#im fucking braindead rn lol

[snowymaltese]

16+ hour long workday on a goddamn Sunday, let's fucking gooooooo

[11queensupreme11]

QUEEN ITS LIKE 2AM HERE, AND I CANT SLEEP CUZ YOUR NEWEST CHAPTER IS STRESSING ME TF OUT STOPP 😭

When i read the TWs, my eyes literally bulged out hahwhwjwk

As a hard core posy fan, i was fed the finest of feasts this chapter <3 lol i already know pillow-humper, skin-licker, daughter-lover, vouyerism-fetishizing, daddyseidon is a bit freaky but aint no way his first major fatherly disciplinary action is TO SPANK HER, and mf was smirking too 😭

this is even more wild to think abt considering that blud has never had a child to discipline before, so im pretty sure this scenario was floating in his crusty ass mind for a while and now hes finally had the chance to act on it

Another thing, i thought the whole ichor tasting scene was the cause for the cannabilism TW and i was like oh ok 🙂 and then my jaw dropped 😭😭 BEELIE 😭😭

I was a beelcy stan from the very beginning. Still am. But his recent actions — him just not saying that he fcked up and shouldnt have made that deal w loki, his newfound jealousy and rage against anthonious (leave him alone, he sounded hella cute in that pov and in his other interactions w our loser stop😔), and lastly WHAT HE DID TO MIMIR theres no going back 😭 i feel like all the love ur giving to beel this act 1 is like our hook but then youre gonna make him such an unhinged and even hateable yan (tbh u've been hinting at that a loooong time ago but my delulu ahh kept coping, correct me if im wrong, yes im still coping). Like i have this feeling that by the end, beels gonna be one of the people percy would start to hate a lot, maybe even the most cuz, while i havent read or watched pjo, i know that his character has a lot to do w loyalty as a trait. This then gives way for other yans to swoop in and get close to her, i see you author 😡.

Sooner or later, all of beels advantages will be stripped away from him: (1) him not being related since now theres anubis and loki, (2) his knowledge of her identity/being someone she can talk to without having to be careful with her words, since loki already knows and eventually everyone else will know, (3) her friendship w him/the trust that he'll have her back because my god he keeps fucking up and all his problems will blow up sooner or later cuz he keeps bottling it up, (4) the possibility of maybe having a normal relationship w her since mimir squashed that down. There could be more but im too braindead to think rn

You're honor, i cant defend him no more 😭

As a beelcy fan, im rolling on the floor, puking tears. But as someone who has been craving apollo and hades, and is currently warming up to loki, im so 💙💙💙

Im supposed to be asleep so i can continue drawing later, but then you dropped this nuke on me and i dont know what to do w my thoughts 😞

"pillow-humper, skin-licker, daughter-lover, vouyerism-fetishizing, daddyseidon is a bit freaky but aint no way his first major fatherly disciplinary action is TO SPANK HER, and mf was smirking too 😭"

pls i'm crying at the names 😭😭 poseidon's no longer the god of the seas or god of gods, he's just.... pillow-humer, skin-licker, daughter-lover, and vouyerism-fetishizer LMAO I CONSIDER THAT AS AN UPGRADE 😂😂😂😂😂

and yes daddyseidon has been WAITING for the moment to finally 'discipline' her 💀💀 he just didn't think she'd try to risk her life for it, but whelp, she's okay now so he can spank her for it later 😂😂😂

and as for beelie.... 😔

oh beelzebub, whatever are we gonna do with you 🥲

for your sake, everyone should keep their expectations for beelzebub low. i mean technically, you should do that for all the yans, but beelzebub ESPECIALLY 😂😂

[detransexual]

I honestly just wanna give up on art. Everything is so fucking frustrating. Why is everyone on art twitter/tumblr/[social media] so deep in gender politics like if i have to see one more post about "THE UK IS TRYING TO ABUSE AND TORTURE TRANS KIDS BY NOT ALLOWING THEM TO UNDERGO IRREVERSIBLE MEDICAL TREATMENTS!! hormone blockers are 100% safe and 100% reversible uwu" im going to fucking explode lmao. I dont fucking know dude im just so fucking frustrated with having to just ignore or go along with this fucking bullshit. Im sorry for rambling but ive already lost almost all my motivation to do art and i have no hope of ever getting anywhere with it professionally anyway so like.. Whats the point lol? I wanna find other creative people and make art friends but whats the point of that when i cant be honest or open even about my own life? Yes im paranoid and irrational and a coward but im not gonna subject myself to being openly "terfy" because my mental health could not fucking handle that rn lmao. Anyway. Fuck gender ideology im fucking tired of everyone online being braindead lmao

