#ilysb

[iconsfinder]

[unknownoro]

Just an average FL day

[wtfsteveharrington]

omg hiiii :')

thank you so, so much for following & hanging out here. i have a ton much fun putting out content and i'm really honored so many people wanna be friends & follow along.

this little corner of the internet means so much to me.

thank you again <3

[nvmletsbreakup]

opps saw Lany 4 times in the past 2 weeks and I’m ready to see them again already!

[forjongseong]

Assalamualaikum 😭

[btsgotjams27]

ilysm.

[avatarkv]

all the moons in this solar system stare down at your soul with so much love, missing you when the suns out in your earth, and protecting you when you sleep. allow the planets and stars around you to gleam at you with pride, and allow yourself a moment to think, and take care of yourself. burning out won't last forever although it feels like it, im sure the sun feels that way too, take breaks. you don't need to own the title of "avatar writer" forever, just hold onto your passions a little longer, keep your favorite things close by. breaks are good

the sweetest message i’ve ever received, i cannot stress this enough. i appreciate this, anon ;( really needed it. i’m usually guilty of taking breaks because i hate when i don’t make use time to the fullest, it’s a bad habit, really— but i’m trying to catch enough sleep and i’m working on a schedule! i can’t thank you enough, im gonna cry augahhah. don’t worry, i’m writing still! avatar has a hold on me and a few edits keep me motivated. ilysm! you deserve the world and more >:[

[lonely-sure]

🩷🐶

[iconsfinder]

[lazanskywrites]

my favorite indie songs

My favorite blog post we've been assigned so far this semester was to explain our favorite songs. I chose to rank my top five songs from the 2014 Tumblr Girl era because there are too many songs I like to compile into a top five list.

In this blog post, I want to compile my top five indie songs. I've always been a lover of indie and alternative since I've been able to stream my own music. Ever since I can remember I've listened to artists like Foster the People, MGMT, and The 1975. I'm not trying to seem "different" from everyone else, but I never was truly drawn to rap music growing up. I love the soft, abstract, and light sounds that make up the indie genre.

Here are my top five indie songs of all time...

#5 "Walking on a Dream" by Empire of the Sun

This is a classic indie anthem, especially in the summertime. "Walking on a Dream" is without a doubt their most popular song, but there are countless other indie classics from EOTS. This song reminds me specifically of my freshman year of high school. Football games, my first homecoming, and spending countless sleepless nights with friends (before we were all employed and busy).

#4 "Loving is Easy" by Rex Orange County

Like many other fans, this was the first song of Rex Orange County that I'd heard which made me a fan. The tune is so soft and catchy that there's quite literally no way to dislike it. Alex O'Connor's voice is distinguishable and perfect for indie ballads. "Loving is Easy" reminds me of 2018 when indie became the trend. Kanken backpacks, checkered Vans, scrunchies, and HydroFlasks were all the rave when this song was popularized. Other good Rex Orange Country songs are all from his older albums (in my opinion). During 2018 I was also listening to his songs "Apricot Princess", "Never Enough", and "Sunflower".

#3 "Young Folks" by Peter Bjorn and John

I LOVE this song. No indie fan could ever hate it because of its sheer catchiness paired with light and airy sounds. I remember listening to this song in the car with my friend who'd recently gotten her license. We were all sophomores during the 2021 "return to normality" post-Covid school year and it was easily the best school year. We went to campus every other day, so each day that the majority of us didn't have school we'd spend its entirety together having sleepovers almost every night. As soon as we all began to get our licenses we felt so grown up and invincible. This song pays tribute to my friends and me as we lived in naivety and bliss. I think any of us would pay hundreds of dollars if it meant we could go back to being sixteen-year-old girls.

#2 "ILYSB" by LANY

Each one of these songs has a specific time in my life it's associated with. This song holds the most prominent memories for me. My best friend and I used to spend hours together listening to indie hits and reading...this is embarrassing...fanfiction of our favorite celebrities together. What else is there to do when you're eleven-year-old middle schoolers with iPhones and laptops that have unrestricted Internet access? We would sit side by side and share the cute stories we'd found with each other. It must make sense now as to why I'm so good at navigating Tumblr; I've been using it since I was eleven. Unrelated to being typical tween girls, this song will definitely be on my wedding playlist. I just think it's cute not only to sing to a partner but also to a best friend.

