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queerlynx · 5 years ago

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tagged by @elinaline lets fucking go

1. What is the colour of your hairbrush?

my what (have you seen my hair, seriously)

2. name of a food you never eat?

garlic and i WILL die on that hill

3. are you typically too warm or too cold?

always too fucking warm. im literally never cold. people ask me 10x/day ‘arent you cold’ even tho ive told them 1000x that no, i am never cold

4. what were you doing 45 minutes ago?

i think i was still at the shops or maybe getting ready to go to the shops?

5. what’s your favourite candy bar?

always a slut for a snickers

6. have you ever been to a professional sports event?

i dont think so? what would i do there anyways ……oh wait no i went along to a professional tennis game w my ex’s brother i think? i can barely remember it was like 6 years ago

7. what is the last thing you said out loud?

genuinely can’t remember even tho it was probs less than 15mn ago to my flatmate. most likely something about the cat being cute. or maybe it was TO the cat. who knows.

8. what is your favourite ice cream?

chocolate probably? or banana? banana and chocolate is also good

9. what is the last thing you had to drink?

lemonade cause thats all i drink

10. do you like your wallet?

it’s BB-8!!! so yeah of fucking course

11. what was the last thing you ate?

a bagel w blue cheese laughing cow, ham, and one of them shitty toastie super processed cheese slices

12. did you buy any new clothes last week?

me and whose money lmaoo i can barely afford food rn

13. last sporting event you watched?

nope

14. what’s your favourite flavour of popcorn?

recently ive discovered you can drizzle maple syrup on popcorn and oh boy. other than that probs salted caramel sauce. but like i almost never have popcorn

15. who was the last person you sent a message to?

im gonna assume this is any message and not just tumblr, in which case it was my fiancé @yearningcurve on whatsapp

16. ever go camping?

i love camping but last time i went was at least 6 years ago ):

17. do you take vitamins?

lol no

18. do you go to church every Sunday?

………moving swiftly on

19. do you have a tan?

i avoid sunlight like the plague so i’ll let you figure that one out

20. do you prefer Chinese food or pizza?

probs pizza but i like both

21. do you drink soda with a straw?

i chug it straight from the bottle lol who’s got the time

22. what colour socks do you wear?

im almost constantly barefoot unless i HAVE to put on shoes and even then i won’t always put socks on if i’m not gonna be outside for long

23. do you ever drive above the speed limit?

im always p much 5mph above the speed limit (fun fact, the display in cars shows your speed as roughly 2mph higher than it actually is, you can check it against a gps on your phone; AND speed cameras allow for +5mph anyway, so why the fuck wouldnt i be)

24. what terrifies you?

like in general?? people leaving me, rejecting me, abandoning me, cutting me out, hating me in secret; not being a good person or liked or useful; people thinking i’m annoying or embarrassing or ridiculous or boring; the list goes on

25. look to your left what do you see?

a very roumd and somft kitty :3

26. what chore do you hate?

anything administrative or on the phone. i dont think it counts as chores but i genuinely enjoy tidying and cleaning so.

27. what do you think of when you hear an Australian accent?

i cant tell an australian accent when i hear one

28. what’s your favourite soda?

lemonade, or fanta

29. do you go into fast food places or drive thru?

ever since ive gotten a car p much always drive thru cause why would i sit in a crowded fast food restaurant w screeching kids and angry karens when i could enjoy my disgusting feast in my own home???

30. who was the last person you talked to?

IRL that’d be my flatmate

t31. favourite cut of beef?

sirloin

32. last song you listened to?

Echoes by the Rapture, it played on my shuffle in my car and reminded me of how good Misfits was lmao

33. last book you read?

it would’ve been over seven or eight years ago. can’t remember.

34. can you say the alphabet backwards?

z y x w v u t s r q p o n m l k j i h g f e d c b a

apparently so but it took a while tbh

35. how do you like your coffee?

i mostly drink flat whites w hazelnut when i drink coffee but tbh despite being a barista w a professional grade home coffee machine i barely ever drink any outside of work lmao

36. favourite pair of shoes?

grinders boots AND my trans pride converses. can’t pick between them soz

37. the time you normally go to bed?

really is no normal. anytime between midnight and like up to 5am esp rn during lockdown. i never went to sleep last night actually i’ve been awake for like 28h now

38. the time you normally wake up?

see above. anytime between 10am and like 6pm depending on when i went to bed. outside of lockdown i would wake up exactly an hour before i have work, so anytime between 5am-11am

39. what do you prefer sunrise or sunsets?

sunsets but i really love both

40. how many blankets are on your bed?

one bedsheet and one soft blanket

41. describe your kitchen plates?

they’re green. nobody is surprised

42. do you have a favourite alcoholic beverage?

cider. i be drinkin that shit like its juice

43. do you play cards?

not really altho on lockdown i’ve taught my flatmates a french card/money game called Nain Jaune and they enjoy it so that makes me happy

44. what colour is your car?

dark red like……burgundy kinda?

45. can you change a tire?

probably not lol

46. your favourite province?

province of what lol. either way it’s Brittany.

47. favourite job you’ve had?

ive only ever had the one lmao so, barista it is

48. how did you get your biggest scar?

top surgery (’:

49. what did you do today that made someone happy?

fuck if i know. i guess i made coffee for my flatmates but like i do it everyday so they p much expect it by now i dont think it makes them any happier or like if it does they dont really say it rip

not a big fan of tagging ppl so just. do it if you wanna lol

#Also Sprach Loïs #txt #elinaline #long post

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carotriesstudy · 6 years ago

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When you’re not doing well at uni and failing

okay, i know im not the best at keeping this blog bc its like not a physical thing so i forget i have it lol

but i wanted to just talk a little and vent bc of my life is pretty shit atm (the tips at the start are written post rant to actually give some advice instead of just venting)

Tip 1 - get out of bed

I know its hard, I could spend my life in bed and tbh I do. but I also know that while it feels like taking care of yourself to relax, I know it’ll make me more depressed. and it's super hard. I constantly tell myself to get up while lying there an entire day. but when you feel that little spur of energy or in my case annoyance lol use it. get up and get out.

Tip 2 - get out of your room

this is similar to tip 1 but if you find yourself in lack of motivation or energy go somewhere. take a walk, or go study in a library or cafe. and this can be even harder. having to get dressed? maybe interact with people? are you kidding me? but the minute you get out and even when you interact with people it feels better. you aren't holed up in your depression or whatever might be bothering you.

Tip 3 - it’s okay and it’s going to be better

right now it's shit. and it feels like its never going to get better. and that you're stuck in this rut forever. but things will turn even if you don't want them to. there can be a comfort and security in your depression bc it gives a reason to why it feels like its right. but you know what also feels like that? the good, and hopefully there will be more of those.

Tip 4 - do as much as you can handle

it's easy to not do things. I haven't done anything all semester. and it sucks bc it's biting me in the ass now. and it's not like I don't have the time. I just don't have the energy. so when I have the energy I need to remember that reading 3 pages of assigned reading is still better than none. I go to class even if I'm not paying attention bc it gets me up and out but also it gives a good idea of what I need to focus on etc.

Tip 5 - its okay to “give up”

i dont like the phrase giving up that much bc it sounds like defeat. i am in a process of severly considering not starting again next semester bc of my mental health. its serious consideration. but its one i need to make and if i decide not to go, it doesnt mean i gave up, i just realised that my current situation iisnt good and that i need to change stuff before i can continue instead of wasting my time doing a shit job at an expensive uni. so, thats good. figuring out what works and what doesnt is only a positive thing

today im in a somewhat good mood despite learning i failed my stats exam (dw its not bad we have multiple so i can still pass)

but the thing is, i have been in a very bad place or a long time and it has really been affecting me and by extension also my education.

i feel apathetic towards everything, im uninterested, and the stress and obligatoin feel i used to really on to study isnt kicking in anymore due to the apathy

im constantly tired, i cant get out o bed in the morning and we have madatory attendance (which probably is good bc otherwise i wouldnt be going to class probably)

my concentration and attention is somewhere completely different atm and its been weeks like this (usually its a few days) and i cant control it very well and its making it hard for me to study and pay attention

im letting myself slip, my room is slipping, my health is slipping

while im trying to get better and be more social which is easier than studying bc usually its just me and this one friend getting high and watching stupid videoes which is nice bc its a break to feel happy and entertained but its also not good for me

back to school stuff since this is a study blog

im no doing good in any of my classes, i barely passed two exams, failed one and possibly one more

i have an exam on friday i need to study for, and one on monday. i neeed good grades in these to make up for the not so good marks i have received before

and while i know that taking care of your mental health is more important not feeling like doing academic work is bothering me a lot actually and its a hellish circle of poor mental health leads to poor academic performance which then leads to poor mental health

and while my apathy and alexithymia saves me from feeling sad or upset by my grades i know deep down i want to do well. i want to succeed.

i cant keep not working, i need to put in work if i wanna improve. this isnt high school anymore

im doing some hard courses this semester and while i am usually interested in most of them i cant seem to care

im doing better today mentally and i feel up for getting some stuff done so im going to exploit that but i also just want to sleep and wake up feeling actually awake for once

im also getting sick so thats fun

my parents are also making me see a therapist (i haven't started yet) and i think thats a good idea but i have a lot of anxiety about it lol hence why i need therapy

im also going to talk to counsellor at school and see what she can help with as well

idk what id going to happen but im trying to finish my semester and get back into a good study rhythm. I anyone wants to throw some advice or encouragement my way id really appreciate it.

#studyblr #college #uni #mental health #drug mention #studying #tips #failing #mine

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spidercrimes · 5 years ago

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if it's not too much to write, how about All even numbers for the OC asks for either character of your choice! or both if you're feelin wild whatever works : ]

wheezes this took so long but im finally done holy shit

2. Do they have any titles? How did they get them?

Echo doesn’t have any official titles, and isn’t really planning on getting any, unless Champion of Sune counts?

4. What is their relationship with their parents? What’s a good and bad memory with them? Did they know both parents?

Echo has a very good relationship with her moms! To their knowledge, things were a bit tense after leaving Ivydome, but plenty of letters and visiting when they could helped with smoothing over their relationship. A good memory would be when her moms taught Echo how to bake! They can really only bake cupcakes and cookies but theyre like. Hella good ones. They dont really have any bad memories with/of their parents, since like. They will forcibly forget or repress anything that upsets them, as long as it only affected them. If the memory is something bad that affected others it will linger for however long Echo deems necessary(read: an extremely long time)

6. What were they like at school? Did they enjoy it? Did they finish? What level of higher education did they reach? What subjects did they enjoy? Which did they hate?

They were there and graduated fantasy high school what more do you want from them jkdxxjndk. They started working at the local sweets shop after school, so no higher level of education here! They like history a bit, but that’s about it tbh!

8. Did they have pets as a child? Do they have pets as an adult? Do they like animals?

Yes! Echo had a pet cat back at Ivydome with her moms, and before the campaign she didn’t really have the money to keep another, so they settled for feeding and playing with the stray cats in Summervale.

10. Do they like children? Do children like them? Do they have or want any children? What would they be like as a parent? Or as a godparent/babysitter/ect?

Hmmm, Echo doesn’t mind children?? but there’s only so long they can be around them before she gets overwhelmed. Children like them well enough since Echo is always up for playing songs or messing around with cantrips. Echo would be the fun parent/godparent/babysitter, but. Please dont make them look after children they dont want any.

12. What is their favourite food?

Give my child spicy noodles or give him death

14. Do they have any specific memories of food/a restaurant/meal?

Their first cake made without supervision was. A disaster to put it lightly since someone was feeling ambitious.(it turned out like rubber and after that he was too flustered n frustrated to focus so everything else turned out badly too) So they dont bother with that anymore! Cake mistakes who i dont know her sdkjjkdbs. So half the time they pass by anything with some type of airy sponge cake they cringe lololol

16. Do they collect anything? What do they do with it? Where do they keep it?

She had a rock and shiny things collection back at Summervale! They’re mostly for decoration, although some with certain textures are used for stimming. Some rocks are kept on shelves, but most are stored in cool jars to save space

18. What’s their favourite genre of: books, music, tv shows, films, video games and anything else

Echo is a sucker for romance novels and fun, upbeat music! Idk if video games, films, or video games exist in-universe, but if they did, they’d like dramas and baking shows, rpgs, and more character focused games like nitw

20. Do they like musicals? Music in general? What do they do when they’re favourite song comes?

They love music, and they’d like musicals too! They will grab their lute and play along if their favorite song came on, and if nobody was around then maybe they’d sing too. Maybe.

22. What are their favourite insults to use? What do they insult people for? Or do they prefer to bitch behind someone’s back?

tbh their go-to insult is calling someone a prick or a bastard, and it’s usually for whenever someone’s done something particularly scummy. Or if someone is just. The Absolute Worst. It’s a leftover habit from when they used to live in Ivydome, but Echo usually sticks to talking shit when the target is. Very far away/not in the area.

24. What is their sleeping pattern like? Do they snore? What do they like to sleep on? A soft or hard mattress?

They try and get around six hours, to varying success, and to their knowledge they dont snore! Echo loves soft things and would prefer to sleep on a soft mattress with So Many blankets and pillows and maybe a cuddle buddy

26. How do they act when they’re happy? Do they sing? Dance? Hum? Or do they hide their emotions?

Fun fact echo does a tounge blep when she’s happy!! They tend to do lil happy claps and bounce up and down in place when they’re really excited, but when it’s a more calm-type of happy he purrs loudly and smiles a lot more than usual!

28. What is their biggest fear? What in general scares them? How do they act when they’re scared?

He’s claustrophobic and is terrified of being alone again or having to leave people behind even when the situation calls for it. So like. He aint copin too well after the last session! They get very flustered and panicked and freeze when theyre scared

30. Do they exercise? Regularly? Or only when forced? What do they act like pre-work out and post-work out?

Does going on champion quests and running from his problems count as exercise or???

32. What do they dress like? What sorta shops do they buy clothes from? Do they wear the fashion that they like? What do they wear to sleep? Do they wear makeup? What’s their hair like?

