#im SO EXCITED TO TEACH AHHHHHHHHHHH

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getting so so excited to teach my class :)

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👀 Does Kama like to peg Ash? 👀

u know what... ? u know what ?

KamAsh headcanons (AND NSFW HEADCANONS) time!!!!!! i don’t care anymore i had fun writing the kama*master ones 

so have these !!!!! might also become a character analysis and trivia because i cannot stay consistent when im talking about them !!!!

reminder bfore i start: ITS FINAL ASCENSION KAMA. NOT THE OTHERS. 

ok we’re good now

i think kama tops by default in every relationship they’re in, but their true strength resides in the fact that they are vers. and i believe that ash is ALSO vers. because flustered kama is a luxury and super cute and delicious and BECAUSE YOU WOULDNT LET YOUR GOD OF LOVE TOP YOU ???? ARE YOU SURE ??? YOU WOULDNT LET URSELF BE PAMPERED BY UR GOD ? ARE U REALLY SURE ?

ash is very cute because he’s gap moe, his respect for parvati shows that he’s not just a rage machine and can very much think normally like ur regular gold hearted delinquent anime boy !!!! god i Love him... anyway, i think he respects kama enough to look out for them and worship them like a proper God!! i believe that ash would call kama things like ‘your divinity’, ‘your grace’ (and if u have some jp knowledge, i think he’d add “-sama” to their name) because they... are god? (i think arjuna and karna also call them like this !! polite mahabharatan warriors are good boys)

since ash never married in the epic, i like to think that it’s because he was very much focused on his duty and ALSO because his participation in the war was out of loyalty towards king dhritarashtra and hastinapur so he was... perhaps planning on getting married once the war Ends ??? HE WAS OUT THERE FIGHTING !!!!!!! but we all know what happened to him (sheds a tear) 

anyway i think he’d be a bit of a masochist. (the room falls silent and you all look at me)

SORRY THAT WAS VERY HARDCORE ALL OF A SUDDEN but hear me out, FIRST OF ALL this man was able to endure an immortality curse until lord krishna eventually decided to free him so he’d join the throne and SECOND OF ALL, in his interlude he speaks of looking for ways to repent because he regrets what he’s done. and since we’re kinky over here, i’m gonna throw gentle femdom in the mix bc i think it fits them and its cute. especially because kama is literally the best person he could apologize to. and the only person who’d make his repentance pleasurable (because its their mcfreakin talent !!!!!) even if it technically wasnt his fault, i think his need to atone would just... overpower that and he’ll want to do anything kama wants, just to earn a crumb of forgiveness (without being desperate about it because... HES GOT AN EGO STILL, COME ON)

i like to think that he’s tried to apologize properly before... in a tense moment when they’re both more calm and alone. but kama stopped him because it’d just make things worse. if kama loses the need to have a grudge, will they even be useful as a servant anymore ? would they forgive themself for being so lenient ? forgiving their murderer’s protégé when they havent even had proper revenge ? kamadeva might have been a benevolent god before, but now they’re a lot more malicious (mara...) and this pointless anger would just make them look like an idiot (because servant shiva doesnt exist (YET?)). and i think ashwatthama would understand. 

so he won’t say the words “i’m sorry” because it’d just hurt them. 

THO WILL HE STOP LOOKING OUT FOR THEM AND SPOILING THEM ? no he will not

kama would find him interesting because he’s perfect bullying fodder but as i said before, it doesn’t work on ash. HE’S A WARRIOR ??? A CURSED IMMORTAL ? DO U THINK THAT PETTY PRANKS LIKE THE ONES KAMA DOES WOULD AFFECT HIM ? “are you bored ?” he asks while they’re trying to surprise him from behind and jumpscare him, without even turning to face them. kama groans in defeat.

SEDUCTION DOESNT WORK ON HIM EITHER AND THATS SO FUNNY but thats where it becomes subtle, he grows attached to them because they’ve gotten used to eachother’s presence (and strength in battle... small things like that). love can be born out of simple things!! blatant bimbo seduction doesn’t work on him but when he comes to wake kama up, and they’re too lazy to get up or float and groggily order him to lean forward so they can hold onto his shoulders so he’ll lift them up when he straightens himself is...

he’d find it cute. they’re cute. when they reach the cafeteria it’s still quite early and he already knows what they like to eat and get their plate ready for them while they’re waking up and yawning. god... they’re cute... its so subtle and cute...

