#ik 300 isnt THAT MANY | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

twinkbasement · 1 year ago

Note

hi anon, i just want to say, this has nothing to do with what you said, but this whole topic and a related conversation got me thinking about stuff that i did want to post about. ik like all my mutuals are trans and uk based but im kinda annoyed and i like to write and get attention so here we are. parties, events, raves, etc are not really the primary way we trans people 'crowdfund' our transitions, we use the internet! primarily gofundme, but also a lot of other of other platforms that we all know of. i've made a gofundme, lots of people have made gofundmes. and like a lot of people, my gofundme failed. and thats kind of what i want to talk about?

(i live in the uk so im not gonna talk about anywhere else. yes, the rest of the worlds trans population *also* uses crowdfunding, but i dont have that experience. thanks!)

i live in the uk and the gics in the uk are how trans people are *meant* to transition. it takes years and people are dying. a lot of people are dying and really, thats probaby intentional honestly, but lets not say the quiet part out loud rn. so if waiting however many years it is now (for reference the biggest gic is currently seeing people referred in nov 2018 which is 5 years ago and they offered only 61 appointments last month:/) you might want another option. if you already know other trans people (who have been out a while/are older than you/are on hrt themselves) theres a good chance they can help you out with diying and this is a good option (ps are u in the uk and want to go on hrt but the gic/ur gp is super mean to u? dm me, i can help:3). but what if thats not your situation, or maybe you're looking for surgery? then you can go to one of our extremely overpriced private gender clinics! or a slightly less overpriced gender clinic abroad!

but also, ur trans, so u probably dont have money (statistically speaking, i mean) and that makes these £300 an appointment clinics to diagnose u as transgender when frankly you coulda told the guy that yourself a bit out of your reach. and you havent even gotten mones yet! let alone any surgery, if you wanted that. so you do what you see everyone else doing: you set up a gofundme, post it on twitter or tumblr or instagram or all three and you pray that people will be nice to you. thats where it all kind of falls apart.

crowdfunding is not about being nice. in very much the same way that the raise funds through a party are only possible through social status, crowdfunding is kind of the same. you can only successfully crowdfund if you have a lot of followers, and the *right* kind of followers. are your followers trans/allies? are they in a position to donate in quanities that will make an actual difference (because if youre going for sugery, youre not asking for a small amount)? will your followers spread the gofundme on? can your followers spread it on to other people who will donate/spread it on? are you in an in group maybe? also, are you hot and socially cool? did you make it big online? not really big necessarily, but a couple hundred followers to a couple thousand and at least a couple hundred have to be active.

in short, its a popularity contest. theres really not much more you can say than that. and while online, it doesn't skew so heavily towards White Trans Masc Top Surgery gofundme, that being said, you can't discount the transmisogyny, racism, classism, ableism and just plain old aesthetics that play a role in whos gofundmes achieve their goals. i did ok w mine, i got just under a 7th of the way there which isnt bad in all honesty given my teensy tiny online presence. i had some bigger users as mutuals on twitter at the time which helped me out, but even then even with everything working for me, it wasnt enough. thats the nature of a popularity contest: most people *have* to lose it.

and a lot of trans women (far, far more eloquently than me, mind you. go read whipping girl by julia serano if you havent already or hot allostatic load you can click on those words the link is there!) have spoken about the fact that they are often forced out of trans spaces and forced to make their own spaces with far fewer resources. this is especially true of disabled trans women and trans women of colour. these women are more likely to live in poverty and not be able to even set up the gofundme in the first place let alone have the social network to achieve the end goal of that gofundme. i dont really want to speak over people here, i am a white trans masc with housing and technically income i am on hrt i have gotten top surgery im even in the nhs gic! so if someone wants to add on here and speak from a more experienced and knwowledgeable perspective i'd really appreciate that.

the point i want to make is even when we try and equalise the opportunities for people to get healthcare, we aren't doing that in crowdfunding. its a popularity contest to its very very core.

NOTE: UK PEOPLE WHO NEED HRT, DM ME!!!!!!!!

re the top surgery parties thing I think it’s cute I used to kind of be against them before I made more transgender friends / early transition (hadn’t started t yet) but it’s nice to support each other idk

no i do agree w u on that, its v cute and im not necessarily knocking it as something fun. though as an aside i do think its funny that u say early 'in ur transition' as i came out publically in 2017 (and online in 2014) and ive been on t since early 2019 but thats another point all together.

what i mean more is the social status u need to be able to do one of these events at all leaves a bad taste in my mouth. its a popularity contest essentially and in a community where the 'least popular' are dying and brutalised far more than the 'most popular' its a bit grotesque almost? idk. maybe i am bitter, i think thats a fair way of seeing my response to them. but given that the majority of the people *i* (note: me, personally) have seen fundraising through these events are white trans mascs who are fundraising for top surgery in their early 20s i think its fair to see where i am coming from (please note: tumblr user kankum is a white trans masc in her early 20s).

the point is was making in maybe not the best way, is that there is a certain amount of pre-existing social standing you need to have to even broach this as an idea. and white trans mascs are simply more likely to have it. we are less likely to be ostracised from our communities, live in such poverty we cant access community spaces like raves, and more likely to know organisers for music venues and djs than other members of the trans community. it is a cute and fun community centred way of helping trans ppl but it is mostly helping those who are at the top as is, or so i see it anyway.

