#im bouta fight

[snekdood]

how is sacrificing indigenous people in america by not voting/voting third party going to help palestinians, can i ask?

[whoa-where-did-the-pancakes-go]

Friend has been gone too long. I'll be pacing for the next hour.

[samfucker]

gulp... darlin hcs... this is kinda long... i use he/they pronouns here. hes a cis dude in my eyes i just type they out of instinct.

hes called julius

mexican-asian! (their dad is mexican, their mom is cambodian. they were born in mexico but moved to washington when their dad got a better job opportunity.)

his dad has a teardrop tattoo and one of those "cut here" tattoos on his neck. he's also blind in one eye

their mom is beautiful but #evil. she always had her nails painted dark red

julius' favourite colour is dark red

he got 4 siblings!! hes the middle.

their older sister was the typical 2000s teen girl. ik yall are envisioning the hairstyle im talking about. she also brags about how she loved leopard print before it got popular.

also shes a kesha lover. now she listens to chappell roan. she IS casual.

as an adult, their younger brother works with animals! their older sister has an online job and their older brother is a mechanic. their younger sister is in college and julius hates her bf. the one sided beef is crazy. theyve never even met in person.

he did boxing as a teen and his little sister used to do dance

ik more of the fandom wants them to have happy childhood BUT NOT ME!!!!!!1

BOOM UR PARENTS SUCK!!

their dad sold their wii for drug money (am i projecting)

their mom is worst than their dad muahahahahah

they had a saint bernard called Pooch growing up and a yappy little chihuahua that his mom loved. that dog also refused to die. like im talking this dog got attacked by a bigger dog and had a tumor and got hit by a car and survived. by the time the dog died it had a leg missing and was blind. the vet bills were crazy

even tho their parents were shitty, they could never bring themselves to hate them even though they wanted to. when either of them would pass out on the couch, he'd cover them with a blanket and clean the living room and kitchen. when his mom would be upset, he'd sit and listen to her even tho she never did the same to him

he doesnt talk to his parents now and he makes jokes about what he went thru to cope, but he wonders if they're doing okay, if they got healed and became better people or if they passed away and they never knew.

the bond they had with their unempowered friend was the same bond asher, david and milo have. his friend was called trevor.

julius was trevors first kiss because trevor complained about feeling like a loser since everyone started dating around their teen years LMFAO

their first concert was a metallica one that they went to with quinn

they worked as a waiter for a while as a teenager and had a work bestie that was like 40

guyliner...........

I STOLE THIS HC FROM A FIC IVE READ IF YOU FIND IT PLZ LMK SO I CAN CREDIT!! but they worked in a fighting ring at one point

my own add on to the same hc: during this time, they had a shitty little apartment and the most decorated space was a dresser dedicated to their fish, soda pop. that fish was spoiled as fuck and he cried when soda pop died

he frequented a diner to the point the lady behind the counter knew his order beat for beat

when they were teenagers, asher took inspo from their style. they used to wear those little black wrist bands with the little spikes (do yall know what im talking about) and thats where ashers love for his spiked collar came from

they do not have a single pair of blank socks. they all have some sort of stupid design on them

also ofc, the rubber duck, courtesy of domini.

they hate haircuts

they HATE the grocery store. they get overstimulated and wanna die immediately.

best meal theyve ever made for themselves is mac and cheese. from those little boxes.

aggro bit them one time and theyre still upset over it

TATTED AS FAWK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and they have piercings GODDDD THEYRE SO FINE

they also have sharp canines (im bouta bust)

i know yall want asher to have heterochromia but i hc julius has it. HOWEVER! I hc asher has anisocoria (one pupil bigger than the other). they bond over having eye conditions

they also fell out of a tree in the middle of the woods one time and cracked their head open and broke their leg and had to limp home

the first ever scar he got was on his chin when he and his brother were pushing each other around (as brothers do) and julius fell and cut his chin open. its very faded now, but his brother brings it up somtimes

one time, out of boredome, he ran away from his brother at the store

his little sister would hide between clothes in the store and would need to be called for on the intercom

i have more. theyre my fav listener. all my hcs go to them.

[crackersandjuice]

EVBO???? EVBO YOUR FUCKING MIND HOLY SHIT???

pvpciv the lore the LOREEEEEEEE. oh my god. Oh My God. i have. So Many Thoughts. like. Like. this is going under a cut i need to Ramble.

why are the shields grouped with the swords. parrot didn't mention anything about them fighting with the other civs so maybe they allied with the swords??? or the other groups also send them there as punishment??? but the first one is probably more likely because shields can't do damage they can only defend. also sword and shield imagery ya know.

