#ignore me i'm tired

[teaboot]

"So yeah this was my depression meal- super fast and easy, you just need onionscheesegarlicunsaltedbuttermilkoreganobakingsodaplutoniumtablesaltblackpeppercarrotspeasgingerbeefolivesmacaronitortillasand-"

Girl I spent two months in bed sleeping 15+ hours a day eating cold beans straight from the can that I opened with a pair of needle nose pliers cause I couldn't make myself walk up the stairs to get a can opener

[flesh-leather-circuits]

I need a killer ai to desire me carnally so fuckin bad

[blot-squisher]

I'm not sure there is a sound I hate more than ice cubes being swirled around in a glass. It's such an indescribably awful, annoying sound, it makes my brain itch. Hearing it makes me want to bite someone.

[ryuutchi]

Twitter discourse on DIY testosterone-based HRT is killing me.

There's the refusal to acknowledge that estrogen-based HRT is honestly easier to get and take-- non-scheduled pills are different from a schedule III injected drug, even if you're buying both on the grey market.

That just because no trans masc has been arrested for taking DIY testosterone yet, doesn't mean there's no risk of possession being used as a weapon against trans mascs or used to track us.

That being forced off a doctor/pharmacy regimen and onto an unregulated grey market due to your existence being criminalized is intimidating, fraught, and unsafe, especially for younger and isolated guys.

That DIY for a scheduled substance means your supply is even more precarious than it might otherwise be and going on and off, and that precarity is chilling in itself.

And finally that making these statements doesn't mean I think people supporting DIY or doing DIY hormones are bad and should stop. If you want to find a way to help trans mascs with their medical needs, you have to have to be aware of how testosterone regimens are different medically and legally from estrogen regimens, and the multiple risks involved and how to mediate them.

And if you think I'm walking on the wrong side of the "safety vs needs" tightrope, that's fine. But it's killing me how much of the arguments just dismiss outright trans masc concerns about testosterone-specific worries.

[obsidiancreates]

In life you're either "Your ass hurt. Done." Or "Gus, I can't control my ass, I can't control my ass."

[metalmewtwo-kxb]

Somehow a relapse from the flu/cold feels worse than the original thing.

All I wanna say is "thanks, I hate it" and go back to sleep.

[nikatyler]

WHAT YEAR IS IT

[normal-internet-user]

What if we listened to Teenage Dirtbag while we danced under the stars? 👀👀

[trashshouldnt]

i think to this day the best fanfic quote i've ever been lucky enough to read with my own two eyes is "the boxes were filled with the explosive they call TNT" like yeah they really do call it that huh

[lock-my-feelings-in-a-jar]

tumblr can you put MY artist of the year on top of my dashboard instead? dashboards are supposed to be customizable to suit our own interests so like. i feel like. i just. i FEEL like. something feels off here.

[the-everqueen]

...i am still mad about how isolated i feel in our grad dept. the dgs giving me a pat on the head and telling me i just need to Work Hard, the group chat responding to me being honest about burnout with "well do you want to have a co-working session?" like, no. the solution to me being terrified of unemployment (because i come from a family that has no material resources to support me while i spend another year applying to an increasingly shrinking job market) and also feeling like maybe there is no point to me finishing this degree at all is not DO MORE WORK. i have been working. i have been the most reliable and consistent student among my cohort. i have kept quiet for YEARS and gone to therapy and gotten meds and taken up running and fulfilled expectations. but also i can be discarded because "oh, well, you were never actually supposed to get a job" or "oh, well, you're just being Emotional." i'm so fucking TIRED and even with other grad students i have to justify my feelings. and it's not conditional or about reciprocation but like...didn't i help them with free childcare for years? didn't i offer myself up when one friend broke her ankle and couldn't do anything for herself? didn't i read rough drafts and offer feedback and give encouragement and sit through co-working sessions that don't actually work for me because that's not how my brain operates but i knew they just needed a Presence to hold them accountable and i could provide that? i'm not asking for payment, just a fucking crumb of sympathy without the conversation immediately going into Everything You Might Be Doing Wrong or, worse, Well, Here's How Much Shittier My Life Is So Be Grateful.

[groge]

"hey how's it going"

*pukes into the nearest wastepaper basket* absolutely bloody phenomenal, mate

[teaboot]

like. If you wanted to know if someone wants cheesecake, you wouldn't start by asking if they've eaten dairy recently. You wouldn't ask if they're lactose intolerant. So why does everyone seem to do this shit

Like

Person: "Do you like eating peanut butter?"

