#if you want the real shortbread experience lol

[artsy-dreamer]

Ok, story time 

So recently, I was shopping on the Target website, and I made a PHENOMENAL find… 

This tea party book I had when I was a kid?? 

I absolutely ADORED this book, read it over and over again until the pages came loose from the cover, and my grandma and I had a bunch of tea parties together and we made all kinds of things from the book 🥺 Very good memories… I hadn’t read it in years since I lost my copy, but I never forgot all the good times I had with this book 

So obviously, I wasn’t gonna pass up the opportunity to buy it… I thought it was maybe out of print or something, but no?? It was just?? Available to buy on Target dot com?? 

And then it got here, and I just?? Oh my gosh?? My CHILDHOOD???? 🥺🥺 

We made these!! 

We made them with flower stickers 😊 I remember that tea party being not as much fun as the others cuz there were bees, lol 

And we made these!! 

My grandma’s had the colors of her favorite team 😊 

And we made these!! 

Though we changed the recipe a bit- left out the butter and the pecans, specifically used cinnamon raisin bread iirc, and strawberry cream cheese! They were super good 😋 The flavors complement each other really well 

And we also made this 👀 

We made it with apple cider mix instead cuz I didn’t like tea… so much sugary goodness, lol :p And it was really good! While I still don’t really like tea by itself, I do like it mixed with other drinks (pomegranate lemonade, and of course boba) so maybe I actually would like this if it was made with actual tea… might have to try that sometime 🤔 

It was really fun being able to relive my childhood… I’d love to make some of this stuff again 😊 

But there was one thing that really threw me for a loop… 

The recipe for flute cookies 

Must be some sort of weird Mandela effect going on, because I specifically remember the recipe saying that Lorna Doone shortbread cookies would be the right shape… in fact, I specifically remember it being how I learned about the existence of Lorna Doone cookies in the first place, and I don’t remember even seeing them in person until years after I read the book

Maybe this is a newer edition and that part of the recipe was removed, since those cookies don’t come in flute shapes anymore? But I looked at the back of the book, and nope, this is the original edition 

And what’s even weirder, Lorna Doone cookies have been around since the 20s, and they’ve NEVER come in flute shapes… 

also apparently they’re not actual shortbread cuz they don’t contain butter, and there was some kind of lawsuit about it?? So that was interesting to learn, lol

So where on earth did this elaborate false memory come from?? It had to originate from somewhere… maybe there was a different recipe from an American Girl book or magazine, I really enjoyed those at that age 🤔 It’s just so weird… also why did I never realize until I got this new copy that you’re probably supposed to use this kind of cookie, lol

like it literally never occurred to me XD

So that was a really fun trip down memory lane… with an unexpected mystery twist 👀 Seriously, it’s such a lovely book

[lovemesomesurveys]

1. Do you like having your picture taken? No.

2. Have you ever done a photo shoot, professional or non? I’ve had pictures taken at photo studios and I have a cousin who’s a photographer that did my college graduation photos.

3. If you could go anywhere in the world where would you go and why? I mean, nowhere right now. BUT, there’s a lot of places I’d love to visit one day. Various countries and places here in the US. I just want to be able to travel a lot one day.

4. Who would you take with you on this little adventure? My family.

5. What would you say is the most daring thing to do in a lifetime? That’s going to be different for everyone of course, but basically something that pushes you out of your comfort zone. Conquering a fear.

6. Would you ever do that? I don’t know. 

7. Have you ever done crossword puzzles? Yeah. I much prefer word searches, though.

8. Ever actually completed one? Yeah.

9. Pick up the closest book and write a sentence at random from it. There isn’t a book near me.

10. Do the same with a lyric from either a cd or the radio. Nah.

11. Have you ever tried to analyze your own dreams? Yeah, many times. I’ve tried to look up what some things symbolize and what it might mean for me. 

