#im getting real pissed off with the abelism

[cat-doggy]

Stop saying narcissistic when you mean abusive

[jentlemahae]

some behind the scenes pics of the original version of the idol have come out and it looks like a completely different show holy fuck. it was meant to be about jocelyn’s transition from child star to pop star after the loss of her mum and i’m so pissed off (and it seems the crew are too) that this show seems like it was very very good and fun and definitely through the female gaze. then the male lead threw a tantrum bcs he wasn’t centre stage and didn’t like how feminine it was and so hired a gross pervert to redo the whole thing and turned it into 5 episodes of watching the female lead get exploited and degraded and dehumanised only to then reveal in the final episode that she’s the real villain and the guy who’s been abusing her the whole time is the victim

i hope sam and abel rot

yeah i saw the pic and everything looked so promising :/ ugh someone needs to break into the hbo headquarters and leak the og script! and well i don’t think the og script was some pg 13 / family-friendly show, but even just a more prominently female pov would have turned it into a completely different series :| and im sure it would have had a different (better) ending…it’s just such a shame that it will most likely never see the light

[spnbaby-67]

Secret Lives Chapter 2

A/n:  Hi ya’ll im hoping to get this out before tropical storm Alberto comes in and we are without power.  but keep in mind this is a filler chapter. the real  stuff starts next but its a bit of background on why Jensen’s on the road, thank you all so much for the love and comments on chapter one, honestly i was a bit scared, but glad this story is going places.  i got a direction on how its going and i apologize its a little late coming out. had a few rough days. remeber this is an alternate supernatural universe, jensen is single so no hate on Danneel, i love her just the same. please dont copy and paste on others sites literally took me six months to get back into writing,   likes, comments, reblogs are ok.. Also I want to say a HUGE THANK YOU!!!! 300 FOLLOWERS!!! I never thought i’d get this much response so thank you, and I’ll try and do something in return soon. Ok enough blabbering let’s get reading. 

Pairing: Jensen and reader, Jared Padalecki, Adam OMC (i pictured Jake Abel) Jeffrey Dean Morgan mentioned, 

Warnings; none other than maybe cussing. 

Filler Chapter

Secret Lives chapter two

Readers pov

You woke up but slightly, trying to adjust your blurry vision. You didn't know how long you have been out, but from what it felt like, possibly a bit more than the normal. You soon found out that you were in the living room lying on your back on the sofa. Your head pounded like a thousand drum solos gone completely wild and out of control. You felt nauseated and like you were flying, but you knew that was impossible it was just a sensation you were experiencing from the hit. The last thing you remember was the front leg of Scarlets hoof hitting you in the back of your head, and her running off to who knows where. Tears escaped your eyes remembering that, she was your best horse and you hoped to god Adam had found her. Maybe that's why he was pacing a few feet away from you, and on the phone.

You tried to move a bit, but ended up letting out a moan from the pain.Adam heard and came over to kneel before you.

“Y/N,  oh thank God your ok. How many fingers am I holding up?”  You tried to giggle but that even hurt, it was funny to you because he was holding both hands up one behind the other.

“If you would use one hand instead of both behind the other, maybe I could tell.”  You tried to get up, but the pain in your head forced you back down.

“I don't think you should move just yet.”He had bent down to your eye level.

You look at him “But I have to get Scarlett back, she's our prize horse Adam.”

“i know this Y/N, but your in no position to move, let alone stand up. I had to move you against everything I was taught about head injuries, but I couldn't just leave you out in the storm either. So there's no telling if you have internal injuries or a concussion, until we know you stay put. “ he gave you strict orders as he stood up, which you gave him a bitch face look but obeyed,  “The rains have stopped, I’m going to go check on the horses. Dr. Montgomery will be here shortly to look at you.”

You squint your eyes at him, ‘What? Why? It was just a hit on the head Adam, no need to have called her out here.”

“Tough, like I said I had to move you.” he paused a moment, “Also you had blood running down the back of your head, so better be safe than sorry. Sue me.” He looked at you, and you knew he cared, even though at times he didn't show it. “I’ll be right back. Stay put!”  He pointed a finger at you.

You rolled your eyes at him, even that hurt to do. Judging by that intense pain, you laid your head back down and closed your eyes. You knew Adam would take care of the horses, just like he always did before. But it didn’t stop you from worrying about Scarlet, and where she went.

Jensen pov

Driving from Vancouver to Atlanta had to be one of the most stupid things he had ever done in his life. Yeah he travelled long distance before, but those were planned and he wasn't by himself. He was with family or friends, being by himself gave him too much time to think. Too much time to hear his head tell him negative things he didn't need to hear. But yet here he was, on the road and somehow he agreed to it. He had to figure out a way as to why Jared had a knack for getting him to do what he was against. But as he would have heard Jared put it, it's either that or he would be on him like a flea stuck to a dog, and just the thought of that sent a quiver down his spine. They had a couple of more days to wrap up after the season finale for summer break, he didn’t want to leave or do anything until he knew they were completely done. They had to tear things down, put things up, and he always enjoyed doing that every year, because  it gave him time to be with behind the scenes crew to tell them thank you personally.  He knew that meant more to them than anything, and he made attempts to do that every year since season five. Plus it showed them he wasn’t completely in it for the money, he was really a down to earth person. Funny thing is, they knew, and that’s why they all loved him to. It's what kept them coming back every year. Besides, it's not like he had a wife to go home to like Jared did. They understood when Jensen went to tell them he wouldn’t be there to help them this year, and thankfully some of the looks on their faces they were glad he was going to have some R and R time. Even they knew he needed it.

