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anaalnathrakhs · 3 months ago

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the thing with ugliness isn't that i believe i'm inherently gross and disgusting, but i know and i mean i KNOW i look and act weird. i know for a fact i hold myself in weird ways, i cannot for the life of me stop seeming out of place everywhere, i'm incapable of acting natural, and i just can't be arsed to put any effort into my appearence cause it's so fucking complicated and i have no idea what i want anyway. it's not that i'm not salvagable by a makeup artist, a costumer, a personal etiquette trainer to fix my posture, and a good photographer, who could enhance the looks i have. most people look great when dolled up smartly. the point is that i am not a makeup artist, a costumer, a personal etiquette trainer, and a good photographer, i can't and won't do that to myself.

#i know that system is bad but i'm like a 4 at most #and it's like. mostly a behavioral problem.#i do believe genuinely in subjective attractiveness #but just like self-esteem and somewhat charisma are a huge huge part of attractiveness #if your body language says wounded animal w shrimp-shaped spinal resting position (geriatric level of functional everyday muscles).......#if your face doesn't quite know where to store the teeth and the nose is trying to adopt a natural demeanor and failing......#i feel like i've been thrown into a mech without the instruction manual and now i'm just pulling on random muscles to see what happens #<- it doesn't only happen with attractiveness it just goes like this every time i try to dance or sing or i dont know #exist. in the physical realm.#broadcasting my misery #vent

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