#im a person and my voice is intrinsic to me. i cannot change it more than i can change that my nose is fucking ugly

[barnbridges]

no but both sides of the autism voice discourse are so fucking braindead. like yes, it is offensive to me if WHOLE ADULTS refuse to understand that this is *my voice* and i cannot be quieter, this is literally how i am and it should be accepted that not everyone knows or agrees with your "level of comfort" for how loud a voice "should" sound like. like if you're an adult, you should be able to live with that someone's voice is annoying for you to hear, jesus fuck. but also if my voice makes a child cry... i'm an adult and i can stop for a child. a child doesn't need to communicate with me and has no control over if they hang out with me. they deserve to be comfortable, so i will either leave or shut up, and not mind. like imagine being proud of making children cry.

[good-oldfashioned-lover-girl]

(yes yes yes oml like on the surface she looks peaceful and calm but then you sorta delve into her thoughts and actually start to understand what’s rly going on in her mind and all the multitude of feelings muddled together perfectly sorta building and spiralling down) (also fuck me her voice in labour i can’t it’s not fair how good it is but i mean even without that aspect no the building in it your so right like the pure emotion is actually insane especially i actually have so many thoughts on the labour music video it’s not even funny it’s a work of art like even down to the tiny things when on very specific lines he reaches forward and your stomach just drops like what’s he gonna do will he hurt her but instead he just takes more of the food she prepared which in some way is the same bc he just takes more and more from her and what she’s produced but anyway that’s a tangent)

(the idea of life and death being intertwined its sorta just intrinsically part of the song somehow? like everything about it dances across the line not least bc even when dead she’s still kinda conscious yk like she’s writing from the pov of a dead woman but sorta implying the ability to still think which ik is just bc she’s writing a song but still the choice to do it from that pov and not looking on at a dead woman whilst still living) (yesss like how humans are apt to romanticise everything as a form of escapism when we don’t like and/or understand it bc otherwise it’s just a sorta terror of the unknown, like almost the need to comprehend the incomprehensible bc there’s not another option, and what happens after death has to fit into what happens in life bc we cannot fathom anything different, which she literally says in the song with ‘death won’t bring what you think it will’ and then even the brief change to ‘hope it will’ which just absicndin has so many more implications) (yes yes yes to her this unknowing and uncertainty is comforting as opposed to worrying bc ig almost you can’t get ready or prepare yourself for it and that just makes it more comforting and peaceful, finally she can relax) (you’ve written that so prettily what and also yesss like the idea of her writing from the point of view of the dead person, and so imagining the comfort and then i cannot think of anything to add to the rest bc you’ve said it so perfectly) (oml the idea of respite not equalling permanence like she just wants a break, she wants one more millennia but then she’s ready, one day she’s ready to go back and interact again but for now she just wants to rest)

i spent so long trying to work out what i thought about it bc its not as simple as the anthropology professor verse but i almost like to think of it as her looking upon her living self idek if that makes sense but not just her living self but who she sorta longs to be? like someone who is peaceful despite the hardships of life they've faced, and is able to relax without waiting for death which isnt the ideal time to long for, not least bc you lose some of that freedom life can gives you exactly as you say, she 'doesn’t want to give up perceiving, awareness, feeling, and like, the experience of just…being' so even when she finally reaches that point of rest she's so happy about there's always something more she wants like humans we can never be content we're always longing for something more, the grass is always greener on the other side. But i'm so curious to hear you're thoughts bc for some reason i just listened to this section on repeat for so long trying to get my thoughts straight

yess her songs just in general are perfect for both just letting the feelings wash over you, but also to analyse every individual line (as we've demonstrated lmao) its so perfect. (pleasee like its almost similar to in fictional books, i mean tfios ok? ok., instead its sorry im repetitive and reassurance its ok bc truly theyre in love, and tiny reassurances like that can be so simple and yet so genuine.) (oml ‘gentle violence’ as you say, there’s something so sweet about that idea bc it’s such a complete trust that’s needed to achieve that it only adds and adds to the safety just that comes naturally to them, jesus christ you put it so beautifully 'because we’re so accustomed to mourning something beautiful before it has even died, the sheer force of all that? It’s violent.'???? like help please i feel like i want to just analyse your words now im in shock but oml no your so right also like the, even just vulnerability that being in love requires and yet we as humans are so adverse to the concept, i mean there's a reason so many poems about love focus on insanity bc the multitude of contrasts being in love evokes? like naturally the next step is violence and yet its gentle, it lets you strip away the hatred behind violence and turn it into something beautiful and simple somehow) (oh the songs cruel alright im never gonna be able to stop thinking abt it it shall torture me till the day i die)

