#ik the 2nd one was good? run(?) i think???

[seokmatthewz]

fantasy boys continues to baffle me with every episode i watch

[hanlimz]

[midnight thoughts: sunghoon + heart eyes]

pairing: park sunghoon x gn!reader genre/warnings: fluff ! very cute very suitable 4 all audiences ! / not proofread, povs might be a bit confusing?? it's written in 2nd person/3rd person omniscient but also in hoon's pov kinda?? idk ,, i hope that's able to be understood lolol <///3, also LOVESICK HOON <////3 wc: 0.8k (i could've written more but i liked where this ended) a/n: this goes out to all my hoon stans (ESP my hoon biased moots bc ik there's a lot of u MWAH ILY PLS ENJOY this is my apology for never interacting) / i feel like this is a bit different from my normal writing style so i hope this little ramble-y mess suffices !! <3

park sunghoon is sharp; the slope of his nose is precise and pointed, his skin is even and supple while still resembling a cool block of ice, and the fiery soul of a phoenix reborn from its ashes is hidden away behind his frigid gaze. but, when he's with you—an uncharacteristic spell of heat courses through his veins; the blood under his cheeks seems to boil as they turn an embarrassing shade of vermillion, and the mystic bird is freed as you unlock the cage he has built around his heart. the way you hold him in your hands is gentle, the way you touch him is kind, and the way you kiss him makes him weak.

when he's with you, park sunghoon allows himself the chance to be soft. he melts like the chocolate sandwiched between two cozy graham crackers; his brain turns to mush, his thoughts are blurred at the edges, and his bones feel a bit too much like jello. sunghoon doesn't bother to uphold his "cool guy" reputation when you're around because he knows you prefer the real him—the one that stumbles over his words after seeing you in his clothes, the one that can't make it through watching the titanic without bawling, the one who still tries to cook for you despite almost cutting his thumb off with a mandoline slicer.

a fool, but yours nonetheless.

however, in spite of all this pure adoration sunghoon harbors for you, he still can't manage to will those eight, little letters from his plush lips. they feel too small as they sit and marinate in his mouth; he turns them over with his tongue, running the muscle along each syllable and tasting the overly saccharine residue they leave behind. they're not enough, he thinks, they never will be.

so, until he finds the right words, sunghoon settles for quiet moments like these. a wall of storms is rolling in from the coast; through the open window in the dorm's living room, the refreshing scent of impending rain spreads throughout the space. soft bouts of rumbling thunder become white noise that is almost enough to lull him to sleep, and the weight of your head in his lap evokes a certain peace that settles over every inch of his body. as sunghoon runs his fingers through your hair, he giggles to himself each time you snore on the inhale. there's a patch of drool seeping into the fabric of his joggers, but he can't bring himself to care; to sunghoon, you are perfect—in every sense of the word.

in the darkness, sunghoon's phone illuminates your napping figure; squinting, he sees that the boys have messaged the group chat, but truthfully, sunghoon is far more concerned that the vibrations might startle you out of your slumber. glancing down at you once more, he picks up the device to take a quick look at the messages.

[jake] twenty dollars that hoon's ogling y/n when we get back

[heeseung] do u even have to bet?

[jay] yeah i feel like it's kind of a given at this point

[sunoo] i just hope they're not on the couch .. i'm trying to cast the barbie movie to the tv ://

[jungwon] good luck......where Else would they be??

[niki] as long as they're not sucking face idc.....

[me] ok gross ... we r not Sucking Face u Child y/n's asleep on the couch, so don't be too loud when u get back

[jake] BOOOOO GET A ROOM !!!!!

[sunoo] UGHHH why can't u guys be a cute couple somewhere ELSE??

[heeseung] hoon's too in love ... Obviously

[me] stay jealous losers &lt;3

with a small flick of his thumb, sunghoon switches his phone to do not disturb and places it face down on the arm of the sofa. as he gazes down at you, his eyes are filled with an immeasurable amount of appreciation and fondness and gratitude. he finds solace in the sight of the rhythmic rise and fall of your chest; your deep breaths are a melodious sonata accompanied only by the sound of rain pattering against the living room window. sunghoon feels his heart pounding in his chest, and he thinks it's a bit silly just how much of an effect you manage to have on him. he sits with his thoughts, staring at the wall before him; sunghoon ponders heeseung's text, and comes to the conclusion that the elder boy is right.

sunghoon is in love—with you, to be specific.

however, he decides that he's the perfect amount of in love with you.

slowly, the calloused pads of sunghoon's fingers graze over the planes of your face, traveling down to the exposed skin of your shoulder. gently, he traces countless, miscellaneous shapes into your flesh, hoping you can feel each and every one of the triangles and diamonds and hearts in your dreams. tenderly, he tugs the blanket that had slipped down to the taper of your waist back up to your clasped hands. quietly, sunghoon prays to the gods and asks for the courage to voice his emotions, despite knowing that there is no rush—there never is. not with you.

and after a moment, softly, sunghoon tucks a stray piece of hair behind your ear and murmurs, "i love you. more than you'll ever know, i love you."

[kakujis]

happy birthday, keisuke!

synopsis: you celebrate keisuke's day with toman.

warnings: gn!reader, swearing, this is fluffy and gross, yn can't bake for shit (me), not proofread, and that should be it!

ft: baji keisuke x reader, 1.2k

network: @enchantedforest-network

a/n: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THE LOML!!!!!!! i set aside my hw and all to get this finished hehe. it's still the 2nd in my area, but ik it's the 3rd elsewhere! i tried to keep it short and simple this time!! i won't get sappy or anything but i truly love baji so much!! happy birthday, kei, hope its a good one. ♡

with the amount of staring you’ve been doing, you must as well be losing your vision, the words on the screen blurred and hazy. you’ve scrolled through the ingredient and instruction list an obscene amount of times, and yet… things seem to always turn out like this. 

“i’ve got no fucking clue what i’m doing!” you huff, but the silver haired man besides you simply laughs in reply. “mitsuya, why does my cake look like one of y’all rolled it over with your motorbikes?” 

“to be honest,” he starts, snickering as he inspects it, “i have no idea. i mean, you followed the recipe and all didn’t you?” 

you nod, sadly staring at another failed attempt. he decides to take a piece and taste it, throwing it into his mouth, chewing with an unreadable expression.

“it’s not like it’s inedible, it’s miles better than your first attempt. it’s just a little dry and crumbly…” mitsuya says, brow furrowing, “alright, honestly, it’s pretty bad.” 

you sigh loudly, picking it up and throwing it into the trash, “i told you we should’ve gotten him a cake from the store!” all your attempts have been moot. instead of a fluffy and moist cake, it’s always flat and dry even with mitsuya’s help. 

kazutora pops his head into the kitchen at that moment, “i can run really fast if you want me to.” 

you shake your head, “...no. don’t… do that.” you point to your forehead, signaling him of the decorations stuck on his. 

he shrugs, pulling off a stray streamer, and walking in before he’s jumping up to sit on the counter.“how are we gonna have a birthday party with no cake?” 

you frown, whining, “man, i don’t know. mitsuya, what do we do?” 

he glances over at the clock, mouth pressed in a line, before he answers. “you could always stick a candle into his soba noodles, we've got tons of those.” 

“we are doomed.” you state, sighing as you slump against the counter. “sorry kei…” 

even though you know, deep down, that keisuke baji could give less than two shits about a cake, you really wanted to surprise him. you did the same for him on white day, all those years back in highschool when you finally confessed. he accepted it, shitty chocolate and all, as you hid your burnt bandaged fingers behind your back. he never mentioned it, but you assume he knew, when instead of kissing your lips, he dragged your hands out from behind you and kissed your them while your heart almost sprang out of your chest. 

“who’s doomed?” you hear a loud yet comforting voice coming from the hallway. you look up to see draken, smiling ear to ear as he holds a cake box. 

“draken!” the three of you giddily call in unison and he smiles wider. 

mikey isn’t far behind him, peeking out to say, “there’s no way you guys thought we were gonna eat a cake they made right? it’s literally y/n, we would’ve died. i think baji almost did when he ate your confession chocolate.” 

“i’m going to ignore that for now.♡︎” you chime, keeping the strained smile on your face. 

“you guys are so mean to my protégé.” mitsuya chides, giving you a pat on the back. “anyway, we’re running out of time before he gets home, let’s finish this up.” 

you all nod and run off to your places, with you cleaning up the kitchen, and yourself, as best you can before you head out to the living room. the decorations are strung up nicely, courtesy of emma and hina, although takemichi, chifuyu, and pah definitely tried their best. you’re a little nervous, heart fluttering, as the lights dim and everyone crouches in place. 

you wait a few moments, eyes adjusting to the now darkened room as you catch a wave from chifuyu right before the front door slams open. equally as loud as the slam shut, baji talks to his mom on the phone. 

“yeah ma, i just got home. thanks for hangin’ with me today. huh? oh yeah, i’ve got plans with the guys tonight…” he mutters, phone pressed up against one shoulder as he kicks his shoes off. “unfortunately, its just the guys, said they couldn’t get off work early enough..” he trails off, a solemn expression on his face and you bite back the urge to laugh. 

“alright, love you ma, talk to you later.” he says as he hangs up, placing his book bag onto the floor. as he hits the lights, you all pop up out of place. 

“happy birthday, baji!” you cheer out in unison. it’s an explosion of streamers, confetti, and colors with some of you using party poppers and some of you using the blowers. 

he jumps while breaking out in a shit-eating grin, his pearly canine teeth in full view. his eyes scan the room til they fall onto you, the excitement sparked behind them clear as he immediately makes his way over to you. 

“no fuckin’ way,” he laughs, throwing his arms around you, before peppering kisses on your cheeks. “should’ve known you were a liar.” 

you hug him back, but pull off slightly, when you suddenly feel the heavy eyes of everyone around you. “o-okay keisuke, that’s enough.”

he presses a final kiss to your forehead before turns and glares, “huh? you guys got a problem with this?” 

mikey glares back, “yeah. i do.”

baji releases you, walking over to “square up” with mikey. the two of them bickering about the importance of everyone showing up, but also, a significant other is important too, and besides, “i was about to greet everyone, it’s not my fault you can’t find a date.”  

