthroat about their support but then also kind of punishing actions she doesn’t like such as disappearing from tumble cuz she was constantly getting called out for her lack of support for the BLM movement.

sorry this was so so long 😅 I hope I’m not bothering you too much

yeah no i totally agree. as much as i enjoyed the secret session era…i think we can all agree it was totally for publicity and to have her audience feel closer to her (and we did!!) but i definitely feel like some people who went to them feel as though they’re somehow closer to ts or know more about her somehow and it’s just not the case lol, which is why i think it’s funny when those people overanalyze her behavior or things she says. it also does feel like some seasioners feel obligated to defend her all the time solely bc they spent a few hours with her 10 years ago lmao. i used to be sooooo jealous of sessioners tbh, but now im kinda glad i never got chosen. i think i would be one of those people that felt the need to defend and answer for her over everything just bc i had met her.

(SOO sorry for the late response ily♥️)

[anasartdump]

omggggggggggg im known as the nice anon?!?!?!?!?! that makes me so haaaaaaaaaaaappy!!!!!!! thank you for being so sweet and welcoming!!!!! im kind of shy and reaching out to people isn't something i normally do but i couldn't help it since your art is probababy some of the best i've ever seen for a fandom that i love as much as avatar!!!!!!!!!! i agree that jake and neytiri need some happyness after what happened to them and having babies would help with that!!!!!!! they seem like such great parents that i imagine them loving any and all kids they have sooooooooooo much <3 dont worry about my other request about the date night if you don't have any ideas!!!!!!! it was just a suggestion and i love your stuff anyway!!!!!! thats cool that you rp with youre friend though!!!!!! if you draw more stuff of them i will be here to love it all!!!!!!!!!! your the best!!!!!!! <3

Yeeeeeees! You're the nice anon XD

Hey, I'm kind of shy too so I get you! But sometimes reaching out is totally worth it, as this is how I met most of my friends (including @beautyofattolia my friend who helps give me ideas for stuff XD)

I'm really glad you liked my art so much you felt the need to reach out, thank you!!!

I'm really glad you liked my art so much you felt the need to reach out, thank you!!! 🥺🥺😭😭 Not many people do and sometimes it kinda unmotivates me, I love seeing what people think of my drawings since they take so long to do, depending on the one, so seeing people actually enjoy them and have amazing things to say about them is a huge motivater to keep me making art for the fandom 💙💖 So thank you for reaching out, it means a lot to me 💖💖💖

Yeah for sure! They're amazing parents and the babies are a nice way to make them happy after all the bad things that happened to them.

I loved all your suggestions and I'm keeping them in mind for when I feel the motivation to draw Jaytiri again, dw! 💖 Yeah me and my friend rp Jaytiri on discord and it's how I get most of mt drawing ideas xD she's the best!!!

Thanks a lot for all your love and support and keep coming back to my inbox whenever you feel like! I love reading all your messages, they give me pure joy 💖💞💕💙💖

[autumnshighlady]

