#ilu guys so much and just wanna support u !!!!!!!

[streetfools]

i keep forgetting to mention but: if u make things pls feel free to tag me in anything !!!!!! i’ll start tracking ✨#userbigfool✨ 🥺👉👈

and feel free to like this post or just lmk if u wanna be tagged in things too !!!!!!! 💕💖

[wokestraightpuffy]

Hallo, i hope you are alright and that my ask aren’t annoying but I wanted to ask do you have any c!puffy headcannons? —🤡

YOURE NOT ANNOYING AT ALL !!! NEVER THINK THAT ILU VERY MUCH. MUAH /p

as for c!puffy headcanons, i am not the best person to ever organize their thoughts properly but ill try my best >:’D

ahaha. this got. super complex and way too long and more of like an introspective study to puffy now instead of harmless fun headcanons so, uh. under read more <3 (also reminder this is all /rp and /dsmp)

* i like to think that she has a hero complex, but its a bit different since she never really sees herself as an ‘important’ part of the story, not the main character but a support one, hence ‘im fine with being the side character’ or how she’s said she doesnt care what happens to her and would gladly sacrifice(?) herself if there werent other people she had to protect. girl u need therapy urself <3

* though very open with how she feels and never afraid to say when someone/something is upsetting her, ‘opening up’ is still a whole mountain climb for her, apparently. like, she’d rant about the egg, get mad at the eggpire, let off some steam by committing arson or exploding stuff, she’ll rarely ever talk about how much the stuff that upset her actually HURT her. does that make sense? LIKE, she’ll lash out, she’ll get mad, she’ll take NO SHIT thrown at her face, but to show the kinda vulnerability of dealing with that? to cry about it talk about those feelings with someone? I think she’d rather eat her own foot lol

* adding onto the thing above, she doesnt necessarily actually realize this about herself. less of actively doing it and rather growing... used to the ‘cycle of violence’ in the smp as they call it. and the fact that rarely have people really asked, that no one’s actually available for that, w her losing her closest friends, bad and ant, sam being busy w the warden stuff... and niki. yeah. there’s foolish, but i doubt she’d ever see venting to someone she considers her son appealing

* also. puffy is just sometimes... really bad at conveying sadness. i think she’s a rare crier. id go as far to say that shes even more emotionally constipated than dream, lol (but maybe not while the guy’s in his prison arc) and that she’d be the type of person to tell you its okay to cry but beat herself up over something if she let a tear slip in a heated moment

* speaking of sadness. she’ll only ever actually Be Sad if she’s alone or with someone she doesnt necessarily care the opinions of. yknow how she mourned for tommy and blamed herself? those dialogue bits? yeah, those are only times shed actually be vulnerable

* puffy’s go to response to the egg and how its fucked up her relationship w her friends is pure fury. but, going off of her line about ‘failing bad and ant’ i like to think that she probably hates herself the most about it. THAT IS A STRONG WORD LOL BUT YEAH. she yells and curses and gets mad, but sometimes i wonder if the words she had spat before were more directed to herself

* THIS GIRL HAS SELF-IDENTITY PROBLEMS. CAN WE GET A HELL YEAH FOR THAT CHAT? outside of having no goddamn clue about where she came from, how she got here and who she even is, scrounging up a role for herself in a server with a war on the background and traumatized kids got her resignedly coerced into thinking that she is only a Parent. Only good enough when she’s actually doing something Useful for people. SO. when she finds that ship? of having a crew and having a curse? OF FINDING OUT SHE MIGHT HAVE/ HAVE HAD A MOM THATS WAITING FOR HER?  the sense of control she has on herself is absolutely crushed. shattered, and she’s left to pick up the pieces w no one to talk abt it with <3

* adding onto the above, it’s why the line ‘I’m supposed to be mama puffy. me.’ hurts me so much! so yes! please cry with me :D

* also to add more on the fact that she thinks she’s only worth something when she’s being useful, puffy literally contemplated leaving the server, thinking that it wouldnt matter leaving since no one really needs her anyway, since she’s failed so many people. bad and ant, tommy, dream. shes said how foolish can take care of himself on how tubbo and ranboo have each other, how she and niki have drifted so far away from each that it might as well be a break up.

HOOOOOOOOOO OBOY . anon youve really given me the perfect chance to ramble huh? sorry for the rather incomprehensible brainrot, here’s more lighthearted headcanons about puffy asdhfkd

* she cannot stand still sometimes. she always has to be doing something extra, walking when the prime path is right there? shed rather go through tedious little holes or hop and balance onto fences to get where shes going. she’ll mindlessly fix up the path when there are holes or mismatched wood, and one time went on a long, long LONG journey cleaning up the paths tommy purposely DESTROYED near lmanburg and even added cobblestone sidings which werent there before

* puffys a bit of a sentimental person. writing in her log to clear her thoughts sometimes and cared enough to try and preserve lmanburg with the glass sheet and trying to find possible surviving artifacts of history to respect it, even though she’s never been a part of it. its also why, when doomsday happened and lmanburg got permanently poofed, she began to appreciate the buildings that are still standing and began taking more pics 

* she’s not used to being... what do you call it, um, cared for? she’d deflect compliments sometimes, when shes having a particular bad day, like, she’d laugh nervously and change the subject, sometimes she’d outright deny it, most days she’d jokingly say ‘staphhh it’ and add a very genuine thanks. my point being is, do something for puffy that is mildly nice and she’d keep that moment in her heart forever. 

