#im following a house building tutorial because i have an idea of what kind of homes i like in mc

[hall0wedwyrm]

did this cool and awesome thing today where I turned my brain off and played Minecraft for several hours... it's my favourite activity

[mulletcal]

flowers, maybe daisies, might relieve the gloom. - an a.i blurb

a/n: i lowkey blame @sexgodashton​ for starting this whole mini series of boomer!ash things, but i also adore this because boomer!ash is soft as hell.  and also a lil d*ddy but we don’t need to talk about that.  title is from wait by sweeney todd bc i love it.  alternative title was gonna be from L.G. FUAD by motion city soundtrack

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warnings: ashton irwin being a thirst trapping, lemon stealing whore. i’m kidding it’s just a solo ash fic w no smut but some mild ash thirst trapping.

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‘ashtonirwin started a live video.’

Ashton didn’t often go live on Instagram, but this shelter in place order had left him ultimately bored - writing a song every day before noon, sure, but anything after that was a blur.  Occasionally he would have interviews or live-streams with the band, but on days without that he was left alone with his thoughts, and his thoughts weren’t always the safest place to be; so talking to fans it was. 

It was going well so far, simply asking fans how their quarantine was going - bringing some of them into the livestream so he could talk to some face to face.  One girl in particular had caught his attention when they began to discuss hobbies she had picked up during the time she’d spent at home.

“Yeah, I’m learning to garden.  I have a tomato plant that is just starting to sprout actual tomatoes, so that’s kind of exciting,” She had said, a nervous laugh escaping.

“Well, I would hope that your tomato plant is sprouting tomatoes, it would be a little concerning if it was growing something else,” Ashton replied with a chuckle, the girl giving a small shrug but still laughing along with him.

“You should look into it if you’ve got the room at your house, I bet it would feel rather rewarding to be able to cook something with your own fresh vegetables.”

“Would save me quite a bit of money too.  Can I grow yeast? I’d like to learn how to make my own bread but here in L.A. you can’t find yeast anywhere.”

The conversation continued like that for a few minutes more, Ashton taking only a couple more fans into the livestream after that to talk to before he decided he should probably do something else productive with his day.  Something like learning to garden. 

It surprised Ashton the things you were able to order online during this time - soil being the main thing.  He also read that saving coffee grounds would help, and he was excited at the idea of his insane coffee habit wouldn’t be completely useless.  He ended up buying seeds for tomatoes, mint, sunflowers, lemongrass, and zucchini.  The lemongrass and mint was specifically for Calum, realizing he would be able to dry the plants out once he had harvested them so he could make the man his very own tea.

When his package finally arrived, Ashton spread the packages out, sliding them across the table as though he was some card dealer in Las Vegas.  Thinking the fans would find it amusing, he took a picture of the spread and added it to his story with the caption of ‘pick a card, any card…’.  Maybe it would only be funny to him, but it did prompt a fire reaction from Michael.

It seemed as though the reaction from fans were positive though, them taking to Twitter to let him know their excitement about his new endeavour.  That’s where his weekly livestreams began.  He would show everyone the progress he was making with his plants, and just in general him chatting with fans.  Ashton never really thought of how refreshing it could be to just talk to the fans, without the worry of time restrictions or anyone’s personal safety in the way; in fact, it left him rather inspired, loving their fans even more if it were at all possible.

A particularly warm day in L.A. left Ashton wondering if he should go out to the garden that day - but it was the day he would normally livestream, and he was excited to show what he was up to that day.  Ashton wanted to plant another tomato plant, and also the lemons on his infamous tree had enough for him to make some lemonade so he was going to go through that as well.

Clad in some cut off jeans, or as Calum so affectionately called them his jorts, and a white tank top, he pulled up the live option on Instagram and waited for the people to begin to filter in before he started to speak.

“Hey guys! Just gonna wait for more of you to filter in before I actually head outside, but I thought that since you guys love my lemon tree so much, I’d make some lemonade.  Fuck, I sound like a YouTuber.  Is that gonna be my next career, is just YouTube tutorials on how to make shitty lemonade?” Ashton laughed to himself, slicing the lemon so he could juice it, ignoring the comments he saw about murdering his lemon children.

It didn’t take him long to make the lemonade, making mild conversation with the fans while he stirred in a little bit of sugar and some cheat mint he had ordered while waiting for his own to grow.

“Alright, now that I’m waiting for that to cool, probably best we go outside and check on those tomatoes, hm?” 

It had been weird at first, talking to himself; but he quickly realized that he talked to himself anyways, even without the phone in front of him, so it couldn’t have been too weird for anyone who could overhear him.

“So I wanted to plant another tomato plant today, because everyone can use a friend right now, you know?” He looked into the camera, a smile spreading across his face when he saw the flood of cute little emojis that followed.  “M’gonna be like the Bob Ross of gardening. No mistakes, only happy accidents or whatever it was he said.”

Ashton began to work away at his garden, building up a sweat in the process.  It wasn’t until he leaned back, glancing at his phone did he see a text from Michael flash across the top.

‘Mate, Crystal said stop thirst trapping the fans.’

Ashton’s brow furrowed, unsure of what the text was saying, “Okay so I just got a text from Michael - what’s thirst trapping? And am I currently doing it?”

Of all the comments that followed, he noticed one that said ‘I mean… I’m not gonna say either way but take a look at yourself and get back to us’.  Another one told him that it was when someone wears something in order to provoke risque texts, or gain attention from someone.