#1 Flashed Junk Mind by Milky Chance

What else is there to say besides I ABSOLUTELY LOVE EVERY LITTLE THING ABOUT THIS SONG! No, the lyricism isn't as sentimental as "ILYSB" but this was one of my top listened-to songs throughout my teens. I saw one of my celebrity crushes at the time (2017 Finn Wolfhard in case you were curious...specifically 2017) post about how he liked it, and of course, I had to follow suit. I doubted how much I'd like this song though. It's the ideal summer anthem with a funky beat and easy-to-follow lyrics. There's nothing to dislike about "Flashed Junk Mind" or Milky Chance as a band. If you like this song and want something a little slower, check out their song "Stolen Dance".

I love everything about the indie scene. The music, the fashion, and the emotions connected to it. Indie as a genre can provoke feelings of joy, heartbreak, and passion. These songs, along with others, will definitely be the songs I play loudly on a Sunday afternoon until my kids beg me to turn them down. Spoiler, I'll only turn them up.

[enterintomymindpalace]

And you need to know

You're the only one, alright

Alright

And you need to know

That you keep me up all night

All night

[cuddlethebear]

love this 🫶🏽

[laprofunda]

[forjongseong]

carmesi part 10 HELLO LMAO i thought i havent read 9, but i did!!! so part 10 LETS GOOOOOOOOOOOO~

You continued to pout and stare blankly at the screen before coming up with an idea. “Can I just sit with you?”

“You mean on my lap?” Jay asked to confirm. When you nodded, he nodded too and swiveled his chair back to face the computer. “Hop on.”

HEHEHEHE i just started and im all giggles and butterflies rn djksaldjksa

“It looks great on you, that’s the problem. It makes you look older.”

Jay’s eyes squinted at you before he chuckled again. “Thank you?”

LMAO i can see his usual facial expression with his eyebrow raised too lol

“Sit on my cock?” He asked, his lips grazing yours.

SAY LESS! I AM SAT, SIR

“Do you have any more of these that I can ruin?” Jay asked, his fingers lifting the hem of your night gown.

@_@ SCREAMING! Why would he even ask? There's a whole wardrobe fhasjkdjkas

“Can’t wait to see them wrapped around my dick tonight. See you at home.”

NANA LMAO I didnt expect this reply omg i choked on my water BYE

“You say that like I’m not allowed to stare at you,” Jay commented, leaning back on the kitchen sink and gripping the edges with his hands. “You look beautiful.”

oh jay <3 he is just so squishable lol i wanna hug this dude and let him just stare at me forever :3

Jay shrugged as he leaned back on the counter again, a smug smile on his face. “I mean, if that’s what you want.”

JAY! YOU DONT GET TO SAY THIS! YOU DID IT FIRST! WTF JFKASDLFSDFS

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

i just love the trust ceoyn has in jay. his tone just calms her and its like no one exists after that. PERFECT COUPLE FOREVER

“I don’t want a single drop staining the car,” you whispered. “Don’t make a mess.”

SCREAMING BECAUSE I REMEMBERED WE TALKED ABOUT THIS OMG AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH

“Is that a hickey?”

You fumbled for your phone and checked your reflection, craning your neck to see the spot Seungho pointed at. Nothing was there.

“Made you look,” he chuckled.

IM THE BROTHER LMAO!!! Me to my siblings tbh

“Is this the famous Park Jay? Oh, I love your hair. So nice to finally meet you!”

HAHAHAAHAHHAAHHA I DIDNT MEANT TO LAUGH OUT LOUD, BUT I DID OMG LOLOLOL poor hwi!!!!!

“For making my sister happy.”

okay, sorry to be that emo person haha but i did this to my sister's fiancee and brother's girlfriend T-T and one day, im gonna say this to my baby sister's future s/o when she gets one. we all really deserve happiness <3

“Good,” Seungho said. “Because if you hurt her, I’m gonna have to unleash all the hidden knowledge I have gained from listening to a lot of true crime podcasts.”