ok this is so stupid but i really want to see neris and reader interactions,, like the small things, the comfort, the protectiveness,,,, ughh love what you've done w the story man, desperately waiting for the next part fr. (go on your own pace tho) glad to know i've shifted you a little bit on a azriel thing (devious smile) - ithink he's a good character for most people because he barely had a personality in the books and so we can usually make up stuff yk, like he's mostly just broody in the books and we're told stuff abt his personality but not shown it. can't wait to see what happens next! ohh also the dragon interactions!!! i wanna see those too!!! eris has hounds right,,, it wld be cute for them to protect nes and r tooo,,,, ahhh sorry this is literally just me ranting lol, obv feel free to ignore the reqs,,, i really want to let you know that your writing is good bc you seem to get less interactions than you should!! and a weird amt of hate lmao like whats w the people being rude about ialtpwf and wanting guys my age so badly, like i enjoyed it despite not particularly liking the daddy kink partbut like. really,, why so rude??? want to see how reader fares in front of beron too, i assume word of her power will reach him too/. anyway, how long are you planning on pushing the beron overthrowal thing (im being curious not being like ugh when are u plannign on ending it,, in case thats what it sounded like,, idk man im overthinking). oh also! want to see court relations with all of them after berons gone. before berons gone. all of it, i want them to be better leaders/people to the court people yk. oh!! also lucien-reader friendship!!! love that!! we havent seen much of it but hes def the kind of guy to tease r abt eris when they start actually flirting and getting near a relationship yk. eris-lucien brotherhood too tho, obviously. also the lady of the autumn court!! watching them bond w her!!! ahh jfoisfkjmdofikndfvg ium sorry have a great day today1!! hope you rest well after that long ass shift. oh yeah i agree w you on the feyre thing, she's def just mostly like a pawn to rhys yk, i think she was better as a char when she was w tamlin tbh, altho obviously i dont want her to be with someone who kind of abused her without any groveling at least/ cant wait to see more interactions fr!!!! oh when i said in the story, i meant the actual books, well and yourss but the actual books mainly! anyway i think you've managed to be realistic w all of them in a way that is good. bye! oh same anon as last time. should i give myself a name, is that fine,, i'll choose * anon. sure.

i can’t wait for you to see more of the neris x reader interactions! you’ll love it. i feel like i’ve done a decent job of their dynamic so i’m super proud of it so far.

Azriel’s journey is one i have planned out - it’s going to be complicated because yk he’s been loyal to rhys for 500 years and that’s not suddenly going to change, but he will continue to play a role.

you’ll see more of the dragons for sure! and the hounds will be involved too so fear not ;)

yeah idk why people got so weird about guys my age like i’m glad they enjoyed it of course but i kinda did everything i wanted to do with that fic so i don’t feel i have anything else to add to it if that makes sense

beron will play a bigger role soon! as far as them overthrowing him, prob within a couple chapters maybe a bit longer. im still playing around w the details of how exactly it’s going to happen

expect a LOT more lucien and lady of autumn in the later chapters! i love love love writing for lucien so i’ve got special stuff for him planned hehe

tons more interactions to come. more lucien, azriel, gwyn and emerie, cassian, etc. thank you for your message angel and NEVER apologize for rambling - nobody has taken the time to say this much about my fic so far in one go so i LOVE reading these. send as many as you want <3

[the-sinners-paradise]

hiii i love your hcs so much 🥺 can i request platonic hcs of nazuna, nagisa, ibara & mitsuru playing around with a younger sibling reader? thank you in advance! 🥺❤️

» helloooo!! tysm, anon, im glad to hear that! also wow-za, what's with all the sibling hcs these days, huh? /nm ☆

prompt: playing around with your older sibling

character(s): nazuna nito, nagisa ran, ibara saegusa, mitsuru tenma

pairing(s): N/A, platonic w/ gn!reader

warnings: N/A, fluff

☆ — NAZUNA NiTO !!

nazuna's idea of 'playing around' centers mostly around playing video games with him. one that he has really been into ever since you two were little is the sims and he hasn't stopped playing it ever since. you always get to watch in amazement as he creates perfect replicas of you and himself and then does all kinds of crazy shenanigans with those little characters.

if you're going out somewhere, though, nazuna also has a lot of activities you two could do! he keeps a lot of the toys from your childhood, so stuff like frisbees, various sports balls and even hula hoops are practically on hand at any given moment. it's like a kindergarten gym closet inside your house.

nazuna may not look like it, but he can definitely be aggressive when he's playing competitively. this is especially proven true when he nearly tackled you down a hill when you two were playing some makeshift version of football. in the end, you ended up with a bruise or two, but he swore he would make up for it. (he bought you ice cream everyday for a week)

he doesn't really play any kind of rpg or competitive games by himself, but you should know sitting down with him and battling it out in a pvp game will end in your total demise. he isn't exactly a gamer by any means, so it's almost impressive how you can hand him any game and he'll learn it almost immediately.

also, he's known to give in almost instantly if he notices you're sad about losing. sometimes he'll even mess up on purpose, even if he knows you'll notice, just so you can win.

