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cosmicbrowniefan · 2 years ago

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jumping in for the ship game!

pronouns: she/her

height: 5’10”

hair: dirty blonde/light brownish

eyes: blue

sexuality: yes

introverted or extroverted: extrovert w social anxiety

personality traits: opinionated, intelligent, caring, funny (i like to think lol)

hobbies: playing guitar/singing, boxing, screenwriting (this is more career goals but yk), board games, star wars & other sci fi stuff lol

things i do/don’t enjoy: hate bananas with a burning passion. i like when people are decisive and communicate well. big fan of movie + dinner dates or an activity like sailing/arcade dates. i also LOVE driving. like, so much. s4 has me listening to a lot more classic rock, so been listening to a lot of the cure, the smiths. i’m also a fan of hozier, nirvana, fleetwood mac, phil collins, and phoebe bridgers.

other relevant info: i’m an only child raised by a single mom. i was an AP student and got solid A/Bs. i bounced around friend groups and had friends, but only one or two ppl i felt really close to. def rely on humor as a coping mechanism and am more insecure than i let on. apparently i come off as confident?? idk.

physical: i’ve got pretty fair skin and shoulder length hair. im midsize but like i said im tall so it’s distributed relatively evenly. my legs are very long. i don’t wear dresses and much prefer jeans or shorts and a tank top. im from cali so im a summer girl thru and thru. also rn i have an undercut, from abt the bottom of my ear down. i keep my nails short bc guitar but also bc i bite them, so they’re never painted. i have a couple extra cartilage piercings in my ears :)

i ship you with...

nancy wheeler!

how you met: so, seeing as you’re a star wars fan, you of course went to the midnight releases of the movies in the theaters. and, of course, so did mike and will. however, karen and joyce wouldn’t let them go without a “babysitter”, so nancy (begrudgingly) accompanied them to these. the theater was PACKED, and it turns out, the only empty seats were right next to you.

her first impression of you: mike and will wanted to sit together, of course, and mike refused to “sit next to some random girl” in the movie theater, so nancy sat to your right with mike and will on her other side. although she didn’t really show it, she was INCREDIBLY nervous, because holy FUCK, you’re pretty?? maybe this nerd stuff isn’t as bad as she thought? you, being outgoing, started making some light convo with her during the ads and previews in the beginning, and quickly found out that she was really just here as a babysitter and she didn’t really know what was going on. nancy was shy at first, but got pretty comfortable with you pretty quickly, and by the end of the night, you two had planned to get together to watch the other movies to catch her up.

how you got together: you and nancy both found yourselves making a ton of excuses to see each other (which, you didn’t even need to, because you also hung out without excuses, but there was something nice about seeing each other on unexpected occasions). one of the excuses you have to see nancy is that you’re teaching mike to play guitar. he’d wanted to play for a while, and, after eddie munson got impatient from trying one lesson with him, mike asked you to teach him. you instantly accepted. the kid was adorable, and hanging out at the wheeler house with a chance to see nancy? um, yes. anyway, one day you’re over teaching mike a couple of chords, and he decided to get a pizza for dinner. the doorball rang and he headed downstairs to get it. as soon as he left his room, nancy came in. you didn’t know it, but she had been hyping herself up all day to FINALLY tell you how she felt. nancy instantly felt her knees go weak when she saw your strong arms strumming your guitar and the look of cool concentration on your face. gathering her courage, she went and plopped down next to you. you smiled at her and had barely gotten out a “hello” when she leaned over and gave you a peck on the cheek. she leaned back, looking at you nervously for a reaction, when you just smirked and said “you missed”, and pulled her back in for a kiss on the lips. and another. and another. until mike came in with the pizza and dropped the box on the floor, yelling “NOT IN MY ROOM!”

what she likes most about you: nancy loves your spunk and your attitude. everything about you is bold and unique. she loves the way you get passionate about things you believe in, whether it’s politics or your hate for bananas. not to mention you are so clear and easy to communicate with that you make her feel more safe and listened to than anyone else has ever been able to. she’s just comfortable around you all the time, which is something that not many people have been able to give her. physically, nancy loves your undercut, and she ADORES how tall you are. your height difference is perfect for cuddling and hugging.

what you guys enjoy doing together: you guys DO love your classic “dinner and a movie” dates. and, in the summer, the drive-in is the way to go! when you guys are a bit low on money for the movies, though, you do love just driving around and listening to music (you two have a combined playlist on spotify of both of your favorite music) and finding new spots to park and look at the stars. when you find a spot, you like laying the seats back and holding hands while gazing out the windows and listening to your music. you don’t talk a lot during this, but you don’t have to. the silence is comforting and loving.

bonus headcanon: you’re both very intelligent and fantastic students, leading others to believe that you study together, but that couldn’t be further from the truth. if either of you actually wanted to get any homework or studying done, you couldn’t do it together, because it became a makeout session super quickly. however, if there was a “hard” test coming up that either of you “needed help” with, then yeah, you’d study together.

#stranger things #stranger things ship game #stranger things ships #reader insert #match maker #stranger things x reader #reader x stranger things #cosmicbrowniefan ship game #cosmicbrowniefan asks #i ship you with #i ship you with stranger things #nancy wheeler

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magicflowershop · 4 years ago

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one day kitty; Atsumu version

《inspired by movie A Whisker Away》

✿✿ you wished to be with the person you like and wish granted. whiskers, button nose, tail, four legs and ears on top of the head; you turned into a cat. with this, you are given the opportunity to be with the person you want to express your affections to. but as a cat. and only in one day.

― haikyuu characters x cat!reader imagines!

❀ masterlist ❀

the wheel of names have spoken.

you know you hated your housecat the second you laid eyes on it when your mum took it home one day from the shelter, saying it was an abandoned cat

abandoned cat your ass

that cat stole your body and turned you into a cat

she stole your human identity

like, girl, wha- the auDACITY for her to have you wake up on her stinky litterbox while she’s havin the time of her life talking to your parents as if you were in that body the entire time

and the audacity of her to go to school and attend your classes, talk to your friends while you’re over there lurking in the shadows, glaring lasers at her from a tree branch

and the absolute audacityyy of her to obviously ogle over a guy from your class when you weren’t even interested in him to begin with

THE NERVE OF IT TO BE ATSUMU MIYA OF ALL PEOPLE

REALLY

why

why him when he has so many fans and the fact that he’s perpetually ANNOYED by his fans like c’mon????????????????????

IN YOU’RE BODY AT THAT

now you’re just extra helpless bc there’s nothing you can do, you have no idea when you’ll get back to your original body, or if you’re able to get back to your original body at all :O

you also dunno who she made a deal with to get to this point in your lives

all you know is that you had a bad dream that morning, and saw a strange cat sayin you had one day

like what the hell is that supposed to mean

“hey what’re ya doin there?”

o wouldya look at that, a wild Miya twins appeared

you didnt notice that you were taking your sweet time contemplating abt life on that tree that three periods have passed and its now lunch break

the twins happened to see you while they were hanging out outside

so you was just staring at them,,, you had no idea what to do while they were there,,,, but it seemed like they were thinkin of saving you even though you’re not in trouble :v

so you was just starin at them

and they were starin back at you

then they left

LMAO

you were gonna brush this lil interaction off until you arrived,,, i mean your body,,,, i mean your housecat in your body

then you got incredibly annoyed cause she was doin so hard so hard to get their attention when she ady got it, and Atsumu was as annoyed as you are sksskkd Osamu didn’t care at all so moving on

and now you got even mroe annoyed cause she was ruining your image in front of your classmates like srsly

so you dipped and decided this is all a fever dream and everything will get better tomorrow with you back in your body and with a good reputation in school as if nothing horrible happened, yes? yes :)

“there ya are”

until Atsumu picked you up from the ground while you were stealthily making your great escape,, then he started acting like he was lookin for you outta nowhere

and Osamu was lookin at him like he was insane sjksd but he figured this is a plan of Atsumu’s so he decided to play along and told your housecat (that was the host of your body) to excuse them bc they had a cat to take care of and that its vvvv urgent

now kitty you is officially adopted by the Miya twins <3

and you didn’t like it one bit HAHAJSJ

you figure this wasnt such a bad thing and you werent allergic to these boys nyway so you let things happen, and let Atsumu scratch the top of your head while they were discussing things about you

they werent talking mad things abt u nonono, they were talkin abt how strange you were acting when you’re literally one of the chill students in school,,, it was as if you were under a spell and suddenly you were in love with them lmao

Osamu proceeds to add the suspicion with the fact that he saw “you” staring at Atsumu during class like someone so lovestruck

both you and Atsumu got goosebumps couple of the year amirite

so Osamu told him that this could just be a one-time thing (like strange conclusion but go off) and/or that you might’ve just confused him as your first crush lmao Osamu was just confusing himself but he was tryin his best to come up with explanations to ur behavior

so classes begin again,,, now Atsumu still dunno what to do with u ogling at him WHILE THE REAL YOU WAS A CAT WATCHING EVERYTHING FROM A TREE

you was def ready to throw hands,, but thats a cat and ur against animal cruelty,,,,,,, tho its ur body anyway so whats the diff

meanwhile u coming up with a plan to end your housecat, Atsumu found you sitting on a tree and he was so shocked for his life bc last time he check he put you in a box with kitty snax, inside the gyms storage room, how in the world did you manage to get out from there??

the fake you sees you again while Atsumu was lookin at you from the window, and was enraged bc you’re taking the attention from her... hm

so you decided to face your stupid housecat head-on and get to the bottom of this bs and be grownups tgt bc no way are you just gonna donate your human life to an ungrateful animal

you look for the fake you at the back of the school, and now the Giorno theme is playing in the background sksk

“give me my body back”

“o pls can’t you just give me a one day chance?“

the audacity

“you ady stole it from me and you say this now?”

your housecat was smug enuff to tell you that she had the honors of asking a favor from a spirit cat who was the reason of all this,,, and who has also taken a liking to your human soul

your housecat just sold your human soul to a spirit cat

so you just flew in the air to scratch your human face, you didn’t care anymore, its your body, whatever, the one experiencing the pain aint u anyway but your bitchy housecat that your mum seemed to have a deeper connection with than her own child

nyway that didn’t last long cause fake you was screaming help, other students found you two, and they got a hold of you while you were in your feral state and now you were terrified of possibly getting into the animal shelter fr,,,, fake you smirked at this possibility

until sum of ur school’s vball bois saw the commotion too and what do u know, Atsumu says that the cat is his and that he apologizes to the ruckus that the cat has done

then it was your turn to smirk at fake you

so u spend time with Atsumu again for some odd reason that keeps the two of you tgt sweat drops looks away,,, you wonder why your mum’s cat is so attached and/or attracted to Atsumu like this???

you never remember them interacting at all since the very time you see them in the same scene is when you went to have your mum’s cat checked up in the vet and Atsumu was there with their dog too

whats happening

fast forward to dismissal, you’re quite thankful you werent in trouble, same as Atsumu since he managed to tell the other students to not tell anything to the teacher that he has a cat in school kdjsk sum rotten power he holds

but you decided to ditch him again and look for fake you

you found her talking to the spirit cat that she said,, so naturally you demanded said spirit cat to give your body back to you

the spirit cat smiled wider and says that, you haven’t finished your task yet if you want to get back to your original body, you have to wait till midnight

like what in the hell was that supposed to mean, you understood nOTHING

then your housecat goes and says “maybe i should extend my stay in this body, what do you think?”

