#im getting summer 2016 flashbacks

[archrries]

Every single day I think about the fact that Alex Hirsch waited almost a decade to make billford canon and when he did, he made it a messy divorce

[sugawaras]

I have been so inactive recently but haikyuu ch 369 holy crap

[ivemadeanopinion]

Hello! This is my first post on this account. I recently posted about something political on my other account, and thought that I didn't want any politics on there really :)

I'm a 14 year old girl who really wants to formulate her own opinion and break away from my father's. He's a strong republican, prolife, doesn't believe in climate change, and thinks liberalism is a mental illness, or something along those lines. He basically assumes everyone from the other side is stupid. (Though, it wouldn't be infactual to say I've seen Democrats say so too about republicans.)

I hate sitting in my house, hearing my dad rant on and on about these things no one in my household cares about, and I thought, why not care? Why not care and begin to formulate my own opinion???

The amount of times I've embarrassed myself in school. Like I said, my father doesn't believe in climate change. I have a huge personality. So I've said it before. Tried to discuss it. And people look at me as if I'm insane. I didn't know better.

Whether you're republican, a Democrat, whatever you are, I'm open minded to any information, articles or anything you have to provide.

Please, although people can be assholes, not ALL people are assholes. Everyone is entitled to their opinion. On this blog I will try to avoid saying anyone is dumb, or say things negative about them. Discussing opinions is okay. There is no need to take it further than that.

I'd appreciate having a civil discussion. I might give you information my father has told me, and I wouldn't mind if you explained why he is wrong.

I don't believe that all Republicans are bad. I don't believe that all liberals are bad. I don't believe that a whole entire group of people is bad. Just certain people inside it. Yet every day I see posts bashing entire groups of people, defined by their gender, looks, race, sexuality other than what they believe in. There are always nice people in a bad group, and bad people in a nice group. (Of course, depending on how vague you go. If you say pro life, you arent saying that they're pro "you have to always give birth even if it's a child from rape." That isn't every person in the pro life community.)

Though I understand how posts go, and when you say "republicans" and stuff. It makes sense. I'm probably gonna say "most republicans" in my posts though, when it ever comes across, because it's a preference I guess. My whole family is republican and seeing the ones who aren't super terrible like my dad be grouped up in there just bothers me i guess.

That's the main opinion I stand for, and here's why (huge rant ahead. TLDR at the end of the lines. I reccomend you read, but it's alright if not.);

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When I began going to school, out in Florissant, Missouri, as early as kindergarten, I was bullied. Practically everyone in that school was black. I grew up in the hood area, I would say. Not as bad as some places, but still quite bad. Soon enough, I was bullied for being white. I've had people tell me that there's no way that's why I was bullied. Well, kids saying i should 'go to hell for being white', probably is an indicator, but what do I know? I was terrified. I kept to myself. My only friends became the special ed kids. Rachel and Summer were my best friends. Summer passed away in 2016. I wasn't informed till late 2017, by seeing my friends yearbook.

Nevertheless, I was called racial slurs, I was literally 'the plauge'. I blocked most of it out, it's trauma, but I can just remember trying to play a game with people and they say "the white girl is infected!!! Don't touch her!!" And, well, I didn't get to play with them. I played with Rachel instead, but she thought they were just playing tag. She didn't understand why they were running away. (They ran from her because she was special ed. She wasnt white.) It all got worse after the Ferguson riots. I was about 9 then.

I made my first friend in 3rd grade. His name was Kenan. He was outcasted because he was a crybaby. We became friends, but I still didn't play many games. Then Cayl'E came along in 5th grade. She was friends with everyone. She ended up becoming my best friend. Now she is family to me. She made everyone actually realize, that I might not be a terrible person just because of how I look. people still didn't touch me for a while. (not letting me be involved in house, no one picking me for heads up 7s up, etc, not like some weird stufd) but it soon got better for a few people. (Definitely not all. I can still name 3 kids that made my final weeks of 5th grade TORTURE. Yes, I cried really loud during the date ceremony because this kid was purposely overstimulating me)

Most traumatic time at that school? This might sound like the most fake part, but no, this is real; My 5th grade brother calling a 1st grader short, and a bunch of middle school kids (they looked tall) running up and beating the shit out of him. I was in 3rd grade. I had to run to find help. I couldn't help my brother, from getting beat up by like 20 guys. In hindsight, it probably wasn't that many, but I was in 3rd grade, I over exaggerated a lot.

I moved in 6th grade. Out to a better school. I was scared of the loud kids. And soon enough became used to it. Now I have a huge personality. I'm open, and today even walked in on my brothers zoom meeting to say my armpits smelled like burritos then walking away. Im not scared anymore. Most of the time. Sometimes I have flashbacks, but we don't need to discuss that.

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TLDR: I was severely bullied because of my skin color. I have some post traumatic stress from it it was quite bad. Yet through it, I made friends who helped me, despite the color of my skin. So through every bad there is good.

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What I'm trying to say from that is, not all white people are bad. Not all black people are bad. Just the certain people who made me so hurt much today. They didn't mean it though (I hope. A couple kids apologized about two years after moving.)

Not every group is bad just because you've had a bad experience with a few people. There are always kind people out there.

Whether I'm one is your decision, and whether you want to discuss some politics about like climate change, abortion or whatever, is also up to you.

Sorry for going on and on. Hope to hear back from anyone! (In a hopefully civilized discussion, I'm 14, not 54.) Oh and!! Don't be shy due to my age. I know way too much, I'm on the internet! I might be impressionable and stuff, but what's more impressionable? An opinion I can hear the facts to, or whatever the hell my dad is going on about? I've been stuck with this nutcase for forever, I wanna be able to say something about it.

[7wanderingpaws]

9. Surprises. (Another Life)

Genre: magic / soulamte AU

Pairing: Jackson x reader

Word Count: 5.9K

Song: Ariana Grande - Thinking Bout You

Synopsis: You are more than happy in relationship with Jackson Wang, the hard-working and successful fencer representing Hong Kong. So what happens when you visit a local witch wanting to know more about your future as a couple? Because you always knew he was the right one for you. Even in another life. But would he really be the one?

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(( Finally, the promised chapter! Im sorry it didnt go up on time. Its quite long so prepare yourselves and enjoy it. Thank you for reading <3 ))

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“I can’t because I need to focus on my career at the moment,” he added quickly when he saw your beautiful smile slowly fade. “I’m so busy I would never have proper time to spend with you...”

Hong Kong, 2017

If anyone would have told you that you would land the job, you would probably laugh at them. Nobody ever would have given you a good enough reason.

But you did.

And now you were satisfied.

Working for big companies as an accountant maybe wasn’t that special for everyone but for you it was just okay. You could manage and at least people treated you with higher importance. Furthermore, Sara was now gaining lots of followers because of her life style blog in Hong Kong and since she made a business out of her passion, you were also in charge of her tiny financial department. 

Also, you would sometimes (always) follow her around the city to make instragram-worthy pictures, eat fancy food (that you truly couldn’t afford), talk to people (that you would normally never stop to talk).

On the bright side though, you were almost always packed with work load. There were mountains of invoices, confirmations and documents that had to be briefed, that you literally had a headache every morning when you saw your table in the office.

It was good. Once you started to work yourself through the papers, you would forget about many things. For example, you would forget that you had to meet your parents today, you would forget that Martin was lurking around you with a threat of a proposal, you would forget about the dreadful meetings you would have to sit through later today, forget about the sneaky boss who would touch you whenever he had a chance, forget about the stupid, stupid and ever more stupid dreams you kept having that were making you cry even more than ever before, forget about throwing up. And… And… Forget about Jackson Wang. For a little second at least. Please. Dear heavens, make him disappear.

“You know it’s scientifically impossible,” chirped in Sara as she threw herself on the sofa in your tiny apartment. You still lived in the shabby flat but you were emotionally attached to it. And no money to move. Yet.

“Sara,” you sighed, scratching your head as you were sitting over another invoice. You saw too many zeroes on it. “Not now, please. I beg you.”

Sara thought about your plea for a moment before she decided to shrug her shoulders as if nothing happened. “I know, Y/N, I know but why don’t you at least answer his calls? And messages? We both know he doesn’t have much time for typing away since he is as busy as a 24/7 schedule can be, but your phone does ring a lot.”

“Well, frankly, I don’t have all the time to be on my phone. I actually have to make money with brains in order to survive.”

“Oh damn, look at you, you tough cookie,” Sara laughed out loud. “Today I planned to go to the Kowloon peak-”

“I really can’t make it today, Sara, I’m sorry,” you said, genuinely meaning it as you looked into her fair eyes. She looked so pretty you sometimes were worried you looked too bad standing next to her. She found herself a local Hong Konger (William was a cool guy, you liked him) who was working in the sports business. “I have so much and I have to rush back to the office. I think I can focus there the most.”

“But-but you already work your ass off so much. Why don’t you leave the shitty work place and the sneaky bastard boss and just come to my little firm? I can pay you enough, I promise,” said Sara pleadingly.

She had been talking about this for quite some while now. Sara did get enough money for her to afford to hire you. But the problem was that you needed some sense of work stereotype, so you wouldn’t lose your mind.

“I love my work,” you blurted out and snorted right away.

Sara laughed loudly, pointing at you with her index finger in the process. “Ah, dear, I love you so much. You are so funny.”

You shrugged your shoulders, smiling. “And I love you, Sarita.”

Sara sighed and you both fell into a peaceful silence. The clock on the kitchen wall was ticking away the time that you should be spending on calculating through confirmations but you were there, sitting and smiling.

“Martin confessed,” you said silently as you folded your arms on your chest.

Sara sat up properly, her eyes wide with surprise. “What?” she leaned her elbows on her knees. “Oh my god, do you think he is going to propose?”

“It seems like it,” you muttered, somehow not that excited about the thought. “He said many lovely things and he is a true gentleman-”

“But?”

“But,” you sighed, turning around in your chair. “I don’t think it is possible.”

“Of course it isn’t possible!” exclaimed Sara, throwing her hands in the air and stood up. “You guys are not meant to be, for Christ’s sake.” Her slender figure was walking up and down your small room. It seemed like she was thinking rather intently before her blue eyes snapped to your stiff figure. “Don’t take me wrong, Y/N, he is a great guy and before Jackson appeared I really wanted to hit you two up. But it is not possible anymore.”

Gulping, you nodded. “Yes, I totally agree. Maybe I can just be in a relationship with him like till now and in case he would insist, I would just break up with him and be single forever.”

“Jackson is such a-”

“-asshole-”

“-gorgeous man.”

You glared at your friend.

“How thoughtful of him that he wouldn’t want you to wait for him-”

“Because he doesn’t love me!” you flared up, your heart racing up on the Everest.

“He does love you and if everything he is doing is not a good enough proof, than you have to open your goddamn eyes, Y/N!”

That shut you up pretty quickly. Sara’s words were mingling in your mind, combining, mixing, adding up… Nope. He didn’t love you.

“I can see the doubt all over your face, dear,” sighed Sara as she walked to you and gave your shoulder a gentle squeeze. “He has been writing you ever since 2016 when you guys finally met. Even when he had a new phone number he would let you know. He always makes sure you are good and healthy and if he is in the city, he comes to visit.”

“What are you trying to prove right now?” you asked, dumbfounded. “Because I am suffering without him.”

“And he is suffering without you.”