Crop tops with long sleeves, shorts, and boots make up most of their wardrobe and they love it. Theyd go to like the fantasy equivalent of marshalls i think? Somewhere with good deals and a lot of options. Overlarge shirts, tank top crop tops, and more shorts make up their pjs. They dont really wear makeup, mostly bc they touch their face a lot and it feels weird the whole time, but they wouldnt be opposed to wear a lil bit every now and then! Their hair is floofy and a bit of a controlled mess since they cut it themselves

34. What is their body type? How tall are they? Do they like their body?

Echo is 5’9”/ 175.26 cm! Theyre on the average side i think? Like theyre not super skinny but not fat either so just. Avergae. And yeah, Echo likes their body, theyre so bright! And their horns are so cute and having a tail is very handy and claw maintenance can be a bit of a pain but like. Aesthetic am i right folks

36. What are they good at? What hobbies do they like? Can they sing?

Hes good at playing the lute and generally being very cute and giving out good vibes, and he likes baking and playing music! They can sing, but really only do that when theyre playing their lute ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

38. What do they admire in others? What talents do they wish they had?

Echo admires passion and creativity the most, and dont let anyone from the party know but he wishes he could be just. A bit smarter and know what to say + ask. Theyd also really like to be able to make a decent genoise sponge too like theyre not picky

40. Do they like energy drinks? Coffee? Sugary food? Or can they naturally stay awake and alert?

Theyre a tea drinker all the way, and arent the biggest fan of sweet things. He used to use more tart or mellow flavors when baking. They def arent alert after being tired for a while, and will space out a bit

42. What are their goals? What would they sacrifice anything for? What is their secret ambition?

No secret ambitions here, Echo is an open book(unless they roll high on deception dvdjxb)! Becoming Sune’s champion, making a decent sponge cake, and protecting his friends with his life/in any way they can are all their current goals. Echo doesn’t care too much if they get hurt, so physical well-being and maybe mental are things they wouldn't mind sacrificing, but as a whole they don’t really want to think about what they’d have to give up. He’ll burn that bridge when he gets to it.

44. What is their favourite season? Type of weather? Are they good in the cold or the heat? What weather do they complain in the most?

If its cold, wet, or humid echo is not a happy camper lol. They prefer summer and the beginning of fall the most, and sunny days with lots of puffy white clouds are the best! They think its fun watching the clouds shadows on the ground. They’re better in hot weather than cold, since clothes for that type of weather are easier to dress for and they dont have to account for their tail or horns as much

46. Do they make a good first impression? Does their first impression reflect them accurately? How do they introduce themselves?

God i hope they make a good first impression im dying over here xjkxdk but honestly it depends! They try to make a good first impression and i think they usually do? But if theyve just finished with a job w the gang or theyre just. So tired they wont really introduce themselves at all. Its pretty accurate of how they are, and their go-to greeting is “I’m Echo Barquiel, a pleasure to meet you dearie~”

48. Do they enjoy any parties? If so what kind? Do they organise the party or just turn up? How do they act? What if they didn’t want to go but were dragged along by a friend?

In theory they’d like parties but being around so many people with that much noise for an unknown amount of time would not be. Ideal so smaller get-togethers with friends would be the most enjoyable! Echo doesnt really have the uh, space to host anything so theyd just turn up to other’s parties. Theyd be in a constant state of switching between ‘holy shit im so gay’ and ‘oh my god theres so many people/internal screaming’. If they were dragged to a party, theyd mingle for a leelte bit before stepping out

50. If they could only take one bag of stuff somewhere with them: what would they pack? What do they consider their essentials?

A bedroll, waterskin, food supplies, rope, knives, a lute, matches, money- yknow regular survival stuff!

#the sylph speaks #echo barquiel #sweet jesus how long ago did you send this???#i have no idea #mxbuccellati #does the readmore even work on mobile?? rip mobile users if it doesnt i guess #long post

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acecombatmutual · 6 years ago

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"romani."

"gudako it is literally two am," the twink man says, pausing his 8th consecutive hour of that one love live gacha. "what do you want."

"we have a problem."

"which is?"

"mcdonalds." saber alter doesnt mince words. shes just fucking hungee, and if she doesnt get some sort of sustenance in the next hour, she will go apeshit.

"the pantry-"

"gone," gawain says it sadly. "even the reserve chips."

"who the fuck ate those??"

gudakos phone buzzes with a twitter DM. 'dont FUCKING tell him or im leaving chaldea' says merlin.

"i dunno man. but the point here is that i want to go to mcdonalds."

"so you came to me??????"

"ya." gudako says flatly. "rayshift us."

romani stares at them for a solid, like, ten seconds. he does the thing where you press your hands together and hold them to your face like youre about to say 'boi.'

"RAYSHIFTING IS FOR EMERGENCIES ONLY AND I THOUGHT WE JUST WENT OVER THIS YESTERD-"

"saber alter is about to murder everyone in here and then herself my dude." gudako gestures to the increasingly pissed salter.

romani does a little option weighing in his head. hmm.... "ok FINE but this is the last time."

and so romani rayshifts saber alter, gawain, bedivere, not mash because shes asleep soundly, and gudako to a mcdonalds in the middle of nowhere in the united states.

"hey," gudako almost falls out of the rayshift portal. "can i get a fucking uhh.." she counts the number of people in the room. "three happy meals and one (1) triple cheeseburger?"

"maam with all due respect what the fuck." the employee is hakunon kishinami actually. after they woke up from cryostasis and rani found them, they were like well humanity has collapsed essentially im going to go to micky ds and get a job.

"you heard her." saber alter says. "triple. cheese. burger."

"alright........" hakunon is actually kind of scared because they recognize salter as someone who looks like nero but evil and thats not ok. they are also is scared of gawain because what the actual fuck they just had to murder his master why is this strange person commanding him now.

about 5 (five) seconds later, the gang has their happy meals. the staff was scared out of their minds because salter threatened to release her noble phantasm on them if they didnt "give me my fucking burger you absolute useless and worthless humans."

"thanks," bedivere who has been (rightfully) silent this entire time says as he recieves his happy meal, complete with a toy.

"this place is a freakshow. i literally respect only you and gawain." gudako replies. salter is busy yelling at the staff because they forgot her pickles. also she might have excalibur morgan'd through a wall. whoops, thinks gudako, i aint paying for that.

"fucking GOD," salter finishes yelling. "i HATE humans." she takes her burger from the poor motherfucker who had to serve it to her and almost (ALMOST) bites directly into the box (shes like a goat, she can eat anything and make it into magical energy) before remembering that cardboard probably tastes like shit.

"wow." gawain has no words for the ~evil~ version of the king of knights who just fucking obliterated an ENTIRE wall of mcdonalds. "can we leave?"

"yea," gudako texts romani: 'yo dude salter just almost killed the staff PLEASE GOD rayshift me back'.

approx. 5 mins later, at 2:10 am, the knights of the round minus a few of them and plus gudako are eating their happy meals in gudakos room. some servants like sleeping in there cause gudako keeps their room super warm. and its cold at chaldea. also saber alter steals their blankets sometimes which isnt very nice.

"so what are we doing tomorrow?" gawain asks, in the middle of munching on like 4 fries at once for maximum fry consumption efficiency.

"dunno. probably playing minecraft."

"ooh my favorite," bedivere says. hes eating his chicken nuggies with his regular arm as to not mess up his silver arm (which makes no sense, why wouldnt he just not get grease on his regular arm??). "i plan to help gawain with farming."

"the best part of minecraft." gawain says.

saber alter is in the corner, silent, eating her triple cheeseburger. "yo you good?" gudako asks. they dont get a reply.

everyone eventually finishes eating. "im super tired." gudako says. "gonna bounce. i might do some ember farming tho, so dont stay up too late."

at approx. 8 am, gudako gets a text from romani that says 'FINISHED PREP TO RAYSHIFT INTO BABYLONIA MEET ME AT 9 AM!!!!!!'

"oh god fucking damn it," gudako says aloud. they literally just woke up.

"huh?" gawain asks. hes been awake probably the entire night. he likes to play minecraft super late.

"babylon." gudako replies. "euuuuruuurrhghjhhjhhjggjj......"

FIN

#long post #rip mobiles i jus wanted to put this here now #go sakura beam

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shinwnn · 7 years ago

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college! jinwoo au

sokay jinwoo is s u p e r well known on campus because he's essentially the guy that’s always fun to be around and exudes confidence

he’s studying linguistics bc he’s fascinated with languages but also he just loves to talk and everyones always making jokes about how he’s so good with languages because he loves the sound of his own voice so much that he never shuts up

he also works at the campus radio station bc he just loves music so much!! AND he’s worked his way up to being a host so getting to play music & talk is basically the dream for him

everyone always tunes in during the hours that jinwoos hosting bc his taste in music is honestly amazing and he has the best radio voice and it makes everything he says sound interesting

you also listen to his show bc he honestly has never played a song you didn’t either already love or instantly fall in love with

but also you’re really beginning to hate this boy because the only reason you actually know him is because he lives right above you in the dorms

and he hosts the L O U D E S T parties that always happen to go till 4 am

usually you and your roommate fight over who has to go up and ask them to quiet down but tonight your roommate is out with some friends and its already 2 am you’re just laying in bed listening to the nonstop thudding sounds coming from above you & ur almost about to die because you have a 7:30 class tmrw

finally you force yourself out of bed and and into the hallway toward jinwoo’s room and you're so tired you're basically already half asleep

when you knock on the door and jinwoo comes out to see sleepy you in an oversized sweatshirt and leggings trying to form a coherent sentence ( it came out more like “the sound.. .too much.. please. stop.. the sound… theres a lot of it”) he can’t help but think you’re about the cutest thing he’s ever seen

and maybe if your eyes weren’t half closed and you weren’t entirely annoyed with the boy, you would’ve also thought he looked cute in his skinny jeans, t-shirt that was just a little bit too big, and perfectly messed up hair

but right now you're pretty much only focused on keeping yourself from completely collapsing in his door way

he feels really bad because you look like you're about to pass out but then his party has expanded to basically the whole floor and he’s lost the ability to control the noise level

he looks around for a few seconds and without saying anything goes to try to shuffle people into rooms and closing the doors in attempt to quiet things down a little

in the meanwhile you're still standing there in the door way wondering if you should go back now but for some reason your feet aren't moving and wow the floor looks really comfortable right now

but then before you can go to ur final resting place on the floor, jinwoo is back in front of you and he notices that you're like not stable so he puts his hands on your shoulders to try and hold you up and he's like “sorry about everyone. i don’t know if i can do much more about the noise, but i hope that helped a little bit???... also are you okay???”

and no ur obviously not okay bc all you've wanted for the past 3 hrs is to go to bed but everything like 20x quieter now and its so peaceful so you just offer a sleepy smile and nod and turn around to head back toward ur room and ur bed

but then suddenly someones linked their arm with yours and its jin jin trying to be cute and gentlemanly and walk u back to ur room but mostly he's like 90% sure ur gonna collapse in the hall on the way back

ur initial reaction is !! heLLO STRANGER DANGER?? you've only talked to this boy like twice ??? and u sort of tug ur arm away

but jin jin reacts really quickly and like gently pulls u back and he's like “you look like you could use the help. c’mon-“

but even half asleep u does not want the pity of a random cute boy who throws loud parties and disturbs ur sleep so u slightly perk up and are like “ what’s that supposed to mean? are U trying to say I look BAD?”

and jin jin is kind of flustered and taken aback but immediately recovers bc pls this is park jinwoo

“actually i think you look pretty cute and id rather not wake up tomorrow morning to find that you tripped down the stairs to your death while going back to your room because you were too tired.”

so ur like annoyed but ur also like ,,,, fine, maybe i do need someone to make sure i don't die before i get back to my room and also you're kinda leaning into him while u guys are walking and its really nice not having to carry ur own weight

when u guys get to ur door jin jin leans against the frame as ur unlocking it and before u go in he decides to throw away any shred of pride he has and goes for the literally cheesiest line bc he’s never seen anyone look as cute as you do right now

“so, what about a good night kiss?”

u look up to see the brightest smile u have ever?? seen?? like how is he glowing right now but also ur like “did u really just say that”

and u see him get kinda embarrased and ur like woW IS PARK JINWOO THE GOLDEN BOY OF THE SCHOOL ACTUALLY BLUSHING RIGHT NOW??

he’s not really use to rejection bc he hasn't really met a girl he would put himself out there for (but lets be real even if he had, no one would've rejected him what are u doing??)

so he just looks down at the floor and puts his hand on his neck like “ha h a, , yeah, probably shouldn’t have”

but he looks really cute all flustered and you dunno why, tho its probabbly bc ur so tired that u don't actually know if any of this is really happening, but u give him a peck on the cheek and a quick good night before u go inside to ur sweet, sweet bed

n jin jin is just standing outside of ur room, stunned bc WOW ur an angel did that really just happen to him

by the time he gets back to his floor, the partying has pretty much died down to nothing since he really killed the mood when he started pushing people into their rooms for your sake

so he just goes to his room and his roommate mj is laying in bed on his phone (super calm for a change) and jin jin all but jumps on him like “you wouLD NOT BELIEVE WHAT JUST HAPPENED”

and ofc mj immediately is as awake as ever dying to know what

after telling mj every detail he basically goes to bed thinking about u being cute whereas youve been knocked out for the past 20 minutes without so much as a thought about it

the next day you’re up by 7 bc u want to get some food and coffee before class so you hit up a cafe on the way to the lecture hall and order your food and sit down at one of the tables to wait

you're running on about 4 hrs of sleep right now so you're not exactly at your prime and you're leaning on your arm while scrolling through your instagram when suddenly your hair is being ruffled and you hear “morning sleepyhead!”

you look up to see jin jin smiling his goofy smile and you’re like “okay firstly, never touch my hair ever again. secondly, why on earth are u up so early, u probably went to bed like �� an hour ago”

so he’s like telling u about how he’s helping out around the studio during the morning radio show today and you guys start talking about his radio show and he finds out you listen and it makes him feel all warm and happy for some reason

and you guys start talking about music and you guys have pretty much the same taste and he slips in that he’s been working on some music with his roommate and a few friends and he just gets so excited talking about it

when he can tell that you’re genuinely interested and you ask him questions about their group (which he says is called astro) you can literally see his eyes lighting up and you’re losing track of time bc this is honestly one of the nicest conversations you've had in a long time with one of the nicest boys like, ever

but then u get a notification and see the time on your phone and it’s freaking 745!!! ur already 15 min late to class and you're still like 10 min away from the hall so you grab your things and are like