Sitting in his trailer debating if he wanted to go home or just stay there for the night. Jensen sat at the table  nursing a much needed beer. Thinking of how much he needed a break and what he could do to get out of this depressed state he was currently in. Hearing a knock, then seeing the door open, he knew who it was.  He knew that the way he left stage, that he’d get a visit and he knew Jared would not give up until he got answers. At times, he’s thankful for Jared’s thoughtfulness, but times like this he just wants to be alone. Nothing against Jared or anyone really, it’s just something he has to deal with.

“Jare, go away dude.“ he closed his eyes a second to show him he really wasn't  interested in what he had to say.

Jared walked in further, stopping directly in front of him. “Hey, I understand… But Jay, I'm not letting you slip through and do something to hurt yourself.”  He said in his best Sam caring voice.

Jensen rolled his eyes, “Damn it Jared, can you please don't. I'm just going thru some really tough times right now and I don't want to talk about it. “ he stood up in a haste, knocking into Jareds chest slightly as he went to get another beer. Automatically getting one for Jared.

“look, I know you don't want to talk about it, but hear me out...okay?” He said in his southern Texas drawl.

Jensen took a deep breath in, he knew that if he was to get any ounce of sleep tonight, he had to listen at least to what he had to say.  

Jensen gestured his right arm to him as if to say, “the floor is all yours.” then sat down on the sofa waiting for Jared to talk.

Jared paced a bit, trying to find the right words to say. “I don't know what is going on with you since you won't talk, so I called Jeff.”  He paused to keep Jensen sitting down. “before you get all pissed at me for calling him, I did it because I care dude. I hate seeing you like this, man.  It's killing me that your not talking to me about it and it scares me. Jeff wants you to come down, to his place in Georgia while he's filming. Spend a few days, with him and his daughter Kamryn. It'll be good for you and I already got clearance from Bob for you to go.”

Jensen stood up and looked at him, “Seriously? Your butting into something that is not really necessary, I don’t have time to travel to Georgia. In case you have forgotten, we have a show to film.”

“It’s Memorial Day weekend, you knew we were taking off tomorrow for Texas. So, it’s either me and your family on your back all weekend, or Jeff. Take your pick.” Jared stood there waiting for an answer.

He furrowed his eyebrows at him, “Sometimes Jare, you can be a real pain in the ass.”

He chuckled, “You’ll thank me later, now get packed I have a rental on the way here so you can drive comfortably.”

He looked at him, “What? Oh hell no, i'm not driving three days to get to Georgia not when I can fly.”

“Nope, part of the deal is you drive. Clear your head, you can fly home.”

Jensen closed his eyes a moment, “i hate you.” he really didn’t and Jared knew that.

“You’ll love me after this, now get packed.” He smiled at him as he helped push him towards the back of the trailer where he knew he had at least week’s worth of clothes in there.

That’s how he now ended up on this long highway, driving to a place he’s never been to. He ran his right hand over his face to wash the aggravation away, and wondered just what Jeff had in store for him. Jared was right about one thing, he knew that Jeff would get him out of whatever funk he was in, because Jeff knew what buttons to push.

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[soaimagines]

Forbidden

Request: Imagine Tig falling in love with a prospect but they have to hide their love from the club. In the end they all find out and they're all cool with it.

Note: To the person that requested this; I hope I have done the request justice. Im sorry its not my best writing. Please let me know what you think 💕

Also I have no idea what sorta timeline I was going with here so bare with me.x

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

“Juice, I want you and the prospects to head up to the warehouse. Keep watch.” “I cant be up there all night man, Roosevelts on my case with these piss tests. Gotta get one in by the end of the day.” “Shit.” Clay took a drag of his cigar. “I’ll head up there in a few hours, take over.” Tig offered. “You sure?” “Yeah, I got this brother.” Clay nodded and turned to Jax. “You and Ope set a meet with Laroy. Make sure he ain’t gonna make a move without our say so.” “Juice after you see Roosevelt I want you to find out what you can about the Mayans supplier.” “Yes sir.” Juice nodded. “Chibs and Bobby, your with me. No body makes a move until I say so, is that clear?” Heads nodded around the table and Clay banged the gavel against the desk. You watched the doors open and your brothers-to-be file out of Church. Tig pulled his pouch of tobacco out of his pocket and began to roll a cigarette as he walked towards you, Clay beside him and you stood to meet them. “Wheres Phil and Miles?” Clay asked. “Outside, helping Gem get Abels new carseat in the car.” Clay nodded and pulled a .22 pistol out of his kutte and handed it to you. “Your on watch. It’ll be a long night. Don't fuck this up.” He slapped your shoulder and headed out of the clubhouse, Chibs and Bobby on his heels. Opie pulled out his cell phone and dialled a number as he and Jax headed for the door as well while Juice headed for the bathroom. That left just you and Tig in the clubhouse and he turned to you as he licked the rolling paper and folded it over. “I’ll be at the warehouse in a few hours, taking over from Juice.” You raised your eyebrows and a smirk came to your lips. After quickly glancing around the room to ensure you were alone you grabbed Tig by his kutte and pulled him closer to you. “Just cant stay away, huh?” “Something like that.” Tig said. He lifted your chin with his hand and pressed a kiss to your lips. A low growl left your throat and he smiled against your lips. “I gotta head out.” He said, his voice barely above a whisper. You nodded and tugged his leather once more, pulling his lips to yours. He pulled away and licked his lips, just as the flush of the toilet was heard through the bathroom door. You met his eye and with a slight nod you shared a silent goodbye. He slapped your ass as he walked past you and you laughed just as the bathroom door opened and Juice walked out. “Whats funny, prospect?” A blush rose to your cheeks and you shook your head. “Nothin, man.” Juice raised an eyebrow and shrugged. “Come on, man. Tell Phil to pull up the van.” You nodded and headed out of the clubhouse.