(side note: i am So Glad guard friend "raymond" pvpciv doesn't know shit lol. my guardbo heart couldn't take it if he was yet another person that betrayed evbo.)

and why the fuck can't the swords use multiple items!! is it like a trade off with the whole netherite thing?? they can become immortal but they can only use said source of immortality as a weapon. does that make sense i hope it makes sense.

the memory loss!! if players aren't spawned into their civilizations and are instead spawned out into the world, maybe swordciv wipes their memories so they don't want to leave. but that in turn just makes their lives a living hell because they fight each other AUGH. just don't make an economy y'all don't make your society have to pay for shit with the very thing you need to live </3

TABI. TABI FUCKING. HER. IM LOVE HER. i am Not abandoning my found family goodness you can pry that from my cold dead hands but!! her betrayal OH that was so good. she either does have some attachment to evbo or she probably has some further use for him if she spared him like. maybe she's trying to goad him into following her?? idk why she would but it's a possibility!

what else...OH YEAH the animation! qdandy chef's kiss i am eating it up like a bowl of spaghetti.

oh god...oh god my fics are gonna be soooo non-canon compliant. test drive lovers we live in ignorant bliss over in that au o7. but!! i am also Very Very excited to explore the new lore in other fics. this bouta make my "evbo gets turned into a spectacle" au go wild.

[chaotically-coz]

WHY I FEEL BAD FOR THE LESBIANS AND THEIR FUCKASS TRAUMUTIZED CHILDREN

V was always struggling with trauma, but her family helped her attempt to get through it. Right? RIGHT?? Okay well fucking WRONG. First, her middle child (cozmic) got fucking SNATCHED by some monster energy drink man behind the slaughter (sorry cantor), and she had NO idea where she went, so yeah, the stress of having your kid MISSING, and especially cozmic because everybody knows if cozmic goes missing shes probably in the middle of the pacific ocean after getting lost on her way to claires or something idfk. ANYWAYS yeah, 1 child down two to go ig. She now has 2 children in her custody YAYY!! Oh shit? Nevermind so star got SNATCHED by some malfunctioning google assistant voiced kawai kid. AND THEY DROP LIKE FLIES!!! So two of her youngest daughters went BRRR and now shes got 1, and that 1 is NOT DOING OKAY but we’ll get into that later. Also, episode 8 happened but i lowkey forgot like half of the AU version sooo, i think J angst still happens so YEAH. ANGST WITH THE LESBIANS. But WAIT! Whats this?? STAR IS ALIVE! (for now hehehHAHHHEHHHAHHEHA-) but WOAH they gotta fight, so BOOM depressed mother fights her child. And YAYAYYAYAY they get star back!.. Right, so about that, (it might seem crazy what im bouta say/ref) yeah nevermind girl got got, MY BAD!!! Yeah no so star died in her arms.. Yikes. So YAYAYY trauma. Not mention, she could’ve gotten cozmic back, she FOUND cozmic, and she saw the horrible state she was in, but did she get her? NOPE!! Her memory was wiped, but once she got her memory back, now she can remember how she ABANDONED HER DYING CHILD! (is okay she got adopted by hatune miku and yuri) So yeah that along with memories of star DYING IN HER ARMS. oh yeah and like ALMOST KILLING her purple grape flavored wife, so yeah! Thats a memory!! Also like anons tormenting her abt her entire life bloodline and everything to come because why not:3 YAYYY PARAGRAPH FINISHED (im going to hell)

[blackkatmagic]

I've just reread the entirety of Labyrinths of Reflections and im bouta do the missing scenes but i wanted to ask before i forget

What refrence is the computers in the train station? Im mostly familiar with the mcu🤢 and the obsessions youve dragged me into

It's from an old Spider-Man fight with Dr. Connors/the Lizard, though I can't remember which run - Connors holed up in an abandoned subway station, which is why the lab remnants are there. It's also how Peter managed to figure out where Bruce and the rest were going, which is why they caught up so quickly - he knew the best hiding place in the area already.

[twodimentionalgenie16]

im bouta FIGHT this hairy fat guy addiction!!

damn. hairy fat guys got hands.

[luvergirl-535]

aight so

it's a long long long story (don't think i've ever once told a short story in my whole life)

but basically, me n my teammates pulled up to the party that my ex situationship's (the one who told me on valentine's day that she was talking to a man...) sorority was throwing last night

side note... california sororities are ON ONE on saturday nights ima js say that

anyways

i ended up bringing my favorite hookup w me js bc her ex is the man that my ex situationship is talking to now, and her ex-best friend is my ex situationship (it's a mess ik)

and then like halfway through the night, that dumbass white boy gets all up on my girl (his ex) while i'm getting drinks

like legit all the fuck over her, getting handsy and shit and i go over there n push him off of her (wayyy more aggressive than needed ngl) bc like wtf dawg

n ofc that threatens his masculinity or some dumb shit like that so he starts getting all up in MY face

- like go away bruh you and ur liver diseased, axe cologne using, 5'7 ass js need to relocate before you get your shit rocked

and then he continues to be a fucking nag the entire time (like man your girl is on the other side of the house, get away from me and mine?)

- he's just talkin a whole bunch of crap, saying hella homophobic shit to me n the girl I brought w me

and now i'm drunk and annoyed but tryna keep myself tg bc i can't be doin too much messy shit as a college athlete

and then he ends up attempting to throw a beer bottle at me but misses. like hello??

