#ill most likely be posting more photos of the doodles soon

[ohmygodthemuppets]

I had to go back to get them...

And the booth also had the other two books! I now have a complete set

[ribbitdeltarune]

the post like i said. its been 2 days later (maybe a bit more. im a bit late at this point..) But! 14 of november! My birthday !!! :p didnt do anything for myself but i did spend some (more like a ton) time with friends

so ahead will just be rambling . read if u want

Alriiight so. i am. Dead. i dont post very often . Thats bcuz i dont actually have a active online presence when it comes 2 posting lol this is sorta my first time . however i did post a few times on twitter before and got a decent following but that was basically never anyway . Thank you all for (checks notes) 19 followers! That. is a first actually

however i also kinda have 2 apologize since i dont post a lot which makes this account.. uh, semi-inactive? shrug. as i did mention before in a prev post i am holding back a lotta stuff that i havent posted yet . oops! i personally dont like posting irl photos because 1) i am actually dogwater at taking photos, 3) my camera quality sucks and 2) i dont actually draw on A4 paper very often or like notebook paper at all lol. (its this small one thats more like a notebook to write stuff down stuff you gotta remember, an agenda or whatever. not like i care i use it to draw anyway. it aint got lines its just full white paper (sometimes colored depending on the one i buy) so its for drawing in my view.) but the bad thing is most drawings i made of ribbit so far are... On Paper.

Now. I can just upload them as is but i dont like doing that . i can also just make them digital drawings but if you think im capable of doing that without immediately doing something else you may be wrong

Speaking of thats mostly why this acc is also semi-inactive . whenever i DO draw digitally im probably also doing another thing at the same time so i get distracted and then get stuck on doing something else completely and forget i have to draw!!! Oopsies. im also bad at executing things (''man im gonna draw ribbit right now'' (doesnt do it) (its also a 50/50 if i actually do it or not)) so thats part of it. do i Think posting and/or drawing ribbit stuff is a chore? Not really. i actually like drawing stuff 4 this fandom and im attached 2 the characters + the mod anyway so its not like im gonna stop This soon . not even a year in yet!

I also have a lot of ideas so i hop between 'em a lot (i have so many animations/animatics in mind but guess who cant animate and also drawing frames take longer than just drawing sighs)... thats why most posts on here is just doodles so far .

to be fair though i have been in a . Uh. I guess fine. Maybe a bit bad headspace as of a few weeks now so i havent really gotten the urge/want to post rn and who knows how long that'll take to go away anyway. thinking of trying 2 get sum stuff finished and then queueing a few posts just so i can get some brainworms out of ma head . and Who Knows if i'll really do that. Future Is Mystery!

Oh and to add i still need to finish or get to like maybe the 5th chapter for a fic im working on rn so theres that too. im still on chapter 4 (progress is fine. i think ill rewrite the dream segment?) and then i will Hopefully get 2 work on chapter 5. god bless being unable to execute things AND to spice it up focus on things (sarcasm)

i am however kinda busy these days. Schoolnstuff. I get in drawing moods a lot (literally everyday bro i dont get burnt out easily or get demotivated that much bc i just finish it eventually anyway) but i need to pass math to pass the year itself so maybe no art posts until thats done. i might post every now and then though. Speaking of posting! Did you know VeeReMia is actually a pun on viremia which is, ''a medical term for viruses present in the bloodstream''. vee came first as part of the instrumental theme, and then maxine added the other syllables. Fun isnt it (i cant stop thinking about it now)

Thanks for reading . I think thats all. Maybe. Shrug.

Also current pfp is placeholder i also need 2 make one BANGS FISTS ON TABLE REPEATEDLY

[factorialsfandoms]

May or may not tidy this up later (probably will eventually), but a little scene where Hyrule is sick, and everyone is miserable until they find cause to tease Legend mercilessly.

Largely inspired by me doodling Hyrule’s mother for a different thing, and only later realising I’d given her the same shade of pink hair as Legend post-bunny, plus a red apron. I’ve thrown a bad photo of a sketch of Hyrule’s mother and Legend on opposite pages for reference. It’s a slightly different outfit, but after realising I decided to play it up a little and say her work-apron is higher and she uses a blue bandana to keep her hair out of her potions because why not.

(Ironically, while the Hyrule in the verse this version of his mother exists in is Legend’s biological descendant, its via Hyrule’s father not his mother. The hair is just a magic side effect with unfortunate consequences for Legend.)

~1.6K, comedy-fluff, mild illness, being Legend is suffering (affectionate)

It had been a long few weeks for the heroes of courage. For once it was not the fault of monster nor man, but merely the fragility of the human condition; fifteen days ago, Sky had sneezed. This was not that unusual, but by the next morning the Chosen Hero had been aching, miserable, and firmly in the grasp of a mild but spiteful cold. Warriors had groaned, and Legend had accepted that - close quarters that they lived in - all of them would be condemned soon enough. He did not /like/ this fact, but he had taken it on the chin, and accepted it for the truth it was. He had even suffered his own illness quietly, continuing their slow march across whichever Hyrule they were currently in with no more snark than a glare levelled at the next man’s back.

Two weeks later and the Chain was through the worst of it. The Links were exhausted, strung out, and miserable, the ache of illness lingering in their bones for a while yet, but they were fine. Some had taken worse to sickness than others - Four looked especially miserable, allowing Time to carry him, while Warriors had barely seemed to notice that he was unwell - but they had mostly recovered by now.

Only mostly, because Hyrule - the last to go down, but the one who had crashed the hardest - was still sick. That morning he had insisted that he had been fine to continue. Whether the traveller had known it or not, this had been a lie.

About ten feet after passing through a portal, the traveller had collapsed, falling to a disordered heap as his body refused to hold him longer. It was by far the most dramatic of any of their symptoms, his body pushed too far in a way that made Legend's gut uncomfortably squirm.

Legend had caught him - of course he had - and held him whilst the rest of the Chain had fallen into a panicked flurry. Somehow this had morphed into Legend holding him as they set up camp; Hyrule was mostly fine - just exhausted, feverish, utterly miserable, and near-insufferably clingy - but nobody really wanted to drag a semi-conscious hero across the fields if it was not necessary.

Semi-conscious, Legend thought, as Hyrule’s weight grew ever heavier. Eyes fluttered shut, and if he were not asleep on Legend’s lap, then he was doing an excellent job of pretending otherwise.

Soon enough, their camp was set up. Sky had pooled up a mountain of blankets on Hyrule’s bedroll, claiming that the soft fabric would help him feel more comfortable. Given Hyrule’s love of sleeping under the bed, Legend was not entirely convinced, but he would let the Chosen Hero fret in his own ways.

The Links backed off, knowing that being watched while sick only made them more miserable and snappish, and left Legend to deal with Hyrule. Great. At least he was wearing his power bracelet, and so could actually pick the boy up.

Which he did; scooping the traveller into his arms he took him over to the blanket pile, opened a small hole with his elbow, and gently positioned him inside.

Duty done, Legend meant to back off, tuck the blankets closer, and allow Hyrule to sleep off the worst of the cold in peace. It was the same privacy that the Links had all granted each other these past few weeks, and he meant to give the same now.