~

The sun was starting to set and you sat on a stack of old tires, your back leant against the old wood of the warehouse. “You seriously gotta Blastoise?” Juice asked. “Yeah man. Took me ages to get 100 squirtle candies though.” “Whos squirting?” You both looked up as Tig walked round the corner, a wild grin on his face. Juice laughed and shook his head. Tig rolled his eyes as he saw the cellphones in both of your hands. “Seriously, that pokemon shit again? How old are you two?” “Dont be jealous, grandpa.” You laughed. “Nah we should be the jealous ones, (y/n). Tiggy grew up with real life dinosaurs.” You both laughed. “Yeah yeah yeah, let me know when you hit puberty.” Tig punched Juice on the shoulder. You sniggered and slid your phone back into your pocket. “See ya later man.” Juice nodded to you before he slapped Tig on the back and headed off towards  his bike. You pulled your cigarettes out of your pocket and offered one to Tig, which he accepted. Both of you lit up as you watched Juice get on his bike and Tig waited for him to ride outta sight before turning towards you. “Grandpa, huh?” You smirked and took a drag of your cigarette. “The daddy kinks getting kinda boring.” Tig raised an eyebrow and stalked towards you, those piercing blue eyes burning straight into you. He stood between your legs and placed one hand on the wall right beside your head. His lips crashed against yours and the nicotine on your tongue mixed with the faint taste of whiskey on his breath. You breathed him in, your tongue pushing against his in a playful battle. You flicked your still lit cigarette into the dirt and ran your hands through his black curls, holding his face to yours. A primal growl rumbled in Tigs throat and you smirked against his lips. He broke away first but kept his face close to yours. “How often have they been coming round the back?” Tig asked, referring to Phil and Miles who were keeping watch at the front of the warehouse. You shrugged and reached for Tigs cigarette. “Every half hour or so.” Tig sighed and you passed the smoke back to him. “We shouldnt, doll.” He whispered and pecked your lips before stepping back, adjusting his pants with one hand. “Who cares, Tiggy? They're gonna find out eventually.” “Dont.” He took a long drag before tossing the butt to the ground and crushing it with his boot. “You know its too soon.” “Its been four months.” You whined and slid off the stack of tires. He ran a hand through his hair, a frustrated look on his face. “I know, baby. Once you've got your kutte we can.. be more open.” You sighed and walked towards him, draping your arms over his shoulders. “I dont wanna wait that long.” You pouted. Tig drew you in for another kiss before pushing you away gently. “Its not forever.” “I know.” You whispered against his lips. “I love you, Alex.” “I love you too, (y/n).”

~

Three days had passed since the night you'd spent at the warehouse with Tig. He had tried to resist as much as he could but eventually he caved and you'd spent most of the night kissing under the stars. Until Miles had almost caught you. You'd both been so engrossed in each other you barely noticed the sound of footsteps approaching and you'd only just managed to seperate in time. Ever since then Tig had been keeping his distance. He was pushing you away, scared that one wrong move would out your relationship to the club. He had sent you and the other prospects to watch the warehouse again last night, without supervision from a full patched member and you hadn't been all too bothered. Until you'd turned up at the clubhouse in the morning to find the remains of a SAMCRO party. It hadn't been a big one, but you and the other prospects had still been left to clean up the mess while the rest of the Club headed out to Lodi. Thankfully you had avoided the bathroom, where Phil was now scrubbing some croweaters vomit off the tiles. Miles was sorting out the empty bottles into the recycling while you swept up the shattered glass and the cigarette ash scattered over the floors. You were tired, and slightly pissed that you'd missed the party and when you heard the roar of the bikes signalling the return of the Sons you swore under your breath. You knelt and swept the pile you'd made into the dustpan, and headed for the trashcan. “Seriously man, what was that crows name?!” You heard Juice exclaim. You tucked yourself out of sight in the kitchen. “Which one?” “The one that was with Tig, damn I haven't seen her before.” You jaw clenched. “Ah the one with the big titties.” Chibs chuckled. You stepped out of the kitchen, the broom still in your hand. No one noticed you, no one except Tig and his body straightened when he saw you. His face went hard and he looked away. “Seriously man, what was her name?” Juice asked again. “I dunno, man.” Tig said. “Nah what was it? Jess or something, right?” “Drop it.” Tig snarled before stalking out of the clubhouse. Juice raised his hands in defense, his face full of confusion. You dropped the broom and followed TIg, not bothering to care who noticed.