- he finally goes away after that

and now im js pissed off

- like istg i was READYYYY to beat that mfs ass, but the girl im w js wants to leave so i get in my 'be nice' mindset

so we're on our way out, sayin bye to my teammates n shit when he comes back over and starts saying shit again, shoving me and tryna reach over and grab at my girl again (bro js go away no one w any brain cells wants u)

so we end up exchanging... words

- and blows

aight im all done i think

bye ✌🏼

- 🪩

oh my god??? girl ur bouta inspire a fic or smth bc that’s crazy.

no but seriously i’ve never been to a party that messy. that’s insane. who won the fight tho??

[ice-devourer]

so, idk if i should do this for my two of my friends bc my parents dont approve of me doing it for others.....so i kinda need advice on what imma bouta do for em it's about disabilities and the ph government i cant post this anywhere else but tumblr .com so

tw one mention of hospitals n overdosing

slightly long post but i need sound advice 😭😭😭😭

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so disabled people here have this pwd card thing, however they are very restrictive and pedantic about the application and SLOW AS FUCK for the processing. only recently (last month i think) did they approve of mental disabilities as a disability. the card is difficult to get. two of my friends are neurodivergent and one of them has depression, however their families aren't that...well, receptive about it. 

it's not my first time falsifying documents so im thinking:

i replicate my doctor's prescribing pad and ‘prescribe’ them medicines as proof of their illness, ive been prescribed a ton of different medicines so it's quite easy to make combinations hshhssh,  i also need to falsify a certificate vouching and verufying that they do have an illness. it's fucked up bc they are ill andidk why they need so many verification steps to give the benefits i fucking hate this governmnt why do disabled people need to prove shit multiple times but yeah im not actually falsifying because their illness and disability is real and the government is a fucking asshole abt it so let's use create and not falsify as a verb uwu

i can also create an admission slip for them by replicating and just modifying my own slip from the time i overdosed (twice hshsh) as proof that theyve been hospitalized due to their mental illness bc just the presc. pad may not be enough, so for good measure yep.

i can just accompany them or give them a script of what to say when they get interviewed.

ive falsified vaccination cards for my oarents bc theyre anti vaxxers and i coyldnt fucking get them to ge the vaccine (gurl they are gonna drive me insane) and it worked, ive also falsified an id for myself saying im 21 during the pandemic too bc only people olderthan 21 can run errands and minors werent allowed to go out accoding to our local gov. and i was elected president during my 1st yr bc i made effetive excuse letters that our dean didnt question (mfs (my classmates) said i was doing gods work for em theyre lucky i love em) and ive recently copied someone's signature to get an spa (special power of attorney) andlied to our social security system (went okay hshwhhs) so WHY CANT I DO IT FOR MY FRIENDS IF I CAN DO IT FOR MY FAMILY FUCK GATEKEEPING THIS IS ABOUT DISABLED PEOPLE NOT GETING THEIR RIGHTFUL BENEFITS THIS IS ABOUT THE PEOPLE I ALSO CARE ABOUT

but yeah it's not easy, but to me it's only proper they ge their benefits like i did.

(also cheated mine bc like i said they only considered mental health recently so i went and falsified that i have really reaaly horrible eyesight and bribed my optometrist AHSHSHHWHSSH)

so should i go ahead with this and override my parent's permission bc i am still a lil scared of my mom this could cause a big fight but like...i love these ppl, i want them to have a slightly better life man hshhhahsshsh

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

ryry will you tell us about the ojv sp parents! or their relationships with the sp boys? like stan ft shelley ( love stan and shell) sharon and rancid ( ik u touched on that one but im nosy ) or like kyle ft. the broflovskis? those dynamics? or how the broflovskis feel abt stan and stan’s parents abt kyle, vice versa? ill also accept star seven fam situations anythin u want go crazy go stupid

( also i love u mwahmwahmwahmwahmwaaaah )

Oh I ABSOLUTELY WILL!!! And I will get WAY too into it!!! Gonna be sticking with the Marshes and Broflovskis this ask, but I’ll get to the rest of the ojv star seven sometime! (This bouta be convoluted tbh)

So starting with my darling Stanathan, Sharon and Randy Jackass Marsh divorced for good when our boy was 12. At this point the only thing Shelley and Stan agreed on was that their parents should NOT be together and when shit was finalized they were both like FUCK YEAH MOM TAKE US OFF THIS FARM!!! And Sharon moved them back into their old house. Randy’s pretty much all over the place and not NEARLY the dad he thinks he is, but the kids still have to spend weekends at the farm a few times a month.

And like a lot of little kids, especially little boys, Stan REALLY looked up to his dad when he was younger. Like that’s his dad, the “cool” parent. But about the time Stan turned 10 and his mental health went through a really bad spot, he started to see the world a LOT less idealistically and ESPECIALLY started seeing the nuance of the people in his life. A lot of people are selfish. And his father is a prime example of that.

That’s not to say OrangeJuiceVerse Randy is truly insidious. He’s not. He just genuinely doesn’t think about anything that doesn’t directly affect him, or acknowledge that his actions can hurt other people. He’s selfish. And a lot of the reason Shelley and Stan had a rocky relationship when they’re young is because she’s four years older than her brother, and she sees their dad for all his bullshit long before Stan does, and a 14 year old Shelley is honestly jealous of that innocence. That, and the general teenage angst, but once they’re on the same page, it’s very “Annoyed Siblings vs Parents Who Need To Get Their Shit Together”. Like Sharon and Randy will be fighting again and they just share that Sibling Look lmao.

