#im always willing to help but not every lolita or every lolita space wants to help beginners or even talk to other lolitas

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I don’t even remember bc it’s been so long. I was really into anime when I was younger and probably found a book about Japanese street fashion. I was obsessed with both gal and lolita, but personally lolita was easier since gal required makeup skills lol.

I really love that lolita essentially adapts historical clothing for modern day. I have always loved frilly clothes and lolita to me was a version that was easier to wear than actual historical clothing and it was cute too. I do still want to get into historical costuming one day. I also really like how clothing quality is valued and how secondhand is an important part of the comm. After learning more about garment manufacturing, I avoid buying low quality clothing new unless it’s secondhand. Even then, I’ll avoid Shein or Forever 21 secondhand. I also like how committed we are to documentation of media and clothes. It’s rare to find jfashions this well-documented.

I think what I dislike the most is the recent fast fashionification of it lately. It’s somewhat disheartening to see people get into lolita because they saw a really nice, super themed coord and immediately want to start there instead of trying to build a wardrobe with pieces that can be mixed and matched. Or buying pieces that are low quality just because it looks good in photos but the construction of the dress isn’t great. There isn’t really a way to shortcut lolita and especially dislike when I see people try to get several low-quality dresses instead of saving/waiting/creating something better. It’s def not a new thing per se, but I’d hate for the fast fashion attitude of “it’s cheap, why not buy it” and “it’s cheap and is easily replaceable” to become the norm. I’m worried it’ll lead to brands making even lower quality clothing to compete with cheaper or low quality clothes. I think the fast fashionification also leads to a lot of people coming into lolita spaces without lurking, which leads them to not understanding the community and its culture and clashes happen as a result.

I wear mainly classic lolita and simple sweet lolita. I do love the 2010s ott style, but I’d rather have non-print pieces that are easier to mix and match and wear casually. That’s my personal style, which I’ve been trying to translate into my lolita wardrobe.

To any Lolita who happens to pass my blog, or you follow it I got a few question for you.

I'm curious about the egl community on tmblr and I wanna know more about you guys.

•What got you into the Lolita/Egl fashion ?

•What do you love most about it?

•What do you hate/dislike about it?

•What style do you do?

I'm genuinely curious about what you guys might have to say, so lemme know🥰

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may i request for hcs on how the ouran boys will act when they start to have / act around their crush? 👉👈

Yes! Sorry it took a bit, I’m currently on vacation and I’m not feeling the best. I’m also not the best at writing Honey so if my hc seems inaccurate with his character, Im sorry. But I hope you like it anyway!!☺️

Tamaki Suoh

Tamaki is the type of person that will fall in love easily, and consequently, he falls hard

Surprisingly when he sees you, he’s flustered and doesn’t know what to say

Especially when you’re doing something adorable

Well, everything you do Tamaki finds adorable

He figured that since he was a natural flirt, he would be able to flirt with you

Oh he was wrong

Stuttering mess™

“H-hi, Y/N! Y-you look... very p-pretty today!”

You smiled, replying with: “Thank you.”

‘That’s it? I was sure she would’ve gone crazy over that like other girls would’

You were not like other girls

Still had you freaking out on the inside though

Back to Tamaki

Tamaki follows you around like a puppy

He likes to walk you to your classes, carry your books, etc

Lowkey asks Kyoya to find out your interests for him (Kyoya already did a long time ago)

Once he knows what you like, he will constantly talk about it, in hopes it’ll make you interested in him

Overall, Tamaki overloves

Not like that’s a bad thing :)

Kyoya Ootori

It’s already hard enough for Kyoya to acknowledge friendship

So you REALLY have to be special for him to even THINK about acknowledging his feelings for you

Which you are

Kyoya already has tabs on you

He knows EVERYTHING

Seriously

Like he knows EVERYTHING

Don’t doubt his skills

Anyway, he’s way more chill than Tamaki about it

Kyoya is sort of mellow and doesn’t really talk much (not as much as Mori though)

But he finds himself slowly coming out of his comfort zone and talking to you

Casually brings up your interests (that he found out a LONG time ago)

Sometimes you wonder about the things he says

Did I ever even tell him about that?