12. Would you put up posters in your room? Yeah. I have some things hung up. 

13. Can you sing? I can’t sing well at all. I wish.

14. Do you ever sing to yourself while doing everyday tasks? Yes.

15. What's your favorite color of post-it note? Pink.

16. How many cassette tapes do you own? Zero.

17. How many cd's do you own? I don’t have any CDs anymore.

18. Ever bought a cd for just one song? I probably have. 

19. What would your perfect day consist of? Beach days are nice. Or since it’s winter, renting a cozy cabin in the snow sounds lovely.

20. Have you ever lied to get off the phone or out of talking to someone online? Yes.

21. Have you ever written a survey? Once. It was several years ago during the Xanga days. I wish I still had it saved.

22. How about a song? If so share it. No.

23. Or maybe a poem? If so share it or one of them. I dabbled with poetry when I was 16. I am definitely not sharing one, they’re super cringey.

24. Is your vcr flashing 12:00 all the time? I don’t have a VCR. Wow, cassette tapes and VCRs how old is this survey?

25. Do you read your horoscope? No.

26. If so, do you base your day on it? No, I’ve never been into astrology. I used to read it when I was younger like in an magazine, but it was always just for fun.

27. Would you rather chew gum or use mouthwash and why? Chew gum. Mouthwash is way too strong to me and I find it irritating for my mouth and yeah it’s just not a pleasant experience.

28. Do you floss? No. :X

29. Are you addicted to napster like me? Okay, now you’ve mentioned Napster so this survey is super old. Napster was like late 90s and early 2000s. 

30. How many times a year about are you sick? I rarely get things like a cold, which I find interesting because I feel like my immune system is crap, but I feel sick and crappy often for other reasons.

31. Ever been in an airplane? Yes, a few times.

32. If so where were you flying to? Georgia and back and to Disneyland and back.

33. What radio station to you listen to most? It’s been a few years since I’ve listened to the radio.

34. What color are your shoes? I wear my black Adidas the most.

35. Was fuzzy wuzzy a bear? He was. He had no hair, though, so he wasn’t actually fuzzy.

36. Do you know how to play dominos? I’ve never really played.

37. Or do you think I just mean pizza by that? No, I know what dominos are.

38. Speaking of pizza, what's your favorite kind? (toppings and/or place to get it from) My favorite is from this local place. I like to get white sauce, feta and ricotta cheese, crumbled meatballs, garlic, spinach, and pesto and olive oil drizzles. I’ve been really craving that lately.

39. What color are your eyes? Brown.

40. How many surveys have you filled out this lifetime? Oh pffffft, I am not even going to attempt to figure that out. There’s no way I could. I’ve been doing surveys for so long and sadly so many of them are gone because they were done on Myspace and Xanga. :(

41. Describe your bedroom, include all details. Okay, you want details? Here we go...

It’s small and has way too much stuff. For one thing, there’s giraffe stuffed animals all over, including a 4 ft one in the corner. There’s a dresser by the window that has my TV and Christmas decorations on it. To the right of that is a 6-cube shelf with some of the aforementioned giraffe stuffed animals as well as giraffe knickknacks, some coloring books and coloring supplies, a mini Christmas tree on top, a few more giraffe stuffed animals, a nice picture frame with my dog, Brandie, who passed away, and my BB8 droid I made at Disneyland. Above the shelf is an I Love Lucy wall clock. My closest is nearby and is full of medical supplies, 3-drawer file thing with random stuff I insist on holding onto, my shoes, and all my jackets and sweatshirts. To the left of my dresser is my bookshelf with a lot of books and other figurines and knickknacks of various things I like and hey surprise, surprise, more giraffe stuffed animals! Across from the bookshelf and dresser is my bed, which is also my desk cause I keep my laptop on it, my chargers, my phone, a coloring book, a couple packs of colored pencils, my Bible study stuff, my remotes, and my Nintendo Switch. I have a pile of clothes, too, cause dresser and closet are too full. I have like 8 throw pillows, a body pillow, a back pillow, and a couple actual pillows. I have a few stuffed animals that sit on my bed as well, which are a huge squishmallow giraffe, a small squishmallow pug, a small squishmallow Dumbo, a small squishmallow Baby Yoda/Grogu, and a Baby Yoda/Grogu plushie. To the right of my bed is a TV tray that has my bottles of water, my medicine and pill crusher, a box of straws, a glass, a Starbucks Doubleshot energy drink, chapstick, my wallet, a Zip-loc bag with half a glazed donut and half a chocolate one, and a small bag of shortbread cookies. Behind the TV tray is my 3-drawer bedside table, which has a makeup storage thing on it that I plan on cleaning out and getting rid of cause I don’t wear makeup anymore and could use that space for something else, a bottle of lotion, a couple little room sprays from B&BW, and a jewelry tray. Hung up on my walls around the room are a few giraffe framed paintings, a couple beachy canvas paintings, two Alexander Skarsgard calendars, a bulletin board with various stuff pinned to it, and a marker board. There’s also a hamper in here, a floor lamp, a ceiling fan/light, two fans, and an ottoman.

