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Do you have anything you've been thinking on but just haven't made a post about it yet? Also I'm really enjoying your fic!
I have a few things but it's likely mostly headcanons that I consider somewhat disconnected from my analysis.
Curly's parents had him old, only child, died shortly after he graduated and got the pony express position. It was the last big thing they saw him do which is a reason he stayed for so long.
Doesn't admit how much their death affected him
Jimmy has a largish family. One of the cases of too many kids to keep tract of, parent never really noticed any of them nor their behaviors
Anya lived in a lot of houses growing up, regular supportive family that just struggled to support themselves.
Became a nurse largely to avoid their financial struggles but mostly because she felt too many people weren't being cared for and advocated for in the world properly
Swansea likes high top sneakers most. Likes how snug they fit and how they shield his ankles at work
Curly has a bit of a caffeine problem since he canāt sleep. Can occasionally be found wandering the ship at ānightā when he had some too late or just couldnāt sleep.
Daisuke knows a little about a lot of things. Starts conversations with ādid you knowā a lot but please donāt ask him deeper questions
Curly has known Jimmy longer but has worked with Anya and Swansea longer, met them during his middle years, met Jimmy shortly before college.
Swansea rents a house, Daisukeās family lives in a big nice apartment, Curly has a condo, Anya live in a small one bedroom apartment and Jimmy has a studio.
Curly's home is very disconcerting. It's too normal to a like uncanny degree.
Anya is ambidextrous but prefers her left.
Anya and Curly are both not native English speakers so occasionally they forget words and bond over the mutual mocking they get from the rest of the crew. Daisuke knows some Japanese but is still learning, never picked it up as a kid
Only Swansea and Daisuke know how to drive, Earth in my mind is very post capitalist so only older people and like the extremely wealthy can afford cars.
It's also like walkable just due to how many businesses are in your face. Probably strict living vs shopping districts
I have more but the way that I headcanon about them is like too long.
#im still trying to figure out voiceclaims like I think Curly is the most generic lost his accent his accent like swedish or eastern european#guy cause he was raised by old immigrants and anya never had a thick accent but she talks with the cadence of one shes like slavic and east#asian to me. Swansea at most is like irish or italian but just an old white guy and Jimmy just has a bit of olivish skin like hes just whit#i think people should make them all weirder too like I think Anya loves showing the fucked up diagrams and pictures from premed and everyon#has to nod and act super supportive and not horrified cause Anya thats a guy with his leg broken in seven places it is not facinating to th#rest of the crew but she loves it cause fyi to go to med school you have to pass pre-med she has a BA if not a BS in nursing or bio atleast#Swansea randomly talks about shoe politics and its like hes talking about regular politics. Curly doesn't sleep walk but he pauses at weird#times or places and will just stand leave and not tell anyone anything cause even he forgot#Jimmy is himself ig and Daisuke always has some media drama they are too old for to get invested in and teach them about youth slang Anya#kinda gets it#also i think people make Curly and Jimmy way too old? Like In my mind Curly is sorta his late 20s- early 30s like he's in the settling#part of his life hence the fear about settling here anya is likel mid 20s to 30 cause she at least finished college we dont have the years#of how long shes been working and maybe Jimmy is just a bit older and feels weird envy about missing that introspection Curly is having.#Daisuke is like 19-22 in my mind like hes an adult but a kid by their standards#like Curly was recruited and its much easier to get younger people plus getting someone young is a good investment like they either got him#right after school and its like all he's known and it scares him#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#anya mouthwashing#curly mouthwashing#jimmy mouthwashing#swansea mouthwashing#daisuke mouthwashing#ask#anon
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sequel to this ramble cause the way james talks bout the reduced cherik scenes throughout the xmen films in this video is making me want to kill people. 'we'll always have paris darling' what if we all blew up.
#xmen#xmen first class#xmen dofp#xmen apocalypse#xmen dark phoenix#cherik#snap chats#im gonna be sick ive rewatched this like five times#IM STILL PISSED AWF AND THEN HEARING HIS COMMENTARY ABOUT IT OUUUUGGHHHH#OOOH WHAT IF I THREW ROCKS#LIKE WHAT THE HELL WAS CUT. aside from that gorgeous 'where are you doing' scene in first class ofc BUT WHAT ELSE#im forced to believe there was a make-up and/or hate sex scene in dofp because wdym they were worried about censorship#LIKE WHAT. WHAT DID THEY CUT. CAUSE CENSORSHIP OVERSEAS IS ONLY FOR EXPLICITLY QUEER THINGS INNIT#maybe paris can be our always i hate it here NO I LOVE HOW THE PARIS BIT IS EVEN /THEIR/ COPE#LIKE PLEAAAAASSE im throwing up. maybe if i draw cherik ill feel better#on the real its genuinely so sad. like even outside of shipping this is still art being reduced#and what we have is still good but the thought that it coudlve been BETTER ...#again their connection is already good from what we have in the final but just ... the lost emphasis of it all if that makes sense#ESPECIALLY outside of first class and dofp- like their relationship really is so sparse in DP and apocalypse its so sad#i think what makes it esp sad is how upset james is about the cut material like its so nice that hes so invested in their relationship too#and its just gotta be so. Excuse Me What when youre told 'hey so your characters cant having a deeper relationship or we're fucked'#'even though the relationship between these two is one of the most fascinating aspects of this generation of xmen films'#is it so hard to want to see like .. even just an intimate 'friendship'. like would it be so bad to see them be so heartfelt#or even just bein a bit silly. or hell ill take them fighting again ANYTHING I BEG YOU the humanity between them is so important#LIKE PLEASE im gonna cope and seethe forever i fear#and when he said 'i thought 'its probably the last time we get to do this to each other'' :((((((((((((((((((((( shoot me#at least we'll always have paris ....