“here we go,” draken sighs, before sliding onto the couch. “emma, can you get me something to drink?” 

you shrug, settling in next to kazutora who’s excitedly bringing out the games for the night. the rest of the party goes well, the laughter bouncing off the walls of your shared apartment. it’s a nice little life you’ve got with baji so far. while he studies his ass off in school, your work is good enough to support the both of you. it’s cozy, it’s everything you’ve wanted. 

as the night winds down and everyone clears out, you find yourself cleaning up. you tell keisuke not to worry about it, “it’s your night, i’ll finish up here.” but he tsks you away, shoving littered plastic forks and plates into a bag anyway. he finds you in the kitchen later on, washing a few trays that were used to set the food out. 

he snakes his arms around your waist, breath tickling your ear as he asks, “so where’s my cake?” 

“huh?” you giggle, turning off the sink. “what are you talking about? we ate it all earlier?” 

“no, not that one.” he grins, his pretty hair falling over your shoulder. “the one mikey told me you made.” 

you freeze, that little shit. “uh… honestly, we threw them away. even with mitsu’s help, i couldn’t make you anythin’ good.” 

“well, that’s no good.” he hums for a bit, before spinning you around, a devious smile on his face. 

“kei?” you ask, but you’re interrupted by his lips on yours. 

“guess i gotta settle for somethin’ even sweeter.” he murmurs, before his hands are cupping your cheeks as he kisses you again and again.

“you’re so fucking cheesy.” you giggle in between kisses, hands naturally coming around his waist. “happy birthday, keisuke.♡︎” 

[a-narcissists-warren]

ok so a bunch of stuff happened while i was asleep (lore always happens when i go to bed wtf, must be a timezone diff) and i just spent the past 30 minutes scrolling thru all of it SO

Alfonso (hope i can call u by ur name) ur fridge got destroyed by Evil Anon and we currently dont have it back yet, u can draw an exact replica of it back but u CANT bring back all of the things in it or on it back soooo

i brought all the silly things u put on the fridge back! we also all currently know that Funny Anon is a child and is calmed by sweets and ik u can draw some but then again- so i just brought some handmade sweets myself too.... think of it as a 2nd batch for when the ones u bought run out!.. if they havent run out alr

and while 🍬💥 Anon seems to do harmful experiments which made Funny Anon scared of em... im just trying to see if there's anything ELSE that could keep Funny Anon docile, and id prob just apologize if i hurt Funny Anon in any way and try n make up for it!

also i think a lot of anons need therapy.... me included bcuz i realized ive been WAY too desensitized by all this gore and lore it just doesnt faze me and thatS NOT GOOD

srry for rambling btw..... i just get rlly excited whenever lore comes up, plus the fact ive always been asleep when lore happens and can never rlly be apart of it

-💜💣

of course you can call me by my name! a lot of you forget it doesn't include the L,, i don't really mind it tho.

It's Afonso without the L cuz I'm not a Loser,, hehe!

thank you by the way! you can place the sweets by their bed.. I know you and the little scientist anon are friends, so can you keep an eye on him to not provoke the funny guy? If their first death isn't enough to remember... yeesh.

Don't worry about rambling! i enjoy these long asks, it's like listening to a podcast! ^_^

[borathae]

chapter 1

“Thank you good sir” i havent seen this in a serious manner in a long time, and laughed cuz it sounded like 1890s memes 😭 im sorry

pulls the door open with ease. NO WAY I PUSHED AN PULL DOOR BYE U DIDNT HAVE TO ATTACK SOME OF US LIKE THAT 😭 violence i will be meditating

ALSO IS IT TAE OR JIN AAH HOLD ON JOON IS TALL TOO maybe kook??

“I’ve been a student here for quite some time actually” this sits at the same table as "how long have you been 17? a while"

oh it was jooniebug WHY IS OUR PRESIDENT A DICK 😭😭

“At least I don’t look like a stoner from the seventies” JIN STOP, HOBI U LOOK AMAZING

funky what is funky why is funky when is funky where is funky how is funky who is funky

what is she studying to have history and human anatomy together?/srs. ooh literature with different stuff for minor

boi i havent heard the word coolio in a decade, the last time probably while reading ff in 2014

oh my god its the bad boy. is it yoongi? YES I WAS RIGHT

4 HOUR LECTURE ON ONE TOPIC?? BOI I WOULD HAVE DIED AND RESURRECTED IN THAT TIME. i have 2 hour lectures with 5 minute after an hour and its amazing

"No reason really”, *plays why u always lying meme

Hoseok agrees with a quirk of his perfectly styled eyebrow. YES HIS EYEBORWS ARE HOT AS FUCK

ofc kook is a sports major

rest of the Alpha dirt”, damn hoseok really got beef with them

status from royal blood? eww hoseok is slay for that *me acting like i wasnt being a thot while reading yoongi, tae, kook drabbles/oneshots

FUCK SOCIETY

“Dear lord, give me strength”, jin and joon with bangtan

JIMIN WTF U WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LIL FLUFF BEAN *bitch stop u knew how they were in the beninging(yes i misspelled for the meme) YES KICKING IN THE SHIN SUPREMACY

what is a hacky sack? i found out its a game? but what is he exactly studying lol?

also its the way she is making friends and talking to people LIKE SHE SPOKE WORDS YALL could never be me, sure i would have asked someone to help me to my classes but i wouldnt be talking after that, would have said im busy even though im not

if you would excuse me, but you’re quite weird, BYE IM LEAVING THE EARTH THIS IS THE 2ND TIME IM EMBARRASSED you can find me in 134340 business days, where i will be rotting under my blankie bye

“Perfect, now that everyone is welcomed accordingly. an example of when theater theaters in the most theater form

It leaves you wondering what he meant with that. u know what he meant by that, this is where you do the whole twilight thing

“I feel I just witnessed a man high on three different drugs theatre kids in a nutshell (apparently people on tumblr are either gay, english major or a theatre kid, and i sent the meme to my friends, guess what they said................... "looks like you fit all three category" our schools dont have it, but im apparently a theatre kid to them 😭)

WHY DOES THIS MAN WANT TO KILL ME SHUT UP I HATE YOU GO AWAY *gets closer again

How is he walking that quietly you walk with your entire feet, part by part, like in those "special" shoes ads, that helps in reducing sound. slow yet quick

“well, that is indeed a predicament.” oof so elegant, classy, AND RUDE (there 2seok, happy?)

your voice actually comes out squeaky. girl mine would have came quiet yet squeaky way before 😭

BABY CONNECT THE DOTS HOW DID THEY GET THAT FAST QUIETLY??

let’s get the 1860 one.” IS SHE THAT SPECIAL?? WHATS GOING ON AAAH

Seokjin actually answers him with a quiet “yeah!” OFC HE WOULD DO THAT

THEY GOT DEAD BODIES IN THE FREEZER

If you died here tonight EXACTLY U GONNA DIE BYE GIRL, YOU WILL (NOT) BE MISSED jk jk lol

ig kook is scared of girls *eww that was cringe bye Maybe he just needed to take a really urgent shit OH MY GOD PLS😭😭 this is going to stay in my mind forever, everytime i see him running im gonna think of this no doubt

“exactly, that is the reason. He is really shy.” aww such a shy lil bean OK BUT IK THATS NOT THE REASON *inserts suspicious hobi eyes

you must have the crispiest oxygen sounds like an indian water ad, that said "more of oxygen " Arrey yaar h2o water has not turned into h2o2 toxic hydrogen peroxide 😭

i love ur descriptions, they are very picturable and i love the vibes. it is soo good, i could smell the place? the seats, library, just the university smell, restaurant. it was great. i dont think my words do any justice lol

NO WAY I PUSHED AN PULL DOOR BYE U DIDNT HAVE TO ATTACK SOME OF US LIKE THAT 😭 violence i will be meditating

I think this is like a universal human experience to push a few pull doors lmaooa

ALSO IS IT TAE OR JIN AAH HOLD ON JOON IS TALL TOO maybe kook??

questions over question mhmhmmhm

oh it was jooniebug WHY IS OUR PRESIDENT A DICK 😭😭

QUESTIONS OVER QUESTIONS INDEED

what is she studying to have history and human anatomy together?/srs. ooh literature with different stuff for minor

honestly? i gotta be honest with you, don't think too deeply about the logistics of her studies. i chose her courses for the sake of plot and nothing else LMAOAO

boi i havent heard the word coolio in a decade, the last time probably while reading ff in 2014

coolio still slaps like 10/10 word (also you see how I made them using "outdated" words wink wink almost as if they were from a different time wink wink)

oh my god its the bad boy. is it yoongi? YES I WAS RIGHT

BADBOY YOONGI AWOO

Hoseok agrees with a quirk of his perfectly styled eyebrow. YES HIS EYEBORWS ARE HOT AS FUCK

THEY ARE THANK YOU FOR SAYING THAT

ofc kook is a sports major

djjfja thinking back, it makes no sense for him to also study JFJDAFJ (you'll understand it later fasdjfj)

JIMIN WTF U WERE SUPPOSED TO BE LIL FLUFF BEAN *bitch stop u knew how they were in the beninging(yes i misspelled for the meme) YES KICKING IN THE SHIN SUPREMACY

HAHHHAHAH he may have tricked you fadjfjas

what is a hacky sack? i found out its a game? but what is he exactly studying lol?

yes it's a game fakdsfka in theory he studies dance PLEASE don't think too much about the logistic I literally just went with vibes

also its the way she is making friends and talking to people LIKE SHE SPOKE WORDS YALL could never be me, sure i would have asked someone to help me to my classes but i wouldnt be talking after that, would have said im busy even though im not

i get both sides like i would want to make friends but would be too scared that they would hate me FADJFJ if people like 2seok talked to me though? helloooooo :)

if you would excuse me, but you’re quite weird, BYE IM LEAVING THE EARTH THIS IS THE 2ND TIME IM EMBARRASSED you can find me in 134340 business days, where i will be rotting under my blankie bye

hahahahhaha this part is actually so embarassing bHAHAHHAHAHAH

“I feel I just witnessed a man high on three different drugs theatre kids in a nutshell (apparently people on tumblr are either gay, english major or a theatre kid, and i sent the meme to my friends, guess what they said................... "looks like you fit all three category" our schools dont have it, but im apparently a theatre kid to them 😭)

i don't get the hate on theater kids, all I see is people who don't fit into the "societal norm" and are therefore labelled as weird losers. we don't have stuff like "theater kid" or "sports kid" in Austria either becuse school is solely there to study not to offer clubs but I still never understood the weird hatered some clubs get in America jfdjfa