“He is not,” you said quietly, gritting your teeth. “Sara.” You stood up to face her. “It is because of him in the first place that all of us had to relive our lives just so he could chase his dreams. He was not happy enough, not thankful enough before while I was the happiest in the previous life. I was a doctor, I had a loving family and him beside me since we were freaking fifteen. Yesterday, I had a flashback how he-” your voice broke at the thought.

Sara waited patiently, her eyebrows slowly rising. “How he what?”

You looked her in the eyes but you couldn’t speak.

Phuket, Thailand, 2017

“This place is gorgeous,” you breathed as you stared out of the window of the resort you were currently residing in. There were barely any tourists around this time not to mention the resort and the island itself was quite the little Thai secret.

Jackson who was unpacking from your suitcases smiled fondly at your back. “I’m glad you like it, sweetheart.”

Was the sea covered in diamonds? It was sparkling and glistening from the reflection of the blazing sun that was about to set right in front of your eyes.

“How on earth did you even find this place?” you asked, genuinely curious as you turned to help him out. You grabbed your flowery summer dresses and hang them neatly in the massive wardrobe. 

“That will have to stay a secret,” answered Jackson, smiling cheekily.

“Ah, really? Are you gonna play this game now?”

He shrugged. “I have good contacts and quite a few medals by now. I can weave my way through anything.”

You laughed out loud, not wanting to continue this conversation. “Okay, dear.”

Jackson stopped and pouted at you. “Are you already giving up on me? Why don’t you bother more?”

You looked at him, confused. “Why? Maybe it’s better to keep it a secret. It has a lovely magic to it,” you winked at his puppy face.

He didn’t answer. However when you were about to reach into his suitcase for his pants to place them into the wardrobe, he swiftly snatched them away, trying to look maximally nonchalant as he placed them safely into the wardrobe, hoping you wouldn’t become suspicious.

“I can’t wait to be in that pool,” you hummed contently as you were folding his shirts. “It looks absolutely lush.”

“You will go into that pool under my supervision only,” said Jackson and took one of your clothes. “I cannot have anything happening to you.”

You giggled. “It’s about time I learn to swim.”

Jackson stopped, taken aback by your sudden wish. “Really? Is that what you want?”

“So I won’t drown.”

“Obviously,” Jackson snickered. “I can teach you.”

“I know you can,” you said, not looking his way. “But I will go with that trainer I saw in the lobby.”

Jackson’s smile changed into a confused expression and then into a dissatisfied scowl. “That handsome trainer?”

“I didn’t say he was handsome,” you winked at him, placing the last pieces of clothing onto the shelves. You turned to his tense posture. “You said it. But I agree,” you patted his cheek.

He frowned down at you. “Really, Y/N? Are you gonna play this game?”

“Aren’t we all about games?”

He groaned loudly turning away from you making you laugh hard. 

“You know I love you, babyyy!” you wailed, still laughing.

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It had been two days in the wonderland and as expected you didn’t even dare to enter the attractive pool that was overlooking the entire bay. You would sit on the pool’s edge, soaking your feet while Jackson was swimming and working out to not fall out of his training routine.

Sometimes he would stop by your legs, push himself up to steal a kiss with a massive grin and then go back underwater.

There were a few more tourists visiting at the resort and you still barely saw them; this way you had the pool all to yourselves only.

“Hey, Jackson,” you said as he was on the other side just turning for another lap. He stopped, looking up at you in question. “I want to go in.”

He blinked a few times before he smiled happily and swam to you to hold you tight. “And what about the swimming part?” he asked once he ghosted his cold fingers over your thighs, making you shiver. You held onto his arms as you slid your butt down into the cold water. You yelped silently, momentarily dizzy.

“Maybe another time,” you whispered, your warm body now refreshed. You felt his arms tightly around your waist until he grabbed your legs underwater and put them around his waist. You held onto his neck for dear life.

“And here I thought you would join me for my morning training,” pouted Jackson looking at your freckly face.

You smiled at him and looked behind his back at the breathtaking scenery. “I did join you for all of your trainings so far.”

“But you know what I meaaaan,” he whined, squeezing your thighs.

You laughed loudly, hugging him. “Stay still, honey, I want to rest now.”

For your big surprise, he did stop moving around, stilling, not moving an inch.

“You can breathe though,” you remarked and he inhaled sharply, exaggerating every move. “Silly,” you mumbled, entertained.

You stayed like this for some time. You both were talking about everything and anything, his upcoming competition in Budapest, your attestation and eventually your plans to visit some places around Hong Kong.

“And what about…” started Jackson as he was looking mysteriously into your eyes.

You frowned. “What about what?”

“Never mind,” he said quickly, turning his head the other way.

“What? What was it, honey?” you asked and dared to let go of his neck to touch his cheeks.

“Nothing. Really,” he said, looking at you.

You smiled gently, pushing his longer hair out of his face while he was intently watching your every move, your every part of your face. His grip on you tightened to give you reassurance that he was holding you.

You whispered, “Why are you looking at me like that?”

“Because I can,” he whispered back and his eyes eventually fell on your lips. “Nobody else, but I can.”

You were just about to snort when he kissed you sensually, capturing your lower lip, pressing you to the pool’s wall behind you.

Now being 23, he felt like this thing he was preparing for quite a while now, was finally happening. This was the moment. He felt it, he knew it, he was sure of it. He didn’t doubt it at all.

  After wonderful dinner, you both went out hand in hand for a relaxing walk on the beach. You put your long summer dress on, made sure to have sweet amount of make-up on and you curled your hair, your smile widening with each wave.

You talked quietly with Jackson, both of you full of giggles. He managed to lift your body and turn around with you, making you scream with excitement. The waves in the background were a complimenting noise that you made sure to acknowledge every time.

You were laughing hard. “Jackson! Let go of me!”

He stopped and put you down carefully, his smile wide, toothy, goofy. You ruffled his hair, grinning up at him.

“I don’t want to let go of you, though,” he said passionately, bumping his nose into yours. Then, he slowly pulled away to look you properly into your eyes. “I love you.”

“And I love you. So much,” you whispered, standing on your tiptoes to give him a kiss with a loud smack. He smiled and pushed your hair out of you face.

“Y/N,” he paused and licked his lips. Pressing his forehead to yours, he whispered, his lips gently ghosting over your parted ones: “Will you marry me?”

Your breathing stopped half-way in your pipes as you gently pulled away to look into Jackson’s honest eyes. “Jackson?”

“I don’t doubt our relationship, our friendship, anything. For a long time now I know you are the one for me. I always had that feeling. I fell head over my fencing boots for you when I first laid eyes on you. It was like a magic trick. You didn’t even have to try to seduce me; just by breathing you were filling up my bare existence. I simply cannot not have you. I need you. But mostly, I love you unconditionally,” he said, his voice serious but his eyes full of love.

The tears on your eyes were just about to spill when you nodded your head exactly two times before hugging him tightly. “Yes, Jackson. I will marry you.”

His hands were around your back spinning around with you once again.

You both laughed out loud before he put you down and searched for the ring box. His fingers took out a very elegant diamond ring, and then he lowered his body on one knee as he took your hand, putting the ring on your finger. It was glistening as the sunset behind you was in its grand finale, just like you two when you kissed each other passionately, bringing alive everything that was ever dear to the world.

He was kissing you once, twice, thrice until you couldn’t wait to finally be alone as you were eagerly heading back into your hotel room.

The first night as engaged.

Hong Kong, 2017

The office wasn’t as busy as you thought it would be when you sat down by your desk, already taking out all the paperwork. Just as you were prepared to start work, your office phone rang.

“Ms Y/L/N, you have a visitor at the reception. A certain Mr Wang is looking for you.”

You almost dropped the phone. “What! Mr Wang who?” your heartbeat was dangerously fast now.

“A representative of Team Wang Jiaer label is here,” she said. Assuming by her voice, she was also confused.

You groaned internally, not wanting to deal with whatever this was about. Of course, you knew Jackson had a label, he would sometimes ask for your advice when you two would call (those calls were usually when he was extremely tired and already laying in bed ready to sleep but he would insist on talking with you because he was missing your voice, your warmth, your presence but eventually he would be the one to fall asleep, the only proof being his snoring that was so familiar to you and you would be an absolute idiot if you would end the call there, so you would make yourself cosy and fall asleep, imagining he is next to you). Now, you were a bit worried to face Jackson… What if you would accidentally throw your hands around his neck thinking that you’re engaged?!

“Okay, I’m coming,” you murmured quickly, ending the call.

Before heading downstairs, you sprinted to the restroom to make sure you looked at least a little bit decent. Thankfully, you looked just fine. Although that lipstick was a bit faded from drinking milk tea earlier…

“Ah, it doesn’t matter!” you whisper-yelled at your reflection and finally made your way out and down to the reception.

The company you worked for was quite wealthy, everything being from expensive wood and marble.

Through the glass you could see an older man standing there, waiting patiently, his clothes comfortable and on his back a big TEAM WANG written. You furrowed your brows when you didn’t spot Jackson.

The receptionist called after the man who turned around with a friendly smile on his face. “Miss Y/L/N,” he said before he stuck out his hand to shake.

You accepted. “May I ask what the business is about?”

“Of course, but I suppose a little friendlier surroundings would be better.”

“And where is the boss?” you asked, looking around momentarily hoping to see the warm pair of eyes.

“Jiaer boss is very busy at the moment shooting a show in Beijing,” he answered politely.

You nodded. “Alright. Well, there is a lovely cafe just down the road, why don’t we go there,” you suggested, leading the way.

It was his manager, as you found out. He could have been in his forties or fifties and he seemed very satisfied with his life. He showed you some pictures of his kids and his wife.

Once both of your lattes arrived, you looked at him expectantly and with a smile.

“Miss Y/L/N, the reason I visited you so suddenly is because I have a job offer for you.”

That was surprising. A job offer? What for! “Would you care to explain in bigger detail, please,” you smiled nervously, feeling dumb.

“But of course,” he nodded, not showing you any paper or charts, nothing that would help you avoid eye contact. “Our team is missing a strategic accountant at the moment and we heard you were one of the best ones in Hong Kong.”

“Excuse me? I’m definitely not one of the best-”

“Jiaer boss said he did a background check-”

You scoffed, entertained. “There is not much I would be of a help in your label, sir. My Chinese is not that good either. The only thing I’m good at is counting and preventing you from financial crash.”

“We were told you were a very hard-working person as well as responsible and persistent, which are the exact qualities we are looking for in our company.”

Of course those were the qualities Jackson would look for. It was basically him scribbled all over it. However, you were still shocked that he would send a person to try to hire you in his company.

“But as you said yourself, I’m doing very well just where I am,” you said, folding your arms and rested your back against the seat rest. “So why should I change my employer? What benefits would I get at your label?” Challenge.

He didn’t look that budged by it, although he would expect anyone to want to work for the famous Wang Jackson without a single spark of doubt in their eyes. You were not that foolish, however. “Well, let me tell you there is not a single employee who isn’t happy or satisfied at our workplace. Besides, we have the best boss to ever ask for. He treats his employees like his family. We are a small team, miss Y/L/N. As for the benefits, there can be lots of paid free time for you since the schedules vary so much. And as I mentioned, your qualities are a perfect match for our Jiaer boss.”

You wondered what this guy knew about you; what did Jackson tell him about you. Did he know you were “friends”? Did he know how well you both knew each other from every single angle, from head to toe?