The door slammed shut after you and Tig turned, shaking his head when he saw it was you. “Jesus christ.” “What the fuck was that, Alex?” “Nothing.” He shrugged. “It was nothing.” “Are you that fucking embarrassed to be seen with me?” You walked towards him, anger fuelling your steps. “Not here.” Tig warned. You ignored him and grabbed him by the cuff of his kutte. “Do you want to be with me or not?!” He was breathing heavily, his blue eyes filled with an ocean of emotions yet his facer was cold. Your face was only inches away from his as you stared into those eyes that drowned you, and with each breath he took you felt the fire inside of you growing. He must have felt it too. He crashed his lips against yours, his hands holding your face and the cool metal of his rings pressing against your warm cheeks. You pried his mouth open with your tongue, yet the moment your tongue touched his he caved, a low moan rumbling in his throat. “What the fuck is going on?!” Clays voice boomed. You leapt apart, your eyes wide in shock as Tig closed his, tilting his face to the sky and covering it with his hands. “Church. Now.” Clay growled. He turned in your direction and you shrunk under his cold glare. “You too.”

~

“How long has this.. thing been going on?” “Few months.” Tig answered. He stood next to you at the back of the room, while the rest of the club sat around the table. You couldn't help but feel like a naughty school kid being scolded by the school board. “Look, guys. I-“ “Dont.” Tig interrupted but you ignored him, throwing him an apologetic glance before continuing. “I love him. I don't care if this ruins my chances of getting a kutte. I care about him.” Clay stared you down, his face blank. You glanced at Tig but he was focused on Clay. “This.. Whatever this is.. It doesn't interfere with your role in the Club, understand?” Tig nodded. “Absolutely, brother.” Clay nodded slowly before turning to you. “You still want that top rocker?” You nodded. “Dont think we’re gonna go easy on you. Your gonna have to work extra hard to prove yourself.” You nodded. “What goes on behind closed doors is between the two of you. But I want it to stay behind closed doors.” “So thats it?” Tig asked. “You really don't care?” He reached for your hand and squeezed it tightly. “We’ve never givin’ a shite where ye sticking your dick, brother.” Chibs said. The rest of the club nodded and you smiled at Tig. “I dont wanna see you making out or whatever it is you two do.” Piney spoke up. “But as long as you don't come on to me then I don't care.” Tig smirked and you clutched your hands to your heart in mock hurt. “Dammit, Piney. You know that oxygen tank really turns me on.”

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@i-want-to-be-watered-by-roger @danleto97 @ichimaruai

[dragon-for-the-day]

System update

These help me keep a handle on things as well so imma put another one up.

Me: im depressed as shit and basically nonfunctional? but i mean whats new?

Gabe: is as always rigidly in control and pretending hes fine. He did an ass load of chores and now everything hurts.

Cain: found a new video game and wont stop laughing about pogo sword. Its good. its the first time i have seen him smile since his people abondon him.

Abel: is ignoring me. I dunno why

Hanzo: is in this weird shattered limbo kinda thing? hes not exactly here but his emotions keep leaking through, i think hes tryna lock him self out and shut his emotions off.

Spencer: wont fucking shut up and is gonna get himself pumled if hes not careful. hes sweet tho and ari likes him

Dave: is going by Eli now and is fucking awful

Keith: is dissocating for some reason? im not used to that on him! its weird?? I dunno

Dare: watched the whole first season of american horror story in less then a day but hates all the other seasons so hes being a real piss baby.

Deimos: I think he collects scars? how fucked up is that?

Ari: she is great, she loves it when the mail comes and has latched on to Genji like a fucking leach

everyone else isnt really around. i get whisps of people here and there but we arnt really eating or sleeping so there is no need for people to be here. plus i think a lot of them are avoiding spencers ramblings. i dunno, we will see

[sadgirls-xo]

