#ill try to look on the brightside

[bf-rally]

so today i messed around with react and managed to get this navbar working:

i looked at a tutorial the other day and tried to actually apply it to today....idk how to properly style the navbar so gonna try to figure it out next time if possible!

[romanarose]

Meet my Oc’s!

Samantha Marie Waters

From my series Sunshine Starlight Sweetheart Brightside, Sam is an energetic, quirky, compassionate redhead from a large family. With a history of child abuse, sexual assault and mental illness, when she meets Steven, Marc and Jake she does a good job at hiding it. She thinks.

Rebecca Levi

From Seattle, this is Rebecca after Marc has to come get her when she finally decides to leave her abusive husband after years of abuse leaving her with scarring on her face. Rebecca is intense, hard working with a strong sense of justice towards everyone except herself. Rebecca is proudly Jewish.

Candy

Candy started as just a reader with a nickname but took a like of her own. A prostitute in 70’s Colombia she is an informant to Javier Peña and Santiago Garcia. She is self sufficient, outspoken and protective of those she holds dear. Candy is Colombian and has worked her way out of brothels to own her own sex work completely.

Lacina Marie Dumas

First picture is when santi first finds her tied up in a basement. Second picture is several months later, Laci is happy and getting better, one step at a time. Laci is a gentle soul, girly, giggly, cried easily and cares deeply for others. Despite being all of 5 feet (barely) she is fiercely protective of 6’3 Ben miller. Her father was an immigrant from French and she speaks French. She’s soft and empathetic.

Jana Abeda Fernandez

Frankie Morales’s “lady” and the mother of his children, Jana never stopped loving him when they broke up after she got sober and he couldn’t just yet. But she never gave up on the love of her life, supporting him until the time was right to get back together. Jana is a highly educated Afro-Latina woman, she’s laid back, teasing, and fun loving ex-military current social worker. Jana has a strong sense of right and wrong and is protective of the vulnerable

Lorelei Ngoc Giang

A lover of all things old Hollywood, Lorelei dresses like something out of a 50’e fashion magazine. Don’t let her classy look and love of flowers fool you, Lorelei doesn’t fuck around. Will swears he fell in love the day he met her when she was Ben’s ER nurse and she didn’t take his shit. When her ex boyfriend slapped her, she knocked out his tooth. Lorelei is calm, self-assured in her abilities and brain but less in her self worth. She’s stunningly beautiful, incredibly intelligent and if she thinks you��re being a dick, she’ll tell you.

Cameron MacDonald

Not introduced yet in the LaL universe, Cam is Ben’s “one that got away” a wondering soul, a stoner hippie, Cam is a seasonal farmhand, working odd jobs during off season and traveling the country in his van. Him and Ben were each others first loves and gay awakening. Cameron is obsessed with Bruce Springsteen and old music. He loves Ben dearly and never found anyone like him since high school. Ben is happy, goofy, hardworking and can match bens high energy

And finally

Clementine O’Niel

Originally a reader in the wrong way known as “little one”, I’m adapting the fic into a dark romance novel. Emmy is Arab and Irish,her father marrying her mother overseas, but where, no one knows.m Emmy is horrifically traumatized from the abuse of her father and other men, but even still she never stops trying. She’s emotional, a frequent cryer but also self sufficient and capable in many ways. She loves Joel very much despite it all, but she loves her unborn child more than anything

[sweet-vanilla-sims]

Year 1611:

TW/CW: Death, Child Death

The year started out with Margaret's twins turning thrity-five.

Terric and Deborah welcomed twins, Kiyo and Kasemoto, in January.

In March, tragedy struck and Larissa's granddaughter, Lettice, died from an infected animal bite.

Adrian's great-grandson from his granddaughter Parnell, Daichi, turned six.

The Markovic family celebrated their heir Lawrence becoming an adult and Florence Westbrook turned thirty-five as well.

William Jaleel turned thirteen and old enough to be fully emersed in the family business.

Despite having grown up mostly neglected, Sybil's daughter, Constance turned thirteen.

Unfortunately, Larissa's household was struck with tragedy as illness arrived in the home starting with a gentle cough that grew, infecting the Pancakes side of the family and Anias. Sadly in early July, both of the young sons of the home, Ralph and Anias passed away while Cristina was expecting.

What made things worse is that shortly after laying the boys to rest the expectant Cristina started to cough.

Trying to look on the brightside the family was comforted by the birth of Barnaby and Brooklyn's daughter Bianca in late July. Surprising everyone, Frideswide announced her marriage to Watson Carlisle from Henford, in August though they had apparently actually married in July.

Perhaps it was due to age but the illness wasn't quite as aggressive with Cristina and she welcomed a newborn son, Albert, in September.

Though not even two full months had passed when Cristina succumbed to disease the night of November 7th and Philip followed the next morning.

While life in Willow Creek was not treating the family kindly, in Tartosa, Grace celebrated her birthday into a young woman at home with her family.

Of course her birthday meant it was time to travel to actually prepare to marry her new husband. Vincente asked her if she was certain about it and she did have her doubts about leaving and marrying some stranger she only met once but the family seemed nice when she met them and she'd be able to see her other brothers frequently so that was a plus... she didn't want to acknowledge the fact that that perk would only be there so long as the boys were in school. But the marriage was already agreed upon so there was no use trying to argue it now she decided. Since they couldn't just abandon the home for the wedding, Agustin and Vincente were to stay behind while Adrian took Grace to her new home with all their stuff. So as December rolled by and Grace's things were packed up, the two siblings embraced knowing it may be a while until they'd see each other again.

[sweetbriermouse]

Brightside, I have the energy and time for the gym

Downside I am in so much physical pain constantly that I can't handle standing more than a few minutes let alone doing a workout 🫠

Tw: severe mental distress, potentially triggering words

I hate that I have chronic pain, I hate that I have so many mental illnesses, I hate that I am on a wait list for evaluation for ANOTHER GODDAMN CHRONIC ILLNESS

I just want it to stop, I want my body to function I want to wake up and not feel pain, I want to stop grabbing pain killers and finding that after only a month or two they're almost gone. I want to not feel so goddammit dependent on pain killers and cbd and my partner for functioning.

I want to stop having doctors dismiss me because I'm young. I want to stop having psychologists and therapists turn me away because they 'aren't equipped to handle my problems' when I sought them out because they specialize in my disorders 😭😭😭

I want to be able to seek out and receive actual treatment for my problems. The one therapist I saw for years helped me get league's better but she stepped back to further her education and I can't find one since. Hell the first one I saw after seeking help and getting an evaluation for a list of suitable therapists looked horrified and straight up said she was so sorry but couldn't help me, I needed a specialist exclusive to PTSD, never-ending the fact I saw 2 of them and made one cry from my background (it's not even that horrible imo, like some people have been r worded or butchered by attempted mur!!!erers, my shit isn't near that bad) and the last one I saw got me through 3 questionable months of treatment before absolutely losing his shit mid session and leaving the country (like literally, he left the country because the business was going to pursue action against him for misconduct but couldn't because he wasn't in the country)

Wtf did I do to deserve any of this? I know I'm no angel but I'm not some demon either. I take accountability for my actions, I try my best to better myself and fix problems I see or am notified of. Why can't I just be ok???

