#im endlessly grateful to the creators

[syncogon]

mini rant time:

i HATE it when people solely laugh react my art and/or writing that is not intended to be funny.

it is an awful feeling to have spent hours and hours on a piece and then to just have a bunch of people laugh at your post and nothing else?

when sharing stuff on discord i used to like putting silly captions, bc i do genuinely like making people laugh, and because there's some safety in couching sincere passion in humor. but i realized i have to cut back on doing so because it colors people's perception of the work.

because it is much easier to click a react that's already there than to add a new one, if the first person to react thinks it's funny and that's it, then well, maybe that's all you're gonna get!

it's different on discord vs on more public places. i don't (can't) have any expectations on engagement out here. it just feels a little worse if these are people you sort of know.

i create all art for myself, i can't care about what other people think (especially as a passionate fan of very unknown things, i count likes and kudos on one hand). but i still enjoy sharing the things i care about and it still feels bad to have people laugh at genuine thought and effort! why would i ever want to share something ever again!

[garykinglovebot]

selfcest is sooo delicious in gary's case and im endlessly grateful that there's actually room in the narrative for it. for someone as torn up as he is, it's genius to me to split him into two distinct people who love each other and hate each other and idolize each other and resent each other... one of them being a robotclone born to tempt realgary into death.. and he's abandoned by himself and then his creator when he fails... double creator abandonment... its just so... augh!! blank!gary I LOVE YOU!!! crack cocaine to me!!

[stevie-petey]

What's the worst and best thing about being an online creator ?

ooooo ok ok

best: sharing my writing and seeing people get so excited about my silly thoughts ??? whenever yall send me headcanons about come home im just in complete awe because like. you guys really like what im writing ???? enough to want to create silly headcanons or memes ????? its INSANE and i am endlessly grateful i cannot emphasize enough how happy it makes me seeing theories and ideas from yall <3333

worst: honestly this is more a Me problem i just really wanna please everyone so i get scared to make the choices i do with come home in case i anger people </3. im getting better at it slowly but !! shit is scary man

ask me things !!

[tteokdoroki]

🥀hi sweetness!! i wanted to wish you the very best happy birthday!! so proud of you for making it this far!! thank you for always being such a lovely figure and amazing creator in this community! you always make me feel safe and comfortable and it always feels like a littol sleepover when we talk!! and seriously, thank you for doing my first comm, i read go back and read that weekly <3 thank you thank you thank you sweet girl! i hope you have the best day and be safe!! would love to see your birthday fits that you have planned as well if you’re comfortable!! picking up nagi and putting him in your bed for the rest of eternity <3

BUT HAPPY BIRFDAY TO MY BEAUTIFUL GF!! smooches u endlessly!

alsoo, surprise? THIS IS MY BLOGG !! <333

IM HICCUPING SND CRYING IT IS U!! MY DARLIN BABY!!! omg rose reveal on my birthday this is so special im picking u up and holding u in my arms FOREVER :(!! CRIES AM SO HAPPY UR HERE

thank u for always being so kind n lovely :( im so so grateful to be able to chat with u n im even happier than ur comfy here !!! i kiss u so so much thank u

[lazzledazzler]

Thank you so much for translating the articles and comic! There's so much love from the creators I'm TAT

yw! 

[96z]

hello, my loves! today marks 2 months since i began creating gifs (and the occasional gfx) on tumblr and i also reached an incredible milestone last night; 500 followers! i cannot help but feel extremely honored and appreciative of every single one of my followers and mutuals. it shocks me that i've grown and improved so quickly as a content creator, and especially that there are so many people who are willing to come on board with me to support me and observe my growth. i cannot express my gratitude enough. ♡

unfortunately, i am tremendously busy and cannot find the time outside of weekends to do anything fun to celebrate :( but at the very least, i wanted to take the time to come and thank some very special people who have contributed so much to my account's growth and to my improvement as a cc

first, some of my darling mutuals — ;

@dokyeomblr miss elv, ily! my very first mutual and one of the kindest, most pleasant people i have ever met. you never fail to make me smile with your tags and comments <3 i have admired you for so long and am so honored to be your friend and moot

@97chwe tris, who is such an inspiration to me and so very talented, who i have been in awe of for the longest; whose tracking tag i will spam endlessly and whose support i will always appreciate so genuinely

@caratonce isai, one of my first mutuals and my caratblr server buddy (we joined almost simultaneously and your familiarity was so helpful to my anxious self), i love u sm. your personality is phenomenal and your work follows. im so happy to know you and call you a friend

@soonhoonsol chey, who so consistently reblogs my content and always has the sweetest things to say. i looked up to you prior to joining as a cc and i feel so lucky to be your moot!

@jminwook bbie, one of my newer mutuals and another victim of my tracking tag spamming, who is so very supportive and so sweet

@junranghae noa, my milestone buddy (congrats again!!0 and fellow huihui! i appreciate you so much, you are so dope and always so supportive of my content! it doesn't go unnoticed at all, thank you.

@junkwan jenna, my evil twin (or am i the evil one?) — i miss seeing u around the server! you are so fun to be around and i love being ur mutual and ur friend!

