#im always on my own bullshit here lolol

[newlydeparteddog]

[blueiight]

This is the official dialogue per IMDB. I guess you could say it's questionable but Daniel does call out the BS about how they were scattered and then Louis has to admit he just didn't wanna share it last time?

Daniel Molloy: So, it begs the question, where were all these diaries in 1973?

Louis de Pointe du Lac: Scattered. One in New Orleans, another in Paris.

Daniel Molloy: Bullshit.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter.

Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

Louis de Pointe du Lac: And if you were to come across their diaries and learn, in detail, how and when you failed them, would you share those failures with a brash young reporter you met at Polynesian Mary's?

So I think Louis just couldnt face his failures then or share them with someone he met in such a casual encounter vs now trusting them wth an older Daniel who has kids of his own

thank u for the script! i agree that louis didnt want to face how he hurt claudia.. even now, when recalling the day he doomed her to being trapped in a physically eternal adolescence[+ her later, even crueler death], he still frames claudia as 'his light, his redemption' [for what, lou? his past of tricking? when her life would be so tragic with or without louis?] but as to if he knew the full content of claudia's diaries in the 1970s we wouldnt know yet + daniel dont rly got the perspective to know whether louis did or didnt have them neither? i dont think we as the audience were meant to take what daniel said here as some sort of confirmation that louis always had the diaries. n tbf would louis rly wanna share those diaries w a 20 something he met at a gay bar tho even if he had them? if we r meant to think louis had claudia's diaries in the 1970s based off this scene id be interested in how the show would do this.. i just find it rly interesting how louis seems to be motivated to gather this truth + reconciliation committee over his own life knowing in his read of claudia's diaries that she resented both lestat and louis, who cut out which parts exactly, as well as other extenuating factors i done said before contrasting his mindset in the 70s v. now.. im not tooo committed to any particular line of speculation but i took dan’s saying its bullshit bc all he know is 1) claudia literally isnt there in the modern day and its clear other ppl have censored her diaries and 2) he suspects louis’s involvement in why/how.. he says bullshit on the diaries being scattered but we know louis and claudia traverse both new orleans & paris so i took it as dan's pov also being biased just as any other? dan is using this interview as a means to doubly probe into louis’s psychology, and he doesnt have the most generous read on louis's 'reliability'. this 'trust' or reliability as i put it erodes the further the interview goes on, the less daniel knows the more hes afraid of, and when hes afraid like bogosian says, he becomes more combative + less concilatory/actually conducting a proper interview lolol. his prior knowledge of the 1970s tapes is being subsumed by the modern interview. the old tapes just got burnt by lou last ep after all, and what we see on screen is not word for word beat for beat what louis is telling daniel [or otherwise showing daniel thru the mind].

side note: something i find interesting in the script..

Louis de Pointe du Lac: [long pause] Claudia was… everything. I loved her unconditionally. All the noise, the chaos, the crisis of my former existence, silenced. The simple joy of her hand in mine.

Daniel Molloy: You had a daughter.

Louis de Pointe du Lac: I had a daughter. Daniel Molloy: I've got two. The love is kind of…

trashbag deadbeat dad whos daughters prolly refused to talk to him if not cut him off completely the older they became [daniel] meets emotionally codependent mom/vampire sibling ..

[serowotonin]

˗ˏˋ 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝗮𝘄 𝘀𝘁𝗮𝗿𝘀 ˎˊ˗

𝗰𝗵𝗮𝗿𝗮𝗰𝘁𝗲𝗿 ` sakusa kiyoomi ` 𝘄𝗼𝗿𝗱 𝗰𝗼𝘂𝗻𝘁 ` 1.2k ` 𝗴𝗲𝗻𝗿𝗲 ` pure crack ` 𝗳𝗼𝗿𝗺𝗮𝘁 ` hcs `

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` umm idk what this is.. lowkey based off real events? midnight ramblings? yeah that kind of thing i guess... also big thank you to @kaguol​  for giving this a read (⁄ ⁄•⁄ω⁄•⁄ ⁄) `

it was sports day at your school and most of the events were over and done with but the teachers didnt allow anyone to leave yet cuz,,,, reasons✨

which is why some of the students kinda just flocked to the gym to chill and maybe play around

that was until somebody suggested they host an unofficial, volleyball game

the net was still up nobody bothered to put it down so yeaahhh

rules of the game were simple: there were none, except keep the ball in the air and get it over the net…however you can

at first only a few ppl played… the “energetic” and “athletic” ones and it still seemed like a typical volleyball game

then more ppl started joining

and it slowly started getting more chaotic

it got to the point where the entire gym was the court

there were ppl running around chasing the ball, others just hitting it as hard as they can in practically any direction, then there were those who just stood there cuz everyone else was standing there so why not ??