* also funny story regarding the above. u know how karl is notorious for stealing her materials? and how puffy was contemplating doing something in retaliation for them? karl says hi for once when she joins the server and she goes ‘alright fine youre safe for saying hi’ LOL THIS WAS PROBABLY A BIT META WISE but something about this implying that the bare minimum or LESS is enough to make puffy forgive someone is very sad and funny at the same time for me. girl really said ‘oh you said hi to me? thats nice all the crimes youve ever done towards me is now forgiven. <3’ (this is a bit of an exaggeration on my part, ofc, i just think its funny LMAO) 

* ironically, despite being the ‘captain’, whenever riding a boat with someone, she prefers being on the backseat and letting them drive. ig shes just there for the ride i suppose, her and her uber drivers :3

 * she either has a rather unhealthy obsession with baked potatoes or she just doesnt wanna waste eret’s massive potato farm

* idc what cc!puffy says is c!puffy will always and forever be 5′2″ in my HEART. u are the shortest member, u cannot change this <3

* shes really fond of animals/ neutral mobs. she often baby talks to them and they help boost her mood a lot when shes having a bad day :D

* up to this day, the little secret rooms she’s created around the server have all been yet to be discovered, unless the one under bad’s house has been found. she rarely ever really keeps tabs on them, and more often than not they are just collecting dust. she still visits sometimes and cleans them up ofc

* she still genuinely thinks dream can change. cc!puffy’s line about that, ‘i’m his last hope.’ really makes me think about this a lot. 

* ive seen people talk abt it a bit but the headcanon that puffy acts as the server mom to fill the ‘void’ of her missing her mom makes me cry at night /hj

* she really likes her rainbow onesie! i headcanon that eret gave her that along w the sunglasses, but she started wearing that less when she found her old captains uniform. shes never really said why, though, and nobody ever really bothered to ask

* god bless this woman but sometimes the server members get on her nerves sometimes so she goes out of her way to traverse along far away from the main community to maybe commit a few crimes. let off some steam. these take a few days but she always returns

i probably have a lot more hcs but i cant remember them >_> THIS IS A LOT ANYWAY. HOPE U ENJOYED MY BRAIN VOMIT. IF U READ THIS FAR ILU THANK U

if there are mistakes it is bc i am crying and cannot see my keyboard and also i am sleep deprived /hj

[tomomoni]

hiatus info.

—small info. on why i’ve been kinda gone recently !!

—DEC 26, 2020 UPDATE

hello!!!! i don’t know how many of u are going to see this, but i’ll be back in new year’s!! ALSO MERRY CHRISTMAS STAY COMFY KITH KITH 🥺 I RLLY WANTED TO SPEND CHRISMAS HERE BUT MY SCHPOL IS UGHFDHBFHD

thank u all for caring abt me!! i dunno how to but it but i’ve just been a bit sad and stressing over lotta things lately n i don’t understand why n it keeps messing up my head, but ur messages are seen and loved and aaahh!! thank u, thank u sm for being kind!! 🥺😭 i’ll try my best to finish all of my work before new year’s and come back here soon!! i don’t deserve u guys, thank u again!!

i’ll do my best to make u guys EXTRA HAPPY when i come back!! thank u again to all of my friends, nonons, and everyone here, i love u and miss u all thank u for supporting me!! even if u have never interacted w me, i hope u know that u following me is always enough make me warm and smile!!

I LOVE UUU pls stay hydrated!! and u better be take care of urselves or else i’ll take care and cook for u MYSELF 😠😤

hello!! i’m rlly sorry for not being so active here 🥺 i’ve been having problems balancing school, family probs, communicating, and sleeping all at the same time and i’m real bummed out that i’m not able to talk and interact with u guys :( everything has just been mushy and i’ve also been having trouble taking care of myself recently bc i don’t have time to, and i’ve just been in a rlly unhealthy state.

it’s been rlly hard juggling these past months but i hope u guys had rlly amazing months btw ! 👉👈 i’m a bit shy abt opening up but my mind has been rlly unstable and i don’t want to drag u guys with my stress bc i’m bad at organizing stuff,, like i wanna be able to interact with u guys wholly and not just half ! and i think i should focus on myself first bc i want to be able to see u guys happy bc it also makes me happy too !!

but FJDHF,, i just lost motivation to wake up in bed bc my family has also been crossing the line sometimes and it took lots of energy from me which sucks, but i just hope it can get better from now on. life has been rlly mean to me but i’ve been pulling thru and i can totally pull this off too LOLOL 😼😼

i just wanted to make this to thank u guys for always supporting me and being rlly kind ! thank u it means lots to me and i hope u guys are happy too bc ur asks always makes me smile even tho i’ve been so so inactive omg. especially the new ppl AAAHH, thank u so much for following me and i hope we can talk soon and be friends and ily ! 😭💗

 I LOVE U GUYS SM I SWEAR I’M TRYINGP TO MAKE THIS FORMAL BUT I JUST WANT TO THANK U GUYS FOR BEING THE BEST <3 AND I MISS ALL OF MY FRIENDSF HERE AAAAFJSF

i love u and thank u for being patient, u guys are the sweetest and i can’t thank u enough for being nice to me and making me not sad and for reaching out to me ilu 🥺👉👈 I MISS U GUYS LOTS KITH KITH pls take care of urselves and i proms i’ll be back to talk !