Dude: Do I like to eat peanut butter by itself? No, but it's tasty with other ingredients. "Not really"

Person: "Oh okay" I will not share my PB&J sandwich, then

I mean I knowwwww it's just how people work but it's fuckin frustrating.

My answers are not confusing, your questions just aren't precise enough

"As a singular entity of limited perception, what's your least favourite aspect of collecively presumed universal subjectivity?"

Me, playing on my phone: Oh its the presumption that conclusions determined off the foundation of a flawed hypothesis contribute meaningful data to the spirit of the initial query, absolutely

[frankencanon]

Do y'know what the best thing about Channing Tatum getting to play Gambit in Deadpool and Wolverine (after he was originally intended to play him in the stand-alone movie that never got made) is?

This gives him a chance to showcase his version of the character in front of a massive audience.

Remember how the Deadpool movie was originally going to be cancelled until that one test clip got leaked and it was such a big hit that the movie got greenlit?

That's what I'm hoping will happen with Channing Tatum's Gambit.

[somewhereincairparavel]

Annabeth Chase and Jason Grace - two sides of the same coin, an analysis post.

after a long wait, I've finally posted my analysis on jason/annabeth being similar, and mirroring eachother as rivals/potential sibling figures more than percy/jason's 'bro rivalry', based on this post of mine which has crossed over a THOUSAND notes in the last week alone, and I've been getting so many reblogs and comments asking me to expand on my tags in that post and do a full analysis. so here it is. I've been procrastinating this for quite a while now for some reason but I'm glad I'm over my writer's block and I got to articulate my post well enough.

annabeth and jason have had very minor interactions throughout hoo, but the parallels and similarities in their character is jarringly noticeable, which is why I hoped for a jason/annabeth rivalry and not a percy/jason rivalry. they've both been raised at their respective camps since they were literal kids, they were well versed in their respective fields of knowledge, and were well respected/intimidated in their camps.

let's start off with the lost hero

when jason first meets annabeth, he says that her eyes were really intimidating and fierce, so right off the bat, we have jason who's pretty put off by annabeth because she very obviously looked angry, especially since she was frustrated about jason's arrival instead of percy, and looked like she could kill jason to get percy back.

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this parallels to a lot when hazel kept going on about how difficult it was to warm up to jason because his eyes were always calculating and cold, and he gave off an untrustworthy vibe, that he'd sacrifice anyone for the sake of the mission.

both annabeth and jason have a certain similar ‘look’ in their eyes, which have nothing to do with the color. they both have the tendency to make people nervous simply with their eyes, because they always look like they're thinking of new things every few seconds. Ironically, jason first perceived annabeth, the way everyone else perceived him. scary and intimidating with an icy glare and hardened eyes.

They were both said to be ‘studying’ each other in distrust many times throughout. A part of why they didn't trust each other, was, in my opinion, because they embodied their least favorite shared personality trait of each other, secretiveness and guardedness. which is why annabeth got on so well with percy, and jason with leo/piper.

they didn't admire the closed off-ish vibe that they gave eachother. they both needed people who were open and carefree.annabeth said that jason looked like he knew too much information, but chose to keep it all a secret, very similar to her own guardedness from time to time, keeping it a secret and wanting to deal with it silently.

we also know that annabeth and jason are extremely knowledgeable in greek/roman mythology, they both love debates and were quite passionate about history. they were both assigned architecture projects by the gods themselves as a mark of honor and favour.

moving on to the next most important point, they reminded eachother of the people they missed, causing them to feel resentful.

jason, barely met his sister after they reunited. he was bitter when thalia said he had to go look for percy to help out annabeth with the search. he was aware that thalia and annabeth were childhood friends, getting closer to eachother than jason and thalia ever did. she found a home in luke and annabeth, not even a few months after baby jason was thought to be ‘dead’, that knowledge would've weighed a lot on jason. annabeth became the sibling to thalia grace that jason could never be.

while annabeth? the only thing annabeth thought of, after jason had a face off with his mother's remnant in boo, was the fact that jason, who looks eerily similar to luke, could've experienced the exact same fate as him. luke was jason if he had more wrath and held grudges, jason was luke if he had less anger and resentment. annabeth could connect the dots so easily, and that was truly the moment where she gained immense respect for him.

and, when jason told annabeth that his sister was thalia? she had a very odd sort of expression on her face.

annabeth also quotes that looking at jason made her feel bitter, because he reminded her of heras exchange, and the fact that she lost percy for months. whenever she looked at jason, she would only see her two childhood friends, a found family that was broken, and a love that was challenged.

whenever jason looked at annabeth, he would be reminded that thalia had a closer contact to her than she did jason, and had to accept that he would never know thalia as much as annabeth does.