Someone, however, had other plans; Legend drew back, but was stopped. He looked back down, searching with narrowed, unhappy eyes.

Hyrule's fingers were loosely wrapped into Legend's tunic. He could have easily ripped them away; Legend considered it a moment, before just resting a hand atop them.

Brown eyes, hazy with fever, blinked slowly until they managed to reach half open. Hyrule let go and reached up, seemingly towards Legend though his coordination was messy. The fingers opened and closed in a way reminiscent of watching pre-language children gesture for something they wanted.

Legend frowned. He took Hyrule's hands in his own, and moved them into the pile of blankets.

"You'll get cold like that," he hissed.

Not that he expected Hyrule to understand him, but it was worth a try; only one hand wandered out of the blankets this time, making grabby motions at Legend again.

Stupid kid.

Legend took the hand, pressing it between his own.

Hazy eyes looked at their hands together, then trailed up Legend's arms. They settled somewhere near his face, but not quite on it. There was a cautious wonder hidden behind the confusion and the fever.

Legend sighed. The kid needed to rest if he was going to get better, "go back to sleep, Link."

"Hurts," Hyrule whimpered back.

Crinkling his nose, Legend pretended his heart did not twist. Instead he squeezed the hand. Being sick was miserable.

"I know," he replied. "You'll feel better in the morning."

Hopefully. If not, they were diverting to a village to find a doctor. The cold had been through most of the Chain at this point, but Hyrule was taking it harder than the rest. Legend suspected it might have something to do with the way he had stared confused at an orange when they had first met; Ravio also seemed to get sick more easily and more severely.

"Don't go?" Hyrule whispered back.

"Furthest I'm going is the campfire," Legend rolled his eyes, but gestured to it. "Like I'd wander off when some idiot got himself sick."

Hyrule clearly understood little to nothing of the words, only content to get a response.

Legend thought that that would be the end of it, and was about ready to tuck Hyrule's other hand away and let him rest, when the boy whispered something again.

Despite being just as loud as before - loud enough to be heard by at least most of the now eavesdropping camp - it took a few moments to process.

'Mummy'. Hyrule had looked at him, and mumbled a request for his mother.

Legend stared down at Hyrule, trying to comprehend ir, but received no explanation. Tired eyes simply blinked trustingly up at him a while longer, before fluttering shut.

The scene looked peaceful, but only because they could not hear Legend's screaming.

Really there was only one thing that Legend could do with - turn with helpless eyes to the rest of the chain and whisper "the fuck?!"

A familial word Legend could understand, with how quickly their shared soul had forced bonds between them all. Brother was the obvious choice, the two of them being of similar age. Uncle Legend could accept, the word filled with painful but happy memories of the man who had taught him all. Father... He would have been less happy with that, the implications a little too strong, but he would have taken it on the chin. Grandfather, and he might have slapped Hyrule, but with the distance between each Link would not have been unreasonable. Sister, maybe, if Hyrule was as delirious as he appeared, or a little more fairy than he claimed. Auntie, if he was too tired to determine what was going on but some part of his mind still remembered their separation in time.

But Hyrule's mother?

Legend could see Sky being mistaken for a mother, cucco that he was, but not himself. He was bitter and brash and blunt, experienced but curt in the way that came from knowing too much. Sarcastic mothers were cruel, and Legend did not know how to be a gentle one. How he had been mistaken he had no idea.

Warriors' cackling laughter was helping him none, but did give him an outlet; Legend turned, careful not to wake Hyrule as he did, and glowered, "what are you laughing at, asshole?"

His target was too busy laughing to even rise to the occasion. "You good, /mummy/?" Warriors cackled. "Looking a little red there."

"Shut up," was the only reply Legend could manage to hiss between clenched teeth. "You'll wake him up again."

From the corners of his eye, Legend could see Sky raise his eyebrows, and Time's eyes alighting with laughter. He was getting no help from there.

"Oh really?" Warriors teased some more, face shifting from a grin to a smirk with ease. "You're too prissy to be anyone's mother - it has to be your dress."

"It's not a dress," Legend snapped back, forgetting his own warnings to be quiet.

"A skirt and apron, then? Can't be a tunic, you need to wear trousers with those."

Legend was fed up with the conversation; with his free hand he grabbed a small pebble, and lobbed it in Warriors' direction. The captain dodged, still laughing. "Defensive much?"

"Now boys," Time's voice finally stepped in. "Some people are sleeping."

The two of them rolled their eyes and grumbled a little, but it was true - not only was Hyrule sleeping beside Legend's knees, Wild was blearily blinking at the 'argument' from his place trapped at Twilight's eyes. The two of them had - bar Hyrule - been the last to catch the cold, and we're still fighting off the last few of its effects.

There was another candidate for mother, Legend thought, guarding and protective if a little bit stern. A den mother, not a nesting one.

"And anyway, you should let Legend enjoy motherhood," and there was the conclusion to the impish grin on Time's face.

Legend glowered at him. His scowl only grew fiercer as Sky's raised eyebrows morphed into giggling.

"He's probably just delirious," Four rolled his eyes at the whole group of them. "Just go to sleep and tease him about it in the morning."

It sounded like a fantastic idea, the long day and evening’s panic draining on Legend's skull. And after the teasing that Hyrule had inflicted upon Legend, consciously or otherwise, he deserved a little of his own. Still, Legend was not one to lose - he flipped a finger at Warriors, before moving to return to his bedroll.

Worn fingers on his tunic stopped his retreat a moment; with a scoff he unpicked them this time, and stalked back over to his own bedroll.

If he picked the nicest of his blankets up and tossed at (carefully placed it over) Hyrule, then that was nobody's business but his own.

[kitty-cafe-edits]

Welcome to the kitty cafe: an edit blog!!

REQUESTS ARE OPEN

Cupid's oc post 1

Cupid's oc's part two

TIGER DAD

Ghost oc go brr

How the hell do you get into ace attorney

Cupid's comforts

Once again welcome! Please keep reading for more information! In this post you will see:

-mods information

-fandoms

-kinds of edits we make

-other kinds of posts

-rules

-and the finale!

Mods information

Mod cupid:

Name- cupid

Gender + pronouns: demigirl, she/they And meow neopronouns

Sexuality: ace and probably panromantic!

Likes: kittens, blue, hello kitty, chococat, pusheen cat, sweets, and anything princess related!