THEY GOT DEAD BODIES IN THE FREEZER

👀👀👀👀

ig kook is scared of girls *eww that was cringe bye Maybe he just needed to take a really urgent shit OH MY GOD PLS😭😭 this is going to stay in my mind forever, everytime i see him running im gonna think of this no doubt

as for now it seems like he is ooooh 👀

“exactly, that is the reason. He is really shy.” aww such a shy lil bean OK BUT IK THATS NOT THE REASON *inserts suspicious hobi eyes

SUSPICIOUS INDEED MHHHHM

i love ur descriptions, they are very picturable and i love the vibes. it is soo good, i could smell the place? the seats, library, just the university smell, restaurant. it was great. i dont think my words do any justice lol

OMGG THANK YOU!! gosh this is actually such a big compliment :( I'm so happy to know that I managed to really make you exprience the place gaaah thank you for this review heheh 💜💜

[lipglossanon]

Hope you had a good break girlie! So I looked into it and you unfortunately cannot get OG 2 or 3 on PS. I finished Leon 1st route! I was literally cheering as Ada fell and was yelling at her when she kissed him I was pissed. I started Claire 2nd and I’m having trouble understanding how her run lines up with Leon’s. I’m doing basically the same exact things I did with him which is honestly kinda annoying. I’m also trying to figure out the timeline between this one and the first one. Ik that 1 takes place in July & 2 is in September, but what happens in between that with the STARS members? Hoping it touches more on that in 3 (it was on sale digitally for like $10 I’m so excited!). Mr X is terrifying I see why people said this one was the scariest. Anyway sorry for all the info but I couldn’t remember which comment section we were talking g about this before on. 😂😅

Hi!!! 🥰 Never apologize for talking Resident Evil with me cause I’m a huge fucking nerd for this series 🤣

Read more cause it’s long lmao also spoilers for 3 😬 but nothing crazy I don’t think plus 3make is a little different from OG

Also sorry this is like another rant lmao

Yeah I didn’t think it was possible but I always hold out hope cause Capcom are so weird about their IPs 😒 and yes Mr. X was so fun in RE2make (way better than Nemesis but that’s a whole other tangent 🤣)

You might if you can find the GameCube versions of the OG RE2 and RE3 games. They play as well as the PS1 versions and it’s the exact same so not missing anything 😉

Haha that kiss is what I was talking about! Like she’s such a user —which I get that’s her character she’s a spy (first mentioned in RE1 as John’s password-his girlfriend’s name- and that’s why she’s in OG RE2, looking for her boyfriend who was a researcher for umbrella).

And to be honest the B scenarios do NOT complement the A scenarios. I am 100% of the belief that they were last minute additions 😒 for the most part they don’t really add too much in the way of story aside from a few little anecdotes.

So yeah sorry for that big disappointment 😆 oh man that’s a whole can of worms sorta? Lmao. Capcom is notorious for retconning or having confusing timelines 🤣 So buckle up I’ll try to keep this pretty streamlined:

RE1 takes place in July of 1998 and RE2 and RE3 take place at the same time with 3 lasting longer as Jill becomes infected and is in the city a bit longer. Like another disappointing factor is not having any crossover from the 2 and 3 remake cause come on! That would’ve been sick as hell for Jill to run into Claire or Leon in the RPD 🙄

Anywho, but as for the time between RE1 and RE2 is that Umbrella has Chief Irons in their pocket and so has him disband STARS and sweep everything under the rug. So no one believes them about the Spencer Mansions incident and so everyone’s oblivious to the shit storm about to happen 🤣

Brad is a chicken so hides away from everything. Rebecca peaces out. Barry takes his family and leaves for safety; Chris goes off to Europe to look into some Umbrella connections (which is why Claire didn’t find him and what leads into her looking for him a la Code Veronica).

Jill stays behind in Raccoon but she’s legit about to peace out to go after Chris when all that shit goes down and Nemesis is hunting the STARS members down; he fucking annihilates Brad, like tentacle through the mouth out the back of the head (so in 3make his death was way lame in my opinion 😒)

So unfortunate in 3make they don’t touch on anything inbetween 1 to 2 and 3; with OG RE3, there were epilogue scenes that explained what happened to everyone which was really cool but they took those out for some reason. They’re online if you wanna look it up. It explains why Leon ended up working for the govt, where Claire went, what happened to Jill, Barry, Chris, Ada, etc. All really cool and idk why they didn’t toss it in 😞

[robjuan]

ION REALLY KNOW YALL SO YALL CANT BE JUDGEMENTAL . Lmao

Gonna start by sayin, I have trust issues bad and it has and will fuk up relationships, And it's sad I can't stop tha defense mechanism dat got installed. & every time I get hurt or betrayed it upgrades automatically. And I can't uninstall it bitches an niggas think I'm crazy but...HELL I MIGHT BE, I HEARD IT ENOUGH! IK IK NOT NORMAL. BUT DIS PROBLEM GON BE THA END OF ME...BUT IM SCARED IF I DI OPEN UP IM IN A. "WHAT IF" STAGE.

LIKE what if or if 8 could open up,And it happens again. _Betrayal_

-I couldn't .......🙇🏾‍♀️

Mentally I couldn't.

Mama said*Da streets ain't 4 Mii "AAND I FOUND OUT THE HARD WAY, IT AIN'T. ON MY MAMA!

I Neva eush shit, Dat ain't me. But I feel I'm running out of time!

I lm rdy 2 find her n settle down fr my nigga. But I can't keep no1.And I got 1 I been tryna contain 4 SUM yes, she finally gives Mii a chance N poww!! A nigga blowin it 💣

But I need sum1 2 politic wit TBH.miat folks don't even b on my Time frame with ahit,as far as real shit go,they ont one what dat is fr....Im 2 whole hearted 💜 ❤️ (THEY ARE NOT)

Im so fukin PURE!

LOVE PURE/HATE PURE...

Without a flaw simple excellence my dawg. And I'm not boastin at all.

I'm JS..

I'm going to run off some1 I love 2 death.And I can't even stop my repetitive behaviors.Ion got no1 2 talk 2 cuz of course wit betrayal you don't associate or be round alot of ppl.

I hate ppl! (With a passion) Because they'll cross you no matter how good you are 2 em,Sad honestly.

Ion Kno...

Back against da wall 🎵what do you hold on to?🎵

_It hurt my 💜 to see you hurt,In desperate need of affection.....GAVE UP MY WINGZ , SUPPOSED 2 BE YO PROTECTOR...Fell in Love with someone else you,Broke my ❤️ & it ain't getting better._ THA ANGELS SAY I CANT BACK INTO HEAVEN 👿

I gave niggas da LEAN, WEED, ap'Z.

did dat shit off da muscle 💪🏻.FA NUFFIN.

ON TONYA..

/All these niggaZ,Be havin dem niggas, they Claim they love em./

⛈️I look up ion Kno who 2 trust.. It's all scary..😭🙅🏻‍♀️☔🌧️

An I am not a scary person, BUT... I AM

-I gave yu drugs, YOU AIN'T bring MII NUN OF da profit. "YOU AAY I'M CRAZY" 🤣

Iz these NIGGAZ RLY WIT MII?

IIN KNO.

Is these niggaZ out 2 get Mii?

ION kno. 😖

I be so lonely my dawg but iG I chose dat,not rlly. It chose me.. unfortunately 🕴🏻

"I'ma Gangsta, my heart cold as Chicago. I got so much 💕 2 give.

Make Mii sick knowing I can't be healed..🤮

I miss da old day's...

Never get dat time back lol there's dat. " T" WORD AGAIN! TIME ❗ shit runnin out tbh,8 feel like lm, at least 50.. Imagine whenever I do get dat qge...( Boyyy). Like my Uncle Joe say

Needa Go c him frfr He havin OG stain 2 Mii. Wise man I must say

I'm off track prolly da recreational stuff....Anyway my thug.

8tw cold AF out here 'literally '🥶

Thats just 1 of my rants.

🔐 🔒 In til next mf'n time.

#_it'll b soon {I'm sure}

[obwjam]

ok but since we’re on the topic of Jurassic park / world g/t

But I would love to be tiny with a giant Ian or Owen Grady- like they both know so much about the dinosaurs and everything. They’d both be so overprotective of them and protect them, but the tiny (like the Indiana Jones one) would be resourceful and good at tracking.

Ok so here’s the first scene with Owen that comes to mind. Yk that scene where he’s protecting the feeder, the “stand down scene”. But what if the tiny accidentally fell in whether it was because they lost their balance or someone purposely did it up to you. Now these dinosaurs do trust her- but not as much as Owen. She’s absolutely terrified and Owen would be pissed if he found out that Hoskins did it as a social experiment. She’s backpedaling in fear and Owen is just standing their over her protecting her like a barrier as he’s controlling the dinosaurs.

Now Ian Malcolm is a little difficult since he’s more arrogant over anything. But when he care about you, HE CARES. So the first thing that came to my mind was the scene where they’re driving away from the trex that’s chasing them and he leans back in fear screaming trying to stay as far as possible as they drive. I would imagine that he’s just shielding his tiny scientist friend against his chest as they’re clutching onto his leather jacket for dear life. Another scene was the one where he’s distracting the raptors to let the others escape (2nd movie I think?). So i imagine the tiny was in danger at one point and he’s making noises so the tiny can run and hide while he distracts them. Eventually when he’s got a head start from the raptors, he scoops them up and just runs. He just gets stuck in the car shielding them and so on.

So yeah ik you don’t know the fandom, but I’m hoping someone else can appreciate it and add to it lol

you had me at tiny scientist friend im HOOKED

[rosencrantzsguildenstern]

Character: Kujo Takamasa

First impression

since i first saw him in rikus fucking. 1st beat flashback. i knew that man was sus as hell amen! i was super curious since we got that bit of knowledge that tenn left with a random guy and basically had this prediction that he was AWFUL and the cause of all of tenns problems. in the first actual scene with him i was mostly like 'what a cool scene!' but as soon as we learn he's tenn AND AYA'S dad i was like. oh i bet he's why tenn works himself into the ground and has all these weird complexes and won't talk to riku i bet kujo’s this horrible abusive guy. i even wrote this little tenn&aya angst fic back in october when i was watching 2nd beat that holds up decently well (it was basically a sickfic where tenn was like ik im sick but I Have To Go To Work bc otherwise kujo’ll be pissed and aya was like My Mom Died Of Illness) but definitely has some inaccuracies and missed how interesting tenn and aya's characters and complexes are. anyway i hated that man!