☆ — NAGiSA RAN !!

nagisa is a strange case when it comes to playing around with you, because he's so invested in his own thing that it's pretty much impossible to tear him away from it. he'll continue to tell you “i'll be there in a second” and then continue his own hobby for another hour.

if you really insist on hanging out with him, you'll probably end up watching some kind of documentary related to gemstones or rocks, or he's going to sit you down just to talk about the things he likes. of course, you get a turn too! that new show you watched last week? he's all ears, tell him about it!

okay, you're really pushing your luck when you're making him go outside, but since he's your brother, he doesn't complain too much. actually, he ends up quite enjoying your trips to shopping centers, even though he doesn't seem thrilled about it any time you bring it up. he always finds something of interest, though, and one time he bought a bunch of little crystals and made you a bracelet out of them. “they remind me of you” or something of the sort.

actually, on that note, while he would rather not be known for it, nagisa is pretty good at making little jewelry items like that. you and hiyori are the only ones that get to own them, but he's made some for other people too, just refuses to gift them. sometimes, if you somehow manage to catch him when he's making them, you two do it together. in the end, there's probably ten bracelets on each of your arms.

☆ — iBARA SAEGUSA !!

ibara "i don't have time for games" saegusa.

well, until you start getting annoying, that is. ibara never lashes out at you, but it's very clear when he reaches a limit with being asked to "hang out". getting him to abandon whatever he's doing is difficult, but he's more likely to agree if he's already having a bad day. for you, it's easy to tell, because he starts groaning a lot and is significantly slower whenever doing anything. it's almost as if he's half asleep..

you usually take him out to a café or maybe even a diner whenever you notice he's stressing out. it's not so much playing around, but his snarky personality immediately returns when he's finally relaxed. he enjoys picking on you and, don't tell anyone, but he often ruffles up your hair and pinches your cheek if he thinks your reactions to his teasing are 'cute'. again, you can't tell anyone, remember?

the only way to get ibara involved in games that involve him moving around a lot is if you steal his glasses. yes, he knows you'll just give them back if he doesn't engage, but it seems as though every time you do it, his first instinct is to get up and start chasing you. it's difficult to see, you know? just give them back!

honestly, he's willing to do anything you ask for if it entertains you, especially whenever you catch him in one of those moods where he doesn't feel like working. even if you want to do something outlandish like going to disneyland, he's still more likely to agree than the average person.

☆ — MiTSURU TENMA !!

if you want misturu's attention, you have to get it his way or you won't be able to get it at all.

as a hyperactive guy, he's always finding new ways to entertain himself with “only the things nature has provided him”.. and you find out what that means when you two end up going to a forest and he catches a fish with his bare hands, before releasing it into the water after showing off his catch to you. “pretty cool, right?”

he's the type of person who would run around, jump on rocks and climb on trees, so make sure to keep up! oh well, but if you can't, he'll always stop to help you. mitsuru loves helping you, and especially loves the feeling of being the older brother! he wants to protect you and take care of you, so make sure you tell him whenever you're in need of anything.

if you really insist on doing something inside rather than outside, then you'll probably either be making a mess out of the kitchen or playing sports indoors. you can't get mitsuru to sit down for a second, so stuff like puzzles are completely off the table. but at least you always have fun baking with him! although everything ends up a mess, at least you can forget your worries for a little while.

if you're really lucky you might be able to play video games or board games with him. it's super rare for him to finish the game with you, but he's actually pretty good when he gets invested in it. the problem? he often finds it boring if there's very little happening, so you have to keep his attention on the game the whole time.