“shoot im sorry i totally forgot about the time im late to my lecture”

and while you're cleaning up you just keep rambling about how you're screwed bc the class isn't recorded or anything and you don't know anyone you can get notes from and you had like 4 hours of sleep yesterday (which u remind him is his fault) and oh my goodness why is everything bad happening to you

and jin jins just sitting and sipping his coffee looking at you with most amused look on his face and you're still all flustered from being late and u go to throw ur trash away and

when ur back jin jin has ur book bag over his shoulder and his hands are in his pocket as if this is like a normal thing that u do everyday and ur just like ?? are u robbing me? give me my bag and hes like

“no, cmon i’m walking you to class”

and u don't have time to fight it and really you don't mind at all so you just head out the door toward your hall when u remember that he has to go to work and then u forget that you're totally late for class bc now you're worried for him being late for work and u try to grab ur bag from him and are like “o my goSH JINWOO ur gonna be LATE for WORK”

but he completely ignores u and just keeps on walking and ur like ARE U LISTENING and he finally turns around and is just like

“i can afford to be a little late, they wont miss me. plus i’d much rather be with you”

and ofc be freaking winks at u and ur like oh my goodness that was cute but u just roll ur eyes and are like “okay fine, but don’t get used to walking me to places”

and u suddenly remember last nights events very clearly ending with u kissing him on the cheek and u get embarrassed

and it only gets worse when he's like “why? i thought i was pretty good at it, especially after the kiss you gave me for it last night. i was getting ready to transfer majors to physical education so i could work on my stamina and walk you to even further places. it was supposed to be our tradition, walking places. man it was gonna be good”

and ur annoyed bc you've never met someone so irritating yet likable. how does that even work? i dk, but park jinwoo does

when u guys get to ur lecture hall ur suddenly not in a rush at all to go inside bc as much as u hate to admit it to urself, you’d much rather hang out with jin jin

so now ur just standing face to face and he’s looking at you smiling his angelic smile and now its ur turn to contemplate what to do before you leave

and u just wrinkle ur nose before finally deciding to give him a quick peck on the cheek again and then ur just like “maybe that can be part of the tradition”

before he can say anything you've already grabbed ur bag and run into the hall and left him smiling like an idiot

when he gets to work he's still so happy and he’s in a good mood everyday but today it’s just like, intensified all his coworkers can tell he's happier than usual and they’re just like “had a good morning jin jin?” and he's like “GREAT MORNING”

meanwhile ur sitting in class like omg did i actually just do that? also why?

and then like 20 minutes later ur like okay i like park jinwoo

after you get out of class you head back to your dorm to work on some essays for a couple of hours and you see that it’s around the time that jin jin is hosting so you tune in

and after the song that’s playing ends you hear jin jin’s voice and he’s talking about his theory on how toy story and finding nemo are connected and all u can do is roll ur eyes and laugh

but then u hear him go “you should be out of class by now, so i hope you're listening. this next songs for you sleepyhead”

u can hardly believe u just heard him say that and find u urself blushing & even more so when u realize the song that’s playing is pretty u by seventeen

right as you hear the last lines of the song “does she love me, does she love me not…” you get a text from jin jin

“pretty cool huh? i think that deserves a thank you”

to which you reply “you want me to thank you for passive aggressively dedicating songs to me?”

he eventually gets you to agree to let him take u out for dinner and you're so amazed with how comfortable you feel around him and how easily he makes u laugh

it’s just really perfect since u guys started officially dating

a lot of the songs being played during jin jins hours have suspiciously been love songs so much so that he started getting complaints and u had to force him to start playing other things

and as far as those parties that last till 3 am, lately jin jins been finding it a lot more appealing to just sit on the couch with you sharing a blanket and exchanging sleepy kisses as you listen to music

#jin jin #park jinwoo #jinwoo #astro scenarios #astro au #college

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yourjughead · 7 years ago

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Camping with Bears ONESHOT

Synopsis: You take the gang camping but feelings escalate quickly between you and another camper Pairings: Jugxreader, Archie x reader, bettyxveronica and kevinxJoaquin mentioned Wairings: Swearing, fluff, light smut...not so light smut A/N wrote my first smut piece and it is not great at all 😂 that's alright though, it's just practise for the Wrong side of the tracks. I quite liked this idea but maybe not the execution..... also this is really long I'm sorry -------------------------------------- Camping with bears- 3rd POV You all pulled in to the site in the late evening. “That's the last time we let you give the directions Jughead” Archie laughed as he hopped out of his truck and directed Betty and Veronica where to park with Kevin and Joaquin following close on Joaquin's motorbike. “it's not my fault that Y/N picked the farthest possible campsite she could find” Jughead bumped you playfully as you hauled the cooler out of the boot. Playful banter was kinda your and Jugheads style although others may argue it was more flirtatious than playful. You two had been friends forever but both silently hoped for more. “Well it's a holiday weekend so everywhere else was booked up!” you pushed the cooler into his chest coming face to face before letting go of it causing him struggling under the weight of it. “Good god, is all of Archie's hair care in this or something?” Jughead laughed “no no, that's in this” you smirked as you toss a gear bag on top of the cooler watching him struggle more. “Come along my little alpaca, to the hills we go” you grinned. Your friends and you began pitching the 4 tents. Archie had started with a fire and it occurred to him, what were the sleeping arrangements? Would he finally get to cosy up to you? “So what's the situation with us sleeping together” he asked you oblivious. “Umm excuse me? “ you laughed “ummmm excuse me?” Jughead asked more seriously. “no no I...I..I meant the sleeping situation” he stuttered as his cheeks began to heat up. You laughed again, unlike Jughead who continued to glare at the red-headed boy. You decided to put him out of his misery as the others gathered around the now blazing fire to listen. “Okay so I guess B and V….for obvious reasons” you grinned “ehhh then Kevin and Joaquin, again for obvious reasons, Juggy and Archie-doodles and then I'll just take a tent to myself good?” “No!” Archie and Jughead said in unison, turning to look at each other puzzled, with the group exchanging glances. “emmmm okay then….. that was a little weird….” you looked between the two and laughed. “yeah y/n come sleep in B and I’ tent?” Veronica offered. “Nope nope noppidy nope nope, not doing it, ye are so handsy with each other, i'm not getting between you two lovebirds. I'm fine by myself”. The two girls blushed as the rest of the group giggled. “But what about bears?” kevin genuinely looked concerned. “BEARS?!” Betty screeched “well if there weren't any there to begin with they're coming now” you laughed as you rubbed your ears. “Don't worry I will protect you from the bears” Archie laughed. “And I will protect you both from the bears.....even though it's really the bears that need protecting” you grinned. “see y/n/n knows I could take a bear on” Archie threw his arm around you and looked at the group proudly. “Oh no no Archie-boppers trust me, you'd be bear munch, I’m protecting them from a tired groggy Ronnie wielding her heel at them” the group laughed along and Archie smirked keeping his arm over you. Jughead shuffled in his place uncomfortable with the distance, or lack of, between you and Archie. You all sat around the campfire on logs, eating and talking, talking and eating to the start of the new day. You were starting to feel the cold as the fire died down. You pulled the blanket that was thrown over Jughead and yours lap up further but the bite of the air was still there. Before you could say anything a Varsity jacket was thrown over your shoulders. You smiled in thanks to Archie. As you did this you felt Jughead next to you shuffle and tense up in his seat. Noticing his discomfort, but thinking it was just the cold getting to him also, you pushed over closer to him. He sat dead still afraid to move in case it pushed you back away. Tiredness started to sneak in and you rested your head on his shoulder and barely closed your eyes as you felt the weight of his head on yours. As the group stories continued Veronica looked at the two of you and smirked hard, nudging Betty to look also. You began to slouch back with the tiredness so Jughead snaked ((punnnnnssssss)) a hand around your waist and pulled you even closer to him, both relishing in the moment. You woke to Kevin’ voice and Jughead cursed him in his head. “Okay guys, 2 am, time for bed especially if we're going for that hike tomorrow, let's go come on” You stood up slightly shaking as the cold air replaced Jughead. All of you said your good night's and you slipped into the tent crashing to the floor almost immediately falling into a deep sleep as you balled yourself up in the opened out sleeping bag and Varsity jacket. “Hey...hey y/n/n...wake up” you sat up groggy and rubbed your eyes “I swear to god you better be a super polite bear about to rip my head off otherwise I'll rip your head off” you whined. Jughead slipped into the tent zipping it closed as he sat down by your feet. “Jugggggyyyy” you drone checking your phone “it's 4.30 in the morning you better be dying or bringing me be food” Jughead produced biscuits grinning. “Finnnnneee” you smiled as you pushed over allowing him to sit next you throwing some sleeping bag over him. You both sat in comfortable silence for a moment as ye finished the biscuits. You lightly punched him in the arm “you're seriously not going to tell me why you're in my tent at 3.30 am?” you whispered at him quitely laughing. “Archie was snoring and” he started but you cut in lying back down “oh honestly say no more stay as long as you like” “Okay I won't say any more” he smirked. You were about to offer a smart remark about how that was talking when you felt is warm lips meet yours gently. He pulled away looking anywhere but you as he sat back up straighter. You also sat up beside him. “Jug….” “I'm sorry Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry” he genuinely seemed panicked and apologetic while he continued to ramble apologies until you cut across him and kissed him again, this time more passionately. “Jug” you whispered and he pulled you on top of him as you smiled into the kiss while straddling him. There was rustling from outside the tent and you both reluctantly pulled apart. “Do you think that's a bear” you whispered as you slipped off his lap and back to the tent floor. “Hey y/n you awake?” Archie said sticking his head in the tent door. “oh” he looked at both of you sitting up. “Emm there….there you are Juggy I thought maybe a bear got you.. hah...it was just y/n” Archie said half somber half annoyed but definitely not happy about the situation in which he found you. “Sure Im nearly worse than a bear ha.ha.ha.” you tried to soften the mood as the two boys glared at each other. “So emmm what did you need Arch” you attempted a smile. “yeah arch what do you want” Jughead half bit out. You suddenly felt Jughead hand slide onto your thigh protectively under the sleeping bag. You looked at him with wide eyes and bit your lip hoping Archie wouldn't notice any of it it. He did. “I just woke up and couldn't find Jug so I'd thought you'd want to come find him with me….but I see he found you” his tone was harsh. “Arch…” before you could say anything else he swung his head out of the tent and stomped off. You stuck your head out the door after him and watched him throw himself inside his tent. You sighed and closed back over the door and fell backwards onto your back and exhaled loudly. “He's...he's just being dramatic Y/N/N it'll be alright” Jughead lied down to face you but your eyes stayed fixed to the condensation forming on the roof. “Do….do you...do you regret kissing me?” you could practically hear his heart start to break. You rolled over on your side coming face to face with the raven-haired boy. You put your hand to his cheek and he placed his hand over it keeping it there. “Never”. You woke up completely cuddled and tangled up with Jughead, completely full of bliss. You looked up at him with nothing but happiness. You stretched to meet his lips. Jughead moved slightly away before waking up a bit more and and kissing you back. “Good morning Sleeping beauty” you smiled. “Good morning y/n/n”. You snuggled back into his chest and he wrapped his arms even tighter around you. “I have wanted this for so long” he whispered sweetly against your head. “Y/N! Y/N! TIME TO RISE AND SHINE SUNSHINE” kevin said banging on this side of the tent causing the both of you to be soaked in the condensation. “Jesus!” you shouted rubbing the cold water off you with the Varsity jacket instantly feeling guilty for doing so. “Nope not Jesus, just Kevin, come on we're going hiking in 10, we're all just going to the camp shop to get tea….oh! Also apparently there's a river we can swim in so wear your swimsuit!” you heard him step away from the tent. Jughead waited a moment before kissing your head and sneaking out of the tent. The both of you had decided that it wasn't quite the right time to announce what's going on between you two and also you weren't entirely sure what was going on between you two. You met up with the group a little later at the start of the trail. You walked with Kevin and Joaquin and Jughead walked with the girls and Archie. You all hiked all up hills, through trees just laughing and talking and being carefree teens. The group arrived at the edge of the path. Below was a lagoon of water with a waterfall pouring into it. Beautiful. “Come on guys let's go” Veronica said as she kicked off her shoes and pulling her shirt and shorts off. Betty, Kevin and Joaquin followed her. They all held hands and took the leap from the edge into the lagoon. Screaming and laughing as they go. Jughead, Archie and you all laughed. “Come on guys let's go!” you took off your shoes and pulled your sundress over your head. The boys watching you closely. “Cooommme oooonnnnn” you caught Jugheads and Archie's hands and pulled them towards the edge. “no no no no no not today Y/N” Jughead laughed as he dropped your hand reluctantly. Archie just held your hand tighter making Jughead uneasy. Archie took off his shirt and ran to the edge with you. “Scared?” you asked looking out of the side of your eye at Archie. “Emmm n...nnnn...no” he stuttered in reply. You caught back up his hand and counted down from 3 before leaping off hand in hand both screaming as you go. Jughead walked to the edge and watched the two of you splash and mess with each other. Jealously growing he attempted to push it down. Archie lifted you onto his shoulders and you you flew into Kevin who was on Joaquin's. You all laughed until ye were almost in tears at the fun. Archie moved and you slid down his front and into his arms . You leaned back in his arms with the laughter. Closer than ever. Next thing you knew a splash covered the two of you. Jughead swam back to the top of the water and to you. Jughead glared at Archie and he returned the sentiment as you laughed at Kevin falling off Joaquin's shoulders. “Hey Archie you can let go now games over…..Jughead did you actually jump into the water with your beanie still on” you giggled swimming over to him. “Arch come on lift V, I'll ref” Betty said splashing Archie out of his anger. As they play fought, Jughead pulled himself out of the water helping you as he went. The two of you snuck off a bit further into the woods. You wrapped your arms around his neck and he pushed your bare back against a tree. You passionately kissed each other. Jughead ran his hands down your sides. You shivered beneath them. He lifted you so your legs were wrapped around his torso. He began to kiss down your neck. You moaned slightly and Jughead quickly abused the spot. You moaned again louder. “Jug” you breathed. He pulled away allowing you to drop back down to the floor and met your eyes thinking he had done something wrong. “As much as I want you to continue…” you ran a hand down his bare wet torso. His eyes were full of lust as he looked at you. “I…” you shook your head trying to concentrate, Jughead grinned ear to ear at you losing your train of thought. He moved back to your neck. “No no no” you pushed him away a little with your hands on his shoulders regaining your self control. “ I really really want to but not here “ you say leaning your head against his. “I understand….tent tonight?” he eagerly asked, hanging on your every word. You laugh and playfully push him and begin walking away knowing he was watching you carefully in your swimsuit, driving him crazy. “Hey y/n where'd you and Jug go?” Betty asked innocently as Archie eyed you. “Bathroom at the shop. It's close enough to here” you say as you pulled back on your sun dress “where's Jughead now?” “oh I don't know, bears?” you teased. “Don't worry guys I fought him off and it was epic” Jughead appears and throws back on his t shirt as the group roll their eyes. Ye set off but this time you were with Kevin and Jughead while Archie was with the girls. “my feet are so soooooree” you whined. “Ah now not long left” Jughead attempted to appease you “But my feet hurt now, I think I cut the sole of my right in the lagoon” On hearing this Archie whipped around and threw his shoulder into your waist picking you up fireman style “ARCHIE! PUT ME DOWN FOR CHRIST SAKE” You shouted between laughs. “no no come on now m’lady is injured I shall carry her” he beamed knowing that Jughead was watching with tempers rising. “Okay okay but can't you just carry me on your back I think you winded me” you crow. He drops you briefly before you jump onto his back and he carries you there laughing continuing the hike back. “Aww they're kinda cute together don't you think?” kevin cooed to Jughead “no” “Wait what?” “I...I meant they're nothing alike yanno?” “yeah but he's the perfect boy next door,, who wouldn't want him? HEY JOAQUIN MY FEET HURT TOOOOO” Kevin screamed at his boyfriend playfully before running off leaving Jughead trailing behind alone, Kevin's word resonating with him strongly. When you reached camp it was dark. Joaquin and Archie built the fire while you changed. The cold chill came back with vengeance so you emerged from your tent wearing Archie's warm Varsity jacket and your sleeping bag. Archie beamed at this sight, Jughead..well Jughead not so much. The group gathered around the fire once again exchanging stories while cooking dinner. However it wasn't long before the tiredness hit you all like a brick wall. Groggy and sore you all practically crawled into your tents. *sms:Jugx: Juggy come to my tent?-2.34am *sms:Y/N/NxX: No. -2.36 You stared at your phone confused. Did you do something? *sms:Jugx: But I'm freeeeezing- 2.38 *sms:Y/N/NxX: why don't you just snuggle up to Archie's jacket then-2.39 And there it was. The root of the problem. A jealous Juggy. You rolled your eyes so hard they almost came out of your head. *sms:Jugx: Forsythe Pendleton Jones the III. You better get your moody ass over here.- 2.41. Nothing. You waited and sure enough you heard a distant zipper open and close and the rustling of leaves and twigs before Jughead opened your door and zippwd it closed before sitting down next to you. Silence while he looked at the door and you looked at him. “Archie and I are just good friends juggy” “didn't we start that way before..whatever this is happened” he gestured with his hand when he said “us”. “Yeah so? I liked you more than just a friend. I don't like Archie more than just a friend” “I don't think he knows that” “I.don't.want.him.Jug.” you said with emphasis on every word “why wouldn't you he's the perfect guy next door” Kevin's words echoed in his mind. “I don't want that I want you, you tool!” you shoved him and he gave a small smile. “I want you too...in more ways than one” his eyes full of lust looked at you and you bit your lip in response. “any way you want Forsythe, any way you want” *terribly written smut warning* You pushed Jughead back to the floor of the tent and sat on top of him. “I want revenge for this” you pull back your hair revealing a hickey left by Jughead from your earlier...excursion. He exhaled loudly and pulled down to meet his lips. You began to kiss him roughly, moving your hands to pull off his shirt. He sat up with you still between his legs and took the tee off only breaking the kiss for a second. It still felt too long and ye met back with fiercer passion. You bit his bottom lip and he groaned. Moving further down his neck after nibbling his ear you moved to pepper his neck with love bites, his groaning encouraging you along. “you're wearing too much clothes” he breathed as you removed your shirt smirking. He caught your jaw and it was his turn to kiss down your neck. You pushed down on his member causing you both to moan at the friction. “Jug” you breathed and he pulled away slightly worried this was the end “yeah?” “the uh the kissing and bitting is great and all…” “But…” you could hear the sadness in his voice. “I...I just really want you right now and I mean...I want you” you looked at him darkly. He flipped you over so he was on top and kissed down your chest. You leaned up slightly so he could unclasp your bra failing a little at the start but soon you were bare. He kissed, sucked and bit at your boobs being spurred on by your soft moans. Your hands moved for his pj pants and they were soon gone exposing his bulging member attempting to break free from his boxers. Your hand moved to stroke it and he groaned. “Do you have a...a” he asked getting impatient. “no...I'd thought you might have one” “no…..” you both sounded out of breath and sad “Wait…” you leaned over to the long discarded Varsity jacket and checked the inside pocket producing a condom. You couldn't help but laugh. “wow I take his girl and his condom” Jughead joins. “I was never his to begin with so really you're only kinda terrible” you say before ripping the packet open with your teeth diving Jughead crazy. He slipped it on removing his boxers. You moan at the full sight of him. He removes your pants and you were left in your underwear. Jughead kissed your lips before moving down your body and stopping to look you in the eye when he meets your entrance kissing your thighs before pulling down your underwear. Your body trembled under his touch begging for more. You feel his hand play with your clit and you tangle your hands in his beanie-less hair and moan. “you're so wet y/n” he begins to lick your entrance hard as your breathing quickens. He slowly moves two fingers into you catching you by surprise. He starts off slow and then quickens. He sucks your clit hard as you leave out breathless moans. “J..j...Jughead im so close” “are you sure you want to do thi” “Just fuck me already Jughead. Don't be a tease” you whined with shaking legs. He pulls you into a searing kiss removing his fingers. You grab his shoulders before wrapping your legs around his waist feeling his throbbing member. He slowly moves inside of you and doesn't move allowing you both to adjust. He then slowly rocks back and forth causing your back arch. Your hips began to buck involuntarily at first as jughead pants. Jughead bites his lip and quickly moves back to suck your neck more while still thrusting into you. You moan his name as he guides your hips enjoying the control. Soon you are in perfect sync, hitting thrust for thrust. “Jug I'm really close” “Come for me babe” He begins to thrust harder and deeper until your walls tightened around him and you released the knot in your stomach, him following close behind. He fell next to you panting, you both still riding out your highs. You put your head on his chest and pull the sleeping bag over you both “y/n” he panted “yes” “I don't want you doing that with anyone else...ever” “Okay…” “will you be my girlfriend?” “I thought you'd never ask” you say kissing him sweetly. “y/n” “yes” “I'm glad you weren't eaten by bears”