[tommiematthews]

Drama, But not really

1/12/22

Yes, it’s the lasty month of the fucking year and I couldn’t be more unhappy about it, or do I mean I am happy about it. Maybe I need a symbolic tick of a numerical clock to help restart my life or maybe I just need all this gift giving to be over, so I can continue pretending to change my life. Where does the time go, well I know that it goes and stay gone, the only thing left are the memories and stinky farts. I had to make that a little bit silly, because it was being too nostalgic and nice. I hurt my back at the gym a few days ago and working with it has not helped, it’s my fault to begin with for trying to get fit. Or maybe it’s my fault for hip swinging a kettle bell as though I was trying to fuck a low hovering dragon, either way my back is out and there’s another being left wholly unsatisfied, more fool me. I have been trying to look forward in my life and past a quick lottery win, I know, completely out of character, I must truly be ill. I'm thinking about continuing my education in order to gain a certificate in project management, there seems to be a fuckton of jobs and I’m a slut for a decent pay cheque. It appears that in my bachelor of communications (majoring in business communications and creative writing) that I don’t seem to fit the bill of the assistant project manager roles I have been applying for. So instead of looking harder, more tailored to my degree and accepting an entry level job, I’m going to be miserable again for another year… oh well. We are nearing Christmas and although I am beaming for a break, I don’t have the steak to enjoy myself in the way I want. Prawns, champagne and a dirty big yacht appears to be out of the cards, so I will continue wearing shirts with holes in them and runners with no laces to get by. I say that like I look like a person struggling, but like most people, I look like a normal person who is caked up beyond belief and hiding the reality. The reality is debt and no savings, living week to week, but the Brightside is, I still have a good paying job and things aren’t as tits up as I hoped them to be. I can’t help but feel like a sad sack, writing my words into you, but I guess a diary is where those feelings go. We have Meredith music festival in a week and although my crippled dog is still housebound and walking on three legs, the parents must party. It’s funny, how much I use to party, use to find money for the multiple pubs, clubs, drugs and plenty of the ole’ flavoured milk, but things have changed. I’ve been watching White Lotus, the show that seems to be the in right now, and I can’t help but wonder how little it stimulates and how much I lazily watch it more. Like anyone, I enjoy when a beautiful set of tits arrive on the big screen, but a lot of it is the mystery genre and a lot of begging temptation. The two main characters that I relate two in both seasons are clearly the hotel managers, watching a person who is meant to serve and be pilot, internally implode. I’m sure other people like the other characters, cheating on wives and jumping from states of drunken curiosity to drama with family. But I like the silent killers, the ones that are dying inside, the ones who should kill them all, but instead kill themselves and the normal life that they clearly barely hold onto. I guess its an addict thing, not in the lame addict for drama or addict for confronting others, fuck I guess that’s the same thing… whoops. All these shows, the popular ones, all are set in beautiful places with beautiful people that have lots of money. The perfect temptation and jealousy that we all want, if I was that rich, I would be left alone, drunk with the few people I love, while watching the world burn from afar, not be part of the burning world. Monique is home, so I am off, farewell reader, I hope to see you tomorrow.

OH and here's some tits, you are allowed to do this on this platform and these are some of the best.

[browniesnivy]

Uhhhhhhhhh I’m literally so frustrated because I’ve fallen so behind on the Pride Month doodles and it’s not because I’ve gotten lazy or unmotivated. I’d be really pissed at myself if that was the case, but it’s because of a bunch of factors outside of my control. Since I’m really defensive and I feel the need to explain myself so...

1. I don’t have my own phone, so I have to borrow my mom’s phone to take pictures. But not only is that annoying for her (rightfully so, I wouldn’t want someone running off with my phone all the time) but my dad gets mad at me when I do that because he doesn’t trust me. Plus he gets irratated at Mom for some reason when she lets me have it, which just makes me feel guilty. 

2. Even when I do get a chance to use the phone, after the recent storms we’ve been getting the wifi won’t connect with my mom’s ancient phone so I’d have to use her precious data, which she is already using up whenever she needs to do something actually important. We’re already almost out because of how much she’s been using it.

3. And most importantly, I can not under any circumstances let my parents or siblings find out about my art and see me posting it on tumlr! My mom would get really worried about me and my dad would probably be so angry that he’d never let me use the internet again. There have been a few times when my baby sister walked in on me drawing and I literally almost had a heart attack thinking my parents might find out about my involvement in pride month. I really really really enjoy making art, especially queer stuff, because it helps me cope with all the anxiety my environment causes. But I can’t let my parents know that things are this way. 

Anyway, I’m going to keep making the art and then post it all in one big master post at the end of the month. It’s not at all what I wanted to do, but it will minimize the annoyance and possibility of myself getting caught. I’m super sorry and it really pains me to say that, but it’s super important I stay closeted and that my parents aren’t mad at me.

Thanks. 

[vengeful4ever]

Found out that I have an upcoming camp where the whole point is "to be alone with your thoughts and truely get to know yourself"

I do not see this going well, like at all

[softbabyeveryday]

I’ve just accepted the fact that I’m never gonna actually get to go to a kpop concert ever and that I’ll just have to live from the concert videos on YouTube 😭🥺

[iwantabatlleaxe]

I can't see my dad and I miss him. I also have vestibular (a big exam so you may be addimited into uni if you score enough) at the end of the year, and now we have lost around 2 weeks of content (which is quite a lot at the paste we were in).

Also I might have only a week of vacation since my original one was 3 weeks and 2 were without school (even tho I used them to study what I hadn't before)

On the brightside: I have been calling my grandparents more. And now I actually feel less tired since I don't have extra classes all day and finally learned how to prioritize shit in my life

Share your petty gripes about how the Coronavirus has messed up your plans. Let’s make a thread of complaints together. It’s okay. They can be as small or stupid as you want.

I’ll start. My petty gripe during this whole thing is that I was saving up to buy a computer and some nice software so I could teach myself special effects and advanced video editing for my backup career plan and now that my job is shut down I have to keep all my savings to apply for grad schools next year and since my summer job got cancelled I might not even have enough for that.

Also my favorite taco shop is shut down and I’m pissed about it!

[sandpumpkin]

Hi, can I make a request for your event if there’s still room? Marco’s my fav, but since he’s taken how about Thatch (he doesn’t get enough love anyway) and hay fever? Thanks!

Hallo! I haven’t written much for Thatch so I hope this is okay! thanks for your request!! 

Spring Factions: Yonko

Thatch: Hayfever

Spring is the worst. You thought bitterly, staring up at the ceiling. Your eyes stung terribly and your nose was running like a running tap. Guess what you’re allergic to? Surprise the outside. You groaned, wiping your nose for the unteemth time. At this point you were seriously considering stuffing tissue up your nose hoping to create a sort of dam. The door to your room opened and from your cocoon of blankets you saw Thatch’s quiff bounce joyfully over to you. 

“Morning my cupcake-” he stopped mid sentence and looked down at you. Red eyed, equally red nose. “Are you okay?” he questioned, the concern rising in his voice. “Are you sick? I’ll go get Marco-” you managed to grab his hand in haste. 

“It’s just hayfever..” you explained, your voice very nasal. “I don’t think Marco can cure that.” you laughed, sneezing quietly. You frowned as you heard Thatch’s laugh fill the room. 

“You sneeze like a kitten. That was adorable.” he teased. Pushing your hair from your face, he dipped to kiss your forehead “I’m just glad you’re not ill. I’ll get Marco anyway and I’ll make something that can at least help..I hope anyway.” he tucked you in and offered a warm smile, that made you feel a little happier. His smile is so cute. Closing your eyes in an attempt to quell the stinging sensation, you found yourself drifting off until Marco disturbed you sometime later.

Once the doctor had left, you were slipping off into sleep when you jolted awake as your door opened. Cruel world..please let me sleep.. Until spring is over..or until pollen stops happening.

“I brought you some tea.” Thatch announced, pushing the door shut behind him. “What did Marco say?” he asked, sitting down on the edge of the bed. 