That brings me to my queen Sharon. That woman’s highest priority is her kids, always, which is a lot of the reason she gets so exasperated with Randy. Like during Stan’s stint as the poster child football star of South Park, well after the divorce, she is calling him up like “REALLY RANDY?!? You’ll use our boy to promote your weed business but can’t be bothered to come to a single game?!?” She and Sheila have also been essentially second mothers to their sons sbfs forever, and the families have been fused for style’s entire lives.

Also, Stan is a total mamas boy. Both his own and Kyle’s. He has been known to call his mother ‘dude’ because he calls everyone that and he’s very “yes ma’am” with Sheila most of the time but they’re so close that once he called HER dude and she wasn’t even phased she just likes that Stan likes her enough to feel comfortable like that lmfao. He and Sheila tag team being overly concerned about Kyle and they totally gang up on him when he’s not taking care of himself.

With Stan and Gerald, it’s a really casual thing. Like they’re mostly chill towards each other. Unless Gerald is around Randy, in which case Gerald’s dumbass tendencies come out full force, because Gerald’s kind of an idiot but he’s pretty harmless other than some minor cyber bullying and Randy Shenanigans.

So Ike. Ike and Stan have SO much fun together, especially as they get older, like they’re playing video games together, especially the puzzle games that frustrate Kyle, and when Ike’s in high school he goes to Stan for advice on things he’s too embarrassed to ask his brother about (Stan is not the person to ask for advice) and it’s so funny bc like they’re adults and Kyle will wake up at 3am for water and Stan’s in the office on the GTA RP with Ike and they’re trying to get kicked out of servers by pissing off the mods

Kyle time bois!!! As much as he tries to deny it, he is a LOT like his mother. He can be stubborn and reactive, sometimes preachy, but they’re like that because they just care so damn much about everything and everyone. If there’s an injustice to be found, they’re fighting it. And they’re both incredibly nurturing and passionate about loved ones. But because they’re so much alike, they tend to argue. At the end of the day, though, Kyle loves his mom and she loves him.

His relationship with his father was a little strained in high school. Gerald’s well meaning encouragement to push Kyle to succeed came off as IMPOSSIBLE expectations and the pressure Ky felt was on him was enormous, because Gerald really sucks at communication in a sensitive way. He actually felt a lot of guilt, for a long time, about unintentionally stressing his son out to the point that it got to. Kyle didn’t blame him really, mostly himself for getting so carried away, but he did have to learn to take everything Gerald says with a grain of salt.

Kyle and Ike ayyyyyy! Dude even if Kyle kind of terrorized Ike when he was like 8 because he thought that’s what big brothers were supposed to do, he grows into the best big brother and it’s HILARIOUS when Ike’s in middle school and Kyle’s trying WAY too hard to be cool and friends with him and Ike CONSISTENTLY reads him for absolute filth, makes fun of him for everything he can, and rips on him. He has totally told him that he likes Stan better and Kyle was like “yeah, well so do I!” “no shit, homo!” It’s all in good fun, they really love each other a lot, and if anyone fucks with Ike? They are getting the Kyle Rage Volcano.

Shelleys always been kinda indifferent towards all Stan’s friends unless they’re bothering her, but when Kyle and Stan got together, she gave him the ‘take care of my baby brother’ speech. Over the years they come to know each other pretty well, are even friends, maybe not as close as Stan and Ike, but still.

Kyle and Sharon are lowkey BESTIES dude Kyle is Team Sharon from day one. He adores his mother in law, sits with her at football games, loves gushing over Stan with her, just really enjoys her company. As a kid it’s because her more quiet nature is a break from his own mom, but as he gets older, he is the CAPTAIN of Sharon Defense Squad, because

Kyle does not like Randy. And OrangeJuiceVerse Kyle is someone who truly wants to see the good in everyone, give everyone the benefit of the doubt. Not Randy. Like he was 7 years old witnessing Randy Bullshit and he was like “dude your dads a jackass” and Stan was all “he’s okay” but over the years that exasperation with his best friend’s dad turned into an actual grudge, because how could this deranged man not see the emotional toll he was taking on his own son? Why didn’t he care about Stan? Didn’t he give a shit that he was hurting Kyle’s favorite person in the entire world? And Kyle does NOT try to hide the fact that he hates Randy, out here glaring at him, telling him off when he does something stupid (and it’s scary tbh, like OJV Kyle isn’t very intimidating until he’s mad, then he’s snapping like an angry fox) like bruh Kyle was SCREAMING at Randy kicking him out of the wedding for bringing alcohol to his SOBER SON like an uncaring dick, meanwhile Stan was more upset that his dad bothered a beehive lmfao. Kyle ‘Speak No Evil Take No Shit’ Broflovski, everyone. Randy’s a little scared of him.

That’s what I got, my dearest, THANK YOU FOR ASKING I LOVE THINKING ABT OJV!!!