[zelebirbo]

oo hfhfh fcuk..... oh my god..... of gh fhg fdndfk

honestly just hearing that my stuff makes ppl as happy is such a gift by itself 4 me??? i draw all this fanart first n foremost for myself but hearing other ppl feeling equally as enthralled by it just rly makes me life. thank u so much im so fucking honored that my stuff has brought enough joy into ur day that u would want to make ME, the goblin bird, something 

u ofc do not have to make me anything man!! again the fact u’d even OFFER is something i appreciate, and i rly do mean that! but since ur askin and if u RLY RLY wanna do it (or maybe you just need some ideas in general bc ik i cant draw everything that comes to my head for this gang esp when i have other things i gotta do) i’ll give u some prompts - if for like nothing else the just as as thank u for this nice ask 

i’m assuming ur specifically asking abt ee so all my stuff’s gonna be abt ee ok ok here we go

- stuff of howie and percy’s dynamic. i ADORE their canon dynamic so much. idk if i’ve ever seen anything quite like their rivals-who-seem-to-hate-eachother-but-upon-closer-inspection-respect-and-care-for-eachother-despite-how-they-butt-heads before? certainly not executed like theirs. give me EVERYTHING that explores their dynamic. like like. a situation where someone hires them BOTH for an architectural job instead of making them compete and how they handle the opportunity of working together. or like hijinks of percy having to chase a criminal through one of howie’s construction sites. or that kinda thing. listen listen they feel like they have a lot of history to them n i feel the possibilities r ENDLESS and i CARE ABOUT THEM SO MUCH

- would also appreciate content of howie in general PLEASE give him as much love as the main arc trios he is brilliant stupendous hard-working and i WILL bleed for him. jello cannot stop me from taking a bullet for this man

- ‘gio should be molly’s new dad’ ‘indus should be molly’s new dad’ ‘ramsey should be molly’s new dad’ ok but everybody be quiet for two seconds and hear me out: bee dad. bear daughter. howie’s. imo. probably the most capable of the notable guy charas to handle caring for a kid like molly as a parental figure (gio’s a kid himself and they’re more sibs vibes, indus ilu but you really are out here w one braincell, and ramsey looks like he cannot handle kids at ALL even if he tried. also just look at howie treats his ‘worker bees’.that’s dad. that’s DAD) and i feel like he’d have a p cool dynamic w her bc of how hardworking she is despite all the shit she’s been through. just listen. listen. SOMEBODY should capitalize on this concept. also in my humble opinion howie would tear martin to shreds for neglecting his job as both a parent and a toymaker 

- percy and ramsey vs zora stuff. while i respect everyone who likes seeing them as an ot3 i personally prefer their canon dynamic that just boils down to the garfielf ‘time to kick ramsey off the table ‘no zora that’s my pet rat, ramsey’ ‘you’re going into orbit, you stupid rodent’ it’s fun, exciting, intense action stuff that i feel could be explored more, esp since zora got away

- my absolute favorite ee humor is ‘bizarre threatening shit that zora probably did to ramsey in the apparent 2 days she was hunting him down to fuck with his head’. examples include my caramelldansen @ 3am parody, day 23 in the chamber, the kitkat man vine, and this duck toy vid. idk why it’s so fucking funny to me but it is. so ya i’d be down for some of that. just let zora be a weird cowboy cryptid bastard whos favorite pasttime includes rat bullying

- stuff on percy and ramsey’s dynamic 2 actually.... tbh idc if it’s platonic or romantic or whatever i just ADORE how they interact so MUCH and i lOVE THEM. buddy cop stuff buddy cop stuff buddy cop st

- zora just being the feral cryptid bicon she is i love her

uhh thats abt my ‘i care these characters’ dump hdsijkfsldkf!! im rly sleepy bc i just had a hell workshift so a lot of this might sound like complete babbling and i apologize

hope u enjoy it again thank u SO Much for liking my stuff that is genuinely is all i can ask for all the rest of this is is Bonus Deal stuff to express my gratitude for u even offering + wanting to encourage ur fanfic passion bc i love supporting the other creators around me however i am able

[dxmagedrose]

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Tagged by: my lover @hammurabicomplex​ I’m tagging: anyone and everyone who wants to pick this one up! share with the class if you feel like it! tag me in it!!

PRESENTING. RANDOM DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO-MUN AT 2AM ;

FIRST NAME Good fucking question… It’s (sort-of) currently Dylann! I was Kieran before that, though; it’s still used as one of my first names and I’m not used to Dylann quite yet bc I’ve just started using it. 

Indigo is one of my middle names though, and I’ve used it as an online handle elsewhere forever so I use it here now!  [ Fun etymology facts: Dylan(n) is a mythology name generally meaning “born of the wave” (aspiring diver & a water witch at heart). Kieran means “little dark one” bc of my love for horror, && I chose Indigo bc as a kid to be it was neither boy (blue) or purple (girl) and was both and neither as well as my absolute favorite color as this vibrant ass mystical color. ]

STRANGE FACT ABOUT YOURSELF hmmmmm…. I’m a horror lover at heart, so as a child (I wanna say 12), I was walking through an antique store (I have a few cool finds, I considered putting my other one as the fact tbh) and I turned the corner and I saw these two dolls staring back at me at the foot of the stairs of this antique building. my blood froze, and i felt my stomach drop. i got actual, physical goosebumps stumbling across these two creepy dolls staring back at me in the corner, and i couldn’t leave the store without them. perhaps the little painted porcelain boy would be somewhat spooky by himself if it wasn’t for the terrifying lidded gaze of the porcelain girl with the hairline fractures and slightly open lips. i cant look at her. i dont really find dolls scary, I like to find the spookier ones ones, and she makes me paranoid as hell. i keep her face covered and her up in my closet except for when i bring her out to show her off proudly as the spookiest thing I have but……. i dont really collect dolls anymore.  even thinking about her brings a fearful tear to my eye.  i don’t like to think about her for very long, but that’s why I’m so fucking proud to own her. ( YES — I’m THAT white person in the horror film )

TOP THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU FIND ATTRACTIVE ON A PERSON hhhhh a beardy jawline, high cheekbones, crooked canine teeth >:3c

A FOOD YOU COULD EAT FOREVER AND NOT GET BORED OF b.l.t.’s with avocado. ahhhh. my mouth is watering just thinking about it, oh my god. just a bit of salt and pepper???