......ok time to be horny !!! (TOMATOES GET FLUNG AT ME)

i think that they’d reach this stage after a while, when kama just gives up on bothering him cuz he’s annoyingly strong (and ganesha is more fun to bother anyway) and since they’re around eachother very often, kama would grow comfortable around him. same for ashwatthaman ! they’re very nice to be around when they’re calm and just chillin. 

the only teasing kama hasn’t tried on him is being openly horny and come onto him, asking him things about himself. and ash revealing that he’s never done these sorts of things before (HES A LIL MAD CUZ ITS EMBARRASSING ... DAMN... !!!), i think it’d give kama ideas. I MLAUGHING TYPING THIS BC I DIDNT THINK OF HOW THEY’D COAX HIM INTO GETTING NAUGHTY YET AND IT SOUNDS LIKE A BAD PORN INTRO AHHHHHHHHHHH

ok yeah like i said i didnt think of the coaxing yet but knowing ash, kama could turn it into a competition and make fun of him a little and he’s ready to go. arrogant dummy. 

he’s polite but his arrogance is a charm point because he’ll def want to prove himself to the god of carnal love. imagine kama’s reaction when he actually outfucks them.

HONESTLY ? I BELIEVE HIS WARRIOR STAMINA WOULD JUST BE INCREASED ONCE HE BECAME A SERVANT. AND KAMA WAS NEVER A WARRIOR theyre a lavish and lazy god.

BUT THEIR EGO IS WOUNDED and their shocked reaction is cute and ash wants to keep holding them for a little longer

their sessions genuinely feel like hatefucking at first since they’re both weirdly competitive like that but then, guilt hits and kama feels like an idiot because they just came onto someone thats supposedly their enemy??? and they’re a bit distant in the aftermath, they almost... look a little shy. 

ashwatthaman isnt beating himself over it as much as they are tho. it felt good, he got to see a new side of them he never thought he’d get to see so intimately and... he outfucked God :) SO HE IS PROUD. but looking at them lying there, breathless and looking all sad worries him. so i can see him leaning forward and spooning them, holding their hand and kissing their fingers and it’s such a soft gesture, kama stutters and asks “Where.. where did you learn to do that.” and seeing their reaction, Ash blushes as well and explains that he saw his father kiss his mom’s hand once???? AND ITS... SUCH A CUTE AND OBVIOUS REASON. kama feels dumb for asking but it makes them chuckle. 

and i think seeing someone who constantly looks so tired and depressed, have a genuine little chuckle would melt ash right there. i think he’ll want to see more. 

AND FROM THAT POINT ON, i think kama would also get used to this... intimacy they start to share. when he wraps his arms around them he always hugs them in this protective way, as if he wanted to shield them from something. and when he holds them like that, they always feel the need to wrap their legs around his waist, hide their face against his neck and Allow him to cuddle them.

they both have an ego u know aha. so if u openly ask them about eachother, they’ll get embarrassed and shut u down. IT’S... IT’S NOT LIKE THAT (sweats)

it is. it is like That. 

ANYWAY THEYRE BOTH VERY VERSATILE and ash is pretty much into everything kama could teach him about. like i said earlier, he’s also fine with being manhandled, mostly the feeling of kama’s nails gently pressing against his skin, or being bit. i think he’d be into getting a lil feral.

a mutual once said that sexually liberated ashwatthama is hot as hell and i feel it in my bones.... kama coming onto him after a particularily short mission that got ash angry but not enough to let out some steam --> they get pounded into the mattress and they live for it because riling him up when he’s like that is actually really fun.

OBSESSED WITH THE BOTH OF THEM SLOWLY SEEING IT AS A GAME AFTER A WHILE... 

OH ash bottoming is also very cute. his first times would be awkward but kama is a pro at this anyways and i’m finally going to answer ur ask: YEAH HE GETS PEGGED !!!!! he finds out how excited he gets when kama calls him a good boy !!! and he never knew that he was into these sorts of things but holy shit it feels nice.

when kama gives him his first blowjob he almost loses his mind

what i really love about kama is that they can see how tense he gets, even if he’s having a great time, and i know they’d teach him how to relax. EVEN WHEN THEY’RE RIDING HIM, they’ll massage his pecs and his shoulders, set the pace and squeeze down on him just to hear him moan. stare at his surprised little face because he didn’t know he could make THAT kind of nois e ? ? ? ? ?

