#ik it's cringe I didn't try super hard to make it not so

[suna1suna1]

The Open Backpack | MD Oneshot

Mild finale spoilers!

640 words

N/Uzi (Established)

N/Uzi/V (Kinda, not quite established yet lol)

Putting this here bc it's silly and I'm playing with turning it into a comic at some point but I don't want to make a whole new thing for it on ao3 so hi!

Uzi kept a lot of things in her backpack. Many of these things would have had V teasing her in a heartbeat if she were ever to find out, and N just wouldn't get it unless she showed them to him. Which she was not doing. Nope, not even a little. 

But most of all, she couldn't let them know she was into magical girl anime. If anyone found out about it, her reputation as the emo girl would be ruined, she was sure of it. 

Though in hindsight, maybe she shouldn't have left the bag open in the middle of class. 

Lizzy found it first, reaching over to the open backpack and pulling out a very battered--very pink--volume of Mariner Satellite. "What's this?" she asked, her voice thick with disgust. 

"Mine!" Uzi screeched as she snatched it from Lizzy's hands. "Stay out of my frickin' stuff!" 

The teacher cleared his throat, leveling both of them with a very tired, very I'm so done look. Uzi shoved the manga back in her bag and huffed as she looked pointedly away from Lizzy, pulling her bag under her desk.  

Someone tapped her shoulder, and Uzi's heart skipped a beat when she saw N looking at her curiously from where he sat behind her. "What's that?" he asked quietly. 

A warning popped up on Uzi's interface that she was blushing, and she looked away quickly. "Nothing. Just a super cool ninja manga! Yeah!" 

"Ooh, neat!" N replied, and Uzi's stomach dropped as she realized her mistake. "Could you show me after class?" 

Uzi panicked and nodded. 

Uh oh... 

Maybe he'll forget about it, Uzi told herself as the clock ticked closer and closer to the end of class. Or I can escape before he realizes I'm gone! 

But he didn't, and she couldn't. There was a bottleneck as the last class of the day ended and all the other students clamored to leave. N was next to her immediately, ready to take her hand (gross, PDA...) and leave the room with her. "So what's that manga? Ninjas sound cool!" 

Uzi laughed nervously. "Uh... Yeah! They are!" 

"It's not about ninjas," said Lizzy with a smirk. "It's all about the sparkle." 

"Ooh!" N exclaimed. "Like the stuff V's been drawing?" 

Uzi gave him a bewildered look. "Drawing?" she asked. 

"Yeah! We've been using that manga drawing book. V's getting really good! She likes the magical girls and stuff, especially if they look like spies." 

"Huh... I never took V for a magical girl fan." 

"Uh huh, because you're oblivious." 

V stood in the doorway, an eyebrow arched at Uzi. "I don't talk about Mariner Satellite with you around because I know you'll be weird about it, but I know you've snuck into my locker." 

Uzi blushed guiltily. "I wasn't looking at the posters. I just wanted one of the arms you keep in there." 

N narrowed his eyes at V. "V, I thought we agreed no more killing--"

"I'm not, dummy," V interrupted. "I broke into Doll's stash. She had a crap-ton of drones stockpiled." 

"Oh! Right." 

"Anyway," Uzi said. "...I guess if V's already into it... You guys... maybe wanna watch the anime with me...? Sometime...?" 

N grinned. "Anime date!" 

"It's not a date!" Uzi and V looked at each other, startled that they'd both said it in sync. Uzi didn't miss the blush lines on V's visor before she turned away. "Whatever," V continued. "Remake or original?" 

"Original," Uzi replied. "The remake follows the manga better, but the vibes just aren't the same." 

V shrugged and walked back out through the door, looking over her shoulder. "Are you guys coming or what?" 

N grabbed Uzi's hand in his, offering her a smile while she tried to ignore the swarm of butterflies in her stomach as she left the classroom with him. 

[mxltifxnd0m]

boyfriend headcanons ⟡ d. winchester

pairings: dean winchester x reader, dean winchester x gn! reader

word count: 1.2K

warnings: no use of 'y/n', fluff, one suggestive comment, a smidge of angst, reader is to be implied as a hunter, lowercase intended

a/n: SURPRISE! i made the dean version of bf headcanons. i stayed up until 3am making this bc my mind had ideas and i didn't want to lose them lol (ik im crazy 😁) also technically my first fic for dean lmao

i hope you all enjoy and please reblog and comment, it really helps out!!

𝘥𝘦𝘢𝘯 𝘸𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘮𝘢𝘴𝘵𝘦𝘳𝘭𝘪𝘴𝘵

⟡ before dating you:

was super attracted to you before he even said a single word to you 

it was definitely lust at first sight (he wouldn't have minded sleeping with you) 

then you opened your mouth, and he was like, oh man, they're gonna be trouble, aren't they (as if he isn't trouble as well) 

you guys bickered a lot. like A LOT to the point where sam would have to remove himself from the room or get in between you two in order to stop the bickering 

the bickering got so bad that sam had to lock the two of you in the motel room sam and he were sharing and didn't let you guys out until the two of you could have a civil conversation 

you guys eventually stopped bickering out of malice after finding common ground between the two of you 

there was bickering but it read more of an old married couple bantering with one another 

then somehow, you guys became friends, and the physical attraction that dean had to you had morphed into something else and then he realized that he liked you 

he only confessed his feelings when you had a close call with a ghoul and blurted out his feelings to you when patching you up 