[filthybonnet]

Hey, I happened to stumble upon that Wil Wheaton post in which you discussed about the "terf" comment. I read the post and how "civillized" (lol) the op and the reblogs replied to you and i wanted to say that I hope you are doing fine. Attacking and dehumanizing women suddenly is ok as long as we dont agree with their opinions ig (on matters that dont call out hating and truly harming minorities) Dont expect common sense from the majority of tumblr users on this topic, im afraid. Nevertheless, I hope you are doing fine and keep up the good work with your stories!! (from an imperatively anon user)

Thank you so much for the kind thoughts and words. I am doing quite fine. What struck me so deep about that was I was a fan of Wil Wheaton. I was under no impression that he was a perfect, infallible human being that was knocked off a pedestal. What cut me about it was I enjoyed his work, I enjoyed that he was a geek and that he could casually spit so much vile and hate at a person after being a victim of the same type of thing. The fact that he could model that this is as ok behavior to all his other fans.

Also a little personal background on Wil Wheaton. My dad is a HUGE Big Bang Theory fan. He and I planned a trip out to LA to attend a filming in 2018. The episode filming we went to had Wil Wheaton in it; it was one of the episode where he was now Professor Proton so I got to see him in person. It was so much fun and such a special moment for my dad and I. For him to personally attack me like that kind of taints the memory a little.

I don’t expect common sense from tumblr. I don’t expect common sense from a lot of people on this subject. I’ve lost real life friends over this. My relationship with my sister is strained over this. We used to be so close but she unfriended and blocked me on facebook. When I reached out and said I wanted to meet up and talk in person about this because in person is so much easier, things aren’t misunderstood. So we planned a lunch date on neutral ground then an hour before it she sent me a text saying she was ok with what she did and didn’t feel like she needed to explain herself.

I’m just really fortunate that my best friend shares the same belief (she’s actually more extreme than me) and my other close friend agreed to disagree with me on the subject because we have over a decade of friendship invested in each other and plenty of other things in common. I also have another friend who is a mixture of beliefs on the issues, it’s not all one way and the other. I don’t know what I would do without them.

Thank you again. <3 I’m glad to know there are others out there.

[gradelstuff]

I’m interested in what you think of her interview. I’m disappointed about him not trying to send a message about society but I feel sorry for how difficult the last act must’ve been.

About this post

Ended up being a bit long, so I put my comments under a read more ahshs

I'm also disappointed!! It felt like a cop-out to say he's not trying to deliver any messages, possibly because the social themes he did show in the story didn't work out how he wanted it to. Or maybe he thought the fantasy-esque problems he created were getting a little too realistic and decided to cut it back.

Horikoshi also could've meant that he didn't intend to deliver a message at first, but delivering a message -to the society of MHA- is what ended up happening (not for RL though, ig). But that is an issue in itself, since so far Hori hasn't left any impactful messages in the MHA world at all (at least no messages from the villains, who imo tried to voice many important issues in current hero society).

I don't think Hori's statement absolves him of anything either way. Horikoshi put themes in his story that he had to deliver on, and he did it whether it was done well or not (depends on the reader's opinion tbh). With 2 chaps left we're just gonna have to wait to see how he wants to handle the MHA-verse and whatever message is left in it and we have to remember its totally unrelated to RL too dhajajk

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Ngl, I felt kind of hollow when Horikoshi said he wanted to bring his readers to tears;; It made me remember Tomura, and I did not cry or get emotional when he 'died' in the series. I was mostly confused about what happened bc it happened so fast and out-of-nowhere. I still feel like that, which sucks.

Ofc there were many moments in the series that *did* leave me emotional, like Twice's death, but that moment w/Tomura currently stands out the most to me and that's what I thought about when I first read the interview snippets.

If Tomura really did "die," then his death should've been handled better. Same w/Toga if she's gone. Dabi and Spinner did rip me apart so far though

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Also yeah I agree about how Act 3 must've been rough for Horikoshi. I'm glad he's almost done with the series. I complain a lot, but it's obvious he was tired during many parts of the manga and needed a break. One example is when there were a bunch of blank spaces during the AFO and Yoichi backstory. or literally him just killing off 3 major villains all in 1 single chapter.