42. Name one person your life is made better by. My mom. She’s my best friend. 

44. How about someone else's? Huh?

45. Can you do math with ease? Ha, noooo. Me and math never got along.

46. What size is your computer screen? It’s 13.3 inches.

47. If you could only talk to one person online who would that be? Someone from the survey community on here.

48. Name your favorite type of music and why. I like a variety of music--various genres and decades.

49. Are you a vegetarian? No.

50. How about an aspiring actor/actress? Not at all.

51. What famous person dead or alive would you interview if you had the chance? Alexander Skarsgard.

52. Which movie can you watch and say the lines along with the actors? There’s a lot of movies I could do that with. I try not to cause it gets annoying, but it happens.

53. Name one of your passions in life. I don’t know. :/

54. What's your least favorite time of day? Evening time.

55. Who's your favorite member in a band, singer, guitarist, bassist, drummer, and why? The singer, typically.

56. Do you use hairspray or gel? I use neither.

57. Describe your favorite meal. Wingstop’s boneless garlic parm and lemon pepper wings. I also really enjoy my nightly bowl of ramen.

58. What color is the inside of your head when you close your eyes? Black.

59. Ever listen to classical music? Not typically, but it is nice.

60. Have you ever said lol in real life without thinking about it? No.

61. Do you find you use internet language when writing notes irl? I use “wtf, “wth”, “omg”, and “lol.” 

62. What songs would be on your ideal cd? Like I said, I like variety, so a mix of songs.

63. Say one thing you've learned today. Nothing, really.

64. What is the best present you've ever given someone else? I don’t know.

65. What is the best present someone else has ever given to you? I’ve been given many nice gifts throughout my life. I’m appreciative of all the gifts I’ve received.

66. So hey, what's your full name? Stephanie is all you need to know.

67. Describe yourself while drunk. I was chatty and annoying.

68. How big are the windows in your house? Regular, common size? .

69. Do you wear a watch? Nope.

70. What's the kinkiest thing you've ever done with someone else? Nothing.

71. What's the largest age difference between you and someone you've dated? Just a year.

72. How many mirrors do you have? Just one in my room.

73. Write one sentence stating what you want people to say about you after you've passed on. I don’t know, man.

74. Have you ever sailed? Nope.

75. How fast can you run? I used to be able to go pretty fast, but not now. I don’t have the upper body strength or energy I used to have.

76. What do you believe in? I believe in God.

77. How long does it take you to get ready to go out? Not long at all. I just change clothes, quickly do something with my hair, brush my teeth, put on deodorant, put on my shoes, and then grab my bag and mask and go. And a coat if needed.

78. Do you shower daily? If not how often? No, I shower 3-4 times a week.

79. What one thing would you change in your life if you had the power to do so? I’d make it so I had good health.

80. Describe the ideal superpower and what you would do if you had it. Teleportation. I’d travel all over.

81. Are candles romantic or a fire hazard? They can be both.

82. Name something you've done in the last 24hrs no matter how big or small. I had coffee and donuts. Exciting stuff.

83. Do you wear necklaces, bracelets, anklets, earrings, rings? I haven’t worn any in awhile.

84. What colors are you wearing right now? Just black.

85. How often do you change the sheets on your bed? Twice a month.

86. Have you ever gotten lost? Not alone, thankfully, but yeah.

87. What's on your computer desk? I mentioned in the question about my room that my bed is also my desk and I listed the things on it.