⟡ dating dean winchester:

you would describe dating dean as a roller coaster, but like all relationships, it has its ups and downs 

it was hard to have vulnerable conversations with dean without the infamous hunters' helper (alcohol lol)

you guys fought a lot at the beginning of your relationship bc you were fighting tooth and nail to get him to at least try and talk to you 

you soon realized that you would have to take a different approach to it and eventually let him come to you when he needed it 

it took a while, but once he put his walls down and trusted you, it seemed like a weight was lifted off of him when he finally told you a sliver of what was going on in his head 

⟡ soft dean!

now, this is where we get soft! dean 

we all know that dean is secretly a softy at heart, and you see it in the more quiet moments with him

he'll stare at you when the two of you are researching or when you're bustling around the kitchen, prepping and cooking lunch for the three of you 

and without fail, a cute blush will appear on his face, making his freckles pop against the red hue of his cheeks as you catch him staring at you  "what are you looking at?" you asked with a wide smile on your face.  "just you sweetheart." he tries to play off his flustered state with a wink, but you shook your head, knowing he was a bit embarrassed he got caught staring.

speaking about getting flustered, he loves teasing you and trying to get you flustered with fleeting touches, flirty gestures, and outright whispering the filthiest things that he wants to do you during the most inconvenient times, like if you're on a case or researching 

what he didn't take into account when he started it was that you would dish it right back at him

he loves it when you keep him on your toes 

⟡ pet names

OH another thing, PET NAMES  he loves using pet names for you 

we have the usual sweetheart, babe (not baby bc you know you come in a close third after sam and the impala) (he's tried arguing that's not true, but you knew it and understood you came after both of them).

he would def call you honey, beautiful, angel, and some variation of your name/nickname 

if he's in a playful mood, he'd probably call you borderline cringe pet names like pumpkin, sweet cheeks, pookie these are the ones you roll your eyes at since he knows you hate them

⟡ love langauges

now, his love languages, his main ones to give are acts of service, physical affection, and quality time, while the ones he likes to receive are physical touch, words of affirmation, and quality time 

⟡ physical touch

now, physical touch is a given for dean  he's a very tactical man and is a sucker for it 

when he can, he'll always be touching you, holding your hand or resting on your shoulder, thighs pressed together while sitting together eating in a diner booth, cuddling while watching a movie or always being in his arms while sleeping together, making out wherever whenever (his favorite place is obviously in the backseat of baby) 

but there are days when he needs physical affection from you, and you gladly give it to him, and he's a sucker for you when you play with his hair 

PDA, man is shameless with the PDA  he doesn't care he will kiss you no matter what and when he can  he loves you, and even if he's afraid to say it, he'll definitely show it to you 

⟡ acts of service

which brings me to acts of service  dean will do anything for you even if you didn't ask for him to do it  makes breakfast for you almost every morning, gives you his flannel when you're cold (he loves to see you in his clothes), replaces the lightbulb in your lamp when you mentioned it was flickering, taking care of you when you get drunk (he did this even before the two of you started to date and bickered the entire time), but the list goes on and on 

dean just likes to take care of the people he loves (it was practically ingrained into him at a young age) 

⟡ quality time

he also likes spending time with you it doesn't matter if the two of you aren't talking and working on your own tasks; he likes being in your presence (it soothes him)  with how crazy his life is, he loves the mundane things/tasks he does with you

sometimes, he'll go run errands with you, not bc he's bored and wants to avoid research (which is actually the main excuse at times) but, he likes the sense of normalcy it brings him when the two of you are together, and when you spend time with him 

⟡ words of affirmation

now, dean would never admit it to you (or to himself), but he needs to be reassured 

his mind is a dangerous place for him, and he can find himself drowning in his self-deprecating and self-destructive thoughts (these are also the days he needs you the most, and your touch is grounding to him) 

your words act as a lifeboat for him in the chaotic storm that is his mind and calms them down significantly 

he slowly works on his self-esteem and self-worth, but with your help, it's a little easier for him 

⟡ protective

this is a given, but he is SO protective of you 

dean is a fiercely protective person at his core and will do anything and everything to keep the people that he loves safe, and now that includes you 

some arguments were had when dean was being overbearing and flat out refusing to let you go on certain hunts with them bc it was too dangerous. you had to remind him that you were a hunter before you met him and will continue being one until the day you decide to try and retire or die 

he doesn't like it when you hunt alone, and so he always tries to come with you or send sam with you if he's indisposed for some reason 

he's only like this bc he can't lose one of the best things in his life 

[thedarkmongoose]

SPOILERS: i have mixed feelings about the bear s3 but knowing that s3 & s4 were written/filmed at the same time makes sense. s4 will prob answer s3's q's. (A LOT was left open-ended) usually i love that, but it felt like the show lost itself in certain places, esp the self-indulgent finale. all stories are indulgent to some degree, but too much decadence rarely leaves room for substance.

and i get why they tried to do the chef's table thing, but other than andrea, syd, and luca, everyone else's acting was disjointed and trite. but i loved ep 1; it was an ethereal, artsy, meditative piece (peace) that was necessary after the chaotic s2 finale. however, as a big fan of the show, it was hard for me to finish the eps.