Impression now

I LOVE THIS MAN!! he has every disease <3 <3 <3 i love his hair. i love his vibes. i love when he fails at life. he's still an awful parent who did/does definitely traumatize tenn but it's in a fun funky way. i love a man who goes insane with longing. i also just really like the little snippets we get of him existing. being himself. his personality entertains me. i like his dramatic monologues and i like that he’s goth

Favorite moment

oh my god. when the high school trio corner him in a hallway and he’s like “when did i start running a children’s counseling hotline” my friend. perhaps when you started using them as raw material for idols??? its so funny hes like. whats up with these kids ❓

Idea for a story

THIS IS SURPRISINGLY HARD bc i give him a lot of screentime in my stuff that ISNT centered around him but then with just him all im thinking of is easy little character studies where i wax poetic about zero. OH!! actually i’m always dreaming up dumb kujo family crackfic. they go to the grocery store. (i actually have snippets of this one thought up.) they go to a diner. they go on an overly long drive and hate it. haruka is always there causing drama. its a beautiful world

Unpopular opinion

ONE TIME I SAW A FIC MAKING HIM HOMOPHOBIC nah. hes gay. hes homophobic against haruki specifically. but in general taking an antagonist and making them do allllll the bad stuff is never my jam. also w that the idea/theory that he fucked over zero, like pressured him too much as a producer? i could see him being the reason zero disappeared, but i don’t think he could or did Manage zero— if he overwhelmed zero, it was probably with excessive love and devotion— like i bring up in the favorite relationship section he’s the guy who says “this song is the most amazing thing in the world” and gets so excited about it he breaks your stuff!

Favorite relationship

i thought about this for a little but i think i gotta say him and haruki! apart from them being the choice with the most history, their dynamic is just fun— harukis a jokester. a free spirit. a silly guy if you will. and generally laid-back/unattached- while kujous very serious and singleminded. add in Beef and that they used to be really close and it’s so fun; i also think a lot about the flashback scene where haruki’s having kujo listen to his new song and kujo’s like THIS IS THE BEST THING EVER MADE!!!!!! what a hypeman :> and harukis like don’t break More of my glasses so that’s another fun touch of contrast in their dynamic

(and god. i’ll make this last forever kujou vs here for a good time not a long time haruki. what a pair to trap in endless grief)

i also actually really like his and gaku’s dynamic? all their scenes together are really strong, it’s really satisfying seeing gaku tell it like it is— with all this care for tenn and knowledge of tenn’s issues embedded— and having gaku play kujo in the zero musical also brings out ALLLL the similarities in the two characters (that are really quite different) and makes every kujo-gaku scene during that period extremely fun bc gakus doing CHARACTER ANALYSIS

Favorite headcanon

ough… ive talked about this before but i think aya buys him best dad merch, haruka buys him stuff that says “worst dad” and he ignores what all of it says and just like. wears/uses it.

also i like the idea of him being consciously goth/alt but in different styles since before zero disappeared

[kynrki]

HELLLOOOOOO and welcome back ,,,how are u? I swear I come here to check on everyone and then never talk again but neways I hope you're doing good <<33 my second semester started and I already feel stressed cuz the 2nd one is very short (aka a month and half) and the materials are vv long BUT I'm gonna manage (i hope we all do) anyways I hope u have a good day/night and let's survive another week together<3 (i also started reading a new manga cuz i cant wait for season 2 and honestly it broke my heart in the best way possible and characters are so dimensional) also one more thing is I really want to start practicing art, the talent kinda runs in my family but u haven't drawn in so long so I want to start again,,,,, idk when exactly but hopefully soon

enough abt me and more abt u so how's life recently? any good news:)

JOEY JOEY JOEY OMGEE HI BABE I MISSED YOU SM HRU AONDIWMFISKCJEOCKD 🫶🏼🫶🏼😘😘😘😘💞💞

im doing rlly well as of lately!! wbu?? AHH GOODLUCK ON SEMESTER 2!! im sure you will ace it!! just take everything one step at a time and clam down okay! you got this, i know you do :))) let’s survive another week together <33!!

oooo which manga is it!! ngl i miss my anime phase… back in like 2020 i was lowkey obsessed and all yk? i miss it, i think the only thing i actually still watch today is bnha and tokyo ghoul, i still need to finish season 4 of aot LOL and i also need to finish assassinations classroom… i think my fav anime has to be given. it broke me in a good way LMAO and then also aot. it’s overrated ik but its jus that good yk?

OOH YOU DRAW?? ik an irl who also draws and she tends to draw on my hands alot Lmao but i hope all goes well with the drawing and stuff!’

ahh me?? ive been focusing on mental health and time management since those were my biggest issues. starting the school year was a mess for me. i was overwhelmed with all the work and assignments and everything was jus too much for me so i took a break from here and other socials (trust it helps alot!!) but im back and not planning on leaving anytime soon.

I LOVE YOU JOEY!! thank you for checking up in me❤️

[haisuken]

final thoughts after re-reading tokrev for the 2nd time!

- had to make this a one post because if i do multiple I’ll flood the dash more than I already did 😁🙏 errmmm spoilers!

this is chapter 278 btw like the “last” chapter of the manga !! tb to when I first read this when it came out and i CRIED embarrassing.

— chifuyu starting the chapter in HIS pov was the best idea imo, he’s such a prominent character the whole manga he deserves to end off the manga 🫵🏽

— mikey being a motorcycle racer is such a good idea idk who came up with that but it’s genius and i love it, it literally fits him so well like no joke 😭

— AND DRAKEN being on his mechanical team is PERFECT!!!! them staying together is BEAUTIFUL to me 🙏

— koko and kisaki being business men is very on brand for them since they’re both really really smart but them being business PARTNERS was never something I expected, lowkey I thought we’d see kisaki & hanma together still

— another random thing for me is izana being a director of a non-profit?? like ?? but at least he helped orphans !!!

— ^^ plus mucho being with izana is also interesting I feel like he’d be a business man so like ? BUT kaku helping with orphans is cute and I def see that for him & izana :)

— the haitani’s running a club is VERY on brand for them like I wasn’t even surprised when I first read it 😭 I saw someone say one of them was a DJ ? idk where that came from but sure ‼️

— the akashi siblings (haru & senju) being YouTubers is so fucking funny to me like where tf did that come from 😭 why are they YouTubers??? who thought of that idea 😭😭 pls I need more ppl to talk about it like I never really paid attention to it before so now that I reread it I’m like ??? 😭😭

— but takeomi being a PRODUCER is so fucking silly and I support him in it because he’s so that type of person 😭 he’s definitely the scooter braun of tokrev but not evil as fuck

— are we even surprised shinchiro runs a bike shop? absolutely not 😭 like that’s his entire personality half the manga VERY very on brand for him + he looks good 😁🙏

— inupi working with him is so cute I love inupi sm and he doesn’t have his scar so I think that means he was saved/the fire never happened and I’m happy for him he deserves happiness 🥺🫵🏽

— waka & benkei running a gym is nothing new, and I’m glad they stuck to it in the end 😁

— south makes me giggle hes a fighter which is literally PERFECT for him like it’s so fitting 😭

— not surprised taiju owns restaurants because I think if I’m not mistaken in all the timelines he owns a restaurant like he was definitely destined for it

— hakkai being a model is PERFECT and yuzuha as his manager is BEAUTIFUL like VERY VERY MY STYLE absolutely adore them both!

— MITSUYA AS A FASHION DESIGNER IM SO PROUD OF HIM THIS ENTIRE SERIES HES BEEN A FREAKING DESIGNER AND HES SO BEAUTIFUL AND SO TALENTED AND I LOVE HIM IF YOU COULDNT TELL 😻😻🙀🙀🙀🙀‼️‼️😁😭😭😁‼️‼️

— the beaver duo wbk are rich af and do real estate!

— the twins running a ramen restaurant is so interesting to be because like ik they do it in another timeline BUT like where did that come from 😭

— ngl…as much as I adore hanma being free and being a freelance photographer I feel like it’s very random and not that fitting……like wdym he isn’t with kisaki…IDK BUT HAPPY FOR HIM !!

— naoto looks so silly but I love his journalist job and emma being a house wife I support it but like we couldn’t give my girl, who is a strong and independent woman, her own job? although ik she loves draken and i support them fully so if she’s happy then 😒

— BAJI, FUYU, AND TORA BEING TOGETHER AND WORKING TOGETHER SOBBING SO HARD IM SO HAPPY FOR THEM BAJI IS GONNA BE A VET SOBS AS HE SHOULD FR FR 😭😭😭‼️‼️

— and michi + hina FINALLY getting married 🙏

overall good ending, kinda crazy ngl because technically now the entirety of the manga doesn’t technically exist since they end up going back and fixing it all in the end with the final time leap BUT still so good 😁🙏‼️

[aniverse-x]

random shit

today I had a track meet with like 16 other schools. My team did pretty good Ngl. The sprinters did ok the distance did pretty good and the throwers did pretty good too. Last years track team was like 1000x better but this years team is mid. Only thing special about this years track team is the distance runners.