also i need music recs bc the music isn’t musicing atm

okayyy sooo lizzy mcalpine has my heart and soul (pancakes for dinner always gets me right in the feels) and also paris paloma’s new album?? It’s so cathartic and omg bones on the beach is one of my favourites (I think it’s also a really lovely exploration into like the romanticism of death and just captures this kind of dreamy but world weary feeling that kind of just settles in your bones and just kind of quietly suffers or rots there) (AND THE KNITTING SONG IS SO SOFT AND WARM AND GENTLE AND COMFORTING) (also been listening to so much queen lately because good omens)

[johnnys-so]

I recall you saying you don't know Day6 well enough for an analysis, but what about now? If you can, we'd love one. Thank you!

HEYOOO! 

Umm a lot hasn’t changed on that front but I feel like the distance might be a good thing so I’m going to attach some small mini-analysis after the cut.

sungjin

Bob is literally the most dad friend ever and I think he really takes the cake (though GOT7′s JB comes a close second). He looks so constantly done with all of his members, and yet - probably the one who cleans the kitchen and makes sure to stock up on water/ramyeon/veggies etc.

I feel like he was born to be the hyung, you know? He is the responsible and primary caregiver type. Even though he doesn’t make a big show of it, it seems to be a big part of his personality that he takes care of other people

Also, my god his humour is just.... something commendable, truly. He can’t be funny to save his ass but atleast he keeps trying and i think THATS what so funny about him??? sungjin-ah.... never give up bby

I feel like he’s the least complicated of all members. He doesn’t seem to be the emotionally volatile type and seems very centred in his personality, he also seems oddly like he might have a sister? a younger one (does he? idk, mydays pls let me know). it’s just that other than the protective bear stereotype, he does seem emotionally well-adjusted. Maybe he’s just at that point in life where he can encounter a shitty day or some sort of hardship and look at it straight and say - ok, that’s fucked up. But I guess we gotta just work through it. (in comparison, wonpil would be shrieking through his lungs AND working through it)

in terms of a temper i think he most certainly has one but it takes him a while to get there and i don’t think he’d talk through it AT ALL. maybe cleanliness would be his pet peeve? (im just shooting in the dark here)

to wrap it up, sungjin is the sort of guy (in my opinion at least) who has a strong and steady value system and he’s sort of ok with dealing with the world as long as he has it figured out in his head. He knows who he is, and therefore there is little conflict he brings to the world. If he wasn’t playing in this band, I’d 1000% see him settle for the corporate life and clean9 to 5 job which lets him come back home by 7pm and have some cold beer while watching football and hearing his kids play in the living room

Jae

Aww man this skinny bitch. I feel like the fandom is sleeping on his ‘annoying prankster’ potential because i think  he’d give peeves a run for his money

derives great joy from the misery and anguish of others (probably has Wonpil maniacally laughing in the background)

on a normal day Jae is the sort of person who’s probably going through memes on the phone while everyone’s having a serious conversation about their tour or like their everyday schedules. He has a few things he cares about in life and is okay to take a backseat when it comes to the other shit. As long as he gets what he needs (a possible slytherin mofo?)

But that’s not to say that he’s easygoing or wishywashy about the things that he does care about. Music, matters a lot to him. Even though he’s not academically musically instructed (as young k is) he has spent a whole lot of time and effort into educating himself to the point that it really shows in their albums (i could wax poetry about the complexity of Day6′s music and how its so refreshing in it’s personality of being both goth and peppy i-). So Jae is most certainly determined, goal driven and very intrinsically motivated

Also, very much in his head. If he doesn’t have a strong pisces placement, I’m willing to eat my foot. I feel like while Young K is very intense about his emotions, Jae gets very emotional about the people he surrounds himself with.

With people: not very trusting of everyone. Has a chosen few that he goes to certain things about. Might be the kind of person who distributes his troubles by categories to various confidants. But also, trust is something that is earned with jae. But that is not to say that he won’t get along with other people. He’s cordial and is good in engaging a crowd (as a performer, MC, friend, VJ) but he’s also good at drawing lines and boundaries

the most incredible part of his personality for me has always been his work-ethic and his drive to be better. He’s always challenging himself through his existing skill set, but also pushing himself to learn new things. Sounds like a bloody workaholic to me. 

probably shit at figuring out his own feelings/emotions/attitude about certain things. But always up for being the wise advice-giver to other delinquents (read: jamie)

sarcastic wit to sass everyone for days. probably a loki over thor guy

Kink master extraordinaire. Likes cooking up shit and encourages people to sin.