#jughead jones #jughead x reader #jugheadxreader #jughead #jughead smut #jughead x reader smut #archie andrews #archie x reader #betty x veronica #kevin x joaquin #smut #fanfic #riverdale #riverdale x reader #riverdale smut #riverdale imagines #jughead imagine #jughead jones imagine

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shytiff · 4 years ago

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Small August Wins

1 - DL, did my part for PKP, read a bit about leprosy reaction (PKP related), watched a cute movie tune in for love, ara stayed over at my home, edited 1 pld article

2 - exercised a bit, edited 3 pld articles, DL, finished ppt tinpus PKP, walked to the nearby lake with ara, ate nasgor smoked chicken (been a while!) and jco donuts and my tummy is happy, felt afraid with DV exam huft. I hope I can prepare myself properly

3 - DL, edited 1 article, went to school together w ara, deep fried by dr adhi for my minicex (but i am grateful for the opportunity), emir took a while to pick me up (he left home 1530 and arrived 1715) so i did some status work, arrived at home super hungry but moms food is delicious and wow glucose is finally in (after previously supported by nasi uduk and 1 jco donut) and the pain from today sort of fades away.

4 - DL, tried to study as much as i could (the panic is real), went to kencana to get dr adhis signature at 12 but he replied my chat at about 1330 🙃 , finished self reflection, group called with my group for exam prep

5 - did not DL bcs i fell asleep!! Thank god for streak freeze, met up with dr adhi in poli regarding minicex bcs turns out he brought my status etc, hes very kind 🥺 dr yudo kindly took his time to answer questions via wa voicenote even though he had a tiring day 🥺 bless all the kind people in this world

6 - DL, alhamdulillah passed the exam with dr sondang and dr larissa even though i was being a dumb ass student (thankfully theyre patient enough). Honestly panicked during the morning, i was super afraid. Searched some drug dosage for renata. I hope she passes the remed!!

7 - slept and lazed all day :( edited 1 article, dv closing. Managed to say thanks to dr yudo even though i was lowkey near tears bcs i cant for the life of me say something even mildy emotional, DL at like 15 mins before midnight

8 - finally at lvl 3 DL by cheating with my notes lmaoo, ate burgers and half pizza by dcheese pizza but had mencret2 the next day lmaooo, watched bosscha virtual sky sightseeing

9 - DL, watched Summer Vacation, edited 2 articles, put some sheet mask on (the numbers surely diminished since my cousin took some 🙂 ), pretty much watched youtube all day. At night i dreamed going to a villa that kinda looks like matamori, and the villa near it was also booked by other groups of friend, and i was recording snow falling from the sky and snow on the cliffs, but there was also a snake under the bed, and writing patients resume -_-(?)

10 - DL, read pem psikiatri cbt batch 1 optima, 25 CBT PADI, a fruitful 2,5 hr discussion with dr Heriani, SpKJ

11 - DL, poli with mendel hari and dr Khamelia, SpKJ, mustered some courage to do the ppt, phoned the patient to ask a little bit more, fell asleep and thank god i’ve prayed isya

12 - DL, lazied and played get rich, felt sick and was sick, nose congested, head starting to hurt, i dont know what is it that triggered my emotions but when my dad asked "tiff kok bersin2?" i felt like i have no privacy and they were too intruding and i wept silently in my room (bcs ppl outside can hear) and yall my nose just goes 100% blocked. aint accepting air today. Massaged my face around the sinus area until i can somehow breathe nicely and fall asleep. (took about half and hour of snot cleaning, drinking and mulling around)

13 - since i felt bad abt lazying i started my day early. Woke up at 5. Put on tretinoin, 15 CBT PADI, DL, naskah psikiatri WIP (Work in progress). It rained today. The sky was grey half of the day, which I LOVE. I felt better and more cheery, especially at abt 4-5 pm when it was raining hard and im snuggled in bed. The laptop stand arrived and bitch it was fucking amazing. My back and neck muscles felt less awkward and/or sore working at my ergonomically-awful table and chair combo turned ok thanks to laptop stand!!

14 - DL, poli with dr cika, crashed aras place (drank thai tea, ate flip burger and sausages), it felt refreshing to be in a different place rather than seeing my room all day everyday. Afterwards ara indah and i ate po noodle bar, the taste was kind of herbal (not brothy) in a good way. Tried some sort of gyoza, it was good too. Juan got accepted at USU civic engineering. Went to atikahs place, passed a red light and i got ppl a bit annoyed lmao sorry :(((, talked with atikah until 1-2ish pm

15 - richeese and fried rice for brunch time, went back home (felt socially refreshed!) to see 2 bottles of sbux coffee i ordered, claras nastar and vit d supplement from tokped. Did RPS and ikhtisar for naskah. DL. Sbux' coffee still upsets my stomach lmao but it did keep me awake and focused enough til 11 pm

16 - DL, after staying over at friends place i feel.suer content to be just at home. Ate while watching erna limdaughs vids, sleeeept

17 - DL, naskah WIP, whipped myself to go do naskah by drinking caramel macchiato and playing coffee - bts. It tasted better when i hear jks soothing voice

18 - DL, finally panicked a bit and did ppt, read a bit abt bipolar, chugged hazelnut dolce latte and somehow its not bitter anymore it actually tasted good. Talked w mendel and hari a bit abt the patient

19 - the dr actually showed up to zoom while i was opening other screen and i didnt realize (ultra embarrassing!!!) basically my diagnosis for axis I and II were wrong. She was kindly explaining and i was more dissapointed with myself but at least its all over? Talked w hansel a bit. Revised a bit of naskah. Submitted hardcopy of naskah and refleksi to mbak Asma. Went to ara. DL, ate gwen's dimsum (quite good and fulfilling). Planned to go to kashiwa but we ended up getting bakmi akiaw. Went back "home" to DM, took only 35 mins.

20 - DL, slept half of the day since im on my period (what even is daily structure), woke up in the evening, decided to start “the folk of the air” series. Binged the first book in one go, from 8 pm to 1 am lmaoo

21 - DL, finished the series at night. it’s nice but not as good as six of crows duology. bts comeback with dynamite!! :) i love them. its scary to think they are still progressing and going up and getting better stats. When will it all stop?