Dislikes: bullies honestly

Favorite song: "Stay with me"- miki matsurbara

Tags used: cupid speaking!!!💕💕 , Asks!!!💕💕 , Friends!!!💕💕 , Reblogs!!!💕💕 , Comforts!!!💕💕, Request accepted!!!💕💕 , Request denied!!!💕💕

Blacklist: nsfw, h4j1 t0w4, warriors of hope x anyone, pregame characters, most horror themes, and anything anti lgbtq

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hey loves <3 its me zen >.< hacked kyupid again

anyway ! surprise ! we both run this blog!!!! i could link my carrd, but a new one is in the process of being made so . no.

i think im a lot harsher than kyu T_T and im STRICTLY on desktop and have a Job so i might get to things late uhh i think thats all u rly need to know lol (also my main/aesthetic blog is @zen1dol)

i'm zen or mimi! only my close friends like kyu or irls call me river . 

i'm EIGHTEEN whole years old !!! 

i use it/its and my gender is yeah

likes: bugs, horror, fleshcore and oddcore, the ships inozen and sanegiyuu from kny, any type of hog (like pigs and boars) and big cat 

dislikes: see: blacklist

fav song: tonchinkan feast - pinnochioP but the cover by chogakusei is also rly awesome

tags used: idk yet but i think i might steal kyupid’s but use different/no emojis

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JUST SO U KNO: these ARENT triggers they just piss me off like a whole lot!! if i see anything like this in asks/subs directed at me ur getting that sweet sweet block >_<

Fandoms

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Danganronpa (thh, sdr2, v3, udg)

Demon slayer

Witches heart

Your turn to die

Sanrio

And any other source as long as I can handle it!

Mod zen:

demon slayer

osomatsu san

omori

urahara

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smile for me

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i like rly obscure and precure/magical girl animes so pls recommend and request stuff like that!!

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Mod zen:

layouts (specify what site)

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i think i might do youtube playlists, too, soon but ill need help w that

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Positivity posts (mental health, sexualities, self care tips, kin positivity, mental condition positivity, and body positivity!)

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random brainrot, yelling at (talking to) ppl . what is the difference between a text post here and a text post on zen1dol ? almost nothing haha im just on my laptop and i want to torment yall. also maybe doodles of us

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No requesting when requests are closed

And no attacking anyone on and interacting with this blog

The finale!

Thank you so much for reading! We both cannot wait to edit for you!!!

[slasherkisss]

Vincent Sinclair x fem reader

A/n: I chose to ignore the fact that they probably don’t get mail in order to write this fic because I thought it was cute. 😅 (Sorry I couldn’t figure out the read more thing on mobile 😔)

Vincent smiled to himself as he reread the letter for probably the tenth time that morning, before adding it to his collection. He kept each one he had revived in a small box, which he kept hidden in a dresser draw.

Last thing he needed was Lester or Bo finding them. These letters were one of the few things that brought a smile to his lips, and the only thing he had to look forward to. Once a week, a letter would arrive in Ambrose addressed to him.

Who would’ve thought that some school pen pal project would evolve into such a wonderful long distance friendship. When his teacher had made the announcement, Vincent didn’t think much of it at first. But when he received his first letter, it changed his life.

Y/n was so friendly and kind. Her letter was 2 pages of excited rambling with lots of questions about what was his favorite this and that.

It hadn’t occurred to him that his pen pal had no idea about his deformity until that moment, and therefore she had no reason to treat him poorly or cautiously.

Most people he encountered automatically treated him differently based on how he looked. But with y/n it was almost like he was normal.

Y/n became one of the only people Vincent felt he could share his thoughts and feelings with. She made him feel cared about and important.

After the first few months, Vincent started adding little drawings to his letters. He blushed at all the compliments he received in y/n’s response. Soon the little doodles became full page sketches that he would send her.

Every time she said anything about his work, his heart would swell. He tried his best to draw things he thought she would like, such as, her favorite flowers and animals. Besides his wax figures, Vincent found himself constantly making art he could send to y/n.

She once sent him a photo of her room, the walls were covered with his drawings. He loved that. He loved the idea of her being surrounded by things he made, things that would constantly remind her of him. It motivated him to draw even more beautiful things for her.

Y/n had also sent him a few pictures of herself over the years. Each time she sent him one, he swore she somehow was more lovely than the last time.

Each photo of y/n was kept in the drawer of his nightstand. He looked at them often, especially on nights when he was feeling lonelier than usual.

Every once in a while, he’d indulge himself by drawing her, using her pictures for reference. These were kept down in the basement, he liked being able to look at her while he worked on other projects. Occasionally, he wished that y/n could actually be there with him, talk to him while he worked, tell what a good job he did…

But he never allowed himself to take these daydreams further.

Deep down in Vincent’s subconscious, he knew he was in love with y/n, but they could never have an actual future together.

She had mentioned a few times about people she was dating or relationships she had been in. A part of him wanted her to find someone to fall in love with, for her to be happy. But, another part of him, celebrated each time she informed him that things didn’t work out.

He wanted her to belong to him in the same way he was all hers.

Heading down to his studio, Vincent tried to decide which of his latest drawings he should send her. He only sent her the best ones, which could be a rather difficult task. Sometimes making his selection took him hours.

Carefully, he laid his drawings out on a table. His eye scrutinized each piece and examined every small detail. When he noticed any mistakes, even if they were minor, he removed the work from the table.

After a rather long self critique, Vincent chose a watercolor piece he had recently finished. It depicted a simple arrangement of gardenias.

Taking a seat at his desk, Vincent started to write his reply. He always spent a good portion writing about his work, whether or not he was feeling inspired, or what he was currently working on.

He gave his letter a once over, before folding it with his artwork, and slipped them both into an envelope. He couldn’t wait for her reply, to read what she thought of this piece.

...

The rest of the week seemed to drag on. Vincent tried to keep himself occupied. Spending countless hours down in the basement working.

He avoided Bo, who had been particularly irritable lately due to the lack of tourists. During these periods, Bo had no way of channeling his anger other than being hostile to his brothers. And who knows what Lester was up to, he came and left as he pleased.

Laying in bed, Vincent was having trouble falling asleep, despite the fact that he had spent the last couple of nights working without a wink.

Turning on the small lamp on his nightstand, Vincent reached into the drawer taking out the most recent picture of y/n.

In every photograph, she had such bright eyes filled with happiness and love. No one in Vincent’s life had ever looked at him like that before. Well, except for maybe his mother, but there was always a hint of sadness in her gaze.

Pity and sadness, that’s what Vincent saw the most when people looked at him growing up. It made him feel rather guilty as a child that he made the people around him feel that way.

Vincent’s fingers traced the edge of his mask absentmindedly, without it, people would probably react with disgust. Even Vincent couldn’t stand the sight of his own face. There was no point expecting anyone to react differently, but he worked so hard to earn approval and love.

Laying back down and rolling over onto his side, Vincent stared at the photograph. It was one that had been taken outside, the sun bathing her in its light as she laid in the grass.

Vincent liked to pretend that y/n had been looking at him when this picture was taken. That she was smiling at him like that.

He daydreamed about what it would be like to spend a day with her, to lay next to her, to be so close to her that he could feel her breath on his face.

Vincent closed his eyes, picturing what it would feel like to kiss her, to feel her lips pressed against his, her warm and wet tongue sliding across his bottom lip. He wished he could cup her face, kiss along her neck, and sucki gently once he reached her bare shoulder.

He bit his lip as his imagination got away from him. Images of her naked and wanting flashed in his head. His hand slipped under the waistband of his pants...

God, he was hopeless.

…

Finally, Tuesday rolled around. Walking upstairs with y/n’s latest letter in hand, Vincent waited until he was in the privacy of his bedroom before opening the envelope.

Vincent read her letter with a big smile on his face. She talked about how much she loved his last piece. How she even bought a frame for it so she could hang it in her living room.