I ran the 4x800m relay and I did so much better than I thought but so much worse than what I wanted. My team got 2nd(at least in that heat)

I also ran the 4x400m relay and I sucked ass bro. I was like the last person to hand the baton to the guy. It was so fucking embarrassing.

idk how the high jumpers or the long jumpers did tho. I watched them and holy shit could people jump so high and far.

my 4x400 was like the 2nd event which took place at like 3:45 and the 4x800 was the last event which was at 8:00. Now I’m home. Yay.

but the worse part was that my only friend who does track with me wasn’t at the meet so I was there, alone. I had nobody to talk to and I had nothing to do except watch people run, jump, or throw. I could also buy food but the lines were so long I didn’t even bother. And the weather was so cold too😭😭

Sometimes I wonder if people are mentally ok. When I was watching the long jumpers someone said “hey you’d be a good couple with that person.” I didn’t think much of it bc they were probably talking about someone else. I later learned that they were, indeed, talking about me bc a few minutes after, I walked past the same people and while they walked past me one of the people turned around and said, “hey, do you think my friend is cute?” to me. Since I’m awkward, I just didn’t answer them and walked away. I hope I never run into those people again. Actually, Idek what they look like, or the school they go to so thank god I won’t ever see them again.

but anyways, I wonder how we’ll do at the county meet and the league meet(I’m very worried)

but one of the best parts was when I got to meet my old friend. It took lots of encouragement but I actually said hi to them and introduced myself(ik it’s shocking) they were from my old school so I wasn’t sure if they’d recognize me but they did. Yay. Light of my day

[heeseongism]

tysm for the tag maggie !! 🥺💖

birthday: 24th october ♏

favourite colour: purples and blues 🔮

do you have pets?: nope :( but ive had two cats, two chicks, one hamster and a budgie :3

how tall are you?: i think around 5'4 ??

how many pairs of shoes do you own?: 10-15 lol i have 5 pairs of sneakers and the rest are flats and heels

favourite song: I CANT CHOOSE OMG at the moments i think my most replayed song is 'Losing you - FLO'

favourite movie: i dont have one, i've forgotten half of the movies ive watched ngl

who would be your ideal partner?: someone confident in themselves, genuinely loves me, easy to have fun with and clingy (not too much tho)<3

do you want children?: yessss but i wanna have my fun first

have you gotten in trouble with the law?: nope

what colour socks are you wearing?: not wearing any rn

favourite type of music: probably krnb

how many pillows do you sleep with?: FIVE LMAO 💀 one for my head, one to hug, one behind my head, and one on each side,,, ik its alot but i need it to sleep lol

what position do you sleep in?: on my side with my legs curled up to my chest but thats only to make myself comfortable, i always end up going to sleep with my legs sprawled out sjsnsjsk

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: when theres sth else in the room that makes a rlly big shadow, my mind goes places and i end up with nightmares

what do you have for breakfast: i only eat breakfast on weekends so its usually eggs or toast in some way

have you ever tried archery?: nope

favourite fruit: its between lychee and strawberries !!

are you a good liar?: ik its nothing to be proud of but im AMAZING at lying like i can come up with an excuse on the spot

what’s your personality type?: idk and the tests take too long so im not taking it 😩

innie or outie?: im assuming it means belly buttons right? lmao or maybe im being weird but im an innie

left handed or right handed?: right

favourite food: its gotta be between noodles and chicken

favourite foreign food: ig pizza? 🍕

am i clean or messy?: im a clean freak

most used phrase: 'no bcs' i use it too much

how long does it take for you to get ready: around 15 mins mainly bc i dont have a morning skin care routine

do you talk to yourself?: ofc

do you sing to yourself?: ofccc

are you a good singer?: i dont think im that bad, i used to be in my schs choir

biggest fear?: losing ppl close to you

are you a gossip?: i gossip a little bit too much 🧍‍♀️

do you like long or short hair?: long hair all the way just bc i dont think i'd be able to suit short hair

favourite school subject: history and art

extrovert or introvert: im a little bit of both tbh

what makes you nervous: being around ppl who ik dont like me

who was your first real crush?: I rlly liked this one girl in high sch but i never got w her just bc i didnt actually want a relationship w her?? im not into girls like that but very rarely there comes a girl and im like ARGHASKAJSAKS

how many piercings?: i have lobe piercings and a navel piercing

how many tattoos?: only one

how fast can you run?: i think i can run pretty fast, i used to be the fastest in my sch and i remember i had a rivalry w this boy just bc he was jealous he was 2nd place LMAO

what colour is your hair?: dark brown but i might dye it hazel !!

what colour are your eyes?: very light hazel/grey?? idk how to describe it

what makes you angry: fake people

do you like your name?: yup but ppl find it hard to pronounce 🧍‍♀️ thats why i actually go by jinnie irl

do you want a boy or a girl as a child?: i dont mind any

what are your strengths?: i think im friendly and ppl tell me im v approachable

what are your weaknesses?: not knowing how to tell ppl no

what is the colour of your bedspread?: ... whats a bedspread ...

colour of your room: white, i painted it white so that i can change the colour theme of my room every now and then with my bed, desk set up, decorations etc

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get to know me

tagged by: @end-hyphen

tagging: @hee-pster, @heerated, @jayked, @heeseongism, @gegeetime, and anyone else!

birthday: 21st June 🦀

favourite colour: 🌺 pink (and any pastel colours, but mainly purple)

do you have pets?: yesss, 3 cats, they the best 🐱

how tall are you?: 5'7 (maybe a bit more, I haven't measured myself in a long time).

how many pairs of shoes do you own?: not a lot because I hate buying them - it has to be a specific type due to my feet, and it's extremely difficult to find ones that are pretty and comfortable.

favourite song: swimming pools by lloyd. (slowed, normal, sped up, it just always hit different)

favourite movie: don't have one cause I don't watch any.

who would be your ideal partner?: a best friend, someone I can trust with my life. He would have to be respectful, very mature and understanding. Someone who would become my home.

do you want children?: nope, never.

have you gotten in trouble with the law?: nope

what colour socks are you wearing?: black

favourite type of music: pop, R&B, k-pop. I never stick to one.

how many pillows do you sleep with?: well one, that being the one I put my head on.

what position do you sleep in?: always on my side, curled up into a ball like a hedgehog.

what don’t you like when you’re sleeping: when there is light, my room has to be completely dim.

what do you have for breakfast: cereal or bread with smth sweet.

have you ever tried archery?: once, but my aim isn't good haha

favourite fruit: 🍓strawberries omg, the best fruit out there.

are you a good liar?: no, I hate lying.

what’s your personality type?: estj.

innie or outie?: outtie because I love traveling. 🌻

left handed or right handed?: right.

favourite food: 🍔 chicken hamburger (yes I'm talking about you, KFC)

favourite foreign food: haven't really eaten smth foreign. ✨

am i clean or messy?: messy, but clean when I want to.

most used phrase: bro (literally Genie can confirm lmao)

how long does it take for you to get ready: 10 minutes if I'm not having a special hairstyle.

do you talk to yourself?: who doesn't?

do you sing to yourself?: again, who doesn't?

are you a good singer?: I would say an average, I love singing.

biggest fear?: losing a family member.

are you a gossip?: not really, I rather listen.

do you like long or short hair?: long hair is too much work for me (even tho I'm growing mine out now lol), so probably short.

favourite school subject: english

extrovert or introvert: extrovert (just gotta find the right people and I won't stop talking)

what makes you nervous: confrontations

who was your first real crush?: I think I'm currently going through one.

how many piercings?: zerooo.

how many tattoos?: also zero.

how fast can you run?: probably average, but I can't because of asthma.

what colour is your hair?: chestnut (people always assume it's black)

what colour are your eyes?: hazel: when they come in contact with water, they turn a bit green. ✨

what makes you angry: humanity, basically people

do you like your name?: yesss, I like the meaning behind it. 🌞

do you want a boy or a girl as a child?: nope

what are your strengths?: giving good advice, learning languages

what are your weaknesses?: not knowing how to love myself

what is the colour of your bedspread?: pink haha

colour of your room: also pink (yes, I love pink ok)

[kii2me2ii2]

How am I supposed to post badly photographes homestuck fanart when all that Im coming up with is bad

don't rb or probably read the tags either. ..

[urdgealesisbaby]

what would the ONS vampires do if their s/o got extremely drunk and someone tried to harass them

maybe ferid/ ky /urd and rigr (ik rigr isn't a vampire anymore but anyways...)

Hello,dear anon!!❤

Thank you very much for your request!!✨✨✨

Also thank you for requesting the 2nd progenitors hehe since I love writing for them!!

Also this is my first post using the character image-thingies!!

Ferid Bathory,Rigr Stafford,Ky Luc,Urd Geales with a s.o who got extremely drunk and someone tried to harass them

Ferid Bathory -doesn't take your drunkness seriously at first

-he isn't very possessive when you're at parties or something like that

-but oh good Lord

-who dared to harass you in that time

-instantly kills them

-like no joke.

-just kills them

-he is very protective of you and doesn't let you get harassed by some guy at a party

Rigr Stafford

-well I don't think that the Hyakuya Sect man would be happy about this

-most likely would smile at the guy very scary and the guy would run

-if not, he would get his chains out and start squishing the guy in front of everyone

-he doesn't wanna let his darling get harassed by some perverted man

Ky Luc -most likely would never keep you far away from him

-so if someone decides to harass you,that individual must be either stupid or brave

-either way Ky Luc doesn't care at all

-even if the individual is brave, I honestly see him squishing that guy's throat until blood comes out

-yeah not very friendly of Ky Luc himself haha

Urd Geales -probably the most calm out of these guys

-he doesn't like spilling blood in front of everyone

-but you make an exception as he is willing to spill blood in front of anyone just for you

-would try to be calm with the guy that is harassing you

-would fail but hey at least he tried

-also the guy won't see the sunshine for a looooong time

Thank you again for your request!!!

Hope you have a great day/night!!

[leossmoonn]

Regret || Part Two

masterlist | part one 

pairing - stefan salvatore x fem,forbes!reader

type - fluff, angst

note / request - “hi i'm not sure if your requests are still open but could you do a part two to 'regret' where someone gave Y/N vamp blood so she survives and runs away from mystic falls and only damon knows about it. And in present time Stefan turned it off so Damon calls Y/N for help and she's an icy cold bitch now, but agrees to help Damon. then Stefan and Y/N reunite again” ok so i hope i did the math right with caroline and the reader lol. i said Caroline would be her great niece? if any of yall happen to be interested in how they’re related and think i’m wrong, feel free to let me know! also this is like all over the place oops

summary - you and stefan reunite after 164 years when you help him turn his humanity back on

warnings / includes - language, alcohol, fighting, steamy make out scene, blood sharing. ik part one was 2nd person but i wanted to make this 1st person point of view lol

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*gif isn’t mine* (baby stef awe)

“Stay still and quiet,” I demanded, grabbing the innocent boy’s neck and digging my fangs into his carotid. I drank his blood with no remorse, sucking him dry. I moaned at the taste, letting go of him and letting him fall to the ground. I smiled sinisterly and walked over the boy’s dead body, strutting out of the dark alley. 

I wiped the blood off of my lips, sucking it off on my fingers. I looked around me, making sure no one was near. It was 3 in the morning, but you could never be too sure in the city that never sleeps. I walked down the street, taking my time to walk to my apartment. As I strolled down the street, my phone vibrated in my back pocket. I pulled it out and smiled as I saw Damon Salvatore’s caller ID. 

“Hello,” I answered cheerily. “Hey, Y/n,” Damon whispered into the phone.

“Why are you whispering? Did one of the many people you’ve fucked with finally find you?” I smirked. 

“Ha-ha, funny. No, I just don’t have a lot of time right now and I need to make this quick,” he explained. 