You took a sip from your latte. “I understand. I suppose there is not much free time supposing the boss is one of the busiest people on Earth.”

The manager chuckled kindly. “Jiaer boss is certainly extremely busy. That’s not a lie. However, he would never let his employees overwork themselves. He leads a special schedule where all of us have to sign the precise time when we work so this way he can monitor us.”

“How controlling,” you snickered rolling your eyes, entertained. Thankfully, the manager didn’t misunderstand. He must have known something more about you. “I can only imagine Jackson being that way.”

The manager nodded. “He is truly one of the best. You would be the youngest employee. Why not give it a try? Also, following him around the world is eye-opening.”

You smiled, your mind wandering off at the thought of following him around the world. “How much time do you spend with your boss?”

“It depends. His schedules are basically full and if he is in China or working elsewhere on his solo projects, there has to be a managing staff around him. Sometimes it can be nonstop other times we don’t see him at all since he is in Korea working for the band’s company. ”

“I see,” you paused, poking your tongue to the inside of your cheek, thinking.

The manager smiled cutely, covering his mouth as he hastily pointed at you. “Jiaer boss does the same when he is considering something.”

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Once back in your office, you couldn’t stop thinking about what just happened.

You received a freaking job offer from TEAM WANG. What were you supposed to do? Well, what you did was that you asked for some time to think before making any decisions and the manager did fully understand.

Before you knew it, you were dialling Sara’s number, eager for her to pick up.

“What’s up, Y/N?” She asked light-heartedly.

“Sara,” you made a dramatic pause. After that, you spilled everything. From the beginning till the end.

“What?!” she gasped. “Oh my god, that’s so cool.”

“But I am confused,” you complained.

“What is there to be confused about? He wants you with him whenever he doesn’t have to be in Korea.”

“But-but I can’t work for him.”

“Now there,” she said gently, sensing your panic. “We both know he loves you. He said it, he showed it to you. He already said he can’t ask you to wait for him. He cares about you. He is being selfless just so you could enjoy your young life. Hell, isn’t it strange? In your flashback he was going to propose to you, so basically you were engaged by the end of this year. Now he is making a move to have you closer to him.”

You hummed, trying to see her thoughts.

“He is doing exactly what is supposed to happen, Y/N,” Sara said finally, seemingly satisfied with herself. She was so excited for you she would certainly start jumping once the line went silent.

“I’m scared,” you blurted out. “What if he just pities me? What if he-”

“Stop right there. Don’t you dare finish your sentences or else you’re as good as dead. And Jackson would kill me then. And I don’t feel like dying just yet.” You heard some muffling in the background. “So what your next step should be is that you’ll accept the job.”

“I don’t want to move to China,” you pouted. “I adore my little Hong Kong.”

Sara inhaled through her nose. “To be honest, I’m sure he has a plan for you so I would call him if I were you. That’s the only way to find out what he wants.”

You closed your eyes. “Okay, I will. Once I’m out of office and at home.”

“Alright, darling. So I guess I can’t persuade you anymore to come to my little company, huh? I have no chance against Jackson.”

You giggled, opening your eyes. “We will see about that.”

It was 23:06 when you entered your apartment. There was a mess on your table from all the papers you finished checking but didn’t organise and all you wanted was to throw yourself on the bed just as you were, and sleep. Preferably for a long time, so the decision-making would wait.

You took a slow shower, easing your tensed up muscles and wanting to make a pleasant night for yourself, you threw on just a long pink t-shirt. Your undies were white with small little hearts. Your favourites.

Finally, climbing into your bed, you took your phone (that you managed to not touch the whole day) just to find many missed calls and unseen messages. The last message that you received was literally one minute before you unlocked your phone and it was pretty straight forward for you to not get it.

Sara (23:48): JACKSON IS COMING TO UR PLACE

You froze. “What?” you shrieked, your heart thundering inside of your chest. Just then you heard a soft knock on the door.

You snapped your head up, your hands suddenly trembling. Oh my god. He was here. Jackson was here.

You saw that all the messages and calls were his which made you jump out of your bed and swinging the door open to find him standing there with his hand on the door frame. His hair was parted, one side styled backwards meaning he came straight from work. He was so damn handsome, your throat closed off making you unable to breathe. He stole your breath away.

When he finally looked up, he was going to say something before he stopped abruptly, his eyes wandering down your under-dressed body. You stole his breath away, too.

You gulped. “What are you doing here?”

He snapped his eyes back at you, his cheeks warming up. “I was in the city and-”

“Weren’t you shooting in Beijing today?” you asked, confused.

He smiled gently. “I was. But tomorrow I have interviews all day here in Hong Kong so I’m staying in the city for the night.”

You gulped once again and made a step back to let him in. He thanked before coming in, curiously looking around.

“Sorry for the mess, I literally just came home.”

“I see you are also busy,” he said as he turned to face you. You locked the door as usual and folded your arms over your chest. “I assume you met my manager considering you knew where I have been today.”

You nodded, unable to tear your eyes away from his. His striped shirt was unbuttoned just till his mid-chest and his black jacket was complimenting his figure, paired up with black jeans. So elegant, so charismatic.

“I heard you needed time to think,” he continued.

“Of course I do,” you answered a little too feverishly. “You can’t expect me to just change places so suddenly.”

“I know and I understand. I’m giving you as much time as you need,” he added more quietly. “It’s always open for you.”

You bit your lip, his eyes dropping to your lips. “I don’t know how your company works, you know. It’s all different to what I knew until now.”

He nodded. “I can imagine. Sara told me all about your wonderful company of yours.”

“Sara?” you asked in confusion. “How is Sara in the picture?”

Jackson chuckled, pushing his hands into his pockets. “Without her I wouldn’t know where exactly you work since you are so secretive.”

“I’m not secretive,” you defended yourself, “I just don’t think…” you trailed off, not sure how to word your mixed up thoughts.

He came closer and gave you a squirtle look. “You don’t think what?”

You sighed. “I think you have way too much on your plate so why would it be of any importance for you. And besides, I’m also busy. Oh, wait a moment, did Sara tell you exactly where I’m staying too? Which floor? Which door? Damn, I’m surprised she didn’t tell you the number for the door.”

Jackson laughed. “I was going to use the number to get in if you wouldn’t answer the door. I was worried about you,” he said, serious out of sudden. “You wouldn’t answer your phone the whole day.”

It was so pleasant to hear him say those words to you. It was like a soothing balm on your aching heart. “I was just… really into my work that I am not so into.”

He let out a breathy laugh and walked to the sofa to sit down. “That’s why I came with another offer.”

You followed him, plopping down on the opposite side. You both faced each other. “What offer?”

His smile widened, his eyes sparkly as he took in your cute confusion. “I will be shooting in Thailand in December. It will be a music video for my new single. The location is top secret and perfectly hidden,” he whispered excitedly, leaning closer to you.

You giggled. “Where in Thailand?”

“Around Phuket. It’s an island that is not so famous and they have this wonderful resort I found there. We are already making steps to rent the entire place out for a few days in December to shoot there.”

Your smile froze momentarily recalling the flashbacks. Wasn’t it the same spot Jackson proposed to you at?

You were staring at him, lost in thought. “So what do you say?” he asked. Unaware, you scooted just a little bit closer to him.

“What do I say to what?”

“I would like you to come with me. This way you could see how the team works.”

Your lips widened. “But, Jackson. I am just an accountant. Why would you need me in Thailand with you? Or any other shooting place?”

Although he knew you caught him, he wouldn’t show you. “Well, there are lots of things an accountant has to do on the set.”

Your left eyebrow quirked up, challenging him. “Like for instance?”

Jackson was running his fingers over his chin as if deep in thought. “You have to make sure I don’t buy all the sweets on the spot.” He looked at you and laughed in one of his high-pitched laughters that made you laugh as well. “You have to make sure others don’t waste money on more sweets,” he continued, his amused face lit up just like thousands of fairy lights. Your face came closer to his as you listened intently. “You have to make sure the resort we are going to stay in is all set and done.” Closer. “Make sure I do my work properly.” A little bit more closer. “Make sure I don’t spend all my goddamn money on spoiling you.” His breath was on your lips, his focus on your lips. Your breath hitched when you felt his lips move against yours, closing your eyes as pleasure and excitement overtook you. “Make sure you are there with me so I can share the experience with you because I need you.” He kissed you passionately, inhaling through his nose and yet you still grabbed his face and pressed it more towards you, unable to get enough of him.

He took hold of your thighs, nudging you to sit on his lap which you gladly did. You moaned loudly when you felt his hands ghost over your butt and sneaking up over your back. You couldn’t help but notice how he wouldn’t touch your bare skin under your shirt even though you wanted it desperately.

Opening you mouth, you let him in and you totally submitted yourself to his control. You could see him behind your closed eyes, you could feel his warm hands while you ran your fingers through his styled hair.

Kisses were loud, smacky, playful, passionate, feverish and moany. You were sure this was the night some magic would happen. After all, you didn’t kiss since 2016 when he took you home. You both were thirsty for each other, desperate, suffering... Finally, you got to get to touch one another.

But Jackson slowed down to a sensual make-out session, not pushing it to the next level until he completely stopped, breathing heavily as he pecked your swollen lips one last time before his eyes fluttered open to look at your blissful face. You hummed at the loss of contact.

“What do you think?” he whispered, not wanting to break the bubble you created.

Your eyes opened as well, meeting his gentle gaze. “For work purposes only,” you started, touching his cheek. “I will go.”

You shared a quiet laugh when you heard another knock on the door. This one was certainly louder than Jackson’s knock.

Jackson frowned, alarmed. “Who is it at this time?” he asked and looked at his (expensive) wrist watch.

You bit your lip, still holding his face in your hands. You knew. You knew but you didn’t want to show it to Jackson.

Another loud knock.

“Is there someone bothering you here?” asked Jackson, searching for your gaze. He didn’t like the idea that someone would harass you, not even in the slightest. Worry was written all over his face as you untangled yourself from him.

“It’s just Martin,” you mumbled once your feet hit the cold floor.

“Martin? The doctor?” asked Jackson in shock.

You unlocked the door and opened it. Just as expected, Martin was there, fuming just a little bit. “Y/N!” he shouted and stormed in, not bothering to look around. “What is this? You aren’t picking up my calls for days now and you just lock yourself up here-“

“Good evening,” Jackson said, standing tall, his face authoritative, his hands in his pockets.

Martin stopped abruptly, staring at Jackson, startled. “Good evening.”

- - - continue - - -

[dethl]

“why does this year feel SO FUCKING LONG”

realizes first semester of freshman year was 2017

“what”

realizes i graduated last year

“no slow down”

realizes that despite feeling like one long year, i experienced two full years without being fully aware of it

“h-”

really though just the past year has been such a fucking whirlwind of change for me. i finally realized the main reason behind my life feeling like it was in shambles growing up was due almost entirely to a toxic and emotionally abusive family in a falling apart trailer in a town that no one has ever heard of. i start to disconnect from them and attempt to gain independence and i notice i actually feel alive. 