“He gave me something that should help but I feel sleepy now.” you yawned, pushing yourself up rubbing your eyes trying to push the dizziness away. Thatch chuckled and held the cup out for you. You accepted it slowly and let the warmth fow into your hands. Sipping the liquid, the minute it touched your tongue you squirmed. Which just made Thatch laugh again. 

“It’s ginger, lemon and honey.” he stated, “Ginger should help with your symptoms, so should honey and that should in theory help with the taste too.” Gingerly you sipped again, still not enjoying this spicy drink. 

“Can’t say I’m a fan.” but grateful of Thatch’s gesture, you finished the tea; as quickly as you could. A yawn escaped your lips, the medicine Marco had given you was finally winning you felt so tired. Glancing up at Thatch coyly and then back down to your covers, you sighed. You knew Thatch had plenty to do. The weight eased from your bed, looking up you saw Thatch removing his shirt and shoes. “Thatch..” 

“I have some free time.. And I thought you might want some company?” you could have cried from his words, My sweet muffin... shuffling across the bed, you made space for the chef as he clambered into your bed as he pulled you into his arms rubbing your back gently. “Get some rest my sweet souffle.” he whispered into your hair. You wrapped your arms around him in response. 

“I’m sorry.. I’m so gross and snotty-” 

“This is nothing.” he said his voice held a slight chuckle “you’ve not seen these idiots after one too many drinks..or too much food..that's gross.” your laugh was muffled by his chest. Thatch snuggled down with you so he was eye level with you and rested his forehead against yours “Now. Rest.” he reiterated sternly. 

“Yes Chef.” you replied seriously, you both broke down chuckling before you ruined the moment with another pathetic sounding sneeze. “Why am I allergic to the outside?!” you whined dramatically. 

“Brightside..more midday cuddles?” Thatch hummed, stifling a yawn “now my little snot gremlin. Sleep.” Though he was there for comfort, Thatch fell asleep first but it did allow you the glimpse of his cute sleeping face, his deep snore vibrating through you. Smiling softly, you buried your face into his neck and finally got the sleep you craved. 

[sunfoxfic]

Can I just at something about the awakening movie spoilers we got yesterday??

At first sight, I thoughthe looked like a baby kitten and adorable.

But also...HE LOOKS NOTHING LIKE ADRIEN?? NOR DO THE OTHER CHARACTERS?? SGKSBAIAJAHSJS

I saw that post you reblogged and was kinda relieved I wasn't the only one ngl.

Though I am all in for AUs and such, another main thing which I am low-key terrified of is the fandom response.

Like I have been so emotionally invested with this show for 6 years and thus the canon reveal would feel,,idk EMOTIONAL?? We have travelled with these kids for so long and seeing them grow and just cdshvshss it would be amazing.

But I am afraid that this movie coming out in a few months would kinda ruin the impact?? Moreover there will also be THOSE people who would go, "ThE MoViE WaS WaY BeTtEr ThAn ThE ShOw" which I definitely don't want to see. I want to like this movie so bad but some of these people are ruining it lol

And then, the models. I have so many... opinions about them. Marinette looks cute, but also looks like one of those generic character models and not like, well, MARINETTE DUPAIN CHENG, who is LADYBUG. The movie one looks pretty but lacks personality. Like I don't know how to explain it but when I see the series character models,I just feel INTRIGUED to learn more about these characters while the movie ones just have pretty hair and colours and lighting but not, personality.

Also I will be frank here, I am almost jealous that the movie has taken so much of the budget which could have been used for the show. Also the song seemed so beautiful and hearing the movie chat and ladybug singing that makes me feel weird because I want OUR LB and CN singing it?? I am being incoherent sorry djdgsjvaiabs

Anon, you are so not alone at all. Everything you said is already a concern that I've seen expressed. Honestly, the thing for me is that I don't anticipate the movie is going to be a very good retelling of the show. I can elaborate on this elsewhere but I think that the show's monster of the week format has allowed for there to be a slow progression of conflict over 4 seasons while still giving the viewers emotional payoff at regular intervals. i.e., we see the slow progression of conflict for Adrien's arc over Mega Leech and Guiltrip and Optigami and Sentibubbler, etc, but each of those episodes also provides the viewer with some relief.

That's not to mention that part of what makes the world work is that Hawk Moth is unrelenting and constantly there, which is why episodes like Truth and Gang of Secrets can happen at all. In an hour and a half movie, they can fit... maybe 3 battles? Imply maybe a few more happened? But you aren't going to get the same sense of neverending fight against evil. That, and if they don't akumatize the major characters (such as those in the Miracuclass), most of them will never get development at all, and so much of Adrien and Marinette's motivation comes down to "I am doing this because of how much I care about other people." If you never see that care in action, I think Marinette's arc in particular will fall flat, and Adrien will likely be severely reduced to "doing this because he's in love with Ladybug :D" which is. Not the move.

The more I think about it the more I think that ML needs an episodic format, which is why either a TV show or a comic/manga is ideal, IMO. A movie just won't work to tell the story we love.

And yeah, I don't think it looks good at all, and I think it's bullshit that the show can't get animated by the favored animation company but the movie is getting millions of dollars to look like crap. Zag is trying too hard to replicate the success of ML without thinking about why ML was successful and I think it'll end up flopping in the end, at least compared to what they could have done if they'd just given that money to the original show.

The brightside: You may or may not have followed me many months ago when my URL was animatics-ill-never-make but I am so pumped for the songs. I know, like capital K Know, that animatic artists are going to take those songs and give them to the original characters we know and love, and I think they're going to be beautiful. That is the one thing I am unequivocally hyped for this movie.

[derekmorganscrocs]

Nancy Drew 2x9

Thoughts While Watching

Spoiler Alert!!

Aw no poor bess. AW PLATANCHOR ACE! Oh besties so cute. Poor bess oh no

Odette coming through with the pessimistic vibes about the day. Me. Always. “Nickolas” HAHAH Odette please. She’s so sassy. “No I’m not au-revoiring, you are.” Nick pls. GEORGES TATTOOS- George is gonna die omfg. Pls Nick is the only logical one here. OF COURSE IT WAS GONNA GET STOLEN YOU PUT IT IN YOUR DAMN LOCKER.

oh it’s probably Gil, not Grant. Sorry I thought you were a murderer grant. NOT THE PIE. why’d ace sound so sad about the pie. TELL ME STONER BOY DIDNT SNITCH.

AW ACE THE LIL FLOWER. “Aw Ace I’m so happy for you :) now I’m gonna die :)”. I think that Grant is an informant or something.

Sassy thief bad boy, I like. But I also don’t bc he’s tryna kill george. PROTECTIVE NICK! Detective Nick 😏. OH ACEMANDA, okay. Ohh

Okay wait I kinda feel bad for Gil. But mans is still going to end george. Oh Nick is v hot okay. Protective Nick. I love him. And Gil is kinda noble despite the whole killing george and theft thing ngl.

Carson coming thru. Of course, king Carson thanks babe. “Ok can GEORGE weigh in?” Pls george you’re funny.

BESS OMG WHAT R THOSE? TONGS? Carson and Bess moment funny. “Are you alright?” He sounds so fine with it but also so concerned. AW CARSON FATHERING BESS TOO PLS I LOVE HIM. The Drew Crew is now Carson’s Crew Of Baby Ducks.

Okay I mean at least Amanda didn’t spill. She’s so pretty too!!! Okay but I kinda like the bobseys ngl. Sorry guys. Gil is also very hot. I bet their mom either isn’t dead or is gonna show up as a ghost?? Okay but I feel bad for them no. Oh do I smell an Acemanda scavenger hunt?

NO NO NO NOT THE FANSON FIGHT. AW NO PLS I LOVE THEM. HES PROPOSING?! Oh no nvm. DO NOT BREAK UP. DO NOT. Fanson scavenger hunt?

