oooooooo i need to rant for a second i can feel my fathers anger issues channeling through me…..
my dads gone out tonight cuz it was his bday yesterday but its always fucking annoying when he goes out cuz he never answers his phone and doesn’t tell us when he’ll be back !!!!!
not only that but the dogs always act up when hes out so ive got three hyperactive dickheads who can open the backdoor themselves and go and stand in the rain FOR NO REASON
and to add to all of that my brother has his friend over and theyre also dickheads who just made me spend £50+ on food and dessert which i probably wont get any money for off my dad even tho my mum said he’ll give it to me.
im just feeling so pissed off rn and i dont want to be but everyone in this house is getting on my nerves!!!!!!
I had a dream that I pulled a beta fish from a tank. I tried to see if I could save her. She had pale yellow eyes, I watched them go so glassy. I watched the reddish purple scales face to white. I held it in my hand and dread engulfed me. I almost didn't remember the dream when I woke up but, upstairs the white kitchen reminded me of the medical room I was in, in the dream. I was wearing a lab coat. How could I see so well without my glasses?
When I woke up I was scared and I rolled over onto my back. My cat came onto me, and purred on my lower abdomen. I know my body feels like it's deteriorating more than usual- I think something might be wrong. I can't afford to have my body sick right now, I have to keep up. I rested all of today and it cost everyone.
In the dream before, I was Alice. In court, growing taller above the rest but, never hitting my head. Everyone else was in Singular school desks (with the chair attached). Except the queen who was nowhere to be found. I looked around and started asking how they could be so cruel and corrupt. My words caused black and white scratch marks to animate around the edges of the room. I did not shrink back down as the words left my mouth. I didn't go overboard I said exactly as it was, I stayed tall and watched them all try to run from their desks in a panic, though I stood still and watched.