2016-2017 was so awful for me mentally, that i physically was losing the ability to feel - pain, pressure, texture. i was shut down almost entirely and really felt like a shell of a person, i had no will to live and had to actually search for reasons to keep myself alive. eating was hard, talking was hard, forming a cohesive thought was hard without my mind hammering how useless i was

2018 was hard for the first half of it, first breakup with an emotionally abusive ex that formed our relationship almost entirely around me being dependent on him made finding my direction in life again difficult. very difficult. i was definitely in a trance-like state for a couple months, until i started moving myself back in to friend groups i walled myself off from because my ex made me feel like i couldnt talk to anyone else. and i think that was one of the best things i could have done for myself in hindsight

i noticed i was able to talk more, in text and in person, without struggling to find the words. i wasnt trailing off or finding words choked back in my throat while i struggled to initiate conversation as much, or now, at all.

i was able to look in the mirror without being repulsed at my appearance, something that i was unable to do for most of my life without feeling literally sick to my stomach. i started expressing myself more to how i see fit

 i dyed my hair for the first time in february and while it looked fucking awful and i honestly hated it, it was the first step i needed towards finding who i really was. i forced myself to present as masculine throughout high school because i felt i was too ugly to be seen as a chick (this isnt a knock against transgender people, of course. i just simply realized i wasnt any happier personally and i was just confusing a lifetime of really complex issues. but this is a long topic so ill cut it here. in short im probably likely nb, if anything, instead of a trans male or cis female). i allowed myself to experiment more with things traditionally seen as feminine, like makeup and jewelry and the types of clothes i wore. and i felt more confident doing so. prior to this i just didnt feel like i deserved these things

in the summer i started getting closer to my eldest sister, and i got my first break from my parents for the first time since fourth grade - a decade ago. i spent two weeks away from home, mostly by myself most of the day. and i realized i finally got a chance to feel relaxed, even happy. but i couldnt figure out why necessarily

fall came. i decided to try a crack at finally taking all graphic design/art classes, and i realized i was absolutely miserable. i hated every fucking assignment except for one class. but the difference between this and the years before? i was feeling. i got a bit uhh.. extremely shoddy with my performance (whoops failing classes), and in doing this i realized that this wasnt the path i was meant to be on. art was becoming a chore for me starting about 2015, and up until this point. i wasnt growing an audience despite forcing myself to draw every day, and this was killing me because i thought i was doomed to failure, i never considered any other options except doing art

 but in november, i set up a tour for a college i was between going to initially, alongside the one i ended up going to. and i was ecstatic about what the future could hold for me for literally the first time in my life - i wanted to go into cybersecurity. and with the chains lifted, doing art just for myself and my friends became fun. my audience didnt matter anymore, and my mindset began to shift from “please look at this i dont want to fail” to “hey check this thing out i made its fucking awesome”. i had confidence in my work. this confidence carried me to be able to do semiregular streaming on twitch, something i dreamt of doing for the past three or four years

somewhere around this point, i finally opened up about trauma thats been plaguing me since i was four years old, trauma so bad i literally had flashbacks to the point i couldnt sleep at night for the past ten years. the flashbacks stopped. i stopped hating myself for something i had no control over. i felt like myself for the first time

and i sit here now as the winter begins and the year comes to a close, and i feel more like myself than i ever have before in the 20 years ive been alive. obviously theres a lot more i could go into, this doesnt even include the rabbithole that is my sexuality. but good lord

[spencegeek]

Character rigging at work and im getting summer 2016 flashbacks

[ssputniik]

hi, i haven't been active on this account for months now (i have reblogged stuff quite recently but i would download tumblr on my phone when i didnt feel good -> reblog a few posts that described how bad i felt -> delete the app -> wait a few months before downloading it again, so wasn't active constantly like i used to be around a year ago). a lot of things have changed in this past year.

my mental health has been a mess for all my life, since i experienced a major trauma when i was around 3/4 years old. growing up i tried my hardest to forget what has happened, but it would always come back in a way or another. i felt like i had no hope. in 2015 it started getting worse and worse, i was completely detached from reality, either dissociating or having flashbacks, i spent my days in bed, harming myself to try to reconnect to reality when i didn't know what reality was anymore. i was living in a constant flashback, and this means constant dissociation, fear, hallucinations, feeling of guilt, depression, self harm, suicidal thoughts, suicide attempts. in 2016 i was put in a hospital. there, i talked about what has happened to me as a kid for the first time. they give me meds and diagnosed me with ptsd and kept me in the hospital for months. medications helped me a lot, in april 2017 i started going to school again. i still felt like shit, maybe a bit less like shit, but i was in a terrible mental state. during summer 2017 things started changing more and more. in may 2017 me and my girlfriend-at-the-time broke up after 2 years of being together. we had a really complicated relationship, we met each other at the worst time of our lives, we helped each other staying alive but with everything that was happening to us we ended up being completely dependent on each other and our relationship ended up doing more harm than good to us. we don't have any resentment against each other for what happened, we understad that we both made mistakes, we are still friends and i still think that she is an amazing human being and i care about her very much. the break up, at first, killed me. i was so dependent on her that i couldn't possibly think of living without her. but with time, breaking up with her helped me get better. i didn't have anyone anymore to give me the love i couldn't give myself, i didn't have anyone that i could depend on, i had to start working in order to get my life back. i had to start focusing on myself only, i had to take my life in my hands and focus on my happiness in the moment not "mine and my girlfriend's happiness when we'll finally go live together in 5 years from now". im not saying that leaving a codependent relationship stopped the suicidal thoughts, cured my ptsd and made my dissociation dissapear. sometimes (rarely) i still have suicidal thoughts, my ptds is still very much there and i experience dissociation quite often. but leaving that relationship helped me get in the mindset "im the only one that can make myself happy again, im the only one that can change my life, it only depends on me". and with that mindset i got where i am now: happy, able to appreciate life, living reality. it hasn't been quick and it hasn't been easy and my journey has only started. you will get worse again, and you will get better again, and thats fine. a huge part of my growth this last year has been redescovering beauty. start appreciating the smallest things, look out for beauty in people, in buildings, in nature. feel all the beauty around you and you will start feeling beauty inside you as well. i started studying philosophy in september 2017 and looking at life in different perspectives was eye-opening. be always open to learn. it fills your soul, and you'll learn something about yourself as well. im realising how messy this post is, but thats okay, i'll leave like this. also its probably full of grammatical mistakes ~ im italian, english isnt my first language ~

thank you for listening. i wish you the best, take care of yourself.

it really does get better.

[marcelock]

im gonna preface this by saying that anything im about to say in the following post as evidence for Sherlock’s birthday is immediately overruled by the fact that this is still a tv show and is inhibited by filming schedules. ergo, i dont take anything about the weather as a cue for what date it should or shouldn’t be, especially when i know from keeping up with setlock that it was filmed in the late spring-summer with many scenes being in outdoor spaces much larger than just baker street ergo harder to...idk? pump fake snow into? additionally i’d like to point out all the characters wear basically the same wardrobes throughout the show no matter what time of the year it is, and there aren’t a whole lot of other potential indicators of the weather really so it feels like a moot point

now anyway, putting aside whatever theories any of us have about s4 and treating the timeline as normal, i know for a fact that (present day) TAB takes place in january of 2015, a fact i knew before s4 came out, but which was backed up by Mary’s story in TST citing 2009 as “6 years ago” in flashbacks. in TST many, many things happen, which seem to take place over the course of months. in TLD’s opening, Sherlock and John haven’t seen each other in some time. it’s not unbelievable to me that, in a show which usually advances about a year in it’s timeline each season, that TLD takes place in january 2016, to start off with.

now, on the subject of birthdays, most of the Holmesian...well, lets call it widely accepted fanon, (like sherlock’s first name being William, for example, something mofftiss have already adopted into the show) is based in conjecture made over the last century, not unlike us making headcanons online. much like hcs on here that get shared so much others adopt them, so too is holmesian scholarship in many ways, but with the added boost of these being in published books that get treated like textbooks in a way. most of the dates projected for Holmes and Watson’s birthdays are based on any tangible date in the canon they appear to be hungover, the theories tend to go, the night before they were celebrating a birthday. for Watson, this is complicated and there are a few different dates floating around that on which a general consensus has not been reached. (and there’s the matter for bbc of the..weird watson display at a sherlocked event that gave a date but i wont get into that now, all i can say for our john’s birthday is it has to be some time before june)- as for Holmes, however, the date of January 6th has been used so much over the last century, it’s the date everyone has generally agreed upon.

you may say, well, many scholars also agree he’s not gay so who gives a shit and who says mofftiss do about this specifically? well, his tombstone from TRF says “January 6th”

please excuse 1. the shitty phone pic, i havent properly scanned my copy of the casebook yet and 2. the fact that the flowers obscure it. there is a better photo with the full date showing but i cannot remember where to find it.

now, however, i don’t take the dates used on the tombstone to mean anything MUCH because the death date is incorrect. it lists 2012, when it happened in 2011, by all accounts on the actual show (following the timeline of the blog, more dates in the casebook, and magnussen’s on screen files)- which is why i believe the full shot of the headstone wasn’t used, imo it was likely created before they really finalized the timeline going into s2, which is understandable. (additionally, again, putting s4 theories aside, john states in TLD he never knew sherlock’s birthday so the dates on the headstone effectively don’t exist in canon) so why include it? it may not be strictly canon, but it does show that at least at one point, in mofftiss’s mind, sherlock’s birthday is january 6th, and that they are aware of and don’t seem to Not agree with that date.

all this being said, the show tries not to deal in exact dates too too much, leaving many things such as sherlock and john’s birthdays and birth years up for interpretation, but for sherlock, january 6th seems to have very minimal competition. so like, sure, go ahead and pick a different date but yknow, if you’re looking for something with some kind of backing up, january 6th is your best bet.

bonus thought, speaking of TLD and sherlock’s birthday, the beheading scene when sherlock rescues irene in asib takes place in very early january 2011, which is why i believe she knows when his birthday is (if this was 100 years ago id publish that in my text as a holmesian scholar and maybe someone on the internet would be using it as a cited source, isnt that neat?)

PS i know the timeline of this show like the back of my hand and can rattle off all the key points about it any time, i was taking the time to gather photographic and textual evidence to back everything up so i could make a more Official and well typed post so everyone could use it as reference, and i still am going to, but unfortunately mental illness especially has not been kind to me in the last year and it’s all been very delayed, sorry.

[wangae]

get to know me tag !!

i was tagged by @jinjins​ (literally so long ago now i’m sorry adoifgd) but !!! thank u erin, ur really precious  ♡ 

Name: kiki Nicknames: (other than kiki) the only nickname i am really called is kp by my sister !!! Gender: female Star Sign: libra bb Height: 5’4/5′5 Time Right Now: 11:37pm MBTI type: isfp Birthday: sept 26th Last Thing I Googled: my university’s intranet site lmao Favorite Bands: kpop: got7, svt & pristin / others: modern baseball, the front bottoms, frank iero & the patience Favorite Solo Artists: heechul, jung joon young & i’ve been listening to alot of matt maltese recently Song stuck in my head: narcissus by heechul nd wheein Last show watched: goblin (literally started today nd i’m obsessed) Last movie I watched: one way trip (i cried my eyes out tbh) When did you create your blog: jan 2016 What do you post: kpop but mostly got7 lmao When did your blog reach its peak: never lmao Do you have other blogs: none that are active Do you get asks regularly: .... no Why did you choose your URL: i wanted wang puppy but it was taken so we are left with my brand: wangae Following: 89 Posts: 801 Hogwarts House: slytherin baby !!! Favorite Colors: green Average Hours of Sleep: school season wld be 4-5 hours nd summer wld be 8+ hours lmao Lucky Numbers: 11  Instruments: *flashbacks to when i wanted to be a bassist in a pop punk band*  Favorite Characters: hong seol from cheese in the trap might be one of my favourite characters ever tbh What am I wearing right now: striped shirt nd leggings How many blankets do you sleep with: usually a duvet, but in winter a duvet nd a blanket !!! Favourite food: wasabi’s chicken katsu curry box. like im so blessed to live in london during term time so i can pick one up whenever i leave my house Dream Job: i wanna be a writer so badly it makes me nervous lmao Dream trip: i rly wanna go to the us but also norway !!!! Nationality: british  Favorite Song Right Now: aloha - pristin, no one won the war - matt maltese, you - dodie, icarus - jj project, thorn - buzz, swimming - im hyunsik

♡  i’m going to tag: @tofnew @flight-logs @ilysmbam @angeljaes @lisassgf @ddef @yubgam  ♡

[robandsonsme]

ROBERT SHERRIFF

WORDS FOR MY GOD

Sing Again!