22 - discussion with dr natalia spKJ at 7.30 am, DL, drank matcha latte at starbucks airport hub (been a while! It doesnt taste quite good as i remembered) while backing up HD data at drive and some padi CBT (finished TO 3. After all this time, only to 3?!), felt a bit better after i went out, read a falling cohabitation again

23 - DL, danced to baepsae, slept in the afternoon (my body is too weak nowadays)

24 - DL, psychiatry closing, 1 pamela reif vid, 2P (CBT PADI)

25 - DL, made latar belakang for propeks nemo

26 - DL, 4P, rapat nemo

27 - DL, met up with atikah pupuy @ toska, tried yogurt and fruit, mac and cheese, vegan mentai rice and had dinner @ bakmi gm. mom somehow told (and allowed) me to go back home (it was 9 am and i was abt to stay over at atikah’s)

28 - DL, i dont feel like doing anything helppp, i know there’s stuff that im supposed to do but i cant bring myself to do it. a week will pass by, a month, and before you know it exam will arrive

29 - DL, ordered burgushi, i literally have no strength to go at static bike (can only do for a couple of mins), didnt rly do anything else bcs im in a slump nowadays

30 - its scary that the month is almost over again. my life just goes away like that but i still dont feel like doing anything, DL, tried to follow some dances on youtube to move my body

31 - DL, 2A, 4P

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sadrien · 7 years ago

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wanna chat? pt.22

on ao3 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 7 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15 | 16 | 17 | 18 | 19 | 20 | 21| 22

sup

woke up feeling super drained and out of it this morning. thought maybe writing would help, but nothing was working, so we're here.

shoutout to @sunlitshowers because we looked up flavors of capri sun for an answer on my deh ask blog and she found so many great capri sun flavors and ads. it was amazing

i dont know whats happening here anymore but enjoy

2:45

nino: yo check out how many flavors of fucking caprisun there is https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Capri_Sun#Flavors

6:23

ladybugfan2020: rip me apparently there was an akuma attack last night????? and i missed it??? oh it was on the other side of the city w/e then i got pics its chill whats this link nino?? caprisun?? holy SHIT i need 2 try alL OF THESE tag yourself im…….. monster alarm i am monster alarm

ladybugfan2020 has changed their nickname to monster alarm

6:39

nino has changed their nickname to mystic dragon

mystic dragon: what do you think mystic dragon tastes like

monster alarm: something fucking awesome

adrien: I have so many questions

mystic dragon: click the link my dude join us in this knowledge

adrien: What the hell??? Who thought that the world needed THAT MANY flavors of Capri Sun???

monster alarm: me this is amazing im living i love it hey marsh think u can pull some strings so we can get every single of caprisun ever

adrien: No offense but I don’t think my dad would be thrilled with buying Um 43 different flavors of Capri Sun

mystic dragon: did you just count those

monster alarm: MORE than 43 thats definitely MORE

adrien: Only 43 flavors are for sale! We don’t even live in the right country for some of these

monster alarm: come on rich boy!!!!! also,, nickanme

adrien: Fine fine

adrien has changed their nickname to multivitamin

mystic dragon: boy

monster alarm: why do i like you

PM between multivitamin and marinette

multivitamin: Hey Mari Guess what If we were a Capri Sun flavored, we’d be power team

8:02 in out damned spot

mystic dragon: has anyone talked to mari today????

monster alarm: not me

multivitamin: Nope

mystic dragon: do you think shes awake?

monster alarm: uh oh

monster alarm has renamed this conversation to “orange wake up mari!!!”.

mystic dragon: oh yeah thatll DEFINITELY work al good job

monster alarm: what am i supposed to do!!!!!!!!!!!!! i already tried calling she didnt pick up

multivitamin: I’ve got her

monster alarm: wait really??

multivitamin: Yeah sorry we might’ve called at the same time

monster alarm: cool see u nerds at school

mystic dragon: i feel so loved

PM between multivitamin and marinette

multivitamin: Mari Mari Mari are you going to wake up I know we had a really really late night last night I just want to make sure you get to school I’m gonna show up on your balcony don’t freak out I mean you aren’t going to see this if you’re asleep so you’ll probably freak out anyway Ok I’m just going to apologize now If you punt me to the other side of the country I totally understand

8:17 in orange wake up mari!!!

marinette: IM UP IM UP IM ON MY WAY OH MY GOD WHAT THE FUCK WAS HAPPNEIG NI HER E

mystic dragon: mari!!!

monster alarm: soooo many things babe get here so we can explain

multivitamin: Get here faster Mari, I think Alya is going to explode

marinette: Fuuuucccckkkkkkkkkkk Allso I hate ALL OF YOU WE ALL HAVE M NAMES THIS SUCK S

monster alarm: i can fix this change ur nickname to elfentrank fairy drink

marinette: excuse me??????

monster alarm: just do it!!!!!!!!!!

mystic dragon: bruh

marinette: FINE FINE!!

marinette has changed their nickname to elfentrank fairy drink

elfentrank fairy drink: Are you happy???/

monster alarm: i am DELIGHTED

mystic dragon: hell yeah girl

multivitamin: Did you all know this chat is exhausting

monster alarm: MARI GET TO CLASS

elfentrank fairy drink: IM GOING

15:03

elfentrank fairy drink: Ok Nino Why the fuck were you on the caprisun wiki page at 3 in the morning

mystic dragon: what else are you supposed to do at 3 in the monring?????

monster alarm: thats teh most valid point u could make

elfentrank fairy drink: Remind me how to leave this sky pe group And this friendship

mystic dragon: wow

monster alarm: </3

PM between multivitamin and elfentrank fairy drink

elfentrank fairy drink: We are not calling ourselves power team

multivitamin: Dammit You going to bed soon??

elfentrank fairy drink: It is??? Only 15:25??????

multivitamin: Yeah but you fell asleep during lunch

elfentrank fairy drink: Its fine its fine Im getting used to the no sleep thing for sure You got the same amount of sleep that I did!! Less!!!!!!

multivitamin: I took a nap after school before my shoot It was great It was on the floor

elfentrank fairy drink: Your life is a mess

multivitamin: So is yours bug You were sleeping on your desk chair when I showed up this mornin g

elfentrank fairy drink: LiSTEN We got back at lik e 4 I hate so many thing s Hawk Moth is top of the list Hes not the entier list because I also hate like Homework and stuff BUt hes at the TOP

multivitamin: Go to bed Mari

elfentrank fairy drink: Adrien I cannot explain to you hOW MUCH I HAV ET O DO HOW DO PEOPLE IN COMICS BALANCE BEING A SUPERHERO WITH EVERYTHING ELSE THIS SUCKS!!!!!!!!!

multivitamin: Well for one thing they aren’t real And we are And I feel like a lot of superheroes have problems balancing but Al knows more about superheroes than I do

elfentrank fairy drink: IM GOING TO FAILI OUT OF SCHOOL EBCAUSE OF HAWK MOTH HOW DID HANNAH MONTANA DO IT

multivitamin: Hannah Montana had lots of money and also? Wasn’t fighting evil

elfentrank fairy drink: You dont know that

multivitamin: Ok that’s true

elfentrank fairy drink: Im literally Drowning in work I cant sleep I willl neve r be able to sleep again OH my go d

multivitamin: You ok buggy?

elfentrank fairy drink: No No?? I dont think so Ahhhhhhhh help IM so tired and I have all this physics whcih what hte fuck and Im literally going to break hawk mtohs face?

multivitamin: That’s relatable

elfentrank fairy drink: You NEVER breakdown about this how is that fair??

multivitamin: I mean I do Like all the time

elfentrank fairy drink: ??? Why dont you tell m e?

multivitamin: Because I don’t like bothering people with my problems I have Plagg though and I’m used to dealing with things on my own

elfentrank fairy drink: Thats bullshit??? Im oyour friend and partner youre supposed to t ell m e this stuff

multivitamin: Ok Ok I will If you promise to go to sleep

elfentrank fairy drink: HA

multivitamin: I’m coming over We can talk about emotions because sleep deprived and exhausted is the best time to do that And we can nap I’ll try to help with physics but no promises because I wasn’t payinga ttention today

elfentrank fairy drink: Pfff Ive never paid attention to anything ayn whreer FUck typin g But thanks

multivitamin: Of course <3 Be there soon

#adrien agreste #marinette dupain cheng #nino lahiffe #alya cesaire #miraculous ladybug #wanna chat #my fics #heres garbage pelase love me

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What would be a valid thing to submit as evidence for adhd? I feel like my teachers never noticed anything, all it ever says on my report is 'quiet', and im in the uk and you need school reports for diagnosis, and i feel like i wont be taken seriously cos they dont say 'bouncing off the walls' or something

I feel you, nonny. I wasn’t diagnosed until college because I was just “quiet.”

Odds are, if a lot of the symptoms add up enough to make you SUSPECT you have ADHD, you probably have it. But more research is always good!

So like many things, ADHD is a spectrum. The two ends of it are Inattentive to Hyperactive- and then you have people like me, in the middle, with the Combined version. Some people have more Inattentive than Hyperactive, some have more Hyperactive than Inattentive. Everyone who has ADHD experiences the symptoms a little differently.

You can find about six thousand symptoms lists online, but here I’ll tell you things that usually don’t end up on those lists that my therapist told me a lot of her patients ended up experiencing aside from listed symptoms.

(Note: Initially I tried to keep these short. Yeah, that didn’t work. I bolded the important parts.)

1. Insomnia, or at least a super screwy sleep schedule. No joke, this can be super detrimental and will only serve to exacerbate your symptoms. “Just set a sleep schedule!! You’ll feel better!” they all say- Thanks Barbara if I had any control over when my brain chooses to sleep at all I wouldn’t have this issue, ok?

-a solution to this is to, in all actuality, condition yourself. Start ONLY using your bed for sleep. Get a little chair or something in your room if you’re also a hermit like I was growing up (mushroom chairs are gr9) and once you get out of bed, don’t let yourself get back on it for more than a few minutes unless you’re going to sleep.

Some nights it’s not enough, but in general for me personally this has been an actual lifesaver- I can go from being not tired to exhausted at the drop of a hat in normal life anyway (another symptom they don’t usually tell you about) so it’s nice to be able to make it work for me for once- I get into bed, maybe spend 30 minutes restless and then I’m out.

2. On the subject of sleep. You kids ever heard of the sleep of the dead? Because guess what, I have ignored literal fire alarms in dorms because of it. About 1-2 hours into my sleep I enter a state akin to a bear hibernating. I have slept through wake-up alarms, slept through emergency alerts, slept through FIRE alarms, slept though friends and family attempting to wake me… you get the picture.

3. On the note of the hibernating bear. You constantly wake up angry (or at least disgruntled) at the universe and take a really, really long time to power on. No, I’m not talking “a case of the mornings.” I’m talking it takes me until noon some days to actually feel somewhat alert. I’m talking feeling nothing but seething rage at anyone who tries to engage you in higher brain function before you’re fully awake.-the seething rage is more personal to me, but, every single last one of my friends who’s ADHD has issues getting up in the morning. There’s hating mornings, and then there’s hating mornings.

4. About mornings. You’re constantly late to anything in the morning because you just couldn’t “get going.” i.e., you knew and 100% wanted to get up and get moving but your brain said “nah, let’s just sit here on tumblr mobile for a while k?”-it’s very difficult to describe this part of executive dysfunction with words, because it comes off as laziness to a lot of neurotypicals. It’s not laziness. It’s having the motivation and and will and the drive to do something and not forgetting about it and it still doesn’t get done.

“Why didn’t you do x?” they’ll ask. And you just sit there thinking shit, you meant to, really, honest to god meant to, it was on your brain to do and yet all you could actually do that day was sit around and watch terrible TV. And then you feel terrible because YOU think you’re lazy.It’s not laziness. It’s executive dysfunction.

5. Another not so well known EXDYF fact: Mental math or memorization for you will always be the literal bane of your existence. Teachers always told me I was a “smart kid” in school (I am, but not the point) and then they’d wonder why I couldn’t memorize a five line poem.

Or I’d start off with a 60 on a math test, until my teacher would comb through my work by hand (only useful math teacher I ever had in high school tbh) and I’d end up with a 92 because nearly all of my mistakes involved basic arithmetic errors. Even though I was able to use a calculator on the test.

(One time I decided 21-19=14. To this day 8 years later I still do not know from what abyss my brain pulled that info from.)

“You’re smart! Just focus!” I can’t choose what my brain decides to focus on that easily, Sharon, not without a lot of crying and panicking.

6. But wait! You say. I have really obscure information from a fandom that I can infodump on someone at a moment’s notice! Surely that means I’m just Lazy and Unmotivated, right? I guess I just can’t be bothered to memorize the important stuff.

*Loud buzzer noise* Stop right there. Do not pass go. Do not collect $200.

I will take you by the shoulders and look deep into your eyes and make you realize that guess what? If you have an ADHD brain, you have NO control over telling your brain what is important and what is not. Zero. Zip. Zilch. Nada. Your brain decides, and you usually get no say in the matter.

This sounds bad, I know. And in terms of school, birthdays, appointments, it’s terrible. But you’re not helpless. It sounds trite, but, get a good goddamn calendar app on your phone and use the hell out of it for appointments and birthdays. And for school? Find those fandoms and use mnemonics. No, seriously.

7. Also on school: You procrastinate the hell out of everything. And I’m not talking normal “haha I’ll do it later!” procrastination. I’m talking serious, problematic, REPEATED “why the fuck can’t I just do it on time like a normal person” procrastination where you start blaming yourself for not doing it sooner like a neurotypical.

Listen, buddy ol’ pal (or however that goes), you’re not neurotypical. But listen- there’s actually a medical reason why you do this.

So everyone’s brains have reward systems, right? Your brain gives you the feel good when you do something you think you should. And later, a brain remembers that it got the feel good for doing the thingy thing.

In a brain with ADHD, that reward system malfunctions. Sometimes critically. Your brain chucks so much stuff it deems “unnecessary” out the window it chucked out that feel good you got when you turned in that homework on time, or cleaned out your car, or did some pilates for 30 minutes.

8. You want to know what doesn’t help with number 7 there? Another thing that won’t show up on symptom lists but that virtually everyone I know with ADHD (quite a few, actually. Turns out we hang out in packs because we’re usually the only people who can understand each other) about ADHD is how daunting large tasks or projects seem to an ADHDer.

So listen, more medical talk here. Remember that EXDYF thing? Yeah, this is part of that.

EXDYF makes it very, very hard (almost impossible, sometimes) to break down large tasks into smaller, more feasible tasks. You get nervous the longer you put off that paper (“this isn’t something you can spit out overnight!”) You’ve been sitting in front of your computer for hours, and the only word you have written down is “The”.

Honestly, I’m not sure why it’s actually super hard to break down large undertakings into smaller tasks for the ADHD brain. But! Solution.

-if you’re having a problem breaking down ANY sort of task, I promise there’s someone else who’s done it online.

Need to write a paper? Use a template. Need to clean out your car? Find a checklist, or have a friend make you one (cause Lord knows I can’t make one on my own). Need to make a presentation? Find a sample one online. Hell, this even works for taxes. (Gasp!)

Do NOT be afraid to ask for help with even personal large undertakings. If your friends are actually your friends, then they’ll relish the chance. Especially when you can turn around and blaze through a quarter of the important project you two (or however many) have due next week in four hours because of hyperfocus.