Y/n went on and on about how talented Vincent was, about how she always waited in anticipation to see what he created next.

But his smile faltered as he got to the end of the letter.

‘Vincent, I need to see you, it’s hard to explain, but I need to meet you in person.’

Vincent's heart sank, she hadn’t brought that up in so long, that he finally believed that she had given up on meeting him in person. She used to pester him about it in almost every letter, but he always managed to come up with an excuse.

When his mother had fallen ill, she stopped pushing the subject so hard, and after his mother’s passing, she stopped asking completely.

He understood how desperately she wanted to meet him, in a way he longed for the same thing. He wanted to see her, spend time with her, touch her… but then he’d remember who he was and what he looked like.

Vincent sighed, as he tried to come up with an excuse. There was something ominous about the way she phrased it, that freaked him out a bit.

But there was no circumstance that he could imagine that would make him change his mind on the subject. As much as it broke his heart, he would never agree to seeing her in person.

...

The following week, he anxiously paced around the house until the mail arrived. He practically sprinted outside when it was time.

Shuffling through the mail, Vincent looked for a letter addressed to him but to no avail. Trying one more time Vincent searched through them again, but it was all junk mail.

His hands started to shake, for the last fifteen years he always received a letter from her on every Tuesday.

Vincent went through all the possible scenarios in his mind. Was she punishing him for saying no? Was she mad at him? Would he never hear from her again? He feared that this would happen eventually, that she’d give up on him.

He shook his head, trying desperately not to fall apart. She wouldn’t just stop like that, she wasn’t that kind of person. She would never stop speaking to him without an explanation first.

Maybe it just got lost, perhaps the post office made a mistake. There had to be another reason.

Lost in his own thoughts, Vincent didn’t hear the soft footsteps as someone quietly approached him from behind.

“Vincent?” A gentle voice asked, causing his entire body to freeze. He didn’t have to see her face to know who it was.

His heart started pounding in his chest. He wanted to run away and hide, anything to keep her from seeing him, from seeing his face.

“I’m so sorry,” y/n began, her voice trembling a little. “But I had to see you.”

[kenazraventooth]

Oops... guess who has played n loved smile for me...? Yuup!

So i put my sona as flower kid! But I do have an idea for the being a habitician.. and ill be posting the as being at the habitat

Warning spoilers ahead! Im on mobil so the whole "keep reading" doesnt show up on the app. Which is dumb.

Kenaz (yay blatant self insert) 1st shows up after Trencil's 1st quest after the flowers are but in and can be seen sitting by him just a bit beyond the dusk flower. Kenaz just like the silent compainionship and flowers.

When talked to they are happy that flower kid has put the flowers in the courtyard, it makes it look nicer. Then asks if you can keep an eye out for something.

If no: "O-oh ok... I didn't mean to be a burden."

If yes: The player would be asked if they find an inhaler that it is theirs. They have looked everywhere for it and are getting nervous about not being able to breath if the PSA's get any spookier.

Player will then get asked "Youre probably woundering why I dont get a spare huh?"

If no: "Oh cool! It's a bit embrassing to explain anyhow."

If yes: "I only need it if I have to do a lot of running or if I get very scared... Luckly I dont have to run form much in here.. haha." Suggesting that they are running more form emtional issues rather then actual threats in the outside world

Fun fact about me: I thought the asthma kid having an attack when being very scared was just a joke rather then an actual thing until I meet my coworker who semi accidently scared me into an attack one day! (He ment to scare the hell out of me yes. He did not mean to give me an asthma attack tho.)

The inhaler is found between the two carla's stands in Ronbo's carnival. Its easy to find and pick up.

Kenaz is over joyed when you give back their inhaler, but when asked where you found it and motioning to the carnival Kenaz gets a bit sheepish and mentions that they must of dropped it when they got spooked by the game attendent carla while checking out the foritune teller stand. (And yes that carla always spooks me because I will forget they are there. Be looking for something only to be scared when they flail their arms >((( )

After giving back the inhaler Kenaz will give you a sunflower seed that has a blushing smile on it as a thank you. [Note this will not bring Kenaz to full joy]

Planting the sunflower seed will show a cute happy sunflower.

Bringing back the Sunflower will bring them to full joy as you actually took the time to grow it and give it to them... they will give you another seed incase you find joy in seeing the flower when you go to bed and wake up... just dont tell Dr. Habit that they are doing something to help cheer fokes up aswell. This is to suggest that, like flower kid, Kenaz likes to bring joy to the people around them but after Dr. Habit's passive agressive to out right mean comments they are to scared to do so.

If you thought it was the end... hehe your worng ;)

If (or should I say when) you punch Kenaz for Tim tams quest they will give you a stunded look and if they were full joy before the blue sparks will vanish. They will give "...." as the dailogue for the rest of that day. They next they will vanish.

Kenaz will appere in the lougue the next table over form tiff back in the simlar position when 1st meet and with a drink. Talking to them "Wh..what do you want?! Havnt you hurt me enough?! I thought you were my friend!"

If no: Kenaz's unicorn horn will light up with magic while Kenaz looks hateful "Magic can do a lot of things... but I dont think you want to find out what it will do to you." If you talk to them again you will be teleported in the acid pool in the boiler room. If you go back to try to talk to them again you will get "No! I dont want to talk to you again!" And you will be sent to the boiler room again. You wont beable to talk to kenaz again til the next day.

If yes: Kenaz will go silent for a moment and ask if your here to apologize.

If no: Kenaz will simply ask you to leave then.

If yes: Kenaz will ask why you punched them. When showed Tim Tam's photo Kenaz will say "Oh. I see. You really out to cheer everyone up huh... I never did understand why hurting others in any way makes people happy." There will be a silence and the blue sparks will come back "Thank you... I'll be down here for a bit, but I promise it wont be for to long.... I rather not be like the ["two" if Parsley is down there. "Her" if its just jerafina]

Kenaz will be back in the loungue again the next day. Happy as before.

Kenaz will actually appere after your conforntation with Dr. Habit.

Bad ending: Kenaz will be by the gates looking towards martha. They stop you for a moment giving you that sollum face just like Dr Habit had "He didnt deserve that." Its all that kenaz will say.

Good ending: Kenaz will be with Kamal. "He cant be to far gone! I cant... I wont believe it! Please... help me just make one more creature happy..." this is clearly driected at kamal. (I just thought it would of been nice for him to be hesitating weather or not he could... try again with dr. habit. Leaving it vague for a friendship or a relationship and having flower kid giving that things can be worked out and bounds can be mended but you wont know unless you tried)

Fun facts!

When using the microphone on Trencil so Trevor can hear the vampire admission Kenaz's sprite will switch to a silent laughing pose for a bit. If spoken to "Poor Trencil... Dont worry ill make sure he wont get swamped by tge soon adoring fans."

Kenaz's sprite will switch to a spook pose when ever Marv apperes form his pond... keep making Marv appere will make Kenaz move over by Dallas for a day. When spoken to kenaz mentions they cant take being spooked for a bit and thought they dont care for the "photo girl"s babbling they dont mind painting stuff with dallas for the day.