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Waiting for the Night
Idw Megatron x Reader
No warnings! Gen reader!
Follow up to my earlier megs post, i think i want to start a series/collection on the lost light crew pit stopping on earth.
We always have fics of liaisons onboard the ship, but never how they met/the crew interacting with earth. Gonna have to be multiverse cause otherwise it dont make sense!! I wanted to do holoforms to make things linear, but if i shove it into multiverse maybe they can just not?? lmao??
i think i'll do little drabbles of each bot and their adventures??
Megs is gonna be the one with the singer/songwriter
loosely stole reader converting meg's poems' idea from @infintyfandoms!!
Earth, Kilocycle 2025 (tentative lmaaoo)
Lost light lands on earth for a quick refuel and sightseeing, (and hope Rodimus doesn't get into shit)
Megatron is rather uncomfortable about this whole thing as heās been on earth beforeā¦ and the fact he caused many issues on it.
As they approach earthās atmosphere, making contact with earth governments and space agencies.
The crewās excited.Ā
While the crew only carried Shanix, the governments of different countries are more than happy to start a bidding war over it. Creating a new form of a currency and by consequence, a new stock market over it.
Megatron's plan's are simple, do what they need to do, stay out of trouble.
Of course that never plays out, one thing after another, next thing you know, Rodimus is dragging them to a human concert.
You're a singer/songwriter, and here you are, on the latest tour. Last stop before the leg ends, tired but still very excited. How can you not! Seeing fans come out to support you -some of them even tagging along every city to view you perform.
What you didn't expect to have found at your concert were Cybertronians. It's been decades that Earth has accepted them as an intergalactic species. -The first ones to come in contact with your planet.
Regardless, performing for a different alien species was definitely not part of your bucket list. But! Definitely a welcomed one!
Rodimus only managed to score a few tickets, (he could have gotten more, but venue limits was not very happy about filling in the whole stadium with nothing but bots) (bring ur favorites ig)
(I'm slotting in rod/megs/drift/i want mags but i know he'll get a headache lMAAOO)
(wish i can bring blaster/soundwave/jazz/the ones still on cybertron -aka AU that shit where they are on lost light!!)
You and your band perform away. (I prefer band?? Could be solo artist too?? omg what if each band member gets their own little arc with a bot lmaaooo)
The bots spend their time sipping highgrade and enjoy the performance.
Megatron especially latched onto the lyrics.
Rodimus fucks with the drums and beat
Drift is vibing along, probably fucks with the lyrics as haikus and melody (can we get him a japan arc)
Ultra Magnus want's to die, but eventually warms up to it after a couple drinks and primus he is dancing away. (alternatively if its an outdoor venue and you want spicy, mf totally strips his armor lMAAOO)
Soundwave is 100% recording without consent
Blaster is actually enjoying and dancing away
While it's not like Cybertronians never had music or performances back on Cybertron, they were totally different from Earth's version. Top it off with millions of years of war, it basically was foreign. Besides, listening to songs for the first time live without prior knowledge is difficult. But not for Megatron. Something about the flow of the lyrics and melody drew him in.
It felt like a poem. A piece of writing animated into life, becoming an artform. One that's being presented in front of his very own optics.
Performance arts. As he was told. And now he understood why.
(insert his rambling and thoughts about xyz songs, i have not decided what songs/if i write my own shit lmaaoo someone analyze music with me from their perspective!!)
After the performance, you and your band are catching a break in the backrooms. (Can go several routes, either obsessive!megs rescans your tour bus and takes the form ((i seriously cant see it)) or through ~intergalactic~ powers with the governments or whoever, managed to secure vvip slots and manages to meet you)
You two hit it off. (Romantic or platonic i did not decide!!)
Spending the time Megatron has on earth discussing music, lyrics writing, songwriting, and poetry. You explain that Earth music is a very similar to poetry, Often starts off as that, incorporated into a melody. Or vice versa.
You also explain that Earth has several languages, and you often pull elements from them to combine them into a song.
Hearing this, Megatron was excited. Over the sort time, he's warmed up to you and wanted to share his writings with you, but being more on the reserved side, he didn't want to open himself up like that yet. (Yet you did lmao??) But hearing that you enjoy languages and analyzing works from all different places made him finally sheepishly share some of his writings. (Alternatively crack reader version, you scurry like a fucking raccoon and steal his works, i know i would)
You find his writing absolutely beautiful. Originally having him translate his works from Cybertronian into English, as time restrain never allowed you to learn the language.