SIS YOU WENT FERAL there is no way she’s staying in your body while you are sufferin like this, in which you do not deserve. watching your housecat ruin your life like its normal like cmon

“then if you’re gonna stay in my damn body then do it properly! don’t make me look like im a flirt!”

“i was never flirting with anyone!”

“wdym?! you were staring at my classmate the entire time!”

“what was i supposed to do when its what your body felt like doing?!?!?”

...

w hAt

“what’cha screamin at the cat for, y/n?”

ATSUMU JUST ENTERED THE SCENE AS IF HE WAS INVITED AND PICKED THE CAT UP TRYING TO PROTECT IT AS IF WHAT HE WAS DOING WAS SO HELPFUL

“i’m not y/n”

NOW YOUR HOUSECAT JUST ADDED MORE GAS IN THE FLAME

“i’m y/n’s pet cat, that cat is y/n we switched bodies bc y/n has been neglected by her parents ever since i was taken for adoption... y/n has a crush on you so i just reacted the way her body wanted to react around you so i’m sorry i made you uncomfortable”

you couldn’t take the embarrassment anymore and jumped from Tsumu’s hands and ran your way to your house as fast as you can

you thought abt how stupid that was and how stupid you looked in front of him,, like pointing at a cat saying that thats the real you like who in the heaven’s name would believe bs like that

you were beyond embarrassed that you just want to sink into the ground and just disappear from life rn and never see Atsumu again,,, anyone is fine but Atsumu pls for the love of god

“well ofc its a narrower place”

didn’t you say anyone but Atsumu is fine pls for the love of god

“get outta there, i got yer mask”

he placed a mask beside you, so you chomped on that mask and pulled it out of the bush with you,, you see him there crouching down to your smol height, watching you in concern

you try to take off your mask yourself but it isnt working, you try to push your head to make your actual mask stick to your head but it isn’t working. nothing is working so you started crying in meow

now tsumu is just confused there and asked if he can comfort you,,, you glared at him like he was stupid

“yer still a girl yknow, i gotta ask for consent”

how sweet 🥺

he started talking abt how he and ur housecat tried to talk it out with the creepy cat to get ur normal life back bc apparently you never wished for a deal with him even tho u desperately hated ur life at home, all in all spirit cat is a big ass scam, while he was unknowingly scratching the top of your head again but moving on

also that your housecat wanted to apologize to you bc she didnt want to take your life away from u, and that she never meant to hurt your feelings while running his hand down to your back and forgetting that you aren’t a real cat but again moving on

“is, is it true tho?”

“ya like me?”

dumass rly asked that while ur a cat lol

“it’s a meow for me”

smoke escaped your nostrils like a bull, the stupid spirit cat was playin games withcha since he ady got exposed for his scams >:O

“ya just spoke”

you left Atsumu there with the mask between your teeths, dragging yourself back home, expecting to probably go back to normal once you wake up,,, but you have your mask back now hm

“don’tcha want sum help?”

k ykno he’s annoying when he wants to be but he literally had no reason to be annoying know i mean pls

“sure i like u it doesn’t m-”

you’re back to normal

“matter”

but wearing what you wore when you went to bed last night, in pajamas with no footwear, on the cold asphalt ground, blushing like a fool out of even more embarrassment, cursing at the spirit cat sum more from the back of your mind

that cat had no right to play match-maker after all that, even if he knew that Atsumu will naturally bring you hope since its night and give you a piggy-back ride since you had no slip-ons, asking for consent as well mind you

no right at all

stay tuned for more!

#walk in my garden #yay i updated today #haikyuu!!#haikyuu #haikyuu!! headcanons #haikyuu!! smau #haikyuu!! drabble #haikyuu!! imagines #haikyuu!! x reader #atsumu #atsumu miya #miya atsumu #atsumu x reader #atsumu x y/n #inarizaki #one day kitty

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gabrielitas · 3 years ago

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OK HERE ARE MORE SLIDES HSHSGA

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/109uK-q-OktPBmv8JF-uDD9HJkq0fnmn6w3yRN8PnGVY/edit

kindly ignore the "people we know" section, i made this for a presentation party

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/16Lg7vWr0cCqq9xNzDlGtt1BV5dINGs0Wj8oFjeqL8qQ/edit

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/12ywRhPHnf4SqGfKkZfE6dDNQz5fDiC3KMXq_Dtjt8r4/edit

https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1-ty_5cSKcJTQmzyX19y-BOBlkG369XVTQCgogQD3WZk/edit

onto your questions!

- i indeed to band!! i play clarinet, but we have a marching season coming up so i was at percussion rehearsal. i’m one of the new drum majors for my band (so i conduct the show/im 2nd in line to the director). i’m my free time i fuck around with the ukulele and guitar. im not great but it calms me down.

are you in band?? it's so much fun dbsbsbs!! when the event ends we have to keep in touch (even if it's just to share shitty pics of me in a uniform)

1) i read svt as seventeen! it's really funny though because i don't read skz as "stray kids", i read it as "skizz" fbsbsbshja

2) i'd rather never meet them and b able to consume their content!! i've made it this far already :))

what are your answers to those two??

some sleepover questions!!

1) do you have any movie or tv show recs?? i've been watching buzzfeed unsolved and criminal minds on repeat and it's getting to me 🙄🙄 i plan on watching vip, the one about the north korean officials son, and the wind rises

2) do you have any funny school trip/ band (if your in it) stories? i have quite a few band related ones if you wanna hear them

3) where do you live (this is not supposed to be creepy). i’m from new jersey!! (we might have talked about this but i have a brain the size of a pea

4) what grade are you going into/ are you currently in. i’m gonna b a junior and i am NOT ready for it 😩😩 it's so scary

girl i have no good sleepover questions 🙄🙄 all i do at sleepovers is reenact fanfiction, watch movies, and gossip 😩

if you want gossip from new jersey -> i got drum major over a guy who's harassed me, my sister, and at least 3 of my friends and i’m so happy!! it felt so good to finally have a win 🤤🤤

ooo i’ll check out the slides later!! (i’m babysitting rn lol)

omg i don’t do band and can’t play any instruments, but i’m so jealous of ppl who do!😫 like,, u can just make music! that’s so cool!! and yes we *absolutely* have to keep in touch after the event!! (i would love to see pictures of u in ur uniform alsnksjsks)

ok so i read “ess vee tee” and ya i’d also choose consume content and never meet them, i mean,,, i’m a fan of the content so it just wouldn’t work for me to not consume it anymore lol

ok so for ur questions:

1) ok first of all i love buzzfeed unsolved!! in honor of them ending the series ive been rewatching all of it too lol (i just got to the iconic goatman episode) but i’d recommend downton abbey (i’m only on season four but i’ve rlly been enjoying it) and i’m currently making my way through disney’s tv adaptation of this book series i rlly loved in like,, late middle school-ish? it’s called the mysterious benedict society and the way they’re making the tv show feels so much like the book i rlly love it

2)uhhh so i don’t have any band stories (obvs lol) but i did dye my hair for the first time (well the first time i permanently dyed it) at midnight in the girls locker room? so i go to a rlly small jewish day school, and on the first night of hanukkah they do this thing where all the girls in the high school get to sleep over and light the candles for the first night and then watch movies and wtv and sleep in the not heated gym (and then wake up to pray and go to classes because hanukkah started the day before winter break that year and so we had to actually go to classes the next day🙄) but i had brought hair dye with me so two friends and i (shoutout to @eb4 for being one of those friends and seeing the chaos firsthand shakhskahs) left during the movie (it was parent trap so i almost stayed lol) and went down to the girls locker room and busted out the hair dye! we had to dye it in the sink cuz the school showers r 🤢 and don’t have curtains and i was already in my pajamas. so then an hour later we washed off the dye in the sink and voila! it was box black hair dye and my natural hair is rlly dark brown so it wasn’t like i was dying my hair some crazy color like the blue i have now) i for sure have other stories if u wanna hear them and i’d love to hear some band stories!☺️

3)omg it’s not creepy dw 😂 and i live in massachusetts! also i didn’t know that u live in jersey!! (ok so these two kids who joined my grade this past year r from jersey and they’re so chaotic and i get very similar vibes from u and now i’m wondering if it’s just a jersey thing sksnsjs)

4)girl i’m gonna b a junior too!! and OMG TELL ME ABT IT IM ALREADY AT SCHOOL FOR NINE HOURS A DAY AND HAVE SO MUCH HW AND THIS YEAR IM TAKING AN AP AND SELF STUDYING FOR ANOTHER IM NOT BUILT FOR THIS SKANSNAJ😭😭

omg re-enacting fanfic sounds like such a fun thing to do at a sleepover!! i only have one friend who reads fanfic and we were in seperate fandoms before covid so no fanfic re-enactments for me😔 i’ll def b putting that in my back pocket for when sleepovers r finally a thing again sjhshaha

aaaa that’s so awesome for u!!! i’m not quite sure what that means but u won and that’s always an awesome feeling!!❤️

ok now for my questions:

1) do *u* have any band/school stories???

2) do u do any extracurriculars other than band?