A FOOD YOU HATE barbecue anything, i hate the taste of bbq sauce, you keep your nasty black goo to yourselves at the grill. twice in my life i have presented with barbecue pizza and both times i cried literal tears. why would you do such a horrible thing to a person? what kind of a monster are you? how do you sleep at night?!

GUILTY PLEASURE the sims. constantly. always. i’ve sunk thousands of hours into my households. oh also uhhhhhh i run two 80s horror blogs, one being a shitpost blog with occasional art of mine and one gremlin fanfic ship blog for horrible, terrible self indulgent fanfics i’ll get the courage to finish writing & post so i can be cancelled on tumblr for at some point. NO, i won’t link them. as i pretend they’re even all that hard to find, within a day i was found on both by someone i admire here a lot :’) ilu bby thnk u eternally for supporting ur local horrifying dumbass wtf

WHAT DO YOU SLEEP IN the same clothes i’ve been wearing all day usually, my sweats & long sleeve raglans or my hoodies. i like being cozy day & and out. and ugh. efoort. just throw me in a blanket in a cool room and im out.

SERIOUS RELATIONSHIPS OR FLINGS serious relationships with some openness or poly. i wish i could fling! just not exactly easy for demisexual autistics lmao.

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN THE PAST AND CHANGE ONE THING ABOUT YOUR LIFE, WOULD YOU AND WHAT WOULD IT BE I think I would be adopted by my grandma as a kid. It would save me some trauma but mostly I think it would get my autism diagnosed way earlier and save me angsting all these years of wondering why & thinking it’s my fault I’m struggling so much and so loud and affectionate and different in a world that i didnt fit in the same way. 

ARE YOU AN AFFECTIONATE PERSON when i get drunk i text people how much they mean to me in my life. does that answer your question? ahhh. i’m sometimes a cuddle monster with friends, i message people with long texts about how much they mean to me, but I sometimes really don’t like to be touched at all. 

A MOVIE YOU COULD WATCH OVER AND OVER AGAIN FLYPAPER.  F L Y P A P E R.  FLYPAPER.  FLY, and, I can’t stress this enough, fucking PAPER. ( Though also Whole Nine Yards and both Re-Animator & Bride ). I have watched Flypaper already like, 5 times this week and I’m still not done, and the other movies have been on repeat for days in this household within the last year. In the past it has also been Donnie Darko & the new Nightmare on Elm Street.  roast me.

FAVORITE BOOK White Fang by Jack London. Have I actually ever finished it? No. Do I still own a copy I’ve had since childhood thru multiple dogs eating it, taking it to and from school, and highlighting and circling all the best parts of chapter one ever since I was a kid and it was too hard of a book for me to read? You bet your ass. If I ever need inspiration I just reread chapter 1. Although one of my other favorites was Broken Monsters by Lauren Beukes. But White Fang is like, a weirdly personal text. We stan London’s writing in this household.

YOU HAVE THE OPPORTUNITY TO KEEP ANY ANIMAL AS A PET, WHAT DO YOU CHOOSE FENNEC FOX!! I used to daydream about having my own named Shiloh when I was a lil kid. they’re adorable little things and i am obsessed. i mean, gimme any fox and im happy, marble foxes, red foxes… but I was obsessed with fennec foxes. Also tbh ferrets. I want a ferret.

TOP FIVE FICTIONAL SHIPS [IF YOU ARE AN RP BLOG, YOU CAN USE YOUR OWN SHIPS AS WELL] Rosa & @ninetyscnds‘s Luke, Rosa & @iimpulsivity is already screaming my name, Rosa & Constantine, Jesse & Andrea from Breaking Bad, and the joker and harley of 80s sci-fi Dan & Herbert from Re-Ani.  I am but a simple opossum. 

PIE OR CAKE Pie! I’ll take both pumpkin & melty apple over cake. also, cheesecake is more pie than cake soooo, pie wins.

FAVORITE SCENT my dogs / my blanket. :’)  It’s the most grounding smell in the world. 

CELEBRITY CRUSH oliver jackson-cohen, i’m fucking GAY and im angry about it. there i was, minding my own business, and i saw that asshole in a certain SHIRTLESS GIF and it AWOKE SOMETHING IN ME. dont talk to me about it, holy shit im obsessed with beardy men now god fuckkdafjaask i hate him why did he make me this gay i was perfectly fine being into girls but NOOOOOO him and his dumb hairy chest and sweet rugged face and I——  I also am obsessed with the archaeologist & television personality Josh Gates and may or may not be considering making a fan blog for him bc idk if my anthropology docuseries host is Dad or Daddy but i love him lots

IF YOU COULD TRAVEL ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO I would go on a dive with anthropologists and archaeologists doing fieldwork research in the ancient cenotes of the Yucatán Peninsula. My actual dream job, catch me crying & fantasizing about being underwater documenting Mayan skulls given as offerings. Fuckkkk, I love anthropology so much!!  take me anywhere in the world to immerse myself into culture & archaeology.

INTROVERT OR EXTROVERT Introvert. I have a real life friend I see roughly once a month, and that’s it. Plenty of online relationships, I’m chatty, message me all day every day. but i dont do people well.

DO YOU SCARE EASILY I used to! Really bad. I don’t as much anymore. I do get paranoia a lot still. Having therapists telling you that the FBI could be outside your house watching you through your windows will kind of nervous. ( no google results for: yes hello fbi i am a writer please dont put me on watchlists i just have research i need to do for this idea im working on, would you like to try again? ) I have nightmares nightly but not they never make me afraid, they just make me feel like crap. jumpscares and loud noises and seeing people reaching into their pockets dont set off as many brain alarms anymore tho!! progress haha.