the standout in s3 FOR SURE was tina's ep - directed by ayo. glad we got her backstory. personally i liked her anxiety-inducing job hunt bc it's really like that irl, esp for older woc. the sobbing while eating a free sandwich was relatable, and the mikey convo was super impactful. but as much as i loved the ep, it still felt superficial compared to s2 'forks' (richie) or 'honeydew' (marcus). we never see her son again either; all we get is tina yelling at him to quiet down.

then there was marcus's mother's funeral which seemed like it was going to be more central to the plot than it was. i wish we got more. and claire is still one of the most underwritten characters EVER. nothing about her or the mis en scène really sells it that she's a doctor lol. and the scene with the faks trying to apologize on carmy's behalf was beyond cringe. i like matty matheson - i have his cookbook, but there was entirely too many faks in s3.

and let's be real: where was ebra & sweeps? ebra has such an interesting story that i'm HOPING we get to see in s4. sweeps too - he tried out for the chicago cubs! but on a positive note, i loved the chemistry between syd/luca. it was v sweet and organic. wonder if they'll be a thing in s4 since luca is carmy's foil. too bad marcus was barely in s3, tho the hug between him & luca at the party was cute. syd's meltdown mirroring carmy's in s2 was also a nice touch.

idk how to feel about sugar's labor scene. most praise it, but it didn't hit the same for me. donna's over-acting (the whole series) is really distracting and i can't take her seriously. ik she's supposed to be mentally unwell, but it borders on cartoonish. the hospital moment was heartwarming, but again, artificially. and pete was so underwritten too, just so they could have that mom moment. i liked the scene with him and syd tho. it felt authentically awkward.

i also understand what they were trying to do with the finale, but it was a flop for me. the scene with andrea/carmy staring out into the chicago night was introspective and beautiful, but the msg doesn't hit all the way bc we have a group of wealthy celeb chefs saying it's okay to stop while you're ahead and enjoy life while you can. every second counts. unfortunately for those who are not celeb chefs, it's not that easy to simply "enjoy life."

on one hand, i agree that food is life and restaurants have been community "third places" forever (essential to life itself; historically, like when revolutionaries would gather at pubs or cafes). however, do i think that fine dining and the "art" that comes with it is necessary? no. if there were more spots like the original beef/bear in the world tho, that would be a good thing.

[destinyc1020]

I think a lot of the Austin hate now stems from Jacob fans, bt i find many of Jacobs "fans" to b very fleeting. i think the voice comments will always b there bt a lot of ppl got over the unjustified rumors of him cheating on Vanessa and ppl do think he/Kaia gerbers age gap is weird (ik i do 🥴) bt Austin just got famous from Elvis last yr n I dnt really think Kaia is that relevant in pop culture so some ppl will point it out bt I think their kinda overlooked as a couple. I think over time he will b fine though his fanbase seems to b strong

Yea, the Elvis/Jacob/Austin comparisons were bound to happen, so that was a given. 🤷🏾‍♀️

I still don't really get the voice thing tbh. Yea, his voice might be slightly different, but if you compare it to 7 years ago, his voice/accent basically sounds the same. He just has an older voice now, and maaaybe a less hard enunciation of certain words probably due to the Elvis vocal training all those years. But other than that?? People drove that voice thing into the ground imo.

Look, even Tom has an older voice now. That's what normally happens when you age. Your voice (yes, even women's voices) change a little, and usually get deeper with age.

But yea, I'm sure eventually people will get over it with him just like they got over the Anne Hathaway hate...

I'll address the Kaustin and Vanessa stuff below 👇:

RE: Kaustin....

I've already talked about what I think about them as a couple on my blog several times before... 🤐 Honestly? They as a couple have always seemed a bit OFF to me (and I'm not just talking about the age gap thing ; which is cringe in itself) and idk why. Look, I've tried to like them as a couple, and her, but I just can't get over the nepobaby-ism, and the weirdness of that family. I actually used to think they were real (and maybe they are?🤷🏾‍♀️) but this year, certain things about their relationship have seemed a bit contrived and pap-heavy??

Not only that, but they barely even look like they're close friends w/each other half the time ROTFL. 😅🤣 Their vibe is so off to me lol. I'm sorry. But the gut doesn't lie. They look so bored and dead w/each other sometimes. I keep saying that Vanessa is the one who got away... 👀 Want proof? Just do a simple Google search photo comparison of his "couple" pics with V and his "couple" pics with K. That's all I'll say lol... 🤭

But hey, if they're happy, then I'm happy for them!? 🤷🏾‍♀️ Idc who he dates honestly, just as long as she's a kind person, is genuine, down to earth, and is dating him for the right reasons.

Here's some tea☕for you.... There's been some in the fandom who spilled that supposedly, Kaia went after HIM. 👀 That wouldn't surprise me lol.

RE: Vanessa...

Yea, I never fully believed the cheating rumors tbh, cuz things just didn't make sense. And no woman I know would be hanging out with the girl who her bf of 9 years cheated on her with. Add to the fact that their families (esp her sister?) still follow each other?🤔

Also add to the fact that Ash Tisdale is still SUPER close to Austin, and I know she is/was a close friend of V's as well, so I doubt she'd be hanging tight with him if he cheated on her friend like that. 🥴 So things just never made sense?