No you didn’t, Kyoya is just really nosy about everyone  

Once he battles out the inner voices in his head, he FINALLY decides that he should acknowledge his feelings

And his walls finally come down

Who knew someone like you would be able to do that to him?

He’s glad it was you

Hikaru Hitachiin

Hikaru is very stubborn and REFUSES to acknowledge his feelings for you

It’s like Kaoru said in Karuizawa: Hikaru does care about you, he just doesn’t know how to react and so his emotions run wild

He’s very hot and cold with you at times

It also takes him some time (and long talks with his brother) for him to come to the conclusion that he has a crush on you

His thoughts are always consumed by you

He dreams of you every night

Sometimes he has nightmares that if he keeps up his act, you’re gonna hate him

And that’s when he finally realized that acting this way probably will make his chance with you slim to none

So he’s more careful with how he acts and how he talks around you

Not like he completely changed himself, but he’s better with his emotions

Still has that charm tho

He ALWAYS stares at you in class and daydreams

You always return the glances with a smile and it makes him internally freak out

He finally learned how to accept someone into his world, and that not all people are bad

And it’s you who he needs to thank for that

Kaoru Hitachiin

Kaoru is baby

He still is stuck in the mindset of no one ever telling him and Hikaru apart

But that all changed when he talked to you away from Hikaru

It was the simple words of “Hey Kaoru” that helped him fall for you

The simple act of knowing the difference between he and Hikaru opened up his eyes to a whole new world

A world where it’s not just him and his brother

You changed his perspective on life

So from that day forward, he was willing to do anything to keep you in his life

But that wasn’t the only reason

He loved you for YOU

The way your nose scrunched when that pretty laugh of yours flew out of your mouth when he told you a joke

The way you twirled a strand of your hair as you spaced out into your own little world in class

And especially the way your eyes sparkle when the sunlight came through the window at the perfect angle

Kaoru is the definition of a simp

He buys you lunch sometimes and sits with you everyday

He offers you a ride home everyday and makes sure you get into your home safe every single time

Kaoru is just a shy but loving person

Only for you though

Takashi Morinozuka

I have the feeling that Mori is kinda like Tamaki in a way

Referring to the “fall fast and fall hard” part

What made him develop a crush on you is you were like him

Which made him feel like he was understood and not a loner

Obviously Honey knew before he did

But Mori is super secretive about it though

Mori strikes me as a LOWKEY simp

Like he didn’t go out of his way, but he treats you like how he would treat Honey

He always protects you and is there for you

He’s always making sure you are okay

Like always

Mori also starts to come out of his comfort zone

He starts to talk a lot more

Not TOO much though because he’s Mori

But you definitely had a huge effect on him

Mitsukuni Haninozuka

He fell in love with you so fast it’s kinda scary

At first you were a client of his

But he noticed as time went on, you didn’t treat him like other girls did

Yes, Honey likes cute things and acts as though he were a kid, but he didn’t really enjoy being TREATED like one

Just because he likes those things and had to suppress it for a long time because of his continuation of his family’s karate legacy, doesn’t mean he didn’t want to be treated like a teenager

So when you first talked to him he was head over heels in love with you

All you said was “Hey Honey, how was your day today? Didn’t the test today suck? I didn’t study at all, I totally failed.”

Back to honey

He is a HARDCORE simp

Kept up his Lolita boy act though

He offers you a slice of cake ALL THE TIME

When you’re upset, he offers you Usa-Chan to help you feel better

He even MAKES you a cake sometimes, JUST for you

Overall, Honey is very giving and the little things are what matters to him

-Admin Maddie

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THAT SOUNDS AWESOME can you tell us anything that happens after that? Do Assistant Lila and SE Saeran get better together? Does she continue to live with the rest of them for a while? What's the living arrangement like? How does everyone get along? I know Seven proposes to MC, do Lila and Saeran get married? Do they make a garden? Does Lila continue to do lolita after all that? Does she help with Sevens toy store, or does Saeran start a flower shop with her? Im out of space for questions now.