IPHONE OR ANDROID I like my android better bc of capabilities but meh

DO YOU PLAY ANY VIDEO GAMES My mom, her husband & I play COD for family game night, and Silent Hill is my life’s blood. I’ve sunken hours into Sims & Skyrim, and Norman Jayden from Heavy Rain is my #1 fictional character in existence, why do i love the druggie babies

DREAM JOB Oh… You’re asking me to pick? I’d love to be an anthropologist doing work out in the field. Underwater archaeology is peak, but I’m also heavily considering being a body recovery diver or police diver. I’d love to see myself in uniform someday, if possible. Just the thought makes me teary eyed & proud.

WHAT WOULD YOU DO WITH A MILLION DOLLARS fund my person creative & educational endeavors. get myself a spooky ass abandoned house to make my own home to create in, and travel to the world’s best dive sites. just live a mild life of education, creation & exploration. that’s the dream TM.

FICTIONAL CHARACTER YOU HATE dr. hill is a gross and whiny lil bitch this post brought to u by the miskatonic crew, how is everyone here an even worse bad guy than herbert west precious dan excluded talk shit get hit tho john winchester from spn and both walter white & todd from breaking bad are all in my crew of hated characters. i jusT…   the reani novel is difficult to read because i have to deal with this old sack of shit.

FANDOM THAT YOU WERE ONCE A PART OF BUT AREN’T ANY LONGER Supernatural :-)

… AND THIS CONCLUDES A DEEP DIVE WITH INDIGO!! //

[loyaloutwear-a2]

i’ve officially had levi for a whole year !&& i’m technically not quite at 400 followers yet, but i’d say 392 is enough to make this a double celebration !! i just wanna say from the very bottom of my heart, THANK YOU. the love&& support you guys have shown levi is the reason i’ve stuck around, even through 2 blogs && multiple breaks. it’s because of you guys that i’ve been able to pour my heart&& soul into a muse that i love so fucking much, in a fandom that has treated me so well. i know i don’t interact with nearly enough of you&& that’s definitely my fault, but i wanna fix that !! idk how yet but i’ll figure it out lol. ANYWAYS thank you to everybody that follows me. thank you to all my mutuals. thank you to everybody that writes with me. if i could tag every single person i have on this blog, i would but that’d take ages. so i’ll just give some special shoutouts !

SQUAD SQUAD (in no particular order)

@multimoose - i shouldn’t even have to say it ?? you’re half the reason levi’s become such an important part in my life ! if it wasn’t for you &&harry, i probably never would’ve put actual effort into her character&& she would’ve stayed as a joke blog. i know we don’t talk as much as we used to but you’re still my #1 on this blog, always. you’ll always be one of my best friends here ilu. 

@silimalosi - we haven’t really done anything on this blog but i’m including u anyways bc ur one of my best friends && i love u. thank u for dealing with my endless bullshit&& blog changes && disappearances. 

@keephe, @drtywork, @grcwingstrcng, @rcscue, @ircnego, @writermoore​, @traumaturgic​, @soulstcne​ - i love all of u. ur support with levi&& all her dumb shenanigans always brightens my day, thank u so much for putting up with us.

@unorthodoxdoctor - fav ??? fav. i don’t even know what to say, just that i’m so glad we met. you’re one of my favorite people to talk to&& i appreciate you sm !! 

@killypool - we really only just started talking but u mean the world to me tbh ?? you make my dash a happier place&& it always makes me so happy seeing messages from u bc i’ve admired ur blog for so long. 

@sinsabsolved - i mean u already know i love u. ur one of the few people that’s supported me on like every single blog i’ve ever made&& every single muse i’ve ever attempted to write. ur also one of the only people i still talk to that i remember from my start on tumblr so !! that makes u even more special to me. 

PRECIOUS BEANS

to everybody here: we either haven’t talked much in general or just kinda fell out of contact when i disappeared, but you’re still around && i love u for that !! whether we’ve just talked ooc (including just leaving a comment on an ooc post, i promise i’ve seen u even if i didn’t respond) or plotted or if we actually have a thread going somewhere, pls know i appreciate all of u. there’s literally no order to this either. 

@builthero, @resckue, @angrophobicscientist, @mightyheroics, @antvcnger, @hippocraticmagic, @itsybitsyparker, @rabbct, @shegoh, @kingxfmischief, @mysticmastered, @mystifiicd, @atimebomb, @panthrpaws, @sketchcrisis, @kaeciilius, @kcnge, @inkhosi, @warmrage, @archerdeafened, @cloakchose, @golddome, @slahtiz, @samoankiing, @miasmuseemporium, @celestialbcrne, @stcrrk​, @ashesincaptivity

and to everybody else that’s not tagged, likely bc i haven’t gotten the chance to talk to you or i’m just a fucking moron, pls know i’m still so super grateful for you !! beyond words. just the fact that you cared enough to hit the follow buttons means the world to me.