You don't tell him, but you're already planning to convert his works into music. (Romantic divergence you write it just for him, platonic you perform it for everyone. Give him royalties!! Shanix is a proper currency now!! You start playing the Shanix market with profit from his share, saving it for next time he comes back.) (honestly even romantic route can be performed live, just when LL comes back again)
Ideally you keep in touch with him even when he's departed Earth and back on LL adventures. (If you want angst, we can make it not lmaoaoo)
You already spend plenty of time studying language and songs of the world, but paid extra attention to Cybertronian after this encounter. Wanting to understand the meeting behind his poems. As Cybertronian, is a complex language, a different system that's extremely versatile and open ended when it comes to context.
Spending time translating, and re-writing his thoughts into English, you eventually dedicate a song (or album if you won the right type of adhd ig)
Years later, the LL returns back (we ignore the fact LL timeline is a mess and has multiple alternate dimensions) and either from him keeping in touch with you, or because he hunted your band down with the ~world wide web~ you two reunite and you perform the song.
Album version would have the whole band performing, but special for this concert, you adjusted the set list to a ballad with only an either guitar/keyboard synth/piano version.
Megatron found the performance to be haunting. Even though he's in the farthest rows, vision isn't an issue for Cybertronians. A simple zoom and he can see everything up close. The way your lips tremble with each vibrato, the way you have your eyes closed as you keep on beat with your hands, even the way your voice nearly cracks and how you're choking back tears in the verses. Raw emotion. Emotion he never knew how to portray during his time as a Decepticon leader. Yet wanted to so badly since the days of a miner. He's finally found peace in his spark of what he meant.
Every verse and chorus was created with his writing. A powerful display of passion strung together from his words. One that his very spark flares to the beat of.
#my brother just started investing in stocks too like wtf?? why the fuck does an 18 year old have more money than me!!#this is nepo discriminations#i always felt like the word alien is derogatory ngl#i might just swap it to intergalactic or somthing#blame japan for that#everything i write is about songs isnt it... LMAAOO#hands in face crying#transformers#transformers x reader#transformers x human#megatron x reader#megatron x human#idw megatron#MTMTE#this isnt even a proper writing!! all these brackets of my thoughts oh my god!!!#WAIT IM TAKING LIBERTIES ON THE LANGUAGE!!#FROM WHAT I KNOW CYBERTRONIANS IN IDW IS ONE TO ONE ENGLISH SO IT DOESNT MAKE SENSE!! OOC!!#but mOVIES ITS ALL STATIC GARGLES SO LIKE!! GIVE ME A BRAEK!!#rambles#I HEAR WEIGHT OF THE WORLD!!! NIER!!#jp verison cause its so emotional!!#should title be weight of the world or waiting for the night...#no it should be a line from his poems..
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-throws these and runs away-
#i literally remember thinking āi hope i don't get investedā and now here i am#im so embarrassed.................and uh. Well. The designs are very cool!................yeah.............listen i love all of it#there's so many COLORS.........I LOVE COLORS!!!!!!!! AND HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ARGS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AUGHHHHHHHHHH#and then i completely ignore the horror factor and focus on silly ships bc that's how i am#i always get too silly#so yeah#ALSO PLS IGNORE THE TYPO I KNOW IT'S SPELLED āSHOULDERā LMAOOOOO i don't know english pls help. I'm too lazy to edit it. Oops!!!!#welcome home#welcome home arg#welcome home puppet show#welcome home fanart#wally x julie#julie x wally#welcome home apple pie#their shipname being apple pie is so adorable..........#my art
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Babagril I adore clipped wings and you are feeding my insatiable hunger for heavy angst and impeccable writing but I am a littol concerned about how fast you're putting chapters out recently. I know they've been on the shorter side compared to the beginning but plase don't push yourself too hard okies? We can wait, I just don't want you getting burnt out or something :(
Also you are so meanies to us why must Donnie constantly go through the horrors its the fic ive always craved and I am sobbing, thank youuu
hey hey im fine!! i should probably clarify that im genuinely just a fast writer and im. yknow. an unemployed 18 year old who doesnt have much to do other than stuff like this, and im fed and moved along by all the praise and kindness. you dont have to worry about me!! honestly a HUGE thing im aiming for while writing CW is the joy of getting to complete something, i actually crank these chapters out in like a sitting if im in a good mood LOL (theyre kind of scrappy, but im trying to combat my perfectionism. pretty much every time ive said im gonna take a bit i find myself too excited to, ive got a big hyperfixation on CC at the moment and all of the good reception has gotten me even more hyped bghdghfh. you have NO idea how much i stare at the fanart you guys have made for me ily....). for my next project i plan on writing a lot in advance and pacing myself better (especially because i want to do longer chapters for it), but for CW im happy to just speed through!!