3) ok i know u told me u have a sister but is she younger or older? (lemme predict real quick….💭💭ur the younger one!)

4) what’ve u been doing so far over the summer?

5) shaniac or boogara?? (or shitfish lol)

i hope u have a good night and am sending u tons and tons of love!!❤️❤️

#im sorry for the questions being so mediocre it’s currently 9:50 and im babysitting and exhausted ajbasjhaj #asked and answered #🐯 anon

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monachopism · 2 years ago

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midnights lb

accidentally fucked up listening in order twice so ive heard lavender haze three times already

lavender haze bridge is 💯

maroon is cute but i need to say more later cuz its not live rn

LOVE anti hero

the only thing i don't like so far is that this album is making me listen to lana del ray

but i do love the snow at the beach vibes

this album is like if you took the instrumentation of rep and put it with the themes of 1989 and the lyrics of folklorevermore

currently loving the melody of snow at the beach the bridge is 🙌

immediately getting red vibes from you're on your own kid

ohhh i like this song a lot

def one i will cry to at one point or another

also getting melodrama vibes from the production which makes sense bc jack produced both

DEFINITELY not a knock on either i album love jack antonoff so much i literally flew out to dc to see him a few weeks ago

Midnight Rain giving me big rep vibes

god its all so jack antonoff

i mean hes able to put his spin on all of it its so cool

...Question is lover vibes for sure

i kind of hate that im comparing this to other albums but i think that'll go away with time as i get to know this album better

its so funny bc this album really is like, early hours of the morning / late hours of the night

...question bridge is so good add it to the list of slays

woahhhhh this song. vigilante shit. mark me down as scared and horny

i love this song holy crap

strong contender for album favorite atm

holy fuck that blue note im going feral rn

the smile on my face is like. huge.

bejeweled chorus is so fun i love it.

i love the synths

"i can still make the whole place shimmer" YES YOU CAN BITCH

catch me dancing to this song at 3am

the chorus of this song is so good

ive already heard labyrinth once (during my second fuck up)

mindy project energy

thats literally always a compliment its why i love dress so much

prechorus is the goat

a song i will turn the volume all the way up in my headphones and just experience it

"I thought this plane was going down, how'd you turn it right around?" is one of the most romantic lyrics ever written i do not make the rules

the lorde is strong w this one esp in the production

i can feel this song in my soul god

ive also heard karma already by accident

sounds way better in context than it did when i first listened

its cute

i like the prechorus a lot

definitely one of the sweeter songs on the record

lyrics are so good on this song

its a dancing song for sure

looked ahead and ive listened to mastermind already too by accident

i love the little layered harmony at the end of the bridge that works so well w this song

its about the camp

such a blissfull song

i already love sweet nothings and she hasn't even opened her mouth yet

i love her songs that are like this one, like inthaf

it just makes me want to lay in bed and smile after a magical day

i love the background vocals on this song it fits so well with the mood

the horns ❤️❤️❤️❤️

you know i love me some horns

i cannot wait to have this album on repeat until like february

the lyricism on mastermind is unmatched fr

its giving message in a bottle but with more depth

the hook is just so good

such a great final song

that octave rise of lovers game is so good

this is a screaming song

one i will scream and dance unashamedly to

the inherent romantacism of someone knowing how your brain works

oh my lord i loved that. i need to listen more in order to gather more thoughts but for now i just have this warm feeling in my chest abt this

i really feel like i can die happy having hesrd that

#layenate lb #midnights #taylor swift #oh lord #im having trouble not crying rn

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smellycinnamonthundahfudge · 6 years ago

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tumblr fweinds

a year ago, i was tagged by @suplosers on two questionnaires and it is only now, a year later that i was able to answer em. i’m so sorry it took me this long but yah i’m just glad to get thru dis milestone, answering the first tumblr get to know ya post i was @ at... yaayyy ^^

rules: answer these 85 statements and tag 20 people.

I tag: tbd haha i still have to dig thru meh notifs to see which ones apparently took an interest in me so i’d like to take an interest in as well haha but oh @you-guys--are-losers, ur doing this whahaha hope it’s not too much of a bother, no presh watsoever ;3

the last

1. drink: ughh it's dis shitty stuff called hydrite w/c is basically salt water cus im sick rn and it's supposed to rehydrate ur shts or something hahaha

but dat was like a week ago... as of da moment i posted dis, it’s coffee from mini stop dat i drank at like 530 in da morn while i waited until i could enter the school cus i had to commute 3 hours w/ lil to none sleep

2. phone call: my father or one of my best friends

3. text message: the last one i texted was my sister and the last one i got a text from was dis org in school about the location for recruitment/auditions/interview

4. song you listened to: billy jean by michael jackson and i listened to it for meh tomdaya fic hahaha. But i also listened to halo by beyonce, untouchable and dress by taylor swift, and some other songs magmt mentions in her tomdaya fic hehe a week ago

rn, a metal cover of toxic by our last night

5. time you cried: haha i don't actually remember the context of it (i could find out tho haha cus i sent da pic to my best friend) but i took a pic of it while i did it which was on... july 16 hahaha. Oh but w8 oh sht i think i cried after that fudge w8 i don't remember the date (i think i can find this out too hahaha) but i wrote a sortof goodbye confessions letter to one of my dear friends and i wrote there that i externally cried (b4 i just said internally haha) so i'm not entirely sure i cried but i think im pretty sure i teared up hehe

6. dated someone twice: hahaha i haven't even had a legit love interest yet 😆😂 buuutt my best friend and i have "dated" as in spent entire days together w/ just the two of us, we even went to mcdonalds for valentine's day and got each other gifts hihihi aahhh gosh i miss her :'(

7. kissed someone and regretted it: haha im not even sure if dis happened and i have no plans on asking her about it but i remember when i was a kiddo, when my sis came home for some reason i kissed her on the lips hahaha dont remember if accidental or i just brain farted heck i aint even sure if it happened but das all i can answer cus well like i said, see #6 😆😂😆😂

8. been cheated on: hhmmm probs not, i have no idea if ive been cheated on in an unromantic way hahaha but in da romantic way, like i said, no love interest hahaha

Oh w8 does being someone's crush (i aint sure but it seemed like it) and crushing on dat dude but dat dude crushing on someone else too count as cheating? 😆😂😆😂

9. lost someone special: yes, all of my grandparents are dead. I've also lost pets, and i fear i may lose some of my friends due to the distance among us in this time of our lives

10. been depressed: i always wanna be careful over how to define depression. Like wat constitutes it... but yes, i think i have. Not sure, mind you, but yes, at the beginning of gr 7 i was really alone, i think i was bullied and i think i was depressed and going thru a really dark phase of my life back then. But then again, i have to say, i'm not sure.

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: hahaha nope. I'm looking forward to getting drunk tho. Im currently underage so im not allowed to drink dat much yet but yeah i wanna know my limits hehehe i hope im da kinda gurl who can handle her liquor but i have drank and i have to say it made me all loopy and weird and just like woke or high or something hahaha so yeah man im excited to get trashed on my 18th bday hahaha (hopefully i get to do this tho huhuhu)

3 favourite colours

12. Pink

13. Blue

14. Gray

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yyeeesssss and i'm so glad i have hihi. I have made friends w/ a select group of my blockmates and they're awesome and weird, i hope to strengthen our bond in da future hehe. Ooohhh and i sure hope that you guys are losers is my friend cus she's been rlly great :')

16. fallen out of love: i guess the closest i've come to falling out of love in a romantic way is moving on from da heavy crushin on meh crush. But i dunno, i still think he's a unicorn n pretty special to me so i dunno hahaha.

But bro, i do think i have fallen out of love. With tv shows, with characters. Like i used to be so passionate about a few shows and characters but now all i have towards them is regret heck i cant even remember wat dey are but i know dat der was love lost. I know it.

17. laughed until you cried: hahaha yaasss i think so. It's either when i was with my best dearest friends or during the class of dis really cool and funny as heck joker teacher who makes us laugh in EVERY SINGLE CLASS hahaha ahhh das guy's so cool

18. found out someone was talking about you: oohh yah yah i think so. Either from my best friends or from a few of my old classmates i care about and had gotten close with. Da best friend ones was about something in my past/history (g7) and the classmates one i think was just dem talking about me and they told me about it ooohhh i think it was my crush hahahaha. They told me dat my crush actually admired me a lot hehe. There was one time my friend (the one who told me about dis) was putting make up on me for a school film, and my crush was da cam guy and he told my friend i looked pretty. Sooo im pretty lucky dat- oh sht w8 i dunno if it's dis year but oh w8 no, it was on my bday last year (dec 20) and da same friend said she was sorry cus apparently da bois make fun of me or something and she was sorry cus she laughed along too hahaha but i didnt mind cus i know im weird and i dont even know what dey say about me in da first place hahahaha. Ok das it im done, i think ive overshared now hahaha 😆😂😆😂

19. met someone who changed you: my best friends. Ive thought about it based on wat sup losers said about change for da better and i dont rlly think of change as something dat happens quick, i think it happens over time and u dont even notice it. So ok oh sht i think im wrong cus i met my best friends 4/6 years ago hahaha but for reals tho, i was in a dark place and if it werent for dem i think id still be lost lonely and sad. Uuhhmmm in regards to answering the question correctly, i guess my blockmates count since they inspire/challenge me to be better. OH SHT W8 i def think you guys are losers and dead end street and tomdaya receipts and tout de suite have changed me hehehe. Da first 2 in dat dey inspired me to write more hehe. Da 1st one inspired me to do this so i think this counts as change hehe. And da last 2 changed me in dat bcus i met dem, i became OBSESSED w/ tomdaya hahaha.

20. found out who your friends are: yes, i have actually. And it's all because i am now currently a college freshman as well as my friends.

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: hahaha my fam i guess hahaha. But no one in a romantic context.

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: hhmmm i guess id say about 200 since i know 4 sections of around 40 ppl and da rest is like fam and ppl ive met once/twice or have passed by haha

23. do you have any pets: yaaaassss 3 doggos: albie, juju, and biggie girl. Juju has a pupper named tchalla called dat cus he black hehehe and biggie has 2 biglets named mermer (meredith) and crissy (cristina) cus they're sisters 😍😊😊

My fam have also had a buncha dogs n puppers before but they were either given away or passed away. My bro also has dis cat named bob and i think he counts as a semi pet since my bro's home is a fam home.