[heesgf]

zeen out of curiosity can u ship ur mutuals with sb?

hihi!!! omg i’ve always wanted to do this so im rlly happy someone finally asked🤧🤧💖 im gonna put this under ‘read more’ bc i have a lot to say!! pls enjoy :’)

((i want to apologize in advance bc i have the sweetest mutuals ever and im gonna be writing a lot for each of them bc i love all of you guys!! sm!!😚))

hyunsuk

firstly, im gonna ship hyunsuk with @forhyunsuk (courtney ilu💞)!!! when i think of the two of you, i think of really cute and spontaneous dates in the summer :’)) like getting ice cream and going to the beach!!! maybe burying him all the way in the sand and then running away jsdiojs. i also imagine you two doing this cute thing where you go to clothing stores and pick out the randomest, most CRINGEY items you can find LMAO, and then you make each other do little fashion shows???? long story short: u have him wearing a bright yellow romper and a trench coat…and he has u wearing weed socks with overalls and a sombrero??? WILD🤪🤪 but ya’ll are the cutest!!! and at the end u take rlly sweet selfies and cuddle at home :’)) sweet bbys!!!

i also wanna ship hyunsuk with my love, sim ( @hyunsukmyass ) !!! i feel like you guys would travel together uwu🤧💘??? i think of the sweetest domestic life, and there’s nothing more beautiful than exploring the world with the person you love?? i see you guys sitting together on planes and you always!! have your head on his shoulder, and he’s holding your hands, caressing it gently, and kissing it softly when you take off :’)) sometimes he’d just slump over into your seat and you’d wrap your arms around him!! he’s not asleep, he just wants a piece of you sim sdijsojf💖💖💖 he takes LOTS of photos of you while you’re sleeping omygod!!!! and they go all over instagram…. uwu u guys are the cutest couple ever!!! (w/ the best ig feeds ever DAMN) 

lastly i ship hyunsuk with lika, @moonxlika (world’s cutest person uwu😚)!! lika, you guys are so that adorable couple that joke around with each other like crazy, but when things are serious, u always have each other’s backs!!! if u come home after a long day, and ur upset or really tired, suk is ready to FIGHT SOMEONE FOR YOU😤😤💪 (bc he wants his baby to be happy always :’) but once u explain to him that it’s just a bad day, and there’s no one to fight, he immediately takes u into his arms and u guys eat every snack the convenience store has to offer, along with every cheesy movie u guys can find on netflix!! (maybe u guys are doing other things more than watching the movie but that’s none of my business🍵🍵🍵) also i mean kissing jiofsj nobody come for me pls im fragile

seunghun

@seunghunn my angel maddi !!!!💕💕💕 it’s no surprise that i ship you with seunghun!!! you guys are definitely the sweetest couple on this entire planet, and i think you guys would have the randomest, but MOST FUN, dates ever??? like seunghun would randomly pull up at ur house 2pm on a saturday (he didn’t even tell u tf??) he calls you, and when u look outside, he’s waving at you like crazy!!! and he’s smiling SO HARD!!! and ur just staring at him like ‘:ooo ????’  u kinda wanna go back home and change bc ur wearing sweats, but he looks so cYUTE and excited, you just jump into the car uwu❣️❣️❣️ and that’s when ur adventure begins :’))) he takes u to a finger painting place??? u guys promise ur going to draw each other omg; u decide to be a lil playful and paint him kinda funny looking, and long story short, he chases u around the place and threatens to rub his paint hands on ur face🤧 he gets somehow manages to get some on ur lips??? it’s ok bc he kisses it off uwu!!!! maybe call poison control???

next i ship seunghun with the lovely vale @seunghunies 💘💘💘 vale omg you and seunghun,,, literally the cutest concept ever :’)))) i feel like the two of you would love to venture out into town casually?? like he’d pick you up after school and you’d drive into the city!!! and believe me, the two of you look so in love, people would be staring in awe left and right🤧🤧 when hun sees the tip of your nose getting red, he takes his scarf off and wraps it tightly around u!!! and then he kisses ur nose for good measure uwu :’))) !!! when it gets darker, he’d drive a little bit toward the hills, and you would cuddle against each other and watch the stars… u guys would talk about everything!!! when u go off on lil rants abt ur day, he’s just staring at u like 😻😻😻 oh he’s so in love with u!!!!!!

and ofc i wanna ship seunghun with the beautiful @kimseunghoney 💛💛💛 christina when i think of you and seunghun, i think of adorable morning dates!!! i can see you and hun starting off ur days together at a cozy little breakfast place, and the whole time, he’s just giggling and staring at u with the fattest heart eyes!!! i think seunghun would buy u things spontaneously?? like ‘here’s a bouquet of flowers bby, i saw them and thought of you’ or ‘here’s a sweet treat for my sweet girl✨’!!!! uwu uwu uwu, you two are really just the cutest!!! sometimes, in the morning, if he has to leave before you, he’ll leave a sweet love note on the bathroom mirror. not that you’d ever forget how much he loves u, bc trust me, he says it everyday!!! but he just wants u to smile :’) he loves u sm💖

byounggon

@byoungggon ess, my angel, i obviously ship you with gon!!!💫💕 i see u guys as the adorable couple that literally everybody can’t help but fall in love with??? like you will wear gon’s oversized grey hoodies, and his camera roll will be filled to the brim with photos of you!!! anyone from miles away would be able to tell that u two are so in love with each other??? and if it isn’t obvious enough, this boy shows up to every single music performance u have, with a beautiful bouquet of red roses, the widest smile, and the LOUDEST WHISTLE IN THE WORLD!!!! hes always in the front, and he’s always cheering the loudest bc he’s so proud of his bby uwu🤧 u guys are the sweetest couple ever!!!