I Can Laugh and Sing Again! I give praise to the Lord. I was stricken down with pain. My friend died in a car accident. Then I ask God for help. I can now breathe again. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Me He was standing next to me. We were fishing, not even a bite. Next minute Dad called to me. When he spoke, he said how proud he was of me. Dad’s forty-six slightly grey, big brown eyes and he just told me he loves me. I told him how proud I was to be his son.  I just had my thirteen birthdays. When they took me home I walked into his office; I fell to my knees without even a sound. Next minute I screamed, shouted sang out in pain. I was hysterical sobbing laying on the floor. My Mum and Brothers and Sisters and Family tried to comfort me     That night I cried a billion tear,s it took total control of me R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Never in my life. Have I felt so much pain I will miss his smile and the love he showed and gave to me I hope one day I can show my children the same love he had for me AMEN �� R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Me He was standing next to me. We were fishing, not even a bite. Next minute Dad called to me. When he spoke, he said how proud he was of me. Dad’s forty-six slightly grey, big brown eyes and he just told me he loves me. I told him how proud I was to be his son.  I just had my thirteen birthdays. When they took me home I walked into his office; I fell to my knees without even a sound. Next minute I screamed, shouted sang out in pain. I was hysterical sobbing laying on the floor. My Mum and Brothers and Sisters and Family tried to comfort me     That night I cried a billion tear,s it took total control of me Never in my life. Have I felt so much pain I will miss his smile and the love he showed and gave to me I hope one day I can show my children the same love he had for me AMEN   R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My Dad, My father died in 1977 his hand. This was a day from the inner souls of hell. Seven days later. We got to the funeral home I could not believe this was happing to me? I had come to say my goodbyes and tell you I love and what a great Dad you have been to me. I was like jelly. I could hardly walk. My mind was racing away from me. My Mum took my hand and said how proud she was and devastated the Love she has lost.   We then proceed to the cemetery. As I left, I never heard a single word no smoother sounds just the rustling of the trees. My Dad and Mum took us to Church each week. I know also Dad found God.  He was about twenty -three. I never forget that day that Dad said he loved me.   RIP Dad xxx R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My Dad, So evil. R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

JFK - My Life

My Life, and your years on this Earth (flashbacks) everything was in black and white. (Memories) I remember 1963 John. F. K Kennedy was killed in Dallas. My teachers cried. Not me. I was in grade three. Superman, Davy Crockett on TV. Walt Disney every Sunday. Now I’m retired I am nearly 63 life, in the end, life has been good to me. I have six children, ten grandchildren and two great-grandchildren Now everything is in colour now as I sit in my rocking chair. I'm sorry for those people I have hurt along the way. I pray for World peace and a bit of sanity. God loves me. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

                                                   Miracles of God I hope there is always a miracle for little children (Dragon Fly} Children are Angels of God. A loving God. Jesus will always hold them and love them and protect them. God’s will be done as it is on Earth and in Heaven. R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

                                                  My God So High My God So High you have held my hand from day one. You have loved me. You have blessed me. You have been my rock. Your Son died for me. Father, you have watched me cross that line. A line a lot of people go down. But you have always been in my heart. I had prayed to you even when I was down. Even when I crossed that line. A line I will always cross, but I will always come back to you. Please, Father, help me stay on your side of the line to be a better person thank you, my God, and thank you for your love and patience.                                                           AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My child My Father my Lord God My child has been snatched from thee So blessed are the little children Father, please return my child back to me I pray to God for my child’s safety Please give me courage and hold me May I Thank You, Father, I love Thee AMEN

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Greatest Story This is the Greatest Story I have told I was lost; I could not see, there was darkness all around. My life was not my own as adults controlled me. I was taken away at seven years old and forced to flee my Mother. My father tried to kill me and he serious injured me. He had such a hatred of me I was so upset I was forced to leave my brothers and sisters and family. The only thing that saved me was my GOD

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What scares you? DEATH Dying why are you running? What scares you? Can’t you face death or are you not accountable? I thought he or she was your friend?  Well? But you can’t wait to get away, what’s the problem? We will all die one day, and God will be waiting He leads us AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF  MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD (7) The Greatest Prayer My dear God the Father you gave your only son so that I your faithful Servant can have everlasting life for people like me and people like them The greatness words I ever heard were written by a gentleman Mr John Newton The Greatest Prayer Our Father who are they name in heaven hollowed by thee name I give my life to you I worship you I love you I honour you I give my life for thee Father, you are the true God the only god AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Stars I sit outside at night, looking at the stars. Sparkling, they are shining so bright in the skylight There goes a fallen star, zoom so fast faster than the speed of light The sky is dark, slight summer breeze; trees are bristling in the breeze Thankyou God you made all of this for me to see. I thank you for these wonders you have given to me AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

R. L. Sherriff Forgiveness O my God the Father I am so scared of thee The book of revelations seals my fate I have no one else to blame For my sins, I should feel the Shame and the sword and the flame I am so ashamed of my sins, the terrible things of my past I was a child of the devil I can now see I beg you Father take pity on me I love thee pray to thee and honour thee I might be too late I pray for forgiveness Please God Bless Thee AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

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Influent me If you want to steal from me And you want more I don’t care I know that your ill-gains are stolen You can even take my life You can even slap me face You may hurt me without revenge I know who has influent me the most in my life, God.     AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

A lie Father, I have been known tell a lie, a white lie at that. My lies in the past have got me in a lot of trouble. I often forgot what the lie was about? Father I do not want to go to hell with a lie on my lips. I pray I am not out of time. My Father forgives me for my white lie. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 Australian Copyright Act 1968 https://allpoetry.com/Rob7 https://plus.google.com/u/0/112385621044727221155 https://plus.google.com/u/0/104202549090095834326

Big red coat His big red coat His long white beard His big, big, hat his big fat nose I know who it is? It's Santa Clause, oh, oh. I have been good I have been bad I been sad Only Mum and Dad knows I am six- years- old now Santa Please Santa leave a bike for me and a train set for my brother I promise I be a really, really,  good next year. Thank you, Santa Clause. Oh, oh, oh Santa that is right I will be good and say my prays each night Please come next year my brother, and I will try to be good Love you Santa see you next year.

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Blood on their hands Men see the mark Theirs a soldier over there This is war ok you fire the shot Remember you will take a life he too has a family? Is this what God ask of thee I wish there were peace Let’s hope before it gets to this; the leaders get on their knees They pray to God for peace remember once this War starts there’s blood on their hands AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Lights up the way There comes a time in all our lives when the truth will set us free,                                                                                                                     what we have done with our lives I walk through life with no purpose I had wandered aimlessly, looking I wondered what life was all about God then lights up the way. I at last Found my purpose in life AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God has looked after me When I tried so I hard to please everyone, no one would thank me When I tried to talk to anyone no one would listen to me When I did anything the world was against me When I changed my life, I went church and found a wife ‘When my wife gave me children I would pray to God I thank thee When I try to please, talk, anything, I know God has looked after me AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

O My God As a child, I could not see The mist and evil was all around me All I wanted was someone to love me Hold my hand and walk with me   And play with me. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Our yesterday my wife When I hear a love song, it reminds me of you                                                                                                   it brings back memories of our yesterday When I first meet you, it was love at first site Boy that’s when I fell in love with you Your lovely face and personality you were only 19   I then took you for my wife we had four beautiful children AMEN

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Mind I know a place that no one knows? I know a place that no one goes? My mind is hidden from one and all My little secrets, my thoughts, my fears A song in my head that no one knows There is only one person who reads my mind Who I worship and sing his praise My God AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

A place I know a place that no one knows? I know a place that no one goes? My mind is hidden from one and all My little secrets, my thoughts, my fears A song in my head that no one knows There is only one person who reads my mind Who I worship and sing his praise O My God AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Two little baby boys Father, I knew that it would hurt, when she moved away. She took my two little baby boys, their Golden hair and their big blue eyes They are my pride and joy; I would die for them. I would move Heaven and Earth.   My heart aches and my pain, I see their faces every day. I cannot get over this pain. As the years go on their memory dwindles in the back of my mind slowly fading away. One day there was a knock at the door, two young men were asking after me? They said is Dad home? This was when I realised they had gone from little boys to men. I fell to my knee’s crying. That’s when I realised God had brought them back to me. I then thanked God in my prayers R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS MY WORDS OF GOD (2) ROBERT SHERRIFF

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Dancing in my ear Father please helps me the devil is dancing in my ear I’m 23 she’s 22 were virgins we wish to save ourselves for thee Please let us pray, so we are lead not into temptation SO WE MAY STAY PURE Thank you, Father, we love you AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Men to slaughter World leaders who sent their men to slaughter have blood on their hands Some may call them hero’s others call them fools Don’t forget they still have to come before God on judgement day AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Unworthy to knee before thee O Father please have mercy upon me as I am unworthy to knee before thee I am weak I am meek and a coward I have caused a lot of people to hate me Please, father, ease their pain please help them not to hate me Please Father helps me see and correct my ways so I can love you as much as you love me AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Greatness The greatness thing I ever did was drop down to my knees The greatness thing I ever did was listen to you The greatness thing I ever did was find you The greatness thing I ever did know you AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Wales My Father Lord God as I stand upon the sand looking out to sea I see the wonders that swim in the sea, Wales such a gift from My God See how their free, Mothers with pups swimming in the North Sea Then I see a boat steaming out to sea Man on the deck then fires a harpoon killing the pup I then see the colour of the sea Blood as far as the eye can see Please Father Stop this senseless Killing let me pray to Thee AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Story to tell My God, we all have a story to tell, this is how I found you At seven years old I thought my world was the hell on earth I went to Sunday school and then to Church It might have to take a little while, but I soon found you You took away my pain you wiped my tears You lifted me up O My God I can never get over finding you AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

THE DAY MY PAIN STOPPED The day my pain stopped I was scared not sure, and I was lost I was looking for someone to give me a purpose in life I saw some these people were happy they were across the room I asked can you make me happy to or tell me who to talk to I soon found out their secret that they would share with me Our Father who is thee in Heaven hallowed be thee Name AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Talk with God God, what am I?  Am I a man? I was lost I have no future I have no faith People point the finger at me and stare I wear slum clothes I’m unshaven look like a bum I don’t give a dam until a priest found me He said there is a meaning to life; he showed me the way God has a plan for you, he brought me clothes, and I had a shave and a haircut He brought me new shoes and asked nothing of me.  People would stare at me they did not know me The world to me now is a different place, for me to walk and talk with God; he has won my heart, my soul