[thefandom-casserole]

My thoughts on the new episode :>

- THE INTRO CALLBACK TO THE BETH MAY WEALTH AHHHHH

- The change in voice for npc Beth I love this

- “Oh.” “Ron” “what are we” DYING. The qpr ever <3

- Beth doing the Ron thing at the end of the “ad” reminded me so much of Beth’s voice during the beginning of Snarl Back Someday 💔

- “Maybe got married to the doodler…?” “No we definitely didn’t get married to the doodler” “awww”

- TIEFLING ROGUE TAYLOR IS RON TAYLOR IS RON TALOR IS RON

- Freddie really out there stealing Ron from Beth lol

- Taylor out here getting Paeden’s power which was given to the Daddies for free 💔 (the ability to see whether something is higher, equal, or lower than them)

- The spirit of Paeden lives on !!!!!

- Hehehe Taylor didn’t get a Teen Fact

- Linc Fact: Parent Teacher Days/Essentially SFW Date Nights are Linc’s fave days of school because he can go do whatever he wants

- Normal Mustache Fact: Essential oils for his mustache, it’s doubled in strand count 8>>16, plus smells like lavender

- Scary Fact: She doesn’t run errands, she walks them. Bitch

- Anthony Fact: He knows he can fix a person I don’t even know :> He’d make her a trans rights activist

- Daddy magic collection jar folk music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

- Ron and Darryl got sent to the timeout room 😭 bet Paeden’s there

- MEATBALL SCARY

- Oooh do we think Taylor’s lost his interest in survivalist stuff?? That makes me unreasonably sad :c

- Freddie’s song!!!!!!!!!!! I’d unironically listen to that tbh

- AUTISTIC NORMAL AND HIS SCHOOL SPECIAL INTEREST IS BACK WHOOOO TONY PEPPERONI

- Oh boy is this bouta get angsty

- Oh boy they’re getting upset with normal oh dear oh dear

- I’m nervous for the rest o’ this

- Oooh right Normal’s a cheerleader!!!! He should be pretty decently in shape!!!!!

- Henry and Normal parallels (the pyramid deaths, and the Tony Pepperoni)

- “I was myself” she takes responsibility she takes responsibility Beth plays Scary so well this is amazing omg this is so well done I’m crying good god

- SCARY ASKING HOW IT FELT TO DIE FOR TERRY JR. IM SOBBING IM SOBBING

- “I eat mop” hahaha very funny

- “You seem nice” “no. I’m a bad girl” something something the symbolism of Dood adoring the Bad Girl thing and Scary only wanting to do what’s right now and wanting to redeem herself, but Dood still caring and loving being a Bad Girl

- “Terry kept saying he was proud of me, but he never met me when I was someone to be proud of” 💔 you don’t need to be something special to be proud of that’s why Terry loved you (sobbing sobbing sobbing screaming throwing up good god)

- Hell cops eyyyyy Jodie Foster

- I can’t believe Linc wants to steal the ambulance

- Remember when Linc wrote letters to the firefighter’s families? So do I.

- THEY’RE FIGHTING GOOD GOD

- “I AM JELOUS I DON’T HAVE ANY COOL DYNAMICS WITH ANYBODY” Normal oh god oh dear oh boy

- Teeny The Teen Normal

- “OH THAT’S FUN!!”

- “It’s impossible not to look in a mirror…” LINC ANGST OH GOD

- The teens trying to cheer Normal up <3333333

- Ron’s back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Whoooo

- That metaphor is really really good for Scary I really like that

- WHY ARE TERRY AND GLENN FIGHTING OMG WTF JESUS

- OH WAKT MAYBE BECAUSE TERRY WAS PART OF THE REASON NICKY LOST HIS LIMBS!?!!??

- All in all this is one of my favorites this season. There was so much angst I adored this :> I cannot wait to see what happens with Normal and Scary

[jakexneytiri]

MR KRABBSSS (in a singsong voice)

HAVE YOU HEARD???? I MUST KNOW HAVE YOU HEARD???? THEYRE RELEASING NEW AVATAR FUNKOS SOON INCLUDING RECOM QUARITCH, LO'AK, JAKE AND NEYTIRI!!!! U KNOW IM BOUTA BE FIGHTING CHILDREN FOR THEM IN THE STORES (in an aggressive, screaming voice) (hence the all caps)

-🦀mr krabs anon

YESSSS BUT WHERE ARE THE REST OF THE CHILDREN??

[minquiec]

A bit of the song analysis from Paalam, Leonora by Sugarcane

- "Ngayon lang nakadama ng wagas na pagkamangha, hiling ko lang naman"

Translated to:

"I only had experienced the feeling of being speechless, my only wish was."

KEYWORD "WAS"

= I get the impression that guy has only experienced being so speechless by a girl, like this girl is the only one who made him feel so breathless and stunned. (Like inspired by your "why hobie fell for jia" lore)

YET, he has to let go, because in the end their love was not meant to last. Their love couldn't wasn't strong enough to fight fate. She had came to terms with her spider senses and found courage and hope

She found hope while he lost his.