Working 36 hours straight sounds like hell, and emotionally draining. It's gonna be sad when the series ends, but at this point people would want the series to end just so Horikoshi can finally get the rest that he seriously deseves. Also Hori's editors man,, i don't know if I can trust some of the ones he talks about if im honest. Not all of them sound like great ppl

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Horikoshi: The person who reaches out to you and pats your shoulder and tells you it’ll be okay becomes the person who saves your life. So I think My Hero Academia might end somewhere like that.

This part reminded me of AM patting deku and bkg on the back,,, which did not make me happy,,, Idk if this was also a reference to Tomura (w/izuku),,, which also made me more unhappy sjfhdsjfds 💀

And also, by this logic, didn't AFO save Tenko by "patting him on the shoulder and telling him everything will be ok"? I'm serious, isn't AFO the first person who did this 'act of kindness' in the series 😭 AFO also pat ShigAFO's shoulder a lot and told him it would all work out while they were in the cave too 💀💀💀💀 i am just so done here man

[the1975attheirverybest]

No that’s so true, it is him. It’s really sad because whenever im drunk all I think about is him but whenever he’s drunk, it’s like he hates me and im getting in his way of having a good time.

I feel I’ve made an awful mistake agreeing to move back home for uni, but atleast I’ve realised it now before we’ve decided to move in together and stuff. I mean look at me, 21 years old and thinking about getting house with a guy??? I’m literally a baby 🥹 I don’t want to move back home next year and live here forever, I want to experience life away from my family again, I really enjoy that and my family enjoy seeing me happy when im away too. He’s the only person that isn’t happy about it.

Don’t get me wrong I wasn’t expecting him to be really happy about me wanting to move away, but I didn’t expect him to persuade me to stay. I don’t have many friends at home, but he argued that I have “no friends at uni” which is so not true. I have lots of amazing friends at uni.

I took him to Edinburgh last week as a birthday trip for him. It was a disaster. He was on his phone the whole time, even at dinner. I was looking around when we were in bars and stuff and people were so engrossed in their conversations and here I was staring at my boyfriend who was constantly on his phone. He complained the whole time about anything and everything, and it really got to me because I’m a broke student rn, I don’t really have the money to be taking us to Edinburgh but I saved for it and he didn’t really appreciate it.

All of these things are just adding up and adding up. I’m really scared to break up with him, he’s so manipulative and I know it won’t be a clean break up, he’ll call me for months and won’t stop texting me. Even if I block his number, he’ll find a way. And stupid me will forgive him because it’s easier to see him content than angry and upset.

Thank you so much tho to both you and Vee! I need you both on my shoulders all day repeating your advice to me 😂 you’re both so lovely and Im so glad I reached out. I don’t feel stupid anymore like he makes me feel. 🩷🩷

Is there any way that you can get out of moving back? If you break up with him, could you get a flat share with a friend or something? You don’t have to do this! Not if you don’t want to!

What a selfish person he must be to feel entitled enough to spend his birthday trip, an expensive and difficult thing to save up for, on his phone! I’d wanna spend a special time like this with my loved ones, socially the loved one who planned this whole trip!!!! Fr I think if anyone did something that sweet for me I might just cry.

I hope you’ll dump his ass sooner rather than later. It doesn’t sound like he appreciates how giving you are. In fact it sounds like he takes advantage of your kindness. There are only so many chances you can give to someone who isn’t reciprocating.

I know it’s hard. But you have to remember that it’s over. He may not WANT it to be over, which is why he’ll have things to say and try to reach out, but you don’t even have to read his texts or emails or dms or anything. You can just delete them or have a friend do it for you. Once it’s over, you’re not his gf anymore you don’t owe him time or energy or respect. He’s a stranger to you. You got shit to do. A life to live.