Oh is that b dead? No nvm they’re still breathing. OH GIL JUST DIPPED. Patience impaired- MOOD. OH THAT WAS HOT “wasn’t this more fun than picking a lock” WOAH THERE BUCKO. YEAH BUT WOAH.

“Am I crying too loud” BESS IS A MOOD. Aww Carson is trying to distract her, please omg. Dad Carson is so cute. LAWYER BESS, LAWYER BESS.

Oh that’s creepy. NOT A BASEMENT- NANCY UR DUMB. OH THAT WAS SO FUCKING SCARY WHYD THIS PRINCE PHILLIP LOOKING MF JUMP LIKE THAT- NOT THE BASEMENT. fake wall? Yeah Gil break down that wall. OH GOD IS THAT HIS MOM?

HE STASHES THINGS BESIDE THE POLICE STATION- WHAT?! I love that. Acemanda could be cute though? Maybe? Idk I need to decide if I can share.

ODETTE IS BACK. Nick is so over it. WHY IS SHE SO SALTY ABT BEING STUCK IN GEORGE LMFAO. PLS “granite, limestone. Be done with it” ODETTE I CANT. She’s outta pocket. “Oh, well. Odette called me an idiot.” PLS NICK AND ODETTE ARE SO FUNNY.

Oh it’s just drawings, I thought it was a body. Poor Gil :( wait I actually feel bad. Ok I’m here for Gil but he’s pissing me off with this whole shroud thing. DONT KILL GEORGE, U HOE. Mommy’s ghost is boutta show up. NO WAIT WHAT IF SHE WAS KILLED BY A GHOST. she totally was. HAHA nancy got caught. I laugh but that was awkward.

KILLED BY GHOST, OBVIOUSLY. “We’ve heard great things about your restrooms.” PLS. Ace knowing nothing about art. NANCY ITS UNKOWN THEYRE OBVS NOT GONNA HAVE THE NAME.

Dad Carson aw. Pls besties Bess and Carson. AWWW THERE WASNT EVEN A HEARING. Carson should just adopt the entire Drew Crew. LAWYER BESS! LAWYER BESS! I WANT LAWYER BESS! Dad Carson please adopt me too. REASSURANCE. I LOVE.

“Technically they sold it to nick” “What?” PLS NICK/ACE IS SO FUNNY TO ME. besties are so funny. SHES NOT DEAD I TOLD YALL SHES NOT DEAD. IF GEORGE DIES I WILL RIOT.

GIL YOU NEED TO CHILL. SIR. PLEASE DO NOT DO IT. DONT DO IT. Oop Nancy is already there. SHES STILL ALIVE I TOLD YOU GUYS. please poor Gil. Aw, I feel so bad. She was definitely actually being haunted, but I digress. No please poor Amanda. “Why would she tell you but not me?” HIS VOICE GOT SO SMALL. TWIN MOMENT. okay but Amanda coming thru for the Drew Crew. WOOHOO GIL REDEMPTION!

“Cheer up Boss.” IF BESS DOESNT KEEP CALLING NICK BOSS ILL BE UPSET. “There’s still an old timey French lady living in my girlfriend.” AW OMG. ODETTE NO-

GEORGE NO. NONONO. oh thank god nick and Bess got there. Bess coming through with the lawyering. Nice. Bess crashing and burning here. “If you do this to george I wont have to imagine it. George deserves to live.” NICK- FANSON- CRYING. CRYING. OMFG HE LOVES HER. NICK I LOVE YOU. FANSON. HUG HUG HUG SWEET CUTE WOW. tag yourself, I’m bess crying in the background.

Nancy and Ace- “says the guy dating his twin sister” HE GAVE HER HIS HOODIE. I AM JEALOUS NGL. I’m very immersed in this, don’t Judge me. NOT THE BANANA CREAM PIE, NANCY PLS. oh they’re holding hands???

Acemanda on the boardwalk, the writers are stealing my ideas, smh. See: The Dumpster Fire I Call Life (linked below) OMG “I only need one” THAT WAS VERY CUTE AND I HATE IT. PLS STOP. JEALOUSY. CUE MR. BRIGHTSIDE- TPAIN SANS LE T- WAIT A DAMN MINUTE. ITS HIS BROTHER?! DO I SMELL FRANK HARDY?

Sister’s Thoughts:

“Why is Ace dressed like a fifth grader?” (It was the blue jacket with the green zipper that made her think that lmao)

“I’m just me, without any secrets,” Carson said.

“Except for your secret boyfriend.” My sister is the number one Caryan shipper.

“Aw Nick is the ghost possessing your girlfriend bullying you? Poor muffin.”

DUMPSTER FIRE FIC LINK:

[snow-wind-and-all-we-will-find]

Hi! My names arthur and im working on improving my word and building my story, which currently has no name haha! I have a myriad of characters who ill try to list out and give brief descriptions of, aether is technically my main character and some of the characters who are up for question are dead in canon. But you can still ask them stuff, itll just be set before death.

When asking characters questions, rememeber to include the name, their age if theres diffrent ages, i dont mind repeated questions, but if you see the question try not to ask it again lol. If you cant find it with a quick scroll just ask it, although i dont know if this blog will even get that big.

Aether

He comes in three evolutions lol, technically, theres four but idk if i would count 7 year old aether.

Ages: 13 yo - colder, hasnt gotten used to emotions, there are two to this as well, pre-rev and then post-rev 13 yo aether, remember to specify lol.

16 yo- a bit more out there, still kinda disconnected and figuring things out, a bit more defensive

22 yo- lax, hes sorta figured shit out, hes not going to go grazy, hes just gonna be chill lol.

!The gaggle Ghosts!

Yurei

Her personality is very, ehhh, becuase i havnt done work with her, and i havnt completly figured out who she is fully yet, shes 18 yo when aether is 22 yo

18 yo- pretty oblivious, somehow still a bit cynical, very nice and sometimes motherly

Kakoku

Few thousand- mean, likes to bully yurei as he huants her, lowkey a simp for yurei but he wont admit that. Kinda cynical and likes to bring others down, generally a bully

Tamashi

19- emotionless, has to be a really strong emotion to make her emote, tends to stray away from other people, likes to be alone, blunt

Gunnar

A few thousand- sweet, warm and welcoming, tries to be very fatherly and a trusted figure, is very busy most of the tiime unfortunatly though.

!The greek gang!

Argus agapov

16- unstable, pretty baby, protective over friends and family

Mythos agapov

23- whore. He also loves his family, lowkey, hes a trad wife

Perceus

15/16- timid, intrested in posiosn and acids, generally quiet, likes to eat leaves, scaredy cat

Diogenes

14- germ of phobe, kind of a brat, more just a bitch, will yell at you if he sees your hands were dirty from gardening or something while you’re walking to the sink, other than that hes fine, picky eater

Herodotus

15- disorginized, trys his best, likes to write stuff down, helps plato with his writing and grammar in general, gullible, likes record data, has a nice typewriter with tha good clicky clack

Plato

8- sweet baby boi, loves his older brother (socrates), idolizes him even, not a good idea though. He writes down everything socrates does, sometimes he imitates his brother as well.

Socrates

17- dumb of ass, also just dumb, held back a grade, feral child, bites alot of people, soft aestechic but hed stab as a warning

Heracles

30- also dumb of ass, loves cars in that ‘mah babeh’ kinda way. Hates motorcycles, he thinks they’re ugly. Chaotic but he utilizes it to be the weird and cool uncle/cousin thing

Zeus

46- too tired for this shit, is a dad, went out to get milk, jk jk, dissapeared for a hot few years, probably got captured by some gang dunno, it happens. Very serious, would make the dumbest jokes with his brothers with a straight face

Hades

50- lowkey the neglected middle child, soft goth lookin ass, loves his kid, tries his best to raise his kid, sometimes gets help from esme

Poseidon

57- proud stay at home dad, buff but does the typically wifely duties, makes sure his children get enough love, nutrience and care

Lillith

54- very active, the money maker, kinda soft, both her and her husband poseidon are so just in love with their kids, dote on them constantly, very extroverted, always makes time for her kids

Esme

51- tired of zeus’ shit, does her best to make sure no one dies, still treats mythos as her ‘little baby boy, tired mom vibes.