More tea ☕ for you....Take this with a HUGE FAT GRAIN of salt (because who knows if any of this stuff is true?), but word on the street is that supposedly, Vanessa was the one who broke up with Austin. 👀

IF that is true, then that would explain a LOT. Supposedly, it had to do with Elvis filming. 🤐 Supposedly, they had already broken up before the film even started filming. It's a long story.

Anyway, they seemed really happy together all those years, so it's kinda sad they weren't able to try to work things out again. But oh well! It's too late now! V is about to be a married woman (if she isn't already!). 😅

Honestly?? I don't blame her if she really wanted marriage and a family, and she didn't want to continue to spend more time waiting for him (and his career, etc) to catch up.

[ayyponine]

much like last year i got to enjoy some studio visits this weekend B)

(commentary in addition to description linked to each photo individually)

started out fresh w an art gallery (1, 2, 3) w some cool, colourful, eclectic and playful pieces on display. made a quick stop at work to say hi to a colleague i hadn't seen in a while before making my way to

my second location and biggest must-see (4, 5). Had a nice chat w artist who saw me look at one of her canvases frm the side so she was like lol do you paint or smth. bc i recognise how you're viewing these works when i go to a museum i do the same exact thing. I loved getting her perspective and a glimpse into her work process even if it's so different from mine idk it was cool! There was a whole collective of lil art studios scattered about the building surrounding a courtyard so i also entered a diff place and look. they were all about making zines. a group of ppl was chatting and making em. so i entered and was like hi ja sorry i kom ff binnenvallen maar ik weet niet goed wat er..... te bezine valt. which instantly made me cringe so hard i was ready to leave but the girl leading the workshop seemed thrilled to have me and explain the setup even if internally i was still like oh god why am i like this rip. i think i missed out on some more ateliers but mostly bc a lot of the artists were gathered in the lil courtyard having drinks and chatting and i was too intimidated to ask fr info or be spotted looking lost like some IDIOT so on i went rip.

quick stop at kids clothing shop which always cheers me up it's so whimsical and i want their stuff fr

Then onto 6, 7 where they had some cool stuff fr sure but the location was such a cramped and cluttered old row house and i had already spent my whole day walkign around in a T-shirt so especially trying to navigate around other visitors this was just not it babes. i moved on before having seen it all despite being interested bc i just needed to get tf out.

Managed my good deed fr the day when i spotted a confused looking older couple w a wheeled suitcase and personally guided them to their hotel

THEN on to this hidden lil atelier where i also went last year + attended a grand total of 2 life drawing sessions in the months after. again while arriving i was faced w the distinct feeling of having barged in on a private party of artists all at a table sharing a leisurely drink on a dreamy sunday afternoon rip BUT. the artist i talked to last time/followed the drawing sessions with was there, still knew me by name and made some small talk to help me feel welcome what an absolute gem. he even proposed i sit w them at the table & hang out fr a bit, when i said like hmm thank you but to just join up w a group of friends who all know each other it's a lil daunting he even said like but i know them, and i know you so its all ok :) i was internally like cool. i would takea fucking bullet fr you btw this is totally fine and i can not believe you are still willingly talking to me, the single most embarrassing person to ever exist in the world

anyway i did not accept the offer to stay fr a while but did chat w some of the other artists which was again super cool, to get more info on the diff works on display. they seem like a rlly sweet and charming collective of people and i wish i didn't feel so ashamed of myself so i couldve spent more time with them all but aint that the way. debating atm whether i should sign up fr another life drawing class or if the guy was only being nice bc he felt obligated and would actually prefer i keep my flustered and off putting vibes tf away from his personal and professional work space idk.

anyway. i had the wrong address so almost missed out on my last visit but in the final hour it was still possible i did manage to find the last location (8, 9) w an exhibit on themes of europe, durability and the meaning of home. there was a really cool piece on trees & difficulty in their sap stream where you could touch a chunk of wood and feel clicks resonate through a speaker mounted on the back, a glass installation on koekhappen re: jumping through hoops fr resource accessibility & probably my fave: the audio of welcoming messages. esp smth about the french speaker was so warm idk there seemed to be genuine relief in the confession of "je suis tellement heureuse de te voir, que tu m'as manqué" which also btw. god ive always loved that expression. ive missed you you have been missing FROM me or smth more in that direction of semantics i. insane

then biked on to my moms again to get some got damn. peace and quiet. and a cinnamon roll w vanilla ice cream <3

[mysicklove-main]

Is there anything else you wanna rant about with “your new pack” ?

u just want me to make-out with u don't u 🙄 🙄🙄

but yes sure i can talk for hours, especially since im working on the next chpt currently. (might take bout a week to post tho considering im so busy)

for everyone else not reading this fic, I will post your requests and other stuff after i finish the next chapter!!!

to begin with, i dont know how the hell to make everyone have equal amount of time shown. I want everyone to like all characters, but i accidentally write way more for specific characters than others which is unfair i feel to my (very fictional characters who dont give a fuck) boys. for example, think bout how much we see Keigo compared to Izuku. Its just hard to do it with 5 different ppl so.