Kenaz's collage image is a bush (and yes i mean bush) of static with sunflowers on it.

Photos!

Dallas: "Nice guy! He's fun to doodle with form time to time"

Jerafina: "I would like her more if she drank less."

Kamal: "I think hes as sweet ask his cramal teeth!<3"

Lulia: "I cant stand her. So self centered."

Millie, Tim Tam, Putunia: "Brat *hiss*"

????????: "I.... Uh... I....oh! You shouldnt just uh... going around showing people this... the photo girl wouldnt like it.."

Nat: "I wish she would come down and hang out with her father and I more... She seems nice"

Randy: "I hope he was able to get a new jar of pickles. I beat his last one open on him but Dr.Habit made him shower and change cloths.... What? I wasnt sure how else to open it and cover him with pickle juice!" (And yes I didn't know there was another way while playing the game until I looked on the wiki... sorry Randy :( )

Tiff: "...................I miss her lovly voice and she has such a lovly face... I could... I... Wh-Wha-What?! St-Stop loo-looking at me li-lik-like that!"

Trencil: "The most chill floating cape you will ever see :)"

Trevor: "For a kid that says hes a werewolf he doesnt smell much of a dog *chuckles*"

Paintings:

Super hero: "Hm... I always wounder if they are really the good guys..."

Werewolf: HISSSSSSSS

Floral: "Thats lovly... but not my kind of flowers. Fits you wounderfully tho!"

Habits 1st dairy page: Kenaz will look stunned and then sad (wont loose blue sparks) "I thought I had gotten rid of this... I wasnt sure if Dr. Habit would really want people to know this when I found it. Listen flower kid. I dont think hes as scary when hes in his right mind... But its clear that hes not there right now. If you have to fight him... please only use as much as nessary. Kindness goes far more then violence ever will... by the way... have you seen the art gallery? Makes you wounder why some people are ever allowed to have parents huh." Kenaz will continue to look sad if you talk to them again they will go on "Nothing messes with kids more then psyical or metal abuse... huh flower kid?" This isnt a nood or shake question just something to ponder on.

Ah... I didnt mean for this to be so long but i simply love this game and love dr. habit. I wasnt sure what to make of him until i actually meet him in game. I think him with a little smile and his hair tied up is just so adorable and my heart goes out to him, and any other adult thats had neglectful and abusive parents. Making friends is hard espically when no one ever shows you how to make ones who are truly... dear true friends.

[mycraftylittlestitches]

Wow, this is awkward and boy, oh boy am I crap?! I mean seriously. It’s been another month that has made me wonder if the God’s are after driving me down into the path of insanity. Thankfully my health is on the mend but now comes the mammoth task of catching up with all my jobs. I’ve sent a car full of bags and boxes of unneeded bits and bobs to the charity shop, I’ve done the little fiddly jobs that somehow I never have time for in-between going to my day job and taking care of the girls.

I’ve spent as much time as possible playing and cuddling my girls and attempted to at least squeeze in one blog post a week. I had so many ambitious ideas but perhaps I should tone them down for now. Family first, followed by life in general then my blog. In that order. I am however hopeful that now I am almost back on track with my priorities, I can start REALLY sinking my teeth into my fun little hobby.

  Toddle was ‘helping’ me write a review…. Review FINALLY nealy done. just proof read and post! Next few days…

Now for the embarrassing bit of looking at last month’s aims. Spoiler alert: not much got done! Oh well, sometimes you can only do what you can do… Or in my case, what my body will allow me to do.

  Blog: Write at least two blog posts a week, ideally three. One recipe and maybe two miscellaneous; that will probably be parenting/ crafting/ review related. I have at the very least managed some recipes. Wooo! I’m not entirely sure if it counts if I was cooking anyway but at least some content popped up on my site and made it seem like perhaps I had some kind of plan of action. Some other posts happened and I have six almost ready to go posts but sadly life always takes priority so they haven’t yet made the final cut.

Finish at least two more crochet tutorials, including video. I won’t be posting them up until I have at least ten ready, then it will be a weekly event, posted on a Sunday for your viewing pleasure. Ready yourself for the broad Northern English accent. Nope. Sorry. Not even finished one but have scripted it so that kind of counts right? Right? Set up my YouTube account and make it look both pretty and functional. Only one video on there so far… Sigh….. Not even uploaded my logo on to it yet…

One crochet pattern typed up and posted with photos. I have an idea for a lacy scarf. We shall see if it pans out the way that I hope it will. Halfway there with this one but sadly I have managed to lose my 5mm crochet hook but when my new one arrives I can complete this project and delight a toddler with a new hat and matching scarf set.

Hit 300 followers on my Facebook page. Close but no cigar. I’m not great on Facebook but if you want to assist me on my way to the noble goal of 300 followers then here is the link. Thank you, much appreciated!

Spend at least 10 hours a week creating content and write at least 500 words a day. Barely had time this month to manage 2 hours a week but going to try to make a few more happen soon. Health and kids depending!

Get an honest update and new set of aims ready for the first of October. Sooooo……. We are still in October so it kinda counts right? Right…?

Flowers to brighten my week.

Peek a boo!

Real life Start learning how to draw. I doodled a stick person and a house to try to explain to concept of Santa to a toddler. I’m going to count it as practice and a good step towards my goal of decent scribbles. It’s not delusional if I know I’m kidding myself.

Spend more time playing with the girls. I have accomplished this. This was my primary parenting goal because I always seem to get so caught up with work and getting things done I sometimes don’t slow down enough to show my girls that they are my world. Last month I made sure to spend as much time as possible down on their level, playing with blocks, Duplo, reading, singing and whatever other games took our fancy. It’s been wonderful and I’ve STILL managed to get my house back to rights after a few months of epilepsy madness. Double win.

I know that they were never exactly starved of attention and I always took plenty of time out of my day for them but I feel I have a much better balance now that I am allowing myself to occasionally drop the ball in less important areas of life. Happier girlies and happier mummy. Still, need to work on this a bit more but it takes time to break the habits of a lifetime.

Try and prevent days of low mood. Mostly a success. Lots of cappuccinos in cafés and playtime with the girls. It’s so easy to feel down when your disabilities are acting up but I have tried very hard to boost myself up. Yes, I feel like a failure sometimes and yes, I wish I could do all the things that other people can do but at the end of the day, I am quite lucky. I can walk with the use of a stick or whatever else to lean on. I can manage to mostly take care of myself and the girls. Can’t bathe myself or them without my partner at home because of epilepsy but that’s a small price to pay for their’s and my own’s safety. I have had low days but I am feeling a lot more optimistic in recent weeks. All things considered, I’m doing great!

My girls after an Autumn walk. 50% chance of naps.

Read at least one book a fortnight. Hahahahaha. I’ve read some of ‘Free’ by Fiona Morgan and that was some quite pleasant hours snatched here and there for my own relaxation. I’d forgotten how much I love a good book and three seconds without the human monster trucks climbing all over me. Ahhhh, bliss!

Give up caffeinated coffee. Tea can stay for now. I’m down to 2/6 cups of caffeinated coffee a day and a mug of tea. For me, that’s practically cold turkey. The headaches have been interesting but I have been dealing with epileptic headaches anyway so you know… Might as well do both!