!the Eden gang!

Eden is a fictional country that i slapped onto the globe. It is where aether is from, technically aether is apart of the eden gang as well. Everyone here, if they have an age option, the first age option is the age they are when aether is 13, and the second will be when aether is 16 unless stated otherwise

General kyelli

49- fatherly, thinks of most of the gang as his children, calls everyone ‘son’, as a general rule. If you ask for another nickname, he will do his best. Has a bad knee, and is kinda of bad at existing physically

52+- fatherly still, loves almonds, always has a bag of almonds, dont test him. Enjoys travel, might adopt people he meets along the way, still has pains but now he sees doctors, wants to stay active

Indigo

13- sweet, optimistic, always looks on the brightside and tries to see the good in others. Little heater, understands that sometimes fighting is the only option

Akrano

16- lively, very loose and relax, can get serious when needed though, always making jokes and trying to lighten up the mood

19- a bit more, mellow. Still quite lively and childish, but with two signifigant-others you have to settle down sometimes

Ekrano

16- lively, more stern than akrano and kinda worried, but ultimatly also very loose and bright

Lilliana

16- serious, seemingly colder towards everyone, gets along great with psycho-lops, makes him new eye-patches to pass time, actually just very monotone and blank most of the time, although she does care

19- she doesnt change much, she got a bit more expressive, likes babysitting howl

Psycho-lops

16 1/2- always looks determined, actually kinda scared of conflict, likes to help out with healing though, very proficient in it as well, sounds intimidating while talking about how cute puppies and kittens are

19/20- still the same, is considering studying medicine and medical practices to become a doctor.

Bark

17- bright, incredibly lively, loves to joke around and tease and sometimes bully the others, targets aether primarily, hangs out with his brother most of the time, he can fight for himself but he likes the backup, especcially since he is kinda glass-jawed, being that hes a twig

Bite

17- quiet, intense eyes, always sounds vaugly confused when he speaks, deep voice lol, likes to train, doesnt understand barks need to tease others, likes to read to the children

20- quiet, intense eyes still, more so nervous sounding, slightly paranoid, cluastrophobic and cant stand dusty places, usually in his house or at the docks, doesnt really go anywhere else

Hanelle

17- loud, headstrong, adamant about her opinions, gets along well with bark, she tries alot to be intimidating, not a twig, but not very big, pretty friendly and sociable

!the band of pirates!

Aklea

A few hundreds of years- kinda bored seeming, loves blood, technically cannibal, but not really since he isnt human, to an extent. Despite being fine on the ocean, he gets very car sick very easily. Actually quite nice, very easily triggerd into violence, especcially by something that could be used as a good murder weapon, blood makes him jittery and more lively

Nerone

21- calm, too calm, deals with akleas bullshit wonerfully, he just stands there, blank smile on his face as aklea beats the shit outta someone, unintrested in most anything, likes to draw, but hes a much better pastry chef.

!the shakespears!

Midem(pink boi)

33- lively, loves to work with kids, very creative, likes to make things, mainly art, mainly carvings. Often make little minitures of scenes from midens writing, loves his twin, does anything it takes to fund midens intrests. Very loving to those hes close to

Miden

33- calmer by alot lmao, pretty introverted but he can hold a long conversation without becoming too drained, enjoys writing and making stories, also makes plays for fun, runs off little sleep cuase he stays up so late to write, and gets up early to write.

!gods!

Gideon

9 billion- confused boomer, loves his ‘children’, hates to be hated, always tries to help in anyway he can, despite making them, always curious into what mortals are doing, loves the universe he created and does anything he can to protect it

Merik

7 million- sore loser, does get a little salty, ultimatly bounces back and becomes a very good sport, always will adopt tactics, whatever it takes to win within the rules, keeps most all of his trophies from random feats hes done

Ventus

5 billion - calm, straightforward, tends to disregard others and do things himself, likes to sit on cliffs and watch the ocean

Kyle

Hes been around since 776 bc- very loud, lively, bright, tries his best to educate people on proper form, workout regime i intesne, doesnt allow others to take it, makes custom workout regimes for free, owns a gym, dude bro but hes nice, baby

Horo-sha

Her age technicaly is not accurate, shes like, 2 billion? Since dima was made right after her death. But since her history still lives, ima count it

5 billion but older than ventus- bitter, violent, former god of justice, fucking dead haha, hates mortals, primarily humans

Dima

Also not super accurate, hed only be a few centuries of being an active god before being sealed, but since hes technically, concious and has cognitive function hes counted

3 billion- mean lol, likes blood and gets even more violent when it starts getting messy, ‘new’ god of justice, uh, pretty bad at it like the last one, but worse, will kill over slight misdeameanors, everythings a crime smh

!misc!

Ivan

24- softspoken, from imperial russia, died young, he no longer feels his face is his own, has a mask that he likes better, has the sickness, but since he was human it killed him, can control it post mortem, is strong enough to be seen, but weak enough he can go invisible and go through solid objects.

More ocs will be added when i remember them, or create new ones, characters i dont really have built at all are not included

[cobblepottantrum]

ACNH HC

PPG edition

so me and my friends on a server were discussing about how the powerpuff girls and rowdyruff boys would play the game, and i took it upon myself to write it all down. This isnt every single one and all of these were created in a mixture of mine, @empress-lulu-of-mischief and @toxicovee��minds (possibly other so if i left you out im sorry!!!) Just something fun and silly to think about. 

its long so ill break it up. Let me know if you have any others :) 

Blossom: She had played New Leaf and loved being the mayor so only being a resident was a low blow for her. In that case her island is always 5 star because she would have nothing less. When it comes to how her island looks, it's perfect. It's symmetrical and her villagers have a cute little town that looks oddly like Townsville. She prefers the natural looking stone compared to Bubbles bright pathways. Her favorite thing is the museum and she will donate everything one by one so that Blathers will tell her everything, it's kind of insane. She does this with Celeste too and has little information signs everywhere. She doesn’t really like doing the custom designs for clothes but will occasionally.

When it comes to the flowers, she only likes the red, pink and white ones. She only plants those and if any colorful ones come up, she gives them to Bubbles or has giveaways on her island. She has giveaways on her island where up to five people can come and ask her questions like a little meet and greet.

She doesn’t time skip too often but she did go back in April for the cherry blossom DIYs which her entire house is pink and cute. When it comes to her outfits, she wears the red bow and Bubbles made their old school dresses so she usually has on her pink dress. Her villagers are all pink and she likes having the snooty ones best. She won’t hesitate to complain to Isabell and she will take a net to them.

Game Name: Blossom Island Name: The Good Place (Was Townsville but Bubbles told her no) Fav Characters: Blathers, Celeste and Tom Nook Fav Villagers: Flora, Merengue, Pinky, Whitney, Audie, Raymond Fruit: Cherry Flag: Her iconic red bow with a pink background Tune: The ppg theme song (it's actually mine too)  

Bubbles: The queen of custom design and the hybrid hoarder. Her custom kiosk is constantly being used as everyone wears and uses her designs. Her island is filled with pastel blue pathways and the cutest decor ever. She mostly has small parks and cafes and is still trying to get past her 4 star ranking for KK Slider. She loves the hamster and small villagers and refuses to hit them with nets (except for the monkey who was mean but that's ok). She revolves around her flower gardens and she will yell at you if you try to steal her golden roses. No time skipping for her because she likes the slow pace of the game.