@speckofglitter tiyi i would ship you with byounggon too!!!!💞💞💞u can’t tell me y’all wouldn’t be the chillest couple that hangs out at parties, and y’all look so sweet talking to each other, everyone’s kinda just gawking at u!!!! also, driving in the car and listening to music??? THAT’S KARAOKE TIME!!!! ppl driving past might look at you guys like 👀 but y’all don’t even care!!! you’re too busy screaming lyrics at the tops of your lungs and laughing together omg :’))) why are you two so cute omygod…

@hynusuk taryn we don’t talk that much but I know you and gon would be the best couple ever❣️❣️❣️ i can totally see him sending you lyrics to his next song late at night, and his heart is beating so fast because he just loves you so much!!! and you’re melting bc the lyrics are about you, and they’re the most beautiful things you’ve ever read :’))) I feel like he’d make you mixtapes!!! and whenever ur feeling down, you guys would take spontaneous trips around the city and maybe makeout a lil hehe😚😚!! cuties

yedam

@yeetdam dara my angel!!! i ship you the human emobident of sunshine, yedam😚✨✨because he’s such a smart bby, and so are you, I can see you guys studying together before a big exam :’))) perhaps ur a liiiiiittle unmotivated so yedam makes a deal with you 👉🏼👈🏼!!! if u study with him for a couple hours without any distractions, he will sing you to sleep for every question you get right :’)))) and bby!!! u get all those questions right, so you are SET❣️❣️❣️ the night before your exam, yedam cuddles you in his arms, and sings you the sweetest lullaby you’ve ever heart uwu!! and the next day, when your exam is finished, he gives u the sweetest kiss😭😭 and then u guys race to the nearest icecream shop and eat icecream until u drop!!!!

@yedarnit how could i not ship you with yedam???? that would be blasphemous jskssk🤧 you guys are SO that dreamy smart high school couple that everyone loves, not only because they’re incredibly ADORABLE, but also bc you two are so mature and down to earth???💕💕💕 i can see you and yedam cramming for tests at the school library, and you guys do that so often, perhaps the librarian is ur #1 fan??? she is the biggest micro and yedam supporter omygod💘💘💘 sometimes the two of you fall asleep, and you’ll rest your head on yedam‘s shoulder while he has his arm around you!!! and she is MELTING at the sight of y’all!!! ofc, she snaps a couple pics, and when u guys wake up, she shows them to guys!! tbh, y’all are kinda melting too???? damn cute!!!

doyoung

  @doyeongs j, you and doyoung are the most angelic couple ive ever seen???💗💗💗 i think you two are the resident sweethearts at your highschool, and literally everyone, including the teachers LOL, is in love with ur relationship!!! I can imagine doyoung making jokes under his breath in class to make you laugh, and you can’t help but burst out laughing every time!!! most of the time, ur teacher thinks u guys are so sweet, she doesn’t even get mad :’))) i also see doyoung walking you home❣️you guys basically just gush abt ur days, and talk abt how much u miss each other :’))) maybe when he notices you shivering, he hands you his jacket, and maybe when he sees the blush on ur cheeks, he leans in to kiss it uwu!!!!

@sonjuyeonnie lydia i ship you with doyoung too!!!💝💝💝 the purest couple ever :’))) i think you and doyoung would spend a lot of time together during school; and he’s always getting in trouble bc he does dumb things to make you laugh (all in good fun ofc!!! nothing bad). i can see doyoung teasing and playing with you!!! like sometimes he’ll just kneel down in front of you and be like “hop on😎”!!! and then he piggy backs you the whole way home and you’re just giggling the whole time :’))) cutest bbys!!!

junkyu

miss haejin @junkyuity …. u KNOW u and kyu are my one and only😞💝💝💝 me, you, kyu, and gon are richmond gang :’))) the strongest group out there uwu!!!! I could talk abt you and kyu for days BUT, one thing i rlly always think about is how u two go on the sweetest, most casual dates!!! like to a cute lil convenience store somewhere omg :’))) u two would share a strawberry milk with one straw, and maybe have some instant ramen if ur hungry, or other snacks!!! perhaps he’d steal a couple of ur snacks when u aren’t looking, but tbh, you aren’t that mad??? bc the second you raise an eyebrow at him, and ur like, ‘hmmm🤔🤔🤔… didn’t i have more pocky???”, he immediately bombards you with the sweetest kiss!!!!💕💕💕 and let’s just say,,, it’s so heart fluttering, u forget everything??? yeah… u guys are the cutest💘💘

[mehringguie]

HEY HEY HEY IK i dont reply to everyones asks and im!! really sorry about that!!! ig theres just too many to answer and aaa ;;!! but i get the gist of most asks and i wanna say!!! thank you so much for you guys’ unending support and love it jUST!!!!!!!!!! IT MAKES ME SO HAPPY PEOPLE LIKE MY ART AND IM JUST SO GLAD U GET TO ENJOY EM AS MUCH AS I MAKE EM!!!!!!! AAAAAA I LOVE YOU ALL SO MUCH YOU GUYS MEAN!!!! LOTS AND LOTS TO ME!!!!! I WOULDNT HAVE GROWN AND BE WHERE I AM WITHOUT U GUYS!!! AND YES I WILL BE DRAWIN MORE BICHIE IN THE FUTURE !!!!!! ILU GUYS HAVE A GOOD DAY/NIGHT!!!