88. How many folders are on your desktop at the present moment? Zero.

89. When your talking do you ever use your hands to do quotation marks in the air when saying certain words? Sometimes, if I find it necessary to do so.

90. Which landmark would you climb if you could? None.

91. Do you own or have you read, or thought of reading any self-help books? I read the Chicken Soup For The Soul books when I was younger but that's it. <<< Same.

92. Ever seriously questioned your sanity? Yes. 93. Can you breakdance? No.

94. What's in your fridge right now? Food and drinks. I’m tired from listing everything in that room description question lol.

95. How many people do you live with? I live with 3 people and a doggo.

96. Have you or would you ever do anything more than kiss in a public area? No.

97. What is the strangest thing you've ever done? Uhhh. I don’t know.

98. Name an instrument you've never played but would like to. Guitar.

99. Have you ever been on tv or the radio? Myself, as well as my story, was on TV after my accident happened. 

100. What is the worst thing anyone could ever do to you? Physically hurt me.

101. Are you a fast typer? Yes.

102. How high have you counted before getting bored? I don’t know, but probably not very high. I probably would get to 100 and be over it.

103. Describe how you sleep. (ie. your position and/or how you fall asleep) I sleep slightly propped up and turned to my left side. I have indigestion and post-nasal drip issues, so I can’t sleep flat. I have a whole nighttime routine consists of scrolling through Tumblr, doing surveys, and listening to ASMR until I feel tired enough to fall asleep.

104. Are you straight, bi, gay? I’m straight.

105. Do you ever do something else while on the computer? If so what? Sometimes I’m watching TV.

106. What is the most expensive item you own? My MacBook Air.

107. How about the least expensive? My little knickknacks.

109. What do you do online? Check my social medias, watch YouTube, scroll through Tumblr, and do surveys.

110. Name some stores you've bought clothes in before. Boxlunch, Hot Topic, Kohl’s, JCP, Target, H&M, Macy’s, Forever 21... those are a few that come to mind.

111. Have you ever read a book and not understood it? If so which one? I struggled with mythology. I just couldn’t get into it, so that definitely didn’t help, and it was hard to follow.

112. Have you ever watched a movie and not understood it? If so which one? Yeah. Whenever that happens I jump on Google and read up on it afterwards. 

113. Do people pick up your slang language more than you pick up theirs? I pick up lingo from others most often. 

114. Are you easily influenced by other people, or current trends? No, I wouldn’t say that.

115. What makes you unique in your own opinion? I don’t feel very unique.

116. Name your worst quality. Where to start... .

117. Name your best. I like that I’m open-minded.

118. What would you like to do with your life? I need to get myself together and figure that out.

119. Do you blowdry your hair? Nah.

120. How many clocks are in your house? We have like 3 wall clocks and there’s digital clocks throughout the house on appliances and electronics.

121. Are they all set on the same time? The phones and electronics are. The others are a few minutes fast. My parents set their digital clock like 15 minutes fast.

122. Have you ever intentionally set a clock ahead or behind the actual time? Like I said, we set some of them a few minutes ahead.

123. What do you think about when you first wake up in the morning? "What time is it?"

124. Which browser do you use? Google Chrome.

125. Do you bite your nails? Ugh, I don’t bite them but I pick and clip at them with clippers constantly. 

126. Would you ever leave little notes to your gf/bf? Sure, I think that’s cute.

127. Ever been to a farm? Yes.

128. Tell me about your dream last night. I don't remember. I rarely ever do. What typically happens is I’ll remember when I first get up, but then it like vanishes. My dreams are like Snapchat. If only there was an option to save or screenshot them like Snapchat.