I want to rewrite all my beginning chapters bc I feel like i rushed it thinking it was going to be a short story. But here i am, 79k+ words in and the beginning i feel is so so so bad. like i can't even reread it bc i cringe. but i am also so lazy and rlly dont want to rewrite it lol so i just pretend it doesn't exist.

comments, mean way too much to me. Like all writers i love getting a notification that someone commented on my fic, but now its getting to the point where im like, "damn this chpt didn't get many comments, did i do something wrong?" so that's embarrassing and i def need to chill and be grateful for what i have. Im working on it.

Eijiro, Izuku, Shoto are so fucking hard to write and Katsuki and Keigo are so easy to write. Its so strange that im struggling with Izuku, bc he is my favorite, but im trying to show that he is a little fucked up from his past but I also dont want to write him as super quiet. Idk i feel like i kinda brushed off his trauma and i didn't mean to. so that sucks. with Eijiro his actions are easy, simply cause i wrote him as someone to be very touchy and affectionate off the bat. plus he talks alot so. but his internal thoughts are so fucking difficult to write. like what are you thinking bout?? you know she is your mate, but he is trying to get his best friend to get with you. it is so hard. Shoto is the complete opposite. I dont know how the hell he would react in different situations, bc he is more quiet out of the boys, but I want to also show that he is also trying his best too. his deranged thoughts are easy to do, but everything else is a wreck. i think he is the hardest to write for by far.

speaking of shoto his character is so inconsistent. idk if ppl notice, but i do. in the beginning his is more obsessive and has the most negative thoughts. he kinda crazy, u feel me? now, i dont write as much of his creepy perverted thoughts. i just kinda forget to. so now he feels kinda bland and i need to figure out how to bring back some excitement back to his character. maybe this chapter ill go back to the creepy, obsessive, thoughts. it was so fun to write. this all goes back to how hard shots is to write.

I switch perspectives alot and I hope ppl understand what's going on and who is thinking what. I think I have a mix of second person (obvi, with the "you") and 3rd person. bc i narrate others reactions to the situations, and kinda treat Y/N as a character in the story, not as your self. does that make sense??? idk.

since hybrid stories are my fav, i would like to write more, but in different scenarios. for example, another Y/N x Wolf! Katsuki fic, but this katsuki would be a diff one from the other wolf katsuki in Your New Pack. Like i did with the Bunny! Izuku Headcannons. That izuku is diff than Your New Pack one. but would ppl be bored of it?? ik i will never lol.

i wish i could post a poll on who ppl like the best on ao3, just bc im curious who has the most fanboys. (it would prob be keigo tho lol)

i got bored of katsuki wearing the muzzle in the house, so i just trashed it. def poor writing thing to do, but idc at this point, it would throw off my plans for chpts if he was always wearing the muzzle.

sorry i talk alot, but hey u asked for it.

[chittapornswife]

the way i respond like a week late T_T my asks r literally like packages being sent to u.. delivered in 5+ business days... but i found out my dorm room and roommate!! i haven't talked to her yet since i'm a bit shy but we got put into a good dorm so i'm happy! also i need to set up a placement test for spanish but they alr have me registered for spanish 1 and i might just keep it since it'll be an easier class.... ALSO this week i got my rook, helix, and flat pierced and the rook hurts sm... but it's cute so 😋

also i love our relationship being full of hyping hehe <3333 💓💫he's my prince charming.. i woulda read it <3333 all the corny romance titles were saved in my library because i absolutely LOVVVVEEE fluff!!!! also you were fortunate you didn't get to read the exo one.. even my young tween self was cringing at the plot and ofc in wattpad fics they try to add the most famous idols into the story so i rmbr jackson was like a part of the enemy pack or smthn 😅honestly he needs to get into acting because when super m did those short movie things he looked so good and his acting was so natural?!?!??!?! sm needs to let the wayv boys act bcos ik they would all kill it !!!!!

her 24/7 guard... GODDDDDDD!!! i'm alr waiting for it!! ykno what. sm take notes and make t's fic into a drama 😒literally look at this nctzen and her POWER... her SHEER TALENT FOR WRITING !!!

yangyang's 'a postcard away' is giving angst vibes so i'm looking forward to it as well!! well tbh i'm always looking forward to your writing !! <3

ty!! and imo you did conceal it well!! some nctzens can always like narrow down cb dates and stuff so rly if they found out who's gna be the endgame couple it's just bcos they're detectives 🔍

and honestly i can see all the wayv boys you mentioned!! esp hendery!! i feel like in situations you would help ppl feel comfortable and able to be themselves! i'm also getting some haechan vibes from you!! omg we can be markhyuck <333 chenle for me tho? interesting! i used to see myself as like yuta to be a fellow badass scorpio but everyone is like .... girl no >< + meeting my friend was sooooo fun and it went by sooo quick but it was all natural btwn us and yeah :D i've meet bad online friends too or ppl i've stopped talking to so :( i was rly scared it was going to end up like that with her but i am soooo thankful that we were able to match each other's vibes and not be awkward! honestly worrying abt saying the wrong thing is something i relate to a lottttttttt.. esp w people my age bcos most of them are v black or white w their viewpoints/beliefs and i try to be as neutral as i can (unless it's something like racism where... what is there to discuss if it's good/bad/exists/doesn't????!)