[ghostbag]

gosh lads I JUST WANNA SAY thanks for the support/nice messages on m’post from last night. it was... unusually hard to talk about for some reason so i really do appreciate it :> 

the rest of this post is just respondin to replies :0 under a cut because it ended up gettin a little long haaa

kaineus replied to your post “TIMES IS HARD LADS times is hard like. i dunno it feels like every few...”

ily and miss you and would talk more if i wasn't dying from finals

ILU AND I MISS U TOO u focus on finals and after they’re over, we will Party u3u

gayassdevil replied to your post “TIMES IS HARD LADS times is hard like. i dunno it feels like every few...”

i'm really really sorry you had to deal with this bullshit

thanks dude :0 tbh i’m sorry i gotta deal with it too lmao like i don’t have enough to focus on already? we gotta add This to the mix now?? honestly. but yeah, ty my guy ty <3

goopygoodra replied to your post “TIMES IS HARD LADS times is hard like. i dunno it feels like every few...”

tbh like... if someone is doing something to manipulate you, it's still worth calling out. even mentally ill people etc are responsible for their actions if they do something shitty. I'm really sorry you're going through all this though, and I hope that you'll be able to improve somehow

oh yeah nah that’s a very good point, and i do agree. that’s what i mean about still having her influence in my brain though -- logically, i know that what she did was wrong and manipulative but she set things up in such a way where you couldn’t disagree with her or call her out without being abusive or toxic. she hammered that in so hard that, even now, i’m cautious about saying something like “having a suicidal breakdown whenever your friends say no to your demands is Bad” without thinking that maybe I’M the bad guy for feeling this way? maybe this is a toxic thing to say?? and so on, so forth

but yeah, you do speak the truth and i appreciate the kind words :> thank you 

tewthousand replied to your post “TIMES IS HARD LADS times is hard like. i dunno it feels like every few...”

Went through a similar friend break-up (also about a year ago) and I still randomly have nightmares about them. It's fucking rough dude. I feel for ya and cheer for ya

whuff that sounds tough as :< i’m real sorry you’re goin through that. i’ve had a coupla stress dreams myself and it’s. it’s Bad. ty for the support and best of luck to you too!! 👊 supportive fistbumps for Team Getting-Over-Shitty-People

allgreymatters replied to your post “TIMES IS HARD LADS times is hard like. i dunno it feels like every few...”

I don't think you will be your old self. You're going to be a new self. It might be similar to the old self but it's never going to be exactly the same and you'll never be content with yourself if you’re expecting yourself to be exactly the same as before. You might be mistaking your progress or growth or just changing as a person for failure because it doesn’t measure up to your old self - but it doesn’t have to, and that’s OK. I wish you the best!!

thanks dude!! you made a very good point that i think i needed to hear :> 

i think part of why i’m so concerned about my ~Old Self~ is like... on the one hand, i feel like i don’t have the right to be as changed by this experience as i am? like she was way worse to other people, i got off pretty lightly in comparison, etc etc, but that’s. not how that works hahah like i don’t have less of a right to be Changed by this because it wasn’t as bad.

and it’s also partly just... denial. like if i can go back to my old self, then that means this whole thing wasn’t that big a deal and didn’t have a lasting effect on me, i’m fine actually, it’s all good, nothing to worry about, etc etc. WHICH again, isn’t good. and you’re right, it’s okay to be a different person than who you were before. nothing wrong or shameful about being changed by a negative experience. 

but yeah, thanks very much for the insight, it’s deffo given me somethin to think about. i really appreciate it!! :> 

[janiedean]

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I already did it but since @queenblackbetha tagged me and I’m in a mood where I don’t wanna do anything I’ll just do it but with different answers XD

The first second character I fell in love with: (first was robb lol) jaime. XDDDD unpopular opinion of the century but I liked him because he cracked me up and then when he went like the things I do for love before weknowwhat I went like ‘man you’re so interesting pls tell me more’ and listen guys jaime was my second-fave until brienne showed up and then he stayed third until adwd!theon happened SOOOOO XD idc I’ll go down with jaime lannister

A character I never expected to love as much as I do now: k I said theon last time so someone else hmmmmmmm... jon actually? like I always liked him fine but the last couple years I just... really... had a resurgence of OMG ILU and listen the more time passes the more I’m turning into a stan <33333

A character everyone else loves that I don’t: last time it was cersei who is it gonna be this one... idk dany? I mean I don’t dislike her even if I think her adwd chapters are atrocious (but it’s grrm not her obv) but like I so don’t get all the hype. anyway I generally don’t get the targaryen hype so

A character I love that everyone else hates: well obv it was theon and cat last time so... stannis. like guys sorry idc but I really love stannis and I can totally relate with him on a lot of things (atheism, people thinking you’re X when you’re Y and you just suck at expressing your feelings, repressing shit and doing stuff out of having to and not wanting to) and I really can’t stand how most people seem to dislike him? :/ d&d in primis tbh sorry stannis ilu

A character I used to love, but don’t any longer: hmmmm book wise really no one tbh I mean either I like you or I don’t and then I change my mind but the contrary doesn’t happen so let’s just talk SHOW ONLY and say that show!sansa was totally a+ until s4 and the last two seasons are really doing a great job of not making me lover her as much as the book counterpart

A character I would kiss: last time I said oberyn I’m gonna go with jaime now if he wanted me xD

A character I’d slap: the people I dislike deserve far worse than slapping so I’ll just go with renly who’s an okay guy but really, WHY COULDN’T U JUST SUPPORT YOUR BROTHER

A character I’d want to be like: last time I said davos for obvious reasons ie I wanna be the only smart person in westeros, this time guess I’ll settle for the blackfish I wish I achieved that level of chill

A character who makes me laugh: last time I said jaime for obv reason this round I’m echoing edd 

A character I miss: last time I said robb OBVIOUSLY this round let’s just go with cat sigh. or oberyn. SIGH.

A pairing I love: last time I did the top five so, top 6-10: jonc/rhaegar, jon/ygritte, gendry/arya, ned/ashara(/cat), sam/gilly, in the show I kinda like grey worm/missandei admittedly

A pairing I don’t like: last time I said t*ramsay and j/c sooo what’s it gonna be last time okay for the ‘crackships that are popular when things that make sense are not’, jaime/sansa is at the top of my fucking list of stuff I hate. if you want the actual sensed one, pls no sansa/margaery I beg you I can’t

ugh dunno who I could tag but if anyone wants to do it pls feel free