#im a big proprieter of Taking Back Control (being fucked up in the head and thinking im worse than i am)

[darci-tbh]

I wonder if it's the trauma or the narcissism or something but there's smth so appealing about being viewed as a heartless irredeemable predator and abuser who Hurts People and has no remorse about it right up until it seems like someone might actually view me that way. then I'm all 🥺 no...