Every morning she goes to every villager and talks with them and sends them gifts. The Able Sisters is her favorite place and she mostly buys things for her villagers. Her musem isn’t even close to being complete because she is scared of the bugs except for the butterflies. The fish she is okay with but the moment she saw the tarantula she closed her game. If one of the girls or boys is on her island, they will catch everything for themselves. Her terraforming skills are off the charts since she likes design so much and everywhere you turn there is a waterfall covered with flowers but absolutely no weeds.

She loves having people come to her island. She sends out Dodo Codes for flower watering and trading. Everyone brings her gifts and it's now a running gag to bring blue flowers. Her player is always changing styles and hair colors but she always has custom heart cheeks.

Game Name: Bubbs Island Name: Sugar Shore Fav Characters: Leif, All the Able Sisters Fav Villagers: Bunnie, Cookie, Merry, Bubbles because duh Fruit: Apples Flag: Intricate bubble pattern with flowers Tune: She changes it from one disney song to the next

Buttercup: She wasn’t too thrilled about the game as she never played the other ones before. However she does start to like it as it's relaxing and helps with her anxiety. She's a grinder and always has money. She designed her island to have different areas based on her favorite movies and sport areas. She likes the jock and lazy villagers and will not hesitate to smack them with her nets. She hates how long dialogue takes and smashes the buttons violently.

She breeds the black flowers and her house is surrounded by them. She likes to catch the fish and every night she goes to as many islands as possible for taratuna hunting. She only allows her best friends to come to her island because the log screens are a pain. Her island is nice and cool and she time skips like crazy and likes the turnip stock market. Other than that she's not too obsessed with it and her villagers get upset when she leaves them for days at a time. The only custom thing she makes is movie posters and band album covers. Hidden around the island are magical summoning circles and fake blood, Bubbles hates it.

She likes CJ’s fish challenges and half her island is covered in bugs for Flick. Her player has the bandages and custom fake blood as well as spooky outfits that she gets from other people's codes.

Every time she catches a snail, she sends it to Butch with a message “its you” attached.

Name: BC Island Name: Spice Shack Favorite Villagers: Kid Cat, Bam, Phil, Bruce Fav Character: Cj and Flick Fruit: Orange Flag: Green skull with a black background (bubbles made it) Tune: Opening to “Welcome to the Black Parade)

Brick: Stock Market King, Mr. Richie Rich, Snob. After Boomer told him to play and gave it to him, he became obsessed with the stock market. Every Sunday is turnip day and he spends the week finding the highest selling price, usually his twitter followers will invite him and he will leave them a bunch of Nook Tickets. He time skips like crazy, cheats and he wears the crown without hesitation. His island is 5 star spotless and shows off the rarest items. If you wanna come to his island then you must pay up. He is the person who you hate because you wanna be him. He has only the top tier villagers and will call you poor. He doesn’t bother with custom designs and if he wants something then Bubbles is the one to go too. He used an island planner beforehand to make sure everything was in place. The moment something new comes out, he's on top of it. He doesn’t really care if a villager is ugly or cute, if they are highly wanted, he gets them.

If you happen to be dating him, you must wear the matching crown to prove that you are the best because it's what you deserve.

Name: Lord Brick Island Name: Bricktopia Favorite Villagers: Audie, Marshall, Raymond, Bob Fav Character: Redd, Daisy Mae (He is her bitch and sets his alarm) Fruit: Peaches Flag: Red flag with a crown on it (made by bubbs of course) Tune: He doesn't know and he doesn’t care because he plays on mute.

Butch: Disater. His island is always messy and he doesn't care too much about the atmosphere but he does like the bugs and is a simp for Isabell. He saves all the snails BC gives him and puts them in his snail room or the army room. He becomes serious about the game a little later and sooner follows Brick with all the cheats. They dominate the stock market like bosses

He doesn't talk that much with the villagers but spends time hitting them with nets if they are ugly. He keeps Butch without a doubt and moves his house next to his cause they are bros but all of his villagers are cats only for the reason to make jokes. (pussy island)

His island is like a living meme as he has random images in the sand. His house is simple but a punk rock domain and he wont tell anyone that he spent hours making the green day album covers for his wall. He doesn't have too many flowers but prefers the bamboo look more. His favorite item to wear is the hockey mask and he put fake blood face paint on. His island is like a horror game instead and Bubbles refuses to come to his island because it's scary. He also likes to make mazes out of hedges.

After a while he restarts his island and son time travels and has the island buffets where people pay to come get materials and objects. He becomes an AC king in no time and likes that he can make money. (the only people allowed on his island without payment is the girls, his brothers and his friends, other than that, pay up)

Name: Butch Island Name: Butch Pad Fav Villagers: Butch, Bob, Olivia, Stinky, Tom (litrally just cats and Butch) Fav Character: Cj and Kicks Fruit: Pears Island flag: A snail with a skull on its shell Island tune: Mr. Brightside opening

Boomer: This boi right here is the AC King. He's played every single game since he was little (always made fun of by his brothers but look at you Brick). He knows all the AC lore and will go into detail about Tom Nook and Redds past plus he is the biggest shipper of Flick and Cj. His island is terraformed perfectly and he has literally everything you could want. He time skipped for a little bit but never cheats.

He is a twitch streamer and everyone tunes in the moment Boomer is on. He allows for five people to come on his island a day to play games and get DIYs that he already has. He's a humble player who knows his way around everything. He doesn’t care too much about which villagers come and go but Audi is his favorite as the back story suggests. He just wants to complete it all except he will never be able to catch wasps, he sucks at it. However he rarely misses a fish and also has piles for Flick and CJ.

He is an avid hybrid flower person and any extras, he gladly gives away. Bubbles gets the first pick. He is surprisingly good at custom designs and makes everything himself. His island has little cafes and band areas as well as a perfect view of KK Slider because he is a 5 star island for sure.

He owns AC Merch and buys fanart from other people because he is obsessed. He got Brick Daisy Mae socks and he catches him wearing them every Sunday for good luck.

His player looks like him but also wears the crown (he got it first anyways). His house has all the instruments and has a nod to all his past houses.

Name: Boomer Island Name: Big Blue Fav Villagers: Boomer, Bubbles, Audi, Tad Fav Character: Isabell, Timmy and Tommy, Cj he loves them all. KK SLIDER Fruit: Cherry Flag: His flag changes weekly as his subscribers have flag comps each week and he uses the winner as his flag Tune: He is an Og and didn’t change the song.

Ships and how they play:

Reds: Museum dates. They love walking through the museum while talking on the phone and wandering around. Brick brings her a pink rose each visit and Blossom places them around her house. Usually when they are on each other's islands they are facetiming or talking and they just kinda run around and don't do much before getting off and focusing on each other. Blossom brings him gold flowers because he is a snob but he secretly appreciates it. Blossom has to take off the bow and wear the crown because only the best can be on his island. She makes him wear a red hat when he comes onto her island. Sometimes they have fishing competitions and whoever wins gets to brag on the bulletin board.

Blues: Dates!! When they visit the other islands, they go back and forth all day, exchanging hybrid flowers and catching butterflies. Bubbles talks to every villager he has and they each made a secret picnic spot on their islands for them. If he is streaming, she is mostly likely watching and or playing with him. They can spend hours just talking and running around and they just craft and decorate together. She helps him fix his house up and “I love bubbles Is written in the sand that can clearly be seen from the plane loading screen. They always give things and write love notes on their boards. Together they host games on their island and it's always on a certain day. There's at least a queue of 100 people each time.