HE’S EMBARRASSED but he doesn’t want them to stop

OH YEAH i wanna come back on the whole masochist thing (I GET SNIPED), him getting repentance and being punished through sex is both very liberating and hot as hell, especially when it’s kama. ashwatthaman moaning ‘your divinity’ like it’s a prayer is also hot as hell !!!!!!! IDK i just think that they can both get very intense, and also last a while, until they’re thoroughly SPENT.

...and leave room for softness. kama gently brushing his wet hair behind his ear, leaving him breathless and a little shy. they then lean in to kiss him and he immediately melts into their touch. but then they bite his lip. and he ... he Likes it but he could almost pout.

time to get a little angsty (i lock gazes with you) i think that after a long while of sharing such a relationship, ash would almost say The Forbidden Words in a daze. and kama deeply kisses him so he stays quiet. and they’re just staring at eachother, until kama tells him that he’s not allowed to say it. and if he does, it’ll almost be a betrayal towards shiva AND themself. they’ve grown impossibly close but neither of them can say Those Words because they both feel like they’ll break something.

also bc they both have huge egos.

but i think that deep down they really want to say them. 

another variant of this is kama wanting to make him admit it, have him say Those Words. but because of his blessing and respect towards lord shiva, he cannot. both because of the guilt and that it’d end up feeling like a lie, even if his touches, his kisses and the way he looks at kama screams otherwise.

BUT REE WHAT ARE THE FORBIDDEN WORDS

"I Won't Say (I'm in Love)" Hercules (1997).

is this enough of a clue ;;);)););;;))))))) HAAHA

THEY HAVE SO MANY LAYERS TO THEM ITS UNREAL

anyway shower sex hot !! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

i also think that them mutually jerking eachother off is hot as all hell and ONCE AGAIN, flustered ash who doesn’t know what he’s doing (at first) is cute !!!! cute !!

ashwatthaman LEARNING from kama is also a big fave. they’re abt to bathe in kama’s luxurious bathtub they had master buy for them and they’re removing their earrings and he silently leans forward and bites their ear and suddenly their face is red. god. huge dummy god of love. i love them soooo much its unreal

THEIR DYNAMIC IS BASICALLY.. I WONT SAY IM IN LOVE but still look at eachother like they’re newlyweds everytime they get intimate and (sheds a tear) i think theyre super married

GOOD GOD .......BODY WORSHIP IS SOMETHING THEYRE BOTH HEAVILY INTO ALSO. both giving and receiving, even if kama is a lot less obvious about it and a lot more smug.

oh, i think ash would be the loudest between the two !! THIS ONE WAS OBVIOUS. hearing him like that would also coax kama into making more noise as well so its win-win 

ok to be honest i think i should draw porn of them being soft like... THERES DETAILS I HAVE IN MIND THAT ARE IMPOSSIBLE TO WRITE DOWN IN THE HEADCANON FORMAT and i’m too nervous about writing fics (looks away) but i have things to draw.

ANYWAY I THINK THIS GOT VERY LONG ????????? SO IM GONNA STOP HERE. IF U MADE IT THIS FAR: THANK U FOR LISTENING TO MY BRAINWORM !!!! 

[transannabeth]

im in ap bio and our teacher doesn’t actually teach us anything but he gives us 9 page packets to fill out during the unit (which is like. 4 classes?) and literally every single question aside from graphs or labeling images is on quizlet so we use that and now we’re all gonna fail our ap exam

ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

god that sounds a w f u l !!!! but i also know that that is the experience of a lot of kids who take ap bio and it sucks!!! bio is super super interesting if you have a teacher who’s methods aline with your learning style and is just genuinely really excited to teach it. i still remember lots of random things about hormones or cell processes just because of how my teacher taught them

if you want some genuine recommendations from me, i always recommend the review book. it’s basically your textbook but without a lot of the language that makes it hard to understand. it’s just super streamlined and i would use it to study before each individual test, not just the ap exam. it’s so much more straightforward and i found that really helps and it also has practice problems and answers*

other than that i recommend crash course and bozeman science on youtube. crash course is (obviously) a crash course, so it’s not as detailed, but i really like using it for overviews. if i don’t really remember or understand something hank mentions, i know that it’s something i need to look at again. and then i always would listen to it as i fell asleep and all morning the day before tests, because i just really really hoped that would just. help. bozeman science is (in my opinion) a lot more boring, but they’re specifically made for the ap course and exam and are a lot more detailed. if you’re really struggling, i recommend those**

i’m sorry your teacher sucks :// i really do genuinely believe that way more people would love biology if they just had a better teacher. but hey, don’t give up the ap just yet! you’ve got time! (don’t bother studying plants. no one cares about plants)