Oh. If you guys like Assistant Lila AU enough, I’d be more than happy to actually write it out into a short length fic because I wasn’t sure if people would want that one tackled. I think it would make for a great five-chapter mini-story compared to the other Bad Ending fics I have that are one-shots. 

Saeyoung would extend his roof to Lila as long as she wanted. She felt far more safe with them than she did any place else. He’s not going to let the woman that helped his brother escape get far away. She’s as much family to him as Saeran is now. She will take his offer, for sure. 

I do believe that SE Saeran and Lila would handle their relationship differently than how MC and Seven handle their own. That’s not to say that they wouldn’t cement their relationship. Saeran and Lila started out in the wrong place, and some of their dynamic needs some working on. They need to really work on themselves so they don’t rush into their relationship as quickly as one would expect them to do. 

It’s hard for both of them. He needs to learn how to open up and talk about his problems, and she needs to learn how to let him speak his grief without trying to fix everything on her own.

Back at Mint Eye, their interactions were always a rush of emotion. Saeran would always get worked up and Lila would smooth down his fears. A lot of that was physically based. They’re very tactile, no matter the timeline they’re living in. Certain lingering touches would bring back memories of that place, and not all of them are good. Even something small as a hug can mess with Saeran’s head; He’ll often remember things that he did or things that he said to hurt her back there, and the guilt will eat at him because Lila can’t remember a lot of those early events.

Although, as hard as it may be sometimes, Lila and Saeran don’t want to let go of each other. Some think that it may be too quick for them to be in such close quarters but Seven disagrees, as does the MC. They deserve to be happy after all they went through these past few years. When they have a hard day, they always turn to each other and try to work out the grief and pain. They make more progress together then they did in their personal therapy, so, nobody can deny that they’re better-kept together. 

They’re always with each other, no matter what happens. You will always see Lila and Saeran stuck together like glue. Typically, holding hands, as that’s the most simple and smallest form of grounding they have. The dissociation and derealization can be a real issue at times so being able to grasp at the other if a fit happens is crucial. Saeran still has his struggles and being out of Mint Eye doesn’t just fix everything, and Ray is known to pop in every now and again. 

He wasn’t just pounded and erased away, he was just dormant and pushed into the abyss after the so-called Savior pushed for the “stronger” alter to exist on top. Lila, Seven, and the MC are really the only people that he trusts enough to disclose that information. So, time from time, Ray will slip out and there will be another hard day. 

But, it’s manageable. It just takes time. 

Reluctantly, both of them are known to join the RFA messenger every now and again. They’re honorary members, they don’t have to get involved in the parties but they’re apart of this huge found family too, so, they get to see and humanize these people that they didn’t know personally before. 

It’s easier for Lila so she is on more often than Saeran, but he can always read over her shoulder if he wants. She strikes up a good friendship with everyone in the chatroom over time, but there’s no denying that she’s close to both Jumin and V, which is a real surprise since she was the wariest of those two and the power they had. V is forever grateful for her sacrifice and it’s thanks to Lila that Saeran would one day be able to make up with V. It’s easy to talk to Jumin as he’s so matter of fact, and she loves a good deep conversation about anything normal, and he provides that. 

 Now that we’ve cleared that up, we can get to the knitty-gritty. Lila comes from a family of florists if you didn’t know, and she’s very experienced in flower life and care, and that’s part of the reason why Saeran wanted to choose her in the first place because she reminded him so much of who he used to be. Saeran wanted to be able to live that life. So, they do build a garden together, after all, it was one of their shared dreams. 

They put a lot of work into it too, and it really helps them. It’s just for the two of them. A world where they’re safe, and together. They don’t have to share that with everyone. 