^^ helped along by the fact that im trying to avoid making chapters long for the sake of it now. i dont really have a goal in mind for wordcount with this next set, because i think i want to think in what progresses more than that
and thank you!! teehee the thing i want to move to next is so much sillier but i do enjoy taking a real good dip into The Horrors....... not sure where i'll be going after wwww but its planned to be a HUGE undertaking anyway. but i will probably be returning to the horrors. and maybe CVD ive missed her my love
#ask#i probably got so invested in donnie because i am an INSANE workaholic when it comes to my writing#its my one Thing. i was always considered prodigious in it and nothing else so i attach pretty much Everything to it#im the person who wrote a 11k word narrative essay in seventh grade. for funsies#just the kind of person i am. ive always been super go big or go home with it#i like the DAZZLE..... i live to impress. probably why i was mad CL couldnt be a oneshot#it was such a flex.... oh well#finally having actual praise for my work. like REAL praise#is what's making me go so fast and so hard. ive been starved!!#i relate a little too much to that fuckin purple guy sometimes and it makes me UNCOMFORTABLEEEEE#even then i feel like i could do better. i could go harder. YOU HAVENT SEEN MY PEAK#okay yes you have it was CL. BUT ONE DAY IM GONNA DO IT AGAIN
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people are saying he Ā«Ā led her onĀ Ā» because he did. the fact that he kissed her in the first episode set the tone for the rest of the season and if you canāt perceive the flirting Iām sorry but how?? he didnāt make anything clear he sent the craziest mixed signals in the world. thereās nothing revolutionary about claiming that Martha was being pushy toward someone who was clearly not interested itās 1) weird to claim in what it suggests about her 2) factually not true.
I wasnāt gonna respond to this at first because the top half of this ask is pretty much just individual interpretation and I donāt really care about it. Like, no, to me, the Doctor doesnāt seem especially flirty towards Martha. Heās just sort of Like That. Thatās his damage, you know, Mr. I need to traumadump on anyone who tolerates being around me for more than five minutes. Mr. If I donāt develop an intensely codependent emotional bond with the companion I have currently Iāll die. It doesnāt read to me as him trying to lead her on because that bitās honest, and he does it with damn near every companion heās ever had.
And if nothing else, because we do see Ten when he tries to flirt intentionally and heās a fuckin dork about it. Kind of guy who looked up romance in the dictionary and took notes. Kinda guy who draws diagrams to maximize kissing potential. It would have been obvious even to me (<- romance-blind as all fuck) if he was flirting with Martha on purpose because heās not smooth at all; he flirts like heās gotten lines in a play and heās super excited to be the main star.
But anyway, as I was saying, thatās just how I see it. And if you see it different, no skin off my back, I just disagree.
But I take umbrage with you putting words in my mouth. I never said Martha was pushy towards him. Because yeah, sheās not. If I implied that she was, then it was a result of poor phrasing on my part. Marthaās not at fault for what she feels, for wanting there to come something of it. No more at fault than the Doctor is for not returning those feelings. Itās a bit weird that youāre assuming that I think one of them has to be the bad guy here when that was the opposite of what I was saying. My point was: When it comes to their romantic subtext of their relationship, itās weird to pretend like either of them are to blame for them not being in a relationship at the end of s3, and even weirder to assert that as part of why Martha supposedly wouldnāt like the Doctor afterwards when theyāre. friends. they continue to be friends into s4.
Marthaās not pushy. She has a crush on her friend. It happens. He doesnāt return it. This also happens. Both of these facts are pushed to the extreme because heās a time-traveling alien with poor emotional skills and sheās put herself in the position of needing to help him from minute one of meeting each other. Thatās why itās fun to watch, because the Doctor is both so open and so unavailable in turns, because Marthaļæ½ļæ½ļæ½s feelings for him grow and change as she knows more about her Doctor until she decides to step back.
I donāt know, man. You seem to be coming at this as if one of them has to be The Problemā¢ļø. I donāt think either of them is, not so definitively. I think boiling their relationship down to that is reductive and an insult to the way they both grow over s3, to Marthaās choice to continue to be his friend while also establishing her own boundaries, to the fact that the Doctor is able to let her go without immediately trying to kill himself afterwards when sheās not there to catch him.
#the thing about the doctor is that if you want to tell me that heās Extra Special Flirty With This Companion.#i dunno. feels like something that requires a lot of proof lmao. because the doctor is a freak who latches onto people like a barnacle and#gets way too invested way too quick and holds on like heāll die if he even thinks of letting go. heās just like that. heās just like that.#heās like that with rose heās like that with martha heās like that with donna amy clara bill!!!! these relationships are all different but#the common core is that the doctor is a freak! the doctor clings on too tight!!! the doctor will fuck you up he loves you so much!!!#idk! is it more leading on for the doctor to kiss martha to pull off a plan than it is for him to reshape amyās life around him on accident#and then show up when sheās an adult to finally whisk her away. or to let clara do emotional infidelity with him for months while#insisting that heās not her boyfriend. i donāt think ever he is. i think heās just like gravity. mavity. youāre gonna orbit him because heās#something cosmic and unknowable. and heās also your best friend. heās always too much and too tangible all at once.#am i making any sense here.#ask#martha jones#the doctor#tenth doctor#doctor who#idk man its like 7 in the morning where i am im not awake enough to talk martha/ten semantics. personally i think they should have made out#on screen even more without ever clarifying the nature of their relationship so that they had even weirder and more complicated feelings#about each other.