@aceofvernons xan, who is normal by no stretch of the imagination yet kind and supportive of their friends on a level that is incomparable. i truly appreciate you

@wonublr & @knnovations lee and mars, creators with truly mind-blowing skill and talent... who i would still be screenshotting without the help of. i owe you guys so much credit and appreciation &lt;3

other mutuals who i thoroughly appreciate — ;

@jeonwonwoo | @woozification | @shuatonin | @injunnies | @usershua | @xuseokgyu | @shuatm | @seunievrse | @isdokyeom | @blondesoobin | @sunflower-hae | @yeonjuins | @seungkwan-s + many more

and of course, all of my caratblr server friends!

i would also like to say a quick thank you to the following people:

@melanielogs for being a phenomenal friend, for being one of my first followers, and for always believing in me and encouraging me when i didn't believe in myself and wanted to give up.

@taetheists for always listening to my ratio woes and helping me out even if i didn't request it. and yknow.. for letting me use ur photoshop. you're a good friend ♡

and,

@woozi because though i've already told you this, the fact that you so consistently engage with my content and boost it means so much to me. i don't think it's an understatement to say i owe a lot of my success here to you. and what i appreciate more than anything is that you haven't just been supportive of my works since i got good — you were right at the front of the line reblogging my grainy 'i got a free trial of photoshop, lemme mess around' gifsets. it really, truly means a lot to me and I hope you know I will always be grateful.

and with that, I'm done because this is starting to get a little Oscar's acceptance speech-y of me. thank you all so much, i hope that this is just the beginning and that i will be around to be annoying on your dash for a long time to come. ♡

[campyvillain]

you don't sound ungrateful at all. in fact, you sound extremely grateful, and self aware about what that attention means. one of the things about the internet is that we're all in a constant, overlapping group chat with eachother. it can be lovely and it can be good, but it's categorically /lots/ and not all the people who have eyes on us need to know about those crucial pieces of us.

i am an online creator as well (i hope you take my word for it- im on anon for similar anxieties about being Too Known), and my art is deeply affected by my experiences, both trauma and identity, but i never talk about it on main. my life improved immensely when i found a ""smaller group chat"" to let down walls and WordDump so i could just,, talk about my life and identity without risk. something private and to the side, where i could have feedback with a few people i trusted without it being Everyone At Once.

and like- let me be clear, this sounds easier than it actually is? growing that "smaller group chat" of people i trust took time and effort. its even harder when you're a respected content creator, because 9 out of 10 times people on the internet are looking at you on a pedestal. i dont know how to fix this. i do know i found my best friends in the world, my "safe" people, by deliberately inhabiting spaces outside my art, so that i didn't feel like people were only trying to get to know me. having those few "safe" people made engaging with my "content creator self" a lot healthier.

i dont know how to tell you it gets better, because, well, like. in my experience, hearing "it gets better" feels a lot like ignoring how it is now. and that sucks ass. but ive also spent my entire adolescence with pieces of me wound up and bricked off inside me, stigmatized pieces i stared at and went "nobody can know forever", and i just want to pass along that that's not true? one day you will find people where it's safe to talk about it. and it can live there, in the private group chat, and that's perfectly healthy. im sorry it may not be an option right now. i hope things get easier.

this is extremely important for me to hear. thank you endlessly

[darling-i-read-it]

HCs for Domestic Life With Herbert

Herbert West x fem!reader

Warnings: body parts, forgetting to eat

Requested: by anon, hi maya!! could i possibly request a domestic fic or blurb (your choice) with norman or herbert west? your post abt them a little while ago was so so good and im not kidding it almost brought me to tears. i just love them so much <3333

I don’t own these characters. They belong to author/director/creator

Author’s Note: I hope you like this lovely! I wish people requested for Herbert more he’s a asshole but I love him

- domestic life with Herbert is quite unconventional to say the least

- you probably moved in with him and Dan to help with the rent even more and then your relationship just went from there

- Dan didn’t think Herbert had romantic emotions so when you and him started dating it really threw him for a loop

- but then it kinda all made sense

- you worked really well with Hebert because you knew how to be kinda weird

- you could stay up all night with him some nights, the two of you just sitting together as you read or something and he works

- Herbert is exceptionally bad at showing his emotions but sometimes they slip up

- when he calls you his significant other in front of people you can hear the pride in his voice

- when he’s just tired enough to pass out on top of a rotting corpse and you lead him back to bed, he looks at you with the kindest most adoring eyes

- he hates being interrupted when he’s working but sometimes when you do it, it’s okay

- when you bring him coffee silently, or walk into the room and just sit or maybe kiss his forehead and then leave

- he does still have his day job though and that can be incredibly draining

- he’s an amazing doctor. Not very personable but an amazing doctor

- which means he’s often on call in the middle of the night when someone needs him or something similar

- you have to be prepared for that kind of thing to happen

- when he comes back from a very long hard day, you’re waiting for him with open arms

- he doesn’t really love cuddling but he will lay on your chest when he’s falling asleep