EDIT: also, um, not to be rude, but do you think i dont have trans friends?

#kankum #hope u dont think this is me knocking u anon this has nothing to do w u #just thought it was a good continuation from what id said before #also pls feel free to rb and ADD TO THIS!#and if anyone wants me to clarify lmk:)

2 notes · View notes

gaming-thoughts-by-an-idiot · 3 years ago

Text

Fallout76 again:

"Ok but like, if you dont lock your stuff, it's free so like?"

"Oh my god... three... wE ARE THREE ASEXUALS AT THE SAME TEAM YOOOO! LOOK AT THAT??? THREE FLAGS, WHAT ARE THE ODDS??? YAAAS PRIIIIIDEEEEEE✊🏻✊🏻"

"Leave me alone, I'm shopping"

*tame mirelurk king walks around* "... ok that's just freaky"

"I've done so many quests, so fast, so many daily quests.... and now I have three left, and then I'm changing character and I just... hhhhhhh"

"Someone is waving at me, I'm in pip boy, go away??? Hhh what are they doing?? I hear the ?? Sound"

"Camp hopping, I'm tired of the over priced stuff.... just coman, I never go above"

"Hehe, sloCUM"

"I feel so bad for just going to their camp, and not buying"

"Someone is buying things from me! :D"

"... I think I need like four characters to get all the endings... should I make a new one?"

"Ok ok, interesting camp"

"What??? Where, what?? Its like a maze? And a race track and and?? I got stuck xD I just wanna buy stuff what is going on"

"Fuck.. I missed"

"Xxflo fr... you genius"

"I bet the shop isnt even at the end"

"They can see me when I enter their shelter, they know of my mistakes"

"I'm checking the other shelter"

"Fine, fine, fiiine! I'll make it"

"I'm gonna film this place"

"What a ride this is"

"This bothers me xD I want a jet pack, I wanna cheat"

"I just sent them a message 'Please, where's your vendor?😭😭' I'm stuck in a hole... for the forth time😭😭"

"Its outside! I'm screaming"

"Hell no, they're level 300??? Fuck that, they showed up on the camp, I'm not staying around high levels, ik its dumb, but I get so angsty.. yes I am 270, but I'm an idiot"

"I sent them a reply that said 'I'm a fool😭' "

"Help help help. A power armour ran towards me"

"Just saying that, normally when its night where I live, that's when people get mean to me"

"I generally dont wanna go down to peoples shelters if they have the vendor there... I was here since the beta. I have bad experiences"

"Power armour people are ✨scary✨"

"I should get like a watch that checks my pulse, so I can show when my pulse spikes whenever i see a high level player around me"

" :c i was just removed from the team... it's a glitch ik that but still :c "

"Oh... it wasnt a glitch... they just threw me out..... ;-; i thought we were strong aces.... I'm sad now"

"I'm all alone on a team"

"That's fine, I'm done here anyways so fuck you ;;;;-;;;;;"

"I have to do daily stuff with Jesus too, so whatever"

"I'm sad"

"... I'm on the same map... how why what no why?????"

"No wait, I think flo just jumped map too?"

"What just happened"

"Oh, ok, enemies took care of the quest, cop a squatter thing, so yay"

"Why wont anyone be with me"

"I joined team with flo, spooky"

"Ok, I'm now suddenly doing a quest?"

"This weapon is shit... lvl 45"

"Yay! Someone bought stuff from me🥰"

"Omg its flo"

"I have to remember that is is a good character, Jesus is here for good things. This is not my main where I'd see a scavenger, and even after they give me things, I kill them... no cuz this is a good character and they're not a raider, gotcha"

"A hunt for magazines, they cannot escape me"

"Fighting with my cat, I say 'no, u cant sleep my lap, that's where the controller is', and the fucking moment I wrote that, the fucker jumped on my lap. What an asshole"

"No magazine, but a bobblehead"

"Ok, flo isnt home, let's go"

"!!!! They showed up"

"Ok, flo got a female character, which means nothing, but for some reason it's like 'phew', and that is very sexist of my brain, I am sorry"

"Omg they're approaching me ;-;"

"Oh, waving, yeah hello bye thanks for selling stuff to good prices byee"

Me: oh they're not so scary after all

Them, approaching me, prob with no ill intentions:

Me: STRANGER DANGER😭😭

" but that's just me with any high level or power armour person so"

"Ok ok, I went to get Beckett, and then I have to get his shit, but i went back to my camp first to fix shit, and blood eagles followed me????"

"People left the team... now it's only me😭😭"

"Joined a new one"

"And someone right away started to buy from me, omg thank youuu"

"... here we go again... let's build stuff again, wow a new house woo -.-"

"Jesus.. *heh* I've gamed waaaay too long"

#gaming #fallout 76 #relatable gaming thoughts #fallout #fallout76 #funny #fo76

3 notes · View notes