Please write back soon to give me the good news that you left him. 🩷

[butmemostly]

Your post already made a lot of valuable points that I don’t think I can add anything new. But thank you so much bc I agree 100% with your post on why sprace in the newsies circle makes me uncomfortable as well. Personally I’m not a huge Sprace fan myself but the way the characters are stripped of so much personality/individual traits for the sake of shipping and then in turn sexualized in order to make content, esp considered it’s towards their musical counterparts is. Not great to say the least. I’m sure that the sexualization is unfortunately in part because there’s generations of not great content of some aged some fics to back up the trends, but personally I can’t find a lot of interest in the ship just because of how lackluster Race or Spot are written due being pushed into generalized troupes. This is a lot of rambling, I just want to say you’re so in the right and also very good analysis.

YO thanks for the message!! glad to hear that my post reached some people. i was kind of neutral on sprace for a while, i mostly found it amusing that it existed in general yk? but especially after watching the movie, which i feel gives a lot more character to both of them (spot especially) as well as actual basis for the ship, i've grown a lot more fond of it. and having only watched the movie like, a week ago for the first time?, it's just really made me realize how sprace content clearly rooted in the musical depictions of the characters is just so... bland and sexualized. it feels like Nothing. listen, i loveeee btc and tommy bracco as much as the next guy i really do, but i'm at the point where i see art of them as sprace and im like. ive had enough of this guy meme. i love livesies and have been feeding off of only the stage show for 5 years but the longer i go after having seen the movie the more annoyed i am at livesies' watering down of some of the characters. i could write a whole essay on that alone so i won't do that right here at 1 am. but despite fanon purposefully blurring the lines between depictions of newsies (which i'm definitely a fan of), i find it so hard to feel anything about musical!sprace anymore. like at this point it just feels like fandom made up a couple of twinks to do gay together. like who are these people. i want that twink obliterated‼️

[putterphubase]

same anon as before. i just want to clarify that i am totally okay with bls not having any kissing scenes, like they don't have to show that kind of stuff. i was just so invested in this show that i... i guess i was hoping a kiss would happen? like that cute fluffy lil innocent moment, which i thought was going to happen when they were both sleepily talking to each other sitting in bed where they'd shy away from each other afterwards and then maybe just cuddle until they fell asleep. also dayeol's behavior towards taehyun whenever he showed an interest really was weird. i get being cautious about being turned down again but four years have passed and this guy is clearly showing an interest in you now so why act so weird about it. i was afraid they were going to make the point of 'but i'm a guy and you're a guy' and i'm so glad that didn't happen. i hate when bls do that, just say you've got secret homophobic tendencies and move on.

i also totally agree with the four year time jump being weird, not having a lot of what happened explained, how easy it was for the two to meet back up after the first two years went by - like so yeong and dayeol made it seem like they meet up often or they've at least stayed in touch but then when so yeong calls taehyun and he comes running, it's made out to be like it's the first time they've met up since dayeol left school. having it be months instead of years that they've met up and then showing over those years, even if it was just glimpses, of how their relationship had slowly developed until it got to the point where they were comfortable enough around each other to show their romantic feelings would have been better than just blindly jumping in to four years after dayeol's confession. i want to know what happened in the mean time, don't leave me guessing there.

also where the heck did dayeol wanting to be a cop come from? it couldn't have been what he meant when he said he found something to focus his passion on back when he quit the archery team. the only thing that could even lead to him wanting to be a cop would be the fact that he's a good shot but g*ns are different than arrows and i feel like that's just too far of a reach to make sense. tell me why this kid came to the conclusion that he wanted to be a cop. no aspect of his life shown tells me being a cop was his desired career path. what happened that made him want to chose that path? and yeah, what the heck is taehyun doing with his life? all we know is that he's good at math and he gets his homework done early.