Cut right back on the sugar and eat less junk food. Pizza, I’m looking at you (while drooling). One fake away a month is allowed now. My thighs will thank me later even if my PMS is growling menacingly and threatening death and destruction on all who come near without some kind of sweet or carby offering to tame the beast. Poor Partner…

Find a better work/ blog/ family balance which benefits me, my daughters and my partner. I love them so much! Progress is happening but it’s a tricky one to balance. I’m a bit rubbish at organising myself so this was always going to be a challenge. My girls are getting more attention and are loving it so there’s that, at the very least.

Talk more openly about my emotions. Errrrm, No. Too hard.

Tell myself five things that make me great every morning and another five that make me so very lucky. I have been trying to spin a positive light on most things but I’m quite a negative person so my brain likes adding ‘but’ after each sentence. It’s slowly being trained out of it but I think that this will take plenty of time.. I will keep you all posted on how I get on. Here’s hoping for a fantastic and productive month.

New aims to keep me going until the start of December:

Blog:

Finally, catch up on my workload after the past few months of being ill. I’m getting there slowly but honestly, it’s getting embarrassing!

Sort out all of my social media accounts. Update Facebook and make it look nicer. Get my Instagram up and running and get at least a small following. Ditto on my YouTube and finally reach 10,000 followers on my Twitter.

Have a consistent blog schedule that includes 2-3 posts a week and some social media updates.

Look into going self-hosted so that I have more control over my site design and what I can include.

Have fun!

Life:

Keep calm and happy.

Spend plenty of time with my girls.

Find a good work/ life balance.

Get Xmas sorted!

That’s about it if I’m honest.

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October's plans and updates. #Plans #blog #blogging #family #abitlate Wow, this is awkward and boy, oh boy am I crap?! I mean seriously. It's been another month that has made me wonder if the God's are after driving me down into the path of insanity.

[skiasurveys]

1. When did you both get together? we started to flirt/hang out around april 2016, we officially started dating in may 2016 though.

2. Who made the first move?  he did

3. How long have you been a couple? its been 2 years and 2 months

4. How did you first meet?  online dating app

5. Were you already close friends before going out as a couple?  not rly, we tried to date before and that lasted for a week..didnt talk for a while. when we got back into contact around end of the march of 2016 we kinda were “friends” but not rly.

6. Are you/Were you ever in the same class at school?  no

7. Are you long-distance?  nope

8. Are you in an open, regular or committed relationship? committed

9. Do you live together?  we did for a bit. not anymore. were planning on finding our own place soon though now that we both have jobs

10. Are you engaged? If yes, describe your proposal. If no, what ring would you like?  yeah we got engaged in feb. basically connor wanted this TV he found on kijiji and we went to go get it. it was in a town that was 40 mins away, anyways on the way back we pulls over on the side of the road and im like wtf and then he got down on his knee and asked me to marry him. it took me by surprised, bc i wasnt expecting it obvs and i didnt think he would ever ask me tbh bc he said he didnt like the idea of marriage.

11. Are you married? If yes, describe your wedding. If no, would you consider marriage?  ^ yeah

12. Which one of you is older? What is the age difference?  he is by 6.5 yrs

13. Which one of you is taller? What is the height difference?  he is by a foot 

14. Do you share any of the same hobbies/interests/passions? yeah we like the same movies, tv shows, video games

15. What fictional couples would you compare yourselves to? idk lol

16. Sum up your relationship in 6 words or less.  were comfortable and happy

17. Doodle a little picture of you both as a couple.  no

18. Describe your relationship using only emoticons.  :3

19. Share a cute photo of you both together.  check my instagram @ wolfkhid

ATTRACTION

20. Top 5 fav things about your partner. he is funny, handsome, tall, he understands me,hes smart

21. Your partner’s top 5 fav things about you. ask him

22. What physical traits do you find most attractive about your partner? his face and his arms/hands. mmm

23. What physical traits does your partner find most attractive about you? he likes that im small, he likes my body shape (short stacked)

24. What personality traits do you find most attractive about your partner? he is funny,  he tells me the truth, hes honest

25. What personality traits does your partner find most attractive about you?  he likes that im caring and that im funny

26. Do you hold hands in public? Any other public displays of affection?  we do sometimes. he doesnt like pda too much. he’ll smack my ass tho lol

27. List your top 3 turn-ons about your partner. he is tall, his domiance, and hes funny 

28. List your partner’s top 3 turn-ons about you.  im small, my ass and im submissive 

29. How would you seduce your partner? How would they seduce you? food obviously.

30. Innocently or not, where do you like your partner to touch you?  my thighs or sides

31. Describe your partner’s eyes. Amber brown and round. theyre really nice. im not poetic  32. Describe your partner’s hair. dark brown, short and messy lol 

33. Describe your partner’s smile. happiness

34. What is your partner’s voice like? deep and nice 

35. What is your partner’s scent like? idk how to explain it

36. How does your partner impress you? How do you impress them? harfcore eating skills

37. What outfit would you like to see your partner in? What would they like to see you wear?  he likes me in short skirts and thigh high socks. i honestly dont care what he wears as long as its nice. he looks good in skinnyish jeans

38. Show your fav picture of your partner that they’ve posted online. not sure if he would be okay with that LOL

ROMANCE 39. Do you have cute pet names for each other? yeah

40. What’s one of your favourite memories as a couple?  theres so many

41. Describe your favourite date so far? when we played super smash bros at the college

42. What’s the sweetest thing that your partner’s ever done for you? paid off my credit card bill. made me a really nice  salad, etc

43. Do either of you get jealous? i do lol cus im insecure. he doesnt unless he does and i just dont know  

44. Is one of you protective of the other? we both are

45. How do you both like to kiss? passionate 

46. How do you both like to cuddle? all tangled up

47. What’s a gift that you’ve given to your partner? And one they’ve given to you? i got him some nice cologne and he gave me some money to pay off my card, and also he got me a nice ring

48. Are you an openly mushy couple or a reserved couple? reserved honestly

49. Does one of you like to cook for the other? we both do

50. Do you have unique ringtones/images for each other on your phones?  not unique 

51. Have you ever had your initials written on a tree or in the sand? haha no

52. What’s “your song”? i cant help falling in love with you

53. Do you own any items that are a special symbol of your relationship? sure

54. What did you both do for Valentine’s Day? he proposed to me :D

55. Do you express your love lavishly or discreetly?  both?

56. What’s the funniest thing you can remember your partner doing? theres a lot..lol he pretended to be a snake

57. Does thinking about your partner still give you butterflies?  kinda

58. What’s the weirdest part of your relationship? everything hahah

BEING TOGETHER 59. Fav things to do together on a rainy day? playing WoW together, or watching movies, or going to get Thai food!

60. Fav things to do together on a sunny day? Same thing, go for walks maybe bike ride.

61. Got any plans together for next week? not really. hes going biking with his friends and im working lol but ill prob spend the night on Saturday

62. What’s your favourite thing to share together? Food

63. What did you do for your partner’s latest birthday? What did they do for yours? nothing for him, he doesnt like birthday parties so we didnt do anything, but i bought him a present. He gave me some money, and we hung out, except he worked that night so we couldnt do much.