- the nurses know your face well

- you often bring him food because he forgets to eat he’s so busy

- the nurses will let you through, whisper about how Herbert West has a person like you and then smile at you as you leave

- Herbert was grateful when you came to his work, though he would never actually say that out loud

- sometimes he forgot how fast he was going

- he was just constantly moving and then you’re there, giving him a short break before he moves on again

- you will sometimes also bring Dan lunch because his girlfriend was no longer there to do it for him

- you felt bad

- Herbert got lowkey jealous whenever you did that but he would only show it in his wording, never his face

- lots of brief late night kisses

- not speaking about feelings, instead just hoping the other person got it from a look

- falling asleep together in the basement, Dan waking you up the next morning before work

- on your visits to the hospital you would on occasion slip a body part into your bag when no one was looking

- endlessly supporting his work and endeavors

- life with Herbert was never boring, i’ll tell you that

[bibillyhillsbaby]

♧ oooh hi helena 🥺 I hope your day is going well <3

hi sweet lovely t 🥺 (ps this has been sitting in my drafts for so long as have a few others so i will finish these it will just take me a while!! I have a lot of feelings 🥺 ilysm)

You’re my: one of my favorite moots who i love so much 💓

How I met you: you were one of the first blogs i followed!! I cant remember if i followed you or your sister first but i am oh so glad i found you 🥺 i do remember being confused at first because of the whole sideblog thing but i love zayn too so im happy to see your main also (ps i cant believe i only slid into your dms like last week about jk looking like link lmao)

Why I follow you: i love you!! And i love you for so many reasons - first off, your content is amazing and i have loved to see you grow as a gifmaking over these months!! Most recently i thought that your boyfriend giggly tae gif was just what i needed the other day - it was like a soft hug 🥰 / i also am living for all of your hobi outfit sets although sometimes i feel violently attacked by them 🥵 secondly you are literally the most supportive person on here - i feel like you are the embodiment of the meme “if no ones got me i know that t @/blueandtaes has got me” - seriously i dont think there is a single post of original content of mine that you have not reblogged, left a lovely comment on, etc - and the same goes im sure for all of the other content creators here!! You are endlessly kind and endlessly genuine and generous with your kindness and i am so grateful for you ❤️

Your blog is: omg this is the first time i am seeing your new header!! when did you change it?? i love it he's baby and my heart is so full (which is how i feel anytime i see you in my notifs or on the dash, so it's fitting 💙)

Your URL is: iconic, truly, and gives me gentle and soothing vibes, which you give me as well - i know that it references blue and grey but i also think of blueside which gives me the same calming vibes (and makes me think of your lovely carrd too)

Your icon is: so cute!!! hobi my beloved and i love the gradient in the background - like a beautiful sunrise, much like hobi is the physical embodiment of sunshine, and much like how you remind me love and sunshine as well ☀

A random fact I know about you: i may have made this up?? saw it in a dream?? or actually know this, but you play pokemon??? maybe?? tell me if i am wrong i am sorry i feel like i saw once that you played pokemon go and i feel like sometimes you reblog pokemon things hahahahaha (i love pokemon so i feel like i remember when people reblog pokemon things from me)

General opinion: one of the best people 💕 great content, great vibes - i love when you tag me in things it always brightens my day ☀️ i have your emoji as a sunflower because i really do see you as the sun that brightens all of our dashes 🌻

A random thought I have: if i have not in fact made up that you like pokemon, did you ever watch it?

[asterlark]

i think part of the reason the balance campaign finale killed me so bad was that every canon queer person not only lived but prospered

like ive never seen that in any media before. usually there’s like 1-2 queer characters if you’re lucky, and they’re not main characters, and their storylines are either boring, don’t go anywhere, are way over-dramatic as to be “””realistic””” to the queer experience, and end in death/death of partner/being miserable in general

a story where there’s not only a gay main character who ends up in a happy and stable relationship and a happy trans woman in a ridiculously loving and long-term relationship, but every relationship on the show includes a queer person and they all end up happy and successful and thriving is UNHEARD OF to me. like i don’t think i ever thought that would happen in something created by a couple of cishet dudes??

as a queer person im used to wanting and hoping but not receiving. i’m used to thinking “god it would be amazing if these two characters got together” or “i wish these characters got more screen time but i guess im happy they exist at all” or “i wish the gay neighbors had actual plotlines and weren’t just a trope/a joke/a token” and im used to settling with whatever the cishet writers and directors and producers deign to give me but i’m not used to actually getting what i want.

as soon as magnus made carey that ring i went “god wouldn’t it be amazing if the campaign ended on their wedding?” the whole fandom made jokes about sloane and hurley coming back at the end bc they’re great characters and their deaths were heartbreaking to a lot of people. i thought about how cool it would be to see a taakitz kiss and them interacting more and being in love. i didn’t think any of this would actually happen. 

i’m not used to getting what i want in terms of queer rep but the emotional impact i’ve felt in the wake of this finale has shown me what creators can do when they really listen and care and do their research. no other media i’ve consumed has shown this level of commitment and care to not only making an excellent product the creators can be proud of, but something the audience can see themselves in and be proud of, too. and im just endlessly grateful for these doofuses for creating that