annabeth and jason also appear very confident and sure of themselves, but have second thoughts all the time. they had to put on a fake facade, to live up to their expectations and lineage.

they were both also sort of people pleasers, annabeth couldn't really say no to anyone who asked her for help with things, like carrying the sky for luke especially, because not only where they giving her a chance to execute her knowledge and skill, the thought of helping someone made her genuinely happy. jason also loved seeing people happy, always wanting to say the right thing to satisfy someone, even if it meant he had to sacrifice his own struggles to help them.

fatal flaws:

annabeth’s fatal flaw, is hubris. when you are confident and sure that you can do something, and have a sense of excessive self pride.

and jason's fatal flaw is the temptation to deliberate. hesitation and second guessing, to put it in simpler words.both fatal flaws are so different, yet so similar, and they have both flaws, just in a different viewpoint.

as a child of athena, annabeth appears super confident and even conceding at times because of her wisdom, but at the same time, annabeth had to make sure she was one step ahead of everyone. she had to rethink everything and had to have a plan in her mind all the time, fearing that things wouldn't go smoothly.

she had to hesitate and second guess herself alot, despite her knowledge, like she did when she knew she had to look for the mark of athena. piper and percy had to boost up her confidence with affirmations, to let her know she's on the right path and to just follow her gut. annabeth feels obligated to have a temptation to deliberate, because, as a child of athena, she has to be all knowing and wise, and most definitely cannot fail her mother.

and jason? despite having a very low sense of self esteem and hesitation, he was so used to leading the people who were considered slightly inferior to him in camp jupiter, and basically getting treated like a celebrity for 12 years of his life in camp jupiter, that often, he thought what he did was right, he had his own perception of what a hero should be, and I quote

[“No, no,” Jason said. “I made my choice. You’re not to blame. You don’t owe me anything except to remember what I said. Remember what’s important.” “You’re important,” I said. “Your life!”Jason tilted his head. “I mean… sure. But if a hero isn’t ready to lose everything for a greater cause, is that person really a hero?”He weighted the word person subtly, as if to stress it could mean a human, a faun, a dryad, a griffin, a pandos… even a god”- Tower of Nero]

which was normal, since he had everyone basically following his lead without question as a kid. he's expanded on this in his conversation with piper in mark of athena, where he said he felt weird to suddenly be around people who were either equal/or superior to him in power, and not being in the ‘lead’ particularly.

jason had hubris, but certainly not in a way that you would call it an ego or excessive pride. he was hardwired and brainwashed into having his own perception of what is right and what is wrong, that he thought he was always making good enough decisions, at least from a roman child soldier’s standpoint. [Like when he was okay with not saving nico because it might sabotage their mission, he genuinely didn't think what he said was insensitive until hazel called him out, because he was brought up that way. he thought he was doing the right thing, by prioritising the mission and the duty, first. Like the dutiful roman he was made to be].

both annabeth and jason, have hubris and a temptation to deliberate.

annabeth and jason, also had an extremely difficult time breaking free from the thoughts that their godly parents were always right. It took on alot of disappointments for both of them to stand up to their parents (and not just godly ones, mind you)

they've both had disappointing absent mortal and godly parents with a hostile stepmother involved and monitored with each and every one of their moves. annabeth has had to deal with her stepmother playing the ‘bad cop’ with her father not even coming to her defence, just the way hera came butting into jason's life and giving him terrible memories, taking him away from thalia, with zeus not even caring.

speaking of which, they are both the only demigods who have harboured the most amount of resentment for hera. just the sight of hera pisses them both off, as it hera, stripped off so much time away from annabeth and percy, and memories from jason, which he never permanently got back.

this is sort of irrelevant but I'll add this anyway, in boo, athena also immediately liked jason for calling out zeus's unfairness to apollo, saying something like 'the boy is right' and she gave him an approving/appreciative look for his wisdom, which is pretty rare for athena to say or do to literally any demigod ever. this makes me wonder if she ever saw jason as someone who had some sort of athena legacy in him, which is why she was so pleasantly surprised with him. ugh we could've so gotten jason and annabeth as potential sibling figures bc of how many parallels they have, too bad that the percy/jason rivalry narrative was pushed too hard.

I hope I've drawn enough parallels with their characters, as a lot of you have been looking forward to this post for a while, hopefully this analysis hasnt been underwhelming for you all to read!

@thevoidcaller @karmaajr @onestorytorulethemall @newlyfoundwren @thesummerstorms

[merlins-strawberriesandroses]

The thing no one ever considers while writing up character analyses about Merlin is that. he must have been sooooooo sleepy.