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running lenny summers thru baby tiktok filters and then adding 5 glam tiktok filters on top
#IM STILL DRAWING TROLLS rn they're only red dead trolls... ill have to share them i redrew my buck/arthur to b betta#ive designed. so many red dead characters as trolls and gotten VERY invested in them... to the point i cant compile them in posts#too many sketches dawg#ANYWAY STYLISED REDRAWS ARE SO FUN and theyre such a good way to learn a character's defining shapes so u can cartoonify them further#BUT THEYRE ALWAYS SO SCARY FOR ME TO LOOK AT#like with the ref beside them oh my gawd i end up givint up every time#BUT IM DETERMINED TO LEARN HOW TO DRAW 1 RED DEAD CHARACTER EASY PEASY..... come on brain we can do it#im also still doing art fight but STRUGGLING with motivation tbis year... working on an attack but theyr i think more slow than usual!!#im trying to remember how to draw humans after only drawing trolls for so long BAHWHA#the rdr2 art i have planed...... if i can get them onto paper ooooh my god
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Fellas remember when I said I was going to drag crampelter through the mud???? A little HC that got way too out of hand but here it is for you!! Listen to me, imagine him finding out about 2Fords???
TW: a bit of nsfw, unintentional voyeurism, pregnancy mention, threat of infanticide (although it doesn't happen), slut shaming (bc crampelter sucks like that), large age-gap relationship
Maybe it began when he broke into Fordās teacher officer, trying to get the answers to the tests, instead he finds someā¦ photos of Stanley. Imagine the āoh so toughā kid youāve been bullying since he was a kid is just dating your highschool teacher?? Man old enough to be considered a turtle?? Crampelters a bastard but i think even he would be a bit disturbed at that - considering that relationships with large age gaps were relatively normal in the 60s.
UNFORTUNATELY (for him at least) he hears footsteps coming from the hallway, so he hides inside the locker. There he has a full vision of Stan and Forrestās relationship, iām talking about EVERYTHING. Kidās watching them take full advantage of āno one being at schoolā in the worst way possible (for him, theyāre having the time of their lives lmao). Although, watching Forrest, taller than Stanley, stronger than him even, to the point he can just manhandle Stan in doing whatever he wanted but he doesnāt. Heās not rough, not mean, he just stares in complete adoration at whatever Stanleyās doing to him. Even in the lewdness of the situation, both of them panting while Stanās soft pussy just swallows his length entirely while sitting in his lap, itās clear that theyāreā¦ in love with each other. Itās not natural, theyāre not even married to be doing such thing. Stanās not even doing it for grades, kissing Ford like his life depended on it.
And when theyāre finally done, panting and tightly holding each other, yearningly staring deeply into the otherās eyes, theyā¦ they smile. Giddy and euphoric, laughter bubbling from them as they both kissed each other's faces, peppering kisses to any visible skin close, pressing their foreheads together, bodies still connected by their hips. He watched with something bitter in his chest as Stanleyās arms wrapped around the manās neck, Forrester pulling his body closer to his by his waist, murmuring softly about their future. Something about once they graduated, theyāre moving away, getting married, a house near the woods and lakes, fuck him Stanās entertaining the idea of children. Heās a disaster by himself, howās he going to take care of children??
He should be disgusted. Theyāre men. Fantasizing about a fairytale-like future, living some kind of double life and managing to hide it from everybody. The school would have a field day with this, jeers directed to Stan, they would call him a slut and a faggot, seducing and bending over for their teacher for grades even if it wasnāt the case. And their little happy relationship would be destroyed.
Butā¦ the more he watched them, Stan timidly holding the man's hand, softly kissing his weird extra finger, head comfortably resting on the manās shoulder, letting out a deep sigh as the manās free hand ran through his hair, messing the slicked hair, a dopey grin in his face. If he thought Stan was down bad, Forrester was even worse; pressing fluttering kisses to his forehead, breathy chuckles as the man massaged Stanās body, settling in a firm embrace, both of them seemingly to melt into each other on the chair - uncaring about the bodily fluids soaking the teacher's slacks. Crampelter feltā¦ bitter, envious even. To think that a stupid guy like Stanley managed to score a cool guy like Forrester, much less grab his attention that he actually wanted to impregnate him (he closed his eyes when Forrester affectionately stroked Stanās belly, making the latter laugh at the tickling sensation). That someone like him had something going on for his future?
He felt jealous.
On the next day, right before classes starts, he sees Stanley all alone in the hallway (his little husband nowhere near him). He doesnāt even feel the usual glee he would at the chance of messing and ruining his days, vivid images of Stanās flushed face, the way Forrester gripped his hips that it left a six fingered bruise on them, he didnāt even realize he approached Stan until he annoyedly asked what he wanted.