64. Where would you like to go on holiday together? maybe Disneyland

65. You have a whole weekend to yourselves and 500 in cash- what do you do? maybe we go to Banff and have a nice stay there

66. How would you comfort your partner on a bad day? How would they comfort you? I would make him a nice meal maybe or rub his back. I would tell him everything is OK. It depends on whats bothering him. For me he would hold me and watch movies with me and kiss me.

67. Where would you both get takeout together? thai place downtown i forget the name

68. What’s the longest time you’ve been apart?  About 1 month and 1 week, he went to Prince George to see his Dad and some family. 

69. What things remind you of your partner? What things remind them of you? Pokemon honestly lol and idk honestly. maybe nuggets

70. Has your relationship changed at all since it first started? well yeah! we are more closer, i feel like i can be myself. 

71. Have you ever worked on a project together?  kinda. not rly.

72. Have you both influenced each other in any way? sure

73. Have either of you made sacrifices for this relationship? yes. Connor literally slept behind a couch for like 7 months because he wanted to stay in RD and didnt want to leave me, and he didnt have a place. (he couldnt stay with me b/c my family is really conservative and we couldnt afford a place together). He honestly is so wonderful. He now has a place

74. Has you discovered anything surprising about your partner? yes. 

75. How have you both made a positive impact on each other’s lives?  i would hope so.

76. What do you both mutually agree is the most important part of your relationship? honesty, conversation/communication, loyalty. 

EVERYDAY LIFE 77. What are the everyday things you both do to show you care about each other? being there for each other, talking, etc.

78. Do you follow each other’s blogs/twitter/instagram? yes but he doesnt have IG or Twitter, but i follow him on other stuff

79. Is there a favourite place that you both frequently go to together? not really.

80. What TV shows do you like to watch together? theres too many to name honestly.

81. How do you relax together? chilling and netflix

82. What sleep positions do you tend to sleep together in? spooning usually, or tangled up. depends on how hot it is though

83. Do you borrow each other’s clothes or other items? not so much clothes but items yes

84. Do you ever share the bathroom together? yeah 

85. How do you both keep in touch when you’re away from each other? texting

86. Do you share secrets between each other?  yes

87. Do you rotate house chores or do you each have assigned chore duties? well we dont live together but i help him clean his place if he needs help. But if we were to live together we would rotate it.

88. Do you remember how your partner takes their coffee/tea/bar drinks?  he doesnt like coffee or tea and doesnt drink so much

89. What does your partner think of your Tumblr? nothing?? i guess?? he doesnt rly care he doesnt check on it

90. What characters do you play as together when playing multiplayer games? we do a lot of rpg games

COMPATABILITY 91. Are you both introverted/extroverted or opposites?  hes more intro than me, but im like a mix/

92. Who is the more dominant/submissive one? hes the dom for sure

93. What are some major differences between you both? he is more messy, and chill/care free than me.

94. When are you both “in your element” together? what

95. Who would win in an arm-wrestling contest? him obvs

96. What are each of your zodiac signs and how do they compare? he is a Taurus and im  Sagittarius . and idk b/c i dont read up on that shit

97. What are each of your MBTI types and how do they compare? omg idk what his is! im an isfj

98. What are each of your Hogwarts houses and how do they compare? n/a

99. If you were both in a dating sim, what character tropes would each of you be? idk

100. If you were both animals what would you be? Would you be the same animal?  he would be a cat, id be a raccoon obvs

101. How does your partner’s wardrobe differ from yours?  he is more laid back, just jeans and tshirts, or sweat pants. I wear a lot of nice shirts, skinny jeans/ leggings and buisness casual if i have too

102. Have you ever both said something at the exact same time? yea

103. Rate your relationship on a scale of basic vanilla (1) to extremely kinky (10)  um like maybe a 7

104. Mix your fav colour with your partner’s fav colour- what is the result? Magenta

105. If you were both ingredients, what would each of you be and what would be the resulting recipe? (e.g. PB & jelly sandwich) ummm lol idk

106. Which of you would win in a Pokemon battle? Assign yourself and your partner a fitting Pokemon type (e.g. water, grass, poison etc). Are either of you super effective against the other? he obvs cus he knows more about POkemon lol

CONFLICT 107. What happens when you argue with each other? How do you both make up? we stay silent for a bit or we talk it out. 

108. What’s something that your partner does that annoys you? How do you annoy them? he doesnt text back all the time -_- and i probably annoy him with my constant questions or reassurance

109. What are some imperfections that you love about your partner? he is a derp

110. What are some imperfections that your partner loves about you? 

111. Has your partner ever accidentally hurt you? Have you accidentally hurt them? i have scratched him by accident, and he has bruised me while wrestling lol

112. Is there anything about you that your partner just doesn’t understand? yeah my mental illnes

113. Is there anything about your partner that you just don’t understand? why does every little thing make him mad lol

114. When was the last time you cried about your relationship and why? idk 

115. What is something you love that your partner hates? im not sure honestly.

116. What is something you hate that your partner loves? anime

117. When was the last time you had to apologise to your partner and why? when i got mad at him and was being a smart ass

118. Do either of you get too clingy? both of us but me abit more

119. Do you have any insecurities about your relationship? yep.

120. When was a time that your relationship was put to the test? never?

121. What would your partner have to do to make you end the relationship?  cheat on me honestly, or just start changing completely.

RELATIONS 122. Does your family approve of your relationship? yes

123. What do your friends think of your relationship?  they like him

124. How do you both act together around others as opposed to when you’re alone together? when we are around others we can tease eachother and just be together but when were alone were more open, flirt more, etc

125. How did you first reveal to people that you were going out?  told them..and also facebook

126. Do you think you and your partner look similar to each other? lol not really..i mean we both have dark eyes and hair, but i dont think we look anything a like. He has some turkish in him too so theres that lol im just a white bitch

127. How does your partner treat you special compared to everyone else in their life? he opens up to me, tells me his deep secrets, teases me, etc

128. Do you both have a mutual friend group, or only separate friendship groups?  both, but his friends dont rly see my friends that much haha

129. What’s a common misconception about your relationship? earlier it was that he was too old for me. idk what ppl think anymore

130. Has your relationship affected any of your relations with others? i dont think so.

131. Has anyone tried to sabotage your relationship? yep

132. Quote something somebody has said about your relationship. “you guys are so cute together!! couple goals”

133. Quote something somebody has said about your partner. “he’s glad your dad is dead” - some cunt LOL

FUTURE 134. What do you hope for the future of your relationship? that we can live in a nice home and be happy lol

135. If you both got married, what would you want your wedding to be like? intimate and small.

136. Can you imagine what your ideal home would look like? something simple.

137. Do you have kids/want to have kids? What would they be like?  we both dont want kids. 

138. If you could do anything for your partner what would you do? make him happy

139. Do you think you’ll still be together when you’re old and wrinkly? i hope so, i believe so

140. Got any relationship advice?  just the basic , dont be with someone all b/c youre lonely. 

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Interview With Ana Muñoz, An Artist Who Lets Her Art Talk About Diabetes

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Interview With Ana Muñoz, An Artist Who Lets Her Art Talk About Diabetes

My youngest sister Ana was diagnosed with type 1 diabetes at age 3 (the same year I was diagnosed at age 11). I have always admired the peaceful way in which she deals with diabetes. When I think of her though, I remember the kid who was seemingly always quietly drawing or doodling something, somewhere. I’m happy that despite diabetes she has continued to do what she loves.