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Let Jesus in my life When I look in the mirror, I can see what you did? I was seven years old I was a little boy You were in your 30,s you were in charge of me Were you meant to protect me? You were not my Father You use me for your own sexual gratification; you tell me who the Beast is? Over the years I have had great Doctors a great support team   My wife Carol is the best I have six children, ten grandchildren, two great grand daughter   I been before a Royal Commission and blasted and caused your name to hell they won’t forget you I have forgiven you now I have had to move on with my life I’m writing four books, I enjoy                                                         This is now part of my bucket list, acting roles but the best thing I did was let Jesus in my life     AMEN   R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Praise to God You can feel my heart beating when you touch my chest. When you put your head on my chest you hear the greatness sound of music in your ears it’s called love there is no other expiation it has been happing for generation after generation I am only flesh and blood, but my heart will always be yours you are my true love my only love you are my salvation I have loved you through the darkness days and the refection’s in the mirrors we see ourselves as one God has directed us talked to us and; looked after our children we give praise to God AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Father let us pray The greatness danger to man is man When a man speaks, he should think first When a woman thinks she is the biggest danger to man Don’t be offend by this but a woman has a better history of thinking than man If I had my way the world should be run by woman and not man, let’s find peace AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

What scares you? DEATH Dying why are you running? What scares you? Can’t you face death or are you not accountable? I thought he or she was your friend?  Well? But you can’t wait to get away, what’s the problem? We will all die one day, and God will be waiting He leads us AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My best friend in life I'd want to remember Carol, my Wife as my best friend in life for showing you how much I totally loved you. And totally adore the person you are you illuminate the blackest road, with the brightest spark of a shining star As I walk through my life, I'd want for you to be so proud of me, I have had my faults so I live each day as though you know it may well be my last and I love you to Eternity I thank my Lord God for sending me an angel from heaven when I meet you. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My life                                                                             All of my life I was living in a lie                                                                                                                                       I had to tell someone about the sexual abuse                                                                                            I was a seven-year-old boy too scared to say Boo It seems that my childhood has flown right by.                                                                                            The things I've seen have scared me for life, growing up I've seen wrong and not much right, I watched a sad movie, and I had tears rolling down my face, I look in the mirror and don’t know who I am or where I’m going?                                                                                  I can see, but they are blind they look at me with their vengeful eyes                                                    Please God take me away from them before they get a chance to make my life pure Hell AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Child of God I was lonely I was lost I had no spirit until I found you You changed my life; you gave me hope, I am learning to love you You turn me around; you took away my pain, I now understand you You gave your son a thing that he had to do; he died that I might be saved to Father, I am a child of God, I was like a lost sheep, I thank the day that I found you my God thank you. AMEN   R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF                        MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD Singing a Song When I go to Church I love to pray and sing church songs Jesus loves me this I know for the bible tells me so The greatness song I have ever heard is Amazing Grace is such a wonderful Song It about asking my God the Father for strength and your God for forgiveness, to be strong It’s about us you can make that change you just need to pray to our God he will lead you to the light God will also forgive you he will hold your hand and lead you from the darkness that’s the enemy of man AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Prayers When I’m in bed at night I am smug as a rug So warm and tired I say my prayers I then go to sleep AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

When I am Right, I am wrong When I am right I am wrong, when I am wrong, I am right.                                                                                                            He taught me how to be patience and forgiven.                                                                                                                                     He showed me the World.                                                                                                                                                                He told me to give my heart and soul.                                                                                                                        Ask for nothing in return.                                                                                                                                     Be a friend to those in need.                                                                                                                                     Then thank him in Return. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God gave me his World God taught me how to be patience and forgiven. God gave me his World. God showed me love. Kindness. Hope. R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God told me to give my heart and soul. God asks me for nothing in return.   God said to be a friend to all those in need.                                                                                                                                     I then thanked God in Return. I have seen men become so humble. Fall to their knees. R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

I was Crying when I found my God. I found God as a seven-year-old boy. The Devil has caused me. The Devil can’t temp me. I was lost then found. no longer a lost soul R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

As a child, I was a little seven-year-old boy who suffered such a traumatising miserable childhood. I would suffer such horrific injuries. Broken bones. Beaten to an inch of my life. 1961 I was covered with the terrible bruises after the most savage beaten by my Father. Then I was to be tragically sexually abused. By adults. Employed by the State Government of South Australia. I have seen the face of this evil. The face of these monsters? They have the face of the Devil?  No, the face of evil and terror is left on the face and in the minds of every lost and frightened child. Perhaps it will expunge the hate and tragedy I have seen in my life. You know they have hurt me all my life. R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My Memories God saved my life. You don't have to go to church to be a good person. Only you can find God. Man’s words mean little. Most Christians are not Christians. They stab you in the back I have seen miracles. God works his wonder his love for you.     AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Consultation Crazy Yanks since 9/11 There have been a million Deaths You shot each other Children kill children Change your Consultation 2nd amendment No more Deaths Our Father AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

WAR Why God? Why do young men die? Does mankind not care? Please help so that they do not wipe mankind out I pray To God for them to keep the peace One finger on the trigger and we are all gone Amen R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Picture I was sitting on a chair at the back of my house.                                                                                 Thinking this is such a wonderful day.                                                                                                           God has given me this wonderful picture.                                                                                                     The sky is blue the sun it shines through.                                                                                                           The birds in the trees were singing a tune.                                                                                                    You could not get a better picture.                                                                                                                     O Thank Thee Dear God for this Picture. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Trouble My God the Father when I have been in despair I could not think I did not care O my God as soon as I prayed I would always find you there I would say a pray to you my God, and straight I away knew how much you cared Thankyou AMEN

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Those little things My GOD those little things I do wrong. Please help me do right. Let me love Thee O my God for you are the light. If I did not have Thee O my God I would be blind. I thank Thee O my God I can now see.   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Grandchildren My Father how can I ever thank Thee for my joy. Those little giggles, that great big laughter. That tear, those tantrums, they mean so much to me.   Thank you, My God, for all my Grandchildren. xxx AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My tears When I cry you wipe my tears When I hurt you pick me up When I’m down, you lift me up Thank you, God for being here AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

I walk and talk with God While out walking I look at the world, and I don’t like what I see The violets, the anger, the hate, and the guns it’s crazy Please, God, help me bring peace help me help these who are lost soles So while out walking I say to thee thank you, Dear God, for listening to me. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Love for me I am of flesh and blood I will fall to my knees to a please thee I was weak and selfish I did just thinks about me But now I have found thee, My God. You have given me the chance to love Thee, honour thee, and pray to thee To understand thee and what’s required of me and now I understand it’s your love for me AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF                        MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD

Jesus When I’m bad When I’m good I eat my tea I go to bed and pray to thee My name is Henry I’m seven years old I say good night I then go to sleep AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

World Peace It’s a pretty evil word out there It speaks of power it speaks of terror   We all as one should hold hands and ask God through his glory to make us all as one Understanding, kindness, love and peace I pray to God he will help keep World Peace AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Rude When I go to bed each night I ask my God the Father to please forgive me for all my sins If I was rude or if I was not nice I ask to be forgiven, God he listen he’s is in my room I thank Thee My God, the Father, the Son and the Holy Ghost. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My House Dad, Mum, My little brother and me We live in a House by the Sea My school is not far My Church is next door Thank you, Father, for looking after me AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Jake My Dog’s name is Jake. I was born blind; I could not see. Jake is my Blind Dog.  Who’s been trained to see? I thank Thee O My God for sending him to me. I know through my dog I can now see. Thank you, Father, as I pray to Thee. AMEM R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

MY God when I was little boy MY God when I was little people would tower over me I went to Sunday school, and the first song I ever learnt was Jesus wants me for a sunbeam to shine for him each day I learnt my prays; I was very nice, I did what was asked of me Now I'm tall and that Child no more, I pray, I thank you, my God I still sing that song I learnt all those years ago, thank you from me Jesus wants me for a sunbeam to shine for him each day a sunbeam a sunbeam. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Blue When I down and feeling blue I talk to you my Dear God This gets me through, every day. Tar. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

I AM SO AFRAID OF THEE When I am naughty and when I am bad I won’t listen to reason, and I am quite sad I kick, and I scream I then cry the place down Then Mum reads me a book; she calm’s me down I say my prays I Go to bed I then know that you have forgiven me Thankyou and Sorry. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Young When I was young, I heard the God the Father say. Honour Thee, Love Thee, and Pray to Thee. Know I am old and in the Twilight of my years I still hear My God the Father say. Honour Thee, Love Thee, and Pray to Thee. AMEN

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Air I thank Thee O My God for this fresh Air.                                                                                                              To enter the Kingdom of God, you must be as clean as Air.                                                                                                          And as pure as a child and have the mind of a child AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

open your eyes

Don’t be scared go and hide don’t put your head up your ass these things do happen, please open your eyes don’t hide Don’t be scared go and hide don’t put your head up your ass these things do happen, please open your eyes don’t go and hide sexual abuse happens, and Thiers no were to hide this is a fact please Father hear my pray AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Friends are hard to find I only have a few I can’t thank God enough when he sent them to me They are Good People who raised three children, their fine Grandparents Mrs A, is so special, she is so kind, she has a great heart, and a great mind, and she is ahead of her time. Mrs A is not easy deceived or lead by fools Mrs A, has MS and Kevin threatens to get in A-renter crowd he tells his little joke, magic tricks and then he starts spinning his arm like a helicopter in flight and making that sound of a helicopter flying it might be day or night or up in the clouds where we are all free the open space, the fresh air.   But let me tell you all I have never see someone like Kevin he is a man’s, man he has more religion in his one little finger than most of these fake church goers, God has a will and God had a plan for this good man, he has a heart of Gold, he is so caring and he understands me, he is a friend of mine.   They have been married for over forty years I have never seen two people so devoted to each other the love the smiles, and even the giggles, the happiness the compassion they have for their EACH OVER I cannot say this enough I have been privileged to be a part of their plan thankyou xxx   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God I am a child of God who was lost that was found When I was sad you made me laugh When I cried you wiped my tears You gave me warmth you held my hand as a child When I was cold you gave me warmth God you touched me you gave me your hand Father all you do is give. Thankyou. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF                        MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD

