#im always hungry
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Eating is not enough, I need to photosynthesize
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what the fuck im so hungry
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at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"
like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.
"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."
... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.
and i'd still keep writing.
i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.
i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley
"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"
and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.
it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.
you create because you're greedy.
#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME#there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing#and the writing is what i need to be doing#writeblr#this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to#edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol#i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!!#my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means#i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her)#hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong#i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet.#i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse#i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!!#i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO#i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness#and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it#im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us#i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer#and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art.#i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work#even if it means being miserable#but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.
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#everyday is a struggle#foodwise for me#every meal an adventure#im always hungry#i have to be cognizant#or deal with it#eat when i get up#eat before bed#cognizant what im ingesting#or pay the price
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my attempt at making a fursona
#i never see any mole furries so i thought id try my hand at it ^_^#i was hungry making this and was thinking of dirt cup pudding so its partly inspired by that and mario grass blocks#i dont draw furries very often so this was a fun learning experience lol. also!! star nose moles are kinda cute!!!!#when i was coming up with a name my mind kept going back to that tiktok of dogs and the tts voice saying stuff like i like mulch#mulch is my favorite food! yippee mulch!! so if youre wondering where i got the name theres the lore for it#i also wanna make a sea otter fursona.. and perhaps a snowshoe hare or other winter animal. oh or a barn owl!!#im trying to free my mind when it comes to making multiple sonas bc im still trying to wrap my head around it#ive always kinda seen myself as my persona but i want to try and be silly with it. actually while i was making this i was a little doubtful#to call it my fursona bc it doesnt look like me but a little voice inside my head was like well. youre not a 5 foot tall talking mole eithe#so you might as well. and i was thinking abt ppl with their dragon wolves with wings and i was like wow.. youre right... i can do what i#want forever. and brother that shit was enlightening it was like my third eye opened when i realized that#my art#myart#my oc#oc#fursona#mulch#furry art#sfw furry#character design#oc ref sheet#reference sheet
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I need to chew both of them like a stress toy
#senart#solarballs#i hate them i hate earth (proceeds to draw only them for the rest of the day)#ANYWAY HC#earth changes his clothes a lot but he usually wears tshirts. Or he would just wear same thing until it felt uncomf to be wearing it#its either new outfit every earth day or the same fit for a whole week theres no in between#i have so many thoughts about him man why does my brain always pick these kinds of characters#AND LUNA IM SO SORRY YOUR DESIGN IS SO BLAND 😭😭 ILL DO YOU BETTER NEXT TIME#sigh i totally dont have favorites#i ll write more later man im so hungry rn i cant thinkmn
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get cramped idiot
#sebek zigvolt#cramps beam#trans sebek propaganda#im so mad#im chewing my walls how do I unsubscribe#anyways its always fun to think of shark week sebek bcause his personality is literaly the stereotype#mad at everyone and hungry and snaps at u for literally nothing and moody asf and cries immediately#so its likr r u on shark week or r u like somehow even worse then#id post of main if they were like 3% less rushed i want ppl to see the truth
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Timeskip fukutoras
#i took an environment drawing class this summer look at me using my education for good#portfolio building is for chumps im gonna waste my time obsessing over a single rarepair instead#half of these are them cooking i think i was hungry or something#kenma making a brief appearance to be homophobic as always#fukunaga's cooking generic green mush mmmm mush#you can tell these are older cause i don't give tora's hair the little curly loops#yamamoto taketora#fukunaga shouhei#fukutora#haikyuu#haikyuu!!#haikyuu fanart#hq#hq fanart#my art
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oup… 🥣
#rise and shine ew fans#ethan winters#resident evil village#resident evil#resident evil 8#rebhfun#re8#ive reverted back to being a phone artist#cos im like at vidcon#and ive been doing stuff and planning stuff every 2 seconds#but i always make time for the eepy#dont worry guys#i wont let u go hungry#or myself
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You know it's serious when he loves his members more than drumsticks or eel
#given how seriously seungmin takes food you just know he thought chan was The Man™ for this#also makes him always going to hand feed chan over the years cute too#that eel did look really good im hungry#stray kids#skz#kim seungmin#bang chan#skz gifs#skzedit#jesskz#stray kids gifs#also chan in that jacket.... when will he be cast as a pink lady in a production of grease#christopher bang
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idle leftovers...i drew the dream from my last post
#witch hat tag#orufrey#i have too much backlog of small comic nonsense right now and im also SO tired#if you live life dramatically & beautifully like a maiden wandering on the moors with your skirts billowing emotionally when you fall over#because you are gods least favourite but most innocent & most tortured angel then sometimes it gets mixed up with stupidity in your dreams.#and you have to wake up and realise you can't always take yourself seriously. Oh the indignity of it all.#also the first one was while thinking abt oru and qif training their skills as kids - magic and cooking -#and now they are so well equipped to look after & teach 4 hungry and excited girls about this world.#it was all so we could make it here - so that we could meet - and live together.#i want kids to be safe and happy worldwide they wil inherit this planet
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Not to get too into it, because to be honest I don't enjoy thinking about the bill book, but what with the panel being tomorrow/today it's on my mind right now anyway. So lets get a teensy bit into it.