ik i said in the prev ask that i was dense so i mean.. the clueless tip could work for me as well.. it's weird bcos ppl say i'm intimidating so i don't want to scare ppl... esp since i dyed my hair back to my natural dark brown/blackish color .. like when i had highlights i found ppl approached me more so it gave a friendlier look for first impressions T_T sidetrackedness is in our own dictionary 😚👍considering i've been sidetracked a countless amount of times while writing this...

lmk if you like andes!!! also BUBBLEGUM ICE CREAM!?!? woah... idk if you have it in canada but growing up i loooooovvvvveeeeeed blue moon ice cream sm!! also even tho i'm back home.. i'll figure out how to like doordash a milkshake to u in canada brb 🚚🏃🏽 ALSO LITERALLY ME I LOOOOOVVVVEEE CILANTRO AND THE NERVE OF SOME PPL'S TASTEBUDS TO MAKE IT TASTE LIKE SOAP.. i literally would cry if i ever got that tastebud.. cilantro goes good w any dish istg.. (i love garlic shrimp w some cilantro to top it off!)

tbh i think going to college is gna be a shift to how i approach my academics and i'm so worried abt the word limits/due dates/etc but i think i just have to keep a postive mindset !! :D and ofc work hard! i saw this one twt.. or was it a tumblr post.. abt how poc esp woc shouldn't feel imposter syndrome bcos the academic system, esp higher education, is still systematically racist and catering to the white male and since then <3 a lot of the pressure has been lifted off me bcos <333 so tru <3

honestly i think it's awesome how influential ppl can be with their work.. like even random days i would be like "i wonder if the author of dnyl club updated it?" and it gave me strength to reread it as i was stressing abt life.. i really appreciate your stories and your writing <3 and i think it's important that you know you do give entertainment and happiness to a lot of ppl! if i could i would give you like 1343546534 notes for every story/part posted <3

omg omg ok for chocolate recs.. lindt strawberry cheesecake chocolate bar,,,, you HAVE TO try it!!! it's sooooo good!! you can get it from walmart, target, etc!! rose flavored ice cream i have never had but i've seen ppl like mold(?) the icecream to look like a rose and i've always wanted to try it!! also ik you just thanked for the analogy and i'm hyping you up more up there but :D i just wish for my messages to make you happy and to talk to you so !! <333

omg forbidden relationship.. SO TRUUUUUU <3 speaking of relationships i've literally been talking to this cute guy who's also a first yr from my school and <333 kinda hoping he can be my first s/o cuz i swiped up on his story being corny and he had the same energy in his reply!!! but omg on wednesday at like 1am i was talking to my friend and i didn't know if i showed her his ig yet so i was like 'brb i'll send u a ss of his acc' and then as i did that I SENT THE SS TO HIM. i literally unsent so quickly and was like "omg sorry i accidentally sent so i unsent!" AND HE SAW IT LIKE WITHIN A MIN AND HEARTED THE MESSAGE. and i died bcos literally. that man is nvr on social media T_T but the time he is i screw up like that !?!?! luckily it wasn't 1am for him it was like 8pm his time but.. whew... also i hope u and mr glasses can have a relationship too ;)

jisung was born in feb so 8 months would be oct for me!! my birthday's actually halloween :DDD BUT THANK YOU FOR THE BELATED (in actuality early) HBD !!!! 🎂🎉i'm glad you went to bed that night!! omg closer was the inspo for a ten fic.. wow too much sexiness.. if that song was the inspo.. fiancé is one of my faves!!! and his song um... with blue d is my fave by him!! i've been obsessed w doja's album!!!!!! esp been like this and tonight! also pinkpantheress is sooooooo talented i want her to drop a full album alr!!! >< and did you kno victoria monet is bi <3 a win <3333333 but you're so rightttt she should produce some tracks for sm bcos i bet she could make them have more dreamy/mysterious tracks! i hope you enjoyed the recs! i enjoyed seeing how we have similar taste :DDDD

also kinda stalked ur blog and YOU HAVE AN UNPUBLISHED HORROR TARO FIC?!?!?!??! AHHHHHH.. i'm a bit of a sucker for him...... and pixie hollow taeil sounds soooo cute also MONTHLY GIRLS NOZAKI KUN.. KUN... GOSH .. that's literally like my no.3 (or is it 4th,,?) anime!!!!!!!

btw.. the mark fic.. i felt a pit in my stomach when i read "But you didn’t notice the look in his eyes when you began to clean up the in the spacious church room, your typical roles being reversed." i mean the whole fic HURT but that part esp.. wow.. i .. wow.. and the ending .. i whew... also say i'm sorry by afghan played as i read this fic.. and i must say it fits the mood p well!!

i hope you had a great day and that this upcoming week is kind to you!!! stay hydrated and eat regularly too!! stay healthy w this delta variant.. :( times r getting scary again.. sending good vibes and love your way and sorry for such a late response once again >< 💓🌸💐💫💝🍬🍓💞💘 - lofy <3