1-150

1. Who was the last person you held hands with? my baby2. Are you outgoing or shy? both lmao3. Who are you looking forward to seeing? my baby4. Are you easy to get along with? i’d say so5. If you were drunk would the person you like take care of you? yeh6. What kind of people are you attracted to?  my baby7. Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? ya8. Who from the opposite gender is on your mind? no one9. Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? no10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? brooke11. What does the most recent text that you sent say? “No im tired”12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now? butterflies-queen naija, in my feelings-drake, best part-h.e.r., wake up-travis scott, & heaven-kane brown13. Do you like it when people play with your hair? depends on who you are14. Do you believe in luck and miracles? yeh15. What good thing happened this summer? nothing16. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? YES PLEASE17. Do you think there is life on other planets? sometimes18. Do you still talk to your first crush? no19. Do you like bubble baths? no 20. Do you like your neighbors? sure21. What are you bad habits? 22. Where would you like to travel? All over Europe23. Do you have trust issues? no24. Favorite part of your daily routine? 25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? all of it26. What do you do when you wake up? think about quitting my job bc i dont wanna get up27. Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? neither28. Who are you most comfortable around? my bestfriends29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up? ye30. Do you ever want to get married? i am married31. If your hair long enough for a pony tail? yes32. Which celebrities would you have a threesome with? give me abel tesfaye and robyn fenty. 33. Spell your name with your chin. no..34. Do you play sports? What sports? no35. Would you rather live without TV or music? TV36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them? yeh37. What do you say during awkward silences? nothing38. Describe your dream girl/guy? 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in? vans n adidas40. What do you want to do after high school? nursing41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? not everyone42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean? im mad/sad/angry/pissed off/annoyed/aggravated43. Do you smile at strangers? sometimes 44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean? outer space45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning? work46. What are you paranoid about? nothing47. Have you ever been high? yes48. Have you ever been drunk? yes49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? no50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore? black51. Ever wished you were someone else? no52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself? everything53. Favourite makeup brand? whats makeup54. Favourite store? adidas55. Favourite blog? sadgirls-xo56. Favourite colour? red57. Favourite food? spaghetti58. Last thing you ate? chicken nuggets59. First thing you ate this morning? nothing60. Ever won a competition? For what? no61. Been suspended/expelled? For what? no62. Been arrested? For what? no63. Ever been in love?  yes64. Tell us the story of your first kiss? idk65. Are you hungry right now? no66. Do you like your tumblr friends more than your real friends? no67. Facebook or Twitter? twitter68. Twitter or Tumblr? tumblr69. Are you watching tv right now? yes70. Names of your bestfriends? Brooke, Mira, & Kelly71. Craving something? What? spaghetti72. What colour are your towels? blue72. How many pillows do you sleep with? 673. Do you sleep with stuffed animals? no74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have? 275. Favourite animal? monkey76. What colour is your underwear?blue77. Chocolate or Vanilla? vanilla78. Favourite ice cream flavour? oreo79. What colour shirt are you wearing? dark blue80. What colour pants? no pants81. Favourite tv show? spongebob82. Favourite movie? avatar83. Mean Girls or Mean Girls 2? i dunno84. Mean Girls or 21 Jump Street? 21 jump street85. Favourite character from Mean Girls? idk86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo? Dory87. First person you talked to today?  Brooke88. Last person you talked to today? Brooke89. Name a person you hate? I rather not90. Name a person you love? MY BABYYYYYY91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? Yes lmao92. In a fight with someone? no93. How many sweatpants do you have? idk94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have? a lot95. Last movie you watched? avatar96. Favourite actress? jennifer aniston97. Favourite actor?98. Do you tan a lot? no99. Have any pets? 1100. How are you feeling? tired101. Do you type fast? yes102. Do you regret anything from your past? yeah103. Can you spell well? yes104. Do you miss anyone from your past? ehh105. Ever been to a bonfire party? yea106. Ever broken someone’s heart? yea107. Have you ever been on a horse? yea108. What should you be doing? sleeping109. Is something irritating you right now? no110. Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? yea111. Do you have trust issues? no112. Who was the last person you cried in front of? my mom brother and dad113. What was your childhood nickname? meli114. Have you ever been out of your province/state?yeah115. Do you play the Wii? no116. Are you listening to music right now? no117. Do you like chicken noodle soup? sure118. Do you like Chinese food? ye119. Favourite book? captain underpants120. Are you afraid of the dark? no121. Are you mean?  yes122. Is cheating ever okay? fuck no123. Can you keep white shoes clean? yes124. Do you believe in love at first sight? no125. Do you believe in true love? yes126. Are you currently bored? no 127. What makes you happy? my baby128. Would you change your name? nah129. What your zodiac sign? capricorn130. Do you like subway? fuck no131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? nothing132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? brooke133. Favourite lyrics right now? KEKE DO YOU LOVE ME134. Can you count to one million? no, only bc im lazy tho135. Dumbest lie you ever told? im fine hahaha136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed? closed137. How tall are you? 5′5138. Curly or Straight hair? curly139. Brunette or Blonde? brunette140. Summer or Winter? winter141. Night or Day? night142. Favourite month? december143. Are you a vegetarian? no144. Dark, milk or white chocolate? milk145. Tea or Coffee? coffee146. Was today a good day? sure147. Mars or Snickers? snickers148. What’s your favourite quote? 149. Do you believe in ghosts? yes n no150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? no im in bed and im lazy rn

[survivorcutthroat]

Rob’s Jury Question/Answer(s)

Congrats you two on making it to the finals.

Zack

I respect your game. You were able to survive many tribal councils where you were a target, yet you also remained low-key at the same time. You were loyal to your alliances and weren’t fake. You didn’t try to talk to me which I weirdly appreciate because you wouldn’t have to lie to me, you weren’t going to betray me because we weren’t really close and there was really no need to talk to each other.

I told the jury about what you did at the final 5. It’s a game move you made, but you wanted me to keep it quiet even here. I think it benefited you so I want you to own up to the fact that you gave your idol to me. You told me that you were voting me out, which is a plus in my book even if it is some obvious kiss-assing because that means you’re honest and I appreciate it when people are honest. The jury: *laughs.* You said I was going to win but I really wasn’t I was spot on about what the jury was thinking of me,

I want you to describe your relationships with the jury and Amir. It (better) can be long, I want honest opinions of what you thought of them, how they helped you out, why you went against them. That’s it from me, good luck.

Amir

*Cracks knuckles*

It’s no surprise that the cast gets leaked, especially with this season. I found out three people who were playing this season before it started. Jaiden, Luke, and you. I did my research, looked through your old confessionals in Transylvania, asked around about you. My analysis was that you were a very charming guy, you got people to think they were tight with you, and then you would cut them loose. Now I look like the biggest Booboo The Fool. You would say, “Rob! I feel like I tell you things but you don’t tell me anything.” And that’s the reason why. I didn’t want to get close to you, I didn’t want you to betray me, I didn’t want to be that idiot who thought you were his best friend in the entire world just for you to backstab them. I was literally afraid of this happening, and what do you know, it does, because I’m a fucking genius.