now sakusa didn’t want to be there

he was tired because his class had signed him up for ALL the running events

why? well cuz he was tHe OnLy AtHLeCtiC PeRsOn in his class

utter bullshit btw

he plays volleyball hes not a runner

but still ended up winning tons of races just cuz… it was him💅✨ no explanation needed

n e wayss he was tired and wanted nothing more than to go home and take a nice long shower

but ofc the students of itachiyama wouldn’t let him

some of them dragged him into the game early on

again, because he was aThLeTiC ~

but this time they actually got the sport right lolol

honestly he was lowkey annoyed at how un-volleyball the game started to become but continued playing it anyway

it was hilarious how the others tried to receive even his weakest, half-assed spikes

sakusa always made sure to aim his spikes directly at ppl’s arms tho

not out of consideration for their pride or anything no no 

it was cuz whenever the ball touched the ground the ENTIRE gym groaned rlly loud and there’d be ppl going “NOOOOOOOO” 

and that annoyed tf out of him so he was nice with his spikes

then there was you

you were outside with one of your friends when the whole volleyball thing started and only came to the gym cuz the rest of your friends were in there

so you walked in, scanned the crowd, immediately noticed your crush *cough*sakusa*cough* and then found your friends standing in a group on the other side of the gym

now here’s the thing

sakusa has a crush™️ on you too. took him a while to realize and accept it but he did and now he officially has a crush on you

he just hadn’t really gotten around to the idea of asking you out or anything

mainly cuz he just very recently realized his feelings aka last night he was thinking about all the events he had to do for sports day and he groaned cuz ppl made him do it but then he realized ppl wasn’t actually ppl it was just you

you were the one who smiled at him and said “why not sakkun,, it’d be fun” and like that he agreed. then he realized further he actually thought about you a lot. like earlier he was thinking about how’d you look tmr since u weren’t gonna be in normal school uniform and you’d have your hair all done. and then he realized he was looking forward to seeing you which led him to realize you were one of the few ppl he actually enjoyed being around. THEN he fucking finally realized “oh… i have a crush…. on y/n……. oh”

somewhat conflicted abt it for the entirety of the day,,, bois experiencing feels for u ofc its gonna take some time >.<

he didn’t get to talk to you all day though,,,,,, he was busy with his own events and you were elsewhere

either way,, when he saw you walking past in the gym he kind of lost focus

lost focus in that the ball was coming to him and he jumped to spike it but only had his eyes on you causing his aim to mess up and well,,

he hit his target

*your head*

and because he wasn’t focused, it wasn’t a “soft” spike like all the other ones hes been doing 

it was a full-blown sakusa kiyoomi spike

that hit your face

(;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`)

sakusa just went: ᶠᵘᶜᵏ

you saw stars,,,,,,,, and fell on ur bum

like a split second later, you heard a calm voice asking if you were ok. you muttered out a yeah and felt arms helping you up

one of them was your friend you were pretty sure, but the other one’s hands were too big to be any of your friends’

“let’s get you to the nurse,” the calm voice said again. 

“mkay,, thats probably.. a smart choice.. yeah….” and, vision still blurry, you were guided to the nurse by your friend and someone whose identity you weren’t sure of yet

sakusa was still standing there

all that, the spike hitting you, you falling, your being escorted to the clinic,,,,, that happened in like 2 seconds

he didn’t even have time to say anything yet

to make matters worse, some random ass guy was the one who came and swept you out of the gym

sure your friend was with you but to sakusa,,, that guy sus af

after they left, the game continued and sakusa rlly didn’t feel like playing anymore

he wanted to make sure you were okay and wanted to apologize 

however,,,, the teachers came in shortly after and told them it was time for the closing ceremony

throughout the entire thing, his eyes flit through the crowds looking for you

he couldn’t find you tho>:((

big sad

after the ceremony was over,, he went to the clinic but you weren’t there

then he just kinda,,, /slump/

figured he’d just pull you aside tmr and apologize then

except,,, tmr came and he still hadnt found a good time to pull you aside for a proper apology?? 

you were just so… busy.?

finally,, at around lunch after you finished eating, you kinda just sat with your friends and were talking and stuff when sakusa decided now would be an appropriate time to apologize

he walked up to you and asked if you two could talk in private for a bit

your friends shot glances at each other. he saw,, but he didnt let it bother him

anyways,, he led you out into the hall and in the softest tone he could manage he says, “about yesterday… i’m really sorry, spiked the ball a bit too hard.. how are you feeling?”

you tell him ur fine,, just that it aches a bit but nothing serious

he nods and mutters another ‘sorry..’

then this happened:

“no it’s ok you don’t have to be so sorry. accidents happen.”

“it wasn’t an accident tho..? so im sorry, it wont happen again.”

“yeah ok,, wAIT WHAT?? wdym not an accident?!?? u spiked the ball into my face on purpose?!?!!?!?”

“WHAT NO- ofc not. i just,,, i kind of lost focus… on other things… at the time… and yeah”

“????”

*sighs* “i was focused on you when you walked past and didn’t consciously control my aim or whatever and ended up spiking it into your face”

“?!?!?!??…. why were you focused on me??”

“cuz i like you dummy” /it slipped he didnt mean to say this/

“oh.... wAIT WHAT?!?!?!?!?!?!?”

and that is the story of how sakusa confessed

𝗻𝗼𝘁𝗲 ` honestly think it would be better as a fic but uh,,, my lazy ass cant be bothered to write fics rn so uh,, hope this was good for now? lol might mess around and write one later tho.. maybe `

[dahniwitchoflight]

Homesquared Chapter 16

Alrighty, that was a fun tangent, now back to John it seems?