9. So, your focus. Totally trash, right? That is, until you hyperfocus.

Hyperfocus, to a neurotypical, probably sounds great. Tune out all distractions and get shit done, right?

Sure, Linda, if you can call being able to ignore things like the need to sleep, eat, and use the bathroom “tuning out distractions.” Time becomes a literal illusion. And damn do you pay for it later by your brain not wanting to do anything at all.

On the flip side, this is why ADHD people make fantastic emergency workers like EMTs and firepeople. If you learn what to do with adrenaline when you start feeling it, you feel like you could punch Satan himself when you’re riding an adrenaline+hyperfocus high. Combine that with the fast-paced, unexpected nature of such jobs and and you have a happy ADHD brain because it’s never bored.

10. Because boredom feels like death. No, Cheryl, I’m not being overdramatic. Yes, Becky, I recognize everyone has to deal with boredom.

A neurotypical’s boredom and an ADHDer’s boredom are two very different levels of boredom. Ever heard the phrase “bored to tears”? Now imagine every time you get even a little bored, it’s like this.

And of course, the ADHD hell brain remembers the bad feels of being bored but can’t recall how nice it was to remember all of the answers on a quiz that one time you paid attention in class.This is why I have the worst problems doing homework and housework, or in general anything with serious repetition (exercise, cooking, driving, tidying up etc.). I can do it for maybe 10-15 minutes, and then my brain’s like “k I’m good. Next source of input please?” like, brain, I’m only like 3 feet into washing the kitchen floor. P l s.

11. Speaking of tears. Has rejection by someone you value ever felt like you wanted to quit existing on the spot, or at the very least wanted to move to an ice cave in Greenland and cry for the rest of your life? Even if the rejection was just perceived rejection and your friend was just expressing grumpiness at something else?

Even if your logic says “they didn’t reject you calm down you’re overreacting?”

Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria. It’s a newer term, but honestly, once I found out about my own ADHD and this bitch of a symptom a loooooooot of my weird habits started making a lot of sense in my head.

It doesn’t have to be actual “rejection”. It can get set off from stuff like awkwardness (hence my personal resistance to making Adult Phone Calls) to disbelief (a huge, huge reason so many people go undiagnosed), to personal judgment and/or criticisms (oh, ok… I guess I’ll never mention my love for X ever again) to even just indifference (no one noticed I mopped all the floors in the house… guess I’ll just go die!).

Basically, if you perceive that someone you care about has dismissed you in some fashion, you literally just want to quit existing. On the spot. Because the feeling of it makes you feel sick, your chest gets tight, you can feel it in your hands, and it makes the rest of your day miserable.This variant is more likely with people you care about, but can definitely 100% happen with strangers too.

Another variant is this: if you perceive that someone (whether you care about them or not) has dismissed you in some fashion, your first instinct is to attempt to disregard and discard them completely. It usually doesn’t work like you want it to.

I’m pretty sure this is another reason why ADHD people hang out in packs. We always have a line in our head we’re terrified to cross with our friends. It makes us seem like we’re emotionally unavailable- but in reality we’re just terrified of being dismissed by our friends for showing our true geeky, infodumping, hyperfixating selves.

(Listen. If a friend mocks you for your true self they weren’t your friend in the first place.)

12. But in terms of crossing that line… Social cues? What are social cues?

Normal people can infer a lot from body language. With a lot of ADHD people, we tend not to notice. Or we notice too much and overanalyze. There’s no in between.

On a side note, your best bet for flirting successfully with an ADHDer is to just come out and say it. (Talk like an elcor. “Flirtatiously: I want to hear more.” or whatever innocent phrase it is you’re using to flirt. If they’re into Mass Effect, this will make them laugh, which means bonus points for you in their eyes.)But seriously, unless you’re making obviously romantic overtures we’re usually pretty sure you’re just being nice.

Back on topic: lack of social ability is a massive, massive reason people with ADHD are usually bullied growing up. If there aren’t any other ADHD people around, it usually feels like no one “gets” you. I was bullied horribly enough during junior high and high school to the point where I still have to repress the urge to automatically assume someone being nice to me means they’re plotting something behind my back. (Didn’t help that my hs was basically the Korriban Sith academy without most of the death. Culty, religious, nepotism ran rampant.)

13. Woe betide thee who angers the ADHD. It's not a problem with everyone, but... We’re like volcanoes. Awe-inspiring to watch in action, but God help you if we explode in your direction. And if it’s righteous anger there is almost literally no stopping us.

Anger has its uses. Our problem is that, like a volcano, we always have a lot simmering under the surface. We tend to hold onto it for ridiculous amounts of time until one day, boom. Yeah, I know, Kathy, that happens with everyone. Delayed gratification and all. The difference with ADHDers is that we usually don’t wait.

ADHDers’ anger will come out initially, because we can’t suppress it. We’re impulsive as fuck. We don’t think before we leap (our brains probably wouldn’t let us anyway). And it will seem like we are flying off the handle for no reason whatsoever. But we also have a tendency to unhealthily hold onto it afterwards even once the initial burst has happened. It’s like a (bad!) positive feedback loop.

14. Gotta bounce the leg. Gotta rock. Gotta fidget. Shit, I’m sorry, were you talking?

So one time I made it through 40 minutes of a math class actively suppressing the urge to bounce my leg… and then my leg twitched of its own accord. Freaky as shit, 0/10 recommend.

Sitting still is physically impossible for me, and for a lot of ADHDers. Lack of impulse control + lack of social cue knowledge + lack of ability to decide what’s important to our brains = Fidget fidget. Fidget fidget. Twitch. Fiddle with paper. Hey, my backpack has a fun texture by the zipper. Oh my God, that lady on the TV is wearing the best shade of blue ever! I wonder where she got it. Shit, I need to go shopping. Wait, why did I need to go shopping again?

“Hey I asked you what you got for number 7.”

Fuck.

15. Depressive episodes. For me, these usually happen after a major hyperfocus where I taxed my brain for all it was worth, especially for long periods of time.

If it lasts for a long time or starts seriously affecting your life, get it checked out. If your doctor gives a damn they’ll be happy you came in to get it checked, even if it was the wrong diagnosis, because if it had been then at least they were there to help you. And they’ll always be happy to sit down and figure out what’s wrong. I know they have to watch out for hypochondriacs and whatnot. But if a doctor really cares about helping people they’ll listen when you say something’s wrong, because they know that you’re the one in your skin, not them. Which means if you really think something might be wrong, something probably is.

More evidence: justexecutivedysfunctionthings here on tumblr. Contains people’s experiences with EXDYF, which is a huge red flag for ADHD.

The Wikipedia article on the subject. There’s a nicely organized chart. (Or at least there was when I looked at it.) Remember, you don’t have to identify with all of the symptoms to be ADHD. Even if you only identify with a few, if they’re significant enough that they are seriously impacting your life and existence, it’s worth getting checked out.

I may add more to this later/change some stuff as my memory allows.

#long post #adhd #asks

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berribaek · 7 years ago

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11 questions tag

Rules: 1. Post the rules. 2. Answer the questions given to you by the tagger. 3. Write 11 questions of your own. 4. Tag 11 people.

Tagged by the lovely @bamethyst <33 tysm noora!!! i really went ham on these wow enjoy my rambling lmaoooo

1. who is your ultimate bias and how did they become your bias? wow okay buckle up kiddos this is a long ride LMAO since im a hoe i have like 3 ub’s (kookie doesnt count yeT LEAVE ME ALONE LAUREN) ok so when i really got into exo yixing was my bias for a while but then baekhyun was like hello love me and i was like shit u rite and tbh can anyone resist him???? so yeah he was the bias wrecker for a while but between his stupid sunshine smiles and his honey voice and his bubbly personality and frankly amazing dance moves (fite me on this his charisma is off the charts ok) i was like i cant keep living a lie anymore and he became the ultimate babe and continues to ruin my life to this day <3 as for bts yoongi caught my eye cuz of that damN PEACH HAIR WHICH I MISS LIKE HELL BRING IT BACK WTF and his stupid sexy rapping and his cute face and gummy smile and relatable memes and i was like <3 x12948172 but then jimin came outta nowhere with his adorable giggles and rood dancing and general ethereal-ness and i was like well shit guess i’ll die lol and here we are! in denial about kookie being a total babe and giving me heart attacks on the daily cuz i refuse to admit defeat ayyyy *finger guns into the distance*

2. how did you find kpop and what made you stay? shit man i dont even remember at this point?? i think the first time i saw kpop was like snsd’s “gee” and suju’s “mr. simple” in like 2010 LMAOOO some of my friends were really into it so i started listening to a lot of suju and from the recommended videos i stumbled upon henry’s “trap” which featured kyuhyun and TAEMIN!! and then i was like damn tae ilu so i started listening to shinee a lot too lmao but what REALLY sucked me into this hellhole was when i found exo’s overdose and !!!! WHOO BOII LORDY the choreo blew me away and the song was so catchy and i was like wtf i must know more and then exo happened and then bts happened and then i became multifandom trash and just started listening to everything and now im a walking trash can :)

3. what’s your favourite colour? hm i’d say blue at this point loool but tbh i dont really have a favourite colour?? i basically love any pastel colours haha based on the colours i wear the most tho it’d be blue black and white lmao

4. what’s your favourite kpop music video ever? ohmygod what an impossible question wtf one of the main reasons i love kpop so much is cuz the music video quality and production is always out of this world like wtf the aesthetics and concepts are so unique and creative everytime i watch a new mv im like this is my new fave mv LMAO buuuuuut for the sake of my sanity some of my favourite ones are: love me right by exo (STILL SCREAMING ABT THE AESTHETICS), blood sweat and tears by bts (MORE AESTHETICS WTFF), overdose by exo (just cuz its fkin cool to watch) and run by bts (cuz feels)

5. what’s your favourite season? spring! i get cold super easily (read: wearing a sweater rn and cold even tho its like 22 outside; which is hella warm for september here lmao) so honestly screw u winter lol and while i also love fall its too cold and rainy sometimes :c summer is great bc of the break but spring just makes me feel all happy cuz its like the world is coming back to life after winter and the flowers come out and its sunny and warm again and im like damn life is worth living; summer is coming and school’s almost out lol it just makes me feel less depressed and more optimisitc in general

6. do you prefer pink or blue? hmm probably blue! there are so many different hues blue can be happy or sad or melancholy and i like how varied and expressive it is (but pink is soft and cute so theres also that lol)

7. what was your favourite look your bias ever wore? uhm what is this question omg how am i supposed to answer this

ok ill stop now wow

8. sunrise or sunset? im hardly ever (aka never) awake early enough to see the sunrise so sunset it is! i find that sunsets are a lot more vibrant and bold and i have a lot of fond memories watching the sunset in various places :) reminds me of summer most of the times ;u;

9. if you had to choose: YG, SM or JYPE? shit im like lowkey sm trash just cuz all of their groups and music and mvs are like ??? so on point all the time?? so yeah sm even tho i also lowkey hate them LMAO

10. what’s your favourite outfit to wear? lmao my fashion sense is like 200% lazy idgaf tired student like all the time so probably ripped blue jeans with a white tee and my adidas cuz im a basic hoe

11. how long does it usually take you to get ready in the mornings? fam listen..... if im desperate?? like 3 minutes lmao (so yeah random story time! i had a physics quiz on wednesday last week at 11 am.... and i woke up at 11:20... and it takes me 30 minutes to walk to front campus :))) most stressful morning of my life but ive never bolted outta bed so fast before) in general tho like 5-10 minutes normally?

my questions:

1. go to starbucks drink? (or drink in general) 2. favourite physical feature about your bias? 3. whats something dumb/embarassing you’ve done recently? 4. favourite meme? 5. your dream collaboration between artists? 6. what’s your ideal sunday afternoon? 7. favourite era for your bias? 8. one thing you hate that most people love? 9. would you rather live in the city, countryside or suburbs? 10. favourite movie? 11. early mornings or late nights?

#tag games #thanks for tagging me ilyyy #i love this tag lol its always so entertaining

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seigyokus · 7 years ago

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3.4 - Pride, Rifts

Idolish Seven - Part 3, Chapter 3.4 For more Part 3 translations, click here!

Translation below the cut!