Ashton pouted, looking down at his appearance.  He was kind of sweaty, but he didn’t think that the fans would mind him being covered in dirt and sweat, it’s not as though they had to smell him.  Though, he would admit that he needed a shower. 

“Well, since my tomato plant has been… planted next to its’ friend, and I’m apparently thirst trapping you all, I should probably go shower and clean up.  Is me mentioning a shower thirst trapping as well?” Ashton rubbed his face over his hands, a small huff leaving his lips, “I don’t know… Fellow youths, tweet me and lemme know.  Also, may hold a poll later on what to name these guys.” He flipped the camera around, struggling for a moment, to show the sunflowers that were starting to sprout, “M’thinking of naming one Denise.  Just seems like a Denise.”

After his small speech was over, he ended the stream, grinning to himself.  He hadn’t meant to show off his body in such a way, but it was funny to know that even with him hardly doing anything but be himself they still lost their shit.

Glancing around at his garden, he felt himself swell with a mild sense of pride.  He was still a ways off from seeing any fruits of his labour (literally), but it made him feel good knowing he did something with his time at home, instead of slipping further into his mind which wasn’t always the kindest to him.

Ashton realized that when he was gardening, it was similar to songwriting in a way where all of his self doubts and fears went away and he could just pour himself into it - the reward being well worth the risk in the end.

Once his shower was done, he sat outside in his backyard, sipping his lemonade and enjoying the sunshine - realizing that having to stay home wasn’t all too bad, if it meant he could reset his mind, and do some small part to help how he could during that time.

tag list:  @haikucal​ @talkfastromance4​ @softbabiestan​ @boyfriend-cal​ @calum-uncrowned​ @wildflowerirwin​ @irwindoll​ @gosh-im-short​  @thesubtweeter​ @heavenisapeach​ @ridingcthood​ @loveroflrh​ @mantlereid​ @inlovehoodx​ @irwinkitten​ @n-ctarinenga​​ @g-l-pierce​ @thecurlsofgod​

[lostgirlsfindings-blog]

day...two?

well...that “blog/journal” thing really took off didn't it?? still have zero followers and it have been almost 4 months since i posted that, but that isn't what this is about at the moment. i am posting these things now for my own good & if one day they happen to gain traction then great but if not it will be a personal reminder and hopefully a kick in the pants i need in times like right now. 

i am having a personal crisis. i dont want to call it quarter life crisis but i turn 25 in a little over a month and im still in the same “idk what i want to do with my life” rut that i was in back in greensboro. oh yeah, update: i actually did it, we live in the new york and it’s great. i spend most of my days sitting around cleaning the house, watching TV, walking the dog and hanging out with friends when they are free. i have been fine & pretty confident about not having a job until now (actually like 2 hours ago) when my finance got home and we talked about money and how things are going to get paid for. i want money but nothing has come to my attention that excites me. i would LOVE to do like beauty/makeup/life videos (vlogs)  because i love skin care, make up and i think vlogging would be so fun and a great way to look back at my life, but i am HORRIFIED of the judgement of my friends and family. like putting yourself out there on the internet for everyone to see is scary (hence why i changed my profile photo).  

i need to start getting into a better daily routine. i think with the weather (hopefully) starting to warm up i will be more motivated to get up and head downtown to sit in central park or to go walk the streets of downtown even if thats all i do. sitting around in lazy clothes and no makeup doesn't motivate me to get out of the house and get going. i don’t want a survival job as a hostess or a waitress, the thought of that in general is like “well its money” but then when an actual opportunity presents itself i get so much anxiety and back out of offers. i have had 2 friends offer me job opportunities and i have rejected both. i am not sure why, if it is laziness, or some part of me in like just suck it up and jump on a blog or youtube channel. i want money yes, and i have heard the tales of never start youtube to make money because it won't happen & nowadays there are a million, bazillion beauty/lifestyle channels so like how do i stand out and stay different but also like...keep it a secret in 2018. 

this literally is making no sense but i just need to write out my thoughts and put them somewhere for me to look back on. i look at girls like Danielle Carolan (i am like..5 years older than her but love her videos and just her life) and im like why can’t i be like that and just do it, vlog in public...idk just thought i would finally admit that i want her life ha. i find myself not wanting to get up everyday and do a 9-5 but then im like well im not getting fulfillment out of sitting around and hanging out with my dog....

heres what i am going to do. i have videos uploaded from like 2 years ago now...im going to get up tomorrow. put on makeup and record a damn youtube video. not sure what it will be but im going to do it, edit it, and post it to my 7 subscriber #dead #dusty youtube channel. and those 7 people will get the notification that im back. i will make no commitments to uploading or back myself into a “just make up” or any type of channel and i will suck it up and start recording. i will spend my time trying to think of creative ideas...maybe start a makeup instagram account and really “build my brand” start doing my friends makeup and potentially get hired to do other peoples make up. I just need to get my ass out of leggings and oversized t-shirts and only leaving the house when my dog needs to poop or my friends are available! in NYC there are weirder things that me walking around talking to a camera. if these vlogs and makeup reviews/tutorials (which will be laughable lol) don’t pick up traction or attention (i will be sad because making money from this would be great...but i digress) it will be a great thing for me to look back on and if i end up doing makeup  or even something completely different, it will be that creative expression and inspiration that i was looking for and needing from this city. 

okay...this was long and made no sense. future self. if you read this 3 months later & haven't uploaded at least 10 videos and some kind of vlog/digital scrapbook.shame on you.but i still love you. it’s okay to not know who you are or what you want when you’re 24. let other people take care of you for a change.