And actually, when Saeyoung sees how much it helps his brother to be able to be outside and to do what he always wanted, it makes him shift his dream from a toy shop to a place where both brothers have something to work towards. You know what that means? Dual shop! Dual shop! A place where people can come to have fun both inside and outside. One side is a cute homemade toy store and the other is a greenhouse. 

A place where all four of these people that came together; Saeran, Saeyoung, MC, and Lila can spend their days in comfort and having fun providing joy to others. There’s no denying that everyone will stay close to each other, there’s safety in found family and this one means a lot. 

It’s at that point months later that Saeyoung would want to propose to his MC, officially. He does it. It’s sweet and touching and every bit as lovely as you could imagine. 

Saeran is happy for him and MC, although he’d never admit that out loud, he is not opening that basket with his brother again. He’s surprised though that Lila is so sentimental about it when they’re talking to each other later that night in bed as they’ve never talked about this before. She admits, although feeling rather silly about it, that she did love the idea of marriage. She just loved that there was something that could show how much you loved somebody with such a small gesture. She didn’t want to put labels on things or make Saeran feel obligated to do anything.

It was kind of funny to Saeran in a way too. They were already living together and doing everything together that married couples did. They didn’t have to get “married” to prove anything to people. They stayed together this long and after she was willing to risk for him, he knew she was his first, his last, the only love of his life. So, with the help of the others, he cooks up a little plan for Lila to see her smile. 

She basically spends one day with most of the RFA doing all sorts of things that she’s been wanting to do since getting out of Mint Eye and by the end of it, she comes home to find Saeran in the garden, alone. His gesture to her isn’t done in front of others, they’re alone for a reason. He just got them to distract her for him without saying why. He doesn’t need to show everyone how much he loves her for her to know it. They already know how they feel. So, he does surprise her with a ring. 

Ceremonies and planning and people... it’s all too much. It’s fun and good for MC and Seven but it’s not for them. That’s just not what either of them wants. They just want something simple. They just want each other. With this ring, they can still have a piece of each other no matter where they are. It’s pretty mushy and sweet. That’s all they need. This is all they’ve ever wanted from each other in the first place.  

Needless to say, everyone is shook when Lila and Saeran come around and suddenly she’s sporting a new accessory too. They’re a little confused and perplexed. Saeran is nonchalant and manages to crack his first joke, “Oh? You didn’t know? Must have forgotten to mention it, we eloped.” 

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Grandson's Love

"Lolita look I have something for you!"

My little boy hurriedly ran towards my direction and hugged me tightly.

"Oh, little boy. What is it?" I asked him. a little boy brought out a paper and give it to me.

"Here my teacher asked me to make a poem and  I dedicate it to you, Lolita" He said sweetly, I didn't know what to feel. I was really lucky to have my one and only grandchild.

I was about to read the poem silently when my grandchild interrupted me.

"Lolita can you read it loud for me.?" He requested.

As I read the poem, my little boy kept staring at me until we had reached the end.

"Sorry If wasn't able to finish it lolita, our teacher asked the class to submit it already whether we are finish or not ." He explained and I tapped his head

"Oh, boy"

I used calling him by that name even though his name Jake, is far from little boy but his really cute that I compare to little boy. " I understand and truly appreciate it even your only a kid, I already admire you." I help his little hand and guided him to dining table.

"But lolita I promise to finish it for you Lets it"

This what I love the most he has attitude of being contented on what he has. He understood that I couldn't give him same way of living like the other kids are used to.

*******

"Lolita!!!"

He excites me already just by calling me in energetic way. Like what he used to do after his school,he would ran and hugg me tightly.

"Little boy how's school?"

I know that he was second grade already but I couldn't avoid asking him that same question every now and then. And I love the way he finds it sweet.

"I know you'll asked me that. You know what lolita I slept while the class for the first time" he told me while he was laughing. I couldn't help but to laugh too.

"Really? thats amazing boy. Are you tired for you to sleep at school? How are you feeling?" I put the  back of my palm on his forehead, just checking if he was ill.