[throwing-summers-at-the-walls]

Omg yess!! Your idea about the machine giving them a suicidal number is amazing! I really wish that would have happened! I mean they even had one but Finch talked to him and i dont remember what John was doing at the time. Do you know any good fanfics that deal with Johns suicidal tendencies? Also if you dont mind me asking why dont you care so much about season 4 and 5? (I dont mean this in any negative way im just curious cause from what i heard most people liked the seasons more)

I'm glad you like it, it's been in my head for a while, someone needs to write it !!

It's 2πR ! I looked it up, I remembered Harold being undercover as a teacher and the number being good at coding and going to the subway presumably to kill himself. (The reason John wasn't here is bc he was in prison, didn't remember that)

I found these in my bookmarks:

There's also this one that seems good (I may have read it before idk)

I've been writing a fic in which John has a suicidal crisis but it's Absolute Self Projection and it got personal so idk if I'll ever get the courage to actually share it (if I even finish it).

(this part got way longer than expected fkskfjsjsf I have Feelings, you don't know what you unleashed with this question)

Not sure there's more people preferring the last seasons. But well since I don't like them I'm not gonna follow blogs praising them lol. But yeah there's some of us liking the first seasons more, ie @poioriginal is out there being iconic, though idk if it's active anymore it's been a while since I've seen a notif. I feel like there's a fracture in the fandom, like there's a fandom for the beginning and a fandom for the end. It just feels like two different shows. The last seasons being more of a crappy spin-off than anything imo. Though they did what they could with S5...

I love the earlier seasons bc of many things: John and Harold's partnership and how it develops. Their partnership with Fusco and Carter. Seeing them save people. Seeing John being a badass. Seeing Harold being a badass with computers. Back then the show was about "everyone is relevant to someone", "everyone deserves a second chance". I just. Loved the characters and the themes and the atmosphere, you know ?

There's just. Something. Ig it's the combination of all I said in the previous paragraph. Poi is one of my biggest obsessions. It's the only fandom I wrote fics for. And I may have a love/hate relationship with it given what it ended up being, but as Cecil Palmer once said, "I'm learning to let my anger go" though it doesn't look like it given the state of this post. In the end I still fucking love it and in 10 years I'll probably still be banging pots and pans talking about John and Rinch and Number Crunch.

And then the quality lessened with S3. I could tell you plenty of fav eps that I have from S1 (rn I'm braindead and can only think of dead reckoning for S2). But S3 ? 4C. And that's it.

Carter's death annoyed me but it wasn't what alienated me from the show. Root is the main annoyance. She's a sort of Mary Sue imo (don't really like the term but also can't really think of a better one). She's good at hacking and she's an assassin. A gun in each hand ? Miss me with that shit. I mean yeah John is portrayed as an absolute badass too, but it's still a bit more realistic that "I'm good at everything" Root.

She kidnapped Harold and traumatized him and I'm supposed to believe that Harold and John are chill with her now ? That Harold isn't Absolutely Uncomfortable around her and that John wouldn't shoot her on sight ? Also the whole analog interface shit made no sense to me. Why the hell did the machine pick that unstable psycho.

On top of root there's the whole decima thing that I couldn't bring myself to care about to the point that the only thing I remember about it is that it annoyed me.

Don't get me started on John saying ooc shit before dying, "saving one life at a time seemed a bit anticlimactic" holy shit go watch your own show before writing shit like this ???? Though I admit John sacrificing himself for Harold was fitting, I'll still be heartbroken over it for the rest of my life, but it was fitting.

I was here for a procedural show with John and Harold saving numbers. Not for Mary Sue root and some AI war (and I do love SF and AI stuff but. Not like this). I am aware that I didn't actually watch S4 and S5, save for return 0 and a few S4 eps, so my judgement isn't very accurate. But I know it's not about what I liked about poi. And if a few eps of S4 managed to make me loose my interest it's not a very good sign.