Oh, no, Narration of John (So Actually Dirk, speak of the devil and he shall appear and all that etc etc)

“ leaving John with one final touch on the shoulder. John leans into it in response, though he’s a bit ashamed of chasing down a sliver of physical affection so soon after obliterating Karkat’s evening like he had. “

pfft lol so Im not the only one that thought it would be funny if that scene was interpreted in a Pale Romantic light, even though that really wasn’t what was happening

OIh! but we still get Roxy, just the other version of Roxy

Roxy subtly being like “hey!! shit has apparently gone down, were not exactly close atm but I feel bad about you dying to want to know if youre still alive so im gonna message you while trying to make it look like i dont care about it as much as I do”

JOHN: trying to align my memories of my youth with whatever is happening right now so

and the wonderful question is, what IS going be happening with you now John?

Roxy looking nice and casual, but also yeah narration, why are you making this ominous, its not like Roxy’s out here to double spy on behalf of Jane, I don’t think Roxys on her side THAT much

ROXY: may have to do a smidge more if my old bff decides im next on the list for bombing out

ROXY: but so far so good

ROXY: just a coupla exploded cars in the yard from some shenanigans our dear son and his friends were in but u kno it is what it is!!!

Roxy once again being a master of hiding how shes feeling, even when trying to open up, feeling pretty stressed about whats happening with Jane, understandable, the exclamation points give it away lol

The narration is really trying to make John nervous though

OH lol that was the implication haha no lol John it obviously wasn’t that

���John feels his shoulders unbunch. Of course. Yeah. He’s almost embarrassed by how relieved he feels. So what if his ex wife wanted to hook up? Shouldn’t that be a situation he could navigate? Don’t people like to find solace in human physical connection during dire times? Why did the idea of it make his mind white out in panic more than, say, any number of the traumas he just experienced? He doesn’t know, but he believes Roxy that he must look pretty haggard. He probably feels haggard? Maybe sitting down will feel better.“

lol once again, Dirk has no idea how to read Roxy at all and just trips over himself and his assumptions XD

Yeah, looks like Roxy not on the Jane train and is doing some takesies backsies, shes glossing over her feelings on the matter still though, I know thats par for the course of how Roxy tends to handle stuff too but I wish shed open up a bit more, but maybe shes playing the smart game, yknow, knowing that Dirk has a hard time reading her, so glossing over stuff is how you protect yourself against the narrative force, confusion and vaguery in the narrative and her actions only helps her to keep control over it, because at any point, you can decide to “clear up” any narrative “miscommunication” or “confusion” and lay down what is it thats actually happening with you any time you want

Void working in the behind the scenes to do what they want

JOHN: like it’s my HOUSE.

JOHN: but mostly it always felt like my dad’s house?

JOHN: and when i started living there after i moved out of here, it was like i crammed myself back into whatever was left of my kid self?

JOHN: and it didn’t feel good, but it at least was familiar, you know?

JOHN: like living there let me feel closer to my dad, trying to be like the way i remember him, or like how i remember him wanting me to be, or something?

JOHN: and i didn’t realize how much i hated doing that until i saw it all go up in flames.

JOHN: so i guess i could have used my powers to stop the fire and save whatever was left of the place, but i couldn’t bring myself to do it.

JOHN: like some fucked up part of me was glad i got there too late?

JOHN: so i just sat there, watching, trying to figure out why watching my house burn down felt like i was being released from prison.

JOHN: and even now i keep trying to explain it away, as though it’s because of how fucked up everything else is that it made me feel good.

JOHN: but that’s just bullshit.

JOHN: it DID feel good.

JOHN: i DO feel free.

JOHN: sorry.

ROXY: no need 2 apologize

ROXY: we just delved in2 my whole gender thing last time so it seems fine for u to have a turn

JOHN: i didn’t say it was a gender thing.

Im pretty sure you’re talking about a gender thing John, like, very 100% sure now this is what’s happening

because if you were actually a girl, of course you’re dad leaving all these notes about how one day hes gonna be so proud of the man youll become, yeah, that can feel a little pressuring, even if your dad didnt mean it like that, since he was unfailingly the kind of dad just bumbling around trying to understand their kid as best they could and leave encouragements everywhere, thats what his intent was, but all his notes come off a bit wrong in particular issues

remember the note under the fridge that was all like “SON. IF YOURE READING THIS NOTE, YOUVE FINALLY BECOME STRONG ENOUGH OF A MAN TO PICK UP THE FRIDGE.” not exactly that but that was always the vibe Dad’s little notes always had

Yeah, i can see how John would view it as a bit off, but if he hadnt the self awareness to realize it was a gender thing at the time, hed be understandly confused as to why such a thing would bother him

now though, he’s realizing, maybe, he doesn’t exactly want to be the man his dad always encouraged him to be

John does seem a lot happier here in his convo with Roxy than he did on his own when the house was burning, that conversation with karkat left me wondering if John was about to start dissociating he was so down, but here he says he feels freeing and happy about it?