The subject at hand: The giant back and forth block quote dialogues in the missing journal pages section.
I think we can all admit that's weird. To call it "significantly weird" would likely be a matter of disagreement, but it's definitely weird. Ford didn't write like that in J3.
But the thing about it is... It's not just weird in a vacuum.
It's weird and also paired with the context of the last however many pages before the journal ones having been essentially Bill's memoirs/biography/whatever.
Bill has been talking our ears off about himself for an entire book, and suddenly we get to these journal pages where it is for some reason of the utmost importance to quote every bit of dialogue Bill is delivering. It takes up several entire pages, over and over again. None of that was something that could've been paraphrased or otherwise condensed in some way?
While it is true that Ford had a lot of reverence for Bill pre-betrayal, I don't think it went so far as for him to feel he must record every word Bill said to him like this. (And continue to do so post betrayal as well?) Within Journal 3 proper, we don't even get a single quote in general from Bill until Ford details his time in the nightmare realm after his return.
I don't think Ford thought the journals needed all these direct quotes of Bill's in them. I think Bill does.
I think Bill's been screaming "pay attention to me!" for an entire book, and now you're gonna have to sit through his full set of remarks in these journal pages, because his thoughts and ideas and words are just that important. So important that he needed to insert them where they were never actually written down.
It could be that he genuinely said some of it, and wanted you, the reader, to 1) know that he said it and 2) know exactly how he said it. Some of it might be things he said but paraphrased or edited in that sort of "And then I said [xyz]" way people do when they tell stories. And maybe some of it he's just completely made up. I think there's probably a mix/assortment of all of these going on. But regardless of what of it is true and what isnt, I don't think any of it was ever in the journals.
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Though I do admittedly have a stance on one "quote", and it's that Bill supposedly being the one who first said "Trust no one" has real "Yeah, I taught him that" energy. Like oh, I'm sorry. Ford's famous quote was actually yours first, Bill? The big quote central to the big mystery element of Gravity Falls and heavily affecting the attitude of the main character was one you came up with, not Ford? Sure, pal.
#bob investigations#im very sleepy#these always seem to be when im sleepy or hungry#maybe part of me jsut likes being incoherent#long post
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Holy fuck
#shameless#noel fisher#cameron monaghan#mickey milkovich#ian gallagher#gallavich#my gifs#someone wanna recreate this ill lay down and wait#but u gotta look at me like im food and u havent eaten in a week#ian always looks so hungry when he looks at mickey#LA PASSION#fav
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you asked me what i wanted, aimee wai
jim mcisaac / len redkoles / bruce bennett / bruce bennett / al bello / len redkoles / len redkoles / len redkoles / patrick smith / patrick smith / brian babineau
#claude giroux#philadelphia flyers#nhl#poetry#web weaving#sorry to sens g fans i need his flyers agony#IM HUNGRY AND I WANT IT ALL!!!!!#put this all next to the quote of him saying he always thought he would have more chances to win a cup later after losing as a rookie. yeah#camart#hockey poetry#text over images
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#rgg#ryu ga gotoku#yakuza series#ryu ga gotoku 7#yakuza like a dragon#yakuza 7#masato arakawa#snap sketches#area man draws for himself for once HI#celebration for the fact aoki plush will be clenched in my fist soon so i can beat him against my table#ik i always say i love masato's design as is for a corp goth look And This Is True. //HOWEVER//#i wanted to see what else i could do ..... for funsies.. .... also im goin to my moms next week which means im also going to hot topic#SOOOOOO LOL#i also wanted to practice drawin his wheelchair more since I Struggle. shoutout to the like#hundreds of wheelchair model pics i looked through to grab a pose and Look At Chairs jVLAKJ#but yeah i hit daigo with the gothification beam had to do it to masato too#i solemnly swear this is not how im gonna draw masato all the time. god in heaven thatd take forever#but yk just wanted to have fun :}#mk bye im hungry#there's a version of this where i gave masato purple lipstick but i didnt like how it looked#like ik i love how his lips are In Fact purple before he injects himself but it just doesnt look right with how i drew it#k bye i think im playing dondoko until my school's dining hall opens. why tha hell it suddenly openin at 5PM now ...
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