I always wanted to meet you, and when we were cast in Clash of the Titans 4 it was the best opportunity because I could get to know you and become your friend, get close to you to where you would want to work with me in this game as well. Where there game intentions? Yes, but you were a really caring guy and I did like you on a personal level.

I was sad that we weren’t together originally, but then we went on to new Magyi. You became my closest ally, the person I wanted to make the end with, the person I was playing this game for, the person who made me grateful to be in this shitty game. I think that you were at the bottom, but I didn’t want you to be, that’s why I told you about the “majority” because I really did trust you. I told you pretty much everything that was going on in that tribe because you were the only person I really really did trust on Magyi.

We make merge and I’m terrified. I voted in the minority on the previous vote and I went to you alone and afraid. You were there for me. You were there for me whenever I was sad, whenever I needed someone, whenever I needed a friend. I did pretty much everything we talked about. Voting Stevie, Mearl, Tommy, Dom, Crow, SId. We agreed that Mearl had to go after he betrayed me and our trust. You knew I loved Tommy, how he was a friend of mine, and how I was conflicted about that vote. But I vote out Tommy, because of YOU, I told the Cutthropes about the minorities’ plans because of YOU, pretty much everything I did in this game was because of YOU. I told you about Dustin’s idol, I got Tommy, Crow, and Dom to vote for Zack instead of you because I didn;t want you to go in case something went wrong or I decided to go with them, I told you about basically everything that could have a relevance to us and our games. At final 5, Zack makes me promise not to tell ANYBODY but I immediately tell you what happened. And that’s because you were my number one, my ally, my comrade, my best friend. I tell my friend everything, and at the F4 she said it might be smart to take you out as the biggest threat. I shut her down so fast, you’ve been my closest ally in this whole game, you said you were going to play your idol on me at the F5, I thought you had my back 100%, you were realistically my only chance at survival, and I really thought you would tie it for me. People told me how you couldn’t be trusted, how I had to vote you out, but I didn’t want to believe them, I thought that that’s not the Amir that I’ve gotten to know, I know he has my back and is looking out for me. Turns out, I was wrong. I would have been okay if you had at least told me you were voting me out. But you didn’t, you said “I’m voting Dustin right the fuck now,” And now everything just feels fake. Our alliance feels fake. Our relationship feels fake. You seem...fake.

 Did I debate cutting you at F3 if I had the chance? Yes. Was it realistic? Knowing me, no.  I would have been fine losing to you in the F2, I probably would have taken you to the F2 because I don’t give a fuck, I wanted to guarantee one of us winning. Can I say that now? Honestly, I’m not sure. Do I sound like a hypocrite? Yes. Do I care? Not really. You probably thought if you voted me out I would be a vote for you, and you probably will be right.

You won two challenges this season. Congrats. Let’s see if you can win one last one.

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I am you, you are the ketchup bottle, your lies were the ketchup.

You’re doing the #WasteHerTime2017 Challenge, inspired by a queen. I would like you to analyze ALL of our conversations and post the messages where you wasted my damn time, where you told me bullshit, where you were being fake. I want timestamps, I want receipts. You can write and include anything you would like about the messages you post.

I also want you to be honest with me. Tell me the things you hate about me, the things that annoy you about me, that piss you off. I can tell there were times you were mad at me and I want you to be upfront about it.

I say all of this with very harsh love, because at the end of the day, I do love you. I do want to be friends. But that does not guarantee you my vote.

Good luck,

From Booboo the fool.

Okay this is the first question we got and its the last one im answering. I basically wrote an entire draft of this question doing what you told me and structuring this answer and you know what im not sending that. Im going to just go into a headspace where i can be genuine with you, and im going to type out how i feel, and them im not going to reread this answer, im not going to edit it, im just gonna send it. Rob, im not fake. Our friendship was not fake. I care about you so much as a friend, maybe to you my actions in the game didnt reflect that and i don't even know where to start. Your friendship meant a lot to me, and im not ignorant to the fact that i could not have made it this far in the game without you. You were extremely loyal and i felt like had someone who was truly looking out for me. Rob i was so loyal to you for almost the entire game and multiple times i did have the intention of taking you to the end completely, but when final 4 hit, i struggled so fuck hard rob i really really struggled. I told you i was going to tie it and i planned on it but it was all because of how much i cared about you but in the back of my mind i knew it was a bad move, i knew it was a final 3 and id be pissing off the 2 people that id go to final 3 with, and it would mean that id be solidifying my position as a 3rd place for the second time in a row. I really really had to seperate game and emotion and while that my biggest strength, i absolutely hate the fact that i hurt you, rob idk what else to say to you i cant make you believe me but i was there for you through everything. I was never someone who tried to make you dependant on me, whenever you brought up your problems i only ever told you that you were a smart guy who deserves self confidence, i always tried to help being a happier person and to truly love yourself and see yourelf as a the kind person we all see you as in this game. This answer is getting long af but so was your question so imma just keep but rambling. Rob theres nothing that i hate about you. I delete the first draft of my answer because im not supporting your self destructive question, its a way to hurt me and way to hurt yourself and it completely takes anything fun out of this game. As someone whos preached self love to you, im not going to do what you said and make you hate yourself or hurt your feelings over a jury vote. If you don't wanna vote for me for not exposing your personal messages and being mean you, then don't vote for me. And id be completely lying because i have nothing ill to say about you. Okay, thats all, im sorry, i really really hope you forgive me

Okay! So.. I guess it’s no secret now that yes, I did in fact give Rob my idol to play on himself at final 5. I felt bad because we all attacked him in the immunity challenge and I thought Abel’s idol was actually real so I wanted to give him a fair chance to compete in a fire making challenge and see who really wanted to be here. I didn’t have any intensions on Abel to leave but that is just how the cookie crumbled and I don’t regret doing this for Rob.