“Hm, aright. What’s up?” I asked. 

“I need your help. Stefan has turned off his humanity and no one has been able to turn it back on,” he explained. 

I stopped in my tracks at the mention of Stefan’s name. If my heart was alive, it would have stopped and I would surely have dropped dead. Instead, a pang of sadness and nostalgia filled my chest. 

“S-Stefan?” I spoke up. His name sounded weird in my voice and it felt weird saying it. I hadn’t said it in 50 years. 

“Yep, that’s his name. Don’t wear it out,” Damon remarked. 

I gulped loudly and regained my composure, continuing to walk to my apartment. “Why do you need my help? What about Katherine? I’m sure she would be happy to help.”

“Katherine’s dead,” he sighed. My eyes widened, “What?! That girl is like a cockroach. There is no way she’s dead.” “Nope, trust me. She’s dead. Stefan killed her,” Damon explained. 

Hearing that Stefan was the one to kill her lifted up my mood. I felt overjoyed, actually. 

“Wow,” I breathed out, smiling as I thought about how it all went down. 

“Yeah, I know. Finally she’s out of our lives. Anyways, we need your help because no one here can make him turn his humanity back on. We think you can.”

“Oh, yeah? And how? We haven’t seen each other in 100-plus years, Damon. He probably won’t even recognize me,” I scoffed. 

“He will. He’s in love with you, Y/n,” Damon said. 

Now this I could just not believe. 

“Funny trick, Damon. If you want me to come and help, you’re gonna have to try harder than that,” I laughed. 

“Y/n, I’m serious. He loves you and has ever since he met you,” Damon pressed. 

I shook my head. It seemed too good to be true. I just couldn’t bring myself to actually believe it. All the memories of us in 1863 through 1864 resurfaced after 100 years of trying to forget. Regret, guilt, anger, sadness, pain, happiness all surged through me as once, now making me snappy. 

“I beg to differ, Damon. Stefan was in love with Katherine. He obviously isn’t anymore since he killed her, but all that time I was in love with him and he chose her over me countless times. And now I’m supposed to just believe he has been in love with me all this time? Bullshit!” I exclaimed. 

Damon sighed frustratedly. “Look, you don’t have to believe me, but it’s the truth. Also, don’t you know that Katherine compelled us to love her? She also compelled Stefan to drink her blood. That’s why he’s still alive after being shot. Katherine is to blame, not Stefan.”

“Oh, please. The way he looked at her was not because of compulsion,” I laughed sourly. 

“Maybe in the beginning he loved her, but trust me when I say all that love for her went away whenever he saw you. You don’t know how many times Katherine had to compel him. And I know you’re still in love with him, despite thinking you’re a hard ass and whatnot, so please come to Mystic Falls and help. After you’re done, you can just leave. We won’t keep you here for any longer than we need,” Damon begged. 

I pursed my lips. The thoughts of Stefan being compelled to love Katherine wasn’t that far-fetched. She was manipulative and incredibly crazy. And all those times where you and Stefan were close to kissing, when you saw the love in his eyes… 

Maybe Damon’s right. I mean, he was definitely right about me still being in love with Stefan. A love like that never goes away. Not even in a 100 years. 

It wouldn’t kill me to see Damon again and catch up. I hadn’t seen him in over a decade and honestly, I had missed him. We had built a friendship ever since he saved me from dying all those years ago. I could also meet his friends and girlfriend, who he talked so highly about. And there was Stefan. Once I got him to turn it back on, which hopefully I am able to, then maybe we could also catch up. Maybe we two could even try to date. If he even wanted to. 

“Y/n? Are you there? I need an answer,” Damon’s voice broke me out of my daze. 

“Y-Yeah. I’ll… I’ll come to help,” I answered. 

“Good. I was worried you wouldn’t agree. I know how much you’ve changed,” Damon chuckled. 

I laughed with him. “Well, sometimes people can surprise you.”

“Yeah. Anyways, I gotta go. How fast can you be here?” Damon asked. 

“I can be there in 4 hours,” I said. “Great. See you then,” Damon said. 

“See you,” I said and hung up the call. 

I let out a long sigh, going on my phone and to Damon’s and I’s text receipts. I went to the photo receipts and scrolled down until I got to the photo of Stefan. 

A few months ago, out of plain curiosity, I had asked Damon for a picture of Stefan. I hadn’t seen him in 164 years and I wanted to see how he looked. I refrained myself from asking questions about his personal life, knowing that I probably wouldn’t get the answers I wanted. 

The picture was one that one of his friends, who happened to be my great grand niece, took. Stefan was in his football gear. His jersey was a rusty red colour and had the number 17 on it. He was carrying his helmet, his head tilted upwards as it looked like he just got done playing. His hair was a little disheveled, probably from wearing the helmet. He looked just as handsome as I had remembered. Nothing had changed about him. Well, his hair did, but I didn’t mind. I liked how he had combed it upwards and cut it short on the sides. He looked hot, to say the least.

I stared at the photo for a few more minutes before turning off my phone. If I wanted to get to Virginia in time, I would have to leave now. With being a vampire, I could use my vamp speed to get across the world quicker than a car, but I still needed rest times and to pace myself, too. 

I hurried up to my apartment and packed a backpack full of clothes for up to 3 days worth. If I ended up staying longer, I could just go and buy more clothes. (Or steal some). I packed some toiletries, changed out of my heels and into sneakers, and made my way out. I locked my apartment door, running down the stairwell and using my vampire speed to go to Mystic Falls. 

I arrived a little later than I had planned, but it was still early. Once I made it into Mystic Falls, I immediately made my way over to the Salvatore Boarding House. I walked up to the door, taking out my phone and checking myself out in the camera. If Stefan answered the door, I wanted to make sure he thought I looked good, and that he knew who I was. I hadn’t changed much appearance wise, but the way I dressed and the cold look in my eyes definitely changed. Once I felt satisfied with how I looked, I knocked on the door. 

I waited for a few moments before the door opened. My eyes bulged out of its sockets. 

“Katherine!” I shrieked. 

Katherine’s eyes widened. “I-I’m not Katherine. I’m-”

“You are so low. Thinking you can come here and manipulate Stefan and Damon even more by straightening and using your compulsion to make them forget you - which by the way, I don’t even know how you could do. I thought you were dead! Guess I’ll just have to kill you myself,” I growled, letting my fangs show. I went to run into the house, but the barrier blocked me. I put my hand up, trying to break through, but not getting successful. 

“Dammit. Guess I’ll just call Damon to let me in,” I rolled my eyes. 

“That won’t work, Y/n!” Damon’s voice sounded behind Katherine. 

“Why not? I thought you owned the house? And what are you doing letting this piece of trash live with you? You told me she was dead,” I gestured to Katherine. 

Damon sighed and looked to Katherine, giving her an apologetic look. He then looked to me. 

“I’m sorry for not telling you, I just thought that it would be better you met in person. I didn’t expect you to act like this, though,” Damon said. He then went next to Katherine. 

“Elena, this is Y/n Forbes. Y/n, this is Elena Gilbert. Katherine’s doppelgänger,” Damon gestured between the two of us. 

“Doppelgänger!” “Forbes!” Elena and I exclaimed the the same time. 

“No, no, no. Doppelgängers… They don’t exist. This… This has to be Katherine,” I scoffed. 

“I promise I’m not Katherine. I hate her, too,” Elena spoke. 

I narrowed my eyes at her, looking her up and down for a few second. “Hm… How can I trust you?”

“Because she’s my girlfriend, a vampire, and the only way you’re getting into this house if you be nice because she’s the one who owns it,” Damon explained, intertwining his fingers with Elena’s. 

I sighed, “Fine. Sorry. It’s nice to meet you, Elena.���

Elena gave me a kind smile. “You, too, Y/n. Go ahead and come in.”

I smiled back at her, taking a step and successfully entering the house. I walked into the foyer, looking around. 

“Wow, this place hasn’t changed. Besides the big flatscreen,” I chuckled. 

“Yeah, well, we weren’t gonna watch movies on a little box,” Damon said. 

“So, um… Forbes?” Elena asked.

I turned to her. “Yep. Has Stefan told you about me?”

“Yeah, he has, but um, I actually have a friend whose last name is Forbes,” Elena explained. 

“Oh, Caroline?” I guessed. “Yeah! How did you know?” Elena asked. 

“I keep up with the family. She’s my great grand niece, I believe,” I said.

“Wow, that’s really cool. You know, she’d be really happy to meet you.”

“I’m actually looking forward to meeting her, too,” I spoke honestly. “Speaking of meeting people, where’s Stefan.” “I was hoping you saw him on your way in,” Damon said. 

“Nope. Then again, I wasn’t really focused on scouring the town. I thought he’d be here,” I shrugged. 

“Ugh, great,” Damon muttered. “Hey, it’s okay. Why don’t we get you introduced to everybody. Eight heads is always better than three,” Elena chuckled. 

I watched as she leaned into Damon, putting her hand on his chest to calm him. I smirked at this. 

“Sounds good. But first, I’d like to get some food, please. And I mean real human food,” I said. 

“No problem! There’s a restaurant called The Grill we can all meet up at. Let me ask everyone if they’re free,” Elena said, stepping out of Damon’s embrace and walking away. 

I sauntered over to Damon. He frowned once he noticed the look on my face. 

“What now?” He asked. 

“You seem pretty smitten,” I commented. “Yeah, well, Elena’s great,” Damon shrugged. 

“So she seems. She’s very different than Katherine.”

“Yeah, that’s what makes her so great. I’m so in love with her,” Damon sighed dreamily, staring at Elena as she was talking to someone on the phone. Elena turned to us and gave Damon a smile before turning back to her conversation. 

“You definitely have a type,” I chuckled. “And you’ve been in love with the same guy for almost two centuries,” Damon said. 

I gave him a sarcastic smile. “Yeah, well, at least Stefan isn’t a descendant of a bitch.”

Damon opened his mouth to speak again, but Elena interrupted us. 

“Alright! Ready to go?” 

“Yep,” I smiled, turning on my heel. 

We drove in Elena’s SUV to The Grill. 

“This is quaint,” I remarked as we walked into the restaurant. 

“It has really good food, don’t worry. My friends are sitting over there.” Elena pointed to a big booth that was filled with four people. 

I followed her and Damon to the table. 

“Hey, guys!” Elena exclaimed. 

“Hey!” A boy with brunette hair smiled and stood up to hug her. 