Izumi Mitsuki: Say....... Nikaidou Yamato: Hm? Izumi Mitsuki: I'll get right to the point-- what's Chiba Salon? Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Izumi Mitsuki: You said that you entered the entertainment industry so you could expose Chiba Salon. What do you mean? Izumi Mitsuki: Yamato-san, why do you know so many people in the industry? How do you know Yuki-san? Did you know him from before? Izumi Mitsuki: To be honest, I didn't mean to ask you all of this. It's just.... You look really tired and frazzled lately. Nikaidou Yamato: ......Haha. Nikaidou Yamato: Come on. You too? I can't believe both you and Nagi are such goddamn voyeurs. Finally showing your true colors, eh? Izumi Mitsuki: 'Voyeur'...? Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Ah, no-- Izumi Mitsuki: You.... You know, Nagi is really, really worried about you, right? Did you really think that all of that was nothing more than voyeurism or plain old curiosity......? Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Nikaidou Yamato: Well, he is being excessively curious about stuff. You too. Izumi Mitsuki: ......Do you really mean that? Izumi Mitsuki: Did you really mean all that stuff about how we're only prying because we're curious? Nikaidou Yamato: Hey now, I'm not criticizing you or anything. That's just how people are, right?. Nikaidou Yamato: Well, if you really want something thrilling, then go read gossip articles online. Goodnight.... Izumi Mitsuki: --Hold up, you asshole! Nikaidou Yamato: Woah, that was close! I almost spilled my coffee! Izumi Mitsuki: You know what Mister Shimooka told me? He was like, 'Wait, you don't know? Even though you're such good friends?' Izumi Mitsuki: How did you think I felt when he said that!? Why do I have to learn about you through rumors! Nikaidou Yamato: Mitsu, don't shout. You'll wake up the others. Izumi Mitsuki: I was gonna wait for you! I was gonna wait until you were ready to open up and talk to us about it! I even told Nagi and Tamaki that to calm them down! Izumi Mitsuki: But what the hell is up with you!? You're spewing downright awful stuff at people who are worried about you and saying whatever the hell you want to say. Aren't you just running away!? Nikaidou Yamato: ......Shut up! Izumi Mitsuki: ....... Nikaidou Yamato: Worried...? Are you really saying that? You're just frustrated that somebody else knew about it while you didn't. That's all there is to it! Izumi Mitsuki: Of course I was! I was really frustrated! Is it wrong for me to be frustrated!? Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Izumi Mitsuki: Just give me a real answer, Yamato-san.... If you don't wanna talk about it, then just tell me that you don't wanna talk about it. That's enough for me. Izumi Mitsuki: If you told me to wait, then I'd wait! Just stop playing it off! Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Izumi Mitsuki: Or am I supposed to use that here? Nikaidou Yamato: Use what...? Izumi Mitsuki: The 'moderation' you gave me. (1) Izumi Mitsuki: Am I really supposed to use that here, on us? Until you properly talk to me and we both understand each other? Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Izumi Mitsuki: ....... Nikaidou Yamato: Haha.... Well, in the end that's all there is to being a member. (2) Izumi Mitsuki: ....... *smack*

Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: ...I don't really know, to be honest. I do feel guilty, there's no way I wouldn't. But.... Somewhere deep down inside, I don't think I'm completely lying either. Midou Torao: No? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I just want to make the people watching me happy. That feeling holds true for whenever I sing, or dance, or keep up that persona. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Playing the part of a sexy, man of luxury is just like executing a difficult dance step. During those times, what I'm really thinking about is stuff like.... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Am I crushing the dreams of the people who love me? Am I showing them something they can be satisfied with? Am I properly supporting my friends like this? Midou Torao: Friends? Are you talking about Kujou Ten or Yaotome Gaku? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: And also the people at the agency and all of the staff members. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: So many people are doing their best to support me. That's how the me on TV happens. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: These people make me into entertainment through their vast wisdom and experience. Midou Torao: ....... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: There are times when that on-stage and off-stage gap is painful, and there are times when I feel really bad that it causes my family trouble, but.... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: My friends know what I'm really like and support me. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Even though keeping this a secret is suffocating at times, it's also part of the bond between me and my friends. Midou Torao: I see....... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: It would've been really hard if I had to keep it a secret from my friends too. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: As a member of TRIGGER, I'm determined to make this group even bigger. So no matter how much my heart aches, that lie is a completely different matter. (3) Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: If I had to lie to Gaku or Ten about this though....... Every day would be so terrifying, and I'd probably end up hating myself. I'm sure I'd try to run away from them too, just so that I wouldn't have to see their faces. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: It'd be so taxing.... There's a good chance I'd lash out and say terrible things to them too. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I'm really glad that it's not like that.

*click* Nanase Riku: T-there was a really loud noise just now. Is everything okay!? Izumi Iori: Noisy indeed. Just who is awake--

Izumi Mitsuki: --Don't fuck with me, you dumbass! Nikaidou Yamato: You idiot! I can't believe you punched me in the face when I'm in the middle of filming....! Izumi Iori: ......! Nii-san! What are you doing!? Nanase Riku: Yamato-san, are you okay!? Izumi Mitsuki: Fine, then! Just keep on saying whatever the hell you want for the rest of your damn life! Go ahead, keep on pretending you don't give a shit! (4) Nikaidou Yamato: Don't fucking lecture me on this! There's no way someone like you would understand how I feel! Izumi Mitsuki: If you want me to understand, then tell me! With your own voice! In your own words! Izumi Mitsuki: I couldn't hate you, even if you were a criminal! There's no way I could ever forget all of the things you've done for me! Izumi Mitsuki: Why can't you understand that!? Izumi Iori: You can't, Nii-san! Any further, and-- Izumi Mitsuki: ......... Nikaidou Yamato: ......God, shut the fuck up. Nanase Riku: I-I'll bring some bandages. Let me see your face-- Nikaidou Yamato: It's fine. I'm going back to my room. *click* Rokuya Nagi: ....... What happened? Yamato.... Nikaidou Yamato: ....... *slam* Rokuya Nagi: The corner of his mouth was bleeding. Did he fight with someone? Izumi Mitsuki: ......I hit him. Rokuya Nagi: ...You hit him, Mitsuki? *click* Osaka Sougo: What happened...? I heard shouting....... Yotsuba Tamaki: ...Where's Yama-san?

Midou Torao: Thanks for tonight. I had fun. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: If anything, I should be the one thanking you. I feel a lot better now after talking to you. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: To be honest, I've been bottling up my feelings since there's a lot going on with my family right now. But I remember my resolve now, along with my pride. I know I can proudly tell my younger brother…. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: “I'm TRIGGER's Tsunashi Ryuunosuke, and I'm determined to make my members and my family happy.” Midou Torao: Haha. You're a good older brother. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Oh, not at all. Midou Torao: Say, Ryuunosuke. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Hm? Midou Torao: If I told you I recorded our entire conversation tonight, what would you do? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Record? For what purpose? Midou Torao: Selling it to the press. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: ....... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: You want to be popular with women, right? I have faith in your kindness, Torao-kun. Midou Torao: Haha. Sorry, that was a joke. Ah, right. Do you mind if I ask you for some advice? Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Advice? What kind? Midou Torao: Apparently this one singer I know ran into problems with her agency. Do you know her? Hanamaki.... Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Is it Hanamaki Sumire-san? Of course I know her! Isn't she the number one hit artist right now? I didn't know you were acquainted with her. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: I bump into her a lot at shows. I'm always here to listen, if you don’t mind someone like me. Midou Torao: You're a lifesaver. I'll contact you later. Tsunashi Ryuunosuke: Got it. Good night, Torao-kun. Midou Torao: ....... ....... Midou Torao: ......Hello? Yeah, I met him. He just left. Midou Torao: Didn't seem like one of the top brass in the current Chiba Salon though. ......Huh? Midou Torao: Aw, come on. I didn't bully him. --That's mean, Ryou-san.

Nikaidou Yamato: ....... Yotsuba Tamaki: ......Yama-san, what are those suitcases for? Are you going somewhere? Nikaidou Yamato: I'm not gonna come back for a while. I really can't cause any more trouble for the people on set. Izumi Mitsuki: .......

To be continued.....

TL Notes/comments:

BIG THANKS TO RYUU (@hyouryuu_ on twitter) FOR TL CHECKING ME AND HELPING ME W SOME OF THE LINES IN THIS SECTION!! I Owe You My Life... Also thank you @kuriiii for qcing/proofreading as usual!! bless u Baeta

And now for the Actual TL notes...

(1) YOOO TBT PART 2, CHAPTER 8.3! im fucking saD man (2) THANK YOU RYUU-CHAN FOR HELPING ME OUT WITH THIS LINE, AND MANY MANY OTHERS IN THIS section (3) LIKE THIS ONE!! 線を引く literally translates to "drawing the line" in english ('enough is enough') but that has a very different connotation in jpn: 'differentiating or keeping things different/separate' I was super confused abt this line, so thank you Ryuu for clarifying that!!! (4) for this line I went rougher/more crude because mitsuki is Pissed, throws more insults/is rougher in speech towards yamato. Generally mikkii does use slightly rougher speech but i don’t go as ham on the swears as i would for another character (ex. Gaku, yamato)

I do apologize for the delay in release, but I absolutely had to get this section checked because there were just way too many things I was not 100% certain that I tl’d right. I would definitely be interested in having a permanent tl checker (preferably native japanese+english speaker) to ensure quality and accuracy for story tl’s, so send feel free to send me an ask/DM me on twitter (@shiroihime) if you’re interested or know anyone who would be! ALSO I CAN FINALLY WORK ON STUFF THIS WEEKEND, so expect more updates soon! I finished NO DOUBT’s lyric tl’s a few days ago for both the game size and MV size, so if you or someone you know is willing to do karaoke/subbing of the MV, please send me an ask or DM me on twitter (@shiroihime)! Last but not least, if there’s anyone who can record gameplay videos (like this channel) in high quality without any watermarks/etc or lag, please contact me either here through ask or DM on twitter for more details.

As usual, if you see any mistakes/mistranslations/etc, please message me!

Thank you for reading!!

#idolish7 #アイドリッシュセブン #story3:text #story3:tl #translation

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setsunaofthemomentofdreams · 7 years ago

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TOP 10 GREAT AND EMOTIONAL ANIME

This blog is my personal thoughts! I repeat my thoughts as well as a review! This doesn’t look like a formal blog I kinda say I have play a lot of words in here so I hope you all wouldn’t mind ^^ and I hope you’ll enjoy reading it. 😊 P.S. this contains spoilers so if you haven’t watched the anime, just read the title and not the content 😊

1. Hyouka

Genres: Drama,Mystery,School

Gonna start with my top 1 which is hyouka. I think this is the dramatic romantic anime I’ve ever watched! I finished watching this the other week and it took me 3 days to move on xD. I’ve tried watching this way back 2013 or 2014? I stopped in episode 3 because I think it was boring (I was just 16 years old at the time and I don’t appreciate mystery anime) but I’ve decided this year to rewatch it again until the final episode. And fate is very cruel to me that I’ve been surprisingly depressed in the ending I just want a season 2 >< first of all the first hit me in the feels is what Hyouka’s true meaning “I scream” seriously? Even now im typing I wanted to cry again :’( and second the two supporting characters Mayaka and Satoshi in Episode 22, I’d expect that satoshi broke the chocolate because he didn’t love Mayaka at the slightest, but I was completely wrong! He is afraid that he might get “obsessed” and omg the feels hit me hard again :’( it was just too sad at the same time is beautiful because he truly loves Mayaka ❤ third when Chitanda told Oreki in The Doll that took a detour, "Take a look, Oreki-san. This is my place. All that's here are water and soil. The people are growing old and tired. I don't think that this place is the most beautiful. I also don't think this place is full of potential. But.. I wanted you to see it, Oreki-san." – omg!! I cant explain is adgsadfadarfhewp super hard to explain but the feels hit me again! The way chitanda confess to Oreki although it was not indirect was sincere and true love! Like she was proposing to Oreki like Oreki will be her husband uugh ❤ Fourth! "By the way... About the business side you gave up on... How about I take care of that for you?" – oh my gosh! This was just so touching that it burst me to tears! Although Oreki din’t say this out loud but it was again! PURE AND TRUE LOVE :’( and fifth! "Is this how Satoshi felt back then?" - I have lost of words and wantt to cryyy :”( ❤ this was just beautiful how Oreki realize it ! its not like other typical romance its realistically SINCERE! All I can say is this anime is REALISTICALLY SINCERE AND PURE ❤ I bow down to author-san Yonezawa Honobu and kyoAni! Thank you so much for this bittersweet amazing anime! But im not completely satisfied ☹ I want a season 2! This wasn’t enough but currently im reading the novel 😊 this is the first anime that I want to burst my tears into. Hyouka just get me lost into words that makes me cry ❤ Oreki is right for Chitanda and Chitanda is right for Oreki ❤ the both of them are amazing in their own way ❤ Oreki is handsome, smart and will do everything for Chitanda ❤ while Chitanda looks like an Angel, pure sincere, beautiful, modest, rich, and has the kindest heart ❤ the both of them deserves a happy ending at the end of the novel 😊 or probably in a season 2? (onegai ☹ )

2. Koe No Katachi

Genres: Slice of life, School, Romance

- The best slice of life anime I’ve ever watched! Don’t get me wrong I’ve watched many slice of life anime like Orange (relatable because of regrets) Anohana (I sympathy the anime but I kinda not relate on it because of a dying friend), Charlotte ( the MC I sympathize him a lot specially the ending he has amnesia ☹) Angel Beats (It didn’t hit me hard on the feels I only like the last episode) Kiznaiver (I like Chidori very much!) Your Lie In April (kinda a little bit frustrating in the end but also beautiful) Clannad and many more! In the trailer and plot itself, it really gets you emotional :’( in the beginning of the movie I see myself crying and hating Ishida-kun but later on as he grow up he matured I immediately like him xD well Everything happens for a reason, by Ishida bullying Nishimiya he realized that bullying wasn’t good and that change his attitude, I still hate his friends to the end because they’ve abandoned Ishida like they’re not really friends at all when they were in elementary , well Ishida reaped what he sow he deserves the treatment but too much is not good. Nishimiya on the other hand, I really like her. well she’s bit dumb for always want to have friends but it’s a optimistic kind of attitude and she attempted suicide im thankful for that scene because of that, they’re parents are on good terms ❤ all in all this anime is amazing! All about bullying and friendship, this is a good watch for bullies though lol there’s little bit of romance and some indirect confession :3

3. Fukumenkei Noise

Genres: Slice of life,Romance,Music,School

- The anime isn’t even finished yet but the feels are hitting me! The 3 main characters just bring me to tears :’( Alice for me is kinda annoying. She keeps searching for Momo when its already 6 years since he left! Yuzu is the right man for him. Yuzu purely loves Alice and composing music for Alice is just so touching ❤ :’( on the other hand Momo , this guy is amazing also, but the fact is Fate doesn’t want them to be together due to Momo’s circumstances ☹ there destined to meet but not fated each other. (lol im like concluding that Alice will end up with yuzu xD)

4. Anthem of the Heart

Genres: School,Slice of life, Romance

I’ve haven’t gone through the middle of the story but it made me fall in love with it❤ the typical unique story ❤ beautiful music ❤ and unrequited love which is realistically depressing -_-

5. Kono Bijustsubu Wa Mondai Ga Aru!

Genres: Comedy, Romance, School

- The typical underrated anime 😉 fluff, fluff and more fluff! This anime is cute ❤ romance/school/comedy that will lighten up your mood! This anime is the perfect genre for me to watch ^^ each of the characters are unique ❤ and I ship hard with UsamixUchimaki baad and the ending is more baad but its good at the same time :’( well im currently reading the manga to ease the pain 😉 and im praying for Uchimaki to develop feelings for Usami because the both of them are cinnamon roll ❤

6. Hunter x Hunter

Genres: Shounen, Action, Adventure,Supernatural

- In those 148 episodes that made me stay awake 2:30 am like those days were good and refreshing ❤ seriously when I first watch the 1st episode, omg this is gonna be a masterpiece and another amazing and unique anime! Each of the characters are likeable and I have so many like like characters but top most is Killua ❤ well who doesn’t love killua? xD the ending kinda get me depress though cuz Gon , Killua , Kurapika and Leorio will separate again! Like seriously they’re the best team! Like the best! And I hope for more Phantom Troupe battles in the near future and we need a seaon 2 ._. (though I know the author’s condition 💔)