129. Ever seen a shooting star? No, actually.

130. Say one thing about yourself you've never told anyone. Uhhhh. I’m so boring, I can’t think of something interesting to share.

131. Do your days fly by or seem to last forever? It often seems like the days go by slow, but then before I know it it’s already been a whole week again and I’m like wtf it was just Monday? That’s how the years tend to feel, too. There’s definitely some days that just really seem draaaaag, though. And there’s something about January that always feels super long. 

132. Have you ever stayed in a fancy high class rich hotel? Yes. 133. Have you ever stayed in a rent-by-the-hour motel? No.

134. What in your opinion is the best advertising slogan out there? If they get stuck in your head then they’re doing something right. It’s gotta be catchy. Jingles work well.

135. When they start sending rockets to the moon for us civilians, will you be on the list to go? Noooo, absolutely not.

136. How are you feeling right now? Tired, kinda hungry, and lonely.

137. Have you ever written anything on your skin? Yeah.

138. If so what? Random stuff. That was something a lot of people seemed to do in like middle school and high school for some reason.

139. Which website do you frequent most often? Tumblr and YouTube.

140. What color are most of your clothes? Black.

141. Do you own any plants? Nope.

142. Are things as bad as they seem? They sure seem bad to me.

143. Describe the nicest thing anyone has ever done for you. My mom is amazing. She’s sacrificed so much. I’m 31 years old and require aid with some things and here she is still taking care of me and doing so much for me on top of working a full-time job, being a caregiver for a family friend as well, taking care of us as a family and of things at home, and she very rarely has anytime for herself. She’s spread very thin and works so hard and yeah I just could never thank her enough. She’s the absolute best and I would be so lost without her. I couldn’t keep going if it weren’t for her.

144. Ever looked directly at the sun? Yes.

145. Have you ever made a pin hole camera to watch the eclipse? No.

146. What's your favorite cereal? All the main sugary ones, ha.

147. Who do you miss? My loved ones who have passed away.

148. Name something you just can't forget no matter how hard you try. Uh, a lot of things. My mind doesn’t like me to forget things like that. It likes to remind me of them often. Things like that hit at random times as well, like my brain will be like, ‘hey remember when...’ and I’m like, ‘ugh, yes I remember you won’t let me forget.’

149. Describe the worst fight you've ever been in whether physical or verbal. I’ve never been in a physical fight, but there were some verbal ones. I don’t want to get into them right now.

150. Say something else about yourself you've never told anyone before. Noooo. 

[ofcloudsandstars]

I’m still cleaning up after this feast. It took me days to prepare but it was worth it and so magical. I always wanted to have an experience that was somewhere near the same level of the hogwarts feast and not only did it feel like that but it felt so warm and joyful like the way Christmas feels glimmery and jolly and how you feel loved ones though it was just physically me and my friends. I felt a loving familial presence as if our loved ones that have passed away were there.

I didn’t take such great photos cause fyi we were under some great influences so I didn’t capture it well plus it was dark as I dimmed the lights and just had candles lit.

Not pictured- for starters as we waited for friends to arrived I had carved a large pumpkin with shandy made with pumpking beer, pumpkin pie soda, maple bourbon and ginger zest. It was served with candied bacon carmelized with brown sugar, harvest chips (like sweet potato/ube/beets etc) and apple turkey sausage.

The main course was served with fresh apple cider, iced mugwort tea in the skull bottle and dark mulled wine spiced with anise and flavored with pomegranate. There was pumpkin sweet potato mash, roasted pork with rosemary, potatoes and pomegranate, spiced Mac and cheese in the pumpkin casserole, shredded beet, carrot and apple salad with a fire cider vinaigrette, roasted carrots and roots along with Brussels sprouts with dill. I was going to make sides of sweet corn and curried beans but as you can see there was already a lot lol.

Between main and dessert was the ritual. We lit the candles and incense (dragons blood as usual and pumpkin spice!) and spoke about our ancestors as the candles were lit. We poured wine with pomegranate for them and made a dish of food offerings. We then spoke what we wanted for the new year to come which prepared me to make the flaming absinthe shots which we projected our intent into. We took the shot then prepared for dessert!