āI know about you and Forrester.ā
Stanās brows raise in surprise at the direct statement, although itās short lived. He snorts at him, a mocking grin settling on his freckled face. āYeah, what about it? Gonna tell it to the whole school? Good luck with that, dumbass-ā
āI know about the baby.ā
Crampelter can feel the satisfied smirk forming in his face when Stan positively freezes, eyes wide and hands twitching at his sides. The dumbass is too emotional, quick to punch when he got riled up enough. Heās almost burning a hole in his gut from how hard heās glaring at it, sneering at the already fat there. He wants to call him āused goodsā, wants to tell him of how Forresterās going to abandon him and heāll be forced to give the brat to adoption, how heās going to be all alone with no future because he decided to get knocked up, he wants to see his little bundle of joy disintegrate in front of him if it could-
Something hits his face, it takes him too long to realize Stan punched him with how quick he is to change his position. His knuckles covered in blood, frozen as if ready to bolt or attack him, eyes lifeless and swirling with something primal with them. His hands were covering his belly, a pathetic attempt to protect the life growing inside of it. He wouldāve gone for the fight if footsteps werenāt getting closer to them, he growled as he walked away from the- teen mom.
He heard faint sobbing coming from the hallway, a deep voice asking concerned what happened, he can almost imagine Forrester hugging him as if he were a little princess. Not like the fucker had punched him, not like he decided to spread his legs for the first man that showed the slightest interest in him, there wasnāt even anything there to protect.
He didn't even want to look at them the rest of the day, skipping Forresterās classes as he usually did and only settling to shoving Stan out of the way. He didnāt want to think about their soft smiles, the absolute fondness in their touches and stares, how much Forrester dotted over Stan when he cleaned him; much less how warmly the fantasized about their fucking baby. Itāll probably be stupid just like itās fucking mom, a good for nothing parasite whoāll ruin everything theyāll touch and theyāll kill themselves because they never found purpose and its parents got tired of it and its existence.
He roughly wiped his eyes.
He hopes the aberration inside Stan dies.
December arrives, and they all graduate. Stanās schizoid twin weeping and clinging to his younger twin, either emotional for his scholarship or the fact that heās not gonna see his little bodyguard for years (or the fact that he probably knows heās going away for a place with lakes and woods to raise some bastard). Their teacher is speaking with their parents (because of course he is), he doesnāt know what he says to them but their drinker of a mom is beaming at him and he has their father impressed, nodding at whatever he said. Stan positively smiles at him, probably thinking of riding the man again like the stupid unpaid whore he is.
The next week, Stanford left for college. He doesnāt see Stan or their teacher anywhere.
#goat writes#this was supposed to be small but i got way too invested on it#i may or may not have made crampelter project on the baby#imagine being so insecure you wanna throw hands with a fetus#also i put the smallest implication that he has some kind of fucked up obsession with stan#but my boy would rather die than date him plus Forrester (Ford) our glorious king is right there#and dont worry about the open ending Stancest went to oregon and they're living their best lives as always#btw i edited this JUST to insert an image bc i completely forgot about it and it was too good to pass#and holy shit the amount of typos i wrote Ford's fake name like 5 different ways im so sorry guys i didn't beta this at all Dāā:
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my s class hunters does a really good job at gradually raising the stakes without feeling like a pointless power creep and keeping me extremely invested and i keep saying this but I really do think it's bc it's a story grounded in love at every turn... the bond between the han brothers especially is extremely compelling and beautiful and makes me feel like a knife is being stabbed into my heart and twisted all around... i love them so so much ššā¤ļøāš©¹ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„ā¤ļøāš„
#(another tweet liveblog that im crossposting here)#im up to ep 102 in the webtoon now btw!!!#s class liveblog#also it took a while for yj to completely grow on me (i always liked/loved him but it's prob bc they#lightened the tone of his chara or w/e as ppl were saying... in the beginning at least#that ive been holding off calling him a 'fav' (im kinda picky w protags/have side chara liking syndrome...#even w twsb i didnt rly start biasing yeseo until i read the novel... cedric was my 1st bias#(and w orv ive only read (part of) the webtoon and yjh is my bias so mdnfn)#(āi rly loved yj from the 1st few ch tho but yea i can kinda tell the webtoon lightened his chara a lot... not that i think its all bad bc#its been fun to read at least dkfbdn)#but now that im further in im just like... wow. he's such an incredible character and protagonist. wow#def as good of a protagonist as kdj (and i personally like him better bc he's a big brother HHHHHNG.#i love him just like i love jung yeseo...#i love him SO much. he's just incredible#and yea dont tell me about the novel bc im going to read it myself but#yeah i rly cant wait to experience his original characterization and get intimately aquainted w his narration/internal thoughts...#REITERATING...DONT SPOIL ME ANYTHING FR#also just more abt the webtoon but... biwan-nim is SOOO good at drawing expressions & portraying emotions#i fucking feel every emotion that yj feels and it fucking breaks my heart and makes me cry uuuaaaghh T___T#yoojin.... TT__TTššš#also god he's just... so fucking COOL. and not just in like a cool savvy protag kinda way#(bc usually i kinda sleep when protags r like. Too cool/op skfjksdj but he's not like that at all)#i mean as a person... he's so incredibly... oughhh#as a person... as a big brother... T__T...#i cant even put it into words. he's just... i love him so much. it hurts.... im so deeply invested and rooting for him at every step...#he and yoohyun deserve the whole world i really hope they can get their happy ending together T_Tšššā¤ļøāš„ please...
