#im an organ donor and registered marrow donor

[applejee]

home from the blood bank and i wonder…….

[disneycophater]

Not to go off but, i want to talk about my struggle of being in recovery of my ED and genuinely wanting to help people. I signed up to "be a match" because i heard that most people with leukemia usually die because they cant find a bone marrow match for transplant. So being an organ donor, and regular blood donor. I was like,"oh yeah cool sick af, no problem" because they send u everything and it's generally easy. But this, is a major thing, you have to constantly be under a specified weight. The thing that struck me the most with this, is there's no minimum weight either. Someone could be 5'7 and weigh 90 pounds, have anorexia, and theyd do it. But if me, a generally healthy, active person, weighs just over 200, it's done, that person's death is on me because doctors won't do it. Not because there's any risk to the reciever, no no no, because it's a risk to me. Which would be valid, but the risks are so low, and again IT HAS 0 RISKS FOR THE RECIEVER. But the reciever would still be told no, and probably die waiting for another match because I couldnt keep off 1-2 pounds and i know the risks and im okay with it.

This was especially triggering to me and specifically frustrating to me, because any time i visit a doctor, where they calculate the bmi for u, i look and im like,"haha only 10 more pounds and i have to remove myself from the registry". Which is triggering because then i subounciously go into a starvation mode. Or overwork myself at the gym, to the point where i hurt myself. It's frustrating as all hell and it genuinely sucks because you want to help someone and then a doctor is like ... "hm, ur two pounds too fat, this person has to die now, sucks for them lol. 🤷🏻‍♀️"

My point being, if your under 40 bmi fucking register. I know so many fat people who donate regularly, but so few skinny people who do and it doesnt make any sense bc ur not discriminated against for ur weight at all. You have everything and choose to never give back? Like hello?

Also another side, black people regularly die at higher rates of leukemia and other curable diseases that bone marrow transplants could save them from. Because the amount of donors is far less, and i just want yall to consider that maybe that weight discrimination thing ... has a little something to do with it. 👀