"Naaaaaah I'm fine lolita, I just read a lot and Got sleepy at the same time." Then he kissed me on my cheek. "Don't worry I'm not sick... I think we should start packing our products now to bring them to market, early tomorrow.

We got little space at market where we sell our vegetables and fruits that planted at our backyard. He always helped me when he was free usually before he goes to school. For a fourth year student. I admire him because he could manage his time to school and at our house.

He would be in college this year, so I need to double my effort and time to save money so he could be able to continue his studies in college. Everyone expected that his going to a valediction and he was. If ever he would be granted of full scholarship for his chosen course and when I asked him what his chosen course,  he answered me...

"I want to be a doctor, so when you get ill I'm the one who will take charge of your health"

Sixty nine  was old enough. But believe me when I say I haven't experience yet any serious illness, its because of my dedication I know I'm weak but I need to be strong for my grandson. Especially when this day came...

It was midnight when I entered my grandson room. I went to wake him up to take his vitamins. I missed my boy so much his beside me but I could feel that he wasn't.

Summer season, after his graduation, after his long speech which he dedicate to me, after our little celebration. He became ill I hate seeing him like that, His nosebleed and also his gums. He cant eat or even drink . I would rather want to see myself experiencing like that than seeing him suffering.

It was already one month after his graduation when we found out he has this disease. When I asked him why he didn't tell me. He only one said "I dont know what my illness lolita but I can feel that their is something wrong inside me, but I ignored it lolita. I'm so sorry lolita"

He had a incurable leukemia. A cancer in blood. The doctor said that there is no cures discovered for this kind of illness.

Jake parents died in car accident seventeen

years ago. Jake was still a baby that time, And when they die, I promised to them that I'll take care of jake.

"Lolita?Can I ask favor to you?" We were at hospital that time, the doctor demanded that the patient needed to bea hospital. I held his hand and smile at him.

"Name it my boy" He spoke and moved weakly and slowly and It hurts me I see my only grandchild suffering like that.

"Please don't spend so much money for my illness." He started while crying.

"Lolita, please dont spend your savings for me. I know we should be spending that for my studies, But I think its impossible this time."

He held my hand tight even it was obviously difficult to his part. "You've been take care of me when I'm still baby until now.... and Im so thankful  for that. I studied hard to became doctor someday, and I will able to take care of you too. But forgive me lolita, If I will not able to achieve it We know that my illness has no cure, so please save your money to spend it when you're sick..... whe  you need it." Hearing those word from your grandchild breaks my heart.

I love my grandson even though.....

I do not have the strengh to work and earn money to bring him in private school. I only plants some vegetables and fruits at our backyard and sell them to earn a little for him. I am not perfect grandmother who can give whatever his grandchild wants. But I'm  the grandmother who's willing to protect and sacrifices everything for his grandson.

I'm willing to sacrifices myself so he can live but it was impossible. I live for more than sixty years now and his the only seventeen years old. I have already experience so many in my life but he wasn't yet. He has dream but now he wasn't able to reach it. I must be the one who was lying on the white bed, with those wires connected to machine just prolong the life of the patient.

She reached for a piece of paper and give it to me. "Lolita can you read it to me?" I remember the same words that he said that he made a poem for me. I started crying.

When I realized that this is the continuation of the poem he made for me.

"Please don't cry lolita. I wont leave you just because I already tired .... But I will leave you because I have to. Please guide take care of yourself, I will guide and guard you. I love you lolita!" Then he kissed me on the cheek. "While I'm giving my last testament to God. Please start reading the poem lolita."

I started reading the poem he made while he silently crying and slowly closing his eyes.

After reading his poem, I turned to my boy and gave his last hug. I hugged him like what I used to do when his running to me after school. I hugged him tightly but this time, not to welcome him but to say goodbye.

Jake has passed away. My boy....

I have nothing but I have the greatest value of a thing in this world, I have my little boy's love...... My grandson' Love