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*btw this is true of all the ap books i ever used. i highly recommend them for sciences and history, and as much as i still didn’t understand calculus, i understood it a tiny bit more and it helped to be able to see what felt really really confusing simplified on a page. it’s just the barebones knowledge and i know for me, it’s so much easier to process and figure out what you need to know. i really wish all textbooks were written the way the review books were honestly

**i apply the same principal to both world and us ap history. crash course videos are VERY good for basic overview and finding holes in your knowledge. i also would put it on in the background as i reviewed other notes or read my review book because i was like “this is a ridiculous amount of information, maybe i should just like surround myself in a bubble of it” (i have no idea if it helped). and then for the more thorough videos, i would check out joczproductions, also on youtube. they’re longer and kind of boring but they’re good for like. getting a lot of information at once. AND there are videos that compare different areas and themes and whatnot which are REALLY important to keep in mind on the exam!!!

(also if you google ‘apush notes site’..............)

(i l o v e amsco review book for apush btw, it doesn’t have answers for the practice questions but like i really do love it and have genuinely considered buying a new copy, i gave mine away, just to have to read through. for other books, i looked at both the official college board ones and other unofficial versions. for those just go with whatever looks like it’ll help you more, for my ap psych book i literally just went back and forth between two different review books because i hated the textbook that much)

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spn 9x05, liveblog, collected posts (all 16 of them) or as i like to call it: Dean makes very intense eyecontact with a poodle... it’s bad.

Ok you know how sometimes the flashbacks chosen give you some kind of clue as to what’s going on in an episode? Yeah that didn’t happen this time. I have no clue whats going on asdfgh

#all I remember from this episode is Sam holds one of the squirrels? Cause there’s a gif of that #also I hate game of thrones so the references don’t do shit for me lmao

 Oh yeah, it’s the cat eater

#or should is say… pussy eater ehehe #i mean with that tongue #not very excited for Dean flirting with a poodle :(

 Why is Dean so judgy about other’s people’s tastes?

#like yeah those vegans are kinda shitty #bc they want to pressure other people #but I know a couple of vegan snacks that are frigging delicious! #like I can make a mean vegan carrot cake and its one of my favorite cakes ive ever had #besides my grandma’s brownies but that’s bc nothing can compare with brownies

 “You know how hunters are. They’re selfish dicks, that define themselves by what they kill!” asdfgh

#call em out!

 Ugh I hate the creepy snake dude

 And also the shitty guy that gives him the cats like “ugh I can excuse giving you those cats for animal testing” (you said you were from a perfume company) “but I draw the line at live eating”

#like yeah one is worse than the other but shelters shouldn’t fucking do that!!! #and whelp he died for his trouble. Oh Well.

 The officer taking off his hat to ask the boys if they need “any further assistance?” like… I read that fanfic

 “I don’t want this” asdfgh

#me constantly

 Why cant Sam Winchester sit like a normal person, I Swear! Like there’s a perfectly good bed right beside him, but nope, gotta sit on the cupboard. Gotta perch on that bench. Gotta sit on that tiny table. Gotta sit on that big table. Gotta sit reversed on that chair. Gotta sit on that railing.

#dean regularly wears his shoes in bed #sam cannot sit #they are both terrible disaster people #i love sam so much but pls somebody teach this man how to sit and not how to just sprawl on any piece of furniture ever

 Sam looks so pretty in front of that painting

#they should do that more often

 Ugh, the whole poodle scene I just the worst

#i am traumatized forever

 The dog calling Dean pretty boy also sucks!

#his accent is good though #nat fram yu fram the big booooy

 More hurt!sam

#asdfgh I hate this #im always like: oh no pwease don’t hurt my boyyyy #but then like the second hes bloody hurt sick im like Hearteyes Motherfucker

 The creepy af imagery of gadreel healing sam though

#yucketh #with the finger gun pointed at his head #its good and interesting but also AHHHHHHHHHHH

 Sam healing weirdly and without his knowledge and then immediately being told “I wanna know what you are”. Yup that’s totally great for Sam’s view of himself as a monster and weirdo.

#AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

 “He was possessed by something he couldn’t control. It was only a matter of time before it finally took over” uhu interesting choice of words there Dean-O

#sam is so worried about whats happening to him #and this cryptic scary thing is the only thing Dean says??? Yikes #also nice foreshadowing but still: Yikes!