Greens: They hit each other with nets and axes for five minutes before switching to a fighter game and hopping on with the boys. But if they manage to stay on longer, Butch and Buttercup just cuss consatntly and leave eachother gross notes on the bultin boards. The play hide and seak and Butch likes to dig up her flowers and make a mess of her island before she does the same to his.

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Brick x Bubbles: He constantly is paying off her debut because she doesnt time skip or grind for her money. She never asks him to but she opens her mailbox to find bags of money and rare items. She makes his red sweater and when he goes to her island that's the only time he removes his expensive outfits. In the back of his island he grows hybrid flowers for her. She makes his custom designs and shows him how to boost his flower production and villager points.

Brick x Buttercup: He likes calling her poor. He is insulted by her island being boring and gives her gifts but she sells them to piss him off. They are the most competitive pair when it comes to fishing and she likes to dig in random places and drop items to make him mad. He’ll walk around and find thirty sticks everywhere and call her. It's about teasing with them and good fun. They are also the turnip couple overlords and constantly are looking for the best princes.

Boomer x Blossom: Boomer knows everything about AC and Blossom loves learning about the stories. He gives her tours of the museum and everytime she has a new villager, he explains their past. He gifts her pink flowers and she helps him complete his museum with fossils. He will have people come to his island and she even has meet and greets with people. It's simple and fun.

Boomer x Buttercup: Boomer gets BC addicted to the game. No other person can make her care so much about these animals than her soft boyfriend. He shows her all the secrets and how to make her island amazing. She becomes obsessed and is soon rivaling Brick for best island, Blossom knows hers is better. Buttercup likes to grind and travel for materials and anytime Boomer says he needs to find some more wood, she has it sent to his island in no time.

Butch x Blossom: Sir is a simp for Pinky. He enjoyed listening to her talk about the fossils in the museum and when she flew to his island “Blossom is Hot” was written on the ground. Even though her island is thriving , he constantly sends her gifts and things. His favorite thing to do is to run on her island and leave a random heart patch for her to find. She doesn’t exactly approve of his methods of making people pay money to get stuff but him allowing her to get whatever she wants, she turned the other cheek because if people want to spend money so be it.

Butch x Bubbles: He hits her villagers and she yells at him. He also likes to take her flowers one by one and replace them with normal one. He tried taking her golden rose but she cried and he called her to make sure she was ok. Now he doesn't mess with her but finds himself growing her flowers. She doesn’t come to his island because it's spooky but he made a little spot on the beach and “Bubble Safe Zones”. She tends to have the best items for sale so whenever he visits he shops a lot. They like to fish together and she shows him how to plant flowers and make his island nice. After he decides to restart and make his island a shopping paradise, Bubbles gets anything she wants especially since she doesn’t time skip. If there's something rare that he only has one of, she gets it.

Bonus: (doesn’t matter which ship)

-Blossom once had turnips for 800 bells and did not let Brick come on her island because he said something about the bow being dumb. He instantly regretted and called her and begged, the man begged over the phone for her to open the gates. She did at the last second.

-Butch once stole Bubbles gold rose and the entire city heard her sonic scream. He put it back and waters it daily. (She screamed cause she saw a spider on the wall but it got him to but the rose back)

-Boomer and Blossom know about the AC lore and often have long discussion on his stream about different

-Nintendo contacted the girls and for a new event they made the powerpuff girls as villagers you could have. Blossom is a preppy wolf named Blossom, Bubbles is a sisterly duck named Bubbles and Buttercup is a jock cat named Butters. Each of them are themed to their signature color and each offers a special diy. (they sent the girls amiibos and codes to get their own) Big Bow Bookshelf (Bow shaped bookshelf with blossoms signature), Heroes Bedtime(replica of the childhood bed), Hotline Phone, Heavenly Hearts Rug (the heart ending screen rug), Bubbly vanity (three giant blue bubbles that look like a mirror with bubbles signature), BC Bean Bag (bean bag that is green with Buttercups signature). Crime Fighters wallpaper (wallpaper that has the famous pink, blue and green streaks), Pink Poster, Green poster, and Blue poster, PPG Poster (has all three girls on it)

-Each girl has a special memorial on their island for Bunny. It is just a patch of Purple roses and all of them are near their house.

[brotanicalgarden]

TW: Mention of Su*cidal/Su*cidal Thoughts, S*xual Ass*ult, Abuse

I’ve taken a lot of time to think about, process, and honestly grieve this news. I don’t usually post things like this and I really don’t like to because I feel like I’m coming off as disingenuous but I really need to share this, for my own sake if nothing else.

Growing up I had a wall in my bedroom dedicated to The Killers. I pinned up their album covers, had posters, printed out memes and pictures. I even bought Hot Fuss 3 times (I wasn’t particularly financially literate between the ages of 12-16 but that’s a different issue). When I applied to Tufts I wrote my “What makes you happy” supplement about screaming along to Mr. Brightside in my bedroom after school. I even posted that essay on this blog after my first year at Tufts. The Killers’ music has always been a source of joy and comfort to me. 

The year Battle Born came out I turned 14. I didn’t have a good home life. This is going to get incredibly personal but it’s necessary to fully understand my current devastation. Both my parents were alcoholics. My mother was also very mentally ill and abusive. While she never hit me there were times where I would respond to her (usually a simple yes or no) or ask her something and should would pull me into the center of the living room. She would then swing her leg up as if to kick me in the face but would stop her foot just in front of me. Then she would lower her foot and say “Come on, I’ll give you the first hit” and lean her face forward so I could punch her. I never did. This is but an example of what I went through. I wasn’t allowed to hang out with friends after school or on the weekends. I had one friend I was allowed to see during the summer because my mom liked her mom. We stopped being friends in middle school, as often happens, and my mom screamed at me on and off for weeks about how I took away her only friend. Again, just a sample. I was deeply depressed throughout middle and high school. I started listening to The Killers when I was 11. The year Battle Born came out I had a suicide plan. I decided to wait until after Christmas because I didn’t want to traumatize my whole family. That’s when I received Battle Born. Be Still changed me. It felt like Brandon Flowers had somehow heard my thoughts and was singing to me. Typical 14 year old thing to think but still, it was enough to stop me from trying to kill myself. If I’m being honest, waiting for that album’s release and getting my hands on it gave me something to look forward to. It helped. Listening to it on repeat every day after school for months helped. I felt less alone when I listened to it.

Wonderful Wonderful dropped my freshman year of college. I hated Tufts. I had no friends, my roommate was snobby and judgmental, and I wanted to transfer. I was miserable. But I kept listening to Out Of My Mind and each time it reminded me how I had longed to go to Tufts. How hard I had worked to get in. It was literally the only school I wanted to go to. In the end, I didn’t transfer and I’ve always owed a little bit of why I stayed to that song.

I was so excited when I heard they were releasing a new album this year. When I found out that Tana Flowers’ C-PTSD was the inspiration for most of the songs I knew I would have to buy the album. I don’t talk about it much because I’m still having a hard time navigating and coming to terms with it, but my sophomore year at Tufts I was diagnosed with PTSD. As you can probably figure out from the previous paragraphs, my childhood was the main factor in my developing the illness. I had hoped that listening to Imploding The Mirage would help me feel less alone, like Battle Born had. And I can honestly say that based off of Blowback alone, it would have. No other song has resonated with or described me better. “Poor, white trash, and always type-cast.” That definitely described my life experience, especially at Tufts. I’m used to people implying the reason I got in is because I’m poor and queer. I fit “demographics.” “But she’s gonna break out boy you better know that.” And I sure as hell fucking did. Not only did I get into Tufts but I got a full ride and I’m on track to graduate with honors. So yeah, you could say that song meant a lot to me even though I only heard the Good Morning America version and not the album version. 