ROXY: but like now that u mention it

ROXY: *meaningful pause*

JOHN: …

JOHN: i

JOHN:

John’s beginning to question stuff, or acknowledge that he’s questioning stuff, cuz it’s true, and hes feeling happy about it, in a way that he wasnt before, but he hasnt quite connected the dots here between the happy feeling and what exactly he has to be happy about

ROXY: aight then no wind bending just use your mangrit

Roxy flexes, the corner of her mouth pulled up into a familiar grin. John feels his guts, so recently calmed, twist up into knots again. Her eyebrows shoot up and the smile loosens. He must have shown something on his face.

ROXY: ok or just like push when i push

ROXY: we both got sick muscles

ROXY: no other adjectives necessary

JOHN: yeah ok.

Yeah Roxy’s 100% picked up on it, and maybe Dirk has as well if the narration is commenting on it

Alrighty then, to the secret lair under the bed!

oh I just noticed how kind of cute and interesting Roxy’s nickname for Harry is, “Lil H A” Harry Anderson shortens to Ha like laughter haha

and if Harry had Roxy’s last name, it’d be Harry Anderson Lalonde

Lil HAL

lol what is Callie doing under Roxy’s secret bedchamber XD

This whole secret bedchamber thing is turning into one big metaphor isn’t it?

That thing behind the curtain kind of looks like the Attic Portal shape from Hiveswap though

that’d be neat if that was it, like obviously we knew one of the cherubs had to have something to do with that portal just going by the design of it alone

Honestly it makes sense that Callie is doing it under the curtain of Roxy’s Void, it’s honestly the safest place to do something like that

lol Calliope has grown past writing fanfic about shipping and being in love, now the drama of broken relationships and divorce is all the rage XD character growth? haha

CALLIOPE: besides, hUman divorces are even more fascinating than i had ever imagined, and being able to witness yoUrs in motion was an honoUr.

CALLIOPE: so i consider Us aboUt even at this point.

Calliope just burned him harder than his childhood home’s destruction

CALLIOPE: ah right, right. yoU're probably a little cUrioUs as to where the dickens we are.

have you been talking to Jake lol (I mean, probably Original Grandpa Jake tbh if that portal is actually the portal)

Alright so John is getting caught up on the major plot points, Earth C is indeed in the large black hole, his choice didn’t matter since both choices happened anyway yadda yadda

CALLIOPE: think of it like a coin flip.

CALLIOPE: the series of events that led to Us being trapped beyond the event horizon of an Ubermassive black hole could be considered "tails", while the events which would have occUrred otherwise could be considered "heads".

CALLIOPE: since both were possible, and paradox space is the way it is, they actUally both happened. and we jUst "happened" (hee hee) to get tails instead of heads.

yup yup yup pretty par for the course of timesplits in homestuck so far

CALLIOPE: not at all! since both possibilities depend on one another's existence, it really doesn't make sense to call them "right" or "wrong". they both just "are".

yup, this is true, the ending’s of both referenced the others, so it’s disingenuous to say one is “canon” while the other isn’t

one is simply in the realm of actual possibility, the other is in the realm of unlikely possibility

More than likely, John would have chosen to leave and go die and be the hero like in Meat, but there was still the possibility that he would stay, even if it was unlikelier than the other, but since both were possible choices for him to realistically make, both actually happened for real

CALLIOPE: anyway, the reason i went on this tangent in the first place was to explain that the space we are standing in right now has a special significance, in that it is the location which corresponds to the black hole's singUlarity

that’s interesting, so there’s the original meteor that crashed into the surface of Earth C, and it’s in here that the singularity of what I don’t wanna call the Green Hole to match the Green Sun when I wanna talk about this specific Black Hole lolol

but yeah, here in this meteor lies the crux of the paradox it seems, interesting, also interesting again, this is where that Hiveswap Portal is

Hiveswap does have a plot point of “Joey must do thing in 11 days otherwise Earth and Alternia will be destroyed” and the only known destruction event of Earth and Alternia so far in canon is the Green Sun’s Creation from the destruction of both universes (and then later Callie’s destruction of the green sun into the black hole) so is Hiveswap gonna be a factor in the green sun’s destruction/creation as well? (Joey has the symbol of the Green Sun for a reason, I’m super curious as to what factor Joey has in relation to the Green Sun’s Existence, We still don’t know what the fact those black monsters are too, they’re like nega-first guardians, the kind of things that look like would come out of a Black Hole that came from the Green Sun tbh)

It’s all inter-related I tells ya

ROXY: ur not gonna enter a weird time vortex and change the trajectory of a little girls life with the power of love

JOHN: aw.

You say that now but

CALLIOPE: it's not strictly speaking "bad" for Us to be inside of a black hole, mUch thoUgh that contradicts most of what anyone knows about them.

CALLIOPE: of coUrse, if we had fallen into it, that woUld be a whole other kettle of fish.

CALLIOPE: the tidal forces woUld have stretched Us all into spaghetti and then ripped us apart!