Now let me describe my relationship with the jury. I’m gonna be nothing but honest here.

Luke. I’ve known Luke for a little while now and I actually played my first ORG with him. We both just played Switzerland together and believe it or not, we actually worked together. Like I said in my rights of passage, I had all intensions on working with Luke in this game but, shit happens! Looking back now, I think Luke leaving actually benefited my game. There was so much talk about a Switzerland alliance (which was not real but I did want to start one since people already thought there was one) so when people saw that we actually voted against each other, I think that opened people’s eyes that wow, okay, this is actually a whole different game and just because of past relationships, anything can happen. I personally love Luke and love that he like’s all my Facebook/ IG post. A real hunt owo.

Stevie. I’ve played past games with Stevie and.. We never really clicked. We’re both completely opposite people with different interest. We never worked together so I pretty much assumed it would be the same in this game. I tried talking to Stevie and tried connecting with him but the only thing we connected about were bears. But… I’m not complaining! That being said, I respect Stevie and would love to get to know him outside of the game, but in the game, we never worked together and never were going to work together because I couldn’t see myself trusting him after he tried to blindside me. But I’d love to get to know more about him and talk more about bears.

Mearl. Mearl is someone that I knew nothing about. I had no past relationship with him so I needed to start a relationship with him from the start. We would talk from time to time but it would jus be the basic game talk. Like “have you heard anything about the vote?” “Oh I heard so and so say this.” But I was very careful with what I told Mearl because I was petrified of him. Going on the Great Lakes wiki and seeing that he won almost every single challenge, I knew he would be competition. I didn’t want him on my bad side at all because I also feared he had an idol. So I would just do my friendly talks with him without giving out any game information and I was thrilled to see he added me in his majority alliance because I feared being on his radar so bad. I respect Mearl so much as a game player.

Tommy. Knowing nothing about Tommy and hearing people talk about how ‘Cutthroat’ is he actually has been in other games, scared me. I would try to talk to Tommy as much as possible, but it was hard. It was so hard to connect with Tommy. Nothing against him, it’s just, we’re totally different people with not much in common. Tommy can talk for hours and I’m more of a person to just have one daily normal conversation a day. I knew Tommy was targeting me for multiple rounds so when we did talk, I would always try to be very careful at what game talk I would actually say without revealing anything. I slipped up a couple of times though but I backtracked and saved myself. Hopefully Tommy and I can talk after this game and clear everything up that really happened.

Crow. Crow helped my game so much. Without him, I may not even be here. He stuck his neck out for me without even knowing who I was so when Crow left, it was definitely hard. I get Crow is mad right now but I respect him so much as a person and a game player and everything I said to him after he tried to vote me out was just a joke and I meant nothing by it. Crow is someone I would 100% want to be friends with outside of this game.

Sid. I knew a little bit about Sid from what other people told me and I realized he’s actually very trust worthy. I wanted to be on the same tribe as him and when we weren’t, I was so glad to see him surviving Tribals because I knew we could both benefit off of each other. I was super happy when we made merge together and I’m even happier that we developed a friendship out of this game. We both helped each other’s game’s in different ways and I respect him so much. If Sid got to the end, he would be a huge competition to beat and that’s why he had to go when he did. Nothing but respect.

Abel. Rob, like you said, a lot of the cast was leaked. Abel and I applied together and we were both so fucking happy and excited to play together, again. We both just played Switzerland and when we actually started the game we realized how fucking hard this is going to be because it was no secret how close us 2 were in that game. I always saw myself protecting him and I always saw him protecting me. We would both tell each other all the information we had and go on from there. Not only was it nice having a great ally in the game, but it was nice to have a friend in the game that I could talk to about anything, not just game talk. He really did keep me sane.

Rob. I would say our relationship is very.. Odd. We rarely talked but we both saved each other. I think I had no choice but to give you my idol because you voted in my favor so many times when you could have taken me out. Honestly, thank you. I knew from what people were telling me that you actually liked me and I actually really liked you and I never would bring up your name. i don’t regret doing what I did for you and I hope you don’t regret helping me out in this game. You’re such a nice kid with a great personality and I respect you so much that I couldn’t lie to you. I really hope we can start some kind of friendship outside of this game.

Dustin. DADDY!!! I was so glad to see Dustin was playing this game. For some reason, we just clicked from day 1. For me, day 1, it was game time. Dustin and I were talking and giving each other information from the very start. I’m so happy and grateful that I got to actually officially meet him and play with him. He helped my game and I would like to say, I did the same for him. Dustin was such a great ally and I love him so fucking much. He’s someone I can say I became really good friends with inside of this game.

Amir. Ahhh! I never actually thought me and Amir would make Final 2 together. Coming into this game, Amir and I had some bad blood. But we both put that aside and knew we could really help each other in  this game and make it far. We were called out day 1 for knowing each other and being friends so I can honestly say I’m shocked we’re sitting in the finals together. I love him so much.