LOFY<333 it is a-ok if you respond late, I know we chat in essay form so it's hard to respond to all of it at once T_T thank u kindly for this package tho<333 and !!! that's so good!!! i'm very happy you're looking forward to adjusting in your new school/college!! i hope you're roommate is respectful, nice and you have a great time with her!!! also do you speak some spanish?? in my very very tiny brain, i was wondering about placement tests and realized they're for people who already have some knowledge in that subject. how many languages do you speak btw?!! :D also WHAT. ALL THREE AT ONE TIME?!?!??!! dude and here i was thinking doing a helix and a conch would be too much ._. it still sound super duper cute tho!!!! i can't imagine the process of cleaning them all constantly and caring for them at the same time but still it's smart of u bc then they will all be close to each other in healing time and what could be a couple of years of ears healing only turns into 1-2!! :D

speaking of earring stuff, i’m thinking of changing out my diamond stud helix earring to a huggie hoop! i’ve seen many cute ones and im contemplating on doing it before my cousins wedding at the end of this month or not...🤔🤔 FLUFF IS MY FAVOURITE TOO!!! there is something just so nostalgic but heartwarming about cheesy corny titles/stories that not much can compare. like i know ppl say “oh that’s so cheesy🤢 i can’t stand it” but genuinely it’s all filled with happiness?!?!?? that is the meaning of fluff?? how could you not love it and be happy?😭

not jackson being a part of the enemy pack 😭😭 god this exo fic just sounds better and better the more i hear it and i was hugely obsessed with werewolf stories on wattpad so call me a werewolf story connoisseur 😎🙏🏼 that must be one of the lamest things to be a connoisseur of 🧐 anyways... !!! he was so good in acting and genuinely he could become a heart throb actor!! he really needs to get into some acting deals🤔

YOU GAS ME UP TOO MUCH<33333🥺🥺🥺 sm pls let us fanfic writers create drama plots for yall, like we could give you great business in the drama industry 😭🙏🏼 !! i’m so happy you like “a postcard away”, the plot’s still being determined tbh i think i might write it in one go like my recent mark fic and just get it out of my system!

thank you 🥺🥺💗♥️💗 i love that i give off hendery vibes to you!! he’s someone i adore and would have a great time being friends with!! but also we are most definitely markhyuck 😎😎😎 i love that i give off haechan vibes to you too!! i think the reason why you give off such pure, happy energy to me and i relate you to ppl like that is because you are always so happy in these messages!! i know i don’t know what you look like but you give me the same happy feeling i get when i watch chenle vids from a couple years ago when he was all bright and sunshine :’) 💗 even if you do look badass yuta scorpio irl, you still are like a baby chenle to me especially since you’re ‘02 born!!!

i’m very happy for you that meeting with your friend was fun!!! :D ♥️ I know what you mean by bad online friends, i had one like that but i guess they’re all lessons to be learned! i’m still happy you’re having great things come your way! i may sound like a grandma saying this but do make sure to be careful who you share your good news with! some ppl may wish bad things for you and i only say this bc you seem to be so happy in your life rn, i only wish for you to stay this way :)♥️💗♥️💗♥️💗 i totally agree with worrying about what to say!! it’s always been a constant struggle and when they’re all new conversations, it’s hard to navigate and know what is okay and what is not!! ppl are very quick to cancel or ignore these days too which makes it feel so cutthroat :(

each time i imagine what you look like in my head i still can not see the intimidating part bc of how cute your msgs are!!! but i think your natural hair must be beautiful and ppl are always intimidated by #girlbosses #bossbabes 🙄🙏🏼 we are making new words, look at us go<3 merriam webster please contact us at chittashit@gmail.com <33 (not a real email)

i’ve never tried blue moon icecream!!!! it sounds so cool tho!!! :D bubble gum is a forever favourite like no matter how many times i try other flavours, it’s always bubblegum, cookies and cream or cotton candy for me😔 i would love a door dash of blue moon icecream thank you<3🥺♥️ DUDE THANK YOU FOR LIKING CILANTROO!!!! IT IS SUCH A GREAT HERB THING AND ELEVATES ALL DISHES!! amazing on pasta btw i don’t know if i mentioned it before but garlic shrimp sounds really good!!! i don’t seafood nor meat but it sounds like it would look really good! :D

do keep a positive mindset going into college!!! you’ll do amazing and trust me, you’ll do just fine and remember that you may feel not so smart sometimes or you might feel down but there are others will be feeling the same way and you can always bond over this😎 probably not the best advice i’ve ever given LOL and personally for me, word limits weren’t too bad and only get picky the higher the classes are! profs don’t usually check the limits unless it’s very precise!!

the world catering to men is probably the worst thing ever and i’m sorry if anything ever happens and i know there are differences being in a canadian and american university but in my 6 yrs being in uni, i haven’t had too awful of an experience with profs nor people!!! as long as you surround yourself with good ppl then you will do good!!! <3333 :))

dnyl club :(((( pls that makes me so happy and comments like this just make me want to finish it once and for all, i’m really trying to give it a good ending and justify it all!! i hope to have it out before the next semester pulls up!! but thank you so much lofy<333 your messages always mean so much to me and you have no idea how happy i am to know about your thoughts<333 and if it was up to me, i would give u 10000000000 notes on everything you post!! brb as i rb some of your beautiful content as well!!!