Young K

emo baby af. But we all knew this so more on that later

The ultimate Onion of a personality. Young K, off the bat, seems like he hides so many layers. Not purposely at all, but simply because he’s unable to communicate the extent of his mental world to the public

one beautiful way he has found to channelise all of his thoughts and ideas about the world is clearly through his music and lyrics. But he’s also extremely creative in other ways (art and fashion). I feel like he’s the sort of person who feels most confident and assured in himself when he’s creating. 

socially, what a mess. I wouldn’t say he has trust issues like Jae does but im pretty sure he’s made some foolish mistakes about choosing friends and not realising how to navigate that friendship (friendships where he has demanded too much or has been demanded too much of??). But otherwise a jovial fool the kind of person who laughs the loudest (and dorkiest) at a dinner with friends

how’s his alcohol intake? I have this super funny intake of a drunk young k trying to write mini love poems for all his friends and sungjin being called to take him home and the call actually begins with “did he try to be poetic again?”

while im trying to paint a picture of him as a jester (because young k also needs to be seen for beyond his emotionality) he’s the kind of guy that would surprise you with how brilliant he is. An actual wisecrack/genius, and very underappreciated. I wouldn’t be surprised if he someday returns to teaching

Right. Emotionality though. If he isn’t some pisces (sun or moon) i will actually yell. He’s the definition of ‘someone who navigates an alternate plane, is open to a world that most people don’t even begin to understand exists’. i feel like speaking to him about abstract concepts - such as the existence of truth, the point of life, the definition of beauty, other existential phenomenon - would be so much fun because he’s have such an interesting and unconventional take on things. I feel like he’s make me humble with the words he has (he already makes me feel so secure with all of his lyrics because i realize, even if the world is shit what a relief that someone like young k exists)

probably would be a guilt-ridden but a wonderfully emotionally supportive boyfriend. Someone who understands your demons all too well and would go the extra mile to provide whatever help he can

1000% has high neuroticism scores that would be cause for concern. someone give him a Beck’s depression inventory right away.

HAHAHAHAH probably the fucking kinkiest mofo, after Jae

Wonpil

An actual baby!!

No ok but wonpil has matured THE most in all of Day6 and i really didn’t realise it until i notice how his expressions have become more closed during airport pics, and his voice has gained a new level of emotionality in live stages, and he’s also a lot more reserved these days on variety shows

still the most extrovert in the group. I just think the fame, the crowd, the possible betrayals as a result of their growing fame and having to be an adult in this tough situation - has gotten to him. But that’s inevitable really. None of us can be protected from the reality of life that leeches away at our innocence

such a vibrant soul. Such a giver. As a friend, he’s literal sunshine. Not much of a protector, but more of an amicable I’ll-always-be-there-for-you sort of person (though im guessing the amount of people he extends this courtesy to nowadays has probably reduced. 

fucking made to be an entertainer. He’s naturally funny and attracts all the energy (and eyes) in the room to himself. A very good mood maker if you will

in terms of neuroticism, I think he’d be more on the depression (from the constant stress workstyle and the increasing loneliness) than an anxious person. I think he probably is a bit volatile in his emotions but that’s because he gets lost in the moment. He’s literally someone who lives in the present far more than he lives in the past (sungjin or young k) or the future (jae)

don’t think he's intrinsically motivated much. Prone to a lot of lazy days, a lot of extreme gaming and just randomnly playing jokes and pranks on people. he’d need some strongly external guidance/deadlines to get his work ethic going

high extraversion and agreeableness, probably low on conscientiousness (especially discpline) but fascinated by aesthetic beauty (openness to experience).

Dowoon

Honest to god i cannot figure him out. I think it’s a case of - im trying to look deeper and harder but the truth is, it’s not even that complicated

underappreciated oppa potential 100000%

still comes through as a dork of a maknae. has zeROhand eye coordination outside of drumming. the kind of kid who breaks the glassware and blames it on his sibling (wonpil) and his parents totally believe him because he could do no wrong (aka sungjin grudginly yells at wonpil, again, about house rules)

just a man dedicated to his drums and his food. if he can play some solid beats, get some work done on the albums, play a nice set on a tour, have some chicken and beer while he is resting, have his hyungs fool around in the green room --> he good bruh

but by no means does that make him a fool (though i do think he’s a bit of a fool sometimes when it comes to picking up social cues about wonpil/jae making fun of him. he lacks the 눈치 you know what i mean)