don't get me wrong though, i thoroughly enjoyed the series and i'd kill for another season. or even just another series with yechan and jaehan together because they've got great chemistry and their acting was pretty good. it's probably a series i will watch again, i'll just skip the last episode and pretend like it didn't end weirdly lololol

this is extremely long so for the sanity of everyone i will be read more-ing

oh no i totally get you on the kiss, and i think after all the whiplash/their relationship changing/them growing as people and as partners/the angst and time they had to work through/i could keep going a kiss would've shown their growth through all that nicely. the ear kiss was cute but even like an earnest forehead kiss or something. edit after rereading your ask: also theres nothing wrong with hoping for a kiss!!!!!!!!!! i didnt mean it like that at all, we should be able to see queer kisses like it's anything else!!

i will admit during ep 7 i was like why did i actually enjoy their push and pull dynamic more than this....they did the flirty "i have a crush on you and im toeing the line of friendship" VERY well but (and by no fault of the actors really) the "we're finally dating after like 4 years" dynamic change shouldve done and given....a lot more. i liked their talk on the bed but at the same time like i felt like i just needed more. we can't jump from "we reunited after 2 years and im waiting on you to confess" to "ok we are dating now and everything is fine" like i actually would've preferred instead of the fluffiness them having like a really earnest open talk about their emotions. like that even really could have replaced a kiss for me. LIKE THINK ABOUT IT....the fact that we don't even know for sure if they were dating in this last ep is crazy???? and i dont mean "its just ambigious" i mean THEY NEVER TALK ABOUT THEIR RELATIONSHIP SERIOUSLY......if they did that off screen then that makes no fucking sense, this is a romance coming of age drama and the romance is the plot....the getting together is the climax?

i need a huge emotional heart to heart, sobbing crying if you have to after all that and MULTIPLE YEARS OF PINING. i know theyve grown as people but dude the guy youve been longing for for four (holy shit at the english language??) YEARS (on both of their sides) is finally in a place where you can be together. HELLO? you skipped all that and just gave us the fluff...? (although i did enjoy the fluff but would've liked it more if they gave us this).

i totally get why you were scared of that happening and yea it sucks. you don't even have to show it on screen but they don't have to suddenly act like 2 men kissing is weird and out of left field lol yall have been gay pining for 4 fucking years.

this is probably the most important part to show to the viewer and they kinda just skipped over it. youre right, to leave us guessing on the emotional journey they went on to be where they were in ep. 7 is a huge failure narratively......sigh.

with dayeol and his cop thing.....when he quit archery, and said he "found a passion for something else" i actually threw my hands in the air. i was terrified he meant taehyun. like we can't have a crush or a relationship and still have interests and hobbies? i realize they were trying to say him meeting taehyun made him realize what being passionate about something really is and he came to the conclusion he was never really passionate about archery. but to jump from THAT to being a cop???????? like we could've had him had a convo with his dad in like 2 minutes about quitting archery and wanting to do something else and mentioning being interested in criminal justice. or was he still friends with minjung? maybe minjung couldve become a cop and that got him interested since he looked up to him? guess we will never know what happened to someone dayeol was quite close to?

all the things they missed by completely glossing over the time skip. i am choosing to believe time and budget constraints led to all these decisions. taehyun was dressed nicely but never mentioned interests or hobbies. he was class president even with all the things going on in his personal life. did he not grow any interests or hobbies? they literally never even mention things going on in the outside world besides dayeols cop journey. they dont even mention taehyun's friendship with soyeong - are they still close? she hangs out with dayeol but not taehyun? i get she had a crush on dayeol but still, how does that work and they dont meet for 2 whole years? ??? i really liked soyeong though as a side note she was the cutest.

in a perfect world this couldve been perfect i believe with time to flesh out the characters as adults because this was extremely rushed. i had high hopes bc of the other eps and the longer (by kbl standards) runtime, so i hoped that these things wouldnt be such a glaring issue but alas....we still have a ways to go.

i didnt read the source material so i wonder if that has anything to do with some of this as well. jaehan and yechan did an amazing job. i hope they act more whether together (i would die) or not (i would be seated regardless). i also hope this does well for omega x in general, they deserve it.