LINDT MAKES THOSE?!?!?!?!? WHAT. okay that sounds so freaking good im blown away rn and i hope i can find that flavour but idk if we have it here in my city! hopefully its somewhere else in canada or maybe amazon or something but thank u for this recommendation<33 you should try rose flavoured ice-cream!!! you can get it from usually from any indian/muslim restaurant!! idk how to describe it but it has this sweet flavour and a faint smell of roses so it’s always super duper delicious<333 i actually havent seen ice-cream shaped in a rose!! i’ve seen chocolate roses tho during valentines and we sell them at our store so i’d just buy them for myself and my close friends as a friend’s valentines<33

LOFFYYYYYYYY OMG PLEASEEE SPILL MORE DETAILS BETWEEN U AND CUTE GUY!!!!!! also this is horrible but nowadays (actually this has been forever so not a recent thing), i find writing inspo in ppl’s love lives and so now you are giving me a cute strangers to friends to lovers au moment<33 in all seriousness, i hope he’s a really nice guy and that you do become each other’s s/o’s <333 you deserve a great person lofy, specifically someone who’ll listen to you and make you laugh and extremely happy!!!! i’m rlly rlly happy for you :’)))) BUT THAT IS SO CUTE THAT HE LIKED THE SS EXCEPT i also feel you and would’ve died right there<3 

i will not try to talk abt mr. glasses too much but he’s so CUTTEEEEE!!!! omg okay so after the bridal shower so just two days after you sent this msg, i was showing him and my pharmacist abt the bridal shower setup (me and the pharmacist r good friends and i’d promised to show him) and mr. glasses was surprised that me and my cousins set up the surprise shower ourselves and i was secretly screaming inside!!! and that weekend we had a heat wave warning so i was telling them both to make sure to keep hydrated and he was all smiles!!! 

BUT DUDE THIS PAST WEEK OK OMG okay i was telling him i was going to bake banana choc chip muffins for everyone and i asked if he had allergies but he was like “oh no i don’t have any, i’ll eat anything you make” and i was like okay good!!! earlier he had his mask off when he was on his break and i walked by him and he smiled at me and i was like “look at that, you have such a great smile!” teasing him and he smiled wider laughing and when we passed i looked back at him and HE LOOKED BACK AT ME!!!! then when i brought the muffins in our next shift i was telling the pharmacy and he was like “oh i was waiting the whole day for them!” AND I WAS LIKE EEEEEEE bc lowkey pavlov conditioning him<333 #girlbossmoment <333 but he only took 2 when he was going to go home and he always asks me if im working the next day and he did it again except i told him i wasnt and he was like “okay ill give you a full report next week on these delicious looking muffins” and i was laughing but squealing inside and when he turned to go he said THE WORDS I DID THE OTHER WEEK: “it’s going to be hot this weekend so make sure to stay hydrated!!” and I ALMOST SCREAMED TO MYSELF but i play it off so cool in front of him i have no clue how because he’s so good-looking and his biceps were literally popping out of his shirt that i love and complimented him on. but i was like “yes you too!!!” and he gave me a big smile and walked away and i visited the next day to grab something for my grandma and he was there and happy to see me, calling me kind bc i brought food for the pharmacist and he asked me if i had any more muffins but i told him that sadly i did not </3333 BUT HE SAID THEY WERE SO GOOD AND HE LOVED THEM<3333 ok anyways that was unecessarily long 🤨🤨🤨

also i am very dumb<33 i for some reason thought it would be easier to count 8 months backwards so i dont know how i ended up so far off 😭 BUT THATS SO COOL THAT UR BDAY’S ON HALLOWEEN WTF!!!! victoria monet our bi queen<33 have you seen her daughter?? she’s so cute!!! pinkpantheress is addicting istg her new single “just for me” has been on repeat for a long time now<33 victoria for SM would be amazing genuinely and maybe it’s me but i feel like nct has been losing their slightly mysterious and unique touch lately :(( YES! HORRO TARO<33 it will be just in time for ur bday!!! but it’ll be a fun challenge to do since he’s such a baby and it’ll be hard to portray him as scary 🥺

pixie hollow taeil will maybe be a small fic!! it’ll be heavily inspired for my love of tinkerbell and specifically terrence the pixie dust fairy<33 when i was young i hardcore shipped terrence and tink together LOL (still do...🤔$

MONTHLY GIRLS’ NOZAKI KUN IS ONE OF MY ALLTIME FAV MANGA’S/ANIME’S!!!! I’m thinking of having Kun as one of the helpers that Nozaki takes upon himself like Hori, Chiyo, Mikoshiba, etc.!!! that’s one fic i’m excited to get started on!!! i shall listen to that song rec for the mark fic!!!! okay but genuinely that’s one of the quickest fics i’ve read and it still needs editing but im glad you enjoyed it!!!! i was feeling unecessarily sad that day and had YKWIM by Yot Club playing on repeat as i wrote!! that was also one of my fav parts!!! that and the ending i loved <33 ANYTHING FOR LOKI<3😭

thank you for this msg again lofy and wishing you the very best for the upcoming week too!!! stay hydrated as well and eat well too!!! sending all the love to you and all the best luck<33 and no need to apologize!!! you can send your asks in whenever and i’ll always respond<33 there is no pressure😎🙏🏼♥️💗♥️💗