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did everyone know it was marshall except me
#i had no idea and im reading tweets like 'OMG I KNEW IT I ALWAYS GET IT RIGHT'#i was too invested in the old man yaoi#steve martin short#charles haden savage#oliver putnam#omitb spoilers#omitb liveblog
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I kind of love when eddie is seen as having just little patches of afew tattoos here and there. Like theyāre big pieces, and heās got plenty, but I love the idea of them being a bit scattered and all in specific places rather than like full sleeves and a fully covered torso yk? It just feels so fitting to his personality, and at least at the current point in the timeline (Iām sure heād get many more to fill the gaps as he got older and left hawkins and could get hired for a well enough paying job where everyone in his town didnāt think he was a murderer), but just having them a bitā¦ all over the place??
It just feels so cute to me. Like he just gets what he likes, like āoh yeah thatās so sick, letās get that hmm Iāll just put that there whateverā like itās more about the artwork or what heās getting tattooed rather than where itās being put??
Idk man. I love tattoos. And I love eddie.
#what a way to come back to posting on this blog after likeā¦#a YEAR???#jeez#anyway#tatt thoughts bc Iām thinking abt what to get for my first one#and the steddie brainrot is returning this month out of NO WHERE#it seems like they are gonna be a thing i always find myself coming back to#they are my boys#my everything#Iām too committed and invested#so Iām back#after#like#so so long of not even thinking twice abt this pairingā¦#things have been weird#ANYWAYS IM BACK BABYYY#steddie#stranger things#eddie munson#steve harrington#stranger things 4#stranger things season 4#tattoos#eddie munson tattoos
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ohhhh my god im going to fucking throw up thinking again about the scene where sawashiro almost lopping off ichi's pinky parallels the scene from earlier where arakawa's mom threatens him with scissors
#snap chats#IM GOING TO BE FUCKING SICK !!!!!!!!!#i havent mentioned it before. or if i did its been A Hot Minute but god i think of it a lot#sorry i was just having my morning Arakawa Family In Retrospect thinking and im going to throw up#AND IT WAS OVER MONEY TOO. and the topic of insufficient income was brought up.. fuuuuccckk YOOOOU#triggering myself rewatching the scenes just to validate my points and im going to be even MORE sick#its the way both ichi/arakawa glare at sawashiro/his mother and then getting reprimanded for it. via sharp implement#and the way arakawa interrupts sawashiro and ichi like how his dad had to step in between him and his mom Shut UP#jesus. arakawa wasnt even confrontational bout it like that either bro just walked in on it#his life is a flat circle And What If. I Threw Up.#i thought of translatin this concept via a comic buuuuuttttt </3 no time </3#or energy tbh#im tempted to at the very least make comparative gif sets for these scenes... its so important i point them out....#anyways wow !!!! i love the arakawa family !!!!!!! youre all fucked !!!!!! <- crying#i love the arakawa family because it's so easy to see each member as a protagonist of their own stories#which No Duh Everyones A Protagonist In A Way but it's just espsecially easy to dig into the arakawas' perspectives and feelings#theyre ALL so interesting in how they think and react and the possibility of how theyre thinking and feeling in situations#like im so invested to want to know their perspectives because there's always extra layers to them and its fascinating..#the arakawas are just so intertwined .....
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OMG YESSSS ITS ME AND ALSO IF YOU WANT A BRIEFING IM FRESH IN TO SUMMER VACATIONS AND READY TO GIVE A BRIEFING OF THE ENTIRE PLOT BC MY OBSEESSED ASS REMEMBERS EVERYTHING
HELP . Ur real. it's ok I've made a fr goal to rewatch and read it But thank u for the offer šš»āāļø aLSO OMG i might cosplay as lenalee this year & i wanted 2 share that w u š«µ my bank account is going to take a Big Hit For Sure but I will do my best to make this happen everypony... š«”š«”
#š§¾nia.answers#<3 nagitokomaeda-the69th#MY BEAUTIFYL PRINCESS...#ive wanted to cosplay as her and yukishiro honoka (cure white) (like from precure.) for years and years and yEARS. AAUAGGH#wanted to be them and tohru (fruits basket) sooo so bad guys it was and is so serious#if im too cowardly to invest in this ill um. ummm.. not sure. do geto or something. i dont know. god.#con season comes back around and its always like getting thrown into a brick wall
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thinking about the amount of heartburn youād get if you were having kiriās or dekuās babies :(
Their kids are born the the longest, thickest, most beautiful hair any baby has ever had :(
The doctors though you gave birth to a giant hairball but turns out your baby was just born with a beautiful head of hair <3
this ask is nearly two months old but i had to dig it up bc that skin-to-skin ask put me in a kiddie baby mood :( ... even tho i always wanted to answer this regardless!!