Throughout this pandemic, the economic crisis, and this entire shitshow of a year I have had Imploding The Mirage to look forward to. But I’m not going to buy the album. 

As a long time fan I am devastated and disgusted. I cannot conceptualize the disappointment I feel. And as a survivor of sexual assault I cannot support this band in any capacity moving forward. I’m someone who will never receive justice for what was done to me. I don’t have the necessary physical evidence to ensure that my assaulter and abuser gets banned from campus and I certainly cannot take them to court over it. As sad as it is, that’s probably true for the victims in The Killers case as well. We will probably never be able to get them the justice they deserve but we can stop supporting the people who caused their pain. It is the least we can do to show our support for them. 

I won’t buy the album. I also won’t request Mr. Brightside at any more parties or keep their poster on my dorm wall. I can’t listen to music created by a group of men I know were complicit in rape and sexual assault. I’m horrified to know that I’ve idolized people like this for over a decade. I encourage all of their fans to reconsider streaming their music or requesting them at parties or clubs in the future. 

You can argue all you want about how this is just what the industry is like. That doesn’t make it okay. And of course The Killers’ legal team is going to say that the claims are unfounded. That’s what they’re paid to do. We need to have more open discussions about the music industry and how people are affected by it and we need to be willing to ask for better. Have whatever thoughts and feelings you want about cancel culture but some people and things need to be canceled so we can create a better and safer society. The Killers and other bands/artists who use their fame to take advantage of and assault fans and workers don’t deserve to have their music heard.

All I can think about when I listen to their music is my own assault. I spent my formative years idolizing this band. I’m devastated for the victims involved. I’m devastated for myself. But mostly I’m devastated for 13 year old me wishing for better days while listening to Hot Fuss and how Earth shattering this news would be. How Earth shattering this news is. I’ve always had an answer to the question “who’s your favorite band?” and now I don’t. That’s devastating. For so many reasons. 

[starkey]

would you mind putting some sources on your coronavirus long post? i’m interested to see where you got your information from.

yep you’re right, it’s always super important to include a list of reputable sources. Sorry, a lot of this is in my head and I didn’t have the energy last night to track it all down

A lot of my specific sources are to journal articles but the best (English-language) sources for non-technical, up to date information right now (imo) are:

The WHO

The CDC

The NHS

Fully linked repost of the same information with sources under the cut

Biology

COVID-19 is an enveloped RNA coronavirus. Coronaviruses are a family of viruses that usually cause mild infections (typically the ‘common cold’, but more serious strains in the past have included SARS and MERS). (Don’t know how to reference this other than It Is Known, so I’ve linked to wiki)

Fun fact! (there aren’t many, we’ve got to take our opportunities where we find them) ‘Corona’ is latin for ‘crown’ or ‘halo’, because the virus particles look like they have little halos of light around them on microscopy. (It Is Known to people who speak Latin, so not me, but Latin speakers always seem reasonably trustworthy)

COVID-19 is primarily spread from person to person and can be spread via asymptomatic carriers (there’s no certain numbers on this yet)

The particles enter the lungs via droplets, as do most respiratory illnesses. This can be directly (i.e. someone coughing and expelling droplets onto another person) or via transfer (i.e. unwashed hands). This in practice means that people have to be fairly close, physically, for transmission to occur - i.e. less than 1 meter for a reasonable period of time (generally more than 15 minutes) (the CDC say 6 feet) (link)

Epidemiology/Public health

The worldwide fatality rate is 3.4% at the time of writing. This varies widely between location, healthcare infrastructures, the age and sex of the patient, and their other medical conditions. If you contract the virus, its unlikely that your chance of death would be 3.4%, other factors dramatically alter this number, and can in fact render it near 0

Theperiod of communicability (when the person is infectious to other people) is currently defined as 48 hours before the time of onset of symptoms, until after the person has been fully cleared by the hospital (this might be a NZ specific policy, I’m basing it off the NZ ministry of health advice for medical professionals)

The period of incubation (how long a person can have the virus before showing symptoms) is 1-14 days (commonly 3-7 days)

The current strategies being used by public health to limit the spread are things like contact tracing (finding everyone who’s been in contact with a positive coronavirus patient and quarantining them), screening (generally only being used in patients who are considered high risk) and social distancing (school closure, workplace closure, isolation, quarantining, cancelling mass gatherings, travel restrictions) (It Is Known source. If you’re interested, there’s a fully sourced wiki page on social distancing)

#flattenthecurve - the reason public health are trying to limit the spread ISN’T to prevent people from getting it, it’s to slow the rate of transmission. The ‘flatten the curve’ model involves the same number of people getting infected but over a longer period of time, to ensure hospitals don’t exceed capacity. This is VITAL. If hospitals breach capacity in a catastrophic way, people will needlessly die. If we manage to slowly grow resistance in the population, the vulnerable population will be more protected and IF they get sick, they will still be able to access hospitals. (This is also It Is Known sourcing, but the phrase ‘flatten the curve’ comes from the WHO global response team’s chairman in an interview in February. Here’s an article about it).

Presentation/symptoms (these figures vary but are roughly analagous)

65-80% patients have a dry cough

45% of patients have a fever recorded on presentation (85% of people have a fever at some point)

20-40% feel short of breath

38% are fatigued

15% have a runny nose or sore throat

10% have stomach upset or diarrhoea

A note - in most places just now, if you have these symptoms you are still much more likely to have a common cold or the flu (that’s just numbers). In some countries (generally those with few cases) if you go to the doctor with these symptoms you won’t be tested, or asked to isolate, or given much more than some generic advice to stay away from vulnerable people (always a good idea if you’re sick) and drink fluids/take pain killers. In other countries, the numbers are high enough that people who have these symptoms are being asked to self quarantine. Depending on risk in your area, it might be enough to get tested. Check with your local guidelines/public health number.

Prevention (in the general population)

Hand hygiene: 20 seconds (there’s plenty of songs to sing along with, google them, I use Mr Brightside) with soap and warm water (soap can be shower gel, washing up liquid, bar soap, whatever). You can also use antimicrobial hand gel containing alcohol (which DOES WORK goddamnit, the coronavirus has a fragile envelope). (IT IS KNOWN) (But also here.) The statistic I’ve heard used before is that if you wash your hands 5 times a day you reduce your risk of respiratory infection by 80% (I can’t find a source for this specific number although I’m sure I got it off a clinical page :( There’s evidence here that says ‘improvements’ in hand hygiene can reduce risk by up to 21% though)

There’s no solid evidence that using casual facemasks (the kind you’d buy in a pharmacy) does a huge amount to limit the spread, as they aren’t air tight. That being said they probably don’t hurt, as they can block some of the droplets (if not all) and they can also remind people not to touch their faces. Clinics will give these out to patients who they are concerned about, to help limit transmission and make everyone feel better (link)

N95 masks are used by medical professionals who are routinely testing patients, because they are airtight. They’re NOT useful in the general public, because you have to be fitted for them

Prognosis

Age and comorbities (specifically diabetes, COPD and cardiovascular disease) are significant predictors of poor outcomes.

The percentage mortality is ~15% in >80s, 8% in 70-80s, and close to 0% in

No deaths have yet occurred in anyone under 10 (It Is Known?? I can’t find a source for this cause it’s an absence of a source. No kids have died it’s great.)

About 2% of people in China who have been affected have needed mechanical ventilation (i.e. a machine that breathes or helps breathe for you). This is the single biggest issue in the  #flattenthecurve effort - we need enough ventilators, and if we don’t have enough, then we fall back to wartime triage (who is most likely to survive? who got here first? lets not put doctors in the position of having to ask these questions)