CALLIOPE: bUt the natUre of oUr arrival was more akin to simply "being" here, sUddenly. one moment we were not, and the next moment we were, and somehow always had been.

yeah that’s basically how this multiverse’s reality works, the future is a thing that already physically exists, just in a different location in the universe somewhere else

time travel and spacial teleportation could be said to be the same thing all along

that’s why violating the events of the future has actual consequences, because its like asking to go somewhere that doesn’t exist but how has to exist because it’s the future, too much of that and reality starts cracking at the seams to make room

same thing happens with sessions and playing sburb

the planets and dreaming moons and all that simultaneously have always existed here, and started existing only because the player played the game and the planets were generated upon entering a session, but to the player involved, it looks and feels like you are just being teleported to a different location in the universe, because you also kind of are

CALLIOPE: i mean, the natUre of space and time is a little finicky in here, bUt for the most part it doesn't seem to be anything too oUt of the ordinary.

CALLIOPE: bUt beyond that, it means that we are sealed away from the rest of existence.

CALLIOPE: oUr sphere of inflUence is limited to the sphere of the black hole's bounding horizon.

CALLIOPE: as far as everyone else is concerned, we might as well not even exist!

So you’re just in a little seperated bubble, that’s not connect temporally to any other place of existence, you aren’t anywhere in the past or the future of anywhere else

nowhere leads here, and here can not lead outwards either, theoretically, and yes it exists, so it must also

JOHN: is there no way we could let anyone know that we're in here...?

CALLIOPE: almost certainly not!

CALLIOPE: there are very few ways for anything to escape the kind of predicament that we are in right now. one of them is to be an all-powerfUl being with control over the very fabric of space, with the energy of two Universes at yoUr disposal.

CALLIOPE: in which case, escape woUld become rather trivial, if a little Unscientific.

JOHN: ok. i am going to assume that we can't just do that.

CALLIOPE: yoU've hit the nail on the head, UnfortUnately. U_U

CALLIOPE: the method i described was the one employed by my alternate self, who yoU may recall crashed through the event horizon in the body that once belonged to jade harley.

CALLIOPE: she departed through a pUnctUre she created in the black hole's surface shortly after consUming my brother, a deed which provided her with the necessary "oomph", and which was frankly rather breathtaking to watch. =u=

CALLIOPE: bUt Upon her departUre, the rift closed for good. as far as i can see, there's simply no way for Us to commUnicate with the world oUtside the black hole.

CALLIOPE: i woUld certainly be very sUrprised to find oUt that anyone had managed sUch a thing!

So someone else definitely has managed to do such a thing

JOHN: knowing that we're inside of a black hole... does that actually change anything?

JOHN: like, can't we just go on living like normal?

CALLIOPE: oh absolUtely not.

CALLIOPE: i don't know if yoU've noticed john bUt this world is on the brink of a total cataclysm.

JOHN: oh.

CALLIOPE: oUr exclUsion from the overarching coUrse of events which governs all reality means that oUr existence here is liable to dramatic and violent Upheaval.

CALLIOPE: to pUt it another way, becaUse nothing in here "matters", we are likely to be sUbjected to things which are a bit bats in the belfry, for no reason other than it's totally insignificant to the wider canon of reality.

CALLIOPE: and mUch thoUgh i am personally titillated by some of the conseqUences of this predicament, it is a degrading way for Us to live. u_u

JOHN: that's... certainly one way to put it, yeah...

yeah, so because here in the black hole neither affects the past or the future of anywhere else, being so disconnected, they are technically free of the reigns of the Alpha Timeline that exists elsewhere in the multiverse

the Alpha Timeline now being understood to simply mean, The Narrative

Things are the way they are because they are thus written to be so

CALLIOPE: at first, i believed that this was simply necessary. Us playing tails to oUr coUnterparts' heads, the black to their white, and so forth.

CALLIOPE: bUt over the years i have come to the conclUsion that this is simply not kosher.

ROXY: its total bs is what it is

CALLIOPE: right, yes.

CALLIOPE: a steaming pile of bUllshite.

CALLIOPE: and so we have decided that something needs to be done aboUt it.

Hmmm. It’s a dangerous idea to be playing with for sure, to decide all the black pieces in the game of chess suddenly become white, it is a very flip turning of reality upside down to be sure

To be honest, I’d think you’d need a powerful Doom player at your disposal to even try something like this

or actually, a powerful Doom user would be most likely to shut this entire thing down, knowing how bad of an idea it’d be, maybe it’s more you need a powerful Life player to do something like this instead

is that also why Dirk viewed Jane as an ally then? She would technically have the kind of power to upend the black and white doomy laws of reality if driven to her full potential, i mean obviously yes, we know this already because of the candy colored I-can-do-whatever-I-want-with-no-consequences lollipop

Is this what Calliope hopes to achieve with the Hiveswap Portal then? her goals for Joey and friends are to be the ones to prevent their universe’s twin destructions, and thus the Green Sun’s initial existence and then also the destruction into the Black Hole after the fact? that would be one way to prevent the Black Hole from existing, making it so the thing that creates the black hole never exists either

and that's certainly a canon event that would be difficult to tear asunder without major consequences

That would be a “Re-writing Homestuck from the very beginning” level of canon event

And if I’m correct, Joey is theorized by me to be a Mage of Life, if any classpect at their full potential was gonna do something like that, or have the impossible knowledge to something impossibly paradoxical like that, well..