So, so true... even if I feel like Deku and Kiri seem to get a little more excited about it than you think they should. Every time you end up at the toilet w/ acid reflux, they're trying to cheer you on with thoughts of a baby with luscious hair rather than saying sorry LOL.
"think of how pretty our baby will be!!" vs. "i'm sorry for putting tomatoes in the salad..."
And when they come out, they're SO proud too. Especially deku because (not that it was ever doubted but) everyone knows that's his baby. Mama Inko doesn't even have to ask when she's peeking into the nursery... even if they do end up shedding the hair eventually and it grows back looking more like yours.
Kiri, i imagine, just ends up shedding a little tear... and never lets you cut it. Baby ends up with thick hair down their back by the time they're three and is obsessed with him brushing it w/ the little baby brush :((
#deku#kirishima#im sorry this was delayed (if anon even sees this)#and i hope this is alright!!#i didn't know what to add bc it's already so perfect#i know deku's baby has hair on its shoulders and b*tt too#and it's so cute#they're fuzzy just like him#and kiri getting so invested when they're still tiny and always wanting to wash their hair#like that one video of the nurse#i digress#caitie things#gen#anon#kids tw#pregnancy tw
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i need to find other jobs... But I can't let go of this one yet... maybe more freelance work... but idk... I dont think I have the time hhh they keep saying I should make more Money QwQ or make my own business. just... more Money. idontknoww QwQ im running out of time. if i reached 30 it's all over for me and Everyone in my extended families and the neighbors will Talk abt Me, The Failure Daughter who can't have enough money and marry a decent man
#red rambles#i know its not true and i have friends irl and online who are women and over 30 and Thriving#but they always make me feel like im running out of time#im too old now and too late to start anything#im stuck in shitty retail job and cannot make more money to provide my family#they brought me to college and invested all that money for my education#but they still said I 'grew up Wrong'#immm sooooooooo hhhhhnghhhhhhhh#at least i can still pay the bills...#im Scared i will suddenly off to marry the next man im intriduced to just because of the Pressure#its okay... lets not think abt it...#I will make plans to resign tho but it's because I'm Miserable in this job haha#getting called names at home is Enough already
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FOUR YEARSĀ OF Ā NOXTMSĀ Ā / Ā sixĀ Ā charactersĀ Ā !
ft. @viiktorious ( my absolute favorite take on viktor, in the sense that no one else could ever really compare. i think you write him so well when it would be so easy for him to be very oversimplified, and one of the most pleasant surprises of this year - at least so far - has been you bringing him back to the dash ! ), @hoggleswart ( i don't know how well documented my 'sarah shahi deserves to be used more in the rpc' movement is here in nox, but i have been leading that charge for so many years and i was already so invested in roshana before you ticked all my favorite boxes in a character. i love ocs connected to existing canons in ways other than siblings or children, and i'm always a sucker for someone achingly sad ! ), @hcldmybroom ( not unlike the above, i have been wanting ambika to become the next big thing for so long that i, again, was always predisposed to loving a character using her ! there is so much - so far - untapped potential for drama with minette that makes me gleeful, and i really, really enjoy what i have seen of them so far ! ), @chacswins ( this guy is always gonna hurt my heart, and i'm always gonna be way more into that than i should be</3 you and sam are neck to neck in my personal 'most anticipated returns' list, and i'm so happy to be able to play around with you in all the angsty ways i've grown to love playing around with you in over the years of friendship and development we've had ! i'm so fond of damien in a way i think doesn't get expressed enough, and so grateful that his existence has provided me with 1. a whole character, in luca and 2. so many new layers for other characters ! ), @tosteelisms ( cara macdonald, my beloved, i am so glad that someone has finally given you a chance to thrive when you have so deserved it for so long ! she's one of my most adored creations, here, and i am so glad that i was able to entrust her into such capable hands ! you came into nox swinging, and i have loved seeing her form ! ), @acritudos ( last, but not at all least. theo nott was talked about at such length for so long that it would have been so easy for him to lose momentum but. of course. that was never going to happen in your hands. he is everything i've always dreamed of and more in terms of all the various dynamics i always wanted - with pansy, with the slytherin gang as a whole, with astoria, with ginny. with everyone, really ! - and of course it would be you that would give me those goods. how on earth could i expect any differently ! as always, i feel very lucky to write with you and develop such complex connections with you, and i hope that never changes<3 ) !
#nox.graphics#mine*#nox.task#i tried to do like. word i grabbed / associated from aesthetics and stuff you have posted + color#even if the color was a synonym to a color. for proper pantone vibes.#im not sure how i feel about it ! alas it's too late and now im done<3#honorary mentions to : sarah's hermione who feels like an especially special character to have this month considering she was the 1st#we ever had !#emily's dwaco who isn't here but always present in my heart same as them<3#lex's grace moody because i can never go without mentioning JUST how much i adore that v sad girl#( but also ismene because .. yes she dead<3 ... but she formed such vital part of the xu's )#( one of my favorite of all time families to be involved in )#and vicky's tempest. who i constantly forget did not exist in canon.#they are SO well written and i am so crazily invested in their story
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