24. do you want to change your name: uuhhh i wish i had an alliterative name like superheroes. Buutt im pretty happy w/ my name :')

25. what did you do for your last birthday: oohhhh i think i was at my section's christmas party it was pretty nice n emotional and i spent da rest of da day w/ 2 of meh best friends who bought me cake n food when my own fam didn't 😆😂😆😂

26. what time did you wake up: 4 am to shit cus im sick, but fell asleep again and officially got up around 730 or 8ish

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: haha tryna stay awake cus i had to drink meh meds and failed oh so much and i think i was asleep by midnight hahaha

28. name something you can’t wait for: tomdaya content, chatting/being w/ my best friends, watching da stuff i wanna watch, tumblring, reading sht i wanna read, vacation, writing fanfics, learning how to do a buncha stuff (write screenplays, make films n gifs, draw better), my bday when i hopefully get to do wat i want haha, avengers 4 and smffh, and captain marvel and antman and the wasp too i guess haha oh and the incredibles 2 and httyd 3 😍😍😍 oohhh and crazy rich asians

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: on monday which was when i was at home and not at my dad's n sis' n i's apartment in manila for school/work

31. what are you listening to right now: commercials on da tv as i answer this long ass questionnaire hahaha

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: hahaha i had to think about dis one but yah i have actually haha he was my gr 8 class mate n i like to think semi friend back den at least haha. Oh w8 but he doesn't go by tom tho, it's just thomas haha

33. something that is getting on your nerves: myself hahaha my shitty lazy ass procrastinating self hahaha 😅🙍

34. most visited website: fb specifically messenger, youtube, and tumblr

35. hair colour: hmmm black w/ a bit of brown i guess (ASIAN, YO! 😆😂😆😂)

36. long or short hair: neither, medium i guess haha. I like how long hair looks but it's such a bother n hassle haha. So i def would prefer short hair on a practical standpoint hahaha (im actually thinking of shaving the hair above my nape, yknow on da back of my head hehe)

37. do you have a crush on someone: well i dont have dat much of a crush on da crush i mentioned before, like i said haha. I have a crush on tomdaya, does dat count? 😆😂

38. what do you like about yourself: hahahaha nothing 😆😂😆😂🙍

Naahh uhhh i guess i like how much i love tv shows, i love meh fangirl self, and i like how diff n unique n weird i am, how i stand out, n dat i think my dreams are noble n worth tryin out. N i like how supportive n nice i am n im just chill on da outside haha. N sometimes i like meh face hehe. And i think dat im hilarious n weird n ppl should appreciate me more hahaha das y i crave for more validation dan consulting researchers hahaha (no one laughs at dat jokes and it's like im da only one who finds it funny and come on, man, i managed to make a research joke. Cant ya give a girl a break?)

n i guess sometimes it's good how much i care but sometimes i wish my feels could just chill for just like a minute pls

Thanks, man. I usually just focus on meh bad qualities so thanks for dis question, man :')

oh and i like dat i can swim hehe

39. piercings: i have holes on my ears for earrings but i don't really wear dem

40. blood type: a, i think?

41. nickname: sam, sab, and i rlly want to be called smells cus it's like a more me version of mels from melody hahaha

42. relationship status: single, yo. Oh w8 but i am married to my bed and fandoms so dey always come first. Plus i love my friends 😍😊

43. zodiac: sagittarius i think but i dont rlly know/care about zodiac sht. Tho it's nice if it does match up hehe

44. pronouns: uhhh i dont know wat to put here but i assume dis refers to wat i wish to be referred by ssoooo she, her, and a genderless pronoun in my language siya

45. favourite tv show: ughh i cant choose. Friends, grey's anatomy, phineas and ferb, avatar: the last airbender, black mirror, doctor who, and all of michael schur's stuff, and modern family, grimm, person of interest, pushing daisies, scrubs, happy endings, forever, how i met your mother, gravity falls, sherlock, and yknow wat? Yah, supernatural too and the httyd shows and suits :') oooohhh w8 and how to get away w/ murder and i guess big bang theory as well 😃 the end of the fucking world, legends of tomorrow, crazy ex-girlfriend, the good place, timeless but it’s kinda depressing so speaking of w/c game of thrones and west world and a series of unfortunate events and stranger things and scorpion and lost in space and for anime, let’s go with yakitate japan and boku no hero academia

46. tattoos: none, but i rlly want one and even have a list of tattoos i want (pretty minimalist), i just have to think of da perf place tho (both where to put it and where to get it) and find out if i can still donate meh bod if i have tattoos, but one of da ones i rlly want is smileys on meh fingers hehe

47. right or left handed: right, but my ma says im kinda ambidextrous n i kinda wish i could develop it hehe

48. surgery: haha nope, never. But in terms of an interest, i love grey's anatomy 😆😂

50. sport: ooohh my main sport is swimming cus my siblings are all swimmers so i am too. But i have played other sports for school like badminton, table tennis, volleyball, some water game i dont remember haha, and a combat sport in my country called arnis

51. vacation: christmas vacay and i cant wait huhu

52. pair of trainers: uhhh are trainers rubber shoes? I have a couple, i guess.

GENERAL

53. eating: my dad (who cooked our meal), sis, and i ate afritada (chicken dat's tomatoey basically) for dinner

54. drinking: just water, but ugh i have to drink da hydrite sht again 😑😒

55. I’m about to: finish dis questionnaire n fall asleep haha

56. waiting for: sleep n happiness

57. want: to sleep n write n tumblr n watch n read n for all my problems to disappear

58. get married: yeahhh... but i think it's highly unlikely, man. So i aint counting on it but i do want it to happen, it seems nice having someone to spend da rest of your life with :')

59. career: hahaha i'm still just a college student, just a newly minted freshman actually. But i like to consider myself a fulltime fangirl hahaha

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: well, i havent rlly made out with anyone yet so im gonna have to say hugs i guess w/c ofc i love haha but i wish someone bigger than me could cuddle me for once in my life 😢

61. lips or eyes: lips cus they just seem so soft and sensual hehe. Plus i dunno man, eyes are kinda gross with muta (da sht in da corner of ur eyes when you wake up, it's a filipino word) and sht. And ya have to wear glasses/contacts if dey weak so it's just such a hassle. Tho i do recognize their importance n stuff 😊

62. shorter or taller: ugh TALLER. im a pretty tall gal so for once id like to be da lil spoon for once, for someone to be able to carry me and ya know all dat jazz. But i wouldnt give up my height for anything, makes me feel confident and better than everyone else mwuehehehehehehe

63. older or younger: uuuhhh for now i think it's a bit weird to date someone younger dan me, but for me personally, wat age i'd like to be, YOUNGER ALL DA WAY. it was just way less stressful and innocent back den, id give anything to go back 🙍

64. nice arms or nice stomach: haha nice arms if it means i can swing around them and they can carry me whahaha. But i do like em abs, i wanna feel wat abs feel like just once in my life hahaha

65. hookup or relationship: ooohhh i guess i fancy myself having a relationship for now hehe. Havent even had one yet haha.

66. troublemaker or hesitant: i am a hesitant troublemaker whahahahaha. Like i have all these ideas of thangs to do n sometimes i do dem but sometimes da situation n context scares me into not doing it like a wuss hahaha

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: haha nope.

68. drank hard liquor: haha nope but am looking forward to it hehe

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: thankfully i havent needed any yet whew

70. turned someone down: uhhh i guess the closest i came to "turning someone down" was being awkward around my crush haha but to be fair i think he was awkward too hahaha. And in an unromantic sense, i turned down a blockmate who offered to be my partner in an assignment becus i already had a partner hahahaha 😅

71. sex on the first date: haha havent experienced it if das wat ur askin. Maybe imma be dat kinda person after ive had a couple of relationships but for now i'll settle for someone actually being interested in me hahaha

73. had your heart broken: yes, by tv shows, and by da crappiness of life in general 🙇

74. been arrested: hahahaha nope but dat would be CRAZY hahaha

75. cried when someone died: yes, whether in real life or in tv shows, i have cried bcus of death 😢

76. fallen for a friend: look, man, my best friend's probably the most important person in my life who i couldnt bear to lose. I love her more dan anything in da world so i dunno if our friendship is something more dan da "typical" best friends i just know dat i love her n dat i dont wanna lose her n dat our bond's nothing like any other relationship ive ever had

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: hahahaha not rlly 😅 im pretty unreliable tbh and i make tons of mistakes and ill never be enough ever and just in general hate myself and have 0 self esteem hahaha 😅😅😅😓

But there's a chance i could improve tho, a very very VERY small tiny chance... but i guess i'll take wat i can get :/

78. miracles: hhmmm not in da way most ppl think about miracles in dat, it's da impossible event. I like to think it's a miracle that i have the family dat i have, da friends dat i have, and da life dat i have cus honestly i think i'd be dead w/o em. It's a fucking miracle i have things im passionate about and things that i love and im surrounded by ppl who i love and who love me as well. So yeah, i guess i believe in those kinds of miracles :')

79. love at first sight: hahaha not rlly. Look, man, im a fat girl who doesnt rlly care dat much about looks so unless a person manages to fall for someone while dat someone was doing something dat was a huge indicator of their personality and thus it's not only da appearance dat da person "fell in love w/", den i rlly dont believe in love at first sight. It's just infatuation, bruh. Love at first sight is cheap and u dont rlly know any thing about dat person other than the fact that they're pretty (why they caught ur eye in da 1st place imo) and nothin, zilch. Unless, like i said, they were doing something important to dem n indicative of deir personality. But even then, it wouldnt be love. Like i said, it'd be infatuation cus imo love is deep and takes time and cant just HAPPEN just cus u looked at someone and thought he/she was pretty 😒. True love would mean knowing dat person to deir bone but wanting to know more about dem. So to conclude a ted talk from a bitter person w/ a non existent love life 😆😂😂😂, love at first sight doesnt exist, is cheap, and is discriminatory to "ugly" ppl.