It's giving them y'know 💔

NO CAUSE THATS LITERALLY IT IM THROWIJNGJR UP

cause genuinely their love was impossible from the start bc of the whole 'we from diff universes' thing and I've seen these two quotes that absolutely kill me cause

JUST READ THEM AND ULL SEE WHAG I MEAN

They actually make me so sick im honest to god bouta lose my mind

IK IM THE CREATOR OF THIS WHOLE THING BUT what kills me is that before the day jia had gone thru her breakdown was the last day they ever slept tgt (not in that way I mean Literally Sleeping) AND WHAT KILLS ME MORE WAS THAT

during the 3 minute reunion where Jia regained control, hobie would've had that brief moment of

'its gonna be okay, things will go back to normal, I won't let go again' (cause he got rlly sad when he spent that first night alone in ages)

THERE WAS A BRIEF PERIOD OF HOPE BUUTTT 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 AAAGGHHHH

Me acting like I didn't torture myself like this and actively making a decision to make this canon I can't stand myself ⚰️

I swear the opm songs I'm being introduced are gonna be the death of me cause I'm literally crying over them 🔥🔥🔥🔥 somebody please send help

[rotisseries]

so. after liam gwts in the hunt, theo joins the  fight with scott. crazy how liam has a gf in all this. if shws ur girl why am i putting my hand on her seat to reverse. if shes your girl then why is she my salavation, why is she the one that helps me understand true good. if shes your girl than why is she the only one who understands me 🧐 . plot details. scott meets douglass down at the diverter. douglass brings the ghost riders behind him as an army and they surround scott and hes like "you of all people scott, should know what happens to a lone wolf" big theme of teen wolf is that wolves dont survive without a pack. theyre hunted,easily bc theres no one to protect them. they have no one. (ahem. theo) scott bouta lunge but then THEO GOES "he's not alone! he's got a pack." ans because we can never give theo a break, malia quickly says "and theo's not in it"  now the poor dude looks embarrassed. anyway they get the fightin🤞🏼 they eventually gets to the diverter and the train moves on  from beacon hills and order is restored and the ghost riders put their guns away and walk off . and douglass is like ????? COME BACK AND KILL THEM and theo, my beloved, sees him struggling and goes "yeah call your army back. or..dont they listen to you?" please. anyway douglass gets taken by the hunt and becomes a ghost rider. and we dont see theo after that. . disappears probably told to get lost after the fight. 6B starts up after summer break. theo isnt in the first episode as expected. liam is feeling really sad and depressed about being captain and about scott and stiles and lydia and malia leaving. and also about hayden moving "im nothing without her" liam please. and mason was like "its not like she dumped u or anything" but i mean they dont mention her again so might as well. and hes like "scotts leaving too😣" and mason is like "going to college is NOT leaving. its called growing up and we're all gonna be going to different colleges eventually" and mind you this conversation is happening while mason and his bf corey get liam dressed for lacrosse practice because the dude doesnt wanna move . anywah corey goes "wait i thought we were both applying to ucla?" AND LIAM GOES 😨YOU GUES ARE GOING TO THE SAME COLLEGE . putting him deeper in the depression. and mason like "thats not the point" and liam goes "what is the point😞" and hes like "summers almost over we're about to be seniors and this is about to be the best year of our entire lives and" mason and corey are dragging him out the locker room "youre captain of the lacrosse team so come onn" (btw theo is like a year older than liam i guess?) hes late for practice btw when this is happening.

liam is so dramatic he's just like me fr

[unabashedly-faulty]

I am afraid to even love my friends. No im afraid to not be heard and seen by my friends and say how I feel and then be rejected. Ahhhhh. I see.

Babygirl. Thank you for sharing that with me. Who are you?

I am Ren.

Well welcome Ren. Do you know where you are?

Not really I just know the nice but loud man scared me.

How old are you?

Idk I’m just little.

Did someone scare you like this before? Someone that was nice?

Idk

Well listen to me little one. Do you know I’m you? Think of me as your big sister. I will always keep you safe and stand up for you. I will speak to him. He doesn’t understand or believe in our existence yet. I hope he will because our other friend has. But it’s okay if he doesn’t. He’s also growing and learning from his own traumas. And I know how that is. But know that I won’t standby and let anyone hurt our feelings.

Wait. You’re the dragon????? Oh my sweet girl. That makes sense. Nah I’m bouta cry. Fuck. The things you’ve seen and experienced. Is it time ? Is the vault coming undone?

Of course my rage is what covers my childhood pain. The rage that comes from never allowing anyone to infringe upon my rights and feelings. To hurt me. I used to be afraid of the dragon because she caused problems but that was because I was a people pleaser and afraid of the world around me and retaliation. But everytime the dragon came out she was on point. She pinpointed abuse. She demanded accountability and she caused problems. She was loud. And eloquent. Beautiful truly. A force to be reckoned with. I’m sorry. I don’t understand. I do now. Thank you Dragon. Alanza? The one who fights for freedom and justice. Of course you’re in here too. And Frantic the holder of all trauma within our nervous system. I think Frantic is outdated. Let’s work on a new title. Thank you all for keeping me safe. Truly. Thank you for showing me all the ways you helped me and got me out of unsafe environments even when you didn’t know what made it unsafe. You just knew it was causing us pain and did something about it. That’s so beautiful tbh. Because like the body keeps the score. And so many abused humans are being painted as the problem when they’re being triggered by the abusers.

