#if you’re a (longterm) mutual plse tell me you’re real and we’re okay (just thoughts no pressure)

[li-nox]

I know, probably therapy is the only place to talk about this, but... How do you know if it’s true paranoia or “just” another depressive episode creeping up, combined with loss of reality. I’m on my on my way to an appointment and still don’t know how to put this w/o sounding stupid (especially in current times)

Apart from that, it’s just scary as hell, and I’ve never been so scared of losing people over it. And I don't even know if they realize it. Or if I’m even important to them anymore.

(can’t believe I ever thought of studying psychology.)

(Ik this is much and I really don’t expect an answer to this. It’s just... too much right now.)