80. santa claus: hahaha i know he probs doesnt exist and is u know basically just capitalism n marketing hahaha. But i dunno, man, i kinda wanna believe he exists just cus it's more fun n childlike n innocent 😍

81. kiss on the first date: hahaha yeah i guess so but i think i probs would have had to known dat person for a while before we decided to date. I havent had a first kiss yet sooo i aint just willin to give dat out to someone i just met/knew for like a day or something hahaha (i have no idea how dating works) 😆😂😆😂😆😂

82. angels: huh... i like to think guardian angels exist cus dat means there are like angels of pure light sent down from heaven to protect us from any harm w/c is just nice to think about, yknow? Hehe. But angels in da catholic sense... i dont think i do, bruh. Sorry :/ *shrugs*

OTHER:

84. eye colour: uuhhhh brown, i guess? Like i said, i dont rlly care much for eyes hahaha 😅 ooohh but da purple eyes thang ive seen on da internet sounds cool hahaha

85. favourite movie: aaaahhhhh there's just so many good movies thoo

But agghh fine. Ive come to notice dat my genre's pretty lighthearted w/c is nice actually hehe

Spider-Man: Homecoming, Rogue One, 10 Things I Hate About You, Moana, Coco, Mulan, Avengers: Infinity War, White Chicks cus it's just so goddamn funny and iconic 😆😂😆😂😍, i'm not- ok you know wat, da Pixar movies in general ok? I mean, how can ya not? Oh which reminds me, Tangled, and The Princess and The Frog, oohh The Avengers is also a pretty solid movie, ooohhh Love, Simon, godhs dat was just such a wholesome sweet n nice movie :'), oh and den i freaking love the Scream franchise, man. It's so good :'), oooohhh w8 maybe The Dark Knight cus heath ledger was just da fuking bomb in dat movie, oohh and About Time's da sweetest time travel movie :') w/c reminds me dat the Back to the Future franchise was just such a classic, man :') oh and yknow wat? Unbreakable's actually pretty fucking cool, man. I get shyamalan know haha. Oh and yknow wat? 100 Tula Para Kay Stella is da 1st filipino film i actually liked so it has a special place in meh heart :')

ooohhh and Black Panther, man, gods how can one not bring up Da King™? WAKANDA FOREVER :') 😄

Oh and hey yknow wat? I have a sweet spot for the Sorcerer's Apprentice. It's kinda a guilty pleasure of mine hehe 😅

Whiicchh reminds me... the HOW TO TRAIN YOUR DRAGON FRANCHISE HAS GOT MY HART WHIPPED 😭😭😭

Oh and i also rlly like when harry met sally hihi :') and i guess the OG Star Wars trilogy's got a special place in my heart even if it is da way dat it is now 😢 :')

oh and i can't forget meh guardians :') Guardians of The Galaxy is such a solid film, bro. I loved it :') ooohhh and yknow wat? I actually rlly like Ready Player One, Baby Driver, and The Mummy (the brendan frasier one, who ya kiddin 😑)

oh and yknow wat? The Wedding Singer, 50 First Dates, and Music & Lyrics has got a special place in my heart, man. Gotta admit it :')

aawww and amelie, and begin again, and flipped and hercules, and room, and spotlight, and shape of water, and ladybird, and the princess bride, and the iron giant, and the lobster, and we're the millers, and what if and man up and shrek and kimi no na wa and a quiet place and inception and the lion king and to all the boys I’ve loved before and oooh tim burton movies are pretty cool, the animated ones, and I did spend a good amount of time obsessed w/ dis one so I guess cap civil war, and then big hero 6 and wreck it ralph, and the martian and inside out, and gone girl, and the lion king and forrest gump and spider-man 1 and 2, and les miserables and the devil wears prada and the book of life and the intern and the princess diaries and miss congeniality and aladdin and confessions of a shopaholic

And ok, ok, i think im done. Hahaha das it das my list of meh all time fav movies and i feel like rewatching all of em now hahaha 😍

#jazzessments

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thrufiyah · 3 years ago

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Midnight Sept 28 2021 12:30am

Midnight thoughts

Finally got babygirl to go to sleep hopefully she’ll stay asleep. Homeboy over here dont even know I got up or that I’m sitting up typing rn ha smh. Anyway... honestly... lately been feeling lonely but with support if that makes sense...

Lots of paperwork here to fill out reg benefits, insurance, etc but it’s working out gradually. might be able to get a cabin soon for my own lil fam so we’ll see how that works out and we plan to move next year so we’ll see how that works out too...

kinda leaning towards going our own way bc its a lotta hands involved and the left doesn’t always know what the right is doing or diff views on everything kinda confusing rn but itll work out

def an adjustment period. but just kinda feel lonely bc not rly anyone to talk to about honest thoughts? honestly? sometimes doubting... but excited in planning? now that were officially getting our own room to fill up w our own stuff is kinda sorta cool but not sure how it will go when the weather is bad

just gonna just keep typing as i go until i get rudely interrupted. lol

kinda bummed that i won’t be able to do this once lo arrives bc thatll be two bebes to constantly watch and never have time for myself

i always told myself not to have kids until i was financially stable and i broke the one promise to myself...... the one thing i didn’t want for my life..... but GOD you make a way when there’s no way

what else... worried about bebe growing if she’s ok normal all parts eating enough growing enough just idk.. always gonna be wondering...

ill even be wondering when both kids grow up and things will come up like disabilities along the way and that scares me. not in the fact that i can’t handle it but how their life will be as they grow up

just hoping they have everything that they need and grow up happy and feel loved all the time and able to express themselves....

my patience does run thin these days but maybe its my hormones? but again maybe not lol haha

wow everytime i come back here i feel different and im always at a different stage in my life.

missing my family in the way of how they remind me of who i am and where i came from they say ive grown up and that im independent but idk how much of that is really true

what else... dont rly talk to anyone much either... if anything it’s hb’s mom and then hb and even that isn’t much

daylight savings time is diff - sun didn’t go down until 7pm-8pm and it felt different. finally found my favorite grocery store that gives me a little piece of home and got to see a new side of town with the shops near the mall.. that was exciting lol

it’s really such a trip how much of a stop life is at the moment rn but i guess its a way to tell me we got to slow down hashtag cashaley haha

teddyswims and allenstone were dope on that yt video though lol

i oughta listen to more music to mellow out! haha. DEF need my own headphones or earpods... which HB didn’t give away my freakin mpower flames... lol. but headphones be hurting my ears but also i be needing them sometimes to chill or watch a movie

idk what the future holds but im holding on jesus lol im holding on....

hmm what else. lately ive been WAY TOO addicted to chocolate... and hmm what else... i need a journal just for notes like shopping lists, to do lists... etc.

glad im back in the tumblr and pinterest world lol. but pinterest to me seem like fleeting dreams and a whole lotta money mama does NOT have haha

hoping my work visa comes in soon so that i can apply for the residency one in december as soon as baby is born lol.

i can’t believe i dont remember if i bled a lot or not after giving birth last year... but last year was such a year of turmoil trials and tribulations... so to me i get it.. but yeah anyway

it’s weird... i feelike im here and not here.. maybe bc of lockdown and now in level 3 but a lot of empty dreams happening! but goals are def being met and worked on and completed so i can’t complain about that

i get worried everyday if bebe in there is still kicking so many horrifying and sad stories around the world its just no way to protect your kids idek

as far as self care... i was kind of doing it but at least im cleaning more and helping around the house more? i just hope im not slacking where it’s most important

what else.... hm.... what else is on my mind tonight. body be SORE LIKE A MF. from having to be a 25/8 366 day arm pillow, having huge ass legs to lay on my side, damn i miss my side lmao, to having to share a freakin blanket lmao.

idk just a lot going on and not rly any outlet to do. this mf still aint notice im sitting here lol anyway

what else is on my mind.... for some reason i really wanna find more haircare stuff lol. i need pa’us lol and rubberbands, scrunchies, bins, what else... idek but i need it alll please and thank you lol

babygirl is kod rn so cute but baby just dont move sleep peacefully by yourself for now haha

anyway we’ll find out this week if we’re gonna move to the next chapter and hopefully nana approves of our new plan idek

what else... i swear i clean up and two seconds later its a mess again in here

trying not to be too paranoid about stuff in here but it gets to me when they all start to puss ugh yuck fkn gross man but well get by maybe the nzbugs aint used to american fat skin haha

fitness is something im def looking forward to out here... kinda need to go for walks more often whether its just down the street or the small park nearby which here is called the bush lol

dont even get me startttttted on vocabulary... lets see what ive learned so far here...

bush / wop wops - foresty tree area, gumboots - rainboots, jumper - jacket or longsleeve? dairy/superette - small convenience store not connected to a gas station, what else... rubbish - trash... idek cant think of anything else... oh chocolate is specifically chocolate and lollies are gummies and others i guess... newspaper rolling for all food leftover or compost i guess... idk thats all i can think of for now

what else..... that was GROSS bruh. haha tay said don’t lose your venacular... lol. maybe if i keep listening to throwbacks that remind me of home...

ok i feel better i guess now that i wrote down some thoughts gonna try to put these clothes away and then get some rest for tomorrow

kbye!

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deeeelightfuldee · 3 years ago

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The person you had the strongest feelings for dies, do you care? I would be devastated. Even if we are no longer talking, it would destroy me to know they aren’t on this earth anymore.

Is there something you’re happy about at the moment? not really no. well, I mean I’m happy with a conversation thats happening.

Do you want someone dead? absolutely not

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up to? if it’s kile we are referring to, yeah. I’m getting a lot better putting it out of my mind. my other exes heckin no except for the other one I loved.

Have you ever fed or taken care of a stray animal? absolutely. we have adopted some from that method ahah

What is something you tend to worry about? people I care about. Like I worry that they’re safe, mentally OK, healthy, etc.

What is something you do that is unhealthy? hold on too long.

What is something you do that is good for you? I talk well about myself usually and I look for positives

What last caused you to force a smile? something in a video i thought was funny

What was the last video game you played? Was it fun? animal crossing. my controllers are SUPER whacked so it wasn’t too fun. I miss playing my games but I can’t afford new controllers yet

What is something not many people know about you? my assaults/history probably. I’m a very private person over all so i think most things people know about me are things they can see.

What word describes your basic style? classic

Have you ever been told you were going to Hell? oh a customer once told me that because they wanted a special ordered crib that day and it was a 12 week wait. so obvs a legit reason -.-

Have you ever wanted to kill yourself? .