ROXY: but u dont need to worry abt busting us outta space jail tbh

ROXY: thats not ur problem to fix

JOHN: oh.

JOHN: i'm... not sure i follow, then.

ROXY: i mean yeah ur gonna obvs facilitate it in a sense

ROXY: but only by going and busting the person who can actually help us outta normal earth jail

CALLIOPE: we need yoU to free vriska from the clUtches of oUr misgUided friend jane, and bring her here, to the singUlarity.

ROXY: weve been calling it the plot point

CALLIOPE: yes, the plot point is a key part of oUr plan.

CALLIOPE: as far as we have been able to sUrmise, the only remaining method for escaping oUr grim confinement depends on leveraging the UniqUe properties of this location to create an event of sUch catalcysmic proportions that it simply cannot be contained within the black hole any more.

CALLIOPE: something SO dramatic, so hyper-relevant, that it becomes ontologically impossible for anyone to ignore it.

CALLIOPE: for that, we need an individUal of sUfficient narrative cloUt, so to speak.

CALLIOPE: and to liberate her, who better than the embodiment of the aspect of freedom itself?

I mean yeah! makes sense! Johns major factor here is Freedom, Vriska’s is Importance

and yeah, I can think of no other wholly dramatic event that to mess with stuff with the Green Sun, everyone will have eyes on that, they have to, their whole existence the way it is relies on it

But, they could also mean something else, its only condition is that it has to be something so imflappably impossible, something so not-canon and so outrageous that it basically horse-shoes around to the other end of the canon spectrum to being something that truly exists again

and that could be literally anything and it’s nerve wracking and exciting to see what thing theyre gonna come up with to just directly kneecap Homestuck itself

ROXY: thx babe

ROXY: oh is it 2 soon for that joke or

JOHN: no, weirdly enough, that one’s fine.

(yeah that’s because Babe can be construed as feminine June)

so, I’m basically convinced they’re doing June Egbert now

that to me was like, pretty severely on the nose

John: Hey Roxy, what it does mean when you find a sense of freedom when all of the symbolism of the masculinity surrounding your childhood burns down around you

Roxy: idk It’s probably a gender thing man

John: I didn’t say the word gender-

Roxy: It’s ok babe no pressure, we can hash it out later

John: Hmm, later then. :)

Roxy: (Turns and looks towards the camera with a knowing smile)

shit all that imagery makes me think of Roxy as that picture of the small kid smirking at the camera while a house burns in the distance XD

[bigskydreaming]

fhalkfhalfhal that thing where I’m aware that a post of mine with a negative view of S/ladin as a ship has been reblogged because there’s already a rant about HOW DARE I DISPARAGE THAT SHIP, FILTHY ANTI, literally before I even have a chance to see in my notes that said post has been reblogged.....

idk man I just think its awfully adorable that so many people are convinced IM the only one in this equation that has no chill.

Anyway, Im just....not in the mood to do all this bullshit again these days, and my fucks are barren and fallow and laid low by my lack of spoons here, so all I’m gonna say in response to the angry rant I just sighed and deleted.....you all are absolutely right that just because there’s a huge age difference between Slade and Dick doesn’t mean there HAS to be a huge power discrepancy between them and even if there is that doesn’t mean their relationship would have to be unhealthy....

but yawn, excuse me if I remain unaffected by your hypotheticals because I cant help but wonder what the fuck said hypotheticals have to do with anything when in ACTUALITY, pretty much every S/ladin fic I’ve ever encountered seems to go out of their way to introduce even MORE discrepancies in their power dynamic and EMPHASIZE the power differential between them.

Like, you can’t tell me that’s not a thing with that ship, that even including the existence of shippers who don’t seek out a power differential between the two, there isn’t a huge fucking majority who come to the ship specifically TO lean INTO the power differential and even magnify it a lot of the time....

And as long as the latter is a thing, and MORE of a thing than the former, it remains a Siberian tundra of takes to pretend otherwise and accuse me of being narrow-minded and puritanical and just ‘not getting’ the potential for the ship to exist in ways that quite frankly, we’re all aware are completely and 100% opposite to the ways the ship IS usually depicted.

Come and find me when you’re interested in having an honest conversation about this stuff. I’m more than willing to have it, but I’m NOT willing to do is just sit out here expressing the same damn opinions on this I’ve never once wavered from in all the years I’ve been out here, while some of you bend and equivocate and change your tune on a fucking dime time after time, whatever it takes to allow you to keep throwing up smokescreens to distract from the conversations I’m actually interested in having and keep TRYING to have, all while you try and claim I’m the unreasonable one and the reason such conversations can’t ever happen.

Yeah. Umm. LOL. I’ve got a big fat yawn here for all of that, and that’s ALL I’ve got to say on this subject right now, and until someone actually approaches me without hiding behind anon and evasive bullshit that does not remotely approach the reality of my frequently stated issues with ships like this one.