Myself     God saved me from myself                                                                                                                              when I cried he wiped away my tears AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Number God knows your name and your Number, so does the Devil                                                            Remember God is watching you AMEN                                                         R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Knees When you are outside when you look at the sun and birds trees and sky and hear little children laughing if you can’t see God then slump to your knees AMEN                                                         R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Innocent A child’s face is so innocent so pure eyes like diamonds that sparkle in the due as  blue as the sky above those rose coloured cheeks and that lovely smile that's what God has given you it’s all about loving giving and praise Thank Thee O My Lord God for your present from a high God bless you AMEN                                                         R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Flesh and blood I as flesh and blood who with the grace of God and who has been blessed by him and the son Jesus and the holy ghost I have been with my belief I had a journey that I did not want to ever to send my beloved children on to protect them love them keep them safe feed them love them educate them teach them good morals with the love of my life my Wife Carol so blessed are Thee. A journey so cruel and unkind a journey to which most would fall by the wayside and would they be much stronger than thee praise be to my God I who had nothing was desecrated and longing for love and understanding, kindness found the love of my life my Wife Carol thank thee O, my God I have sinned a million sins my God is patient my God is loving my God understand my God knows that in my heart I am trying to be an honest man. He loves me for who I am the real me I bow my head to thee my Dear God   Without my love for God and Jesus and the Holy Ghost, my life would have been hollow dark and with no reason My God gave a present from heaven my six children The greatest thing you will ever do is love someone and be loved to   My God is a loving God he love me as much he loves you Do not bear false witness, adultly My God let his only beloved son die on the cross for me and you I am a child of God who was lost that was now found AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Grace of God I as flesh and blood who with the grace of God and who has been blessed by The Son and the Holy Ghost Has been with my belief I had a journey that I did Not want to ever send my beloved children on to protect them love them keep Them feed them love them to educate them to teach team morals A journey so cruel and unkind a journey to which most would fall by the waste Side and would they be much stronger than me I who had nothing and was desecrate and longing for love understanding kindness If sinned a million sins my God is patient my God is Loving my God Understands If you are without sin throw the first stone If I get in a fight I turn the other cheek He loves me for who I am the real me the honest me Without my love for God Jesus and the Holy Ghost my life would have been  Hollow dark and no reason The greatest thing you will ever do is love someone and be loved to (I heard this in a song) My God is a loving God he love me as much he loves you Do not bear false witness, adultly, My God let his only beloved son die on the cross for me and you My God knows my secrets God loves me I gave him my heart AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God, where are you?                                                                                                                                                You are in my heart my mind your everywhere.                                                                                                                                                   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

now

Last trip My Father Lord God when I make that last trip we all must take I will bow my head and drop to my knees and pray that thee O Mighty God the Father can forgive me my sins and trespasses. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF                        MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD

Blessing   The sky that is Blue is a present from you.                                                                                                                                              The Sun that is bright will light up my day.                                                                                                                               Then night is a time to be close to your God.                                                                                                                                       AMEN    R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

A child A child is given to you to love you to hold you to teach protect that child with your life and your trust. Abuse that child and feel Gods Raft. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My flight As you have been reading this you have followed my flight I have been running for most of my life to me it seems like day and night year after year I must fight this fight AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

DIE When I found out you die? I cried I thought that we lived forever, after so many funerals I went to as a child I had had enough I did not want to go to anymore and say goodbye I loved them all. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Miracle My life is such a miracle I every day of my life give thanks to God for all his glory he has given me the gift of every lasting life and much more my Wife, my children and my Grandchildren and my Great grandchildren and good friends I love the Lord God and the Son Jesus Christ. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Two ends God gave us two ends: One to sit on, one to think with success depends on which end you use? Heads, you win, Tails, you lose. How true you say to yourself are you a winner all a loser? Pray to God ask him to Help. Tell him how you feel and ask him his advice he loves you as you should love him.   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Tomorrow If God took me tomorrow, I would be a proud man my wife me children my grandchildren and my Great Grandchildren my friends so blessed say the Lord. Thank you Father. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROCK BOTTOM Sometimes God lets you hit rock bottom so that you will discover that he is the Rock at the bottom. This is so true I have hit rock bottom hundreds of times in my life. I am a sinner I pray to him to forgive me my sins; he knows me more than I know myself. I love him.   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Face of God Sometimes When I see someone special, I say when I look at you I see the face of God I see it in their face, I hear it in their voice, and it’s what you do that makes my day.   AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Trust Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding in all your Ways acknowledge him, and he will direct you to pass for God loves you as you should love him. I learn to love him from the age of seven first song I ever learnt was Jesus loves me this I know for the Bible tells me so. Remember he does love you, and you should love him he knows all your secrets. Pray to him. AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

God One God, my God Father of Jesus who died on the cross to take away the sins of the world He gave me a new life; he took away our old ways. He gave us hope; he helped me see my Ways. I am weak and Meek I am a sinner I have been losted. I lost my way. I know with Gods love I can be a better person I can show love I can be kind I can give thanks to my Lord God AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

ROBERT SHERRIFF                        MY WRITTEN WORDS FOR GOD

Love We all should find love for love gives us joy, happiness, and control; we need to love one another Turn the other cheek, help they neighbours Love the Lord thee God with all your, might. We are all God’s children, and we must give thanks to Jesus son of God for taking away the sins of the World I Pray That I am not damned for all time? AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Heaven Remember you shall not enter the Kingdom of Heaven unless you have the mind of a Child A mind of a child, this is true. Remember you might go to Church every week, but this does Make you a christen ANSWER (NO) my job is not to Judge that belongs to GOD. Ask yourself truthfully and don’t lie to yourself? Will I enter Heaven? NO QUESTION? How can I change my life? I will pray to my God and ask him for his help. My God is a loving God I am a sinner, I know that I will pray and I love my God I pray that My God will bless me thank you, my Father.     AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Tomorrow If yesterday was today and today is tomorrow   What has happened?  To Tomorrow I know one day there will be a yesterday a today but no tomorrow       AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Touch my chest You can feel my heart beating when you touch my chest. When you put your head on my chest you hear the greatness sound of music in your ears it’s called love there is no other expiation it has been happing for generation after generation I am only flesh and blood, but my heart will always be yours you are my true love my only love you are my salvation I have loved you through the darkness days and the refection’s in the mirrors we see ourselves as one God has directed us talked to us and ; looked after our children we give praise to God AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

My Wife my best friend in life I'd want Carol, my Wife, to remember me as her best friend in life for letting me show how much I totally loved her. And totally adore the person she is. She saw my illuminate the blackest road; she gave me the brightest spark of a shining star As I walk through my life, I'd want for her to be so proud of me, I have had my faults so I live each day as though you know it may well be my last and I love her to Eternity I thank my Lord God for sending me an angel from heaven when I meet her. (when I wrote this I cried) R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

Voice Someone has to speak up for those who don’t have a voice; will you speak up or just keep walking? Or are you too scared to help? Remember, you might need someone’s help one day? You must face God and tell him why you could not help? AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

TOUCH ME IN MY LIFE YOU HAVE TOUCH ME MY GOD THE LOVE YOU HAVE GIVEN ME AND MY FAITH I SAY MY PRAYS EACH NIGHT AND PRAY FOR WORLD PEACE I AM MAN I MUST BE STRONG AND KEEP ALL THE DEMONS AT BAY I STAND BEFORE YOU HEAD BOWED BECAUSE I LOVE THEE YOU ARE MY GOD MY FATHER WHO HAS UNCONDITIONAL LOVE FOR ME WITHOUT YOU MY WORLD WOULD BE DARK WITHOUT MEANING THAT’S WHY I LOVE THEE SO. AMEM R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

HEAVEN FATHER WHOM ARE THEE IN HEAVEN FATHER, I HAVE DONE YOU WRONG THEY ALL TOOK MY CHILDHOOD AWAY I WAS ANGRY; I WAS HURT, I WANTED TO RUN AWAY I WAS ALONE I WAS SO ANGRY WITH THIS WORLD I WANTED OUT AT SEVEN I WANTED TO GO TO HEAVEN I WOULD TAKE IT OUT ON ALL THOSE AROUND WHO EVER HAD CONTACT WITH ME THEY TOOK AWAY MY INNOCENT, MY EXISTENCES, MY RIGHTS AS A HUMAN BEING I KNOW FOR YEARS I HAD BEEN ON A DIFFERENT FOOTPATH I KNOW I WAS HEADING IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION I FIRST FOUND YOU AT SEVEN WE THEN DRIFTED APART I THEN FOUND YOU AGAIN YOU GAVE ME A FRESH START A NEW BEGINNING, HOPE, LOVE, AND UNDERSTANDING I KNOW THAT MY GOD IS FORGIVEN MY HEART AND SOUL BELONG TO GOD AS I AM A HUMBLE SERVANT OF THEE PLEASE HELP ME BE A BETTER MAN   I FALL TO MY KNEES I PRAY TO THEE AMEN       R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

FOUND THEE MY LIFE AS A CHILD MEANT NOTHING UNTIL I FOUND THEE I WALK WITH THEE; HE LEADS ME TO THE TRUTH   YOU LEAD ME OUT OF DARKNESS I CAN SEE THE LIGHT HE WIPES MY TEARS WHEN NO ONE ELSE CAN HE HOLDS MY HAND HE, S MY FRIEND HE GIVES ME JOY LIKE NO ONE ELSE CAN I ANSWER TO GOD AND GOD ALONE’ I PRAY THAT GOD WILL BRING ME HOME AT THE END OF MY JOURNEY   AMEN Australian Copyright Act 1968 R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

AS I GET OLDER AS EACH DAY PASSES AND I GET OLDER, I KNOW I GET STRONGER MY BELIEF IN YOU, MY GOD YOU ARE MY ROCK YOU ARE MY SAVIOR, YOU LEAD ME TO THE LIGHT FROM MY DARKEST DAYS I PICKED UP AN OLD PHOTO AND THINK WHAT HAS TO HAPPEN TO YESTERDAY, ITS GONE SO FAST. I  SAY WHAT HAS HAPPENED TO YESTERDAY? I KNOW YOU HAVE AWAYS BLESSED ME AND MY WIFE SHE HAS BEEN, AND AWAYS WILL FOREVER BE MY ROCK AND MY WIFE SHE HAS PICKED ME UP SHE loves ME SO AND ASKED NOTHING IN RETURN SHE SHOWS ME NOTHING BUT LOVE SHE HAS A HEART OF GOLD, AND SHE IS A GOOD PERSON I AM SO GRATEFUL TO YOU MY GOD FOR ALL MY CHILDREN AND GRANDCHILDREN AND GREAT GRANDCHILDREN AND FRIENDS AND SORRY FOR ALL THOSE I HAVE HURT. I KNOW YOU HAVE BLESSED ME I KNOW THAT I Won't LIVE FOREVER WHEN I DIE, I PRAY THAT WE ARE TOGETHER? AMEN R. L. Sherriff 2016 MAY GOD BLESS YOU http://www.robert-sherriff.com/  Web https://www.amazon.co.uk/dp/1912639297/  BOOK - Dirkbell http://www.amazon.com.au/dp/1912639270/ BOOK - Nobody's Home THANK YOU FOR FOLLOWING ME AND BUYING AND REVIEWING MY BOOKS

[thewordofshay]

4.2.2018

He called me in the morning (bedtime his time) and he was in heat to the 100th level. It was nice though because it was the first time we'd had a convo on the phone the lasted over 1 min for the past couple months. For the longest time, even after the last time we saw each other. I never felt a sincere apology or real remorse until this phone call. He even cried. Maybe because he was finally home after travelling so much for work so now he has time to let all the dark thoughts sink in. Besides the rediculous dirty talk he kept insisting on, he finally opened up about a lot of the things he was feeling. Very raw, very passionate. He really misses me so much. Couldnt stop talking about how much he loves and misses my voice, eyes, lips, everything. It really hit him the day I left that he let me go. He wanted to make love that day and is haunted by flashbacks of us constantly. To my shock, he even said he made me his wallpaper (the 1 in the blue bathing suit lol). What really made my day was when he asked if he was really the "first" because I was "so good" psht lol. But there were a lot of not so good things in the convo like him saying "fuck my principles, fuck my word of honor" I worry he's completely throwing away his moral code at this point. Also when I brought up what he told my mom about (the thing I dread- him & her this summer), he asked "you really believed that? I just said that to cover for you." *I am rolling my eyes* Anddd he admitted that I was not the "first" since 2013, there were 1-2 instances in 2015 & 2016 which was low key disappointing AF. So much BS in the air. Anyhoo he finally called himself out for all his shit...called himself a big coward & everything I already know. Took him long enough. All I know is I agree but I miss and still love him like hell and it does taste good to know Im not the only one aching, which was one of my biggest fears. I still do not have expectations anymore, Im just trying to stay 1 step ahead.