Ana got her BFA in Studio Art with a concentration in painting, drawing and art education from James Madison University and just received her MFA in Studio Art from the School of the Art Institute of Chicago. She also just got married. She now works as the Education and Design Coordinator at the Taubman Museum of Art, is their in-house graphic designer, and teachers weekly classes for kids and helps with year-round programming and tours. (Yep, she has been busy!)

I went to an art show that featured her recently. I had been feeling a weight on my chest for a few weeks. It was even hard to breathe. I walked over to one of her paintings that had to do with a diabetes complication and stared at it. I ran off to the bathroom and cried like a baby. The weight on my chest lifted and I realized that I hadn’t noticed this underlying worry about diabetes I was having. Sometimes a visual can speak to us in ways that helps us identify a feeling and either let it go or act on it. Then I saw Ana answering many questions about diabetes and realized her art was helping to advocate for us.

Her art has centered so much on the topic of diabetes and so I interviewed her to tell us about it.

DD: You have focused much of your art on the subject of diabetes. Why is that and how did it start?

Ana: I started making work about diabetes in 2010 for Diabetes Art Day, which was started by Lee Ann Thill. I’d been making art since I was a kid, but I rarely thought about making art that commented on my life as a diabetic. I think I either wanted to keep those two things separate or I really didn’t consider using diabetes as a subject. Either way, I decided to participate in the first Diabetes Art Day and I received some responses that made me change my mind about the role of art in my life as a diabetic and vice versa.

About a year after that initial experience, I was taking a painting class in college and we were instructed to complete 6 paintings tied together by a theme over the course of the semester. I decided to use diabetes as a theme. I’ve continued the work since then and of course it has taken many different forms.

You don’t talk much about diabetes (in my experience). Do you let your art do some of the talking for you?

You’re right about that. One of the reasons I’ve continued making art about diabetes is because it revealed itself as a way for me to talk about it through visuals, and over time it helped me find the courage and words I needed to verbally speak about it. I spent most of my life keeping my diabetes fairly private partially because I didn’t want to feel different among my peers, partially because I was shy, and partially because I didn’t often think about discussing it with people.

I was diagnosed at age 3 so it was a part of my life that somehow felt normal, like accepting that I had brown hair and that my name was Ana. Letting my art speak for me can be tricky, though, since most people interpret visuals in various ways. That became kind of frustrating when I was first making work about diabetes—I really wanted people to understand what I was saying, but as an artist you can only guide the viewer, you can’t control what they think. I’ve slowly come to terms with that and now I rely on using multiple sources to reveal my message—photos, writing, paintings and drawings, source/research material, etc. I aim to make it all accessible to anyone who is interested. If you’re not interested, then you probably won’t understand what I’m saying and that’s okay.

What do you hope people get from your art?

I hope people get a sense of complexity from my art. This body of work often makes me feel both vulnerable and incredibly strong. It is built from years of living with diabetes and working with my hands. I hope in some way to raise awareness about diabetes—and not just about the major complications, but also what it’s like to live with it day-to-day, in between the high highs, the low lows, the hospital visits, the middle-of-the-night scares, well after the moments when the people in our lives express their concern or their sympathy and then forget about what we’re dealing with until the next scare or the next mistake because it’s not something they need to think about 24/7, but we do. We think about it when we shower, when we drive to work, when we fight with our partners. It affects everything and anything.

On a different note, I hope my work also inspires someone else living with the disease. Even though millions of people have diabetes, and I have two siblings with it, it’s easy to feel alone. Community and support play a big part in maintaining a positive attitude about something quite terrible that we are forced to live with. I hope the work I make reminds a fellow diabetic or someone suffering from another chronic illness that they’re not alone, that their losses and victories are all our losses and victories.

What is the hardest thing about living with diabetes, in your opinion?

I think the hardest thing about living with diabetes is that I never get a break and optimism is often fleeting. I might have perfect numbers all day and feel empowered and then I’ll have two days with terrible numbers and I have to work that much harder to find the strength to feel like I’m in control again. And it never ends.

I think about having children soon and it terrifies me because I need those good days all the time—during the months leading up to getting pregnant and during the 9 months of pregnancy and hopefully afterwards too, when a little person will be relying on me to be around and care for them. Sometimes it sounds impossible. Every number outside of my target range is a reminder of all the health issues I’m at a higher risk for and for some reason it takes like 5 good blood sugar readings for me to get over a high one. Those are difficult odds to work with.

Growing up, you always seemed to calmly take the challenges related to diabetes in stride. What is your secret?

I think it stemmed from both my early diagnosis and my generally calm personality. Even now, when sometimes I think I suffer from anxiety more than I ever have in my life, I still tend to appear calm. But when I was a child, like I mentioned earlier, I think I accepted diabetes as a part of my life that I couldn’t change. Plus I didn’t know anything different so that kind of saved me from being bitter about it or dwelling too much on what my life could have been.

Do you think that artwork about diabetes can help create more awareness?

Definitely—art is a language. People absorb information in different ways and I think it’s strategic to attempt to raise awareness through a variety of methods. People also communicate in different ways. I don’t think anyone should feel ashamed of not being highly skilled at communicating his or her thoughts and opinions verbally. As a society, we should support and foster different forms of communication.

As a recent college grad, what advice can you give a college student about managing diabetes while on campus?

Meal plan when you can, keep something on hand for lows at all times, know where the vending machines are on campus, tell your professors that you have diabetes, tell your roommate(s) that you have diabetes, have at least one person that you can call in an emergency (someone that’s on campus or in the same building as you), limit the late night pizza, drinking, etc., don’t rely on anyone to take care of you if you drink—have a plan.

Is there anything else you are working on lately?

I’m also writing and illustrating a children’s book about diabetes, which has turned out to be more massive an undertaking than I anticipated. I’ve been working on it for over a year and hope to finish it by the end of this year. The book is called “Sweet Pee” and it features basic info about diabetes, personal anecdotes, and words of encouragement. I intend for it to be a useful resource for both children with diabetes and their parents.

If Carmen SanDiego had diabetes, where in the world would she be?

She would be lying on a sandy beach, almost physically feeling the stress leave her body with every wave that broke on the shore. Her insulin and meter would be next to her in a small cooler to keep out the sun’s heat. Her numbers would be perfect because she’s so relaxed and has all the time in the world and the clarity required to back up a failed pancreas. All of her worries and concerns would look so small against the backdrop of a massive ocean.

To see more of her art go to More Art Please.

Twitter: @moreartpleaseInstagram: @anamoralesartFacebook: Artwork by Ana Maria Morales

Photo Credit: Ana Muñoz

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