Support group yesterday was good but tough. Unmasking Abusers was the topic. And that was where I was at. Learning the truth about this man. Which made the littles so scared it felt like mine. They finally realized he was acting. My son is stuck there. I don’t want to scare him this much. When he gets older I’ll help him understand. For you little ladies it is time.

The man you thought would keep you safe and advocate for you was acting. The man that you wanted hugs from when you cried was acting. The man that made you tear and sandwiches, was acting. The man that showed your son how to tie his shoes, was acting. That is the same man that raped us in our sleep. That is the same man that drugged us continuously under the guise it would help out chronic pain and ptsd symptoms. This is why we were so scared to smoke in a state that MJ was not legal in. Then low thc oil was approved and he used that to sedate you. He was acting. He mimicks. Anti social personality disorder. It is a trauma disorder. I would like to clarify before I continue that I am in no way sympathizing with this man, our empathy is great and it factors in facts. It does not mean we care about this man even though he has abused us gravely. It means we see human beings for what and who they are when they harm, people in pain who never got love. Does not mean it is our job to love him or anyone else into healing. We are not defined by whether we can fix or heal another. That is their job. They can obtain help but it is their job to do so. We do not save others. We save ourselves and our children. Now pay attention so we may be able to discern moving forward. There will be times when adult me isn’t present to do so and I will need you to know how to detect abuse. Getting triggered by others force out certain parts and well I need us all to have the same information so I’ll need your help to pass this information within the system. If you cannot speak it, send images of what I teach you. Show the images in our mind right now or replay this moment. The brain will help you. Ask it to. You come from her after all.

It is within human nature to heal and to harm. As it is in all nature. Abuse is the removal of love which is the birthplace of trauma. Anyone that does not love will not change and grow. When they are not strong in will within self, they cannot love themselves enough to hold themselves accountable by holding space for their shameful behaviors and self images, they will turn to the only behavior they have been taught. Abuse. We are in the Ununited states of America. Abuse is their way of life. It’s their culture. They’re bonfire topic without them even knowing it. They believe that if they got over it then it wasn’t a big deal. They means many in this instance. Too many that it is a problem that is taking lives.

When you look at the environment of someone who abuses you see abusers raised them. Some abuse is so heinous on a child’s psyche they develop personality disorders that are organic responses to an environment devoid of love. Of tenderness. Of kindness. That environment is made by abusive adults and their parents and so on and so forth. We’re living into a time where mental health is being understood. Trauma is being addressed and people are facing them selves and their past. The time of account. (Hey what if “God” meant this as the time of Christ. Holding people accountable. ) When a child is continuously abused and has the behaviors in their environments it will overwhelm their psyche. It forces their brain to go into survival mode. In an environment where it’s unsafe to feel they develop a mechanism detached from feeling. A way of surviving outwardly to stay safe in the ecosystem they’re stuck in. This man was abused by his mother, other women and neglected. It forces a brain to adapt and once that’s done it will build on top in every environment. It will mimick the behavior that helps it to hide. To fit in. To gain access to abuse in the way that was done to them. This man was abused by his mentally ill mother. Yes you were the perfect target for him to exact his revenge on his mother. You were a conduit of sorts. It is most unkind. I’m sorry. We went through something horrible. Very diabolical. He knew our dissociative parts. And his concern was an act. His learning about ptsd was an act. It’s not our fault that we thought he cared more than our ex husband about learning about our mental struggles. Your person is supposed to care about your pain. You didn’t know he was doing research to know how to better manipulate your psyche. You. It was an act. He didn’t care. People can fake feelings. It’s all a chemical reaction. When they activate it in you it’s easy for you not to recognize they’re not feeling at all.

Thank you all for showing me your pain so I could advocate for you and honor my body in its turmoil. Yes we thought he was respecting when we told him not to touch us in our sleep because it triggered my flashbacks from being molested as a teen, from being raped in the military, remembering all of them. We felt so loved that he stopped when we said to. But he didn’t. It was an act. People act. I’m not sure yet how we will determine if someone is acting but we will learn and figure it out. Remember what the video said. Anything in excess is not normal. Gifts. Time. Energy. Protection. Taking over things for you. Implanting themselves in your life. We were very vulnerable and also experienced disabled persons abuse. Where someone saw our disabilities and stepped in to control our entire life. It felt nice and safe because no one has ever cared about us so we didn’t have anything to compare it to. My mom was not a lover. She was a damn soldier. So when this person was tender to us it felt nice and safe but it was an act. ACT. IT WAS AN ACT.

It was an act. And that is the problem isn’t it. It hurts I know. Your entire reality is upturned. You least though he felt something for you despite the pain he’s caused. That somewhere in there was the Marcus that you knew. It was an act. He needed you to feel like you knew him so you would ride for him. He thougth you would ride for him after everything you shared with him. He thougth you would run back to him Alile. It is an insult to your kindness and intelligence. I’m sorry my love. You can be smart and still be manipulated. It does not discriminate. These people know how the mind and body works and how to activate chemical reactions in your body to manipulate, groom and coerce you. It was an act.