HAHAHAHAHA I AM SEUNGHO FRFR! My siblings had to tell me to calm down and stop scaring their s/o dhsajkdhsajkdhjak

“You’re the prettiest when you’re naked for me, though.”

CHOKING AGAIN AHAHHA LEAVING FOREVER

“Matching mugs for us!” Jay said with a huge smile. “Do you think it’s cute?”

THE MATCHING MUGS T-T MY EMOTIONS ARE LITERALLY EVERYWHERE RN! we talked so much about the matching mugs AND HERE WE ARE

Jay shrugged, also admiring the green mug. “I just thought of you when I saw them. I figured, since you can’t hang out with cats because of me, I should make an effort to add more cat stuff to our daily lives.”

he loves her so much that it makes me love them so much and now idk what to do but cry some more because hdjsakdhjakdhak THIS IS JAY

“Damn it, I forgot what else I was supposed to say.”

me tearing up and then laughing hahahaha dammit JAY! DHJSAKDHASJ i love him so much PLEASE!!!

“Y/N, will you do me the honor of becoming my wife?”

ME, BRINGING HONOR TO MYSELF BY BEING HIS WIFE! HELLO!

“Don’t worry, I’ve got pictures and videos of the proposal. I’ll airdrop them as soon as my shift is over,” Jake confessed. “Now I gotta run before my manager sees me.”

JAKE! BEST MAN! he wins for best man category lmao jkjk

You looked at Jay for a couple of seconds before you blinked. “So, when you were frantically patting yourself down and searching for something in your pocket, it wasn’t the car keys but the ring? You left it at home?”

JAY BRUHHHH LMAO the way i freaken snorted out loud as well. he was slick af though, for lying that he was looking for the keys dhjaskdhsjak!

Jay took the jade roller from your hands and made you give instructions on how to use it on your face. You did the same routine on Jay’s face, and throughout the whole process he was closing his eyes and smiling.

THIS IS SO FUCKING CUTE, PLEEEEASE NANA T-T especially him closing his eyes and smiling! my heart is gushing out so much love rn!

Jay chuckled and booped your nose. “I kiss you once and you already think I’m trying to get in your pants?”

“Aren’t you?”

“I am.”

I AM GOING TO FIGHT HIM DHJAKSDHAKSHDSKA A DAMN MENACE TO MY HEART

ANYWAYS OMG I FORGOT THAT PART 10 WAS THE PROPOSAL CHAPTER T-T So much tears, laughter, and screaming dhjsakdhjak i missed carmesi so much! fuck school, because i missed out on my favorite couple T-T BUT ITS OKAY, i can catch up slowly and gush and cry and scream again with you! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!

THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS TO CARMESI PART 10

ngl reading this recap I felt like reading someone else's work??? I don't remember writing ANY of this HELP AKSHDHKAJSDAKSJ HOW LONG AGO WAS THIS PART RELEASED OH MY GOD

especially this part

At the sound of his voice, you calmed down.

what happened there? HASDHASH I GUESS I HAVE TO REREAD IT MYSELF oh but yes I did remember discussing the car sex scene with you BECAUSE YOU SENT ME THAT SNIPPET FROM THE COMIC AKSJDHKAJSDHSA

not me going to part 10 and rereading it now BHAHAHA thank you for highlightingg these parts, it makes me relive them again

[rikiws]

THE TRIPLE REBLOG YOU'RE SO 😍💗💓🥰💖💖💓💖🤗💝💗💝💝

꩜ wrong person, wrong time.

non-idol!riki x gn!reader ┆ tropes; mutual-pining , they always just miss each other [angst] ꩜ Riki always had an issue opening up to people. He couldn't take compliments, and he'd always push people away, even when it'd hurt him too. But you were okay with that. You loved him, more than you could ever describe. So you'd wait for him. And he'd push you away. Until you gave up for good, and until he knew that you'd never come back. but nothing was ever that easy for you two.

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“Wrong person.”