Also (maybe I just love plot twists) but i think he’d be eerily good at picking up on people feeling sad/depressed/lonely/off in general. He’d be like that guy who just walks into the room and sees you just slinking away on the sofa and he thinks.... nah im just going to give them space and go get myself some food. But literally a few seconds later, he sits by you on the sofa, offers you food, and asks what’s on your mind. The silent supporter kind. Willing to listen, willing to be there for you

i don’t know much about dowoon so im just going to end this with: arms that can lift kids/ crush you in a bear hug/ pin you against a wall and leave bit marks on your neck

sorry if that didn’t cover much. I sort of only know day6 with their music. If im extremely wrong or way off about someone, please reach out and correct me!!

[ithisatanytime]

  My mother has borderline personality disorder which is simultaneously the hardest thing to try to explain to people and also what i want to explain the most. ive spent years trying to understand her, she seems intelligent, and she is for the most part but there are huge gaps in her thinking, for instance, she needs tons of marijuana or else she will be insufferable, i thank god everyday she started smoking pot a decade ago because she used to always be like that, but with the weed it calms it down somewhat and shes fun and happy instead of angry and cruel, but lately her boyfriend has been making her potent edibles, i say lately but this has been going on for years. the problem is when the batch of edibles gets low, smoking marijuana does nothing at that point because edibles raise her tolerance beyond what smoked marijuana can even touch for a few days and literally, without fail,. every time, for years, she will get into shouting matches, and get sick where she runs around the house going “dont look dont look” in a disgustingly obviously put on voice vomiting louder than shit for days and says while running in and out of hot baths. my sister has to clean the shit, the literal human shit out of the bathtub. everyone in the house knows the sudden lack of readily available marijuana edibles is the cause or at least the “trigger” for these attacks, we talk about it amongst each other “shes running low, shes gonna have an episode, and for the past two or three years, with perfect accuracy we have “predicted” these episodes. most recently she ran LOW on cookies, only two left in the jar, hardly a days worth, we knew she was gonna get sick, she did, i brought her some delta-8 thc edible gummies, they are legal, but expensive, she at a couple and immediately the episode ceased. where she had been vomiting loudly for hours and literally shitting in a bathtub full of water, suddenly she was completely fine. thats a lot of back story to get to this point, but it helps explain what she is, i saw the gears turning, its most frustrating i believe because you can see her thinking, you know exactly what shes pulling, you see through it, but you have to pretend you dont. she REFUSED to take more gummiez,. saying she could not CHEW THEM, so i rip the gummies to shreds for her, a time consuming and humiliating process because i know goddamn well, she can eat TWO FUCKING GUMMY BEARS, and that its a small sacrifice to make, to prevent forcing your daughter to wait on you hand and foot and clean you literal SHIT out of a fucking nasty bathtub (it happens everytime), everyone fucking knew she was refusing because it was too obvious that the marijuana was the cause, but we all already fucking KNOW, so she starts saying shit like “i dont know what it is, your sister tried to tlel me it was the weed” and i was like “it is the weed, every time you run low on edibles, literally every time, this happens and its never once happened with a full or nearly full or halfway full jar“ like she thought she was fucking slick not eating the last two cookies each time, like we wouldnt know. then she screams at you, says the cruelest most frustrating things you can imagine, she cant possibly believe shes persuading you inside, its enough that the outside of you agrees with her reality no matter how obvious it is that inside you know shes a fucking retard and shes lying poorly.

   You may feel sympathy for her, DONT. the two things i cannot convey, are how bullheadedly cruel she is to literally everyone, and how BADLY she lies, i cant describe it, shes worse at lying than a child whos only just learned to lie, and she does it CONSTANTLY even when she knows that you know shes lying through her teeth. i just woke up from a nap btw, its not like i just got done fighting with her and im heated or something, she is always like this, and my opinion on her literally never changes, it just is what ti is. i have spent years studying her, because what else can you do when someone is literally screaming at you for hours for days at a time, with the sole purpose of hurting you as much as she can. and i promise you, i have never once witnessed a single scrap of humanity in her soul, its horrifying to even be close to something like that, something you dont really understand but it looks like a person. this is not even close to a list of her most heinous offenses, TRUST ME. i just wanted to accurately express the lying, so maybe i can get closer to defining what exactly borderline personality is. the only way i can describe it simply is something deep inside her, something intrinsic is not there, its broken or it was never there in the first place.