Dessert was even more overwhelming than the main course. I was joking with my friends that the real death we were honoring is our food coma that was about to happen. I served an apple prosecco to toast that I mixed with a few teaspoons of candy green apple liqueur (what’s in the potion bottle. I melted green jolly ranchers and mixed with puckers and vodka) that turned the bubbly green. I also had black crystal candy wands to stir in the champagne or tea so it turned it black and sparkly which fit the theme of transformation. I made spiced pumpkin tea with cinnamon sticks and the sweet black honey from my garden. The dessert treats consisted of candy corn jello parfaits with whipped cream, cookie shortbread sandwiches- flavored maple sugar (with maple buttercream filling), dark chocolate (with orange colored white chocolate peanut butter filling so it was like a reeses) and the most popular was pumpkin pie (with pumpkin cookie butter and marshmallow spread filling). Then there was a large sweet potato tart with well toasted marshmallow topping with golden star sprinkles and served with whipped cream and vanilla ice cream. Of course I got like very cute artisanal candies that fit the theme and made it feel really like a hogwarts candy feast. I got black and orange twisted lollies, chocolate skulls, the large round vintage lollipops I covered with white tissue paper and drew ghost faces on them, candy corn sprinkled on the table mostly for decoration, chocolates, it was a lot for just us but a lot of offerings were made and now I have plenty of left overs ha ha. My friends were thrilled at the magical feast and when I get to let my kitchen witchery shine. One suggested I should just host events and people pay me money to do this for a living lol.

Also I’m apart of a witchcraft group on fb and it’s cool to see how many various cultures celebrate a day of the dead whether it be Italy (festival delle ombre), China (Qingming festival), Mexico, Haiti etc and it’s a holiday that has to do so much with heritage and it’s interesting how much the food I made is just very black American soul food (which I associate with mid autumn anyway cause my family would make baked Mac and cheese with sweet and spiced beans this time of year) mixed slightly with French cooking. I mean all together it still feels very Americana but usually since samhain is celebrated in mostly Western European circles and I went to a few samhain feasts this year it’s funny how mine is unique since the food choices are not traditionally Irish/far Western European at all.

[canaryatlaw]