The harsh words fell right out of Riki’s mouth; cold and calculated. It wasn’t like he wasn’t expecting this moment. Riki knew exactly what he wanted to say and he did just that. He didn’t care that the now silent, sombre person in front of him used to be so bubbly around him before. It’s better that you knew the truth. Riki hated you. He hated how happy you were, how you wanted to see him being as cheerful as you were, to get him to laugh, when Riki had nothing to smile about. He hated the compliments, he hated the gentle words of affirmation that obnoxiously tickled him until it stung, he hated the soft smiles that’d make him feel unbearably warm. 

Riki hated how scared he was.

But what he hated most of all was the way he felt his heart split into two when he turned his back on you, to hear that stifled sob of yours pierce through his chest from behind. Even then, he jammed his headphones into his ears, forcing a brisk walk away before he caught himself doing the same. Riki was the wrong person to love. Because words meant nothing to him. If you loved him, you didn’t. If you really loved him, he wouldn’t need to hear it from you. He’d rather see all the little things you’d do for him; like the way you’d always share your snacks at lunch; the way you’d delicately pick off leaves in his hair whenever you’d stare up at the clouds together; the way the corners of your eyes would crinkle just a little higher for him than for anyone else.

But Riki would always ignore it. He’d ignore how his heart did a somersault when you’d say something kind to him, when he’d feel the tips of his fingers warm up where your hands accidentally brushed across them. Riki would ignore how much he really liked you, all until he saw you giving away that smile- that smile that was just for him to see- to another boy instead.

You were so pretty, so happy, so…unattainable. He only realised how much he missed those dreadfully heart fluttering words of encouragement once he couldn’t hear them anymore. The sweet nothings that would thaw out his icy heart, the subtle touches that made his skin grow warm, the contagious smile that he’d struggle to not reciprocate. Well, it was all still there, just not to him. Instead, they went to someone who deserved it, someone who knew how special you were, someone who got to you before Riki could. And at that, Riki knew that you were the wrong person for him after all. 

But why the hell would that mean that he’d stop loving you?

“Wrong time.”

It was laughable how similar you sounded to Riki now. A cold stare…but a look of longing behind your eyes that you could only wish that Riki paid enough attention to notice. You were over him now, you tried to convince yourself of it. You had someone who appreciated you, someone you loved more than anything, someone you knew would cherish you and that you would do the same. But the feelings you’d bottled up and corked for so long seemed to break and spill out uncontrollably the moment your searching eyes locked in with the other’s closed-off ones. Riki was still a brick wall, even at his most vulnerable, you could still feel the miles of space between them. You would move a step closer, and Riki would always react: three steps back.

You stared up at the taller boy, a bitter smile stretched tautly across your face. If only Riki had said all of this sooner, when your eyes didn’t twinkle around another man instead, when you still hadn’t given up. Now, it was your turn to walk away, to hear a sob, and to ignore it, as much as your heart wished to turn back. Yet you heard nothing. And when you fought with your own morals and turned back, Riki was gone, as if he’d never been there in the first place.

You could have been sure that this was the end of the both of you. Riki should have stopped you; asked you again and again if you really wanted to go your separate ways; begged you for another chance, because you’d take him back in a heartbeat. 

If Riki really loved you like he said he did, he wouldn’t have been silent.

You thought that everything could end now. You could finally move on, and you’d never once look back. But when you found yourself loitering around Riki’s favourite spot, your spot, and when you turned to look behind you the way you promised you never would… 

When you saw Riki, with your own eyes, under the cherry tree- just like the day you two met for the first time, and when the sunlight reflected on his face so perfectly like it always did, when every ray of light glimmered in just the right spot, all except for one, all except for the tear that ran down his cheek, you found hope. You saw Riki cry. You saw Riki cry… for you. And you’d wait as long as it took, as long as Riki needed, to wipe those tears off of his face and tell him that words really are all lies; that you weren't the wrong person; that it wasn’t the wrong time.

But alas, if only love could let one see realistically, maybe then you’d both see how true it was. Only then could you see how you two had destined yourselves to always watch from afar- to look, never touch. If you’d only push your absurdities aside and realise that you were never meant to be: For one would always wait, while the other would always love.

A/N : This was originally a silly goofy angsty oc thing I made out of spite but since I can't get the time to write much nowadays 😢 reduce reuse recycle