I’m not the one hiding, changing my stance every other encounter, hopping in other peoples’ inboxes, coming at people with personal attacks, insistently stalking and harassing someone about this topic, etc, etc, ad nauseam, heavy emphasis on the nausea. 

I’m right here where I’ve always been, of the same opinions on this stuff I’ve always had, I always try and keep it confined and limited specifically to the issue in question rather than making assumptions about people because quite frankly, I don’t know any of the people who come at me about this stuff and I’m not TRYING to act like I do, I don’t CARE to be quite honest, and point me at the specific post where I do or say otherwise or stfu on that front.

I’m just not willing to play into your bullshit and let you change it from my actual opinions to a ‘discourse’ you can more easily dismiss because you’ve mastered the art of shouting down that particular discourse.

Anyway like I said, I’m done for now and I suspect for awhile, because as I said, I’m just not gonna engage with anything less than a straightforward approach on this subject from someone not hiding on anon for a change or trying to shift goalposts from things Ive actually said just to what they’ve imagined or decided I said and that they can more easily feel victimized or oppressed by.

And weirdly, people always seem to have a reason that they just can’t or won’t do that. But y’know, I’m sure that’s my own fault, lolol.

Aaaaaanyway. Next question, preferably from someone who wants to actually engage with me on a topic of any kind, rather than just yell at me because they can’t comprehend why I can’t just....not say stuff on this subject. Even while they display a stunning ability to just....not jump into my inbox every time I say stuff on this subject. Hashtag selfawareness rules lololol!

[lctmebesurprised]

👏👏👏and👏yet👏 another 👏another👏 thing👏that👏i👏noticed👏about👏heaven👏and👏how👏it’s👏bullshit👏👏👏

Watch the beginning of this clip and tell me how you feel about Annabelle and the other angels treatment of Charlie and making him feel low about himself for not kissing ass and being an extra so called ‘goody goody’ like the others are. 

And I can hear you say, ‘But Deb, this is the sequel, it doesn’t count!’ 

TBH Adgth2 DOES have it’s issues, but Charlie’s character arc??? It isn’t one of them. He still retains the good, soft that he became from the first film while still being a rough on the outside, smooth talking guy that he is. He WOULD be bored to tears in heaven. He never really got to live out the life he always wanted and there’s nothing really FOR  him up there that’s supposed to make it paradise. the premise of charlie wanting to leave heaven for some earth bound time and soaking it up as much as he can is probably the most accurate thing when it comes to his character. 

now back to MORE of the tea i decided to spill today

Annabelle after gifting and congratulating and honoring the dog that murdered him and tried to murder Anne Marie: “I only hope that our other angels who have YET to distinguish themselves-” She says with an obvious inflection and tone to distinguish and shame Charlie from the others. “-Soon follow your shining example.”

WHAT DO YOU MEAN CHARLIE HASN’T???? DISTINGUISHED HIMSELF???? HE OBVIOUSLY HAS. SEE HERE. FROM MY POST EARLIER TODAY

HE DOESN’T NEED TO DISTINGUISH HIMSELF TO SHOW THAT HE’S A GOOD ANGEL AND A GOOD PERSON. HE’S ALREADY DONE THE MOST HONORABLE AND PURE HEARTED ACTION ONE CAN DO FOR ANOTHER PERSON AND DIDN’T RELY/HAVE ON THE GET OUT OF JAIL FREE CARD TO GET IN THAT EVERYONE ELSE HAS. 

Here’s the thing. Charlie is surprisingly humble about his angel hood. 

I know he puts on the normal jokey bravado on earth ‘lolol yeah im an angel aren’t i so cool’ but he knows and feels like he doesn’t have to prove himself to others about his angel hood and you know what? He’s right. He shouldn’t have to. He’s one of the one and ONLY angels that genuinely deserves eternal paradise. And he even mocks others for going so far out of there way to impress Annabelle. What’s the point? You’re already dead. You’re already in heaven. There’s no where else to really go except to compare yourself to others and stuff up your own and Annabelle’s ego. 

CHARLIE’S OBVIOUSLY NOT HAPPY OR RESTFUL IN HEAVEN AND INSTEAD OF BEING LIKE ‘What can we do to make this someplace you could be happy’ SHE’S JUST ‘HOW DARE YOU NOT BE HAPPY IN HEAVEN, EVERYONE ELSE IS, WHY AREN’T YOU? IT’S PROBABLY BECAUSE YOU’RE NOT JUST AS HOLY AS WE ARE’

Charlie has an ego himself to cover up for his more worse or broken parts of himself, so he can recognize when people are just making themselves seem holier than thou. Which is something Annabelle does often AND USES TO TRY AND MAKE HIM FEEL LESS ABOUT HIMSELF. 

The dog that murdered him that she was just singing praises for for kissing her butt a lot??? That dog just stole Gabriel’s Horn and made it so NO NEW DOGS CAN ARRIVE IN HEAVEN AND THEN TRIED TO TAKE IT DOWN TO CAT SATAN AND HAS BEEN WORKING WITH CAT SATAN THE ENTIRE TIME.