“Woah, who’s this?” A rather attractive, darker-haired boy asked, looking me up and down. 

“I’m Y/n Forbes. Who are you?” I smirked, sitting down at the table.

As soon as I said my last name, they were shouting questions. 

“Forbes? As in like, Caroline?”

“Are you Caroline’s sister? Caroline! You have a hot sister!”

“I don’t have a sister, you idiot!” “How do you know Elena and Damon?”

“Are you single?”

“You’re a vampire! Caroline, she’s, like, your great aunt! Emily told me about her.”

I smiled at the green-eyed girl who came to the conclusion. “Correct. Bonnie, right?”

“U-Uh, yeah. How did you know?” Bonnie asked. 

“Because I was alive when she was alive. I was born in 1847 and turned into a vampire in 1864,” I explained. 

“You were friends with Damon and Stefan?” Caroline asked. 

“More or less. I had an arranged marriage to Stefan, but Katherine ‘The Psycho’ Pierce got to him first. Not like he loved me anyways,” I muttered. 

“Wait! You’re Y/n? Like Stefan’s Y/n?” The boy who hugged Elena asked. 

My eyes widened, heat crawling up my cheeks. “W-What do you mean, Stefan’s Y/n?”

“Stefan used to talk about you all the time before he turned his humanity off. Even when he was with Elena,” the boy chuckled. 

I raised my brows and turned to Elena. “You dated them both? Man, the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.”

“Shut it,” Damon snapped. I smirked and turned back to the group. “So… Stefan does love me?”

“He’s crazy about you,” Bonnie nodded. 

“Oh,” I smiled softly. “Good to, uh… Good to know it.” “See, I wasn’t lying when I told you,” Damon nudged me. “Yeah, yeah, whatever,” I rolled eyes. 

“Wait, wait. So… you’re my great aunt?” Caroline asked. 

“Yes, I am. Nice to meet you, Caroline,” I smiled at her. “Wow… Wow! I-I… This is so cool. I, I-I don’t know what to say,” Caroline stammered. 

“Tell me something, how was sleeping with Klaus Mikaelson?” I asked. 

Everyone around us either started laughing or their eyes bulged out of their head. For Caroline, her face went all red and the latter. 

“H-How do you know about that?” She asked. 

“Bex and I are buddies,” I shrugged. “Oh,” Caroline blushed. 

“We can talk about it over lunch sometime. When we catch up.”

Caroline’s face broke into a small smile. “Yeah, I’d actually like that.”

“Good. So uh, who is this?” I pointed to the blonde boy and brunette boy. 

“Oh, I’m Matt and this is Jeremy,” the blonde introduced himself. 

“Oh, my God! You’re Matt? Bex talks very highly of you,” I winked. 

Matt blushed and looked down. “T-Thanks.”

“Mhm. Anyways, it’s nice to meet you all. Damon has told me absolutely nothing about you,” I said. 

“Yeah, he’s never mentioned you. We all thought you were dead,” Tyler said. 

“Yeah, well, that’s because my dear brother never knew she was alive. Only I did,” Damon explained. 

“Why didn’t you tell him?” Elena asked.

“Well, I thought that Stefan would end up with Katherine, and I couldn’t stand to see that. It was already so painful watching him in 1864 with her. I couldn’t do it for 100 plus years. I guess she left him once he got shot, though,” I explained. 

“Oh, I see. So, you like him, too?” Jeremy asked. 

“Well, of course! Who couldn’t I mean, I can’t blame you for falling in love with him,” I smirked at Elena.

“Yeah, he’s a great guy,” she admitted. 

“Mhm. Anyways, yeah, I like him. I’ve been in love with him for the last 164 years.” “Wow, long time,” Tyler chuckled. 

“Well, when it’s the right person, love lasts forever,” I smiled. “Speaking of Stefan, do any of you know where he is?”

“Nope,” Bonnie sighed. “Hm. Why did he turn off his humanity, again?” I asked. 

“That might have been our bad,” Damon sighed, pulling Elena close to him. 

“Oh, my- Seriously?” I scoffed. “Not our fault Hero Hair can’t handle rejection,” Damon rolled his eyes. 

“Damon, be nice,” Elena slapped his chest. 

“Elena, he doesn’t have one ounce of nice in him,” I frowned. 

“I’m starting to really like her,” Bonnie smiled. I gave her a playful wink, looking back at Damon. 

“You were a lot nicer in 1864. Maybe you’d want to gain some of that kindness back for Stefan, huh?” Damon suggested. 

“Well, maybe if you left me to die then I wouldn’t be here wasting my time, trying to help you out!” I crossed my arms. 

“We all know you would do anything for Stefan. I know your attitude has changed, but you’re still that little, quiet farm girl who didn’t have the guts to tell Stefan how you really felt!” Damon exclaimed. 

“Oh, yeah?” I scoffed. I moved closer to him, looking up at him straight in the eyes. “Well, you’re still that pathetic, lonely guy with mommy and daddy issues who ruins everything for everyone because you just can’t stand to see anyone happy.”

“You wanna see how pathetic I am?” Damon asked. Veins began to circulate under his eyes. 

“Oh, I’d love to. I’d show you how little and quiet I am now,” I challenged, hissing at him. I let my fangs come out, lunging towards him. I wrapped my hands around his neck and used my vamp speed to ram him into the wall. 

“Careful, Forbes. There are people watching,” Damon taunted. 

“Yeah, I bet they’ll enjoy when I kill you,” I grinned.  “You don’t have a stake, smart ass,” he chuckled. 

“Oh, I know. But I can still do this,” I put my hands around his jaw and started to twist when Damon took ahold of me and sped me out of the restaurant, throwing me against a lamp post. 

I groaned in pain, but recovered quickly. “Good move. Afraid your girlfriend will see you get ripped to shreds?”

“More like afraid of Caroline seeing you die right before her eyes,” Damon shot back. 

I gave him a sarcastic smile and looked to my left, seeing a tree. I sped to it and broke off a branch, running towards Damon. I aimed the stake right for his heart, but I ended up running right past him. I stopped, feeling a pair of strong, warm arms around me. 

“Damon! Let me go so I can kill you!” I fought against him. 

“I’m not Damon, sweetheart.”

I froze immediately, my mouth agape. I looked up slowly, my whole body giving out as I stared into Stefan’s eyes. The same forest-green eyes I never thought I would ever see again. He had a big grin on his face, his pearly white teeth blinding my eyes.

“S-Stefan?” I asked, my voice giving out due to the wonder and excitement I was currently feeling.

“Hey, Y/n,” he greeted.

As soon as he said my name, my legs gave out from under me. Stefan quickly put his hands on my waist, holding me up. It seemed as though the whole zoo was swarming in my stomach as he gripped the sides of my body. 

“Careful there. You might fall and break an ankle,” he chuckled. 

“Yeah, well, I’m a vampire. I think I’ll survive,” I joked back. My put my hands on his shoulders, taking a step back so I could look at him. 

He was wearing a black, leather jacket, a red shirt, and dark-wash jeans. He looked so much more grown up with this outfit, but still had that boyish charm. 

“I know. I was quite surprised when I had to figure that out. All on my own!” Stefan exclaimed the last few words, looking behind me. 

I turned around and saw Damon walking towards us, rolling his eyes in his dramatic-Damon way. 

“Sorry, brother. It was her who wanted to kept a secret,” Damon pointed to me. 

I glared at him and Stefan scoffed. 

“Why?” Stefan asked.

“I…I just didn’t want to see you with Katherine. But it looks like I never had to worry about that,” I chuckled, looking down in embarrassment. 

“Yeah, my love for her was all compulsion,” Stefan said.  “So I’ve heard. Damon told me,” I smiled. 

“So, you wanna get outta here?” Stefan asked, a mischievous grin on his lips. 

I opened my mouth to answer, but Stefan picked me up bridal style and ran off. I shrieked in surprise as we stopped suddenly in the woods. 

“Stefan!” I exclaimed. “What the hell!” “I thought you’d want to be alone, so we could do this,” he muttered before putting his lips against mine. 

My eyes fluttered closed in an instant. “Oh, Stefan,” I moaned. I had been waiting all my life to kiss him and it was finally happening. It was perfect. 

His lips were so soft and worked expertly against mine. Stefan backed me up into a tree, his hands gripping my waist. His fingers slid under my shirt, goosebumps arising from his touch. I pushed my body flush against his, my hands raking themselves through his hair roughly, tugging once his tongue slipped into my mouth. I let out a few pants before beginning to fight my tongue with his. My tongue explored his mouth, tasting bourbon. Stefan’s right hand skimmed up my side, his fingers running under my bra. His left hand went to my ass, gripping it suddenly. 

“Ah!” I gasped, throwing my head back against the tree. 

“God, I’ve missed you,” Stefan mumbled, pressing his lips to my cheek and trailing down. 

“S-Stef,” I panted, peering down to see him kissing my neck. I whimpered as he  sucked on the sweet spot across from my ear lobe. I pressed my chest up against him impossibly closer. 

His left hand went down to my thigh, lifting me up swiftly. I wrapped my legs around his waist, feeling his bludge right against my core. 

“Hm, Stefan,” I mumbled, my eyes closing as he peppered kisses down to the top of my breasts. “You’re uh, you’re less shy than I remember,” I chuckled. 

“Yeah well, living 164 years in pain and guilt changes you. Having my humanity turned off helps me be more outgoing, too,” he looked up and winked at me. 

His humanity was still off. Shit. 

“Stefan,” I said, lifting my head up and putting my hands on his shoulder. “Stefan, stop,” I ordered, pushing his head away from my body. 

He looked up at me, confused. “What? I thought you would want this after all these years?”

I chuckled, “I do. I really do, but not yet. We have to get your humanity turned back on.”

Stefan frowned immediately, dropping me with no warning. My back rubbed against the tree roughly, making me hiss in pain. I landed on my feet and looked at Stefan with a glare. 

“What the hell?!” “No! You don’t get to say that. I thought you came back for me!” Stefan exclaimed. 

“I did! I came back to help you,” I explained. 

“I don’t need help your help, Y/n. I’ve been away from you for 164 years. I’ve survived just fine,” he spat. 

“Oh, really? ‘Cause to me it seems like when things get too hard, you just give up. That’s not the Stefan I know. You’re strong. You fight. You’re sensible and not impulsive!”

“You don’t know me, Y/n. That’s not me anymore.”

“Not with your humanity turned off!”