You however were not an act. That is your power. That is your power. You could not see that. He saw your power. He saw that you did.l not see it. My love you must see it. Do not be afraid. Do not be afraid. It is YOU. You that loves. You that cares. You that makes sure the people in your life know that they matter. Those smiles the had to smile and will always be in their brains associated with you. The behavior he mimicked from you will torment him for the rest of his life. You are his accountability. You will forever be in his head holding him accountable because that is what we did. It may not age been you Alile but it was Alanza and Marigold and they have our face. So it is you too. Step into us with them. Lean on their power as they lean on yours. You’re apart of this system on many. Many parts of one whole. Step in this dome babygirl. Get your ass in here. We love you. We honor you. We know your pain. We hold space for you. We will protect you. Ren.

What a journey it is to learn who I am. Ren is Alile but younger. We must build REN’s self esteem and heal her trauma. That is the core. What is holding Alile back which affects our ability as a whole to hold accountability in this area. The root. The vault. The childhood sexual abuse and neglect. Who it hurt. Ren. Alile. All of us really or we wouldn’t exist.

[lorestory0]

i do these things where while i am playing video games i like to use imagination to play as whatever anime character i currenly like at the time. i was playing rune factory 5.

for anyone who dont know about rune factory (very plentiful it seems) its a game where the player gets amnesia, wanders into a town somehow, becomes a farmer, fights monsters n stuff, epic conflict having to do with a dragon of some kind. basically that.

the amnesia thing. before i played i had to see in my mind how shadow would have wandered into a town with amnesia and stuff and maybe make him weaker somehow to explain the not being overpowered.

i started at a time when my headphones broke. id been without music for a while and was forced to listen to all the painful noises of the world around me and also have to deal with whatever annoying song was stuck in my head. my computer doesnt play sound without headphones. its bad enough to have no ear cover to deal with the noises but i had to deal with 'let it go' suddenly showing up out of nowhere

so i was under the influence of pain.

im not sure what all happened in the imagination i was doing. it was kind of a blur but i have a general idea of what happened enough to have some storyline going. idk if its anything too weird or not but my broken humor is being affected by it.

and normally i dont have reasons to tell people about all the aus that exist only in my mind but this time.

since i found out i could play some game with shadow in it like actually and without me having to use imagination, i found in the game theres actually a thing where i get to see shadow actually get amnesia. i saw this way after already starting rune factory.

he got thrown on a rock and hit his head. later i found out he intentionally gave himself amnesia but it doesnt make the following things i am about to say any less funny.

the way he got amnesia was so simple. just a rock hit.

but since shadow is really strong, my mind doing the thing was going to do something more drawn out and complex.

bouta drop a phrase that might be one of the most amusing story openers i have ever seen. (and anyone who knows this anime might agree that its funny)

Sherry created a bio weapon.

somehow shadow managed to get hit by it.

makes skin all goopy but he somehow healed himself and ran away but hes in a daze. living out in the wilderness slowly losing his mind because of some effects he did not able to heal.

no one could find him. even delta.

now he more like a wild animal.

at some point something happens where he is able to think again but he has no memories and is still just wandering around before ending up in some forest. rune factory 5 begins.

the funniest thing about this is how very different it is from a way he actually got amnesia canonnically (pretty sure i heard somewhere the shadow game is canon)

extra info about the imagination for the ultra curious

(liking to see the drama around a fave character getting hurt. thats probably not normal but since getting on tumblr i have found i am not the only one at least)

some other people got hit by the bioweapon.

no one knew where shadow went but eta or someone was studying the symptoms of some other people that got hit.

even if the skin turning to goo was healed it was discovered that they still lose their mind.

simple healing potion is enough to cure it but the next thing still happens regardless. and if someone is too out of their mind to get a healing potion they die hhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

even after the healing potion the amnesia stays

shadow somehow managed to survive anyway but no one has to know sdfbsjfbnjksfnafkhnaf

a third and final thing happens if someone dont get the healing potion. they split into 2 (???) and 1 has the memories and the other doesnt. if both are let live, both wither away. one has to die(idk i was tired, bored, and in pain)

shadow, in the middle of nowhere, experiences this. but the one with the memories is overpowered easily because the one without memories somehow had perfectly perfected instincts.

the bioweapon only removed most of someones magic to the point where someone would still have the teeniest tiniest amount left but even tho shadow could still use magic even like that, it was no match for this overpowered "monster" and even tho at first he tried to fight because it makes more sense for the one with memories to survive, he knew it made less sense for them both to get fatal injuries so he let himself get kill by the unthinking, but he used the last of his magic to at least bring the other back to his senses so he could probably find a healing potion or something.

coming back to his senses gave him less of the perfectly perfected animal like instincts and stuff so the weakness meant he might be not as good at fighting especially with the amnesia but shadow was like "the eminence in shadow wouldnt be a mindless killing machine that kills anyone that moves. dont do that. go back to normal."

a dead body was left behind for someone to find tho sjfnbjfnssfnskfnknvsnf