If yes, what convinced you not to go through with it? ..

Have you ever rejected a guy, only to have him push the issue by asking “why?” and insisting that you just need to get to know him better? yessssss

Is there something that you believe everyone should do and you can’t believe that some people don’t do it (e.g., recycle or go to the dentist regularly)? brushing teeth or CHANGING THEIR SHEETS

Regarding the last good choice (healthy choice, kind choice, selfless choice, etc.) you made, what was your real motivation behind it? I made a choice to let go of a love that was destroying me. the motivation was like okay, i’m seeing he doesn’t love me, hes not going to love me. I’m spending my time, energy, and attentions to love him and I could be missing out on someone who loves me back.

What is something that you have had to practice at to get the hang of it? If you can’t think of anything, that’s okay, what’s something you are currently practicing at and trying to master? sewing

Have you ever gone to the store to buy something, like a video game, when it came out at midnight? never for me but I’ve gone with friends who were getting them -.- ridiculous

Regarding the last novel you read, was there a romance included? If so, was it central to the plot? yesssssssssssssssssssssssss and yes

Have you ever done relaxation meditations or listened to relaxation guides or positive-thinking/healing recordings? I’ve done that for school but not on my own personally

Do you have any interests that are also often shared by children? art, animated shows/movies, games

Is there something that could be a solitary activity but you really only like to do it with other people (e.g., watching movies, playing video games, etc.)? hmm, not really. I like going to tjmaxx & target better if I’m with someone.

Are you satisfied with the interior design or decoration in your home? Or do you think it needs a total home makeover? for the most part. because its not my money that pays the rent I def don’t get weird about it. but I like most ofit

Is there something that you’d like to own but you can’t find it anywhere? If not, can you a remember a time when you wanted something? Did you ever end up finding it or did you eventually stop wanting it? yes. I really want a particular type of coat but its hard to find.

Who makes you smile the most? hm. ummm... kile made me smile today he was bein a bit crass. it reminded me of how happy he used to make me. he used to be the one BY far that made me smile. these days its fairly even across the board.

What piercings do you want/have? I’d love to have my cartilage pierced again but it always gets infected because of my blood so i’m fine with what I have

What's your favorite website? probs tumblr.

Do you own a fish tank with fish? currently no

Do you like the movie 300? neverseen it.

Do you pop your knuckles? yup all the time

Do you have Photoshop? no its expensive

Do you use tinypic or photobucket? no

What’s your favourite song from the 1980s? if I had the effort I wouldlove to genuinely figure it out but I only have a quarter-butt effort rn

How about the 1990s? ^

Have you won anything recently? nerp.

How often do you make Excel tables? What for? pretty much never.

What was the last baby animal you saw in the wild? probably a bunny

Are you always available or online? I’m usually available

Do you have dietary restrictions? Or do you just eat what you like? gluten sensitivity and dairy sensitivity

Do you prefer gold, silver or steel jewelry? Or no jewelry at all? I always loved silver because I think it’s so attractive but it turns out gold is VERY nice with my skin tone and since I have had to replace all my fine jewelry from kile with cheap stuff i can afford, i buy pretty much all gold.

Have you been binge-watching any shows lately? If so, what? I was on a gilmore girls kick but right now im watching bobs burgers.

If you dye your hair, do you do it yourself or go to a salon? i loved when I used to get it done professionally but its literally several hundred dollars and I just don’t have that.

If you have any, do you like your in-laws? I don’t have any. < Same.

Would it bother you, if your partner had cut contact with their parents? yes and no. It would be hypocritical if I said omg yes, you should always be in contact with your parents --- because obviously I never ever ever talk to my dad. But for a lot of people I know.. they put so much blame on their parents for things that are fairly unjustified or unrealistic expectations for their parents to not be human-like and remain perfect. It destroys me because I have spent years crying and aching for a father figure in my life that to think some people just create unnecessary division is frustrating. However, if there is serious conflict and its a matter of safety (physical/mental) then absolutely no problem with boundaries.

Have you ever wondered whether you were adopted? hahahaha yes when I look like neither of my parents nor my siblings.

What’s the best physical feeling in the entire universe? honestly, loving and being loved.

Have you ever grown a berry bush? No

Have you done something new to your hair recently? I chopped about 15 inches off.

Do you have bad anxiety? If so, do you take any kind of medication for it? no. anxiety really has never been a problem for me, thankfully.

One thing you’ve experienced that you thought you never would have? rape

What was the last thing someone said to you that kept repeating over & over in your head? i replay conversations from my split with kile despite my desire to forget it.

How often do you have late nights out? pretty much never lol its just not my scene. I’d kind of like one or two a month but I don’t know anyone that would go out with me and it can be unsafe as a female to do so alone.

If you could, would you work from home? Do you think that would make you more or less productive? yes. I’m oriented to pretty strict self-discipline so it wouldn’t be a problem for me.

If you had the ability to change the weather, what would you change it to right now? either a really strong thunderstorm or cooooooooold weather

Is there something that you really need to do, but can’t seem to get motivated to do it? my motivation is completely there but my health is not

Most disturbing movie you have ever seen? i never remember names of them because i legit tune it out in my head.

Has a life goal or dream ever come true for you yet? If yes, what is it? If no, do you think you’ll achieve it? I always dreamt of going to college and doing well. I accomplished that (and then some!) I got into my dream colleges. I always wanted to travel by myself and I did. I always wanted to be in love and I was.

Have you ever had food poisoning? Yup.

What are you listening to? the freakin’ funniest song ever in bobs burgers -- the derek dematopolus song

Do you think there will be a WWIII? I would not be surprised. there is a lot of animosity in this world

Has anyone ever asked you if you were emo? lol no. i’m a super smiley, happy person so it wouldn’t be expected of me.

Has someone ever liked you that you never thought would? definitely. Michael always throws me off my guard that he likes me.

In all honesty, can a person be too nice? people always say yes that they get taken advantage of but I think those are two separate things. I believe you can be endlessly nice even with boundaries. I wish people aired on the side of overly nice than the typical overly rude

Has one of your friend’s boyfriends ever tried to cheat on them with you? in HS Is mental abuse really as bad as physical abuse? absolutely. the effects are devastating

Do you shop at Sephora for make-up? once in a blue moon. but only online

Zelda: Twilight Princess or Ocarina of Time? i never really played either

Do you own a rosary? no,I’m not catholic

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omg i love your auradon prep hcs! uma and audrey bonding over their anger for mal? YAAAS. audrey meeting harry and gil and being like damn who r these qtpies but harrys flirted with uma 38943 times in the 5 minutes she's spent talking with them so shes like "gil, it is!" b/c hes a big ol' sweetheart and those biceps! audrey aint blind! harry and gil messing with chad is the best thing in the world. you know they would too since chad thinks girls cant be on the fencing team smdh. any hcs?

this has been in my inbox for so long im so sorry IM READY NOW

Audrey would definitely be wary but intrigued at first, because while she might not be on the best terms with Mal, Evie has turned out okay and Jay and Carlos don’t really have anything personal going towards her so she’s seen that the original VK’s aren’t as bad as she’s been told

so when Uma, Harry, & Gil arrive for their stint, she’s less against it. also, potentially less scared around Uma because she wasn’t there at the cotillion and she probably thinks it’s kind of funny ironic that Mal got the same love-spell fiasco done to her as audrey did by Mal’s hand

Harry & Gil room together, Uma & Audrey rooming together is a soft spot of mine tbh and at first Uma’s like “please, not a pretty pink princess” but audrey’s gotten used to?? how VK’s are?? they kinda just leave each other be, and Uma gets a lot less defensive when Audrey asks her random questions (it’s just Audrey being curious bc Uma is…unlike the other vks. she’s not here to fit in)

audrey also warms up to it when Harry & Gil come over a lot (you know they would) bc hey! cute boys in the vicinity, even if they are villians - Harry’s obviously smitten and Uma’s not doing much to stop him so Audrey lets that be, but Gil is Gil and Gil is sweet and handsome and well, Audrey likes the attention

so somehow along they way they start hanging out a bit more and Chad comes around to try to get her back one night, but Uma just refuses to let him enter the room, and she’s stolen one of the fencing swords and barring his way, so he slinks back, defeated

and Audrey’s just - grinning, because this could actually be the start to a friendship

(they def have midnight ranting sessions about Mal and what she’s done in the past and Audrey feels slightly more vindicated for not being 100% on board with it in the v beginning)

Uma totally gets fed up with the fencing team bc the admin is being slow and not budging, so she just decides to form her own. Lonnie drops and joins, and Audrey & Jane get the cheerleaders behind the new team and basically the combined will-power and stubbornness of all the girls at Auradon Prep gets them established

and when the boys team asks if they want to join the ‘official’ team, both Uma & Lonnie turn them down. the girls team becomes official in like, the next two weeks anyways and they’re pretty damn pleased

Harry and Gil give Chad so much shit, especially Harry because while Chad is pining away for Audrey, Harry flaunts his flirtation with Uma as a “look what i’m succeeding at that you’re failing at kinda thing” and Uma plays along and that actually is the sole reason they’re so love-dovey half the time in public - it’s just to rile Chad up

Gil adds onto it by either flirting with Uma and Harry, or being really attentive & sweet to Audrey; both work as well

Audrey lowkey kinda forces Uma to spill whether she has feelings for Harry or not, because Audrey herself has kinda been the tagger-on in a relationship (her past one with Ben) and like she sees?? that Uma enjoys the attention and gets annoyed when other princesses and princes try to flirt with Harry (he never truly reciprocates, though)

Uma doesn’t admit it until she has to sit through a lunch where Audrey purposely tries to get Harry to return a princess’ affection and while he’s not having it, Uma pulls Audrey back to their dorm to have a ‘talking to’ except she stops halfway through when she realizes Audrey’s smirking

Audrey is so DAMN SMUG when Uma and Harry get together for certain and Harry is literally so happy and Uma is too but she’s hiding it because she’s got a reputation, damnit.