7. Fairytail

Genres: Action fiction, Adventure fiction, Fantasy, Magic

Gonna say this is my favorite anime and it made me an otaku! But i’m confused if it still my favorite or not after watching Hyouka :/ well this anime doesn’t have romance more on family and friendship which is good also 😊 waiting for another season! ‘cause the last episode is super sad ._. hope lucy, natsu and happy will find their members ☹ (Hiro Mashima-san don’t let us down! ❤)

8. Wolf Children

Genres: Slice of life, Family, Fantasy

- After I’ve watched this, yeah that’s reality ☹ my heart aches when I see the title of this anime ._. can’t believe in the end the wolf children separates from their mom like seriously is super depressing and reality truly hurts ☹

9. Tamako Love Story

Genres: Romance,School,Slice of life

- I’ve watched this first after tamako market x) this is my favorite romance anime! So kawaii thank you KyoAni for this ❤ the ending was super cute and happy! Tamako revealing her feelings to Mochizou like seriously both of them are cinnamon roll also ❤

10. Death Parade

Genres: Supernatural, Slice of life, Mystery, Psychological Thriller

- Please make a seaon 2! I can’t believe Chiyuki was given judgement like hello how about Decim? Haha meh =_= well seriously speaking I love this anime so much ❤ and what makes me love more is the OP ❤ I really listen to it like a million times ❤ ow! And don’t forget the story , the story is amazing and realistically good ❤

SO that’s it folks! 😊 I know they’re a lot of amazing anime out there but these anime are so good! ❤ we have different taste and opinion though 😊 mostly great anime are slice of life ❤ konobi is the only one that isn’t slice of life but it’s really funny and cute you just can’t resist liking the anime ❤ they are still great anime that is in stored in the future and I’m gonna add this list 😉 I really want “Violet Evergarden” in the list but it hasn’t aired yet and I have this strong feeling that the anime is good and it’s from KyoAni :3 ok this will be all ^^ ja ne! and have a great day 😉 and if you have questions Anime related ask me or submit your thoughts :* i would love to hear it <3

ALSO ONE OF MY FAVORITES AND RECOMMENDED: INU X BOKU SS, DUSK MAIDEN OF AMNESIA, ZETSUEN NO TEMPEST, ELDLIVE, SOUSEI NO OMYOUJI, KIZNAIVER,AKAME GA KILL,MIRAI NIKKI, AKATSUKI NO YONA,AMAGI BRILLIANT PARK,ASSASINATION CLASSROOM,BLACK BUTLER, ERASED, BLOOD LAD, DANCE IN THE VAMPIRE BUND, DATE A LIVE, DEADMAN WONDERLAND,GEKKAN SHOUJO NOZAKI-KUN, GUGURE KOKURI-SAN,GOSICK, HIMOUTO UMARU-CHAN, HITSUGI NO CHAIKA, MAGI, SOUL EATER, TONARI NO KAIBUTSU-KUN, TOKYO RAVENS, THE WORLD GOD OLY KNOWS, TOARU KAGAKU NO RAILGUN, PLASTIC MEMORIES, SANKAREA, SAIKI KUSO NO PSI NAN, YOUJO SENKI, INTERVIEW WITH MONSTER GIRLS, NANATSU NO TAIZAI, KAMISAMA KISS, KAMISAMA NO INAI NICHYOUBI

#anime #hyouka #koe no katachi #fukumenkei noise #anthem of the heart #kono bijutsubu ni wa mondai ga aru #hunter x hunter #fairy tail #wolf children #tamako love story #death parade #anime blog

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rontra · 8 years ago

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Do all of those ask meme questions!!!! 8 )

oops sorry guys khayr is out to snipe ALL OF YOU im laughging khayr pls,,,,,

cut for length lets do 20questions

1.Describe yourself how you would describe a character you’re introducing

new dissociation who dis

2.Is there any specific ritual you go through while/before/after your writing?

UP IN BED CANT SLEEP: WRITE 3000WORDS: PASS OUT: AWAKE TO FIND WRITING I HAVE 0 RECOLLECTION OF DOING, LIKE APRESENT FROM A BENEVOLENT STRANGER

3.What is your absolute favorite kind of fic to write?

Storieswhere everything ever goes wrong and everyone comes out the other end superdamaged but theyre pullin their lives back together from the rubble are A+i like a mix of hopeful and despairing so i also chuck in some lightheartedstuff to keep u from getting boredand then the ending is bittersweet at most bc i’m bad at happy endings& all the women are Messy

4.Are there any other fic writers you admire? If so, who and why?

Mypals @lionsenpai and @khayr r good eggs & write my faves So Right and im inlove w these idiotsAlso @romanimp and @theivorytowercrumbles can crush my fragile body under theirheels any day of the week

5.How many words can you write if you sit down and concentrate intensely for anhour?

Ihave no idea about “an hour” bc ive never in my life looked at the FUCkin timewhen I’m writing and calculate everything in vague “sittings” but I have been knownto average 1000-4000 a sitting depending on what I’m writing

6.First fic/pairing you wrote for? (If no pairing, describe the plot)

Myfirst shit was all original but for fic I’m pretty sure it was some Naruto stuffw neji/tenten bc u KNOW I was all about that shit back in the day

7.Inspiration, time, or motivation. Choose two.

Inspirationand motivation

8.Why do you choose to write?

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

9.Do you ever have plans to write anything other than fic?

Istarted with original and am alwaysdoing original at the same time as fic. I’m assuming this question is seekingan elaboration too HAH okay so notable codenamed excursions include:

“FM”(220 pages in private print edition), its sequel “BB” (281 pages privateprint); their reboot “SM” (122k words, not printed) – these 3 had way morepotential than what I was able to bring out of them, so I’d like to reboot itagain someday when I get over how bad these iterations are“D8” (First draft of Brill; 750 pages in private print)

ofcthen there’s also the mentioned Brilliancy which is currently in progress andteetering on the edge of being scrapped and started anew yet again (I willnever be satisfied :P)There’s also a million smaller ideas (ex. Shorts, Deadgame, etc) that aren’tbig enough to have…anything interesting to say YETAdditionally, I have Withering Sky in collaboration with @lionsenpai and im rlystoked about bc everything about it is SO AESTHETIC

10.What inspires you the most?

Spiteand disappointment

11.Weirdest thing you’ve ever written/thought about writing/etc.?

Higu/umicrossover au where kyrie and takano are rival murderers and kill people WAIT A MINUTE(most of my weird ideas are delegated to the art department tbh)

12.A fic you wish you had written better, and why?

I’mnot naming names but there’s some old buied fics in some old accounts that could’vebeen so intense and sexy but are not and im not going back for them but I wishthey had been as cool as I imagined before I totally lost my Fuckin mind andwandered off the path. sorry i cant link or ill die

13.Favorite fic from another author?

They’regonna get really tired of me saying this but im STILL not over @theivorytowercrumbles’ Canis,Thy Motherthis fic from FUCKing 2015 haunts me every day of my life

also their and @romanimp’s Akrasiawas [kisses fingers like a chef] do i even need 2 say it

14.Your favorite side pairings to put in?

Glynda/Lisa,Cinder/Winter, Beatrice/Happiness

15. Your guilty writing pleasure?

Ido a lot of rly long scenes of introspection where nothing actually happens butI’m just kind of taking a joyful romp through the mental state and opinions ofwhatever messy female character is narrating at the time. Also, rly edgy narrationmetaphors that aren’t really adding anything but sound cool

16.Do you have structured ideas of how your story is supposed to go, or make it upas you write?

Im80% by the seat of my pants and 20% vague ideas for things that should probablyhappen at some pointthe backstory/setting lore is usually fuckin hard set in elaborate stone tomesthough I plan that shit rly thoroughly (exception to the rule: offal hunt was planned pppprretty well probably thanksto being a collab so I couldn’t just keep it all nebulously floating in myhead)

17.Would you describe yourself as a fast writer?

OnceI get going: h*ck yes

18.How old were you when you started writing?

9-10

19.Why did you start writing?

Akid’s gotta get their edgy OCs down on paper somehow

20.4 sentences randomly sized chunks from your work that you’re proud of

It was September now, and a chill clutched the air in Kumasawa Chiyo’s lungs, squeezing all warmth from her body. Ms. Hachijo had deigned to accompany her, and looked entirely unfazed by it all in her long winter coat. She emerged from the car like a long-dormant spirit, shaking the tethers of Hell from her shoulders, sleek and elegant and deadly. She looked at her wristwatch and clicked her tongue. “We’re early,” she said. (Skin Game)

“We’renot leaving you behind!”Winterflinched as if she had been struck.“Don’t,” she whispered, andthe commanding tone had been replaced with soft pleading. (Offal Hunt)

She wasfabricating it. She was hallucinating. She knew that.

Itdidn’t go away. Textbook knowledge hadn’t dispelled it. She was glad. Her poor,dying brain could at least feel less alone, even if it was an illusion. Thepresence comforted her. Its guiding light felt familiar—a projection of her ownmind—like a reflection in an unsettled pond, similar but distorted inunpredictable ways. Like an ancient echo tying species to their ancestors, shefelt pieces of herself and those she loved in it. (Offal Hunt)

Takano Miyo was fifteen. She had fallen out of the world of humans—no, it was more apt to say she had been taken from it. And the devil Ikuko had seen mercy, pulling her from the cold jaws of God’s dog-eat-dog rule, and given her something invaluable—strength. Perhaps she had exchanged her soul for it, traded over Ikuko’s table in bits and pieces each time they met. A devil had many uses for a soul like Takano’s. (Skin Game)

#khayr

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bts appreciation rant

so like.

i spend a lot of time reading through bts lyrics, analyzing songs, and reading song analysis articles.

i just wanted to rant about how it’s amazing that legit all their songs have a deep meaning behind it?

ok i want to focus on the WINGS album.

i read through all the solo lyrics and i’ll quickly go over the meaning of each of the solos in like one or two sentences.

[Reflection] Rapmon: well a self reflection of his identity. who he is and how he’s felt like he lost it. (i feel like this is a recurring theme for him? makes sense. it’s not a short term topic.) [First Love] Yoongi: his first love for a piano. his bud- the gateway of music that was there for him even when abandoned, even thru his struggles, etc. [Awake] Jin: about being not as good as the other members in bangtan? [MAMA] Hobi: a message to his mom- #1 hobi supporter- (it’s so beautiful omg. the line where he’s just like ‘you can smile now’ had me bawling) [Lie] Chimchim: his past insecurities and low self esteem (same tho ;;) putting him thru living with this image he thought of himself that was a lie. [Stigma] V: uhh i’ve read 2 ways this cud go like a duality? 1- I Need U continuum 2- a message to his family. his apologies for not being there for his sibliings as they grow up and how they’ll grow up looking up to a brother they don’t really even know? he feels bad he cant protect them. (tae’s all about family so much that it hurts my heart) [Begin] Jungkook: for his bangtan hyungs about how they’ve always looked after him n he wants to give back? basically something like that.

well ok just from that alone we all know that ALL of the songs hit the members on a personal level.

so what im thinking rn that’s got me writing this appreciation rant is that

they are on the wings tour rn. they’re performing this on stage in front of millions of people.

these songs that are so personal to them. songs that expose a personal part of themselves to so many people. it’s so personal that it makes their stage mean so much more.

these stages should be valued more. it’s like them giving us a piece of how they feel, things on their mind, things they’re ready to share a personal story of their past with the world. the struggles, the relatable circumstances. it’s so human and realistic.

and like. ‘connected’ (lmao rapmon says that a lot) but legit you get to know the artists better this way. it’s sort of like a bonding experience.

it’s not just simple love stories. not just a direct meaning. this is why i’d be so happy and even proud to talk about the meaning of these songs if someone were to ask me what the song is about.

my mother asks me often if i know the meaning of the song that’s playing. i usually say no- that it’s probably just about love. some love song. i cud have read the lyrics before but the meaning never stuck to me or i never really understood it (lol)

but.. like with bts lmao i know the reason for so many of their songs and so far for the WINGS album like none of them are about just love.

Lost is about the path to your future/dreams 2!3! is the bridge from BTS to ARMYs Am I Wrong is about worldly issues 21st century girl is about the empowerment of women LIKE YOO. who does that? bts does. like shit. its amazing. and like MOST BTS title songs, BST is not just a sexual song lmao it’s about how hard they work. again. like dope. bts sells themselves so much to music. their sleep their health their time and their freedom i just cant rn LOL (ok but im not too well versed on bst meaning tbh. that’s what i got from it tho the last time i looked at it intently.)

ok that’s it for the wings album rant.

extra appreciation!

YO WHY ARE CYPHERS SO GOOD.

bts gets so much hate and i just love it when the rapper line just throws them down like savages even classier when it’s to a mannerful degree! (suga in cypher pt 4 omg) also realize suga’s like usually.. typically last in cyphers where he just burns them to a crisp and earns himself worthy enough to do a mic drop and maniac laugh.

i also love that they cuss a lot and all that other shit but they’re not like super stepped on for it. yknow? they’ve been blurring the line between hiphop and kpop since debut and they’re doing it in the best way possible. i remember telling friends i listened to hiphop and rap too years years back but only be saddened when i got judged when they found out it was kpop hiphop or kpop rap. but bts sort of just gives no two shits to ppl who make fun of them for being underground rappers and kpop idols. it’s amazing. i have no reason to feel ashamed anymore. the fact that they don’t care gives me all reason to not care either. also how cool is it that suga produces a lot of their songs? i wonder how he feels when they actually perform it on stage. it must be like the best feeling in the world- to perform a song from scratch.

ok i’m getting tired i’ll stop here. im probably biased like 90% of this post.

[MORE RANDOM]: btw. im under the transformation of exol to army. you can tell bc if u look at my shit, slowly all my wallpapers are switching from exo to bts... lmao first my phone home screen then lockscreen, then computer homescreen, and im p sure within the next week my comp lockscreen n profile pic.

#bts #btspls #bangtan #bangtansonyeondan #wings #wingsalbum #analysis #appreciation #appreciationpost #bts appreciation #rant #pt1 #btsappreciationrantpt1

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