Thanks for your question, Rob, I actually really enjoyed typing this. ;~)

OK, and with that it is now time for our Jury to vote! Jurors, you will be tasked in voting to decide Tumblr Survivor’s 56th winner. Please decide carefully. Your votes are due to your host chat by August 18th @ 8:00 PM EST. 

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EPISODE 6: LIKE I’M SPEAKING SPANISH IN REVERSE OR SOMETHING - LILY

I’m really starting to fear for my position in this game. It seems like nobody really is trusting me enough to let me know where the votes are actually going, they just kinda let me PM them and nod their heads like I’m speaking Spanish in reverse or something. For two tribal councils IN A ROW I was just left on the sidelines, having no idea at all about where everyone’s votes were actually going. I just had to bank on the idea that people weren’t lying to me, which… isn’t always true, I guess? Anyway, if I’m the next to be voted out, don’t be shocked or anything lmao

i love amanda, drew and abbey, and i love daisy

So another OG Matterhorn got voted out. It’s kind off that Daisy was voted out because according to Ash, Daisy is close with Logan and he has his hands in like a dozen jars.

Now I’m sitting out for this challenge because I’m at the beach and literally have no chance on getting a score so bless that we won the previous immunity.

I’m hoping the rest of my tribe pull through because I don’t wanna go to tribal council and because I don’t know what to do if tribal comes.

On one hand Zack is a threat because he’s shady and the other is Dom who’s apparently (according to Tyler) is forming alliances left and right. Plus Dom is another one of Logan’s underlings. There’s also Max who is like… meh??? Mess.

My new alliance which is H4rmony is awesome!! I love them all and I can’t believe it took me this long to actually have a solid alliance. We’re looking good because no one really suspects us working together so hopefully it stays that way. I’m praying we’ll be successful as Port Mafia!! Woo shout out to JENN, EDDIE, NICOLE, GENKI and JUNIOR!! <3

Voting Daisy out last round was really tough for me. Part of me kind of regrets it because I think she meant it when she called me out and told me that she trusted me 100% in this game but part of me thinks it could have been the right choice because looking ahead, Daisy is a dangerous player so it was smarter to get her out now. Looking ahead, Logan and Nick really need to be broken up. A strong duo like that still remaining in the game is scary and it’s about time that an original Monte Rosa goes home already.

Looking at it, if we lost the immunity challenge I want something like this:

Votes for Logan or Nick: Abel, Luke, Renee, Lily, Benjamin

Votes for Abel: Logan, Nick

maybe idk whew

Nervous about this challenge so I’m hoping we win again!!! The hosts are completely whack too btw!! What were they on when we get idol clue that allows us chance for idol if we throw challenges???? Luckily I am loyal af to my tribe unlike I’m sure many others. I may not have idol but at least I haven’t betrayed anyone yet. I’m happy with that.

IM SO HAPPY WE WON! THESE BITCHES CAN’T GET RID OF ME JUST FUCKING YET. I’m hoping there’s a swap next because I feel like I’d be with people i can trust either way. Hopefully I’d be able to reconnect with Logan, Nick, Ben, and Luke. I trust those 4 the most (and ashley sarah of course i love her so much)

Lily doesnt want to work with me anymore because I basically have lied to her about the past two votes.. which is fine because we lost immunity and she is probably going home… I just hope we can have a nice clean vote this time, I dont want none of that crazy sheeeet.

Me seconds before immunity results: OMG I feel like we’re gonna lose asdfghjk

Me later:

WTF? Max DID that!! I can’t believe we pulled off a win!! Woo bless them all and rip Zack’s keyboard.

So now these sadistic hosts wants us to rank our tribemates from 1 - 7 with 1 being the one we trust the least and 7 the one we trust the most. I saw this happened in Tenochtitlan and I have a good prediction on what’s gonna happen. It’s obviously another swap duh, and then if my prediction is correct the one is put as the least person they trust on the tribe will be the ones to pick the members of their new tribe. With this knowledge I’m not really sure if I should immediately put Dom on the 1 spot because he could easily regroup with Logan RIP. I don’t know what to do with my rankings rn but I’m praying to God for two things. First is for me to be put on a tribe where I’m in a good position where I’m with my H4rmony alliance and second is for Renee to be safe this tribal. Aaaah I really wanna work with her for real this time!! Fingers crossed that both of my wishes come true!!

It’s been a record of no tribals in this game!!! It makes me super nervous tho. I’m glad we have been so lucky!! Wondering if there will be a double or swap. Hmm glad I have allies on both sides so not too worried!!

whew… i feel like i’m goin, everyone is being so strangely silent this round. i just gotta hope that i find an idol on this search so that i can, y'know, not die

So we lost another immunity challenge…story of my life. After talking a little bit with Renee we’re going to hold off on the plan to split Logan and Nick up for now because we don’t trust Benjamin or Lily enough to not throw us under the bus to benefit themselves. I think tonight will probably just be a simple vote against Lily providing she doesn’t have any immunity idols or any special items.

I think that this is the third round since I got my Tatzelwurm so it could be hatching into something next round which is incredible. I can start thinking about when I want to use that and things like that. Things are going well, I’m proud of how I’m playing because I’ve lowkey ran this thing so far so whew!!

at least i beat my old placement, thats something i guess still kinda pissed that renee didnt get voted out before me, she never spoke to anyone.