She definitely pseudo-takes over the romance part of Harry’s intentions because a) he doesn’t know where the best gift places are, so she kinda has to show him and b) his concept of romance is very non-fitting for Auradon and while Audrey knows Uma probably doesn’t think much of Auradon romance, she’s still going to experience it if Audrey has anything to say about it

and c) Audrey doesn’t have much trust in Harry’s taste because she can’t stand his clothes lmao

Uma and Harry aren’t used to the concept of one-on-one dates, so it turns into Gil, Audrey, and Chad (because he crashes it) all hanging out together and it probably gets on Mal’s nerves but honestly, that’s kind of half the beauty of it to Audrey

idk rn im kinda loving Audrey and Gil having the start of something new in this au, with Harry and Uma playing casual matchmaker in the background as a kind of fun role reversal

but I’m also loving Uma and Harry eventually turning into Sea Three and Audrey just being hella supportive and taking down anyone who has anything to say and having the cheer squad behind her as well

basically, Uma endears herself to the cheer squad even though she can’t stand half the people on it, because Audrey kinda makes them go to all the competitions and nobody has been able to see Uma in fencing/swordfighting action without at least being a little impressed

(Harry and Gil sit in the bleachers, cheering obnoxiously and heckling the hell out of the opponent)

#Descendants 2 #descendants headcanons #harry x uma #uma x harry #huma #mine #writing*#audrey descendants #uma descendants #harry hook #sea3 #gil legume #audrey x gil #???? i guess thats a thing idk its brief and theyre good friends

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heyjesper · 7 years ago

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tysm @saradathewitch for tagging me!!! im gonna tag @frances-janvier @wewriteletters @liabllity and anyone else who wants to do it bc i cant think of 20 people rules: you must answer these 83 statements and tag 20 people Last… 1. drink? water 2. phone call? my mom 3. text message? to this musicals discord server im in asking what the hot gossip was 4. song you listened to? castle on the hill by ed sheeran 5. time you cried? 3 days ago at great comet (marya and helene making out made my cry bc i was so happy lmao)  Have you ever… 6. dated someone twice? nope!!! never dated someone once!!! 7. kissed someone and regretted it? no 8. been cheated on? no 9. lost someone special? not really? 10. been depressed? no 11. gotten drunk and thrown up? nope Favourite colours: 12. aqua/teal/mint/whatever 13. purple 14. pink (altho im also partial to yellow) In the last year, have you… 15. made new friends? defo!!! ive gotten a lot closer w some people and honestly its so nice 16. fallen out of love? yeah i think 17. laughed until you cried? yea!!! 18. found out someone was talking about you? no 19. met someone who changed you? kind of 20. found out who your friends are? i mean i already knew? 21. kissed someone on your facebook list? i don’t have a facebook lmaooo General: 22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? again i don’t have a facebook 23. do you have any pets? nope! i used to have a fish tho 24. do you want to change your name? i like my name a lot even tho i get mixed up w other people a lot i don’t think id change it if i could 25. what did you do for your last birthday? studied for my bio final lmfao 26. what time did you wake up? like 10:30 27. what were you doing at midnight last night? i think watching athony rosenthals youtube channel he’s such a good kid i love him 28. name something you can’t wait for: being at the beach tomorrow!!!!! 29. when was the last time you saw your mom? i can see hr rn lmao 30. what are you listening to right now? some bruno mars song on the radio 31. have you ever talked to a person named Tom? not that i know of?? 32. something that is getting on your nerves? the shorts im wearing rn are like One size too small and im Uncomfortable 33. most visited website? probably tumblr i crave death 34. hair colour? dark brown 35. long or short hair? it’s the Bisexual Haircut rn 36. do you have a crush on someone? sort of? i def did but i haven’t seen them in a while so it might have died down 37. what do you like about yourself? my hair and freckles and personality!!! ive been feeling v positive about myself lately!!! 38. piercings: nope they scare me 39. blood type: idk lmao 40. nickname: i kind of hate nicknames? if someone who’s not like. In my family calls me a nickname im just rly uncomfortable 41. relationship status: single ! 42. zodiac: gemini 43. pronouns: she/her 44. favourite tv show: i dont really have a favorite but i just caught up w the flash recently and it was super good 45. tattoos: nope 46. right or left handed: right 47. surgery: i broke my arm when i was 5 but that was the last time i had surgery (unless you count getting teeth taken out)  48. sport: im a goalie in soccer and i fence and do a little bit of volleyball!!!  49. vacation: the beach!!!  50. pair of trainers: ok i honestly have no idea what this is saying but i have a pair of converse i like a lot?  More General: 51. eating: im not eating anything rn?  52. drinking: im not drinking anything either? 53. im about to: sit in this car for 4 more hours 54. waiting for?: nothing really? 55. want?: cute clothes + to kiss someone 56. get married?: im gonna cross that bridge when i come 2 it 57. career?: again im gonna cross that bridge when i come 2 it idk what i wanna do Which is Better 58. hugs or kisses?: both!!! 59. lips or eyes?: eyes 60. shorter or taller?: it doesn’t matter 2 me ! 61. older or younger?: like….my age 62. nice arms or nice stomach?: idk? i haven’t really thought abt that 63. hook up or relationship?: relationship 64. troublemaker or hesitant?: what does this apply to lmfao Have You Ever  65. kissed a stranger: no 66. drank hard liquor: no 67. lost glasses/contact lenses: no 68. turned someone down: yeah lmao 69. had sex on the first date: no! ive never been on a date 70. broken someones heart: i really hope not but there is a possibility 71. had your heart broken: nope 72. been arrested: no 73. cried when someone died: yes 74. fallen for a friend: yeah its hell  Do You Believe In:  75. yourself? yes but also not at all 76. miracles? not really whoops i wish i did 77. love at first sight? well i mean i believe in “i think youre attractive” at first sight 78. santa claus? no 79. kiss on the first date? sure?  80. angels? idk ?  Other 81. current best friend’s name? emma!!! shes so great i love her 82. eye colour: brownish hazelish 83. favourite movie: i can’t really pick one whoops

#thanks for the tag!!!!#personal

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seulbon · 7 years ago

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hey dave? im kicking your ass

THE LAST:

1. drink: tea!

2. phone call: i was in a discord call because i was apparently a part of a prank going on, even tho i took no part in it lololol (but like, i last talked to dave ( @glumios ) when they were drunk)

3. text message: wink

4. song you listened to: i listen to bts’ run and young forever at least once a day, ,, , ,. ; but ive been listening to exo’s the war on repeat for a while now

5. time you cried: yesterday actually lol i was being a lil bitch about art

6. dated someone twice: nnnope

7. kissed someone and regretted it: honestly i dont even remember sweatsss

8. been cheated on: thankfully no hahah

9. lost someone special: i normally dont get close to people deeply so i cant say they were “special” - but ive def lost people!

10. been depressed: wink why ya think ive been to therapy for a good 4 years; last time was like, a week ago or smth

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: actually surprisingly haven’t

LIST 3 FAVOURITE COLOURS:

12-14.

pastel purple, cotton candy mix that chanyeol has, and sea blue!

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. made new friends: uhuhuhuhhhhh of course !!

16. fallen out of love: dont think so, could be wrong??

17. laughed until you cried: yeeeaaaahhh especially when dave called me not too long ago kskshkshshs

18. found out someone was talking about you: uhhhh hello? i gossip like theres no tomorrow of course im gonna know when someone @’s me LOL

19. met someone who changed you: wink im sure they know who they are

20. found out who your friends are: you mean like??? true friends? i guess, hard to say rn since i still know plenty of assholes

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: what’s an facebook lol is that like a reddit for moms

GENERAL:

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: like 80% of them

23. do you have any pets: i lost one of my pets a while back but!! i still have two others!

the cat is dimka (smoke) and the pup is lexi! ive had dimka since i was around 2, and lexi since i was around 12 !! im love them all.

24. do you want to change your name: yeah but,,, to what? i dont know

25. what did you do for your last birthday: i WAS supposed to hang with friends and have a good time, but things changed. so i just had dinner with my family, got some money, was good.

26. what time did you wake up: 6:30 loooll fuck trucks

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping tf i aint a late bug

28. name something you can’t wait for: bts’ comeback honestly??? hixtape??? the sweet release of death????

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: i havent seen her since yesterday morning zzzz

30. what is one thing you wish you could change in your life: my attitude/personality i guess? like im such a sourpuss and cant get shit done and then the next moment im happy go lucky with no logic.

31. what are you listening to right now: vixx - dynamite (a banger please stan)

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: i dont fuckin know man

33. something that is getting on your nerves: very small things, like, smacking while eating, tapping nails, etc. also not being able to draw lol

34. most visited website: twitter, youtube, and i guess vlive counts.

35. mole/s: uno mole on my left hand pointer finger, on top - it helped me dictate between left n right lolll

36. mark/s: a small dust(?) mark that stuck on my ankle, and also a scar from the time someone threw a chair at me ;)

37. childhood dream: i think vet, but it still stands.

38. hair colour: dark brown + blonde highlights

39. long or short hair: medium

40. do you have a crush on someone: uhuhuhhhh yeah!

41. what do you like about yourself: eyes and hands i guess. my hands are like, dainty and fresh and my eyes be poppin - eye smiles left n right

42. piercings: just one lobe piercing in each ear, probs gonna get more

43. blood type: last i check, B?

44. nickname: jules, julia, julie, bonnie, seulbon, gay, and my favourite: jikookfukr69

45. relationship status: single, please let me stay that way for the time being

46. zodiac: gemini

47. pronouns: doesn’t matter with me, as long as i know you’re talking to me/about me it doesnt matter - call me trash bag for all i care

48. favourite tv show: i used to really like spn and i watched a bit of sherlock, but i think now i only really watch movies n shit on tv loooll

49. tattoos: kinda want some small tattoo on my wrist, but so far none

50. right or left handed: lil bit of both, though im mostly right handed !

51. surgery: none!

52. piercing: asked again??? refer above

53. sport: swimming! badminton! table tennis! the non-generic sports!

55. vacation: hawaii sounds nice. also canada and dubai.

56. pair of trainers: just casual running shoes lollll

MORE GENERAL

57. eating: im about to head out to get pizza actually

58. drinking: rn, just water

59. i’m about to: head out and get some food hahah

61. waiting for: i ordered some shit off Wish and now im just waiting for those fuckers to arrive

62. want: dont really want anything zzz

63. get married: maybe, its not my biggest concern

64. career: dermatologist? veterinarian? radiologist??? somethin in science.