it’s late, but oh well. Today was pretty good. I had my alarm set for 11:20 but woke up to a phone call at 11:10 (I keep my phone on vibrate, sometimes it wakes me up and sometimes it doesn’t) so I just ended up being awake from then on. Got ready and headed to class, tried to pay attention but I mean, you know how that goes 🤷🏻‍♀️I do have to start preparing for finals better though. Tonight was my second to last legal profession class for the semester and I feel like I have a fairly good grasp on things overall but the finer details I still get lost in (like the disqualifications for conflict of interest are insanely complicated for some reason). After class I went to grab the “extra reading” for tonight’s class from where it was on the 7th floor, then retreated to the PAD office and started reading that. Around 3:30 or so my friend came to the office, and we had previously discussed getting pizza today and she was like starving, so we went and did that. While we were getting pizza (so good, I’m obsessed with it) I got a confirmation email that both of my letters of recommendation for the fellowship application that was due today were submitted, which was of course a big relief to me, because there had been some complications in the submission process. My old supervisor from OPG CC’ed me on it so I got to read the letter, and guys, it made me so happy. He was practically gushing about how great the motion I wrote was and how well I handled myself in court arguing against 3 full blown attorneys. So hopefully that will look good. I’m not like, terribly confident I’ll get selected for this particular fellowship because it’s mostly based around immigrant’s rights stuff, which isn’t exactly what I have experience in, but I figured it can’t hurt to apply, and if I got it I would be working close to my family but not too close, which is what I’m aiming for at the moment (basically, New York City). So I was glad that was done with. But yeah, got pizza, and ate it at the little food hall place, which is like, the most hipster thing ever haha and eventually I’m gonna need to try the other like, 15 places in there because there are so many and all of them look delicious (there’s like a poke place, a ramen place, a bakery, literally anything you can think of). After we finished we went back to school and I finished up the extra reading, then chilled for a little before going to class. I had a bit more luck paying attention in this class, my professor was asking if we learned about asbestos litigation in our other classes and like one person raised their hand (I believe it was brought up in torts, but very briefly) so I raised my hand and said it hadn’t been brought up in my classes but I knew about it because my dad handles that kind of litigation. Then I raised my hand again regarding a conversation I had with my poverty law professor last night about lawyers doing pro bono work versus them just donating money (my poverty law professor’s opinion was that sometimes money would just be more useful). So I at least felt like I participated in the class. I spent most of both of my classes today scanning pinterest to figure out what desserts I want to make for Thanksgiving, and I eventually settled on cranberry almond shortbread cookies, a dulce de leche apple cake, and a momofuku milk bar “crack pie” which should be, well, interesting lol. When class was over I went home and started Legends, which overall I felt like was a pretty strong episode. I adore finally having three women (plus Gideon) on the waverider, and all the badass adventures they go on together. They better let Sara actually kill Damien Darhk this season or I’m going to flip a shit. The Jax and Stein freaky friday thing was absolutely hilarious, but I couldn’t help but think it was just this week’s excuse to keep firestorm on the ship and out of the special effects budget. The sword fight between Sara and Darhk was pretty sweet, but I feel like I need to point out that you really cannot kill anybody with prop swords, lol. We knew from next week’s episode description that Sara was going to be “out of commission” so I wasn’t surprised when that happened, I’m just glad it’s a fairly easy fix (and I mean, we knew she would be fine for the crossover anyway). But the best part of course by far was Zari taking Helen of Troy to Themyscira instead of back to Troy because holy references batman, between this and Supergirl’s Smallville references last night this might be the best week for references in DCTV history, lol. That was absolutely perfect and I’m so glad they did it, so yeah, no real complaints here. Went right to the Flash afterwards and was rather underwhelmed by the episode. I’m getting really tired of Ralph already, he’s not entertaining, and really just a sleezebag, which is frustrating when you know that’s not at all what his character is in the comics and they basically entirely changed him for the show. But yeah, the whole episode was kind of blah. the villain wasn’t particularly interesting, and the storyline overall felt kind of thin, I guess we’ll see where they go with the whole Thinker in a wheelchair thing, since my first reaction was “are we just gonna trust that the guy in a wheelchair is actually disabled this time?” because I have my doubts after season 1 lol. and not too long after that I got ready for bed and here we are. Like I said, it’s late, so I won’t waste any more time and just go to bed. Goodnight sweeties. Stay awesome.

[canaryatlaw]