Oh, dont forget that funny ass story you made up at the end about you getting swept away in the ocean. Its worth remembering.

[hammondcast]

See You at musikmesse ProLight + Sound 2017 Jon Hammond

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[intoxicatingswift]

the 1:

God the line if my wishes came true it would've been you OK THAT HIT

this feels like a iftye but like folklore version

UGH THE BRIDGE ACTUALLY HIT why was this my exact mood yesterday I already called it I knew I needed this album

cardigan:

can i just say im here for taylors lower tone

A FRIEND TO ALL IS A FRIEND TO NONE ok facts

the Peter losing Wendy line really got me cuz that used to be a thing w me n some1 *cries*

chasing shadows in the grocery line nooo

this is like an other side of the door but folkmore IDK IT JUST REMINDS ME OF IT

the last great american dynasty:

god i had to restart it 3 times my fam r so noisy pls.

i really feel like the stripped back style of production really allows taylors lyrics and storytelling within songs to shine. like ive got the maddest mental images of screaming matches between Rebecca and bills family and small town style rumours passing from someone to another

mental music video basically and also u can see the strength of rebecca which is only paralleled by smth ive experienced from books/TV? imagine the skill it takes to tell such a story in a few minutes that people see in 358 pages or 12 1hr installations

EXILE YES BON IVER:

can u tell im excited for this one

ughhh his harmonies are always *chef's kiss*

side note this rly is pushing me and giving me a better sense of identity for the sort of music I want to make thank u Taylor 🥺

god taylor urs and bon ivers voices go together so beautifully u both know how to make a harmony so good

the metaphors are so.... UGH I LOVE

my tears ricochet:

im in love with the vocalising in the intro omg

if I'm on fire you'll be made of ashes too yes hunger games let's go (no for real I just re read it and loved it again so)

ok no the lyrics on this one just HIT me particularly even tho I'm gonna say that on every song OK

I feel like theres a lwymmd ref in here 😶

the line I didn't have it in myself to go with grace spoke to me like i feel like that was extracted directly from my brain

still can't believe we actually got a whole album wth

mirrorball:

MIRRORBALL U COUNTRY BEAUTY

this song just feels like calm vibes as a blanket, stolen kisses

bro.... i literally wrote half a song with the lyrics that have the same gist of the bridge the whole idea of the circus no longer existing and yet u still feel like u have to perform for that one person cause u need to prove that they made the wrong choice leaving i

seven:

God her voice is hauntingly beautiful here

and though I can't recall your face I still got love for you what a beautiful way to express that you're always loved by someone even if you're no longer close, you live in memories and that's 100% enough and you're enough

THE ENTIRE SECOND VERSE IS ME AND MY FRIENDS AS TEENAGERS? God that hurt especially bc the sentiment of my prev things applies to those same people

SHOUT OUT TO INDIA TAYLOR I FEEL SO SEEN RN LMAO

august:

ahhhhh we had cruel summer and now we have august

"lost in the memory" is one of my favourite lyrics anyway and now taylors used it i

did taylor find out like the story of my life 2016- present bc like this seriously hits the "you were never mine" and the emphasis on August i

OK THE BRIDGE WAS MEEEEEE OH MY GOD how do i write my shitty album when this *gestures to entire folklore aggressively* exists.

oh the outro :( whoever said this is taylors melodrama was onto smth fr

this is me trying:

just looking at the lyrics is this ootw; the next chapter 👁️👄👁️

this is so beautifully sad

you're a flashback in a film reel on the one screen in my town okkkkkkkkkkk wow 🥺

illicit affairs:

why do i feel like this is joe and tays story post met gala👁️

YOU SHOWED ME COLOURS IS SUCH A METAPHORICALLY DEEP AND BEAUTIFUL LINE HI OOTW REFERENCE

invisible string omg OK I claimed this one pre listen:

oh crap the colour references already spoke to me bc long ago I had a concept to link songs to colours

also the idea of storybook romance as well with the "used to think I'd meet somebody there"

i love the invisible string theory also oh my god

BAD BLOOD OMG this is such a random detail abt how Joe heard bad blood the first time he was in LA and I love it

LMAO not taylor getting recognised on their anniversary trip 😭

also can i just say the plucking strings keeping the same rhythm/volume the way through somehow contributes to the invisible string theory i loooooveeeeee the lyric/music matching here (did i just somehow compare this to vq matching? think so ok maybe there's hope for me as a medic yet 💀)

taylor rly said fuck adam tom and whoever else Joe is it

OK THE REFERENCES TO GOLD HI DWOHT

ALSO PURPLE PINK SKIES HELLO INTHAF AKA MY STAN SONG WHICH EVERYONE SLEEPS ON

safe to say i made a correct choice stanning this song pre listen ahahaah

mad woman:

the chords on this i am in love, the chaos of the string instruments yessss

here for the strength lol

this is i did something bad but quiet scary angry version

CALLED IT HELLO IDSB REFERENCE

ugh the delicacy in how the words are pronounced in the second chorus shows how hurt and strong u can be simultaneously

mirrored ofc by the soft piano and percussion of hand claps ugh taylor im so happy u made this album

epiphany:

im getting let it all go vibes from this also bon iver

oh it's coronavirus :( yeah

side note wear a mask this seriously was unprecedented and ik at my work (icu) while I was FT we had a couple boxes of antiviral ppe and I did a shift just as things got bad here and it was all completely gone. at the time we'd only had a couple query covid cases so pls. WEAR A MASK ESP U LOT ON THE TUBE/TFL RAIL

i feel like this song reflects how slow the pain can be when ur losing someone like literally watching their breaths slow and also the emotional pain.

betty:

omg this is one of the teenager love story three aaahhhhh it's so cute BUT I SERIOUSLY REMEMBER THE TEENAGE ANGST oh man i Really do

also hello country tay

ugh all ur stupid friends it seriously sounds like 17 year old boy 😭

peace:

LOVE THAT GUITAR RIFF YES AM SO HERE FOR THAT

I made good choices in the songs I chose pre listen all of this is literal poetry and I'm so glad I can focus on the lyrics more because of the production yes i know I already said that

DREAMSCAPES I LOVE THAT WORD I WAS JUST THINKING I NEED TO INCORPORATE IT INTO A SONG

the i-i-id in I'd swing with you for the fences, the delicacy in "give you a child"

now I see your brother as my brother hello paper rings reference (it's not even but yall know)

the rain (paps/media) can well and truly fuck off

"would it be enough if I could never give you peace" actual poetry.

hoax:

i love the dainty piano ugh that HIGH night

the octave differences on the chorus

don't want no other shade of blue hello paper rings

OK this one has a lot to unpack tbh i probably will pore over this like the English poetry i missed out on by choosing stem

also fuck kimberly lmao

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P Rough Edit 1 - ? (keep posting and numbering)

even though i didn't have a lot of my footage I've still put together a full edit although this doesn't include any of the footage of the old woman so therefore doesn't show the contrast between the past and the present  What are you happy with? 

September 20th 2016 - in terms of the footage I'm extremely happy with what i managed to get in the summer, the footage is bright and vibrant and coheres with my shot list this is something i wanted to focus on in order to link back to Burton as he like to over exaggerate items like the rise en scene in his productions in order to enhance the narrative or themes, i also like the use of the music at the start i feel like it ties the montage type edit at the start together quite well, in terms of cinematography I've tried to include as much of the footage i got as possible to give it diversity

What do you hope to change? although its looking okay so far and i still need to film the footage with the old woman, i think by doing this edit its stressed on the importance of having that footage done as without it, it doesn't really tell a story which brings me to my next point it ll feels a little too montagey at this point rather than a short film and doesn't cohere with any of my narrative, i also think a lot of the outside shots go on for too long so i hope to shorten these down so it does feel as long and dragged out, Im also not loving the change between entering into the nightmare world its supposed to show two contrasting versions of a child's dream and i don't think it does this it feels like a random jump in narrative without explanation so i plan to add more shots and voiceover to explain this 

Links to my investigation - Although this is only a rough draft of the full thing i couldn't help but already see a lot of burtons influences in shots, these two in specific which looked quite identical

as we can see here a over the shoulder shot from my film and then the over the shoulder shot from tim burtons alice in wonderland, i really wanted to re-create this shot as i feel like it introduced the young alice in mine really well after the older version, and i feel its important in burtons as its introducing the audience to the first time alice is going back into underlined, i felt our reasonings where similar which is why i wanted to create the double of the shot 

something else i saw portrayed through my film that i was very eager to get right was to show the contrasting of different worlds, something in which burton executes very well in Coraline, when doing the textual analysis for my films i particularly liked this scene with Coraline sat bored a the window while we can see raindrops fall down the window, i feel this shows a sense of been trapped and the idea she's stuck in a place where she doesn't belong, i tried to add this to my piece as before this medium close up of rain falling down the window theres a close up shot of the bright blue sky in order to nail that contrast of two opposing images

in order to gain some more feedback on the draft i used social media and i message in order to communicate with two friends, i sent them both the link to this draft and asked them three questions in which this is the feedback i recieveed 

Question 1 What do you like about my film 

Question 2: Do you think i have made enough links to my creative investigation

Question 4: How could i improve my final edit?

overall view: 

action plan:

Draft 2: 

March 31st 2017 - although its been a quite a while since posting my first draft i feel its really given me the time to get everything that i needed, although i wasn't entirely disappointed with my previous draft i just felt like it didn't portray my narrative very well and didn't cohere with enough of the narrative which i intend to follow, reflecting on my feedback from my first edit, it was understood that some links were there from my investigation but not as  many as thought, with this edit i didn't want there to be some minimal comparisons, my aim was to have a really transparent ode to Burton that it was so obvious its thrown in the audiences faces 

things i like - i really like the structure of the film now, i feel like the scenes of the flashback and the girl in the blue dress really ties the narrative together and makes the story what it is, i also believed i have managed to give it more structure by adding quotes from the script go across the screen as there been displayed  this adds to the effect that its in the form of a book in which it starts with once upon a time and ends with the ended giving it a s tart and a definitive finish, something i decided to change was the voice of the actress, although Montana did a great job for me i wanted someone with a lower tone to really capture the narrative as i felt her voice was too soft for the switch between the dream and nightmare, i feel Alex did an excellent job at the script and am more so happy with the result of the voice over now 

What do you hope to change? this is definitely looking more like a final edit now and its coming together nicely although there are some minor improvements i hope to change, the timing of the music box doesn't cohere with the voice over and can appear glitch at some points or clash where it sounds off i could maybe add a soun bridge and just tidy up so it sound more tidier, i also want to change th length of some of the shots as ,i feel some run on for too long and it becomes apparent so i potentially just want to shorten these down and then gain feedback from the audiences for there extra opinion on anything that could be improved 

Links to my investigation -