65. hugs or kisses: the only kisses i like are forehead and neck kisses - ill always prefer a hug though

66. lips or eyes: eyes!!! 110%!

67. shorter or taller: i’d prefer taller ;o

68. older or younger: ill take like, 1 year younger and the max ill go older is like, 3 LOL

70. nice arms or nice stomach: either or, nice stomach doesnt have to be abs and nice arms doesnt have to be muscle - if they’re comfy they’re comfy

71. sensitive or loud: sensitive im a puss

72. hook up or relationship: i mean,,,, neither for now? but def no hookups.

73. troublemaker or hesitant: i just act on impulse around the people im with. if its people i trust, troublemaker. people i dont know, hesitant.

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. kissed a stranger: god no

75. drank hard liquor: nope!

76. lost glasses/contact lenses: my glasses yeah LOL

77. turned someone down: mmm m m m m yeah.

78. sex on the first date: whats an date lol

79. broken someone’s heart: im an asshole 25/8 so honestly? wouldnt be the first time

80. had your heart broken: romantically? nah. but ive def felt like complete and utter shit before because of someone

81. been arrested: wink (no really i havent)

82. cried when someone died: uhhh someone.. no. i haven’t lost anyone yet (thankfully, and hopefully not soon)

i did cry for my cat, though

83. fallen for a friend: *****aggressively winks******

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. yourself: its on and off

85. miracles: nah, those are big “what if’s” only

86. love at first sight: nop

87. santa claus: sorry kiddos santa’s dead

88. kiss on the first date: i dont??? prefer it???

89. angels: all my friends exist so nyes.

OTHER:

90. current best friend’s name:

hey uh? guys? like. why you gotta fuckin pinpoint this out:

dave, kat, val, will, eric, ariel, dianne, miles, and a few minor others. literally only dave has tumblr (that i can remember) so this is that

91. eye colour: hazel!

92. favourite movie: i dont watch many movies god, but i think the last movie i watched that i really liked was central intelligence? it was. so funny idk why i thought it was good.

hey assholes: im not on tumblr at all but for anyone that comes around this just take it and do it - i wont tag anyone,, , , ,. ,. ,. ,.

#im hunrgy so im really gonna go get food now #tagged #tag someone #idc #dave thank u for this #text post #ps stan talent

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spnife · 7 years ago

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91 question tag

Tagged by @vanillabeanniall and then @uswntinharmony

More below the cut bc that’s how I roll

the last –

1. drink: Arizona Tea

2. phone call: my mom

3. text message: my mom - she sent me two climbing videos. Or I sent them to me, from her phone

4. song i listened to: What a feeling, but I was asleep (i checked the music app just now), so the last song I remember hearing is Ray of Light by Madonna

5. time you cried: wednesday. First day of school was today so it was some stress

have you ever – 6. dated someone twice: yeah

7. been cheated on: yeah. I became friends with the guy though. Similar tastes I guess??? (( Actually I blocked him on snapchat last year bc he was talking some bs on his story but in eigth grade he wasn’t awful)) She lied abt it though and then talked to me two years later and still lied like okay

8. kissed someone and regretted it: no ragrets

9. lost someone special: not really

10. been depressed: fuck hell yep

11. gotten drunk and thrown up: no. I had like a sip of beer on a trip but it was just to mess with a dude while he was in the porta potty

list 3 favorite colors – 12. light blue

13. orangish pink

14. dark purple

in the last year have you – 15. made new friends: heck yeah. I switched schools and found a really good group of people there already. It’s been alright

16. fallen out of love: not in the last year. gotta be in love first

17. laughed until you cried: probably but I don’t remember rn

18. found out someone was talking about you: I think? I found out parents were saying nice things about me. Mean wise maybe? I’m not really sure. Probably

19. met someone who changed you: at least one. a teacher last year

20. found out who your true friends were: i think?

more – 21. kissed someone on your facebook? alas, i do not have a facebook

22. how many of your facebook friends do you know in real life? see 21

23. do you have any pets? A super sweet black lab named FeeBee, a kitten named Mulder and a cat named Milo, and a hedgehog named Wembly

24. do you want to change your name? i like my name. My last name bothers me sometimes bc dad stuff but it’s gotten better

25. what did you do on your last birthday? I had a chill day at school, got a nice car, got a card from all of the kids on the climbing team. One of them said “Wow Coach Ella, you only have two more years til you can drink,” like i’m sorry kid I’m only 16

26. what time did you wake up? 7. first day of school

27. what were you doing at midnight? crying and putting school stuff in my backpack and watching VEEP

28. name something you can’t wait for: to keep getting better at climbing, the Harry Styles concert on oct 11, my birthday on oct 13 bc it should be fun and I hope I’ll get another card from the climbing team bc they’re all lovely

29. when was the last time you saw your mother? today

30. what is one thing you wish you could change about your life? i want to know that I’ll be able to be happy

31. what are you listening to right now? watching Raising Hope

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom? yep

33. something that is getting on your nerves? I keep getting anxiety while I’m at climbing practice and that’s one of my most comfortable places. it feels like im going downhill with climbing even though I know im getting better

34. most visited site: netflix

school – 35. elementary: i loved my elementary school. every teacher i had was amazing, small school in austin and a good community and i still talk to my friends from there. so when i moved to the new school in fifth grade and depression was already showing up, the differences made it literally hell. it was awful. i didnt like my teachers and i didnt know people

36. middle: 6th grade was hell, 7th grade was even fuckin worse, 8th was still pretty bad. All the worst years of my life so far, and tbh it’s gonna be hard to top them

37. high: better than middle school but thats a really fucking low bar. like incredibly low.

38. college: planning for ACC for two years to get base courses, dream school UT in an engineering major. I love the school and the program there, but I worry if I could barely get through middle school, how tf am I supposed to survive college. Also it didn’t feel great when I was talking to a friend and I was like “yeah ut is tbh my dream school, if I can get in” and she was like “oh that’s one my last choice colleges” like fucking okay love you thanks for telling me that makes me feel real good about my intelligence and how you view me

me – 39. hair color: brown

40. long or short hair? shoulder length

41. do you have a crush on someone? yep. according to a friend i am “so gone for this girl” but um. oka y what if she doesn’t like me? I feel good around her though and she likes being around me and we work well together I think. She’s lovely and I wouldn’t want to make things weird by asking her out if I don’t know she feels that way too.

42. what do you like about yourself? I am able to figure things out and I work with kids really well. I’ve also been getting better at climbing again so I’m proud of myself for that

43. piercings? just my ears

44. blood type: lol yeah like i know?

45. nickname: ellallalala is something I’m getting from people at the new school, and I’ve had some climbing nicknames over the years but Coachella is sticking. I coach and my name is Ella it’s great

46. relationship status: nope

47. zodiac sign: libra

48. pronouns: she/her

49. favorite tv show(s): always sunny, parks and rec, my name is earl, curious george

50. tattoos: soon

51. right, ambidextrous, or left-handed? right

first – 52. surgery: i had one on my pelvis in 2013? i was in preschool and it was for this weird group of veins on the side of my leg. We’d always called it a birthmark and after the surgery the scar looked like a sunset over water but the sun is purple (still looks like that it’s rad) and the first time someone showed me a birthmark i was like??? Um no thats just a little dark bit of skin?? my birthmark is purple what is this shit

53. piercing: ears

54. sport: rock climbing. found it early and still love it

55. vacation: no idea

56. pair of trainers: first i remember are a PAIR OF DORA LIGHT UP SHOES

current – 57. eating: nothing

58. drinking: arizona tea

59. i’m about to: finish my arizona tea

60. listening to: the episode ended so me typing and the clock my great grandmother gave is

future – 61. waiting for: me to feel alright

62. want: to like what i’m doing and to know i’m able to be happy doing it. I wish I could just skip to being married with kids and a dog and everything.

63. married: oh for sure

64. career: astronaut has always been my dream career but with this level of anxiety it’s probably a no go. I am not over it. I’m def gonna cry abt it in a couple of minutes bc thats how it goes, ya know. The last astronaut I talked to though said “the biggest disqualifier is not applying” so i’m still going to try my hardest. I also love engineering and physics and space and science and education and would love to be a librarian, so we’ll see

your type –   65. hugs or kisses? depends

66. lips or eyes? eyes, i guess. There’s more character there

67. shorter or taller? in my head i’m always like oh taller but really it doesn’t matter. as long as i can be little spoon im good to go

68. older or younger? doesn’t matter

69. nice arms or nice stomach? tummies are cute i guess.

70. sensitive or loud? i don’t know

71. hook-up or relationship? right now relationship and at some point relationship but ask me a couple months ago and it would have been different

72. troublemaker or hesitant? both. troublemaker with a lot of decisions but in fun ways, but hesitant when it comes to talking to new people that i want to be good friends with. and asking people out

73. kissed a stranger? yep. on a bet

74. drank hard liquor? had some jack daniels mixed with coffee and it tasted like cinnamon toast crunch

75. lost contact lenses/glasses? my glasses always turn up

76. turned someone down? yeah. accidentally on a few though lol. As i had a crush on someone i went out with for a little while last yeah legit three other people liked me and i guess im oblivious bc i had no fucking idea

77. sex on first date? depends

78. broken someone’s heart? i don’t think so

79. had your heart broken? yes but in a friendship way along with the relationship. it goes back to the you should kill yourself stuff

80. been arrested? nope

81. cried when someone died? no one i’ve known closely has died. My great-great grandmother died when i was fiveish but she was really old. There have been a few suicides at my old school (i switched 2 months before end of last year) and those hit hard, just knowing that there are so many people here dealing with that stuff and me relating to it. I didn’t know the people well but we’d spoken and I knew them some, but I had some friends who were much closer and really affected

82. fallen for a friend? yeah

do you believe in – 83. yourself? i try

84. miracles? shit happens, and sometimes it’s good

85. love at first sight? who am i to say tbh

86. santa claus? no

87. kiss on first date? if i like them

88. angels? no

other – 89. current best friend’s name: skip

90. eye color: hazel

91. favorite movie: i dont know im tired and want to cry sort of so maybe i shouldnt think about this stuff as much when im already stressed im going to go drink more tea and eat some soup

Anway

I’m tagging anyone who reads this far. gotcha

#about me #mine

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