alright, it’s not that late but I already took my meds a while ago so I’m getting pretty sleepy. but today was a good day. I woke up at 11:06 am, went downstairs and had a bagel for breakfast. It was snowing and didn’t look like it would stop for several more hours. I was trying to figure out something to bring to my friend’s house tomorrow night for the chill new years eve party they’re having, and I eventually decided on the cranberry almond shortbread bites that I was planning to make for Christmas but never got around to actually making. so I took a while to do that, and had some tea while they were baking. Throughout this time we were playing the game “psych” on our phones with all of our family members, so that was entertaining. When they were done I bummed around on my laptop for a while, and doing some editing to my pinterest boards because I wanted to make a board of all my Christmas recipes, so I basically had to go through all of the sweet food item boards I have (which is 28, I just counted) and move any receipts from there to the new board, so that actually took a while. I was going to also make a fall recipes board, but going through I realized I have a shit ton of pumpkin recipes that would make that board wayyyyyyy too long, so I may just do a pumpkin one and then a fall one for the other stuff, like apple cider based desserts. we’ll see. I find organizing pinterest recipes kind of relaxing really, and I was trying to get myself to relax a bit and not stress out about feeling like I’m not being productive, because that’s okay because I don’t have anything pressing I need to do at this moment, I really can relax. I had some pastina at one point which needed salt because it was made with low sodium chicken broth which pretty much zaps all the flavor. mostly though I just hung around the house and interacted with my family, including my aunt and cousins who are here. Around dinner time we decided to order pizza because everyone was tired and didn’t feel like making a big meal for everybody. so we did, and the pizza guy made it to our house despite the somewhat skeptical road conditions, so we ate pizza which was quite good, I took my slices and stuck them in the oven under the broiler for like 3 minutes each (it goes really quickly) so the cheese gets all crispy and cooked to the perfect texture and is basically just the best thing ever. after dinner my brother got us to play this new game he got off amazon called “Bucket of Doom,” lol. it’s more or less your basic cards against humanity set up, where there’s one card that has a life threatening situation on it, and you’re dealt 8 cards with different objects and things listed on them, and you have to pick one to use in your plan to escape the situation, and then everyone votes on whose was the best. the game was definitely a little risqué, especially for my mother’s taste, so she didn’t end up playing much, but oh man, this game was soooo funny. We all laughed so hard as we came up with the most ridiculous plans (like I said to get out of being trapped in a tanning bed that’s roasting you I would use my card that said “Nicholas Cage’s cell phone number” because he has experience like stealing the constitution and kidnapping the president so I’m sure he could be helpful in this situation, lol). But it was all very funny and we all (except kind of for my mom) enjoyed it. After that we kind of chilled for a little more and I continued working on the pinterest boards, and around 9 my sister asked me if I’d take her and our cousin to chickfila, which didn’t close until ten, so I said sure and we headed out. the roads were fine really, our street has been chronically underplowed so far this season so it was a bit hazardous, but pretty much all of the main roads had been plowed so it was really fine. They got chicken meals, and I got a small strawberry milkshake. came back home and continued to hang for a bit until my computer ran out of battery power, so I came upstairs to put it on the charger, then finally finished the pinterest boards, then actually started getting ready for bed. it was still way too cold in the house today and I’m getting soooo sick of it, but there’s apparently not really much we can do at this point other than having a fire going in the fireplace constantly (and that’s not even very much help, ugh). I can’t believe tomorrow is new years eve and 2017 will be over. since I’ll be at my friends tomorrow night, I probably won’t get home to write this post until after midnight when it will officially be 2018, so this is functionally my last daily journal post of 2017. If I’m remembering correctly (and I am) I did a post for every single day this year, which is kind of awesome. I almost had that for 2016 too, but I missed a few days in the aftermath and haywire of breaking my wrist and having surgery and all that fun stuff. but yeah, 2017. Can’t really say it was a great year for me. It had good parts, sure, and I’m very thankful for the awesome things I got to do like go to two HVFF’s and meet up with my awesome friends, and also just making a ton of internet friends that I love so much....but at the same time I feel like my real life friends have dwindled quite a bit, I feel like I don’t really talk to them as much as I used to, which isn’t something I’m happy about. and then of course there was the massive shitshow that was this summer for me, which was the fucking worst in just about every way, and a very poignant reminder of just how fragile my mental health is. Seriously, one medication changed, and I suddenly can't even function as a normal human being. I can’t even get out of bed, I just don’t have the strength to, and that really made this summer feel like a giant pit of depression that I was fairly miserable during, so it definitely was not the best time for me. But I think I’m (mostly) back to normal now, so that’s good news at least. heading into the new year, I’m stressed about finding a job, and worried I won’t be able to get one, despite having options that are promising leads, at least. it just all feels very grown up and professional all of a sudden, and I just don’t want to fuck it all up. and I guess we’ll go from there. I’m very excited that 2018 is the year I will graduate from school once and for all, after 20 years of schooling (which is, honestly, just ridiculous) and never ever going back, because I”m soooooo ready to be done with everything, Just gotta get to May, just power through. I know I can do it, but I also know it’s gonna take a lot of work, but everything else up to this point has also needed that, so I’m not particularly phased by it. Anyway. Like I said at the beginning my eyes want to be closed now, so I’m gonna go ahead and do that now. Goodnight my loves. Have a lovely New Year’s Eve.