“Yeah, well what about you? You’re randomly fighting Damon, strutting into places like you own them, feeding on whoever you want? Yeah, I’ve noticed that, by the way. You’re supposed to the kind, calm, polite girl,” Stefan shot back. 

“Well almost dying and having the love of my life love another woman changes you!” I yelled. 

“I didn’t love her! I have always loved you!”  “It didn’t seem like that back then! You never even gave us a chance, even before Katherine! Do you realise how much it hurt me? Seeing you running with Katherine in the fields, kissing her, holding her?” I asked, tears beginning to cloud my vision. 

“I’m not with her anymore! I haven’t been ever since 1864. We can live life together now. I only want you. I’ve only wanted you since I met you,” Stefan said softly, stepping towards me and holding my hands into his.  “I want you, too, Stefan. But not like this. I know it’s been hard with you. I know that you’re a ripper, I know that you’ve suffered so many loses in life. I know how much you try to be a good person. But you can’t do that with your humanity off,” I said, looking him directly in the eyes. 

“I don’t want to feel again! I’m fine with being like this. If you really loved me and wanted me, then you’d accept my decision,” he glared at me. 

“Hey, that’s not fair! I just want you to live a happy, normal vampire life. I don’t want you to have to give up, because that’s not who you are, Stefan. I may not know exactly who you are now, and I apologise for that because I made that decision to not seek you out, but I do know that you still have those amazing, kind-hearted, compassionate qualities that make you into beautiful man that I fell in love with all those years ago. I would love to spend the rest of eternity with you. I would love to catch up with you and learn how you have changed over the last century and a half. But I want to do that when you can actually feel,” I spoke, tears rolling down my face. 

“I can feel!” Stefan protested. 

I sighed, putting my hand on his chest, right where his heart was. I looked him in the eyes, getting lost in his green irises. “Do you feel anything when I say I love you? Stefan, I am so madly, deeply in love with you.”

I searched for any sign of compassion in his eyes, but I saw none. 

“See? You think you feel, but you really don’t. I can help y-”

“No. You obviously don’t truly love me if you can’t tell how happy I am with no humanity. It was a mistake saving you from Damon,” Stefan muttered. In a blink, he disappeared. I watched as he sped away from me, leaving me cold and lonely.

“Stefan!” I shouted, my voice cracking.

“Well, looks like bringing you all the way out here was a bust,” Damon’s voice sounded behind me. 

I balled my hands into fists and turned on my heel to him, stomping up to him. 

“Do you know how hard that was?” I asked. 

“Oh yeah, making out with him against a tree was a hard, I’m sure,” he rolled his eyes. 

“No! Being the reason why he won’t change is hard, Damon. This was the first time I’ve seen him in 164 years. I poured my heart out to him, just for him to leave me. Do you know how hard that is? D-Do you understand how much pain and anger I feel right now? I…I feel like this is 1864 all over again,” I started to sob. 

Elena and Caroline ran over to me, pulling me into their embrace. I put my head on Caroline’s shoulders, crying into her cardigan. 

Damon sighed loudly. “Okay, fine. I’m sorry. I do know how hard it is. I spent four years pining for Elena. It was hard seeing her with Stefan. But I know that you can turn his humanity back on.”

“And how? ‘Cause what I just didn’t didn’t seem to work,” I sniffled. 

“Well, we might have to kill you,” Damon answered.

Caroline pulled away from me and turned to Damon. “What! No, you are not killing her. I just met her, she’s my relative!”

“Yeah, Damon. That might make Stefan want to keep his humanity on even more,” Elena frowned. 

“I know, I know! I didn’t mean actually kill Y/n. I just meant that we get Stefan drunk so he’s delirious and angry, one of us - preferably me - sticks a stake in her heart, but she won’t die because Jeremy is going to give Y/n his ring,” Damon smiled. 

I furrowed my brows. “A ring? What’s a ring gonna do?”

“Oh, it’s the Gilbert family ring. It protects you from dying,” Elena explained. 

“Ah, I see. Very cool,” I chuckled. 

“Yeah, it is,” she smiled. 

“Alright, well, before you stake me, I’m gonna need to get drunk, too,” I said. 

“Already one step ahead of ya,” Damon grinned, pulling a bottle of bourbon out from his jacket. 

“Do you always carry that around?” I chuckled, walking up to him. 

“Sometimes,” he shrugged. 

“Good to know. Now, let’s get this plan into motion,” I said, snatching the bottle from Damon’s hand. 

————

I paced around Damon’s room, listening in on Jeremy and Tyler’s conversation with Stefan downstairs. The boys were in charge of getting Stefan drunk, which so far, sounded like they were succeeding. Then when Damon walked into the room, I would flirt with him - gross - and Elena would walk in and start a big fight. Then Jeremy and Tyler would lead Stefan up here to see the fight and when Stefan comes into the room, Elena then stakes me. It was a pretty good plan, honestly.

“Alright, he’s pretty drunk,” Damon muttered, walking into the room. “Ready?”

“I was born ready,” I nodded. 

I took a deep breath and put on a flirtatious smile. “You know, Damon, I can’t blame Katherine or Elena. You Salvatore boys are quite the pair.” “What do you mean, Y/n?” Damon asked, acting totally clueless. 

“Well,” I prompted, strutting over to him. “I just mean that I understand how Katherine and Elena wanted you both. I mean look at you. Tall with soft, black hair. Gorgeous blue eyes and a smile that makes all the girl’s knees go weak. And with that big ego of yours, you’re sure to win any girl.” 

I put my hand on his chest, looking him in the eyes while my hand trailed down his shirt and to the waistband of his jeans. I leaned up to his ear, darting my tongue around the outside. “I wonder what else is big.”

“Y/n?!” Elena shrieked. 

I looked at her and gave her a kind smile before going back to my role. 

“Elena!” Damon exclaimed, putting his hand on mine and pushing me away. 

“What the hell are you doing?” Elena asked. 

“Well, I obviously can’t have Stefan, so I was just thinking I could have Damon! I guess Katherine’s blood in me makes me like a little,” I giggled. 

In my head I was rolling my eyes and gagging, though. 

“You can’t have him! Look, I know you’re Caroline’s relative and Damon’s friend, but Damon’s my boyfriend. You’re not allowed to take him,” Elena said. 

“Aw, poor little Elena. You know, you’re nothing like Katherine. So whiny and mellow. I wonder what you’ll do when I do this,” I smirked. 

Just then, Stefan, Jeremy and Tyler came into the doorway. I tried so hard not to look at Stefan, looking at Elena instead. I went up to Damon, keeping eye contact when I began to press my lips to Damon’s lips. My eyes flickered to Stefan’s quickly and I saw the hurt flash through his eyes. I kept my emotions in check and closed my eyes, wrapping my hands in Damon’s hair and kissing him. 

“You bitch!” Elena exclaimed. I then heard the wood crack and I braced myself for pain.

“Woah, Damon, watch out!” Jeremy exclaimed. 

Damon moved out of the way, just in time for Elena’s stake to pierce me. 

“Ah!” I squeaked, holding the stake that was right in the middle of my heart. 

As I fell down, I saw Stefan close and open his eyes, tears then beginning to run down his face. Tears ran down my face, too. Not just from the pain, but from him crying. He ran over to me, falling down to his knees. I stared at his face, seeing him sob and scream at everyone above me. His hands went under my body, lifting me up and onto his lap. That was the last thing I felt before I died. 

————

I sat up and gasped, my eyes flying open. I looked around me, seeing absolutely no one. 

“Yeah, kill me then leave me. Good plan, guys,” I muttered. 

“I’m here,” Stefan’s hoarse voice sounded beside me. 

I turned my head, shocked to see him. “I-I didn’t see you.”

“Yeah, I um… I was kind of hiding. I was afraid when you woke up you would be mad at me,” he admitted sheepishly. He sat on the edge of the bed. I moved to where I was sitting next to him. 

“Why would I be mad at you?” I asked. 

“Because I…I didn’t turn my humanity on when you said you loved me. It had to take you dying to turn it back on. I’m such a bad person, Y/n. I should have been able to turn it on when I first saw you. I-I thought you were dead all this time and when I first saw you, the first thing that came to my mind was that I wanted to make out with you. I’m horrible,” he explained, tears beginning to roll down his face. 

I gave him a kind smile, putting my hand on his. “I’m not mad at you, Stef. I’ll admit, it hurt me when me confessing how I felt wasn’t enough to make you turn your humanity on, but I understand. You probably saw me and when relief washed over you, you knew that you couldn’t lose me again. But once you saw Elena stake me, that fear of losing me took over and made you turn it back on.”

Stefan nodded, sniffling. “Yeah, you’re right.”

“I know I am. And for the record, I wanted to make out with you two when I first saw you,” I chuckled. 

Stefan laughed with me, wiping the tears off of his face. He looked at me, a smile on his face. “I’m sorry for not confessing my feelings for you in 1863, or 1864. I just… I just wasn’t sure you liked me back. You seemed to have every boy in town wrapped around your finger. I was just a scrawny, shy kid who knew didn’t know how to talk to such a beautiful girl like you. But then Katherine came and ruined everything.”

“I know, it’s okay, Stef,” I gave him a kind smile. “I’m sorry for everything, too. I should have confessed my feelings earlier. I was so sacred and nervous, too. I mean, you were this handsome - totally not scrawny -, kind boy. I never had met anyone as nice as you before.”

“Well, I wanted to be nice for you. I really liked you,” he smiled. 

I giggled, “Good. I’m glad. The thing I regret most, though, is that I never tried to seek you out. I regret telling Damon to lie to you. Because otherwise, we could’ve already been together. Getting married, going on dates, cuddling, having hot vamp sex.”

Stefan laughed at my last few words. He turned to fully face me, taking both my hands in his. “Let’s not regret anything anymore. I don’t want to live my life in regret and guilt anymore. Let’s start new, okay? Because now, we have an eternity together, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.”

I nodded with an eager smile. “Me, too.”

“So, uh, speaking of that hot vamp sex. Wanna have some now or do you need time to uh, heal from dying?” Stefan asked with a playful smile. 

“Hm, no. I think I’m good,” I giggled. 

Stefan pressed his lips to mine, putting his hands on my hips and setting me on top of the bed. I moved up to where the pillows were while Stefan climbed on top of me. I put my hands on his neck, bringing his face close to mine. 

“I love you, Stefan,” I smiled, butterflies swarming in my stomach. 

“I love you, too, Y/n.”

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