And Charlie jumps at the chance to retrieve it because it means he’ll be away from everything in heaven that was driving him nuts and what’s the first thing Annabelle says to him when he asks to go???? 

“Well maybe you CAN do something besides making a nuisance of yourself.”

EXCUSE ME

And then after that, she still doesn’t trust him on his own down on Earth and makes Itchy, who just arrived in heaven, go with him. 

Which, is understandable because it is Charlie, but at the same time, NO FAITH. IN THE BOY. HE WOULD’VE THE DONE THE RIGHT THING EVENTUALLY. IT JUST TAKES HIM LONGER THAN OTHERS. 

Charlie doesn’t mind Itchy coming along at all because Itchy is his best friend, but it’s unfair to Itchy WHO JUST ARRIVED IN PARADISE AND EXPECTED TO, I DON’T KNOW, GET SOME WELL DESERVED REST IN PEACE.

Also ANOTHER THING, is that she always calls Charlie ‘Charles’ which is something he hates being called, yet, immediately calls Itchy, ‘Itchy’ instead of his full name ‘Itchiford’. Which is just another sign of disrespect she shows to him. 

And Annabelle obviously KNOWS Charlie’s jumping at the chance for service on Earth to experience living again and MAKES HIM AND ITCHY INVISIBLE AND UNABLE TO TOUCH OR INTERACT WITH ANYTHING EXCEPT THE HORN WHICH CAUSES CHARLIE TO GO TO CAT SATAN IN THE FIRST PLACE TO GET THE EARTH BOUND COLLAR THAT WILL MAKE HIM ‘ALIVE’ LIKE AGAIN. 

I’M JUST SAYING. ALMOST ALL OF THE ISSUES IN THIS MOVIE WOULD NEVER HAVE GOTTEN SO BAD IS IF ANNABELLE WASN’T SO DAMN EGOTISTICAL AND NARCISSISTIC AND DIDN’T THINK OF AND TREAT CHARLIE AS SOME LOWLY WRETCH UNDESERVING OF HER AND HEAVENS TIME FOR NOT PLAYING HER REINDEER GAMES. 

CHARLIE EARNED HIS PLACE IN HEAVEN. THAT’S MORE THAN ANY OTHER OF THE OTHER DOGS HAVE TO SAY UP THERE AND INSTEAD OF BEING HAPPY AND AT REST, HE’S DISRESPECTED AND MOCKED FOR NOT BEING ABLE TO BE AT PEACE AND NOT ENJOYING THE STANDARD ISSUE HEAVEN THAT EVERYONE ELSE DOES. IT’S BULLSHIT

[tequieroshiro]

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nicknames: vero, ron, ronnie, nic, macaroni, hoe (thank you tam), anakin, monk (this is what happens when u get a buzzcut)

gender: trans guy comfortable with afab language

sign: aries

height: 5'9 ;););)));));;(;(;)

hogwarts house: do i look like anything but slytherin to you

favorite color: dont have one! all colors are pretty fucken neat to me. i do wear red a lot?? and black?

current time: 1:11pm

average number of hours slept per day: 4 to 5 hours?

lucky number: 5 and all its multiples

last thing i googled: the definition of "multiples" to make sure i was translating it correctly lolol

favorite fictional character: keith kogane & rhys (tftbl)

number of blankets i sleep with: ...three

favorite bands/artist: p!atd, bruno major, luca fogale, cage the elephant, kings of leon, the blue van, many more bc im always listening to music

dream trip: cuba! my mom needs to be persuaded to visit her childhood home bc trauma but my aunts and i wanna go so thats definitely a dream trip

dream job: ohmygod i wanna write and produce my own cartoon show! or a video game!! hhhhh

what im wearing rn: wowow take me to dinner first

when i made this blog: 3 years ago? ive had tumblr since i was 12 tho (im sorry, ma)

how many blogs i follow: HOO BOY (above 1000+ i think?)

posts: uHH

what i post about: this was a personal acc first so its full of aesthetics and hp bullshit (abt the marauders, mostly) and me screaming over girls. now its just full of sheith, some voltron gen posts here and there, still screaming about girls, lots of art, and a lot of nsfw. everything is tagged so its not a mess either

when my blog reached its peak: when i actually started posting quotes or opinions or my own writing rather than just reblogging

do i get asked on a daily basis: I HAD MY ASK THING TURNED OFF UNTIL A FEW DAYS AGO AND I NEVER KNEW

how/why i chose my url: i love voltron in spanish dub. their voices sound deep and hot and sexy and i melt over it. keith tells shiro "te quiero" and i find that very intimate, seeing as its my native language and spanish is something i am absolutely proud of knowing. i am,, insanely prideful of my heritage. so yeah, having something in spanish said by a character i have come to identify myself in completely (that has also made me realize things about myself and has helped me come to terms with my own trauma, which i never imagined could happen with a fictional character) means a lot to me

i tag: @white-tiger-cub @aishiterushiro @samuraicorgis @aannthe @space-ace24 @belovedsheith @safeautistickeith and anyone else that wants to join in!